Named characters

8334 [NARRATOR]
1121 Miss Havisham (308)/Havisham (4)/Dear Miss Havisham (1)/Miss Est - Havisham (1)
1035 Herbert (298)/Mr. Pocket (28)/Herbert Pocket (5)/Mr. Herbert (5)/dear Mr. Pocket (3)/Mr. Herbert Pocket (1)/Expecting Herbert (1)
961 Joe (549)/Mrs. Joe (63)/Joseph (29)/dear Joe (11)/Joe Gargery (5)/Dear Joe (4)/Mrs. Joe Gargery (3)/Gargery (3)/Joseph Gargery (3)/dear old Joe (1)/Joe - Gargery (1)/O dear good Joe , whom I was so ready to leave and so unthankful to (1)/little Joe (1)/Poor dear Joe (1)/Long - suffering and loving Joe (1)/the truer Joe (1)/the nobler Joe (1)/JO (1)
960 Estella (260)/Miss Estella (6)/No Estella (1)/ESTELLA (1)/the Estella (1)
939 Mr. Jaggers (227)/Jaggers (10)/Mr Jaggers (2)/MR . JAGGERS (1)
909 Pip (250)/Mr. Pip (73)/Philip (3)/Philip Pirrip (3)/Pirrip (2)/Dear Pip (2)/INF XN PIP (1)/Surname Pip (1)/Young Pip (1)/MR PIP (1)/dear Mr. Pip (1)/Dear Mr. Pip (1)/O Mr. Pip (1)/old Pip (1)/little Pip (1)/Dear old Pip (1)/dear Pip (1)/dear old Pip (1)
714 Wemmick (227)/Mr. Wemmick (37)
619 Biddy (225)/dear Biddy (2)/poor Biddy (1)/BIDDY (1)/Dear Biddy (1)
381 Mr. Pumblechook (91)/Pumblechook (38)/bullying old Pumblechook (1)/the servile Pumblechook (1)/the brazen impostor Pumblechook (1)
336 Mr. Wopsle (110)/Wopsle (8)
329 Joe (90)/Uncle Pumblechook (20)/Joseph (4)/Pumblechook (3)/Uncle Pumblechook Joe (1)/dear old Joe (1)/the wretched Joe (1)
219 Orlick (32)/Old Orlick (19)/gruff Old Orlick (1)
169 Drummle (43)/Mr. Drummle (18)/this blundering Drummle (1)
141 Compeyson (53)/this Compeyson (1)
134 Sarah Pocket (13)/Sarah (8)/Miss Pocket (7)/Miss Sarah Pocket (6)/Sally (1)/Miss Sarah (1)
131 Handel (50)
115 Mrs. Pocket (50)/dear Mrs. Pocket (4)
113 Mr. Pocket (14)/Matthew (13)/Mr. Matthew Pocket (7)/young Mr. Pocket (2)/Mr. Matthew (1)
108 Provis (51)/Mr. Provis (2)/the terrible Provis (1)
100 Mr. Trabb (22)/Trabb (18)
99 Magwitch (22)/Abel (3)/Abel Magwitch (3)
79 Camilla (20)/Mr. Camilla (3)
65 Mike (11)
63 Molly (8)/Mary Anne (1)
59 Clara (18)/Miss Clara Barley (1)/old Barley (1)/poor Clara (1)/Clara Barley (1)/pretty Clara (1)
55 Miss Skiffins (32)/Skiffins (1)
50 Wolf (2)
44 Custum (2)
42 Startop (26)/Hereupon Startop (1)/Hereupon (1)
41 Joe (10)/MI DEER JO (1)/JO (1)/Jo (1)
41 O Lord (1)
38 Halloa (15)
35 old Bill Barley (5)/Bill Barley (1)/Barley (1)
34 God (11)/GOD (1)
31 Flopson (18)/Millers (5)/Flopson and Millers (1)
30 Mr. Gargery (12)/Gargery (3)
28 Mum (20)
27 Mr. Waldengarver (9)/Waldengarver (1)
26 Drummle (12)/Bentley Drummle (10)/Mrs. Bentley Drummle (2)/Bentley (1)
22 Tar (2)
21 Arthur (7)
21 Jack (12)/the Jack (6)
18 Jane (5)/Miss Jane (3)/little Jane (3)/Little Jane (1)
17 the Spider (3)
16 Barnard (11)/Mr. Barnard (1)
16 the Aged (7)/The Aged (3)/Aged P. (2)/the Aged P. (1)
16 old Gruffandgrim (1)/Gruffandgrim (1)
15 Mrs. Hubble (12)
14 Tom (9)/Captain Tom (1)
14 Clarriker (9)
13 Mr. Hubble (8)/Mr Hubble (1)
13 William (7)
12 Georgiana (6)/Miss Georgiana (2)
12 Mr. Pocket (5)/MR . POCKET , JUN . (1)
12 Wemmick (6)/Mrs. Wemmick (2)
11 Cousin Raymond (3)/Raymond (3)/The Raymond (1)
11 Old Clem (11)
11 Belinda (5)
11 Mrs. Coiler (6)
11 John (9)/JOHN (1)
11 Papa (1)
10 Richard (8)/Richard the Third (2)
10 Cag - Maggerth (1)
9 Tickler (9)
9 the Jolly Bargemen (5)/the Three Jolly Bargemen (1)
9 George Barnwell (3)/George (2)/Barnwell (1)
9 the Boar (6)/the Blue Boar (1)/The Boar (1)/Boar (1)
9 Mithter Jaggerth (4)/Jaggerth (2)/O Jaggerth (1)/Ma thear Mithter Jaggerth (1)
8 Drat (1)
7 the Hulks (5)/Hulks (2)
7 Mrs. Brandley (6)
7 Death (4)
6 Trabb (4)/Boy (1)/Trabb 's Boy (1)
6 Mrs. J. Gargery (4)/J. Gargery (1)
6 Sophia (2)
6 Mrs. Whimple (5)
5 Mrs. Camilla (3)/Camilla (2)
5 Lloyd (2)
5 J (1)
5 Mistress Camilla (1)/Camilla (1)
5 Old Barley (4)
5 Dear Magwitch (1)
4 Melia (1)
4 Junior (4)
4 Thankee (2)
4 Miss A. (3)
4 the Avenger (3)/The Avenger (1)
4 Colonel (3)/Colonel durst (1)
4 The Finches (1)/the Finches (1)
4 Co. (2)/Trabb Co. (1)/Trabb (1)
4 Mr. Barley (4)
4 Mr. Campbell (4)
4 Hamburg (1)
3 Pork (3)
3 Swine (2)
3 Collins (3)
3 the Lord Chief Justice (1)
3 Habraham Latharuth (2)
3 Spooney (2)
3 Pa (3)
3 Ophelia (1)
3 Jane Pocket (1)
3 Summun (1)
3 Chinks (3)
3 Mrs. Camels (1)
2 Bartholomew (1)/Bartholomew Close (1)
2 Noah (2)
2 partickler (1)/Partickler (1)
2 young Rantipole (1)
2 Jorge (1)
2 Dolge (1)/Dolge Orlick (1)
2 Daylight (1)
2 Dissatisfied (1)
2 Bear (2)
2 Number Four (1)
2 Mother Hubbard (1)/Mother (1)
2 Fortune (2)
2 Sir (1)
2 Mas'r Jaggers (2)
2 Let (2)
2 Mr. Havisham (1)
2 Ca - pi - tal (1)
2 Hammersmith (2)
2 the Blacking Ware'us (1)
2 TOOBY (1)
2 Charlotte (1)
2 Little Alick (1)
2 Thankye (2)
2 Newgate (2)
2 Walworth (2)
2 Miss Havishams (1)
2 Heaven (2)
2 Little Britain (2)
2 Georgiana M'ria (1)/Georgiana (1)

Major entities (proper, common)

FAC

11 Mill Pond Bank
10 Barnard 's Inn
7 Gerrard Street
7 Satis House
5 the Blue Boar
5 Garden Court
4 the Castle
4 London Bridge/Old London Bridge
3 Old Clem
3 the Temple

124 home/HOME/Home
69 there
62 the room/The room
59 the house/The house/the House/The House
50 here
32 the forge/The forge
27 the kitchen
21 the street
20 stairs
16 the churchyard

GPE

73 London
18 Walworth
13 Little Britain
13 Richmond
11 England
10 Hammersmith
10 New South Wales
6 Newgate
4 France
4 Cheapside

30 town
17 the village
16 there/There
11 the town
10 the country
8 the City
6 this country
5 our town
5 here
4 our village

LOC

3 the East
2 the Thames
2 the Grove
2 Chinks 's Basin
1 the North
1 the South
1 East Indies
1 the West Indies
1 the North Pole
1 Mill Pond Bank

47 the river/The river
34 the marshes/The marshes
23 the world
7 the shore
6 the sea
6 the country
5 sea
5 the water
5 earth
4 the river - side

PER

679 Joe/Mrs. Joe/Joseph/dear Joe/Joe Gargery/Dear Joe/Mrs. Joe Gargery/Gargery/Joseph Gargery/dear old Joe/Joe - Gargery/O dear good Joe , whom I was so ready to leave and so unthankful to/little Joe/Poor dear Joe/Long - suffering and loving Joe/the truer Joe/the nobler Joe/JO
345 Pip/Mr. Pip/Philip/Philip Pirrip/Pirrip/Dear Pip/INF XN PIP/Surname Pip/Young Pip/MR PIP/dear Mr. Pip/Dear Mr. Pip/O Mr. Pip/old Pip/little Pip/Dear old Pip/dear Pip/dear old Pip
341 Herbert/Mr. Pocket/Herbert Pocket/Mr. Herbert/dear Mr. Pocket/Mr. Herbert Pocket/Expecting Herbert
314 Miss Havisham/Havisham/Dear Miss Havisham/Miss Est - Havisham
269 Estella/Miss Estella/No Estella/ESTELLA/the Estella
264 Wemmick/Mr. Wemmick
240 Mr. Jaggers/Jaggers/Mr Jaggers/MR . JAGGERS
230 Biddy/dear Biddy/poor Biddy/BIDDY/Dear Biddy
132 Mr. Pumblechook/Pumblechook/bullying old Pumblechook/the servile Pumblechook/the brazen impostor Pumblechook
120 Joe/Uncle Pumblechook/Joseph/Pumblechook/Uncle Pumblechook Joe/dear old Joe/the wretched Joe

135 my sister/My sister
122 sir/Sir
60 dear boy/Dear boy
50 the man/The man/the Man
45 my guardian/My guardian
37 old chap
35 a gentleman
33 a man/A man/a Man
33 one another
33 the sergeant/The sergeant

ORG

1 The Church
1 the Admiralty

2 the Church
2 the company
1 old chap
1 other company
1 this Educational Institution
1 divers companies in several public - houses
1 the services of so many trades
1 Insurers of Ships in the City
1 the society
1 the service

VEH

21 the boat/The boat
20 the coach/The coach
11 the steamer/The steamer
6 the ships
5 my boat
4 a boat
4 our boat
4 the galley
3 a carriage/A carriage
3 any boat

Text

REAT EXPECTATIONS 1867 Edition by [Charles Dickens]_{152-charles dickens} Chapter [I]_0-i [[My]_0-i father]_{400-my father} 's family name being [Pirrip]_241-pip , and [my]_0-i Christian name [Philip]_241-pip , [my]_0-i infant tongue could make of both names nothing longer or more explicit than [Pip]_241-pip . So , [I]_0-i called [myself]_0-i [Pip]_241-pip , and came to be called [Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i give [Pirrip]_241-pip as [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} 's family name , on the authority of [his]_{400-my father} tombstone and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , - [Mrs. Joe Gargery]_154-joe , who married [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} . As [I]_0-i never saw [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} or [[my]_0-i mother]_{405-my mother} , and never saw any likeness of either of [them]_406-their for [their]_406-their days were long before the days of photographs , [my]_0-i first fancies regarding what [they]_406-their were like were unreasonably derived from [their]_406-their tombstones . The shape of the letters on [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} 's , gave [me]_0-i an odd idea that [he]_{400-my father} was [a square , stout , dark man]_{408-a square , stout , dark man} , with curly black hair . From the character and turn of the inscription , " Also Georgiana Wife of the Above , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i drew a childish conclusion that [[my]_0-i mother]_{405-my mother} was freckled and sickly . To five little stone lozenges , each about a foot and a half long , which were arranged in a neat row beside [their]_406-their grave , and were sacred to the memory of [five little brothers of [mine]_0-i]_{410-five little brothers of mine} , - who gave up trying to get a living , exceedingly early in that universal struggle , - [I]_0-i am indebted for a belief [I]_0-i religiously entertained that [they]_406-their had all been born on [their]_406-their backs with [their]_406-their hands in [their]_406-their trousers - pockets , and had never taken [them]_406-their out in this state of existence . [Ours]_411-ours was [the marsh country]_{412-the marsh country} , down by [the river]_{413-the river} , within , as [the river]_{413-the river} wound , twenty miles of [the sea]_{415-the sea} . [My]_0-i first most vivid and broad impression of the identity of things seems to [me]_0-i to have been gained on a memorable raw afternoon towards evening . At such a time [I]_0-i found out for certain that [this bleak place overgrown with nettles]_{416-this bleak place overgrown with nettles} was [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} ; and that [Philip Pirrip]_241-pip , late of [this parish]_{418-this parish} , and also [Georgiana wife of the above]_{419-georgiana wife of the above} , were dead and buried ; and that [Alexander]_{155-alexander} , [Bartholomew]_{156-bartholomew close} , [Abraham]_157-abraham , [Tobias]_158-tobias , and [Roger]_159-roger , [infant children of the aforesaid]_{420-infant children of the aforesaid} , were also dead and buried ; and that [the dark flat wilderness beyond [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard}]_{421-the dark flat wilderness beyond the churchyard} , intersected with dikes and mounds and gates , with scattered cattle feeding on [it]_{421-the dark flat wilderness beyond the churchyard} , was [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} ; and that the low leaden line beyond was [the river]_{413-the river} ; and that [the distant savage lair from which the wind]_{425-the distant savage lair from which the wind} was rushing was [the sea]_{415-the sea} ; and that [the small bundle of shivers growing afraid of it all and beginning to cry]_{427-the small bundle of shivers growing afraid of it all and beginning to cry} , was [Pip]_241-pip . " Hold [your]_241-pip noise ! "_{[428-a man]} cried a terrible voice , as [a man]_{428-a man} started up from among the graves at the side of [the church porch]_{429-the church porch} . " Keep still , [[you]_241-pip little devil]_{4450-you little devil} , or [I]_{428-a man} 'll cut [your]_241-pip throat ! "_{[428-a man]} [A fearful man , all in coarse gray , with a great iron on [his]_{428-a man} leg]_{430-a fearful man , all in coarse gray , with a great iron on his leg} . [A man with no hat , and with broken shoes]_{431-a man with no hat , and with broken shoes} , and with an old rag tied round [his]_{428-a man} head . [A man who had been soaked in water , and smothered in mud , and lamed by stones , and cut by flints , and stung by nettles , and torn by briars ; who limped , and shivered , and glared , and growled]_{432-a man who had been soaked in water , and smothered in mud , and lamed by stones , and cut by flints , and stung by nettles , and torn by briars ; who limped , and shivered , and glared , and growled} ; and whose teeth chattered in [his]_{428-a man} head as [he]_{428-a man} seized [me]_0-i by the chin . " Oh ! Do n't cut [my]_0-i throat , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i pleaded in terror . " Pray do n't do it , [sir]_4451-sir . "_[0-i] " Tell [us]_4453-us [your]_0-i name ! "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} . " Quick ! "_{[433-the man]} " [Pip]_241-pip , [sir]_4451-sir . "_[0-i] " Once more , "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} , staring at [me]_0-i . " Give it mouth ! "_{[433-the man]} " [Pip]_241-pip . [Pip]_241-pip , [sir]_4451-sir . "_[0-i] " Show [us]_4453-us where [you]_0-i live , "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} . " Pint out [the place]_{4456-the place} ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i pointed to where [[our]_436-our village]_{437-our village} lay , on [the flat in - shore among the alder - trees]_{438-the flat in - shore among the alder - trees} and pollards , a mile or more from [the church]_{439-the church} . [The man]_{433-the man} , after looking at [me]_0-i for a moment , turned [me]_0-i upside down , and emptied [my]_0-i pockets . There was nothing in them but a piece of bread . When [the church]_{439-the church} came to itself , - for [he]_{433-the man} was so sudden and strong that [he]_{433-the man} made it go head over heels before [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i saw the steeple under [my]_0-i feet , - when [the church]_{439-the church} came to [itself]_{439-the church} , [I]_0-i say , [I]_0-i was seated on a high tombstone , trembling while [he]_{433-the man} ate the bread ravenously . " [[You]_0-i young dog]_{4457-you young dog} , "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} , licking [his]_{433-the man} lips , " what fat cheeks [you]_0-i ha ' got . "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i believe [they]_444-they were fat , though [I]_0-i was at that time undersized for [my]_0-i years , and not strong . " Darn [me]_{433-the man} if [I]_{433-the man} could n't eat em , "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} , with a threatening shake of [his]_{433-the man} head , " and if [I]_{433-the man} han't half a mind to't ! "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i earnestly expressed [my]_0-i hope that [he]_{433-the man} would n't , and held tighter to the tombstone on which [he]_{433-the man} had put [me]_0-i ; partly , to keep [myself]_0-i upon it ; partly , to keep [myself]_0-i from crying . " Now lookee here ! "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} . " Where 's [[your]_0-i mother]_{4458-your mother} ? "_{[433-the man]} " There , [sir]_4451-sir ! "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [He]_{433-the man} started , made a short run , and stopped and looked over [his]_{433-the man} shoulder . " There , [sir]_4451-sir ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i timidly explained . " Also [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} . That 's [[my]_0-i mother]_{405-my mother} . "_[0-i] " Oh ! "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , coming back . " And is that [[your]_0-i father]_{4462-your father} alonger [[your]_0-i mother]_{4458-your mother} ? "_{[433-the man]} " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i ; " [him]_{4462-your father} too ; [late of [this parish]_{418-this parish}]_{4465-late of this parish} . "_[0-i] " Ha ! "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} muttered then , considering . " Who d'ye live with , - supposin ' [you]_0-i 're kindly let to live , which [I]_{433-the man} han't made up [my]_{433-the man} mind about ? "_{[433-the man]} " [[My]_{433-the man} sister]_{402-my sister} , [sir]_4451-sir , - [Mrs. Joe Gargery]_154-joe , - [wife of [Joe Gargery]_154-joe]_{4469-wife of joe gargery} , [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[433-the man]} " [Blacksmith]_{4472-blacksmith} , eh ? "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} . And looked down at [his]_{433-the man} leg . After darkly looking at [his]_{433-the man} leg and [me]_0-i several times , [he]_{433-the man} came closer to [[my]_0-i tombstone]_{447-my tombstone} , took [me]_0-i by both arms , and tilted [me]_0-i back as far as [he]_{433-the man} could hold [me]_0-i ; so that [his]_{433-the man} eyes looked most powerfully down into mine , and mine looked most helplessly up into [his]_{433-the man} . " Now lookee here , "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} said , " the question being whether [you]_0-i 're to be let to live . [You]_0-i know what a file is ? "_{[433-the man]} " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[433-the man]} " And [you]_{433-the man} know what wittles is ? "_{[433-the man]} " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[433-the man]} After each question [he]_{433-the man} tilted [me]_0-i over a little more , so as to give [me]_0-i a greater sense of helplessness and danger . " [You]_0-i get [me]_{433-the man} a file . "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} tilted [me]_0-i again . " And [you]_0-i get [me]_{433-the man} wittles . "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} tilted [me]_0-i again . " [You]_0-i bring ['em]_4475-'em both to [me]_{433-the man} . "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} tilted [me]_0-i again . " Or [I]_{433-the man} 'll have [your]_0-i heart and liver out . "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} tilted [me]_0-i again . [I]_0-i was dreadfully frightened , and so giddy that [I]_0-i clung to [him]_{433-the man} with both hands , and said , " If [you]_{433-the man} would kindly please to let [me]_0-i keep upright , [sir]_4451-sir , perhaps [I]_0-i should n't be sick , and perhaps [I]_0-i could attend more . "_[0-i] [He]_{433-the man} gave [me]_0-i a most tremendous dip and roll , so that [the church]_{439-the church} jumped over its own weathercock . Then , [he]_{433-the man} held [me]_0-i by the arms , in an upright position on the top of the stone , and went on in these fearful terms : - " [You]_0-i bring [me]_{433-the man} , to - morrow morning early , that file and them wittles . [You]_0-i bring the lot to [me]_{433-the man} , at [that old Battery over yonder]_{4477-that old battery over yonder} . [You]_0-i do it , and [you]_0-i never dare to say a word or dare to make a sign concerning [your]_0-i having seen [such a person as [me]_{433-the man}]_{4478-such a person as me} , or [any person sumever]_{4479-any person sumever} , and [you]_0-i shall be let to live . [You]_0-i fail , or [you]_0-i go from [my]_{433-the man} words in any partickler , no matter how small it is , and [your]_0-i heart and [your]_0-i liver shall be tore out , roasted , and ate . Now , [I]_{433-the man} ai n't alone , as [you]_0-i may think [I]_{433-the man} am . There 's [a young man]_{4480-a young man} hid with [me]_{433-the man} , in comparison with which [young man]_{4481-young man} [I]_{433-the man} am [a Angel]_{4482-a angel} . [That young man]_{4483-that young man} hears the words [I]_{433-the man} speak . [That young man]_{4483-that young man} has a secret way pecooliar to [himself]_{4483-that young man} , of getting at [a boy]_{4485-a boy} , and at [his]_{4483-that young man} heart , and at [his]_{4483-that young man} liver . It is in wain for [a boy]_{4485-a boy} to attempt to hide [himself]_{4485-a boy} from [that young man]_{4483-that young man} . [A boy]_{4485-a boy} may lock [his]_{4485-a boy} door , may be warm in bed , may tuck [himself]_{4485-a boy} up , may draw the clothes over [his]_{4485-a boy} head , may think [himself]_{4485-a boy} comfortable and safe , but [that young man]_{4483-that young man} will softly creep and creep [his]_{4483-that young man} way to [him]_{4485-a boy} and tear [him]_{4485-a boy} open . [I]_{433-the man} am a keeping [that young man]_{4483-that young man} from harming of [you]_{4483-that young man} at the present moment , with great difficulty . [I]_{433-the man} find it [wery]_4491-wery hard to hold [that young man]_{4483-that young man} off of [your]_{4483-that young man} inside . Now , what do [you]_{4483-that young man} say ? "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i said that [I]_0-i would get [him]_449-him the file , and [I]_0-i would get [him]_449-him what broken bits of food [I]_0-i could , and [I]_0-i would come to [him]_449-him at [the Battery]_{1-the battery} , early in the morning . " Say [Lord]_4493-lord strike [you]_0-i dead if [you]_0-i do n't ! "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} . [I]_0-i said so , and [he]_{433-the man} took [me]_0-i down . " Now , "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} pursued , " [you]_0-i remember what [you]_0-i 've undertook , and [you]_0-i remember [that young man]_{4483-that young man} , and [you]_0-i get [home]_4495-home ! "_{[433-the man]} " [Goo]_161-goo - good night , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i faltered . " Much of that ! "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , glancing about [him]_{433-the man} over [the cold wet flat]_{451-the cold wet flat} . " [I]_{433-the man} wish [I]_{433-the man} was a frog . Or a eel ! "_{[433-the man]} At the same time , [he]_{433-the man} hugged [his]_{433-the man} shuddering body in both [his]_{433-the man} arms , - clasping [himself]_{433-the man} , as if to hold [himself]_{433-the man} together , - and limped towards [the low church wall]_{452-the low church wall} . As [I]_0-i saw [him]_{433-the man} go , picking [his]_{433-the man} way among the nettles , and among the brambles that bound the green mounds , [he]_{433-the man} looked in [my]_0-i young eyes as if [he]_{433-the man} were eluding the hands of [the dead people]_{453-the dead people} , stretching up cautiously out of [their]_{453-the dead people} graves , to get a twist upon [his]_{433-the man} ankle and pull [him]_{433-the man} in . When [he]_{433-the man} came to [the low church wall]_{452-the low church wall} , [he]_{433-the man} got over it , like [a man whose legs were numbed and stiff]_{455-a man whose legs were numbed and stiff} , and then turned round to look for [me]_0-i . When [I]_0-i saw [him]_{433-the man} turning , [I]_0-i set [my]_0-i face towards [home]_4495-home , and made the best use of [my]_0-i legs . But presently [I]_0-i looked over [my]_0-i shoulder , and saw [him]_{433-the man} going on again towards [the river]_{413-the river} , still hugging [himself]_{433-the man} in both arms , and picking [his]_{433-the man} way with [his]_{433-the man} sore feet among the great stones dropped into [the marshes here]_{458-the marshes here} and there , for stepping - places when the rains were heavy or the tide was in . [The marshes]_{423-the marshes} were just a long black horizontal line then , as [I]_0-i stopped to look after [him]_{433-the man} ; and [the river]_{413-the river} was just another horizontal line , not nearly so broad nor yet so black ; and the sky was just a row of long angry red lines and dense black lines intermixed . On the edge of [the river]_{413-the river} [I]_0-i could faintly make out the only two black things in all the prospect that seemed to be standing upright ; one of these was the beacon by which [the sailors]_{462-the sailors} steered , - like an unhooped cask upon a pole , - an ugly thing when [you]_463-you were near [it]_464-it ; the other , a gibbet , with some chains hanging to it which had once held [a pirate]_{465-a pirate} . [The man]_{433-the man} was limping on towards this latter , as if [he]_{433-the man} were [the pirate]_{467-the pirate} come to life , and come down , and going back to hook [himself]_{433-the man} up again . It gave [me]_0-i a terrible turn when [I]_0-i thought so ; and as [I]_0-i saw [the cattle]_{468-the cattle} lifting [their]_{468-the cattle} heads to gaze after [him]_{433-the man} , [I]_0-i wondered whether [they]_{468-the cattle} thought so too . [I]_0-i looked all round for [the horrible young man]_{469-the horrible young man} , and could see no signs of [him]_{469-the horrible young man} . But now [I]_0-i was frightened again , and ran [home]_4495-home without stopping . Chapter II [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , [Mrs. Joe Gargery]_154-joe , was more than twenty years older than [I]_0-i , and had established a great reputation with [herself]_{402-my sister} and [the neighbors]_{472-the neighbors} because [she]_{402-my sister} had brought [me]_0-i up " by hand . "_{[402-my sister]} Having at that time to find out for [myself]_0-i what the expression meant , and knowing [her]_{402-my sister} to have a hard and heavy hand , and to be much in the habit of laying it upon [[her]_{402-my sister} husband]_{473-her husband} as well as upon [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i supposed that [Joe Gargery]_154-joe and [I]_0-i were both brought up by hand . [She]_{402-my sister} was not [a good - looking woman , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister}]_{474-a good - looking woman , my sister} ; and [I]_0-i had a general impression that [she]_{402-my sister} must have made [Joe Gargery]_154-joe marry [her]_{402-my sister} by hand . [Joe]_154-joe was [a fair man]_{476-a fair man} , with curls of flaxen hair on each side of [his]_{476-a fair man} smooth face , and with eyes of such a very undecided blue that they seemed to have somehow got mixed with [their]_477-their own whites . [He]_{476-a fair man} was [a mild , good - natured , sweet - tempered , easy - going , foolish , dear fellow]_{478-a mild , good - natured , sweet - tempered , easy - going , foolish , dear fellow} , - a sort of Hercules in strength , and also in weakness . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , with black hair and eyes , had such a prevailing redness of skin that [I]_0-i sometimes used to wonder whether it was possible [she]_{402-my sister} washed [herself]_{402-my sister} with a nutmeg - grater instead of soap . [She]_{402-my sister} was tall and bony , and almost always wore a coarse apron , fastened over [her]_{402-my sister} figure behind with two loops , and having a square impregnable bib in front , that was stuck full of pins and needles . [She]_{402-my sister} made it a powerful merit in [herself]_{402-my sister} , and a strong reproach against [Joe]_154-joe , that [she]_{402-my sister} wore this apron so much . Though [I]_0-i really see no reason why [she]_{402-my sister} should have worn it at all ; or why , if [she]_{402-my sister} did wear it at all , [she]_{402-my sister} should not have taken it off , every day of [her]_{402-my sister} life . [[Joe]_154-joe 's forge]_{480-joe 's forge} adjoined [[our]_481-our house]_{482-our house} , which was [a wooden house]_{483-a wooden house} , as [many of the dwellings in [[our]_481-our country]_{485-our country}]_{484-many of the dwellings in our country} were , - most of [them]_{484-many of the dwellings in our country} , at that time . When [I]_0-i ran [home]_4495-home from [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , [the forge]_{488-the forge} was shut up , and [Joe]_154-joe was sitting alone in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} . [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i being [fellow - sufferers]_{490-fellow - sufferers} , and having confidences as such , [Joe]_154-joe imparted a confidence to [me]_0-i , the moment [I]_0-i raised the latch of the door and peeped in at [him]_491-him opposite to it , sitting in the chimney corner . " [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe has been out a dozen times , looking for [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip . And [she]_154-joe 's out now , making it [a baker]_{4497-a baker} 's dozen . "_[0-i] " Is [she]_154-joe ? "_[154-joe] " Yes , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe ; " and what 's worse , [she]_154-joe 's got [Tickler]_162-tickler with [her]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] At this dismal intelligence , [I]_0-i twisted the only button on [my]_0-i waistcoat round and round , and looked in great depression at the fire . [Tickler]_162-tickler was a wax - ended piece of cane , worn smooth by collision with [my]_0-i tickled frame . " [She]_154-joe sot down , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " and [she]_154-joe got up , and [she]_154-joe made a grab at [Tickler]_162-tickler , and [she]_154-joe Ram - paged out . That 's what [she]_492-she did , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , slowly clearing the fire between the lower bars with the poker , and looking at it ; ' [she]_492-she Ram - paged out , [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] Has [she]_492-she been gone long , [Joe]_154-joe ? " [I]_154-joe always treated [him]_241-pip as [a larger species of child]_{4498-a larger species of child} , and as no more than [[my]_154-joe equal]_{4499-my equal} . "_[154-joe] Well , " said [Joe]_154-joe , glancing up at the Dutch clock , ' [she]_492-she 's been on the Ram - page , this last spell , about five minutes , [Pip]_241-pip . [She]_492-she 's a coming ! Get behind the door , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , and have the jack - towel betwixt [you]_{4500-old chap} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i took the advice . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , throwing the door wide open , and finding an obstruction behind [it]_494-it , immediately divined the cause , and applied [Tickler]_162-tickler to its further investigation . [She]_154-joe concluded by throwing [me]_0-i - [I]_0-i often served as [a connubial missile]_{495-a connubial missile} - at [Joe]_154-joe , who , glad to get hold of [me]_0-i on any terms , passed [me]_0-i on into the chimney and quietly fenced [me]_0-i up there with [his]_496-his great leg . " Where have [you]_0-i been , [[you]_0-i young monkey]_{4501-you young monkey} ? "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , stamping [her]_154-joe foot . " Tell [me]_154-joe directly what [you]_0-i 've been doing to wear [me]_154-joe away with fret and fright and worrit , or [I]_154-joe 'd have [you]_0-i out of that corner if [you]_0-i was fifty [Pips]_163-pips , and [he]_496-his was five hundred [Gargerys]_164-gargerys . "_[154-joe] " [I]_0-i have only been to [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , from [my]_0-i stool , crying and rubbing [myself]_0-i . " [Churchyard]_{4503-churchyard} ! "_{[402-my sister]} repeated [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . " If it warn't for [me]_{402-my sister} [you]_0-i 'd have been to [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} long ago , and stayed [there]_4505-there . Who brought [you]_0-i up by hand ? "_{[402-my sister]} " [You]_{402-my sister} did , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And why did [I]_{402-my sister} do it , [I]_{402-my sister} should like to know ? "_{[402-my sister]} exclaimed [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . [I]_0-i whimpered , " [I]_0-i do n't know . "_[0-i] " [I]_{402-my sister} do n't ! "_{[402-my sister]} said [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . " [I]_{402-my sister} 'd never do it again ! [I]_{402-my sister} know that . [I]_{402-my sister} may truly say [I]_{402-my sister} 've never had this apron of [mine]_{402-my sister} off since born [you]_0-i were . It 's bad enough to be [[a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} 's wife]_{4507-a blacksmith 's wife} and [him]_{4506-a blacksmith} [a Gargery]_{4508-a gargery} without being [[your]_0-i mother]_{4458-your mother} . "_{[402-my sister]} [My]_0-i thoughts strayed from that question as [I]_0-i looked disconsolately at the fire . For [the fugitive]_{500-the fugitive} out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} with the ironed leg , [the mysterious young man]_{502-the mysterious young man} , the file , the food , and the dreadful pledge [I]_0-i was under to commit a larceny on [those sheltering premises]_{503-those sheltering premises} , rose before [me]_0-i in the avenging coals . " Hah ! "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , restoring [Tickler]_162-tickler to [his]_{502-the mysterious young man} station . " [Churchyard]_{4503-churchyard} , indeed ! [You]_0-i may well say [churchyard]_{4503-churchyard} , [you]_0-i two . "_[154-joe] [One of [us]_505-us]_{504-one of us} , by the by , had not said it at all . " [You]_154-joe 'll drive [me]_154-joe to [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} betwixt [you]_0-i , one of these days , and O , a pr - r - recious pair [you]_0-i 'd be without [me]_154-joe ! "_[154-joe] As [she]_154-joe applied [herself]_154-joe to set the tea - things , [Joe]_154-joe peeped down at [me]_0-i over [his]_{502-the mysterious young man} leg , as if [he]_{502-the mysterious young man} were mentally casting [me]_0-i and [himself]_{502-the mysterious young man} up , and calculating what kind of pair [we]_505-us practically should make , under the grievous circumstances foreshadowed . After that , [he]_{502-the mysterious young man} sat feeling [his]_{502-the mysterious young man} right - side flaxen curls and whisker , and following [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe about with [his]_{502-the mysterious young man} blue eyes , as [his]_{502-the mysterious young man} manner always was at squally times . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had a trenchant way of cutting [our]_505-us bread and butter for [us]_505-us , that never varied . First , with [her]_{402-my sister} left hand [she]_{402-my sister} jammed the loaf hard and fast against [her]_{402-my sister} bib , - where it sometimes got a pin into it , and sometimes a needle , which [we]_505-us afterwards got into [our]_505-us mouths . Then [she]_{402-my sister} took some butter not too much on a knife and spread it on the loaf , in an apothecary kind of way , as if [she]_{402-my sister} were making a plaster , - using both sides of the knife with a slapping dexterity , and trimming and moulding the butter off round the crust . Then , [she]_{402-my sister} gave the knife a final smart wipe on the edge of the plaster , and then sawed a very thick round off the loaf : which [she]_{402-my sister} finally , before separating from the loaf , hewed into two halves , of which [Joe]_154-joe got one , and [I]_0-i the other . On the present occasion , though [I]_0-i was hungry , [I]_0-i dared not eat [my]_0-i slice . [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i must have something in reserve for [my]_0-i dreadful acquaintance , and [[his]_507-his ally]_{508-his ally} [the still more dreadful young man]_{509-the still more dreadful young man} . [I]_0-i knew [[Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's housekeeping]_{510-mrs. joe 's housekeeping} to be of the strictest kind , and that [my]_0-i larcenous researches might find nothing available in the safe . Therefore [I]_0-i resolved to put [my]_0-i hunk of bread and butter down the leg of [my]_0-i trousers . The effort of resolution necessary to the achievement of this purpose [I]_0-i found to be quite awful . It was as if [I]_0-i had to make up [my]_0-i mind to leap from the top of [a high house]_{511-a high house} , or plunge into [a great depth of water]_{512-a great depth of water} . And it was made the more difficult by [the unconscious Joe]_{513-the unconscious joe} . In [[our]_514-our already - mentioned freemasonry]_{515-our already - mentioned freemasonry} as [fellow - sufferers]_{490-fellow - sufferers} , and in [his]_507-his good - natured companionship with [me]_0-i , it was [our]_514-our evening habit to compare the way [we]_514-our bit through [our]_514-our slices , by silently holding them up to [each other]_{517-each other} 's admiration now and then , - which stimulated [us]_514-our to new exertions . To - night , [Joe]_154-joe several times invited [me]_0-i , by the display of [his]_507-his fast diminishing slice , to enter upon [our]_514-our usual friendly competition ; but [he]_507-his found [me]_0-i , each time , with [my]_0-i yellow mug of tea on one knee , and [my]_0-i untouched bread and butter on the other . At last , [I]_0-i desperately considered that the thing [I]_0-i contemplated must be done , and that it had best be done in the least improbable manner consistent with the circumstances . [I]_0-i took advantage of a moment when [Joe]_154-joe had just looked at [me]_0-i , and got [my]_0-i bread and butter down [my]_0-i leg . [Joe]_154-joe was evidently made uncomfortable by what [he]_507-his supposed to be [my]_0-i loss of appetite , and took a thoughtful bite out of [his]_507-his slice , which [he]_507-his did n't seem to enjoy . [He]_507-his turned it about in [his]_507-his mouth much longer than usual , pondering over it a good deal , and after all gulped it down like a pill . [He]_507-his was about to take another bite , and had just got [his]_507-his head on one side for a good purchase on it , when [his]_507-his eye fell on [me]_0-i , and [he]_507-his saw that [my]_0-i bread and butter was gone . The wonder and consternation with which [Joe]_154-joe stopped on the threshold of [his]_507-his bite and stared at [me]_0-i , were too evident to escape [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's observation . " What 's the matter now ? "_{[402-my sister]} said [she]_{402-my sister} , smartly , as [she]_{402-my sister} put down [her]_{402-my sister} cup . " [I]_154-joe say , [you]_{402-my sister} know ! "_[154-joe] muttered [Joe]_154-joe , shaking [his]_507-his head at [me]_0-i in very serious remonstrance . " [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! [You]_241-pip 'll do [yourself]_241-pip a mischief . It 'll stick somewhere . [You]_241-pip ca n't have chawed it , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[507-his] " What 's the matter now ? "_{[402-my sister]} repeated [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , more sharply than before . " If [you]_241-pip can cough any trifle on it up , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_154-joe 'd recommend [you]_241-pip to do it , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , all aghast . " Manners is manners , but still [your]_241-pip elth 's [your]_241-pip elth . "_[154-joe] By this time , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was quite desperate , so [she]_{402-my sister} pounced on [Joe]_154-joe , and , taking [him]_521-his by the two whiskers , knocked [his]_521-his head for a little while against the wall behind [him]_521-his , while [I]_0-i sat in the corner , looking guiltily on . " Now , perhaps [you]_154-joe 'll mention what 's the matter , "_{[402-my sister]} said [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , out of breath , " [you]_154-joe staring great stuck pig . "_{[402-my sister]} [Joe]_154-joe looked at [her]_{402-my sister} in a helpless way , then took a helpless bite , and looked at [me]_0-i again . " [You]_{402-my sister} know , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , solemnly , with [his]_521-his last bite in [his]_521-his cheek , and speaking in a confidential voice , as if [[we]_523-we two]_{524-we two} were quite alone , " [you]_241-pip and [me]_521-his is always [friends]_4514-friends , and [I]_521-his 'd be the last to tell upon [you]_241-pip , any time . But such a - "_[521-his] [he]_521-his moved [his]_521-his chair and looked about the floor between [us]_523-we , and then again at [me]_0-i - ' such a most oncommon Bolt as that ! " "_[521-his] Been bolting [his]_521-his food , has [he]_521-his ? " cried [[my]_521-his sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[521-his] [You]_0-i know , [[old chap]_{4500-old chap}]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , looking at [me]_521-his , and not at [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , with [his]_0-i bite still in [his]_0-i cheek , "_[521-his] [I]_0-i Bolted , [myself]_0-i , when [I]_0-i was [your]_0-i age - frequent - and as [a boy]_{4485-a boy} [I]_0-i 've been among [a many Bolters]_{528-a many bolters} ; but [I]_0-i never see [your]_0-i Bolting equal yet , [Pip]_241-pip , and it 's a mercy [you]_0-i ai n't Bolted dead . " [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} made a dive at [me]_0-i , and fished [me]_0-i up by the hair , saying nothing more than the awful words , "_[0-i] [You]_0-i come along and be dosed . " [Some medical beast]_{4517-some medical beast} had revived Tar - water in those days as a fine medicine , and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe always kept a supply of it in the cupboard ; having a belief in its virtues correspondent to its nastiness . At the best of times , so much of this elixir was administered to [me]_0-i as a choice restorative , that [I]_0-i was conscious of going about , smelling like a new fence . On this particular evening the urgency of [my]_0-i case demanded a pint of this mixture , which was poured down [my]_0-i throat , for [my]_0-i greater comfort , while [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe held [my]_0-i head under [her]_154-joe arm , as a boot would be held in a bootjack . [Joe]_154-joe got off with half a pint ; but was made to swallow that much to [his]_529-i disturbance , as [he]_529-i sat slowly munching and meditating before the fire , "_[0-i] because [he]_529-i had had a turn . " Judging from [myself]_529-i , [I]_529-i should say [he]_529-i certainly had a turn afterwards , if [he]_529-i had had none before . Conscience is a dreadful thing when it accuses [man]_4518-man or [boy]_4519-boy ; but when , in the case of [a boy]_{4485-a boy} , that secret burden co - operates with another secret burden down the leg of [his]_{4485-a boy} trousers , it is as [I]_529-i can testify a great punishment . The guilty knowledge that [I]_529-i was going to rob [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe - [I]_529-i never thought [I]_529-i was going to rob [Joe]_154-joe , for [I]_529-i never thought of [any of [the housekeeping property]_{4522-the housekeeping property}]_{4521-any of the housekeeping property} as [his]_529-i - united to the necessity of always keeping one hand on [my]_529-i bread and butter as [I]_529-i sat , or when [I]_529-i was ordered about [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} on any small errand , almost drove [me]_529-i out of [my]_529-i mind . Then , as the marsh winds made the fire glow and flare , [I]_529-i thought [I]_529-i heard the voice outside , of [the man with the iron on [his]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} leg who had sworn [me]_529-i to secrecy , declaring that [he]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} , but must be fed now . At other times , [I]_529-i thought , What if [the young man who was with so much difficulty restrained from imbruing [his]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} hands in [me]_529-i]_{4525-the young man who was with so much difficulty restrained from imbruing his hands in me} should yield to a constitutional impatience , or should mistake the time , and should think [himself]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} accredited to [my]_529-i heart and liver to - night , instead of to - morrow ! If ever [anybody]_4526-anybody 's hair stood on end with terror , [mine]_529-i must have done so then . But , perhaps , [nobody]_4527-nobody 's ever did ? It was Christmas Eve , and [I]_529-i had to stir the pudding for next day , with a copper - stick , from seven to eight by the Dutch clock . [I]_529-i tried it with the load upon [my]_529-i leg and that made [me]_529-i think afresh of [the man with the load on [his]_{4524-the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy , declaring that he could n't and would n't starve until to - morrow} leg]_{4528-the man with the load on his leg} , and found the tendency of exercise to bring the bread and butter out at [my]_529-i ankle , quite unmanageable . Happily [I]_529-i slipped away , and deposited that part of [my]_529-i conscience in [[my]_529-i garret bedroom]_{4529-my garret bedroom} . "_[529-i] Hark ! " said [I]_529-i , when [I]_529-i had done [my]_529-i stirring , and was taking a final warm in the chimney corner before being sent up to bed ; "_[529-i] was that great guns , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Ah ! " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] There 's another conwict off . " "_[154-joe] What does that mean , [Joe]_154-joe ? " said I. [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , who always took explanations upon [herself]_154-joe , said , snappishly , "_[154-joe] Escaped . Escaped . " Administering the definition like Tar - water . While [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe sat with [her]_154-joe head bending over [her]_154-joe needlework , [I]_531-they put [my]_531-they mouth into the forms of saying to [Joe]_154-joe , "_[531-they] What 's [a convict]_{530-a convict} ? " [Joe]_154-joe put [his]_{530-a convict} mouth into the forms of returning such a highly elaborate answer , that [I]_241-pip could make out nothing of it but the single word "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] There was a conwict off last night , " said [Joe]_154-joe , aloud , "_[531-they] after sunset - gun . And [they]_531-they fired warning of [him]_{530-a convict} . And now it appears [they]_531-they 're firing warning of another . " "_[531-they] Who 's firing ? " said [I.]_531-they "_[165-drat] [Drat]_165-drat [that boy]_{532-that boy} , " interposed [[my]_165-drat sister]_{402-my sister} , frowning at [me]_165-drat over [her]_{402-my sister} work , "_[165-drat] what a questioner [he]_{532-that boy} is . Ask no questions , and [you]_533-you 'll be told no lies . " It was not very polite to [herself]_{402-my sister} , [I]_165-drat thought , to imply that [I]_165-drat should be told lies by [her]_{402-my sister} even if [I]_165-drat did ask questions . But [she]_{402-my sister} never was polite unless there was company . At this point [Joe]_154-joe greatly augmented [my]_165-drat curiosity by taking the utmost pains to open [his]_{532-that boy} mouth very wide , and to put it into the form of a word that looked to [me]_165-drat like ' sulks . "_[165-drat] Therefore , [I]_0-i naturally pointed to [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , and put [my]_0-i mouth into the form of saying , " [her]_{402-my sister} ? "_[0-i] But [Joe]_154-joe would n't hear of that , at all , and again opened [his]_{532-that boy} mouth very wide , and shook the form of a most emphatic word out of it . But [I]_0-i could make nothing of the word . " [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , as a last resort , " [I]_0-i should like to know - if [you]_154-joe would n't much mind - where the firing comes from ? "_[0-i] " [Lord]_4531-lord bless [the boy]_{4532-the boy} ! "_{[402-my sister]} exclaimed [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , as if [she]_{402-my sister} did n't quite mean that but rather the contrary . " From [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} ! "_{[402-my sister]} " Oh - h ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , looking at [Joe]_154-joe . " [Hulks]_{166-the hulks} ! "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe gave a reproachful cough , as much as to say , " Well , [I]_154-joe told [you]_0-i so . "_[154-joe] " And please , what 's [Hulks]_{166-the hulks} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " That 's the way with [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ! "_{[402-my sister]} exclaimed [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , pointing [me]_0-i out with [her]_{402-my sister} needle and thread , and shaking [her]_{402-my sister} head at [me]_0-i . " Answer [him]_{4533-this boy} one question , and [he]_{4533-this boy} 'll ask [you]_0-i a dozen directly . [Hulks]_4534-hulks are [prison - ships]_{4535-prison - ships} , right ' cross th ' meshes . "_{[402-my sister]} [We]_536-we always used that name for [marshes]_537-marshes , in [[our]_536-we country]_{485-our country} . " [I]_0-i wonder who 's put into [prison - ships]_{4535-prison - ships} , and why [they]_4534-hulks 're put [there]_4505-there ? "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , in a general way , and with quiet desperation . It was too much for [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , who immediately rose . " [I]_154-joe tell [you]_0-i what , [young fellow]_{4538-young fellow} , "_[154-joe] said [she]_154-joe , " [I]_154-joe did n't bring [you]_0-i up by hand to badger [people]_4539-people 's lives out . It would be blame to [me]_154-joe and not praise , if [I]_154-joe had . [People]_4539-people are put in [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} because [they]_4539-people murder , and because [they]_4539-people rob , and forge , and do all sorts of bad ; and [they]_4539-people always begin by asking questions . Now , [you]_0-i get along to bed ! "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i was never allowed a candle to light [me]_0-i to bed , and , as [I]_0-i went up [stairs]_539-stairs in the dark , with [my]_0-i head tingling , - from [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's thimble having played the tambourine upon it , to accompany [her]_154-joe last words , - [I]_0-i felt fearfully sensible of the great convenience that the hulks were handy for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i was clearly on [my]_0-i way [there]_4505-there . [I]_0-i had begun by asking questions , and [I]_0-i was going to rob [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . Since that time , which is far enough away now , [I]_0-i have often thought that [few people]_{541-few people} know what secrecy there is in [the young under terror]_{542-the young under terror} . No matter how unreasonable the terror , so that it be terror . [I]_0-i was in mortal terror of [the young man who wanted [my]_0-i heart and liver]_{543-the young man who wanted my heart and liver} ; [I]_0-i was in mortal terror of [[my]_0-i interlocutor]_{544-my interlocutor} with the iron leg ; [I]_0-i was in mortal terror of [myself]_0-i , from whom an awful promise had been extracted ; [I]_0-i had no hope of deliverance through [[my]_0-i all - powerful sister]_{545-my all - powerful sister} , who repulsed [me]_0-i at every turn ; [I]_0-i am afraid to think of what [I]_0-i might have done on requirement , in the secrecy of [my]_0-i terror . If [I]_0-i slept at all that night , it was only to imagine [myself]_0-i drifting down [the river]_{413-the river} on a strong spring - tide , to [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} ; [a ghostly pirate]_{547-a ghostly pirate} calling out to [me]_0-i through a speaking - trumpet , as [I]_0-i passed [the gibbet - station]_{548-the gibbet - station} , that [I]_0-i had better come [ashore]_549-ashore and be hanged [there]_4505-there at once , and not put it off . [I]_0-i was afraid to sleep , even if [I]_0-i had been inclined , for [I]_0-i knew that at the first faint dawn of morning [I]_0-i must rob [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} . There was no doing it in the night , for there was no getting a light by easy friction then ; to have got one [I]_0-i must have struck it out of flint and steel , and have made a noise like [the very pirate]_{552-the very pirate} [himself]_{552-the very pirate} rattling [his]_{552-the very pirate} chains . As soon as the great black velvet pall outside [my]_0-i little window was shot with gray , [I]_0-i got up and went down [stairs]_539-stairs ; every board upon the way , and every crack in every board calling after [me]_0-i , " Stop [thief]_4541-thief ! "_[0-i] and " Get up , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe ! "_[0-i] In [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} , which was far more abundantly supplied than usual , owing to the season , [I]_0-i was very much alarmed by a hare hanging up by the heels , whom [I]_0-i rather thought [I]_0-i caught when [my]_0-i back was half turned , winking . [I]_0-i had no time for verification , no time for selection , no time for anything , for [I]_0-i had no time to spare . [I]_0-i stole some bread , some rind of cheese , about half a jar of mincemeat which [I]_0-i tied up in [my]_0-i pocket - handkerchief with [my]_0-i last night 's slice , some brandy from a stone bottle which [I]_0-i decanted into a glass bottle [I]_0-i had secretly used for making that intoxicating fluid , Spanish - liquorice - water , up in [[my]_0-i room]_{555-my room} : diluting the stone bottle from a jug in the kitchen cupboard , a meat bone with very little on it , and a beautiful round compact pork pie . [I]_0-i was nearly going away without the pie , but [I]_0-i was tempted to mount upon a shelf , to look what it was that was put away so carefully in a covered earthen ware dish in a corner , and [I]_0-i found it was the pie , and [I]_0-i took it in the hope that it was not intended for early use , and would not be missed for some time . There was a door in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , communicating with [the forge]_{488-the forge} ; [I]_0-i unlocked and unbolted that door , and got a file from among [Joe]_154-joe 's tools . Then [I]_0-i put the fastenings as [I]_0-i had found them , opened the door at which [I]_0-i had entered when [I]_0-i ran [home]_4495-home last night , shut it , and ran for [the misty marshes]_{559-the misty marshes} . Chapter III It was a rimy morning , and very damp . [I]_0-i had seen the damp lying on the outside of [my]_0-i little window , as if [some goblin]_{560-some goblin} had been crying there all night , and using the window for a pocket - handkerchief . Now , [I]_0-i saw the damp lying on the bare hedges and spare grass , like a coarser sort of spiders ' webs ; hanging itself from twig to twig and blade to blade . On every rail and gate , wet lay clammy , and the marsh mist was so thick , that the wooden finger on the post directing [people]_4539-people to [[our]_562-our village]_{437-our village} - a direction which [they]_4539-people never accepted , for [they]_4539-people never came there - was invisible to [me]_0-i until [I]_0-i was quite close under it . Then , as [I]_0-i looked up at it , while it dripped , it seemed to [my]_0-i oppressed conscience like a phantom devoting [me]_0-i to [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} . The mist was heavier yet when [I]_0-i got out upon [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , so that instead of [my]_0-i running at everything , everything seemed to run at [me]_0-i . This was very disagreeable to a guilty mind . The gates and [dikes]_565-dikes and [banks]_566-banks came bursting at [me]_0-i through the mist , as if [they]_4539-people cried as plainly as could be , " [A boy with [Somebody 's else]_{4543-somebody 's else} 's pork pie]_{4542-a boy with somebody 's else 's pork pie} ! Stop [him]_{4542-a boy with somebody 's else 's pork pie} ! "_{[4539-people]} The cattle came upon [me]_0-i with like suddenness , staring out of [their]_4539-people eyes , and steaming out of [their]_4539-people nostrils , " [Halloa]_167-halloa , [young thief]_{4544-young thief} ! "_{[4539-people]} One black ox , with a white cravat on , - who even had to [my]_0-i awakened conscience something of a clerical air , - fixed [me]_0-i so obstinately with [his]_567-his eyes , and moved [his]_567-his blunt head round in such an accusatory manner as [I]_0-i moved round , that [I]_0-i blubbered out to [him]_567-his , " [I]_0-i could n't help it , [sir]_4451-sir ! It was n't for [myself]_0-i [I]_0-i took it ! "_[0-i] Upon which [he]_567-his put down [his]_567-his head , blew a cloud of smoke out of [his]_567-his nose , and vanished with a kick - up of [his]_567-his hind - legs and a flourish of [his]_567-his tail . All this time , [I]_0-i was getting on towards [the river]_{413-the river} ; but however fast [I]_0-i went , [I]_0-i could n't warm [my]_0-i feet , to which the damp cold seemed riveted , as the iron was riveted to the leg of [the man [I]_0-i was running to meet]_{569-the man i was running to meet} . [I]_0-i knew [my]_0-i way to [the Battery]_{570-the battery} , pretty straight , for [I]_0-i had been down there on a Sunday with [Joe]_154-joe , and [Joe]_154-joe , sitting on an old gun , had told [me]_0-i that when [I]_0-i was ' prentice to [him]_567-his , regularly bound , [we]_571-we would have such Larks [there]_4505-there ! However , in the confusion of the mist , [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i at last too far to the right , and consequently had to try back along [the river - side]_{573-the river - side} , on the bank of loose stones above the mud and the stakes that staked the tide out . Making [my]_0-i way along here with all despatch , [I]_0-i had just crossed [a ditch which [I]_0-i knew to be very near [the Battery]_{570-the battery}]_{574-a ditch which i knew to be very near the battery} , and had just scrambled up [the mound beyond [the ditch]_{577-the ditch}]_{576-the mound beyond the ditch} , when [I]_0-i saw [the man sitting before [me]_0-i]_{578-the man sitting before me} . [His]_{578-the man sitting before me} back was towards [me]_0-i , and [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} had [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} arms folded , and was nodding forward , heavy with sleep . [I]_0-i thought [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} would be more glad if [I]_0-i came upon [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} with [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} breakfast , in that unexpected manner , so [I]_0-i went forward softly and touched [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} on the shoulder . [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} instantly jumped up , and it was not [the same man]_{579-the same man} , but [another man]_{580-another man} ! And yet [this man]_{581-this man} was dressed in coarse gray , too , and had a great iron on [his]_{581-this man} leg , and was lame , and hoarse , and cold , and was everything that [the other man]_{582-the other man} was ; except that [he]_{581-this man} had not the same face , and had a flat broad - brimmed low - crowned felt that on . All this [I]_0-i saw in a moment , for [I]_0-i had only a moment to see it in : [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} swore an oath at [me]_0-i , made a hit at [me]_0-i , - it was a round weak blow that missed [me]_0-i and almost knocked [himself]_{578-the man sitting before me} down , for it made [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} stumble , - and then [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} ran into the mist , stumbling twice as [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} went , and [I]_0-i lost [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} . " It 's [the young man]_{4546-the young man} ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought , feeling [my]_0-i heart shoot as [I]_0-i identified [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} . [I]_0-i dare say [I]_0-i should have felt a pain in [my]_0-i liver , too , if [I]_0-i had known where it was . [I]_0-i was soon at [the Battery]_{1-the battery} after that , and there was [the right Man]_{583-the right man} , - hugging [himself]_{583-the right man} and limping to and fro , as if [he]_{583-the right man} had never all night left off hugging and limping , - waiting for [me]_0-i . [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} was awfully cold , to be sure . [I]_0-i half expected to see [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} drop down before [my]_0-i face and die of deadly cold . [His]_{578-the man sitting before me} eyes looked so awfully hungry too , that when [I]_0-i handed [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} the file and [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} laid it down on the grass , it occurred to [me]_0-i [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} would have tried to eat it , if [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} had not seen [my]_0-i bundle . [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} did not turn [me]_0-i upside down this time to get at what [I]_0-i had , but left [me]_0-i right side upwards while [I]_0-i opened the bundle and emptied [my]_0-i pockets . " What 's in the bottle , [boy]_4519-boy ? "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} said [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} . " Brandy , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} was already handing mincemeat down [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} throat in the most curious manner , - more like [a man who was putting it away somewhere in a violent hurry]_{584-a man who was putting it away somewhere in a violent hurry} , than [a man who was eating it]_{585-a man who was eating it} , - but [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} left off to take some of the liquor . [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} shivered all the while so violently , that it was quite as much as [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} could do to keep the neck of the bottle between [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} teeth , without biting it off . " [I]_0-i think [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} have got the ague , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'm much of [your]_4519-boy opinion , [boy]_4519-boy , "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} said [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} . " It 's bad about here , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i told [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} . " [You]_{578-the man sitting before me} 've been lying out on the meshes , and they 're dreadful aguish . Rheumatic too . "_[0-i] " [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'll eat [my]_{578-the man sitting before me} breakfast afore they 're the death of [me]_{578-the man sitting before me} , "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} said [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} . " [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'd do that , if [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} was going to be strung up to that there gallows as there is over there , directly afterwards . [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'll beat the shivers so far , [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'll bet [you]_4519-boy . "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} [He]_{578-the man sitting before me} was gobbling mincemeat , meatbone , bread , cheese , and pork pie , all at once : staring distrustfully while [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} did so at the mist all round [us]_586-us , and often stopping - even stopping [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} jaws - to listen . Some real or fancied sound , some clink upon the river or breathing of beast upon [the marsh]_{587-the marsh} , now gave [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} a start , and [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} said , suddenly , - " [You]_{578-the man sitting before me} 're not [a deceiving imp]_{4549-a deceiving imp} ? [You]_{578-the man sitting before me} brought [no one]_{4550-no one} with [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} ? "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} " No , [sir]_4451-sir ! No ! "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} " Nor giv ' no one the office to follow [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} ? "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} " No ! "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} " Well , "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} said [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} , " [I]_{578-the man sitting before me} believe [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} . [You]_{578-the man sitting before me} 'd be but [a fierce young hound]_{4552-a fierce young hound} indeed , if at [your]_{578-the man sitting before me} time of life [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} could help to hunt a wretched warmint hunted as near death and dunghill as [this poor wretched warmint]_{4553-this poor wretched warmint} is ! "_{[578-the man sitting before me]} Something clicked in [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} throat as if [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} had works in [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} like a clock , and was going to strike . And [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} smeared [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} ragged rough sleeve over [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} eyes . Pitying [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} desolation , and watching [him]_{578-the man sitting before me} as [he]_{578-the man sitting before me} gradually settled down upon the pie , [I]_0-i made bold to say , " [I]_0-i am glad [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} enjoy it . "_[0-i] " Did [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} speak ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i was glad [you]_{578-the man sitting before me} enjoyed it . "_[0-i] " Thankee , [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} . [I]_0-i do . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had often watched a large dog of [ours]_588-ours eating [his]_{578-the man sitting before me} food ; and [I]_0-i now noticed a decided similarity between the dog 's way of eating , and [the man]_{433-the man} 's . [The man]_{433-the man} took strong sharp sudden bites , just like the dog . [He]_{433-the man} swallowed , or rather snapped up , every mouthful , too soon and too fast ; and [he]_{433-the man} looked sideways here and there while [he]_{433-the man} ate , as if [he]_{433-the man} thought there was danger in every direction of [somebody]_591-somebody 's coming to take the pie away . [He]_{433-the man} was altogether too unsettled in [his]_{433-the man} mind over it , to appreciate it comfortably [I]_0-i thought , or to have [anybody]_4526-anybody to dine with [him]_{433-the man} , without making a chop with [his]_{433-the man} jaws at [the visitor]_{593-the visitor} . In all of which particulars [he]_{433-the man} was very like the dog . " [I]_0-i am afraid [you]_{594-my friend} wo n't leave any of it for [him]_{433-the man} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , timidly ; after a silence during which [I]_0-i had hesitated as to the politeness of making the remark . " There 's no more to be got where that came from . "_[0-i] It was the certainty of this fact that impelled [me]_0-i to offer the hint . " Leave any for [him]_{433-the man} ? Who 's [him]_{433-the man} ? "_{[594-my friend]} said [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} , stopping in [his]_{594-my friend} crunching of pie - crust . " [The young man]_{4546-the young man} . That [you]_0-i spoke of . That was hid with [you]_0-i . "_{[594-my friend]} " Oh ah ! "_{[594-my friend]} [he]_{594-my friend} returned , with something like a gruff laugh . " [Him]_{433-the man} ? Yes , yes ! [He]_{433-the man} do n't want no wittles . "_{[594-my friend]} " [I]_0-i thought [he]_{433-the man} looked as if [he]_{433-the man} did , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [The man]_{433-the man} stopped eating , and regarded [me]_0-i with the keenest scrutiny and the greatest surprise . " Looked ? When ? "_{[433-the man]} " Just now . "_{[594-my friend]} " Where ? "_{[433-the man]} " [Yonder]_2-yonder , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , pointing ; " over there , where [I]_0-i found [him]_{433-the man} nodding asleep , and thought it was [you]_{433-the man} . "_[0-i] [He]_{433-the man} held [me]_0-i by the collar and stared at [me]_0-i so , that [I]_0-i began to think [his]_{433-the man} first idea about cutting [my]_0-i throat had revived . " Dressed like [you]_{433-the man} , [you]_{433-the man} know , only with a hat , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i explained , trembling ; " and - and "_[0-i] - [I]_0-i was very anxious to put this delicately - " and with - the same reason for wanting to borrow a file . Did n't [you]_{433-the man} hear the cannon last night ? "_[0-i] " Then there was firing ! "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} said to [himself]_{433-the man} . " [I]_{433-the man} wonder [you]_{433-the man} should n't have been sure of that , "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i returned , " for [we]_4556-we heard it up at [home]_4495-home , and that 's farther away , and [we]_4556-we were shut in besides . "_{[433-the man]} " Why , see now ! "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} . " When [a man]_{428-a man} 's alone on [these flats]_{4559-these flats} , with a light head and a light stomach , perishing of cold and want , [he]_{428-a man} hears nothin' all night , but guns firing , and voices calling . Hears ? [He]_{428-a man} sees [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} , with [their]_{4560-the soldiers} red coats lighted up by the torches carried afore , closing in round [him]_{428-a man} . Hears [his]_{428-a man} number called , hears [himself]_{428-a man} challenged , hears the rattle of the muskets , hears the orders ' Make ready ! Present ! Cover [him]_{428-a man} steady , [men]_4561-men ! ' and is laid hands on - and there 's nothin' ! Why , if [I]_{433-the man} see [one pursuing party last night]_{4562-one pursuing party last night} - coming up in order , Damn 'em , with [their]_{4562-one pursuing party last night} tramp , tramp - [I]_{433-the man} see a hundred . And as to firing ! Why , [I]_{433-the man} see the mist shake with the cannon , arter it was broad day , - But [this man]_{581-this man} "_{[433-the man]} ; [he]_{433-the man} had said all the rest , as if [he]_{433-the man} had forgotten [my]_0-i being [there]_4505-there ; " did [you]_0-i notice anything in [him]_{581-this man} ? "_{[433-the man]} " [He]_{581-this man} had a badly bruised face , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , recalling what [I]_0-i hardly knew [I]_0-i knew . " Not here ? "_{[433-the man]} exclaimed [the man]_{433-the man} , striking [his]_{433-the man} left cheek mercilessly , with the flat of [his]_{433-the man} hand . " Yes , there ! "_{[433-the man]} " Where is [he]_{581-this man} ? "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} crammed what little food was left , into the breast of [his]_{433-the man} gray jacket . " Show [me]_0-i the way [he]_{581-this man} went . [I]_0-i 'll pull [him]_{581-this man} down , like a bloodhound . Curse this iron on [my]_0-i sore leg ! Give [us]_4564-us hold of the file , [boy]_4519-boy . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i indicated in what direction the mist had shrouded [the other man]_{582-the other man} , and [he]_{433-the man} looked up at it for an instant . But [he]_{433-the man} was down on the rank wet grass , filing at [his]_{433-the man} iron like [a madman]_{599-a madman} , and not minding [me]_0-i or minding [his]_{433-the man} own leg , which had an old chafe upon it and was bloody , but which [he]_{433-the man} handled as roughly as if it had no more feeling in it than the file . [I]_0-i was very much afraid of [him]_{433-the man} again , now that [he]_{433-the man} had worked [himself]_{433-the man} into this fierce hurry , and [I]_0-i was likewise very much afraid of keeping away from [home]_4495-home any longer . [I]_0-i told [him]_{433-the man} [I]_0-i must go , but [he]_{433-the man} took no notice , so [I]_0-i thought the best thing [I]_0-i could do was to slip off . The last [I]_0-i saw of [him]_{433-the man} , [his]_{433-the man} head was bent over [his]_{433-the man} knee and [he]_{433-the man} was working hard at [his]_{433-the man} fetter , muttering impatient imprecations at it and at [his]_{433-the man} leg . The last [I]_0-i heard of [him]_{433-the man} , [I]_0-i stopped in the mist to listen , and the file was still going . Chapter IV [I]_0-i fully expected to find [a Constable]_{601-a constable} in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , waiting to take [me]_0-i up . But not only was there [no Constable]_{603-no constable} there , but no discovery had yet been made of the robbery . [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was prodigiously busy in getting [the house]_{604-the house} ready for the festivities of the day , and [Joe]_154-joe had been put upon the [kitchen]_605-kitchen doorstep to keep [him]_{433-the man} out of the dust - pan , - an article into which [his]_{433-the man} destiny always led [him]_{433-the man} , sooner or later , when [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was vigorously reaping the floors of [[her]_{402-my sister} establishment]_{607-her establishment} . " And where the deuce ha ' [you]_{433-the man} been ? "_[154-joe] was [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's Christmas salutation , when [I]_0-i and [my]_0-i conscience showed [ourselves]_608-we . [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i had been down to hear the Carols . " Ah ! well ! "_[154-joe] observed [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . " [You]_{433-the man} might ha ' done worse . "_[154-joe] Not a doubt of that [I]_0-i thought . " Perhaps if [I]_154-joe warn't [[a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} 's wife]_{4507-a blacksmith 's wife} , and what 's the same thing [a slave]_{4568-a slave} with [her]_{4568-a slave} apron never off , [I]_154-joe should have been to hear the Carols , "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . " [I]_154-joe 'm rather partial to Carols , [myself]_154-joe , and that 's the best of reasons for [my]_154-joe never hearing any . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe , who had ventured into [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} after [me]_0-i as the dustpan had retired before [us]_608-we , drew the back of [his]_610-his hand across [his]_610-his nose with a conciliatory air , when [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe darted a look at [him]_610-his , and , when [her]_154-joe eyes were withdrawn , secretly crossed [his]_610-his two forefingers , and exhibited them to [me]_0-i , as [our]_608-we token that [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was in a cross temper . This was so much [her]_154-joe normal state , that [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i would often , for weeks together , be , as to [our]_608-we fingers , like monumental Crusaders as to [their]_611-their legs . [We]_608-we were to have a superb dinner , consisting of a leg of pickled pork and greens , and a pair of roast stuffed fowls . A handsome mince - pie had been made yesterday morning which accounted for the mincemeat not being missed , and the pudding was already on the boil . These extensive arrangements occasioned [us]_608-we to be cut off unceremoniously in respect of breakfast ; " for [I]_154-joe ai n't , "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , - " [I]_154-joe ai n't a going to have no formal cramming and busting and washing up now , with what [I]_154-joe 've got before [me]_154-joe , [I]_154-joe promise [you]_4569-you ! "_[154-joe] So , [we]_608-we had [our]_608-we slices served out , as if [we]_608-we were two thousand troops on a forced march instead of [a man]_{428-a man} and [boy]_4519-boy at [home]_4495-home ; and [we]_608-we took gulps of milk and water , with apologetic countenances , from a jug on the dresser . In the meantime , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe put clean white curtains up , and tacked a new flowered flounce across the wide chimney to replace the old one , and uncovered [the little state parlor across [the passage]_{616-the passage}]_{615-the little state parlor across the passage} , which was never uncovered at any other time , but passed the rest of the year in a cool haze of silver paper , which even extended to the four little white crockery poodles on the mantel - shelf , each with a black nose and a basket of flowers in [his]_617-his mouth , and [each the counterpart of the other]_{618-each the counterpart of the other} . [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was [a very clean housekeeper]_{619-a very clean housekeeper} , but had an exquisite art of making [her]_154-joe cleanliness more uncomfortable and unacceptable than dirt itself . Cleanliness is next to [Godliness]_{168-godliness} , and [some people]_{620-some people} do the same by [their]_{620-some people} religion . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , having so much to do , was going to [church]_622-church vicariously , that is to say , [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i were going . In [his]_617-his working - clothes , [Joe]_154-joe was [a well - knit characteristic - looking blacksmith]_{623-a well - knit characteristic - looking blacksmith} ; in [his]_617-his holiday clothes , [he]_617-his was more like [a scarecrow in good circumstances]_{624-a scarecrow in good circumstances} , than anything else . Nothing that [he]_617-his wore then fitted [him]_617-his or seemed to belong to [him]_617-his ; and everything that [he]_617-his wore then grazed [him]_617-his . On the present festive occasion [he]_617-his emerged from [[his]_617-his room]_{625-his room} , when the blithe bells were going , the picture of misery , in a full suit of Sunday penitentials . As to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i think [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} must have had some general idea that [I]_0-i was [a young offender whom [an Accoucheur Policeman]_{628-an accoucheur policeman} had taken up on [my]_0-i birthday and delivered over to [her]_{402-my sister} , to be dealt with according to the outraged majesty of the law]_{627-a young offender whom an accoucheur policeman had taken up on my birthday and delivered over to her , to be dealt with according to the outraged majesty of the law} . [I]_0-i was always treated as if [I]_0-i had insisted on being born in opposition to the dictates of reason , religion , and morality , and against the dissuading arguments of [[my]_0-i best friends]_{629-my best friends} . Even when [I]_0-i was taken to have a new suit of clothes , [the tailor]_{630-the tailor} had orders to make them like a kind of Reformatory , and on no account to let [me]_0-i have the free use of [my]_0-i limbs . [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i going to [church]_622-church , therefore , must have been a moving spectacle for compassionate minds . Yet , what [I]_0-i suffered outside was nothing to what [I]_0-i underwent within . The terrors that had assailed [me]_0-i whenever [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe had gone near [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} , or out of [the room]_{633-the room} , were only to be equalled by the remorse with which [my]_0-i mind dwelt on what [my]_0-i hands had done . Under the weight of [my]_0-i wicked secret , [I]_0-i pondered whether [the Church]_{439-the church} would be powerful enough to shield [me]_0-i from the vengeance of [the terrible young man]_{635-the terrible young man} , if [I]_0-i divulged to [that establishment]_{636-that establishment} . [I]_0-i conceived the idea that the time when the banns were read and when [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} said , " [Ye]_0-i are now to declare it ! "_{[637-the clergyman]} would be the time for [me]_0-i to rise and propose a private conference in [the vestry]_{638-the vestry} . [I]_0-i am far from being sure that [I]_0-i might not have astonished [[our]_639-our small congregation]_{640-our small congregation} by resorting to this extreme measure , but for its being Christmas Day and no Sunday . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , [the clerk at [church]_622-church]_{641-the clerk at church} , was to dine with [us]_639-our ; and [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} [the wheelwright]_{643-the wheelwright} and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} ; and [[Uncle Pumblechook Joe]_172-joe 's uncle]_{644-uncle pumblechook joe 's uncle} , but [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe appropriated [him]_{644-uncle pumblechook joe 's uncle} , who was [a well - to - do cornchandler in [the nearest town]_{646-the nearest town}]_{645-a well - to - do cornchandler in the nearest town} , and drove [his]_{644-uncle pumblechook joe 's uncle} own chaise - cart . The dinner hour was half - past one . When [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i got [home]_4495-home , [we]_639-our found the table laid , and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe dressed , and the dinner dressing , and the front door unlocked it never was at any other time for [the company]_{648-the company} to enter by , and everything most splendid . And still , not a word of the robbery . The time came , without bringing with it any relief to [my]_0-i feelings , and [the company]_{648-the company} came . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , united to a Roman nose and a large shining bald forehead , had a deep voice which [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was uncommonly proud of ; indeed it was understood among [[his]_{169-mr. wopsle} acquaintance]_{650-his acquaintance} that if [you]_651-you could only give [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} head , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} would read [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} into fits ; [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} [himself]_{169-mr. wopsle} confessed that if [the Church]_{3-the church} was " thrown open , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} meaning to competition , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} would not despair of making [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} mark in it . [The Church]_{3-the church} not being " thrown open , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was , as [I]_0-i have said , [[our]_653-our clerk]_{654-our clerk} . But [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} punished [the Amens]_{173-the amens} tremendously ; and when [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} gave out the psalm , - always giving the whole verse , - [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} looked all round [the congregation]_{655-the congregation} first , as much as to say , " [You]_0-i have heard [[my]_{169-mr. wopsle} friend]_{594-my friend} overhead ; oblige [me]_{169-mr. wopsle} with [your]_0-i opinion of this style ! "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [I]_0-i opened the door to [the company]_{648-the company} , - making believe that it was a habit of [ours]_653-our to open that door , - and [I]_0-i opened it first to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , next to [Mr.]_657-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} , and last of all to [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe . N.B. [I]_0-i was not allowed to call [him]_172-joe [uncle]_658-uncle , under the severest penalties . " [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , "_[172-joe] said [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , [a large hard - breathing middle - aged slow man , with a mouth like a fish , dull staring eyes]_{659-a large hard - breathing middle - aged slow man , with a mouth like a fish , dull staring eyes} , and sandy hair standing upright on [his]_172-joe head , so that [he]_172-joe looked as if [he]_172-joe had just been all but choked , and had that moment come to , " [I]_172-joe have brought [you]_154-joe as the compliments of the season - [I]_172-joe have brought [you]_154-joe , [Mum]_174-mum , a bottle of sherry wine - and [I]_172-joe have brought [you]_154-joe , [Mum]_174-mum , a bottle of port wine . "_[172-joe] Every Christmas Day [he]_172-joe presented [himself]_172-joe , as a profound novelty , with exactly the same words , and carrying the two bottles like dumb - bells . Every Christmas Day , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe replied , as [she]_154-joe now replied , " O , Un - cle Pum - ble - chook ! This is kind ! "_[154-joe] Every Christmas Day , [he]_172-joe retorted , as [he]_172-joe now retorted , " It 's no more than [your]_154-joe merits . And now are [you]_154-joe all bobbish , and how 's Sixpennorth of halfpence ? "_[172-joe] meaning [me]_0-i . [We]_660-we dined on these occasions in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and adjourned , for the nuts and oranges and apples to [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} ; which was a change very like [Joe]_154-joe 's change from [his]_172-joe working - clothes to [his]_172-joe Sunday dress . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was uncommonly lively on the present occasion , and indeed was generally more gracious in the society of [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} than in [other company]_{664-other company} . [I]_0-i remember [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} as [a little curly sharp - edged person in sky - blue , who held a conventionally juvenile position]_{665-a little curly sharp - edged person in sky - blue , who held a conventionally juvenile position} , because [she]_154-joe had married [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} , - [I]_0-i do n't know at what remote period , - when [she]_154-joe was much younger than [he]_{170-mr. hubble} . [I]_0-i remember [Mr Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} as [a tough , high - shouldered , stooping old man , of a sawdusty fragrance]_{666-a tough , high - shouldered , stooping old man , of a sawdusty fragrance} , with [his]_{170-mr. hubble} legs extraordinarily wide apart : so that in [my]_0-i short days [I]_0-i always saw [some miles of open country between [them]_668-them]_{667-some miles of open country between them} when [I]_0-i met [him]_{170-mr. hubble} coming up [the lane]_{669-the lane} . Among this good company [I]_0-i should have felt [myself]_0-i , even if [I]_0-i had n't robbed [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} , in a false position . Not because [I]_0-i was squeezed in at an acute angle of the tablecloth , with the table in [my]_0-i chest , and the Pumblechookian elbow in [my]_0-i eye , nor because [I]_0-i was not allowed to speak [I]_0-i did n't want to speak , nor because [I]_0-i was regaled with the scaly tips of the drumsticks of the fowls , and with those obscure corners of pork of which the pig , when living , had had the least reason to be vain . No ; [I]_0-i should not have minded that , if [they]_671-they would only have left [me]_0-i alone . But [they]_671-they would n't leave [me]_0-i alone . [They]_671-they seemed to think the opportunity lost , if [they]_671-they failed to point the conversation at [me]_0-i , every now and then , and stick the point into [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i might have been [an unfortunate little bull in [a Spanish arena]_{673-a spanish arena}]_{672-an unfortunate little bull in a spanish arena} , [I]_0-i got so smartingly touched up by [these moral goads]_{674-these moral goads} . It began the moment [we]_675-we sat down to dinner . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} said grace with theatrical declamation , - as it now appears to [me]_0-i , something like a religious cross of the Ghost in [Hamlet]_5-hamlet with [Richard the Third]_175-richard , - and ended with the very proper aspiration that [we]_675-we might be truly grateful . Upon which [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} fixed [me]_0-i with [her]_{402-my sister} eye , and said , in a low reproachful voice , " Do [you]_0-i hear that ? Be grateful . "_{[402-my sister]} " Especially , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , " be grateful , [boy]_4519-boy , to [them]_4572-them which brought [you]_4519-boy up by hand . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} shook [her]_{171-mrs. hubble} head , and contemplating [me]_0-i with a mournful presentiment that [I]_0-i should come to no good , asked , " Why is it that [the young]_{4573-the young} are never grateful ? "_{[171-mrs. hubble]} This moral mystery seemed too much for [the company]_{648-the company} until [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} tersely solved it by saying , " Naterally wicious . "_{[170-mr. hubble]} [Everybody]_{678-everybody} then murmured " True ! "_{[678-everybody]} and looked at [me]_0-i in a particularly unpleasant and personal manner . [Joe]_154-joe 's station and influence were something feebler if possible when there was company than when there was none . But [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} always aided and comforted [me]_0-i when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} could , in some way of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} own , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} always did so at dinner - time by giving [me]_0-i gravy , if there were any . There being plenty of gravy to - day , [Joe]_154-joe spooned into [my]_0-i plate , at this point , about half a pint . A little later on in the dinner , [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} reviewed the sermon with some severity , and intimated - in the usual hypothetical case of [the Church]_{439-the church} being " thrown open "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} - what kind of sermon [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} would have given [them]_680-them . After favoring [them]_680-them with some heads of that discourse , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} remarked that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} considered the subject of the day 's homily , ill chosen ; which was the less excusable , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} added , when there were so many subjects " going about . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " True again , "_[172-joe] said [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe . " [You]_0-i 've hit it , [sir]_4451-sir ! Plenty of subjects going about , for [them]_680-them that know how to put salt upon [their]_680-them tails . That 's what 's wanted . [A man]_{428-a man} need n't go far to find a subject , if [he]_{428-a man} 's ready with [his]_{428-a man} salt - box . "_[172-joe] [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} added , after a short interval of reflection , " Look at [Pork]_177-pork alone . There 's a subject ! If [you]_0-i want a subject , look at [Pork]_177-pork ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " True , [sir]_4451-sir . Many a moral for [the young]_{4573-the young} , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} returned [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , - and [I]_0-i knew [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was going to lug [me]_0-i in , before [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} said it ; " might be deduced from that text . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " [You]_4451-sir listen to this , "_{[402-my sister]} said [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} to [me]_0-i , in a severe parenthesis . [Joe]_172-joe gave [me]_0-i some more gravy . " [Swine]_178-swine , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} pursued [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} deepest voice , and pointing [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} fork at [my]_0-i blushes , as if [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} were mentioning [my]_0-i Christian name , - ' swine were [the companions of [the prodigal]_{683-the prodigal}]_{682-the companions of the prodigal} . The gluttony of [Swine]_178-swine is put before [us]_684-us , as an example to [the young]_{4573-the young} . " [I]_178-swine thought this pretty well in [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} who had been praising up the pork for being so plump and juicy . "_[178-swine] What is detestable in a pig is more detestable in [a boy]_{4485-a boy} . " "_[687-girl] Or [girl]_687-girl , " suggested [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} . "_[687-girl] Of course , or [girl]_687-girl , [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} , " assented [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , rather irritably , "_{[170-mr. hubble]} but there is [no girl present]_{689-no girl present} . " "_{[689-no girl present]} Besides , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , turning sharp on [me]_{170-mr. hubble} , "_{[170-mr. hubble]} think what [you]_0-i 've got to be grateful for . If [you]_0-i 'd been born [a Squeaker]_{690-a squeaker} - " "_{[690-a squeaker]} [He]_{690-a squeaker} was , if ever [a child]_{691-a child} was , " said [[my]_{690-a squeaker} sister]_{402-my sister} , most emphatically . [Joe]_172-joe gave [me]_{690-a squeaker} some more gravy . "_{[690-a squeaker]} Well , but [I]_0-i mean [a four - footed Squeaker]_{692-a four - footed squeaker} , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_{[692-a four - footed squeaker]} If [you]_0-i had been born such , would [you]_0-i have been [here]_693-here now ? Not [you]_0-i - " "_[0-i] Unless in that form , " said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , nodding towards the dish . "_{[692-a four - footed squeaker]} But [I]_0-i do n't mean in that form , [sir]_4451-sir , " returned [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , who had an objection to being interrupted ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i mean , enjoying [himself]_{690-a squeaker} with [[his]_{690-a squeaker} elders]_{695-his elders} and betters , and improving [himself]_{690-a squeaker} with [their]_696-their conversation , and rolling in the lap of luxury . Would [he]_{690-a squeaker} have been doing that ? No , [he]_{690-a squeaker} would n't . And what would have been [your]_0-i destination ? " turning on [me]_0-i again . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i would have been disposed of for so many shillings according to the market price of the article , and [Dunstable]_{179-dunstable} [the butcher]_{697-the butcher} would have come up to [you]_0-i as [you]_0-i lay in [your]_0-i straw , and [he]_{697-the butcher} would have whipped [you]_0-i under [his]_{697-the butcher} left arm , and with [his]_{697-the butcher} right [he]_{697-the butcher} would have tucked up [his]_{697-the butcher} frock to get a penknife from out of [his]_{697-the butcher} waistcoat - pocket , and [he]_{697-the butcher} would have shed [your]_0-i blood and had [your]_0-i life . No bringing up by hand then . Not a bit of it ! " [Joe]_172-joe offered [me]_{697-the butcher} more gravy , which [I]_{697-the butcher} was afraid to take . "_{[697-the butcher]} [He]_{697-the butcher} was a world of trouble to [you]_0-i , [ma'am]_698-ma'am , " said [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} , commiserating [[my]_{697-the butcher} sister]_{402-my sister} . "_{[697-the butcher]} Trouble ? " echoed [[my]_{697-the butcher} sister]_{402-my sister} ; "_{[697-the butcher]} trouble ? " and then entered on a fearful catalogue of all the illnesses [I]_{697-the butcher} had been guilty of , and all the acts of sleeplessness [I]_{697-the butcher} had committed , and all the high places [I]_{697-the butcher} had tumbled from , and all the low places [I]_{697-the butcher} had tumbled into , and all the injuries [I]_{697-the butcher} had done [myself]_{697-the butcher} , and all the times [she]_{402-my sister} had wished [me]_{697-the butcher} in [[my]_{697-the butcher} grave]_{4581-my grave} , and [I]_{697-the butcher} had contumaciously refused to go [there]_4505-there . [I]_{697-the butcher} think [the Romans]_{4583-the romans} must have aggravated [one another]_{4584-one another} very much , with [their]_{4583-the romans} noses . Perhaps , [they]_{4583-the romans} became [the restless people [they]_{4583-the romans} were]_{4585-the restless people they were} , in consequence . Anyhow , [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's Roman nose so aggravated [me]_{697-the butcher} , during the recital of [my]_{697-the butcher} misdemeanours , that [I]_{697-the butcher} should have liked to pull it until [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} howled . But , all [I]_{697-the butcher} had endured up to this time was nothing in comparison with the awful feelings that took possession of [me]_{697-the butcher} when the pause was broken which ensued upon [[my]_{697-the butcher} sister]_{402-my sister} 's recital , and in which pause [everybody]_{678-everybody} had looked at [me]_{697-the butcher} as [I]_{697-the butcher} felt painfully conscious with indignation and abhorrence . "_{[697-the butcher]} Yet , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , leading [the company]_{648-the company} gently back to the theme from which [they]_{648-the company} had strayed , "_{[697-the butcher]} [Pork]_177-pork - regarded as biled - is rich , too ; ai n't it ? " "_[658-uncle] Have a little brandy , [uncle]_658-uncle , " said [[my]_658-uncle sister]_{402-my sister} . [O Heavens]_{180-o heavens} , it had come at last ! [He]_658-uncle would find it was weak , [he]_658-uncle would say it was weak , and [I]_658-uncle was lost ! [I]_658-uncle held tight to the leg of the table under the cloth , with both hands , and awaited [my]_658-uncle fate . [[My]_658-uncle sister]_{402-my sister} went for the stone bottle , came back with the stone bottle , and poured [his]_658-uncle brandy out : [no one else]_{4591-no one else} taking any . [The wretched man]_{4592-the wretched man} trifled with [his]_{4592-the wretched man} glass , - took it up , looked at it through the light , put it down , - prolonged [my]_658-uncle misery . All this time [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe and [Joe]_154-joe were briskly clearing the table for the pie and pudding . [I]_658-uncle could n't keep [my]_658-uncle eyes off [him]_{4592-the wretched man} . Always holding tight by the leg of the table with [my]_658-uncle hands and feet , [I]_658-uncle saw [the miserable creature]_{4593-the miserable creature} finger [his]_{4592-the wretched man} glass playfully , take it up , smile , throw [his]_{4592-the wretched man} head back , and drink the brandy off . Instantly afterwards , [the company]_{648-the company} were seized with unspeakable consternation , owing to [his]_{4592-the wretched man} springing to [his]_{4592-the wretched man} feet , turning round several times in an appalling spasmodic whooping - cough dance , and rushing out at the door ; [he]_{4592-the wretched man} then became visible through the window , violently plunging and expectorating , making the most hideous faces , and apparently out of [his]_{4592-the wretched man} mind . [I]_658-uncle held on tight , while [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe and [Joe]_154-joe ran to [him]_{4592-the wretched man} . [I]_658-uncle did n't know how [I]_658-uncle had done it , but [I]_658-uncle had no doubt [I]_658-uncle had murdered [him]_{4592-the wretched man} somehow . In [my]_658-uncle dreadful situation , it was a relief when [he]_{4592-the wretched man} was brought back , and surveying [the company]_{648-the company} all round as if [they]_{648-the company} had disagreed with [him]_{4592-the wretched man} , sank down into [his]_{4592-the wretched man} chair with the one significant gasp , "_[658-uncle] Tar ! " [I]_181-tar had filled up the bottle from the tar - water jug . [I]_181-tar knew [he]_{4592-the wretched man} would be worse by and by . [I]_181-tar moved the table , like [a Medium of the present day]_{4596-a medium of the present day} , by the vigor of [my]_181-tar unseen hold upon it . "_[181-tar] [Tar]_181-tar ! " cried [[my]_181-tar sister]_{402-my sister} , in amazement . "_[181-tar] Why , how ever could [Tar]_181-tar come [there]_4505-there ? " But , [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , who was omnipotent in [that kitchen]_{4598-that kitchen} , would n't hear the word , would n't hear of the subject , imperiously waved it all away with [his]_172-joe hand , and asked for hot gin and water . [[My]_181-tar sister]_{402-my sister} , who had begun to be alarmingly meditative , had to employ [herself]_{402-my sister} actively in getting the gin the hot water , the sugar , and the lemon - peel , and mixing them . For the time being at least , [I]_181-tar was saved . [I]_181-tar still held on to the leg of the table , but clutched it now with the fervor of gratitude . By degrees , [I]_181-tar became calm enough to release [my]_181-tar grasp and partake of pudding . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} partook of pudding . All partook of pudding . The course terminated , and [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had begun to beam under the genial influence of gin and water . [I]_181-tar began to think [I]_181-tar should get over the day , when [[my]_181-tar sister]_{402-my sister} said to [Joe]_172-joe , "_[181-tar] Clean plates , - cold . " [I]_181-tar clutched the leg of the table again immediately , and pressed it to [my]_181-tar bosom as if it had been the companion of [my]_181-tar youth and [friend of [my]_181-tar soul]_{4601-friend of my soul} . [I]_181-tar foresaw what was coming , and [I]_181-tar felt that this time [I]_181-tar really was gone . "_[181-tar] [You]_701-you must taste , " said [[my]_701-you sister]_{402-my sister} , addressing [the guests]_{4603-the guests} with [her]_{402-my sister} best grace - "_[701-you] [you]_701-you must taste , to finish with , such a delightful and delicious present of [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe 's ! " Must [they]_{4603-the guests} ! Let [them]_{4603-the guests} not hope to taste it ! "_[701-you] [You]_701-you must know , " said [[my]_701-you sister]_{402-my sister} , rising , "_[701-you] it 's a pie ; a savory pork pie . " [The company]_{648-the company} murmured [their]_{648-the company} compliments . [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , sensible of having deserved well of [his]_172-joe fellow - creatures , said , - quite vivaciously , all things considered , - "_[701-you] Well , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , [we]_702-we 'll do [our]_702-we best endeavors ; let [us]_702-we have a cut at this same pie . " [[My]_154-joe sister]_{402-my sister} went out to get it . [I]_154-joe heard [her]_{402-my sister} steps proceed to [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} . [I]_154-joe saw [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} balance [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} knife . [I]_154-joe saw reawakening appetite in the Roman nostrils of [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . [I]_154-joe heard [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} remark that "_[154-joe] a bit of savory pork pie would lay atop of anything [you]_703-you could mention , and do no harm , " and [I]_703-you heard [Joe]_154-joe say , "_[703-you] [You]_703-you shall have some , [Pip]_241-pip . " [I]_241-pip have never been absolutely certain whether [I]_241-pip uttered a shrill yell of terror , merely in spirit , or in the bodily hearing of [the company]_{648-the company} . [I]_241-pip felt that [I]_241-pip could bear no more , and that [I]_241-pip must run away . [I]_241-pip released the leg of the table , and ran for [my]_241-pip life . But [I]_241-pip ran no farther than [the house]_{604-the house} door , for there [I]_241-pip ran head - foremost into [a party of soldiers with [their]_{4610-a party of soldiers with their muskets} muskets]_{4610-a party of soldiers with their muskets} , one of whom held out a pair of handcuffs to [me]_241-pip , saying , "_[241-pip] Here [you]_703-you are , look sharp , come on ! " Chapter V The apparition of a file of [soldiers]_{4611-soldiers} ringing down the but - ends of [their]_{4610-a party of soldiers with their muskets} loaded muskets on [our]_4612-our door - step , caused the dinner - party to rise from table in confusion , and caused [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe re - entering [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} empty - handed , to stop short and stare , in [her]_154-joe wondering lament of "_[0-i] Gracious goodness gracious [me]_0-i , what 's gone - with the - pie ! " [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} and [I]_0-i were in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} when [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe stood staring ; at which crisis [I]_0-i partially recovered the use of [my]_0-i senses . It was [the sergeant who had spoken to [me]_0-i]_{4616-the sergeant who had spoken to me} , and [he]_0-i was now looking round at [the company]_{648-the company} , with [his]_0-i handcuffs invitingly extended towards [them]_{648-the company} in [his]_0-i right hand , and [his]_0-i left on [my]_0-i shoulder . "_[0-i] Excuse [me]_0-i , [ladies]_704-ladies and [gentleman]_{705-gentleman} , " said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , "_[0-i] but as [I]_0-i have mentioned at the door to [this smart young shaver]_{706-this smart young shaver} , " which [he]_0-i had n't , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am on a chase in the name of [the king]_{707-the king} , and [I]_0-i want [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} . " "_[0-i] And pray what might [you]_0-i want with [him]_{706-this smart young shaver} ? " retorted [[my]_709-missis sister]_{402-my sister} , quick to resent [his]_{4614-the sergeant} being wanted at all . "_[709-missis] [Missis]_709-missis , " returned [the gallant sergeant]_{4620-the gallant sergeant} , ' speaking for [myself]_709-missis , [I]_709-missis should reply , the honor and pleasure of [[his]_{4614-the sergeant} fine wife]_{4621-his fine wife} 's acquaintance ; speaking for [the king]_{707-the king} , [I]_709-missis answer , a little job done . "_[709-missis] This was received as rather neat in [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} ; insomuch that [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} cried audibly , " Good again ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " [You]_154-joe see , [blacksmith]_{4472-blacksmith} , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , who had by this time picked out [Joe]_154-joe with [his]_{4614-the sergeant} eye , " [we]_4624-we have had an accident with these , and [I]_{4614-the sergeant} find the lock of one of 'em goes wrong , and [the coupling]_{4625-the coupling} do n't act pretty . As [they]_712-them are wanted for immediate service , will [you]_154-joe throw [your]_154-joe eye over [them]_712-them ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [Joe]_154-joe threw [his]_{4614-the sergeant} eye over [them]_712-them , and pronounced that the job would necessitate the lighting of [his]_{4614-the sergeant} forge fire , and would take nearer two hours than one , " Will it ? Then will [you]_154-joe set about it at once , [blacksmith]_{4472-blacksmith} ? "_{[713-the off - hand sergeant]} said [the off - hand sergeant]_{713-the off - hand sergeant} , " as it 's on [[his]_{713-the off - hand sergeant} Majesty]_{4627-his majesty} 's service . And if [[my]_{713-the off - hand sergeant} men]_{4628-my men} can bear a hand anywhere , [they]_{4628-my men} 'll make [themselves]_{4628-my men} useful . "_{[713-the off - hand sergeant]} With that , [he]_{713-the off - hand sergeant} called to [[his]_{713-the off - hand sergeant} men]_{714-his men} , who came trooping into [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} one after another , and piled [their]_{714-his men} arms in a corner . And then [they]_{714-his men} stood about , as [soldiers]_{4611-soldiers} do ; now , with [their]_{714-his men} hands loosely clasped before [them]_{714-his men} ; now , resting a knee or a shoulder ; now , easing a belt or a pouch ; now , opening the door to spit stiffly over [their]_{714-his men} high stocks , out into [the yard]_{717-the yard} . All these things [I]_0-i saw without then knowing that [I]_0-i saw them , for [I]_0-i was in an agony of apprehension . But beginning to perceive that the handcuffs were not for [me]_0-i , and that [the military]_{718-the military} had so far got the better of the pie as to put it in the background , [I]_0-i collected a little more of [my]_0-i scattered wits . " Would [you]_{4614-the sergeant} give [me]_{4614-the sergeant} the time ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , addressing [himself]_{4614-the sergeant} to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , as to [a man whose appreciative powers justified the inference that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was equal to the time . " It 's just gone half past two]_{4629-a man whose appreciative powers justified the inference that he was equal to the time . " it 's just gone half past two} . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " That 's not so bad , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , reflecting ; " even if [I]_{4614-the sergeant} was forced to halt here nigh two hours , that 'll do . How far might [you]_{4614-the sergeant} call [yourselves]_{4614-the sergeant} from [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , hereabouts ? Not above a mile , [I]_{4614-the sergeant} reckon ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " Just a mile , "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . " That 'll do . [We]_4631-we begin to close in upon ['em]_4632-'em about dusk . A little before dusk , [my]_154-joe orders are . That 'll do . "_[154-joe] " [Convicts]_{4633-convicts} , [sergeant]_{4634-sergeant} ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} asked [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , in a matter - of - course way . " Ay ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} returned [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , " two . [They]_{4633-convicts} 're pretty well known to be out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} still , and [they]_{4633-convicts} wo n't try to get clear of ['em]_4632-'em before dusk . Anybody here seen anything of any such game ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [Everybody]_{678-everybody} , [myself]_0-i excepted , said no , with confidence . [Nobody]_4527-nobody thought of [me]_0-i . " Well ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , " [they]_{4633-convicts} 'll find [themselves]_{4633-convicts} trapped in a circle , [I]_{4614-the sergeant} expect , sooner than [they]_{4633-convicts} count on . Now , [blacksmith]_{4472-blacksmith} ! If [you]_{4472-blacksmith} 're ready , [[his]_725-his Majesty [the King]_{707-the king}]_{4637-his majesty the king} is . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [Joe]_154-joe had got [his]_725-his coat and waistcoat and cravat off , and [his]_725-his leather apron on , and passed into [the forge]_{488-the forge} . [One of [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers}]_{727-one of the soldiers} opened [its]_{727-one of the soldiers} wooden windows , another lighted the fire , another turned to at the bellows , the rest stood round the blaze , which was soon roaring . Then [Joe]_154-joe began to hammer and clink , hammer and clink , and [we]_729-we all looked on . The interest of the impending pursuit not only absorbed the general attention , but even made [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} liberal . [She]_{402-my sister} drew a pitcher of beer from the cask for [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} , and invited [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} to take a glass of brandy . But [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} said , sharply , " Give [him]_{4614-the sergeant} wine , [Mum]_174-mum . [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 'll engage there 's no Tar in that : "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} so , [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} thanked [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and said that as [he]_{4614-the sergeant} preferred [his]_{4614-the sergeant} drink without tar , [he]_{4614-the sergeant} would take wine , if it was equally convenient . When it was given [him]_{4614-the sergeant} , [he]_{4614-the sergeant} drank [[his]_{4614-the sergeant} Majesty]_{4627-his majesty} 's health and compliments of the season , and took it all at a mouthful and smacked [his]_{4614-the sergeant} lips . " Good stuff , eh , [sergeant]_{4634-sergeant} ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " [I]_{4614-the sergeant} 'll tell [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} something , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} returned [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} ; " [I]_{4614-the sergeant} suspect that stuff 's of [your]_{176-mr. pumblechook} providing . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , with a fat sort of laugh , said , " Ay , ay ? Why ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Because , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} returned [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , clapping [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} on the shoulder , " [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 're [a man that knows what 's what]_{4640-a man that knows what 's what} . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " D'ye think so ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , with [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} former laugh . " Have another glass ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " With [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . [Hob]_182-hob and nob , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} returned [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} . " The top of mine to the foot of [yours]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , - the foot of [yours]_{176-mr. pumblechook} to the top of [mine]_{4614-the sergeant} , - Ring once , ring twice , - the best tune on the Musical Glasses ! [Your]_{176-mr. pumblechook} health . May [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} live a thousand years , and never be [a worse judge of the right sort]_{4641-a worse judge of the right sort} than [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} are at the present moment of [your]_{176-mr. pumblechook} life ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} tossed off [his]_{4614-the sergeant} glass again and seemed quite ready for another glass . [I]_0-i noticed that [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hospitality appeared to forget that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had made a present of the wine , but took the bottle from [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe and had all the credit of handing it about in a gush of joviality . Even [I]_0-i got some . And [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was so very free of the wine that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} even called for the other bottle , and handed that about with the same liberality , when the first was gone . As [I]_0-i watched [them]_739-they while [they]_739-they all stood clustering about [the forge]_{488-the forge} , enjoying [themselves]_739-they so much , [I]_0-i thought what terrible good sauce for a dinner [[my]_0-i fugitive friend on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes}]_{741-my fugitive friend on the marshes} was . [They]_739-they had not enjoyed [themselves]_739-they a quarter so much , before the entertainment was brightened with the excitement [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} furnished . And now , when [they]_739-they were all in lively anticipation of " [the two villains]_{4642-the two villains} "_[154-joe] being taken , and when the bellows seemed to roar for [the fugitives]_{743-the fugitives} , the fire to flare for [them]_{743-the fugitives} , the smoke to hurry away in pursuit of [them]_{743-the fugitives} , [Joe]_154-joe to hammer and clink for [them]_{743-the fugitives} , and all the murky shadows on the wall to shake at [them]_{743-the fugitives} in menace as the blaze rose and sank , and the red - hot sparks dropped and died , the pale afternoon outside almost seemed in [[my]_0-i pitying young fancy]_{744-my pitying young fancy} to have turned pale on [their]_739-they account , poor wretches . At last , [Joe]_154-joe 's job was done , and the ringing and roaring stopped . As [Joe]_154-joe got on [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} coat , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} mustered courage to propose that [some of [us]_746-us]_{745-some of us} should go down with [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} and see what came of the hunt . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} declined , on the plea of a pipe and [ladies ' society]_{748-ladies ' society} ; but [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} said [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} would go , if [Joe]_154-joe would . [Joe]_154-joe said [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was agreeable , and would take [me]_0-i , if [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe approved . [We]_746-us never should have got leave to go , [I]_0-i am sure , but for [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's curiosity to know all about it and how it ended . As it was , [she]_154-joe merely stipulated , " If [you]_154-joe bring [the boy]_{4532-the boy} back with [his]_{4532-the boy} head blown to bits by a musket , do n't look to [me]_154-joe to put it together again . "_[154-joe] [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} took a polite leave of [the ladies]_{750-the ladies} , and parted from [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} as from [a comrade]_{751-a comrade} ; though [I]_0-i doubt if [he]_{4614-the sergeant} were quite as fully sensible of [that gentleman]_{752-that gentleman} 's merits under arid conditions , as when something moist was going . [[His]_{4614-the sergeant} men]_{714-his men} resumed [their]_{714-his men} muskets and fell in . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , [Joe]_154-joe , and [I]_0-i , received strict charge to keep in the rear , and to speak no word after [we]_754-we reached [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . When [we]_754-we were all out in the raw air and were steadily moving towards [our]_754-we business , [I]_0-i treasonably whispered to [Joe]_154-joe , " [I]_154-joe hope , [Joe]_154-joe , [we]_754-we sha n't find [them]_4644-them . "_[154-joe] and [Joe]_154-joe whispered to [me]_0-i , " [I]_154-joe 'd give a shilling if [they]_4644-them had cut and run , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[154-joe] [We]_754-we were joined by [[no stragglers]_{756-no stragglers} from [the village]_{758-the village}]_{757-no stragglers from the village} , for the weather was cold and threatening , the way dreary , the footing bad , darkness coming on , and [the people]_{759-the people} had good fires in - doors and were keeping the day . [A few faces]_{760-a few faces} hurried to glowing windows and looked after [us]_754-we , but none came out . [We]_754-we passed the finger - post , and held straight on to [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} . There [we]_754-we were stopped a few minutes by a signal from [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} 's hand , while [two or three of [[his]_{4614-the sergeant} men]_{714-his men}]_{763-two or three of his men} dispersed [themselves]_{763-two or three of his men} among [the graves]_{765-the graves} , and also examined [the porch]_{766-the porch} . [They]_{763-two or three of his men} came in again without finding anything , and then [we]_754-we struck out on [the open marshes]_{767-the open marshes} , through the gate at the side of [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} . A bitter sleet came rattling against [us]_754-we here on the east wind , and [Joe]_154-joe took [me]_0-i on [his]_{4614-the sergeant} back . Now that [we]_754-we were out upon [the dismal wilderness]_{769-the dismal wilderness} where [they]_{763-two or three of his men} little thought [I]_0-i had been within eight or nine hours and had seen [both men]_{770-both men} hiding , [I]_0-i considered for the first time , with great dread , if [we]_754-we should come upon [them]_{763-two or three of his men} , would [[my]_0-i particular convict]_{771-my particular convict} suppose that it was [I]_0-i who had brought [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} [there]_4505-there ? [He]_{771-my particular convict} had asked [me]_0-i if [I]_0-i was [a deceiving imp]_{4549-a deceiving imp} , and [he]_{771-my particular convict} had said [I]_0-i should be a fierce young hound if [I]_0-i joined the hunt against [him]_{771-my particular convict} . Would [he]_{771-my particular convict} believe that [I]_0-i was both imp and hound in treacherous earnest , and had betrayed [him]_{771-my particular convict} ? It was of no use asking [myself]_0-i this question now . There [I]_0-i was , on [Joe]_154-joe 's back , and there was [Joe]_154-joe beneath [me]_0-i , charging at the ditches like [a hunter]_{775-a hunter} , and stimulating [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} not to tumble on [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} Roman nose , and to keep up with [us]_776-us . [The soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} were in front of [us]_776-us , extending into a pretty wide line with an interval between [man]_4518-man and [man]_4518-man . [We]_776-us were taking the course [I]_0-i had begun with , and from which [I]_0-i had diverged in the mist . Either the mist was not out again yet , or the wind had dispelled it . Under the low red glare of sunset , the beacon , and the gibbet , and [the mound of [the Battery]_{570-the battery}]_{780-the mound of the battery} , and [the opposite shore of [the river]_{413-the river}]_{782-the opposite shore of the river} , were plain , though all of a watery lead color . With [my]_0-i heart thumping like a blacksmith at [Joe]_154-joe 's broad shoulder , [I]_0-i looked all about for any sign of [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} . [I]_0-i could see none , [I]_0-i could hear none . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had greatly alarmed [me]_0-i more than once , by [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} blowing and hard breathing ; but [I]_0-i knew the sounds by this time , and could dissociate them from the object of pursuit . [I]_0-i got a dreadful start , when [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i heard the file still going ; but it was only a sheep - bell . The sheep stopped in [their]_785-their eating and looked timidly at [us]_786-we ; and the cattle , [their]_785-their heads turned from the wind and sleet , stared angrily as if [they]_785-their held [us]_786-we responsible for both annoyances ; but , except these things , and the shudder of the dying day in every blade of grass , there was no break in the bleak stillness of [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . [The soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} were moving on in the direction of [the old Battery]_{789-the old battery} , and [we]_786-we were moving on a little way behind [them]_{4560-the soldiers} , when , all of a sudden , [we]_786-we all stopped . For there had reached [us]_786-we on the wings of the wind and rain , a long shout . It was repeated . It was at a distance towards [the east]_{790-the east} , but it was long and loud . Nay , there seemed to be two or more shouts raised together , - if one might judge from a confusion in the sound . To this effect [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} and [the nearest men]_{792-the nearest men} were speaking under [their]_785-their breath , when [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i came up . After another moment 's listening , [Joe]_154-joe who was [a good judge]_{793-a good judge} agreed , and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} who was [a bad judge]_{794-a bad judge} agreed . [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , [a decisive man]_{796-a decisive man} , ordered that the sound should not be answered , but that the course should be changed , and that [[his]_{4614-the sergeant} men]_{714-his men} should make towards it " at the double . "_{[796-a decisive man]} So [we]_786-we slanted to the right where [the East]_{790-the east} was , and [Joe]_154-joe pounded away so wonderfully , that [I]_0-i had to hold on tight to keep [my]_0-i seat . It was a run indeed now , and what [Joe]_154-joe called , in the only two words [he]_799-he spoke all the time , " [a Winder]_{4645-a winder} . "_[799-he] Down banks and up banks , and over [gates]_800-gates , and splashing into dikes , and breaking among coarse rushes : [no man]_{801-no man} cared where [he]_799-he went . As [we]_786-we came nearer to the shouting , it became more and more apparent that it was made by more than one voice . Sometimes , it seemed to stop altogether , and then [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} stopped . When it broke out again , [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} made for it at a greater rate than ever , and [we]_786-we after [them]_{4560-the soldiers} . After a while , [we]_786-we had so run it down , that [we]_786-we could hear [one voice calling " Murder]_{4646-one voice calling " murder} ! "_{[4646-one voice calling " murder]} and another voice , " [Convicts]_{4633-convicts} ! [Runaways]_{4648-runaways} ! [Guard]_4649-guard ! This way for [the runaway convicts]_{4650-the runaway convicts} ! "_{[4646-one voice calling " murder]} Then both voices would seem to be stifled in a struggle , and then would break out again . And when it had come to this , [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} ran like deer , and [Joe]_154-joe too . [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} ran in first , when [we]_786-we had run the noise quite down , and [two of [[his]_{4614-the sergeant} men]_{714-his men}]_{806-two of his men} ran in close upon [him]_{4614-the sergeant} . [Their]_{806-two of his men} pieces were cocked and levelled when [we]_786-we all ran in . " Here are [both men]_{770-both men} ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} panted [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , struggling at [the bottom of [a ditch]_{810-a ditch}]_{809-the bottom of a ditch} . " Surrender , [[you]_{770-both men} two]_{4652-you two} ! and confound [you]_{770-both men} for two wild beasts ! Come asunder ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} Water was splashing , and mud was flying , and oaths were being sworn , and blows were being struck , when [some more men]_{811-some more men} went down into [the ditch]_{577-the ditch} to help [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , and dragged out , separately , [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} and [the other one]_{815-the other one} . [Both]_816-both were bleeding and panting and execrating and struggling ; but of course [I]_0-i knew [them]_816-both both directly . " Mind ! "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} , wiping blood from [his]_{814-my convict} face with [his]_{814-my convict} ragged sleeves , and shaking torn hair from [his]_{814-my convict} fingers : " [I]_{814-my convict} took [him]_{814-my convict} ! [I]_{814-my convict} give [him]_{814-my convict} up to [you]_{4614-the sergeant} ! Mind that ! "_{[814-my convict]} " It 's not much to be particular about , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} ; " it 'll do [you]_{4614-the sergeant} small good , [[my]_{4614-the sergeant} man]_{4653-my man} , being in the same plight [yourself]_{4614-the sergeant} . Handcuffs there ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " [I]_{814-my convict} do n't expect it to do [me]_{814-my convict} any good . [I]_{814-my convict} do n't want it to do [me]_{814-my convict} more good than it does now , "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} , with a greedy laugh . " [I]_{814-my convict} took [him]_{820-the other convict} . [He]_{820-the other convict} knows it . That 's enough for [me]_{814-my convict} . "_{[814-my convict]} [The other convict]_{820-the other convict} was livid to look at , and , in addition to the old bruised left side of [his]_{820-the other convict} face , seemed to be bruised and torn all over . [He]_{820-the other convict} could not so much as get [his]_{820-the other convict} breath to speak , until [they]_821-they were both separately handcuffed , but leaned upon [a soldier]_{822-a soldier} to keep [himself]_{820-the other convict} from falling . " Take notice , [guard]_4649-guard , - [he]_{820-the other convict} tried to murder [me]_{820-the other convict} , "_{[820-the other convict]} were [his]_{820-the other convict} first words . " Tried to murder [him]_{820-the other convict} ? "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} , disdainfully . " Try , and not do it ? [I]_{815-the other one} took [him]_{820-the other convict} , and giv ' [him]_{820-the other convict} up ; that 's what [I]_{815-the other one} done . [I]_{815-the other one} not only prevented [him]_{820-the other convict} getting off [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , but [I]_{815-the other one} dragged [him]_{820-the other convict} [here]_693-here , - dragged [him]_{820-the other convict} this far on [his]_{820-the other convict} way back . [He]_{820-the other convict} 's [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , if [you]_4658-you please , [this villain]_{4659-this villain} . Now , [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} has got [its gentleman]_{4660-its gentleman} again , through [me]_{815-the other one} . Murder [him]_{820-the other convict} ? Worth [my]_{815-the other one} while , too , to murder [him]_{820-the other convict} , when [I]_{815-the other one} could do worse and drag [him]_{820-the other convict} back ! "_{[815-the other one]} [The other one]_{815-the other one} still gasped , " [He]_{820-the other convict} tried - [he]_{820-the other convict} tried - to - murder [me]_{815-the other one} . [Bear - bear witness]_{4661-bear - bear witness} . "_{[815-the other one]} " Lookee here ! "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} to [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} . " Single - handed [I]_827-i got clear of [the prison - ship]_{4662-the prison - ship} ; [I]_827-i made a dash and [I]_827-i done it . [I]_827-i could ha ' got clear of these death - cold flats likewise - look at [my]_827-i leg : [you]_{4614-the sergeant} wo n't find much iron on it - if [I]_827-i had n't made the discovery that [he]_{820-the other convict} was here . Let [him]_{820-the other convict} go free ? Let [him]_{820-the other convict} profit by the means as [I]_827-i found out ? Let [him]_{820-the other convict} make a tool of [me]_827-i afresh and again ? Once more ? No , no , no . If [I]_827-i had died at the bottom there , "_[827-i] and [he]_827-i made an emphatic swing at the ditch with [his]_827-i manacled hands , " [I]_{828-the other fugitive} 'd have held to [him]_{820-the other convict} with that grip , that [you]_{4614-the sergeant} should have been safe to find [him]_{820-the other convict} in [my]_{828-the other fugitive} hold . "_{[828-the other fugitive]} [The other fugitive]_{828-the other fugitive} , who was evidently in extreme horror of [[his]_{828-the other fugitive} companion]_{829-his companion} , repeated , " [He]_{820-the other convict} tried to murder [me]_{828-the other fugitive} . [I]_{828-the other fugitive} should have been [a dead man]_{4663-a dead man} if [you]_{4614-the sergeant} had not come up . "_{[828-the other fugitive]} " [He]_{820-the other convict} lies ! "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} , with fierce energy . " [He]_{820-the other convict} 's [a liar born]_{4664-a liar born} , and [he]_{820-the other convict} 'll die [a liar]_{4665-a liar} . Look at [his]_{820-the other convict} face ; ai n't it written there ? Let [him]_{820-the other convict} turn those eyes of [his]_{820-the other convict} on [me]_{831-the other} . [I]_{831-the other} defy [him]_{820-the other convict} to do it . "_{[831-the other]} [The other]_{831-the other} , with an effort at a scornful smile , which could not , however , collect the nervous working of [his]_{831-the other} mouth into any set expression , looked at [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} , and looked about at [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} and at the sky , but certainly did not look at [the speaker]_{834-the speaker} . " Do [you]_{814-my convict} see [him]_{820-the other convict} ? "_{[814-my convict]} pursued [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} . " Do [you]_{814-my convict} see what [a villain]_{4666-a villain} [he]_{820-the other convict} is ? Do [you]_{814-my convict} see those grovelling and wandering eyes ? That 's how [he]_{820-the other convict} looked when [we]_4667-we were tried together . [He]_{820-the other convict} never looked at [me]_{831-the other} . "_{[831-the other]} [The other]_{831-the other} , always working and working [his]_{831-the other} dry lips and turning [his]_{831-the other} eyes restlessly about [him]_{831-the other} far and near , did at last turn them for a moment on [the speaker]_{834-the speaker} , with the words , " [You]_{814-my convict} are not much to look at , "_{[834-the speaker]} and with a half - taunting glance at the bound hands . At that point , [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} became so frantically exasperated , that [he]_{814-my convict} would have rushed upon [him]_{831-the other} but for the interposition of [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} . " Did n't [I]_{820-the other convict} tell [you]_{814-my convict} , "_{[820-the other convict]} said [the other convict]_{820-the other convict} then , " that [he]_{831-the other} would murder [me]_{820-the other convict} , if [he]_{831-the other} could ? "_{[820-the other convict]} And [any one]_{841-any one} could see that [he]_{831-the other} shook with fear , and that there broke out upon [his]_{831-the other} lips curious white flakes , like thin snow . " Enough of [this parley]_{4668-this parley} , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} . " Light those torches . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} As one of [the soldiers , who carried a basket in lieu of a gun]_{843-the soldiers , who carried a basket in lieu of a gun} , went down on [his]_{831-the other} knee to open it , [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} looked round [him]_{831-the other} for the first time , and saw [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i had alighted from [Joe]_154-joe 's back on [the brink of the ditch]_{845-the brink of the ditch} when [we]_846-we came up , and had not moved since . [I]_0-i looked at [him]_{831-the other} eagerly when [he]_{831-the other} looked at [me]_0-i , and slightly moved [my]_0-i hands and shook [my]_0-i head . [I]_0-i had been waiting for [him]_{831-the other} to see [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i might try to assure [him]_{831-the other} of [my]_0-i innocence . It was not at all expressed to [me]_0-i that [he]_{831-the other} even comprehended [my]_0-i intention , for [he]_{831-the other} gave [me]_0-i a look that [I]_0-i did not understand , and it all passed in a moment . But if [he]_{831-the other} had looked at [me]_0-i for an hour or for a day , [I]_0-i could not have remembered [his]_{831-the other} face ever afterwards , as having been more attentive . [The soldier with the basket]_{847-the soldier with the basket} soon got a light , and lighted three or four torches , and took one [himself]_{847-the soldier with the basket} and distributed the others . It had been almost dark before , but now it seemed quite dark , and soon afterwards very dark . Before [we]_848-we departed from that spot , [four soldiers standing in a ring , fired twice into the air]_{849-four soldiers standing in a ring , fired twice into the air} . Presently [we]_848-we saw other torches kindled at some distance behind [us]_848-we , and others on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} on [the opposite bank of [the river]_{413-the river}]_{851-the opposite bank of the river} . " All right , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} . " March . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [We]_848-we had not gone far when three cannon were fired ahead of [us]_848-we with a sound that seemed to burst something inside [my]_0-i ear . " [You]_{814-my convict} are expected on board , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} to [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} ; " [they]_4669-they know [you]_{814-my convict} are coming . Do n't straggle , [[my]_{4614-the sergeant} man]_{4653-my man} . Close up here . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} [The two]_{856-the two} were kept apart , and each walked surrounded by [a separate guard]_{857-a separate guard} . [I]_0-i had hold of [Joe]_154-joe 's hand now , and [Joe]_154-joe carried one of the torches . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had been for going back , but [Joe]_154-joe was resolved to see it out , so [we]_848-we went on with the party . There was [a reasonably good path]_{858-a reasonably good path} now , mostly on [the edge of [the river]_{413-the river}]_{859-the edge of the river} , with a divergence here and there where [a dike]_{861-a dike} came , with a miniature windmill on [it]_{861-a dike} and a muddy sluice - gate . When [I]_0-i looked round , [I]_0-i could see the other lights coming in after [us]_848-we . The torches [we]_848-we carried dropped great blotches of fire upon the track , and [I]_0-i could see those , too , lying smoking and flaring . [I]_0-i could see nothing else but black darkness . [Our]_848-we lights warmed the air about [us]_848-we with their pitchy blaze , and [the two prisoners]_{862-the two prisoners} seemed rather to like that , as [they]_{862-the two prisoners} limped along in the midst of the muskets . [We]_848-we could not go fast , because of [their]_{862-the two prisoners} lameness ; and [they]_{862-the two prisoners} were so spent , that two or three times [we]_848-we had to halt while [they]_{862-the two prisoners} rested . After an hour or so of this travelling , [we]_848-we came to [a rough wooden hut]_{863-a rough wooden hut} and [a landing - place]_{864-a landing - place} . There was [a guard]_{865-a guard} in [the hut]_{866-the hut} , and [they]_{862-the two prisoners} challenged , and [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} answered . Then , [we]_848-we went into [the hut]_{866-the hut} , where there was a smell of tobacco and whitewash , and a bright fire , and a lamp , and a stand of muskets , and a drum , and a low wooden bedstead , like an overgrown mangle without the machinery , capable of holding about [a dozen soldiers all at once]_{869-a dozen soldiers all at once} . [Three or four soldiers who lay upon it]_{870-three or four soldiers who lay upon it} in [their]_{870-three or four soldiers who lay upon it} great - coats were not much interested in [us]_848-we , but just lifted [their]_{870-three or four soldiers who lay upon it} heads and took a sleepy stare , and then lay down again . [The sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} made some kind of report , and some entry in a book , and then [the convict whom [I]_0-i call [the other convict]_{820-the other convict}]_{872-the convict whom i call the other convict} was drafted off with [[his]_{872-the convict whom i call the other convict} guard]_{874-his guard} , to go on board first . [[My]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} never looked at [me]_0-i , except that once . While [we]_848-we stood in [the hut]_{866-the hut} , [he]_{814-my convict} stood before the fire looking thoughtfully at it , or putting up [his]_{814-my convict} feet by turns upon the hob , and looking thoughtfully at [them]_877-them as if [he]_{814-my convict} pitied [them]_877-them for [their]_877-them recent adventures . Suddenly , [he]_{814-my convict} turned to [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , and remarked , - " [I]_{814-my convict} wish to say something respecting this escape . It may prevent [some persons laying under suspicion]_{4671-some persons laying under suspicion} alonger [me]_{814-my convict} . "_{[814-my convict]} " [You]_{814-my convict} can say what [you]_{814-my convict} like , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} returned [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , standing coolly looking at [him]_{814-my convict} with [his]_{4614-the sergeant} arms folded , " but [you]_{814-my convict} have no call to say it here . [You]_{814-my convict} 'll have opportunity enough to say about it , and hear about it , before it 's done with , [you]_{814-my convict} know . "_{[814-my convict]} " [I]_{4614-the sergeant} know , but this is another pint , a separate matter . [A man]_{428-a man} ca n't starve ; at least [I]_{4614-the sergeant} ca n't . [I]_{4614-the sergeant} took some wittles , up at [the willage over yonder]_{4673-the willage over yonder} , - where [the church]_{439-the church} stands a'most out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " [You]_{814-my convict} mean stole , "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} . " And [I]_{4614-the sergeant} 'll tell [you]_154-joe where from . From [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} 's . "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_{[4614-the sergeant]} said [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , staring at [Joe]_154-joe . " [Halloa]_167-halloa , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , staring at [me]_0-i . " It was some broken wittles - that 's what it was - and a dram of liquor , and a pie . "_[154-joe] " Have [you]_154-joe happened to miss such an article as a pie , [blacksmith]_{4472-blacksmith} ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} asked [the sergeant]_{4614-the sergeant} , confidentially . " [[My]_{4614-the sergeant} wife]_{4678-my wife} did , at the very moment when [you]_154-joe came in . Do n't [you]_154-joe know , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[4614-the sergeant]} " So , "_{[814-my convict]} said [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} , turning [his]_{814-my convict} eyes on [Joe]_154-joe in a moody manner , and without the least glance at [me]_0-i , - ' so [you]_154-joe 're [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} , are [you]_154-joe ? Than [I]_0-i 'm sorry to say , [I]_0-i 've eat [your]_154-joe pie . " "_[0-i] God knows [you]_154-joe 're welcome to it , - so far as it was ever [mine]_154-joe , " returned [Joe]_154-joe , with a saving remembrance of [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . "_[885-we] [We]_885-we do n't know what [you]_154-joe have done , but [we]_885-we would n't have [you]_154-joe starved to death for it , [poor miserable fellow - creatur]_{886-poor miserable fellow - creatur} . - Would [us]_885-we , [Pip]_241-pip ? " The something that [I]_241-pip had noticed before , clicked in [the man]_{433-the man} 's throat again , and [he]_{433-the man} turned [his]_{433-the man} back . [The boat]_{4680-the boat} had returned , and [[his]_{433-the man} guard]_{874-his guard} were ready , so [we]_885-we followed [him]_{433-the man} to the landing - place made of rough stakes and stones , and saw [him]_{433-the man} put into [the boat]_{4680-the boat} , which was rowed by [a crew of convicts like [himself]_{433-the man}]_{4683-a crew of convicts like himself} . [No one]_{4550-no one} seemed surprised to see [him]_{433-the man} , or interested in seeing [him]_{433-the man} , or glad to see [him]_{433-the man} , or sorry to see [him]_{433-the man} , or spoke a word , except that [somebody in [the boat]_{4680-the boat}]_{4685-somebody in the boat} growled as if to dogs , "_[241-pip] Give way , [you]_887-i ! " which was the signal for the dip of the oars . By the light of the torches , [we]_885-we saw the black Hulk lying out a little way from [the mud of [the shore]_{4688-the shore}]_{4687-the mud of the shore} , like [a wicked [Noah]_183-noah 's ark]_{4689-a wicked noah 's ark} . Cribbed and barred and moored by massive rusty chains , [the prison - ship]_{4662-the prison - ship} seemed in [my]_887-i young eyes to be ironed like [the prisoners]_{4691-the prisoners} . [We]_885-we saw [the boat]_{4680-the boat} go alongside , and [we]_885-we saw [him]_{433-the man} taken up the side and disappear . Then , the ends of the torches were flung hissing into the water , and went out , as if it were all over with [him]_{433-the man} . Chapter VI [My]_887-i state of mind regarding the pilfering from which [I]_887-i had been so unexpectedly exonerated did not impel [me]_887-i to frank disclosure ; but [I]_887-i hope it had some dregs of good at the bottom of it . [I]_887-i do not recall that [I]_887-i felt any tenderness of conscience in reference to [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , when the fear of being found out was lifted off [me]_887-i . But [I]_887-i loved [Joe]_154-joe , - perhaps for no better reason in those early days than because [the dear fellow]_{4693-the dear fellow} let [me]_887-i love [him]_{433-the man} , - and , as to [him]_{433-the man} , [my]_887-i inner self was not so easily composed . It was much upon [my]_887-i mind particularly when [I]_887-i first saw [him]_{433-the man} looking about for [his]_{433-the man} file that [I]_887-i ought to tell [Joe]_154-joe the whole truth . Yet [I]_887-i did not , and for the reason that [I]_887-i mistrusted that if [I]_887-i did , [he]_{433-the man} would think [me]_887-i worse than [I]_887-i was . The fear of losing [Joe]_154-joe 's confidence , and of thenceforth sitting in the chimney corner at night staring drearily at [[my]_887-i forever lost companion]_{4694-my forever lost companion} and [friend]_4695-friend , tied up [my]_887-i tongue . [I]_887-i morbidly represented to [myself]_887-i that if [Joe]_154-joe knew it , [I]_887-i never afterwards could see [him]_{433-the man} at the fireside feeling [his]_{433-the man} fair whisker , without thinking that [he]_{433-the man} was meditating on it . That , if [Joe]_154-joe knew it , [I]_887-i never afterwards could see [him]_{433-the man} glance , however casually , at yesterday 's meat or pudding when it came on to - day 's table , without thinking that [he]_{433-the man} was debating whether [I]_887-i had been in [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} . That , if [Joe]_154-joe knew it , and at any subsequent period of [our]_4697-our joint domestic life remarked that [his]_{433-the man} beer was flat or thick , the conviction that [he]_{433-the man} suspected Tar in it , would bring a rush of blood to [my]_887-i face . In a word , [I]_887-i was too cowardly to do what [I]_887-i knew to be right , as [I]_887-i had been too cowardly to avoid doing what [I]_887-i knew to be wrong . [I]_887-i had had no intercourse with [the world]_{4698-the world} at that time , and [I]_887-i imitated [none of its many inhabitants who act in this manner]_{4699-none of its many inhabitants who act in this manner} . Quite [an untaught genius]_{4700-an untaught genius} , [I]_887-i made the discovery of the line of action for [myself]_887-i . As [I]_887-i was sleepy before [we]_4697-our were far away from [the prison - ship]_{4662-the prison - ship} , [Joe]_154-joe took [me]_887-i on [his]_{433-the man} back again and carried [me]_887-i [home]_4495-home . [He]_{433-the man} must have had a tiresome journey of it , for [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , being knocked up , was in such a very bad temper that if [the Church]_{439-the church} had been thrown open , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} would probably have excommunicated the whole expedition , beginning with [Joe]_154-joe and [myself]_887-i . In [his]_{433-the man} lay capacity , [he]_{433-the man} persisted in sitting down in the damp to such an insane extent , that when [his]_{433-the man} coat was taken off to be dried at the [kitchen]_605-kitchen fire , the circumstantial evidence on [his]_{433-the man} trousers would have hanged [him]_{433-the man} , if it had been a capital offence . By that time , [I]_887-i was staggering on the [kitchen]_605-kitchen floor like [a little drunkard]_{4706-a little drunkard} , through having been newly set upon [my]_887-i feet , and through having been fast asleep , and through waking in the heat and lights and noise of tongues . As [I]_887-i came to [myself]_887-i with the aid of a heavy thump between the shoulders , and the restorative exclamation "_[887-i] [Yah]_888-yah ! Was there ever such [a boy as this]_{889-a boy as this} ! " from [[my]_{890-wife of the above} sister]_{402-my sister} , [I]_{890-wife of the above} found [Joe]_154-joe telling [them]_4708-them about [the convict]_{4709-the convict} 's confession , and [all the visitors]_{4710-all the visitors} suggesting different ways by which [he]_{433-the man} had got into [the pantry]_{551-the pantry} . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} made out , after carefully surveying [the premises]_{4712-the premises} , that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had first got upon the roof of [the forge]_{488-the forge} , and had then got upon the roof of [the house]_{604-the house} , and had then let [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} down the [kitchen]_605-kitchen chimney by a rope made of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} bedding cut into strips ; and as [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was very positive and drove [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} own chaise - cart - over [Everybody]_{184-everybody} - it was agreed that it must be so . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , indeed , wildly cried out , "_{[890-wife of the above]} No ! " with the feeble malice of [a tired man]_{4716-a tired man} ; but , as [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had no theory , and no coat on , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was unanimously set at naught , - not to mention [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} smoking hard behind , as [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} stood with [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} back to the kitchen fire to draw the damp out : which was not calculated to inspire confidence . This was all [I]_{890-wife of the above} heard that night before [[my]_{890-wife of the above} sister]_{402-my sister} clutched [me]_{890-wife of the above} , as a slumberous offence to [the company]_{648-the company} 's eyesight , and assisted [me]_{890-wife of the above} up to bed with such a strong hand that [I]_{890-wife of the above} seemed to have fifty boots on , and to be dangling them all against the edges of the stairs . [My]_{890-wife of the above} state of mind , as [I]_{890-wife of the above} have described it , began before [I]_{890-wife of the above} was up in the morning , and lasted long after the subject had died out , and had ceased to be mentioned saving on exceptional occasions . Chapter VII At the time when [I]_{890-wife of the above} stood in [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} reading the family tombstones , [I]_{890-wife of the above} had just enough learning to be able to spell them out . [My]_{890-wife of the above} construction even of their simple meaning was not very correct , for [I]_{890-wife of the above} read "_{[890-wife of the above]} [wife of the Above]_{890-wife of the above} " as a complimentary reference to [[my]_{890-wife of the above} father]_{400-my father} 's exaltation to a better world ; and if [any one of [[my]_{890-wife of the above} deceased relations]_{4722-my deceased relations}]_{4721-any one of my deceased relations} had been referred to as "_{[890-wife of the above]} Below , " [I]_{890-wife of the above} have no doubt [I]_{890-wife of the above} should have formed the worst opinions of [that member of [the family]_{4724-the family}]_{4723-that member of the family} . Neither were [my]_{890-wife of the above} notions of the theological positions to which [my]_{890-wife of the above} Catechism bound [me]_{890-wife of the above} , at all accurate ; for , [I]_{890-wife of the above} have a lively remembrance that [I]_{890-wife of the above} supposed [my]_{890-wife of the above} declaration that [I]_{890-wife of the above} was to "_{[890-wife of the above]} walk in the same all the days of [my]_0-i life , " laid [me]_{890-wife of the above} under an obligation always to go through [the village]_{758-the village} from [[our]_4726-our house]_{482-our house} in one particular direction , and never to vary it by turning down by the [wheelwright 's]_{4728-wheelwright 's} or up by [the mill]_{4729-the mill} . When [I]_{890-wife of the above} was old enough , [I]_{890-wife of the above} was to be apprenticed to [Joe]_154-joe , and until [I]_{890-wife of the above} could assume that dignity [I]_{890-wife of the above} was not to be what [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe called "_{[890-wife of the above]} Pompeyed , " or as [I]_{890-wife of the above} render it pampered . Therefore , [I]_{890-wife of the above} was not only [odd - boy about [the forge]_{488-the forge}]_{4730-odd - boy about the forge} , but if [any neighbor]_{4732-any neighbor} happened to want [an extra boy]_{4733-an extra boy} to frighten birds , or pick up stones , or do any such job , [I]_{890-wife of the above} was favored with the employment . In order , however , that [our]_4726-our superior position might not be compromised thereby , a money - box was kept on the kitchen mantel - shelf , in to which it was publicly made known that all [my]_{890-wife of the above} earnings were dropped . [I]_{890-wife of the above} have an impression that they were to be contributed eventually towards the liquidation of the National Debt , but [I]_{890-wife of the above} know [I]_{890-wife of the above} had no hope of any personal participation in the treasure . [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} kept [an evening school in [the village]_{758-the village}]_{4735-an evening school in the village} ; that is to say , [she]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} was [a ridiculous old woman of limited means and unlimited infirmity , who used to go to sleep from six to seven every evening]_{4737-a ridiculous old woman of limited means and unlimited infirmity , who used to go to sleep from six to seven every evening} , in [the society of youth who paid two pence per week each]_{4738-the society of youth who paid two pence per week each} , for the improving opportunity of seeing [her]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} do it . [She]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} rented [a small cottage]_{4739-a small cottage} , and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had [the room]_{633-the room} up stairs , where [[we]_4726-our students]_{4741-we students} used to overhear [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} reading aloud in a most dignified and terrific manner , and occasionally bumping on the ceiling . There was a fiction that [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} "_{[890-wife of the above]} examined " [the scholars]_{4742-the scholars} once a quarter . What [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} did on those occasions was to turn up [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} cuffs , stick up [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} hair , and give [us]_4726-our [Mark Antony]_{185-mark antony} 's oration over the body of [Caesar]_186-caesar . This was always followed by [Collins]_187-collins 's Ode on the Passions , wherein [I]_189-joe particularly venerated [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} as Revenge throwing [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} blood - stained sword in thunder down , and taking the War - denouncing trumpet with a withering look . It was not with [me]_189-joe then , as it was in later life , when [I]_189-joe fell into [the society of the Passions]_{4743-the society of the passions} , and compared [them]_{4743-the society of the passions} with [Collins]_187-collins and [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , rather to the disadvantage of [both gentlemen]_{4744-both gentlemen} . [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} , besides keeping [this Educational Institution]_{4746-this educational institution} , kept in [the same room]_{4747-the same room} - [a little general shop]_{4748-a little general shop} . [She]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} had no idea what stock [she]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} had , or what the price of anything in it was ; but there was a little greasy memorandum - book kept in a drawer , which served as a Catalogue of Prices , and by this oracle [Biddy]_188-biddy arranged all the shop transaction . [Biddy]_188-biddy was [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt 's granddaughter]_{4749-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt 's granddaughter} ; [I]_189-joe confess [myself]_189-joe quiet unequal to the working out of the problem , what relation [she]_188-biddy was to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . [She]_188-biddy was [an orphan like [myself]_189-joe]_{4750-an orphan like myself} ; like [me]_189-joe , too , had been brought up by hand . [She]_188-biddy was most noticeable , [I]_189-joe thought , in respect of [her]_188-biddy extremities ; for , [her]_188-biddy hair always wanted brushing , [her]_188-biddy hands always wanted washing , and [her]_188-biddy shoes always wanted mending and pulling up at heel . This description must be received with a week - day limitation . On Sundays , [she]_188-biddy went to [church]_622-church elaborated . Much of [[my]_189-joe unassisted self]_{4752-my unassisted self} , and more by the help of [Biddy]_188-biddy than of [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} , [I]_189-joe struggled through the alphabet as if it had been a bramble - bush ; getting considerably worried and scratched by every letter . After that [I]_189-joe fell among [those thieves]_{4754-those thieves} , the nine figures , who seemed every evening to do something new to disguise [themselves]_{4754-those thieves} and baffle recognition . But , at last [I]_189-joe began , in a purblind groping way , to read , write , and cipher , on the very smallest scale . One night [I]_189-joe was sitting in the chimney corner with [my]_189-joe slate , expending great efforts on the production of a letter to [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_189-joe think it must have been a full year after [our]_891-we hunt upon [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , for it was a long time after , and it was winter and a hard frost . With an alphabet on the hearth at [my]_189-joe feet for reference , [I]_189-joe contrived in an hour or two to print and smear this epistle : - "_[189-joe] [MI DEER JO]_189-joe [i]_0-i OPE U R KR WITE WELL [i]_0-i OPE [i]_0-i SHAL SON B HABELL 4 2 TEEDGE U [JO]_189-joe AN THEN [WE]_891-we SHORL B SO GLODD AN WEN [i]_0-i M PRENGTD 2 U JO WOT LARX AN BLEVE [ME]_0-i [INF XN PIP]_241-pip . " There was no indispensable necessity for [my]_0-i communicating with [Joe]_189-joe by letter , inasmuch as [he]_189-joe sat beside [me]_0-i and [we]_891-we were alone . But [I]_0-i delivered this written communication slate and all with [my]_0-i own hand , and [Joe]_189-joe received it as a miracle of erudition . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i say , [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! " cried [Joe]_189-joe , opening [his]_189-joe blue eyes wide , "_[241-pip] what [a scholar]_{893-a scholar} [you]_241-pip are ! An't [you]_241-pip ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should like to be , " said [I]_0-i , glancing at the slate as [he]_189-joe held it ; with a misgiving that the writing was rather hilly . "_[0-i] Why , here 's a J , " said [Joe]_189-joe , "_[241-pip] and a O equal to anythink ! Here 's a J and a O , [Pip]_241-pip , and a J - O , [Joe]_189-joe . " [I]_189-joe had never heard [Joe]_189-joe read aloud to any greater extent than this monosyllable , and [I]_189-joe had observed at [church]_622-church last Sunday , when [I]_189-joe accidentally held [our]_4757-our Prayer - Book upside down , that it seemed to suit [his]_189-joe convenience quite as well as if it had been all right . Wishing to embrace the present occasion of finding out whether in teaching [Joe]_189-joe , [I]_189-joe should have to begin quite at the beginning , [I]_189-joe said , "_[189-joe] Ah ! But read the rest , [Jo]_189-joe . " "_[189-joe] The rest , eh , [Pip]_241-pip ? " said [Joe]_189-joe , looking at it with a slow , searching eye , "_[241-pip] One , two , three . Why , here 's three Js , and three Os , and three J - O , Joes in it , [Pip]_241-pip ! " [I]_241-pip leaned over [Joe]_189-joe , and , with the aid of [my]_241-pip forefinger read [him]_189-joe the whole letter . "_[241-pip] Astonishing ! " said [Joe]_189-joe , when [I]_241-pip had finished . "_[241-pip] [You]_241-pip ARE [a scholar]_{893-a scholar} . " "_[241-pip] How do [you]_241-pip spell [Gargery]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe ? " [I]_241-pip asked [him]_189-joe , with a modest patronage . "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i do n't spell it at all , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[241-pip] But supposing [you]_241-pip did ? " "_[241-pip] It ca n't be supposed , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[241-pip] Tho ' [I]_0-i 'm uncommon fond of reading , too . " "_[0-i] Are [you]_241-pip , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] On - common . Give [me]_0-i , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[241-pip] a good book , or a good newspaper , and sit [me]_0-i down afore a good fire , and [I]_0-i ask no better . [Lord]_895-lord ! " [he]_0-i continued , after rubbing [his]_0-i knees a little , "_[895-lord] when [you]_241-pip do come to a J and a O , and says [you]_241-pip , " Here , at last , is a J - O , [Joe]_154-joe , how interesting reading is ! "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i derived from this , that [Joe]_154-joe 's education , like [Steam]_191-steam , was yet in its infancy , Pursuing the subject , [I]_0-i inquired , - " Did n't [you]_154-joe ever go to [school]_4758-school , [Joe]_154-joe , when [you]_154-joe were as little as [me]_0-i ? "_[0-i] " No , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[0-i] " Why did n't [you]_154-joe ever go to [school]_4758-school , [Joe]_154-joe , when [you]_154-joe were as little as [me]_0-i ? "_[0-i] " Well , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , taking up the poker , and settling [himself]_154-joe to [his]_896-my usual occupation when [he]_896-my was thoughtful , of slowly raking the fire between the lower bars ; " [I]_896-my 'll tell [you]_241-pip . [[My]_896-my father]_{400-my father} , [Pip]_241-pip , [he]_241-pip were given to drink , and when [he]_241-pip were overtook with drink , [he]_241-pip hammered away at [[my]_896-my mother]_{405-my mother} , most onmerciful . It were a'most the only hammering [he]_241-pip did , indeed , ' xcepting at [myself]_896-my . And [he]_241-pip hammered at [me]_896-my with a wigor only to be equalled by the wigor with which [he]_241-pip did n't hammer at [his]_241-pip anwil . - [You]_896-my 're a listening and understanding , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[896-my] " Yes , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[192-god] " ' Consequence , [[my]_896-my mother]_{405-my mother} and [me]_896-my [we]_4763-us ran away from [[my]_896-my father]_{400-my father} several times ; and then [[my]_896-my mother]_{405-my mother} [she]_{405-my mother} 'd go out to work , and [she]_{405-my mother} 'd say , "_[896-my] [Joe]_154-joe , " [she]_{405-my mother} 'd say , "_[154-joe] now , please [God]_192-god , [you]_154-joe shall have some schooling , [child]_897-child , " and [she]_{405-my mother} 'd put [me]_154-joe to [school]_4758-school . But [[my]_154-joe father]_{400-my father} were that good in [[his]_{400-my father} hart]_{4768-his hart} that [he]_{400-my father} could n't abear to be without [us]_4763-us . So , [he]_{400-my father} 'd come with [a most tremenjous crowd]_{4769-a most tremenjous crowd} and make such a row at the doors of [the houses where [we]_4763-us was]_{4770-the houses where we was} , that [they]_{4769-a most tremenjous crowd} used to be obligated to have no more to do with [us]_4763-us and to give [us]_4763-us up to [him]_{400-my father} . And then [he]_{400-my father} took [us]_4763-us [home]_4495-home and hammered [us]_4763-us . Which , [you]_0-i see , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , pausing in [his]_898-his meditative raking of the fire , and looking at [me]_0-i , " were a drawback on [my]_154-joe learning . "_[154-joe] " Certainly , poor [Joe]_154-joe ! "_[898-his] " Though mind [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , with a judicial touch or two of the poker on the top bar , " rendering unto all [their]_4772-their doo , and maintaining equal justice betwixt [man]_4518-man and [man]_4518-man , [[my]_154-joe father]_{400-my father} were that good in [[his]_{400-my father} hart]_{4768-his hart} , do n't [you]_0-i see ? "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i did n't see ; but [I]_0-i did n't say so . " Well ! "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe pursued , ' [somebody]_591-somebody must keep the pot a biling , [Pip]_241-pip , or the pot wo n't bile , do n't [you]_0-i know ? " [I]_0-i saw that , and said so . "_[0-i] ' Consequence , [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} did n't make objections to [my]_0-i going to work ; so [I]_0-i went to work to work at [my]_0-i present calling , which were [his]_{400-my father} too , if [he]_{400-my father} would have followed it , and [I]_0-i worked tolerable hard , [I]_0-i assure [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip . In time [I]_0-i were able to keep [him]_{400-my father} , and [I]_0-i kep [him]_{400-my father} till [he]_{400-my father} went off in a purple leptic fit . And it were [my]_0-i intentions to have had put upon [his]_{400-my father} tombstone that , Whatsume'er the failings on [his]_{400-my father} part , Remember reader [he]_{400-my father} were that good in [his]_{400-my father} heart . " [Joe]_154-joe recited this couplet with such manifest pride and careful perspicuity , that [I]_0-i asked [him]_0-i if [he]_0-i had made it [himself]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i made it , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] [[my]_0-i own self]_{901-my own self} . [I]_0-i made it in a moment . It was like striking out a horseshoe complete , in a single blow . [I]_0-i never was so much surprised in all [my]_0-i life , - could n't credit [my]_0-i own ed , - to tell [you]_902-you the truth , hardly believed it were [my]_0-i own ed . As [I]_0-i was saying , [Pip]_241-pip , it were [my]_0-i intentions to have had it cut over [him]_{400-my father} ; but poetry costs money , cut it how [you]_902-you will , small or large , and it were not done . Not to mention [bearers]_903-bearers , all the money that could be spared were wanted for [[my]_0-i mother]_{405-my mother} . [She]_{405-my mother} were in poor elth , and quite broke . [She]_{405-my mother} were n't long of following , [poor soul]_{905-poor soul} , and [her]_{405-my mother} share of peace come round at last . " [Joe]_154-joe 's blue eyes turned a little watery ; [he]_0-i rubbed first one of them , and then the other , in a most uncongenial and uncomfortable manner , with the round knob on the top of the poker . "_{[405-my mother]} It were but lonesome then , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_{[405-my mother]} living here alone , and [I]_0-i got acquainted with [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} . Now , [Pip]_241-pip , " - [Joe]_154-joe looked firmly at [me]_241-pip as if [he]_0-i knew [I]_241-pip was not going to agree with [him]_0-i ; - "_[241-pip] [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} is [a fine figure of a woman]_{908-a fine figure of a woman} . " [I]_{908-a fine figure of a woman} could not help looking at the fire , in an obvious state of doubt . "_{[908-a fine figure of a woman]} Whatever family opinions , or whatever [the world]_{4698-the world} 's opinions , on that subject may be , [Pip]_241-pip , [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} is , " [Joe]_154-joe tapped the top bar with the poker after every word following , "_[241-pip] [a - fine - figure - of - a - woman]_{911-a - fine - figure - of - a - woman} ! " [I]_0-i could think of nothing better to say than "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am glad [you]_912-you think so , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[154-joe] So am [I]_0-i , " returned [Joe]_154-joe , catching [me]_154-joe up . "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i am glad [I]_0-i think so , [Pip]_241-pip . A little redness or a little matter of Bone , here or there , what does it signify to [Me]_0-i ? " [I]_241-pip sagaciously observed , if it did n't signify to [him]_912-you , to whom did it signify ? "_[241-pip] Certainly ! " assented [Joe]_154-joe . "_[241-pip] That 's it . [You]_912-you 're right , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! When [I]_0-i got acquainted with [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} , it were the talk how [she]_{906-your sister} was bringing [you]_241-pip up by hand . Very kind of [her]_{906-your sister} too , [all the folks]_{915-all the folks} said , and [I]_0-i said , along with [all the folks]_{915-all the folks} . As to [you]_241-pip , " [Joe]_154-joe pursued with a countenance expressive of seeing something very nasty indeed , "_[0-i] if [you]_241-pip could have been aware how small and flabby and mean [you]_241-pip was , dear [me]_0-i , [you]_241-pip 'd have formed the most contemptible opinion of [yourself]_241-pip ! " Not exactly relishing this , [I]_241-pip said , "_[241-pip] Never mind [me]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[241-pip] But [I]_0-i did mind [you]_241-pip , [Pip]_241-pip , " [he]_0-i returned with tender simplicity . "_[241-pip] When [I]_0-i offered to [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} to keep company , and to be asked in [church]_622-church at such times as [she]_{906-your sister} was willing and ready to come to [the forge]_{488-the forge} , [I]_0-i said to [her]_{906-your sister} , ' And bring [the poor little child]_{920-the poor little child} . God bless [the poor little child]_{920-the poor little child} , ' [I]_0-i said to [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} , ' there 's room for [him]_{920-the poor little child} at [the forge]_{488-the forge} ! ' " [I]_0-i broke out crying and begging pardon , and hugged [Joe]_154-joe round the neck : who dropped the poker to hug [me]_0-i , and to say , "_[0-i] Ever the best of [friends]_4514-friends ; an't [us]_925-we , [Pip]_241-pip ? Do n't cry , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! " When this little interruption was over , [Joe]_154-joe resumed : - "_{[4500-old chap]} Well , [you]_241-pip see , [Pip]_241-pip , and here [we]_925-we are ! That 's about where it lights ; here [we]_925-we are ! Now , when [you]_241-pip take [me]_0-i in hand in [my]_0-i learning , [Pip]_241-pip and [I]_0-i tell [you]_241-pip beforehand [I]_0-i am awful dull , most awful dull , [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe must n't see too much of what [we]_925-we 're up to . It must be done , as [I]_0-i may say , on the sly . And why on the sly ? [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_241-pip why , [Pip]_241-pip . " [He]_0-i had taken up the poker again ; without which , [I]_241-pip doubt if [he]_0-i could have proceeded in [his]_0-i demonstration . "_[241-pip] [[Your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} is given to government . " "_{[906-your sister]} Given to government , [Joe]_154-joe ? " [I]_154-joe was startled , for [I]_154-joe had some shadowy idea and [I]_154-joe am afraid [I]_154-joe must add , hope that [Joe]_154-joe had divorced [her]_{906-your sister} in a favor of [the Lords of [the Admiralty]_{4778-the admiralty}]_{4777-the lords of the admiralty} , or [Treasury]_{4779-treasury} . "_[154-joe] Given to government , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] Which [I]_0-i meantersay the government of [you]_241-pip and [myself]_0-i . " "_{[906-your sister]} Oh ! " "_{[906-your sister]} And [she]_{906-your sister} an't over partial to having [scholars]_928-scholars on [the premises]_{4712-the premises} , " [Joe]_154-joe continued , "_{[906-your sister]} and in [partickler]_{193-partickler} would not be over partial to [my]_0-i being [a scholar]_{893-a scholar} , for fear as [I]_0-i might rise . Like [a sort or rebel]_{931-a sort or rebel} , do n't [you]_241-pip see ? " [I]_{931-a sort or rebel} was going to retort with an inquiry , and had got as far as "_{[931-a sort or rebel]} Why - " when [Joe]_154-joe stopped [me]_{931-a sort or rebel} . "_{[931-a sort or rebel]} Stay a bit . [I]_0-i know what [you]_241-pip 're a going to say , [Pip]_241-pip ; stay a bit ! [I]_0-i do n't deny that [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} comes the Mo - gul over [us]_933-us , now and again . [I]_0-i do n't deny that [she]_{906-your sister} do throw [us]_933-us back - falls , and that [she]_{906-your sister} do drop down upon [us]_933-us heavy . At such times as when [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} is on the Ram - page , [Pip]_241-pip , " [Joe]_154-joe sank [his]_0-i voice to a whisper and glanced at the door , "_[241-pip] candor compels [fur]_935-fur to admit that [she]_{906-your sister} is [a Buster]_{936-a buster} . " [Joe]_154-joe pronounced this word , as if it began with at least twelve capital Bs . "_{[906-your sister]} Why do n't [I]_0-i rise ? That were [your]_0-i observation when [I]_0-i broke it off , [Pip]_241-pip ? " "_[154-joe] Yes , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[154-joe] Well , " said [Joe]_154-joe , passing the poker into [his]_0-i left hand , that [he]_0-i might feel [his]_0-i whisker ; and [I]_154-joe had no hope of [him]_0-i whenever [he]_0-i took to that placid occupation ; "_[154-joe] [[your]_0-i sister]_{906-your sister} 's [a master - mind]_{938-a master - mind} . [A master - mind]_{938-a master - mind} . " "_{[938-a master - mind]} What 's that ? " [I]_{906-your sister} asked , in some hope of bringing [him]_0-i to a stand . But [Joe]_154-joe was readier with [his]_0-i definition than [I]_{906-your sister} had expected , and completely stopped [me]_{906-your sister} by arguing circularly , and answering with a fixed look , "_{[906-your sister]} [Her]_{906-your sister} . " "_{[906-your sister]} And [I]_0-i ai n't [a master - mind]_{938-a master - mind} , " [Joe]_154-joe resumed , when [he]_0-i had unfixed [his]_0-i look , and got back to [his]_0-i whisker . "_[0-i] And last of all , [Pip]_241-pip , - and this [I]_0-i want to say very serious to [you]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , - [I]_0-i see so much in [[my]_0-i poor mother]_{942-my poor mother} , of [a woman]_{943-a woman} drudging and slaving and breaking [her]_{943-a woman} honest hart and never getting no peace in [her]_{943-a woman} mortal days , that [I]_0-i 'm dead afeerd of going wrong in the way of not doing what 's right by [a woman]_{943-a woman} , and [I]_0-i 'd fur rather of the two go wrong the t'other way , and be a little ill - conwenienced [myself]_0-i . [I]_0-i wish it was only [me]_0-i that got put out , [Pip]_241-pip ; [I]_0-i wish there warn't no Tickler for [you]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ; [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i could take it all on [myself]_0-i ; but this is the up - and - down - and - straight on it , [Pip]_241-pip , and [I]_0-i hope [you]_241-pip 'll overlook shortcomings . " Young as [I]_0-i was , [I]_0-i believe that [I]_0-i dated a new admiration of [Joe]_154-joe from that night . [We]_4780-we were equals afterwards , as [we]_4780-we had been before ; but , afterwards at quiet times when [I]_0-i sat looking at [Joe]_154-joe and thinking about [him]_0-i , [I]_0-i had a new sensation of feeling conscious that [I]_0-i was looking up to [Joe]_154-joe in [my]_0-i heart . "_[0-i] However , " said [Joe]_154-joe , rising to replenish the fire ; "_[0-i] here 's [the Dutch - clock]_{946-the dutch - clock} a working [himself]_{946-the dutch - clock} up to being equal to strike Eight of 'em , and [she]_947-she 's not come [home]_4495-home yet ! [I]_0-i hope [[Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe 's mare]_{949-uncle pumblechook 's mare} may n't have set a forefoot on a piece o ' ice , and gone down . " [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe made occasional trips with [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe on market - days , to assist [him]_172-joe in buying such household stuffs and goods as required [a woman]_{943-a woman} 's judgment ; [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe being [a bachelor]_{4782-a bachelor} and reposing no confidences in [[his]_172-joe domestic servant]_{4783-his domestic servant} . This was market - day , and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was out on one of these expeditions . [Joe]_154-joe made the fire and swept the hearth , and then [we]_4784-we went to the door to listen for the chaise - cart . It was a dry cold night , and the wind blew keenly , and the frost was white and hard . [A man]_{428-a man} would die to - night of lying out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , [I]_{949-uncle pumblechook 's mare} thought . And then [I]_{949-uncle pumblechook 's mare} looked at the stars , and considered how awful if would be for [a man]_{428-a man} to turn [his]_{428-a man} face up to [them]_4788-them as [he]_{428-a man} froze to death , and see no help or pity in all the glittering multitude . "_{[949-uncle pumblechook 's mare]} Here comes the mare , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_{[949-uncle pumblechook 's mare]} ringing like a peal of bells ! " The sound of [her]_{4783-his domestic servant} iron shoes upon [the hard road]_{4789-the hard road} was quite musical , as [she]_{4783-his domestic servant} came along at a much brisker trot than usual . [We]_4784-we got a chair out , ready for [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's alighting , and stirred up the fire that [they]_4790-they might see a bright window , and took a final survey of [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} that nothing might be out of [its]_{489-the kitchen} place . When [we]_4784-we had completed these preparations , [they]_4790-they drove up , wrapped to the eyes . [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was soon landed , and [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe was soon down too , covering the mare with a cloth , and [we]_4784-we were soon all in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , carrying so much cold air in with [us]_4784-we that it seemed to drive all the heat out of the fire . "_{[949-uncle pumblechook 's mare]} Now , " said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , unwrapping [herself]_154-joe with haste and excitement , and throwing [her]_154-joe bonnet back on [her]_154-joe shoulders where it hung by the strings , "_{[949-uncle pumblechook 's mare]} if [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ai n't grateful this night , [he]_{4533-this boy} never will be ! " [I]_{4533-this boy} looked as grateful as [any boy]_{4793-any boy} possibly could , who was wholly uninformed why [he]_{4533-this boy} ought to assume that expression . "_{[4533-this boy]} It 's only to be hoped , " said [[my]_{4533-this boy} sister]_{402-my sister} , "_{[4533-this boy]} that [he]_{4533-this boy} wo n't be Pompeyed . But [I]_0-i have [my]_0-i fears . " "_[951-she] [She]_951-she ai n't in that line , [Mum]_174-mum , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_[174-mum] [She]_951-she knows better . " [She]_951-she ? [I]_951-she looked at [Joe]_154-joe , making the motion with [my]_951-she lips and eyebrows , "_[951-she] [She]_951-she ? " [Joe]_154-joe looked at [me]_951-she , making the motion with [his]_{4533-this boy} lips and eyebrows , "_[951-she] [She]_951-she ? " [[My]_951-she sister]_{402-my sister} catching [him]_{4533-this boy} in the act , [he]_{4533-this boy} drew the back of [his]_{4533-this boy} hand across [his]_{4533-this boy} nose with [his]_{4533-this boy} usual conciliatory air on such occasions , and looked at [her]_{402-my sister} . "_[951-she] Well ? " said [[my]_951-she sister]_{402-my sister} , in [her]_{402-my sister} snappish way . "_[951-she] What are [you]_952-you staring at ? Is [the house afire]_{953-the house afire} ? " "_[951-she] - Which [some individual]_{954-some individual} , " [Joe]_154-joe politely hinted , "_{[954-some individual]} mentioned - [she]_951-she . " "_[951-she] And [she]_951-she is a [she]_951-she , [I]_0-i suppose ? " said [[my]_951-she sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[951-she] Unless [you]_952-you call [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} a [he]_955-he . And [I]_0-i doubt if even [you]_952-you 'll go so far as that . " "_[952-you] [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [up town]_{956-up town} ? " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Is there any [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} [down town]_{957-down town} ? " returned [[my]_{223-miss havisham} sister]_{402-my sister} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} wants [this boy]_{4533-this boy} to go and play [there]_4505-there . And of course [he]_{4533-this boy} 's going . And [he]_{4533-this boy} had better play [there]_4505-there , " said [[my]_{4533-this boy} sister]_{402-my sister} , shaking [her]_{402-my sister} head at [me]_{4533-this boy} as an encouragement to be extremely light and sportive , "_{[4533-this boy]} or [I]_0-i 'll work [him]_{4533-this boy} . " [I]_0-i had heard of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} up [town]_4800-town , - [everybody for miles round]_{4801-everybody for miles round} had heard of [Miss Havisham up [town]_4800-town]_{4802-miss havisham up town} , - as [an immensely rich and grim lady who lived in [a large and dismal house barricaded against [robbers]_4806-robbers]_{4805-a large and dismal house barricaded against robbers} , and who led a life of seclusion]_{4804-an immensely rich and grim lady who lived in a large and dismal house barricaded against robbers , and who led a life of seclusion} . "_[0-i] Well to be sure ! " said [Joe]_154-joe , astounded . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wonder how [she]_961-she come to know [Pip]_241-pip ! " "_[961-she] [Noodle]_962-noodle ! " cried [[my]_962-noodle sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[962-noodle] Who said [she]_961-she knew [him]_241-pip ? " "_[961-she] - Which [some individual]_{954-some individual} , " [Joe]_154-joe again politely hinted , "_[961-she] mentioned that [she]_961-she wanted [him]_241-pip to go and play [there]_4505-there . " "_[961-she] And could n't [she]_961-she ask [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe if [he]_172-joe knew of [a boy]_{4485-a boy} to go and play [there]_4505-there ? Is n't it just barely possible that [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe may be [a tenant of hers]_{967-a tenant of hers} , and that [he]_172-joe may sometimes - [we]_968-we wo n't say quarterly or half - yearly , for that would be requiring too much of [you]_969-you - but sometimes - go [there]_4505-there to pay [his]_172-joe rent ? And could n't [she]_961-she then ask [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe if [he]_172-joe knew of [a boy]_{4485-a boy} to go and play [there]_4505-there ? And could n't [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , being always considerate and thoughtful for [us]_968-we - though [you]_969-you may not think it , [Joseph]_172-joe , " in a tone of the deepest reproach , as if [he]_172-joe were the most callous of [nephews]_4808-nephews , "_[172-joe] then mention [this boy]_{4533-this boy} , standing Prancing here " - which [I]_172-joe solemnly declare [I]_172-joe was not doing - "_[172-joe] that [I]_0-i have for ever been [a willing slave to]_{974-a willing slave to} ? " "_[172-joe] Good again ! " cried [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe . "_[172-joe] Well put ! Prettily pointed ! Good indeed ! Now [Joseph]_172-joe , [you]_172-joe know the case . " "_[172-joe] No , [Joseph]_172-joe , " said [[my]_172-joe sister]_{402-my sister} , still in a reproachful manner , while [Joe]_172-joe apologetically drew the back of [his]_172-joe hand across and across [his]_172-joe nose , "_[172-joe] [you]_172-joe do not yet - though [you]_172-joe may not think it - know the case . [You]_172-joe may consider that [you]_172-joe do , but [you]_172-joe do not , [Joseph]_172-joe . For [you]_172-joe do not know that [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , being sensible that for anything [we]_975-we can tell , [this boy]_{4533-this boy} 's fortune may be made by [his]_{4533-this boy} going to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , has offered to take [him]_{4533-this boy} into [town]_4800-town to - night in [his]_{4533-this boy} own chaise - cart , and to keep [him]_{4533-this boy} to - night , and to take [him]_{4533-this boy} with [his]_{4533-this boy} own hands to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's to - morrow morning . And Lor - a - mussy [me]_0-i ! " cried [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , casting off [her]_{402-my sister} bonnet in sudden desperation , "_[0-i] here [I]_0-i stand talking to [mere Mooncalfs]_{978-mere mooncalfs} , with [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe waiting , and the mare catching cold at the door , and [the boy]_{4532-the boy} grimed with crock and dirt from the hair of [his]_{4532-the boy} head to the sole of [his]_{4532-the boy} foot ! " With that , [she]_{402-my sister} pounced upon [me]_4519-boy , like an eagle on a lamb , and [my]_4519-boy face was squeezed into wooden bowls in sinks , and [my]_4519-boy head was put under taps of water - butts , and [I]_4519-boy was soaped , and kneaded , and towelled , and thumped , and harrowed , and rasped , until [I]_4519-boy really was quite beside [myself]_4519-boy . [I]_4519-boy may here remark that [I]_4519-boy suppose [myself]_4519-boy to be better acquainted than [any living authority]_{4811-any living authority} , with the ridgy effect of a wedding - ring , passing unsympathetically over the human countenance . When [my]_4519-boy ablutions were completed , [I]_4519-boy was put into clean linen of the stiffest character , like [a young penitent]_{4812-a young penitent} into sackcloth , and was trussed up in [my]_4519-boy tightest and fearfullest suit . [I]_4519-boy was then delivered over to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , who formally received [me]_4519-boy as if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} were [the Sheriff]_{4813-the sheriff} , and who let off upon [me]_4519-boy the speech that [I]_4519-boy knew [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had been dying to make all along : "_[4519-boy] [Boy]_4519-boy , be forever grateful to [all friends]_{981-all friends} , but especially unto [them]_{981-all friends} which brought [you]_4519-boy up by hand ! " "_[172-joe] Good - bye , [Joe]_172-joe ! " "_[172-joe] God bless [you]_4519-boy , [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! " [I]_241-pip had never parted from [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} before , and what with [my]_241-pip feelings and what with soapsuds , [I]_241-pip could at first see no stars from the chaise - cart . But they twinkled out one by one , without throwing any light on the questions why on earth [I]_241-pip was going to play at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , and what on earth [I]_241-pip was expected to play at . Chapter VIII [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's premises in [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} of [the market town]_{4816-the market town}]_{4814-mr. pumblechook 's premises in the high street of the market town} , were of a peppercorny and farinaceous character , as [the premises of [a cornchandler and seedsman]_{4818-a cornchandler and seedsman}]_{4817-the premises of a cornchandler and seedsman} should be . It appeared to [me]_241-pip that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} must be [a very happy man]_{4819-a very happy man} indeed , to have so many little drawers in [[his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shop]_{4820-his shop} ; and [I]_241-pip wondered when [I]_241-pip peeped into one or two on the lower tiers , and saw the tied - up brown paper packets inside , whether the flower - seeds and bulbs ever wanted of a fine day to break out of [those jails]_{4821-those jails} , and bloom . It was in the early morning after [my]_241-pip arrival that [I]_241-pip entertained this speculation . On the previous night , [I]_241-pip had been sent straight to bed in [an attic]_{4822-an attic} with a sloping roof , which was so low in the corner where the bedstead was , that [I]_241-pip calculated the tiles as being within a foot of [my]_241-pip eyebrows . In the same early morning , [I]_241-pip discovered a singular affinity between seeds and corduroys . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wore corduroys , and so did [[his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shopman]_{4823-his shopman} ; and somehow , there was a general air and flavor about the corduroys , so much in the nature of seeds , and a general air and flavor about the seeds , so much in the nature of corduroys , that [I]_241-pip hardly knew which was which . The same opportunity served [me]_241-pip for noticing that [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} appeared to conduct [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} business by looking across [the street]_{4824-the street} at [the saddler]_{4825-the saddler} , who appeared to transact [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} business by keeping [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} eye on [the coachmaker , who appeared to get on in life]_{4826-the coachmaker , who appeared to get on in life} by putting [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hands in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} pockets and contemplating [the baker]_{4827-the baker} , who in [his]_{4827-the baker} turn folded [his]_{4827-the baker} arms and stared at the grocer , who stood at [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} door and yawned at [the chemist]_{4828-the chemist} . [The watchmaker]_{4829-the watchmaker} , always poring over a little desk with a magnifying - glass at [his]_{4829-the watchmaker} eye , and always inspected by a group of smock - frocks poring over [him]_{4829-the watchmaker} through the glass of [his]_{4829-the watchmaker} shop - window , seemed to be about [the only person in [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} whose trade engaged [his]_{4829-the watchmaker} attention]_{4830-the only person in the high street whose trade engaged his attention} . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and [I]_241-pip breakfasted at eight o'clock in [the parlor behind [the shop]_{4833-the shop}]_{4832-the parlor behind the shop} , while [the shopman]_{4834-the shopman} took [his]_{4834-the shopman} mug of tea and hunch of bread and butter on a sack of peas in [the front premises]_{4835-the front premises} . [I]_241-pip considered [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wretched company . Besides being possessed by [[my]_241-pip sister]_{402-my sister} 's idea that a mortifying and penitential character ought to be imparted to [my]_241-pip diet , - besides giving [me]_241-pip as much crumb as possible in combination with as little butter , and putting such a quantity of warm water into [my]_241-pip milk that it would have been more candid to have left the milk out altogether , - [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} conversation consisted of nothing but arithmetic . On [my]_241-pip politely bidding [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} Good morning , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} said , pompously , "_[241-pip] Seven times nine , [boy]_4519-boy ? " And how should [I]_241-pip be able to answer , dodged in that way , in a strange place , on an empty stomach ! [I]_241-pip was hungry , but before [I]_241-pip had swallowed a morsel , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} began a running sum that lasted all through the breakfast . "_[241-pip] Seven ? " "_[241-pip] And four ? " "_[241-pip] And eight ? " "_[241-pip] And six ? " "_[241-pip] And two ? " "_[241-pip] And ten ? " And so on . And after each figure was disposed of , it was as much as [I]_241-pip could do to get a bite or a sup , before the next came ; while [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} sat at [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ease guessing nothing , and eating bacon and hot roll , in if [I]_241-pip may be allowed the expression a gorging and gormandizing manner . For such reasons , [I]_241-pip was very glad when ten o'clock came and [we]_4837-we started for [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's} ; though [I]_241-pip was not at all at [my]_241-pip ease regarding the manner in which [I]_241-pip should acquit [myself]_241-pip under [that lady]_{4839-that lady} 's roof . Within a quarter of an hour [we]_4837-we came to [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's house]_{4840-miss havisham 's house} , which was of old brick , and dismal , and had a great many iron bars to [it]_{4840-miss havisham 's house} . Some of the windows had been walled up ; of those that remained , all the lower were rustily barred . There was [a courtyard]_{4841-a courtyard} in front , and that was barred ; so [we]_4837-we had to wait , after ringing the bell , until [some one]_{4842-some one} should come to open [it]_{4841-a courtyard} . While [we]_4837-we waited at the gate , [I]_241-pip peeped in even then [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} said , "_[241-pip] And fourteen ? " but [I]_241-pip pretended not to hear [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , and saw that at the side of [the house]_{604-the house} there was [a large brewery]_{4844-a large brewery} . No brewing was going on in [it]_{4844-a large brewery} , and none seemed to have gone on for a long long time . A window was raised , and a clear voice demanded "_[241-pip] What name ? " To which [[my]_{176-mr. pumblechook} conductor]_{4845-my conductor} replied , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " The voice returned , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} Quite right , " and the window was shut again , and [a young lady]_{4846-a young lady} came across [the court - yard]_{4847-the court - yard} , with keys in [her]_{4846-a young lady} hand . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} This , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_[241-pip] is [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] This is [Pip]_241-pip , is it ? " returned [the young lady , who was very pretty and seemed very proud]_{4848-the young lady , who was very pretty and seemed very proud} ; "_[241-pip] come in , [Pip]_241-pip . " [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was coming in also , when [she]_{4846-a young lady} stopped [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} with the gate . "_[241-pip] Oh ! " [she]_{4846-a young lady} said . "_[241-pip] Did [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wish to see [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? " "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} If [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} wished to see [me]_0-i , " returned [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , discomfited . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Ah ! " said [the girl]_{4849-the girl} ; "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} but [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} see [she]_{223-miss havisham} do n't . " [She]_{4849-the girl} said it so finally , and in such an undiscussible way , that [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , though in a condition of ruffled dignity , could not protest . But [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} eyed [me]_{223-miss havisham} severely , - as if [I]_{223-miss havisham} had done anything to [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ! - and departed with the words reproachfully delivered : "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Boy]_4519-boy ! Let [your]_4519-boy behavior here be a credit unto [them]_985-them which brought [you]_4519-boy up by hand ! " [I]_985-them was not free from apprehension that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} would come back to propound through the gate , "_[985-them] And sixteen ? " But [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} did n't . [[My]_985-them young conductress]_{4850-my young conductress} locked the gate , and [we]_4851-we went across [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} . [It]_{4852-the courtyard} was paved and clean , but grass was growing in every crevice . [The brewery buildings]_{4853-the brewery buildings} had a little lane of communication with [it]_{4853-the brewery buildings} , and the wooden gates of [that lane]_{4854-that lane} stood open , and all [the brewery beyond]_{4855-the brewery beyond} stood open , away to the high enclosing wall ; and all was empty and disused . The cold wind seemed to blow colder there than outside the gate ; and it made a shrill noise in howling in and out at the open sides of [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} , like the noise of wind in the rigging of [a ship at]_{4857-a ship at} [sea]_4858-sea . [She]_988-miss saw [me]_985-them looking at it , and [she]_988-miss said , "_[985-them] [You]_4519-boy could drink without hurt all the strong beer that 's brewed [there]_4505-there now , [boy]_4519-boy . " "_[4519-boy] [I]_0-i should think [I]_0-i could , [miss]_988-miss , " said [I]_0-i , in a shy way . "_[0-i] Better not try to brew beer [there]_4505-there now , or it would turn out sour , [boy]_4519-boy ; do n't [you]_988-miss think so ? " "_[988-miss] It looks like it , [miss]_988-miss . " "_[988-miss] Not that [anybody]_4526-anybody means to try , " [she]_988-miss added , "_[988-miss] for that 's all done with , and [the place]_{4456-the place} will stand as idle as [it]_{4456-the place} is till it falls . As to strong beer , there 's enough of it in the cellars already , to drown [the Manor House]_{994-the manor house} . " "_[988-miss] Is that the name of [this house]_{995-this house} , [miss]_988-miss ? " "_[988-miss] One of its names , [boy]_4519-boy . " "_[988-miss] [It]_{994-the manor house} has more than one , then , [miss]_988-miss ? " "_[988-miss] One more . Its other name was Satis ; which is Greek , or Latin , or Hebrew , or all three - or all one to [me]_0-i - for enough . " "_[988-miss] Enough House , " said [I]_988-miss ; "_[988-miss] that 's a curious name , [miss]_988-miss . " "_[988-miss] Yes , " [she]_988-miss replied ; "_[988-miss] but it meant more than it said . It meant , when it was given , that whoever had [this house]_{995-this house} could want nothing else . [They]_1001-they must have been easily satisfied in those days , [I]_0-i should think . But do n't loiter , [boy]_4519-boy . " Though [she]_988-miss called [me]_4519-boy "_[4519-boy] [boy]_4519-boy " so often , and with a carelessness that was far from complimentary , [she]_988-miss was of about [my]_988-miss own age . [She]_988-miss seemed much older than [I]_988-miss , of course , being [a girl]_{4859-a girl} , and beautiful and self - possessed ; and [she]_988-miss was as scornful of [me]_988-miss as if [she]_988-miss had been one - and - twenty , and [a queen]_{4860-a queen} . [We]_4861-we went into [the house]_{604-the house} by a side door , the great front entrance had two chains across [it]_4863-it outside , - and the first thing [I]_988-miss noticed was , that [the passages]_{4864-the passages} were all dark , and that [she]_988-miss had left a candle burning there . [She]_988-miss took it up , and [we]_4861-we went through [more passages]_{4865-more passages} and up a staircase , and still it was all dark , and only the candle lighted [us]_4861-we . At last [we]_4861-we came to the door of [a room]_{4866-a room} , and [she]_988-miss said , "_[988-miss] Go in . " [I]_988-miss answered , more in shyness than politeness , "_[988-miss] After [you]_1004-you , [miss]_988-miss . " To this [she]_988-miss returned : "_[988-miss] Do n't be ridiculous , [boy]_4519-boy ; [I]_0-i am not going in . " And scornfully walked away , and - what was worse - took the candle with [her]_988-miss . This was very uncomfortable , and [I]_0-i was half afraid . However , the only thing to be done being to knock at the door , [I]_0-i knocked , and was told from within to enter . [I]_0-i entered , therefore , and found [myself]_0-i in [a pretty large room , well lighted with wax candles]_{4867-a pretty large room , well lighted with wax candles} . No glimpse of daylight was to be seen in [it]_{4867-a pretty large room , well lighted with wax candles} . [It]_{4867-a pretty large room , well lighted with wax candles} was [a dressing - room]_{4868-a dressing - room} , as [I]_0-i supposed from the furniture , though much of [it]_{4867-a pretty large room , well lighted with wax candles} was of forms and uses then quite unknown to [me]_0-i . But prominent in it was a draped table with a gilded looking - glass , and that [I]_0-i made out at first sight to be [a fine lady]_{4869-a fine lady} 's dressing - table . Whether [I]_0-i should have made out this object so soon if there had been [no fine lady sitting at it]_{4870-no fine lady sitting at it} , [I]_0-i can not say . In an arm - chair , with an elbow resting on the table and [her]_988-miss head leaning on that hand , sat [the strangest lady [I]_0-i have ever seen , or shall ever see]_{4871-the strangest lady i have ever seen , or shall ever see} . [She]_988-miss was dressed in rich materials , - satins , and lace , and silks , - all of white . [Her]_988-miss shoes were white . And [she]_988-miss had a long white veil dependent from [her]_988-miss hair , and [she]_988-miss had bridal flowers in [her]_988-miss hair , but [her]_988-miss hair was white . Some bright jewels sparkled on [her]_988-miss neck and on [her]_988-miss hands , and some other jewels lay sparkling on the table . Dresses , less splendid than the dress [she]_988-miss wore , and half - packed trunks , were scattered about . [She]_988-miss had not quite finished dressing , for [she]_988-miss had but one shoe on , - the other was on the table near [her]_988-miss hand , - [her]_988-miss veil was but half arranged , [her]_988-miss watch and chain were not put on , and some lace for [her]_988-miss bosom lay with those trinkets , and with [her]_988-miss handkerchief , and gloves , and some flowers , and a Prayer - Book all confusedly heaped about the looking - glass . It was not in the first few moments that [I]_0-i saw all these things , though [I]_0-i saw more of them in the first moments than might be supposed . But [I]_0-i saw that everything within [my]_0-i view which ought to be white , had been white long ago , and had lost its lustre and was faded and yellow . [I]_0-i saw that [the bride within the bridal dress]_{4872-the bride within the bridal dress} had withered like the dress , and like the flowers , and had no brightness left but the brightness of [her]_988-miss sunken eyes . [I]_0-i saw that the dress had been put upon the rounded figure of [a young woman]_{4873-a young woman} , and that [the figure upon which it now hung loose]_{4874-the figure upon which it now hung loose} had shrunk to skin and bone . Once , [I]_0-i had been taken to see some ghastly waxwork at the Fair , representing [I]_0-i know not what [impossible personage]_{4875-impossible personage} lying in state . Once , [I]_0-i had been taken to [one of [[our]_4877-our old marsh churches]_{4878-our old marsh churches}]_{4876-one of our old marsh churches} to see a skeleton in the ashes of a rich dress that had been dug out of [a vault under the [church pavement]_{4880-church pavement}]_{4879-a vault under the church pavement} . Now , waxwork and skeleton seemed to have dark eyes that moved and looked at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i should have cried out , if [I]_0-i could . "_[0-i] Who is it ? " said [the lady at the table]_{4881-the lady at the table} . "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . " "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip ? " "_[241-pip] [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's boy]_{1008-mr. pumblechook 's boy} , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . Come - to play . " "_[241-pip] Come nearer ; let [me]_0-i look at [you]_698-ma'am . Come close . " It was when [I]_0-i stood before [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} , avoiding [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} eyes , that [I]_0-i took note of the surrounding objects in detail , and saw that [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} watch had stopped at twenty minutes to nine , and that a clock in [the room]_{633-the room} had stopped at twenty minutes to nine . "_[0-i] Look at [me]_0-i , " said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_[698-ma'am] [You]_698-ma'am are not afraid of [a woman who has never seen the sun]_{1010-a woman who has never seen the sun} since [you]_698-ma'am were born ? " [I]_{1010-a woman who has never seen the sun} regret to state that [I]_{1010-a woman who has never seen the sun} was not afraid of telling the enormous lie comprehended in the answer "_{[1010-a woman who has never seen the sun]} No . " "_{[1010-a woman who has never seen the sun]} Do [you]_698-ma'am know what [I]_0-i touch here ? " [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} said , laying [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} hands , one upon the other , on [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} left side . "_[0-i] Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . " It made [me]_0-i think of [the young man]_{4546-the young man} . "_[0-i] What do [I]_0-i touch ? " "_[0-i] [Your]_698-ma'am heart . " "_[0-i] Broken ! " [She]_{4881-the lady at the table} uttered the word with an eager look , and with strong emphasis , and with a weird smile that had a kind of boast in it . Afterwards [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} kept [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} hands there for a little while , and slowly took them away as if they were heavy . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am tired , " said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i want diversion , and [I]_0-i have done with [men]_4561-men and [women]_1013-women . Play . " [I]_0-i think it will be conceded by [[my]_0-i most disputatious reader]_{4884-my most disputatious reader} , that [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} could hardly have directed [an unfortunate boy]_{4885-an unfortunate boy} to do anything in [the wide world]_{4886-the wide world} more difficult to be done under the circumstances . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sometimes have sick fancies , " [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} went on , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i have a sick fancy that [I]_0-i want to see some play . There , there ! " with an impatient movement of the fingers of [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} right hand ; "_[0-i] play , play , play ! " For a moment , with the fear of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's working [me]_0-i before [my]_0-i eyes , [I]_0-i had a desperate idea of starting round [the room]_{633-the room} in the assumed character of [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's chaise - cart . But [I]_0-i felt [myself]_0-i so unequal to the performance that [I]_0-i gave it up , and stood looking at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} in what [I]_0-i suppose [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} took for a dogged manner , inasmuch as [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} said , when [we]_4889-we had taken a good look at [each other]_{517-each other} , - "_[0-i] Are [you]_1014-you sullen and obstinate ? " "_[1014-you] No , [ma'am]_698-ma'am , [I]_0-i am very sorry for [you]_698-ma'am , and very sorry [I]_0-i ca n't play just now . If [you]_698-ma'am complain of [me]_0-i [I]_0-i shall get into trouble with [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , so [I]_0-i would do it if [I]_0-i could ; but it 's so new here , and so strange , and so fine , - and melancholy - . " [I]_1018-she stopped , fearing [I]_1018-she might say too much , or had already said it , and [we]_4889-we took another look at [each other]_{517-each other} . Before [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} spoke again , [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} turned [her]_{4881-the lady at the table} eyes from [me]_1018-she , and looked at the dress [she]_{4881-the lady at the table} wore , and at the dressing - table , and finally at [herself]_{4881-the lady at the table} in the looking - glass . "_[1018-she] So new to [him]_1017-him , " [she]_1018-she muttered , ' so old to [me]_1018-she ; so strange to [him]_1017-him , so familiar to [me]_1018-she ; so melancholy to [both of [us]_{4892-both of us}]_{4892-both of us} ! Call [Estella]_195-estella . "_[1018-she] As [she]_1018-she was still looking at the reflection of [herself]_1018-she , [I]_0-i thought [she]_1018-she was still talking to [herself]_1018-she , and kept quiet . " Call [Estella]_195-estella , "_[1018-she] [she]_1018-she repeated , flashing a look at [me]_0-i . " [You]_0-i can do that . Call [Estella]_195-estella . At the door . "_[1018-she] To stand in the dark in [a mysterious passage of [an unknown house]_{1020-an unknown house}]_{1019-a mysterious passage of an unknown house} , bawling [Estella]_195-estella to [a scornful young lady neither visible nor responsive]_{1021-a scornful young lady neither visible nor responsive} , and feeling it a dreadful liberty so to roar out [her]_1018-she name , was almost as bad as playing to order . But [she]_1018-she answered at last , and [her]_1018-she light came along [the dark passage]_{1022-the dark passage} like a star . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} beckoned [her]_1018-she to come close , and took up a jewel from the table , and tried its effect upon [her]_1018-she fair young bosom and against [her]_1018-she pretty brown hair . " [Your]_1018-she own , one day , [[my]_{223-miss havisham} dear]_{4893-my dear} , and [you]_1018-she will use it well . Let [me]_{223-miss havisham} see [you]_1018-she play cards with [this boy]_{4533-this boy} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " With [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ? Why , [he]_{4533-this boy} is [a common laboring boy]_{4896-a common laboring boy} ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i overheard [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} answer , - only it seemed so Unlikely , - " Well ? [You]_1018-she can break [his]_{4533-this boy} heart . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " What do [you]_{4533-this boy} play , [boy]_4519-boy ? "_{[195-estella]} asked [Estella]_195-estella of [myself]_0-i , with the greatest disdain . " Nothing but beggar [[my]_{223-miss havisham} neighbor]_{4898-my neighbor} , [miss]_988-miss . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Beggar [him]_{4533-this boy} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} to [Estella]_195-estella . So [we]_1023-we sat down to cards . It was then [I]_0-i began to understand that everything in [the room]_{633-the room} had stopped , like the watch and the clock , a long time ago . [I]_0-i noticed that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} put down the jewel exactly on the spot from which [she]_{223-miss havisham} had taken it up . As [Estella]_195-estella dealt the cards , [I]_0-i glanced at the dressing - table again , and saw that the shoe upon it , once white , now yellow , had never been worn . [I]_0-i glanced down at the foot from which the shoe was absent , and saw that the silk stocking on it , once white , now yellow , had been trodden ragged . Without this arrest of everything , this standing still of all the pale decayed objects , not even the withered bridal dress on the collapsed form could have looked so like grave - clothes , or the long veil so like a shroud . So [she]_195-estella sat , corpse - like , as [we]_1023-we played at cards ; the frillings and trimmings on [her]_195-estella bridal dress , looking like earthy paper . [I]_0-i knew nothing then of the discoveries that are occasionally made of [bodies buried in ancient times , which fall to powder in the moment of being distinctly seen]_{1025-bodies buried in ancient times , which fall to powder in the moment of being distinctly seen} ; but , [I]_0-i have often thought since , that [she]_195-estella must have looked as if the admission of the natural light of day would have struck [her]_195-estella to dust . " [He]_4900-he calls [the knaves Jacks]_{4901-the knaves jacks} , [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ! "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella with disdain , before [our]_1023-we first game was out . " And what coarse hands [he]_4900-he has ! And what thick boots ! "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i had never thought of being ashamed of [my]_0-i hands before ; but [I]_0-i began to consider them a very indifferent pair . [Her]_195-estella contempt for [me]_0-i was so strong , that it became infectious , and [I]_0-i caught it . [She]_195-estella won the game , and [I]_0-i dealt . [I]_0-i misdealt , as was only natural , when [I]_0-i knew [she]_195-estella was lying in wait for [me]_0-i to do wrong ; and [she]_195-estella denounced [me]_0-i for [a stupid , clumsy laboring - boy]_{1026-a stupid , clumsy laboring - boy} . " [You]_0-i say nothing of [her]_195-estella , "_{[223-miss havisham]} remarked [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} to [me]_0-i , as [she]_195-estella looked on . " [She]_195-estella says many hard things of [you]_0-i , but [you]_0-i say nothing of [her]_195-estella . What do [you]_0-i think of [her]_195-estella ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_0-i do n't like to say , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i stammered . " Tell [me]_{223-miss havisham} in [my]_{223-miss havisham} ear , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , bending down . " [I]_0-i think [she]_195-estella is very proud , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , in a whisper . " Anything else ? "_[0-i] " [I]_{223-miss havisham} think [she]_195-estella is very pretty . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Anything else ? "_[0-i] " [I]_{223-miss havisham} think [she]_195-estella is very insulting . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} was looking at [me]_0-i then with a look of supreme aversion . " Anything else ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i should like to go [home]_4495-home . "_[0-i] " And never see [her]_195-estella again , though [she]_195-estella is so pretty ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am not sure that [I]_0-i should n't like to see [her]_195-estella again , but [I]_0-i should like to go [home]_4495-home now . "_[0-i] " [You]_0-i shall go soon , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , aloud . " Play the game out . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Saving for the one weird smile at first , [I]_0-i should have felt almost sure that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's face could not smile . It had dropped into a watchful and brooding expression , - most likely when all the things about [her]_{223-miss havisham} had become transfixed , - and it looked as if nothing could ever lift it up again . [Her]_{223-miss havisham} chest had dropped , so that [she]_{223-miss havisham} stooped ; and [her]_{223-miss havisham} voice had dropped , so that [she]_{223-miss havisham} spoke low , and with a dead lull upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} ; altogether , [she]_{223-miss havisham} had the appearance of having dropped body and soul , within and without , under the weight of a crushing blow . [I]_0-i played the game to an end with [Estella]_195-estella , and [she]_195-estella beggared [me]_0-i . [She]_{223-miss havisham} threw the cards down on the table when [she]_{223-miss havisham} had won them all , as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} despised them for having been won of [me]_0-i . " When shall [I]_{223-miss havisham} have [you]_0-i here again ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Let [me]_{223-miss havisham} think . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i was beginning to remind [her]_{223-miss havisham} that to - day was Wednesday , when [she]_{223-miss havisham} checked [me]_0-i with [her]_{223-miss havisham} former impatient movement of the fingers of [her]_{223-miss havisham} right hand . " There , there ! [I]_{223-miss havisham} know nothing of days of the week ; [I]_{223-miss havisham} know nothing of weeks of the year . Come again after six days . [You]_0-i hear ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Estella]_195-estella , take [him]_4906-him down . Let [him]_4906-him have something to eat , and let [him]_4906-him roam and look about [him]_4906-him while [he]_4906-him eats . Go , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i followed the candle down , as [I]_0-i had followed the candle up , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} stood it in the place where [we]_1027-we had found it . Until [she]_{223-miss havisham} opened the side entrance , [I]_0-i had fancied , without thinking about it , that it must necessarily be night - time . The rush of the daylight quite confounded [me]_0-i , and made [me]_0-i feel as if [I]_0-i had been in the candlelight of [the strange room]_{1028-the strange room} many hours . " [You]_0-i are to wait here , [[you]_0-i boy]_{4907-you boy} , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella ; and disappeared and closed the door . [I]_0-i took the opportunity of being alone in [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} to look at [my]_0-i coarse hands and [my]_0-i common boots . [My]_0-i opinion of those accessories was not favorable . [They]_1030-they had never troubled [me]_0-i before , but [they]_1030-they troubled [me]_0-i now , as vulgar appendages . [I]_0-i determined to ask [Joe]_172-joe why [he]_172-joe had ever taught [me]_0-i to call those picture - cards Jacks , which ought to be called knaves . [I]_0-i wished [Joe]_172-joe had been rather more genteelly brought up , and then [I]_0-i should have been so too . [She]_195-estella came back , with some bread and meat and a little mug of beer . [She]_195-estella put the mug down on the stones of [the yard]_{717-the yard} , and gave [me]_0-i the bread and meat without looking at [me]_0-i , as insolently as if [I]_0-i were a dog in disgrace . [I]_0-i was so humiliated , hurt , spurned , offended , angry , sorry , - [I]_0-i can not hit upon the right name for the smart - God knows what its name was , - that tears started to [my]_0-i eyes . The moment [they]_1030-they sprang there , [the girl]_{4849-the girl} looked at [me]_0-i with a quick delight in having been the cause of [them]_1030-they . This gave [me]_0-i power to keep [them]_1030-they back and to look at [her]_{4849-the girl} : so , [she]_{4849-the girl} gave a contemptuous toss - but with a sense , [I]_0-i thought , of having made too sure that [I]_0-i was so wounded - and left [me]_0-i . But when [she]_{4849-the girl} was gone , [I]_0-i looked about [me]_0-i for a place to hide [my]_0-i face in , and got behind one of the gates in [the brewery - lane]_{1033-the brewery - lane} , and leaned [my]_0-i sleeve against the wall there , and leaned [my]_0-i forehead on it and cried . As [I]_0-i cried , [I]_0-i kicked the wall , and took a hard twist at [my]_0-i hair ; so bitter were [my]_0-i feelings , and so sharp was the smart without a name , that needed counteraction . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's bringing up had made [me]_0-i sensitive . In [the little world in which [children]_{1036-children}]_{1035-the little world in which children} have [their]_{1036-children} existence whosoever brings [them]_{1036-children} up , there is nothing so finely perceived and so finely felt as injustice . It may be only small injustice that [the child]_{1037-the child} can be exposed to ; but [the child]_{1037-the child} is small , and [its world]_{1039-its world} is small , and its rocking - horse stands as many hands high , according to scale , as [a big - boned Irish hunter]_{1040-a big - boned irish hunter} . Within [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i had sustained , from [my]_0-i babyhood , a perpetual conflict with injustice . [I]_0-i had known , from the time when [I]_0-i could speak , that [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , in [her]_{402-my sister} capricious and violent coercion , was unjust to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i had cherished a profound conviction that [her]_{402-my sister} bringing [me]_0-i up by hand gave [her]_{402-my sister} no right to bring [me]_0-i up by jerks . Through all [my]_0-i punishments , disgraces , fasts , and vigils , and other penitential performances , [I]_0-i had nursed this assurance ; and to [my]_0-i communing so much with it , in a solitary and unprotected way , [I]_0-i in great part refer the fact that [I]_0-i was morally timid and very sensitive . [I]_0-i got rid of [my]_0-i injured feelings for the time by kicking them into the brewery wall , and twisting them out of [my]_0-i hair , and then [I]_0-i smoothed [my]_0-i face with [my]_0-i sleeve , and came from behind the gate . The bread and meat were acceptable , and the beer was warming and tingling , and [I]_0-i was soon in spirits to look about [me]_0-i . To be sure , it was [a deserted place]_{1042-a deserted place} , down to [the pigeon - house in [the brewery - yard]_{1044-the brewery - yard}]_{1043-the pigeon - house in the brewery - yard} , which had been blown crooked on [its]_{1043-the pigeon - house in the brewery - yard} pole by some high wind , and would have made the pigeons think [themselves]_{1045-themselves} at [sea]_4858-sea , if there had been any pigeons there to be rocked by it . But there were no pigeons in [the dove - cot]_{1047-the dove - cot} , no horses in [the stable]_{1048-the stable} , no pigs in [the sty]_{1049-the sty} , no malt in [the storehouse]_{1050-the storehouse} , no smells of grains and beer in the copper or the vat . All the uses and scents of [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} might have evaporated with its last reek of smoke . In [a by - yard]_{1052-a by - yard} , there was a wilderness of empty casks , which had a certain sour remembrance of better days lingering about them ; but it was too sour to be accepted as a sample of the beer that was gone , - and in this respect [I]_0-i remember [those recluses]_{1053-those recluses} as being like most others . Behind the furthest end of [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} , was [a rank garden]_{1055-a rank garden} with an old wall ; not so high but that [I]_0-i could struggle up and hold on long enough to look over it , and see that [the rank garden]_{1056-the rank garden} was [the garden of [the house]_{604-the house}]_{1057-the garden of the house} , and that [it]_{1056-the rank garden} was overgrown with tangled weeds , but that there was a track upon [the green and yellow paths]_{1059-the green and yellow paths} , as if [some one]_{4842-some one} sometimes walked there , and that [Estella]_195-estella was walking away from [me]_0-i even then . But [she]_195-estella seemed to be everywhere . For when [I]_0-i yielded to the temptation presented by the casks , and began to walk on them , [I]_0-i saw [her]_195-estella walking on them at the end of [the yard of casks]_{1061-the yard of casks} . [She]_195-estella had [her]_195-estella back towards [me]_0-i , and held [her]_195-estella pretty brown hair spread out in [her]_195-estella two hands , and never looked round , and passed out of [my]_0-i view directly . So , in [the brewery itself]_{1062-the brewery itself} , - by which [I]_0-i mean [the large paved lofty place in which [they]_1064-they used to make the beer , and where the brewing utensils still were]_{1063-the large paved lofty place in which they used to make the beer , and where the brewing utensils still were} . When [I]_0-i first went into [it]_{1062-the brewery itself} , and , rather oppressed by [its]_{1062-the brewery itself} gloom , stood near the door looking about [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i saw [her]_195-estella pass among the extinguished fires , and ascend some light iron stairs , and go out by a gallery high overhead , as if [she]_195-estella were going out into the sky . It was in [this place]_{1065-this place} , and at this moment , that a strange thing happened to [my]_0-i fancy . [I]_0-i thought it a strange thing then , and [I]_0-i thought it a stranger thing long afterwards . [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i eyes - a little dimmed by looking up at the frosty light - towards a great wooden beam in [a low nook of [the building]_{1067-the building}]_{1066-a low nook of the building} near [me]_0-i on [my]_0-i right hand , and [I]_0-i saw [a figure hanging there by the neck]_{1068-a figure hanging there by the neck} . A figure all in yellow white , with but one shoe to the feet ; and it hung so , that [I]_0-i could see that the faded trimmings of the dress were like earthy paper , and that the face was [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , with a movement going over the whole countenance as if [she]_195-estella were trying to call to [me]_0-i . In the terror of seeing [the figure]_{1069-the figure} , and in the terror of being certain that it had not been there a moment before , [I]_0-i at first ran from it , and then ran towards it . And [my]_0-i terror was greatest of all when [I]_0-i found [no figure there]_{1070-no figure there} . Nothing less than the frosty light of the cheerful sky , the sight of [people]_4539-people passing beyond the bars of [the court - yard]_{4847-the court - yard} gate , and the reviving influence of the rest of the bread and meat and beer , would have brought [me]_0-i round . Even with those aids , [I]_0-i might not have come to [myself]_0-i as soon as [I]_0-i did , but that [I]_0-i saw [Estella]_195-estella approaching with the keys , to let [me]_0-i out . [She]_195-estella would have some fair reason for looking down upon [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i thought , if [she]_195-estella saw [me]_0-i frightened ; and [she]_195-estella would have no fair reason . [She]_195-estella gave [me]_0-i a triumphant glance in passing [me]_0-i , as if [she]_195-estella rejoiced that [my]_0-i hands were so coarse and [my]_0-i boots were so thick , and [she]_195-estella opened the gate , and stood holding it . [I]_0-i was passing out without looking at [her]_195-estella , when [she]_195-estella touched [me]_0-i with a taunting hand . " Why do n't [you]_0-i cry ? "_{[195-estella]} " Because [I]_195-estella do n't want to . "_{[195-estella]} " [You]_0-i do , "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella . " [You]_0-i have been crying till [you]_0-i are half blind , and [you]_0-i are near crying again now . "_{[195-estella]} [She]_195-estella laughed contemptuously , pushed [me]_0-i out , and locked the gate upon [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i went straight to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's , and was immensely relieved to find [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} not at [home]_4495-home . So , leaving word with [the shopman]_{4834-the shopman} on what day [I]_0-i was wanted at [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's} again , [I]_0-i set off on the four - mile walk to [[our]_1076-our forge]_{1077-our forge} ; pondering , as [I]_0-i went along , on all [I]_0-i had seen , and deeply revolving that [I]_0-i was [a common laboring - boy]_{1078-a common laboring - boy} ; that [my]_0-i hands were coarse ; that [my]_0-i boots were thick ; that [I]_0-i had fallen into a despicable habit of calling [knaves Jacks]_{196-knaves jacks} ; that [I]_0-i was much more ignorant than [I]_0-i had considered [myself]_0-i last night , and generally that [I]_0-i was in a low - lived bad way . Chapter IX When [I]_0-i reached [home]_4495-home , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was very curious to know all about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , and asked a number of questions . And [I]_0-i soon found [myself]_0-i getting heavily bumped from behind in the nape of the neck and the small of the back , and having [my]_0-i face ignominiously shoved against the kitchen wall , because [I]_0-i did not answer those questions at sufficient length . If a dread of not being understood be hidden in the breasts of [other young people]_{1081-other young people} to anything like the extent to which it used to be hidden in [mine]_0-i , - which [I]_0-i consider probable , as [I]_0-i have no particular reason to suspect [myself]_0-i of having been [a monstrosity]_{1082-a monstrosity} , - it is the key to many reservations . [I]_0-i felt convinced that if [I]_0-i described [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's as [my]_0-i eyes had seen it , [I]_0-i should not be understood . Not only that , but [I]_0-i felt convinced that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} too would not be understood ; and although [she]_{223-miss havisham} was perfectly incomprehensible to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i entertained an impression that there would be something coarse and treacherous in [my]_0-i dragging [her]_{223-miss havisham} as [she]_{223-miss havisham} really was to say nothing of [Miss Estella]_195-estella before the contemplation of [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . Consequently , [I]_0-i said as little as [I]_0-i could , and had [my]_0-i face shoved against the kitchen wall . The worst of it was that that [bullying old Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , preyed upon by a devouring curiosity to be informed of all [I]_0-i had seen and heard , came gaping over in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chaise - cart at tea - time , to have the details divulged to [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . And the mere sight of the torment , with [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} fishy eyes and mouth open , [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} sandy hair inquisitively on end , and [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} waistcoat heaving with windy arithmetic , made [me]_0-i vicious in [my]_0-i reticence . " Well , [boy]_4519-boy , "_[172-joe] [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe began , as soon as [he]_172-joe was seated in the chair of honor by the fire . " How did [you]_172-joe get on up [town]_4800-town ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , " Pretty well , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} shook [her]_{402-my sister} fist at [me]_0-i . " Pretty well ? "_{[402-my sister]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} repeated . " [Pretty well]_{4911-pretty well} is no answer . Tell [us]_4912-us what [you]_0-i mean by pretty well , [boy]_4519-boy ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} Whitewash on the forehead hardens the brain into a state of obstinacy perhaps . Anyhow , with whitewash from the wall on [my]_0-i forehead , [my]_0-i obstinacy was adamantine . [I]_0-i reflected for some time , and then answered as if [I]_0-i had discovered a new idea , " [I]_0-i mean pretty well . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} with an exclamation of impatience was going to fly at [me]_0-i , - [I]_0-i had no shadow of defence , for [Joe]_172-joe was busy in [the forge]_{488-the forge} , - when [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} interposed with " No ! Do n't lose [your]_0-i temper . Leave [this lad]_{4914-this lad} to [me]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , [ma'am]_698-ma'am ; leave [this lad]_{4914-this lad} to [me]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} then turned [me]_0-i towards [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , as if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} were going to cut [my]_0-i hair , and said , - " First to get [our]_4917-our thoughts in order : Forty - three pence ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [I]_0-i calculated the consequences of replying " Four Hundred Pound , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} and finding them against [me]_0-i , went as near the answer as [I]_0-i could - which was somewhere about eightpence off . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} then put [me]_0-i through [my]_0-i pence - table from " twelve pence make one shilling , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} up to " forty pence make three and fourpence , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} and then triumphantly demanded , as if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had done for [me]_0-i , " Now ! How much is forty - three pence ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} To which [I]_0-i replied , after a long interval of reflection , " [I]_0-i do n't know . "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i was so aggravated that [I]_0-i almost doubt if [I]_0-i did know . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} worked [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} head like a screw to screw it out of [me]_0-i , and said , " Is forty - three pence seven and sixpence three fardens , for instance ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Yes ! "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i And although [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} instantly boxed [my]_0-i ears , it was highly gratifying to [me]_0-i to see that the answer spoilt [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} joke , and brought [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} to a dead stop . " [Boy]_197-trabb ! What like is [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} began again when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had recovered ; folding [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} arms tight on [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chest and applying the screw . " Very tall and dark , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i told [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " Is [she]_{223-miss havisham} , [uncle]_658-uncle ? "_[0-i] asked [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} winked assent ; from which [I]_0-i at once inferred that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had never seen [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , for [she]_{223-miss havisham} was nothing of the kind . " Good ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} conceitedly . " This is the way to have [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ! [We]_4919-we are beginning to hold [our]_4919-we own , [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} think , [Mum]_174-mum ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " [I]_154-joe am sure , [uncle]_658-uncle , "_[154-joe] returned [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , " [I]_154-joe wish [you]_658-uncle had [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} always ; [you]_658-uncle know so well how to deal with [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_[154-joe] " Now , [boy]_4519-boy ! What was [she]_154-joe a doing of , when [you]_0-i went in today ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} asked [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " [She]_154-joe was sitting , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , " in [a black velvet coach]_{4922-a black velvet coach} . "_[0-i] [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe stared at [one another]_{4584-one another} - as [they]_1089-they well Might - and both repeated , " In [a black velvet coach]_{4922-a black velvet coach} ? "_[154-joe] " Yes , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And [Miss Estella]_195-estella - that 's [[her]_195-estella niece]_{4924-her niece} , [I]_0-i think - handed [her]_154-joe in cake and wine at [the coach]_{4925-the coach} - window , on a gold plate . And [we]_4926-we all had cake and wine on gold plates . And [I]_0-i got up behind [the coach]_{4925-the coach} to eat [mine]_0-i , because [she]_154-joe told [me]_0-i to . "_[0-i] " Was anybody else there ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} asked [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " Four dogs , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Large or small ? "_[0-i] " [Immense]_198-immense , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And [they]_1092-they fought for veal - cutlets out of a silver basket . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe stared at [one another]_{4584-one another} again , in utter amazement . [I]_0-i was perfectly frantic , - [a reckless witness under the torture]_{1091-a reckless witness under the torture} , - and would have told [them]_1092-they anything . " Where was [this coach]_{4928-this coach} , in the name of gracious ? "_{[402-my sister]} asked [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . " In [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's room]_{4929-miss havisham 's room} . "_{[402-my sister]} [They]_1092-they stared again . " But there were n't any horses to it . "_[1092-they] [I]_0-i added this saving clause , in the moment of rejecting four richly caparisoned coursers which [I]_0-i had had wild thoughts of harnessing . " Can this be possible , [uncle]_658-uncle ? "_[154-joe] asked [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . " What can [the boy]_{4532-the boy} mean ? "_[154-joe] " [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 'll tell [you]_154-joe , [Mum]_174-mum , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " [My]_{176-mr. pumblechook} opinion is , it 's a sedan - chair . [She]_4932-her 's flighty , [you]_154-joe know , - very flighty , - quite flighty enough to pass [her]_4932-her days in [a sedan - chair]_{4933-a sedan - chair} . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Did [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ever see [her]_4932-her in [it]_{4933-a sedan - chair} , [uncle]_658-uncle ? "_[154-joe] asked [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe . " How could [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} returned , forced to the admission , " when [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} never see [her]_4932-her in [my]_{176-mr. pumblechook} life ? Never clapped eyes upon [her]_4932-her ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Goodness , [uncle]_658-uncle ! And yet [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} have spoken to [her]_4932-her ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Why , do n't [you]_154-joe know , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , testily , " that when [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} have been [there]_4505-there , [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} have been took up to the outside of [her]_4932-her door , and the door has stood ajar , and [she]_4932-her has spoke to [me]_{176-mr. pumblechook} that way . Do n't say [you]_154-joe do n't know that , [Mum]_174-mum . [Howsever]_199-howsever , [the boy]_{4532-the boy} went [there]_4505-there to play . What did [you]_154-joe play at , [boy]_4519-boy ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " [We]_4940-we played with flags , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said . [I]_0-i beg to observe that [I]_0-i think of [myself]_0-i with amazement , when [I]_0-i recall the lies [I]_0-i told on this occasion . " Flags ! "_{[402-my sister]} echoed [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . " Yes , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [Estella]_195-estella waved a blue flag , and [I]_0-i waved a red one , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} waved one sprinkled all over with little gold stars , out at the coach - window . And then [we]_4940-we all waved [our]_4940-we swords and hurrahed . "_[0-i] " Swords ! "_{[402-my sister]} repeated [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . " Where did [you]_0-i get swords from ? "_{[402-my sister]} " Out of [a cupboard]_{4941-a cupboard} , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And [I]_{402-my sister} saw pistols in it , - and jam , - and pills . And there was no daylight in [the room]_{633-the room} , but it was all lighted up with candles . "_{[402-my sister]} " That 's true , [Mum]_174-mum , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , with a grave nod . " That 's the state of the case , for that much [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 've seen [myself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} And then [they]_1096-they both stared at [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i , with an obtrusive show of artlessness on [my]_0-i countenance , stared at [them]_1096-they , and plaited the right leg of [my]_0-i trousers with [my]_0-i right hand . If [they]_1096-they had asked [me]_0-i any more questions , [I]_0-i should undoubtedly have betrayed [myself]_0-i , for [I]_0-i was even then on the point of mentioning that there was a balloon in [the yard]_{717-the yard} , and should have hazarded the statement but for [my]_0-i invention being divided between that phenomenon and a bear in [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} . [They]_1096-they were so much occupied , however , in discussing the marvels [I]_0-i had already presented for [their]_1096-they consideration , that [I]_0-i escaped . The subject still held [them]_1096-they when [Joe]_154-joe came in from [his]_1099-his work to have a cup of tea . To whom [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , more for the relief of [her]_{402-my sister} own mind than for the gratification of [his]_1099-his , related [my]_0-i pretended experiences . Now , when [I]_0-i saw [Joe]_154-joe open [his]_1099-his blue eyes and roll [them]_1101-them all round [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} in helpless amazement , [I]_0-i was overtaken by penitence ; but only as regarded [him]_1099-his , - not in the least as regarded [the other two]_{1103-the other two} . Towards [Joe]_154-joe , and [Joe]_154-joe only , [I]_0-i considered [myself]_0-i [a young monster]_{1104-a young monster} , while [they]_1105-they sat debating what results would come to [me]_0-i from [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's acquaintance and favor . [They]_1105-they had no doubt that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would " do something "_[1105-they] for [me]_0-i ; [their]_1105-they doubts related to the form that something would take . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} stood out for " property . "_{[402-my sister]} [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was in favor of a handsome premium for binding [me]_0-i apprentice to some genteel trade , - say , the corn and seed trade , for instance . [Joe]_154-joe fell into the deepest disgrace with both , for offering the bright suggestion that [I]_0-i might only be presented with one of the dogs who had fought for the veal - cutlets . " If [a fool]_{4943-a fool} 's head ca n't express better opinions than that , "_{[402-my sister]} said [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , " and [you]_154-joe have got any work to do , [you]_154-joe had better go and do it . "_{[402-my sister]} So [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} went . After [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had driven off , and when [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was washing up , [I]_0-i stole into [the forge]_{488-the forge} to [Joe]_154-joe , and remained by [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} until [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had done for the night . Then [I]_0-i said , " Before the fire goes out , [Joe]_154-joe , [I]_0-i should like to tell [you]_154-joe something . "_[0-i] " Should [you]_154-joe , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , drawing [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shoeing - stool near [the forge]_{488-the forge} . " Then tell [us]_4944-us . What is it , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[0-i] " [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , taking hold of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} rolled - up shirt sleeve , and twisting it between [my]_0-i finger and thumb , " [you]_154-joe remember all that about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's ? "_[0-i] " Remember ? "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " [I]_154-joe believe [you]_154-joe ! Wonderful ! "_[154-joe] " It 's a terrible thing , [Joe]_154-joe ; it ai n't true . "_[0-i] " What are [you]_154-joe telling of , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] cried [Joe]_154-joe , falling back in the greatest amazement . " [You]_154-joe do n't mean to say it 's - "_[154-joe] " Yes [I]_0-i do ; it 's lies , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[0-i] " But not all of it ? Why sure [you]_154-joe do n't mean to say , [Pip]_241-pip , that there was no black welwet co - ch ? "_[0-i] For , [I]_0-i stood shaking [my]_0-i head . " But at least there was dogs , [Pip]_241-pip ? Come , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , persuasively , " if there warn't no weal - cutlets , at least there was dogs ? "_[154-joe] " No , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] " A dog ? "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " [A puppy]_{4945-a puppy} ? Come ? "_[154-joe] " No , [Joe]_154-joe , there was nothing at all of the kind . "_[0-i] As [I]_0-i fixed [my]_0-i eyes hopelessly on [Joe]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe contemplated [me]_0-i in dismay . " [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! This wo n't do , [old fellow]_{4947-old fellow} ! [I]_154-joe say ! Where do [you]_241-pip expect to go to ? "_[154-joe] " It 's terrible , [Joe]_154-joe ; ai n't it ? "_[154-joe] " Terrible ? "_[154-joe] cried [Joe]_154-joe . " Awful ! What possessed [you]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] " [I]_0-i do n't know what possessed [me]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , letting [his]_1111-his shirt sleeve go , and sitting down in the ashes at [his]_1111-his feet , hanging [my]_0-i head ; " but [I]_0-i wish [you]_154-joe had n't taught [me]_0-i to call [Knaves]_200-knaves at cards Jacks ; and [I]_0-i wish [my]_0-i boots were n't so thick nor [my]_0-i hands so coarse . "_[0-i] And then [I]_0-i told [Joe]_154-joe that [I]_0-i felt very miserable , and that [I]_0-i had n't been able to explain [myself]_0-i to [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe and [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , who were so rude to [me]_0-i , and that there had been [a beautiful young lady at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's who was dreadfully proud]_{1112-a beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's who was dreadfully proud} , and that [she]_{1112-a beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's who was dreadfully proud} had said [I]_0-i was [common]_1113-common , and that [I]_0-i knew [I]_0-i was common , and that [I]_0-i wished [I]_0-i was not common , and that the lies had come of it somehow , though [I]_0-i did n't know how . This was a case of metaphysics , at least as difficult for [Joe]_154-joe to deal with as for [me]_0-i . But [Joe]_154-joe took the case altogether out of [the region of metaphysics]_{1114-the region of metaphysics} , and by that means vanquished it . " There 's one thing [you]_0-i may be sure of , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , after some rumination , " namely , that lies is lies . Howsever [they]_4948-they come , [they]_4948-they did n't ought to come , and [they]_4948-they come from [the father of lies]_{4949-the father of lies} , and work round to the same . Do n't [you]_0-i tell no more of ['em]_4950-'em , [Pip]_241-pip . That ai n't the way to get out of being common , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . And as to being common , [I]_154-joe do n't make it out at all clear . [You]_0-i are oncommon in some things . [You]_0-i 're oncommon small . Likewise [you]_0-i 're [a oncommon scholar]_{4952-a oncommon scholar} . "_[154-joe] " No , [I]_154-joe am ignorant and backward , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] " Why , see what a letter [you]_154-joe wrote last night ! Wrote in print even ! [I]_154-joe 've seen letters - Ah ! and from [gentlefolks]_{4953-gentlefolks} ! - that [I]_154-joe 'll swear were n't wrote in print , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " [I]_154-joe have learnt next to nothing , [Joe]_154-joe . [You]_154-joe think much of [me]_154-joe . It 's only that . "_[154-joe] " Well , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " be it so or be it son't , [you]_241-pip must be [a common scholar]_{4954-a common scholar} afore [you]_241-pip can be [a oncommon one]_{4955-a oncommon one} , [I]_154-joe should hope ! [The king]_{707-the king} upon [his]_{707-the king} throne , with [his]_{707-the king} crown upon [his]_{707-the king} ed , ca n't sit and write [his]_{707-the king} acts of Parliament in print , without having begun , when [he]_{707-the king} were [a unpromoted Prince]_{4957-a unpromoted prince} , with the alphabet . - Ah ! "_[154-joe] added [Joe]_154-joe , with a shake of the head that was full of meaning , " and begun at A. too , and worked [his]_{707-the king} way to [Z.]_201-z. And [I]_154-joe know what that is to do , though [I]_154-joe ca n't say [I]_154-joe 've exactly done it . "_[154-joe] There was some hope in this piece of wisdom , and it rather encouraged [me]_0-i . " Whether common ones as to callings and earnings , "_[154-joe] pursued [Joe]_154-joe , reflectively , " might n't be the better of continuing for to keep company with [common ones]_{4958-common ones} , instead of going out to play with [oncommon ones]_{4959-oncommon ones} , - which reminds [me]_154-joe to hope that there were a flag , perhaps ? "_[154-joe] " No , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] " [I]_154-joe 'm sorry there were n't a flag , [Pip]_241-pip . Whether that might be or might n't be , is a thing as ca n't be looked into now , without putting [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} on the Rampage ; and that 's a thing not to be thought of as being done intentional . Lookee here , [Pip]_241-pip , at what is said to [you]_241-pip by [a true friend]_{4961-a true friend} . Which this to [you]_241-pip [the true friend]_{4962-the true friend} say . If [you]_241-pip ca n't get to be oncommon through going straight , [you]_241-pip 'll never get to do it through going crooked . So do n't tell no more on 'em , [Pip]_241-pip , and live well and die happy . "_[154-joe] " [You]_154-joe are not angry with [me]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe ? "_[154-joe] " No , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . But bearing in mind that [them]_4964-them were which [I]_154-joe meantersay of a stunning and outdacious sort , - alluding to them which bordered on weal - cutlets and dog - fighting , - [a sincere well - wisher]_{4965-a sincere well - wisher} would adwise , [Pip]_241-pip , [their]_4964-them being dropped into [your]_241-pip meditations , when [you]_241-pip go up [stairs]_539-stairs to bed . That 's all , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , and do n't never do it no more . "_[154-joe] When [I]_0-i got up to [[my]_0-i little room]_{1115-my little room} and said [my]_0-i prayers , [I]_0-i did not forget [Joe]_154-joe 's recommendation , and yet [my]_0-i young mind was in that disturbed and unthankful state , that [I]_0-i thought long after [I]_0-i laid [me]_0-i down , how common [Estella]_195-estella would consider [Joe]_154-joe , [a mere blacksmith]_{1116-a mere blacksmith} ; how thick [his]_{1116-a mere blacksmith} boots , and how coarse [his]_{1116-a mere blacksmith} hands . [I]_0-i thought how [Joe]_154-joe and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} were then sitting in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and how [I]_0-i had come up to bed from [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and how [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella never sat in [a kitchen]_{1120-a kitchen} , but were far above the level of such common doings . [I]_0-i fell asleep recalling what [I]_0-i " used to do "_{[223-miss havisham]} when [I]_0-i was at [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's} ; as though [I]_0-i had been there weeks or months , instead of hours ; and as though it were quite an old subject of remembrance , instead of one that had arisen only that day . That was a memorable day to [me]_0-i , for it made great changes in [me]_0-i . But it is the same with any life . Imagine one selected day struck out of it , and think how different its course would have been . Pause [you]_1122-you who read this , and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold , of thorns or flowers , that would never have bound [you]_1122-you , but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day . Chapter X The felicitous idea occurred to [me]_0-i a morning or two later when [I]_0-i woke , that the best step [I]_0-i could take towards making [myself]_0-i uncommon was to get out of [Biddy]_188-biddy everything [she]_188-biddy knew . In pursuance of this luminous conception [I]_0-i mentioned to [Biddy]_188-biddy when [I]_0-i went to [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} 's at night , that [I]_0-i had a particular reason for wishing to get on in life , and that [I]_0-i should feel very much obliged to [her]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} if [she]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} would impart all [her]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} learning to [me]_0-i . [Biddy]_188-biddy , who was the most obliging of [girls]_1124-girls , immediately said [she]_188-biddy would , and indeed began to carry out [her]_188-biddy promise within five minutes . The Educational scheme or Course established by [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} may be resolved into the following synopsis . [The pupils]_{1126-the pupils} ate apples and put straws down [one another]_{4584-one another} 's backs , until [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} collected [her]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} energies , and made an indiscriminate totter at [them]_{1126-the pupils} with a birch - rod . After receiving the charge with every mark of derision , [the pupils]_{1126-the pupils} formed in line and buzzingly passed a ragged book from hand to hand . The book had an alphabet in it , some figures and tables , and a little spelling , - that is to say , it had had once . As soon as this volume began to circulate , [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} fell into a state of coma , arising either from sleep or a rheumatic paroxysm . [The pupils]_{1126-the pupils} then entered among [themselves]_{1126-the pupils} upon a competitive examination on the subject of Boots , with the view of ascertaining who could tread the hardest upon whose toes . This mental exercise lasted until [Biddy]_188-biddy made a rush at [them]_{1126-the pupils} and distributed three defaced Bibles shaped as if they had been unskilfully cut off the chump end of something , more illegibly printed at the best than any curiosities of literature [I]_0-i have since met with , speckled all over with ironmould , and having various specimens of the insect world smashed between [their]_{1126-the pupils} leaves . This part of the Course was usually lightened by several single combats between [Biddy]_188-biddy and [refractory students]_{1132-refractory students} . When the fights were over , [Biddy]_188-biddy gave out the number of a page , and then [we]_1133-we all read aloud what [we]_1133-we could , - or what [we]_1133-we could n't - in a frightful chorus ; [Biddy]_188-biddy leading with a high , shrill , monotonous voice , and none of [us]_1133-we having the least notion of , or reverence for , what [we]_1133-we were reading about . When this horrible din had lasted a certain time , it mechanically awoke [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} , who staggered at [a boy]_{4485-a boy} fortuitously , and pulled [his]_{4485-a boy} ears . This was understood to terminate the Course for the evening , and [we]_1133-we emerged into the air with shrieks of intellectual victory . It is fair to remark that there was no prohibition against [any pupil]_{1136-any pupil} 's entertaining [himself]_{1136-any pupil} with a slate or even with the ink when there was any , but that it was not easy to pursue that branch of study in the winter season , on account of [the little general shop in which the classes were holden]_{1137-the little general shop in which the classes were holden} - and which was also [[[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} 's sitting - room]_{1139-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt 's sitting - room} and bedchamber - being but faintly illuminated through the agency of one low - spirited dip - candle and no snuffers . It appeared to [me]_0-i that it would take time to become uncommon , under these circumstances : nevertheless , [I]_0-i resolved to try it , and that very evening [Biddy]_188-biddy entered on [our]_1133-we special agreement , by imparting some information from [her]_188-biddy little catalogue of Prices , under the head of moist sugar , and lending [me]_0-i , to copy at [home]_4495-home , a large old English D which [she]_188-biddy had imitated from the heading of some newspaper , and which [I]_0-i supposed , until [she]_188-biddy told [me]_0-i what it was , to be a design for a buckle . Of course there was [a public - house in [the village]_{758-the village}]_{1141-a public - house in the village} , and of course [Joe]_154-joe liked sometimes to smoke [his]_1143-him pipe [there]_4505-there . [I]_0-i had received strict orders from [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} to call for [him]_1143-him at [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} , that evening , on [my]_0-i way from [school]_4758-school , and bring [him]_1143-him [home]_4495-home at [my]_0-i peril . To [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} , therefore , [I]_0-i directed [my]_0-i steps . There was [a bar at [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen}]_{1149-a bar at the jolly bargemen} , with some alarmingly long chalk scores in it on the wall at the side of the door , which seemed to [me]_0-i to be never paid off . [They]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} had been there ever since [I]_0-i could remember , and had grown more than [I]_0-i had . But there was a quantity of chalk about [[our]_1151-our country]_{485-our country} , and perhaps [the people]_{759-the people} neglected no opportunity of turning it to account . It being Saturday night , [I]_0-i found [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} looking rather grimly at these records ; but as [my]_0-i business was with [Joe]_154-joe and not with [him]_1143-him , [I]_0-i merely wished [him]_1143-him good evening , and passed into [the common room]_{1155-the common room} at the end of [the passage]_{616-the passage} , where there was a bright large [kitchen fire]_{1157-kitchen fire} , and where [Joe]_154-joe was smoking [his]_1143-him pipe in company with [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} and [a stranger]_{1158-a stranger} . [Joe]_154-joe greeted [me]_0-i as usual with " [Halloa]_167-halloa , [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ! "_[154-joe] and the moment [he]_1143-him said that , [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} turned [his]_{1159-the stranger} head and looked at [me]_0-i . [He]_{1159-the stranger} was [a secret - looking man whom [I]_0-i had never seen before]_{1160-a secret - looking man whom i had never seen before} . [His]_{1159-the stranger} head was all on one side , and one of [his]_{1159-the stranger} eyes was half shut up , as if [he]_{1159-the stranger} were taking aim at something with an invisible gun . [He]_{1159-the stranger} had a pipe in [his]_{1159-the stranger} mouth , and [he]_{1159-the stranger} took it out , and , after slowly blowing all [his]_{1159-the stranger} smoke away and looking hard at [me]_0-i all the time , nodded . So , [I]_0-i nodded , and then [he]_{1159-the stranger} nodded again , and made room on the settle beside [him]_{1159-the stranger} that [I]_0-i might sit down there . But as [I]_0-i was used to sit beside [Joe]_154-joe whenever [I]_0-i entered [that place of resort]_{1161-that place of resort} , [I]_0-i said " No , thank [you]_{1164-the strange man} , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] and fell into [the space [Joe]_154-joe made for [me]_0-i on [the opposite settle]_{1163-the opposite settle}]_{1162-the space joe made for me on the opposite settle} . [The strange man]_{1164-the strange man} , after glancing at [Joe]_154-joe , and seeing that [his]_{1159-the stranger} attention was otherwise engaged , nodded to [me]_0-i again when [I]_0-i had taken [my]_0-i seat , and then rubbed [his]_{1159-the stranger} leg - in a very odd way , as it struck [me]_0-i . " [You]_154-joe was saying , "_{[1164-the strange man]} said [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} , turning to [Joe]_154-joe , " that [you]_154-joe was [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} . "_{[1164-the strange man]} " Yes . [I]_154-joe said it , [you]_{1164-the strange man} know , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " What 'll [you]_{1164-the strange man} drink , [Mr.]_4971-mr. - ? [You]_{1164-the strange man} did n't mention [your]_{1164-the strange man} name , by the bye . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe mentioned it now , and [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} called [him]_{1159-the stranger} by it . " What 'll [you]_{1164-the strange man} drink , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ? At [my]_{1164-the strange man} expense ? To top up with ? "_{[1164-the strange man]} " Well , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " to tell [you]_{1164-the strange man} the truth , [I]_154-joe ai n't much in the habit of drinking at [anybody]_4526-anybody 's expense but [my]_154-joe own . "_[154-joe] " Habit ? No , "_{[1159-the stranger]} returned [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , " but once and away , and on a Saturday night too . Come ! Put a name to it , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} . "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [I]_154-joe would n't wish to be stiff company , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " Rum . "_[154-joe] " Rum , "_{[1159-the stranger]} repeated [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} . " And will [the other gentleman]_{4973-the other gentleman} originate a sentiment . "_{[1159-the stranger]} " Rum , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Three Rums ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} cried [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , calling to [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . " Glasses round ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [This other gentleman]_{4974-this other gentleman} , "_[154-joe] observed [Joe]_154-joe , by way of introducing [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , " is [a gentleman that [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} would like to hear give it out . [[Our]_4976-our clerk at [church]_622-church]_{4977-our clerk at church}]_{4975-a gentleman that you would like to hear give it out . our clerk at church} . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " Aha ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , quickly , and cocking [his]_{1159-the stranger} eye at [me]_0-i . " [The lonely church]_{4979-the lonely church} , right out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , with graves round [it]_{4979-the lonely church} ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} " That 's it , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . [The stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , with a comfortable kind of grunt over [his]_{1159-the stranger} pipe , put [his]_{1159-the stranger} legs up on the settle that [he]_{1159-the stranger} had to [himself]_{1159-the stranger} . [He]_{1159-the stranger} wore a flapping broad - brimmed [traveller]_{1173-traveller} 's hat , and under it a handkerchief tied over [his]_{1159-the stranger} head in the manner of a cap : so that [he]_{1159-the stranger} showed no hair . As [he]_{1159-the stranger} looked at the fire , [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i saw a cunning expression , followed by a half - laugh , come into [his]_{1159-the stranger} face . " [I]_154-joe am not acquainted with [this country]_{4981-this country} , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , but it seems [a solitary country towards [the river]_{413-the river}]_{4983-a solitary country towards the river} . "_[154-joe] " [Most marshes]_{4985-most marshes} is solitary , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " No doubt , no doubt . Do [you]_{1159-the stranger} find any gypsies , now , or [tramps]_4986-tramps , or [vagrants of any sort]_{4987-vagrants of any sort} , out there ? "_[154-joe] " No , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe ; " none but [a runaway convict]_{4988-a runaway convict} now and then . And [we]_4989-we do n't find them , easy . Eh , [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} ? "_[154-joe] [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , with a majestic remembrance of old discomfiture , assented ; but not warmly . " Seems [you]_{1159-the stranger} have been out after such ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} asked [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} . " Once , "_[154-joe] returned [Joe]_154-joe . " Not that [we]_4989-we wanted to take [them]_4990-them , [you]_{1159-the stranger} understand ; [we]_4989-we went out as [lookers on]_{4991-lookers on} ; [me]_154-joe , and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , and [Pip]_241-pip . Did n't [us]_4989-we , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] " Yes , [Joe]_154-joe . "_{[1159-the stranger]} [The stranger]_{1159-the stranger} looked at [me]_0-i again , - still cocking [his]_{1159-the stranger} eye , as if [he]_{1159-the stranger} were expressly taking aim at [me]_0-i with [his]_{1159-the stranger} invisible gun , - and said , " [He]_241-pip 's [a likely young parcel of bones that]_{4992-a likely young parcel of bones that} . What is it [you]_{1159-the stranger} call [him]_241-pip ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " Christened [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] " No , not christened [Pip]_241-pip . "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [Surname Pip]_241-pip ? "_[154-joe] " No , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " it 's a kind of family name what [he]_241-pip gave [himself]_241-pip when [a infant]_{4993-a infant} , and is called by . "_[154-joe] " Son of [yours]_{1159-the stranger} ? "_[154-joe] " Well , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , meditatively , not , of course , that it could be in anywise necessary to consider about it , but because it was the way at [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} to seem to consider deeply about everything that was discussed over pipes , - " well - no . No , [he]_241-pip ai n't . "_[154-joe] " [Nevvy]_205-nevvy ? "_{[1164-the strange man]} said [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} . " Well , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , with the same appearance of profound cogitation , " [he]_241-pip is not - no , not to deceive [you]_{1164-the strange man} , [he]_241-pip is not - [my]_154-joe nevvy . "_[154-joe] " What the Blue Blazes is [he]_241-pip ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} asked [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} . Which appeared to [me]_0-i to be an inquiry of unnecessary strength . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} struck in upon that ; as one who knew all about relationships , having professional occasion to bear in mind what female relations [a man]_{428-a man} might not marry ; and expounded the ties between [me]_0-i and [Joe]_154-joe . Having [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} hand in , [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} finished off with a most terrifically snarling passage from [Richard the Third]_175-richard , and seemed to think [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had done quite enough to account for it when [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} added , " - as [the poet]_{4994-the poet} says . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} And here [I]_0-i may remark that when [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} referred to [me]_0-i , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} considered it a necessary part of such reference to rumple [my]_0-i hair and poke it into [my]_0-i eyes . [I]_0-i can not conceive why [everybody of [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} standing who visited at [[our]_1181-our house]_{482-our house}]_{1180-everybody of his standing who visited at our house} should always have put [me]_0-i through the same inflammatory process under similar circumstances . Yet [I]_0-i do not call to mind that [I]_0-i was ever in [my]_0-i earlier youth the subject of remark in [[our]_1181-our social family circle]_{1183-our social family circle} , but [some large - handed person]_{1184-some large - handed person} took some such ophthalmic steps to patronize [me]_0-i . All this while , [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} looked at [nobody]_4527-nobody but [me]_0-i , and looked at [me]_0-i as if [he]_{1164-the strange man} were determined to have a shot at [me]_0-i at last , and bring [me]_0-i down . But [he]_{1164-the strange man} said nothing after offering [his]_{1164-the strange man} Blue Blazes observation , until the glasses of rum and water were brought ; and then [he]_{1164-the strange man} made [his]_{1164-the strange man} shot , and a most extraordinary shot it was . It was not a verbal remark , but a proceeding in dumb - show , and was pointedly addressed to [me]_0-i . [He]_{1164-the strange man} stirred [his]_{1164-the strange man} rum and water pointedly at [me]_0-i , and [he]_{1164-the strange man} tasted [his]_{1164-the strange man} rum and water pointedly at [me]_0-i . And [he]_{1164-the strange man} stirred it and [he]_{1164-the strange man} tasted it ; not with a spoon that was brought to [him]_{1164-the strange man} , but with a file . [He]_{1164-the strange man} did this so that [nobody]_4527-nobody but [I]_0-i saw the file ; and when [he]_{1164-the strange man} had done it [he]_{1164-the strange man} wiped the file and put it in a breast - pocket . [I]_0-i knew it to be [Joe]_154-joe 's file , and [I]_0-i knew that [he]_{1164-the strange man} knew [my]_0-i convict , the moment [I]_0-i saw the instrument . [I]_0-i sat gazing at [him]_{1164-the strange man} , spell - bound . But [he]_{1164-the strange man} now reclined on [his]_{1164-the strange man} settle , taking very little notice of [me]_0-i , and talking principally about turnips . There was a delicious sense of cleaning - up and making a quiet pause before going on in life afresh , in [[our]_1188-our village]_{437-our village} on Saturday nights , which stimulated [Joe]_154-joe to dare to stay out half an hour longer on Saturdays than at other times . The half - hour and the rum and water running out together , [Joe]_154-joe got up to go , and took [me]_0-i by the hand . " Stop half a moment , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} , "_{[1164-the strange man]} said [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} . " [I]_{1164-the strange man} think [I]_{1164-the strange man} 've got a bright new shilling somewhere in [my]_{1164-the strange man} pocket , and if [I]_{1164-the strange man} have , [the boy]_{4532-the boy} shall have it . "_{[1164-the strange man]} [He]_{1164-the strange man} looked it out from a handful of small change , folded it in some crumpled paper , and gave it to [me]_0-i . " [Yours]_0-i ! "_{[1164-the strange man]} said [he]_{1164-the strange man} . " Mind ! [Your]_0-i own . "_{[1164-the strange man]} [I]_0-i thanked [him]_{1164-the strange man} , staring at [him]_{1164-the strange man} far beyond the bounds of good manners , and holding tight to [Joe]_154-joe . [He]_{1164-the strange man} gave [Joe]_154-joe good - night , and [he]_{1164-the strange man} gave [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} good - night who went out with [us]_1191-us , and [he]_{1164-the strange man} gave [me]_0-i only a look with [his]_{1164-the strange man} aiming eye , - no , not a look , for [he]_{1164-the strange man} shut it up , but wonders may be done with an eye by hiding it . On the way [home]_4495-home , if [I]_0-i had been in a humor for talking , the talk must have been all on [my]_0-i side , for [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} parted from [us]_1191-us at the door of [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} , and [Joe]_154-joe went all the way [home]_4495-home with [his]_{1164-the strange man} mouth wide open , to rinse the rum out with as much air as possible . But [I]_0-i was in a manner stupefied by this turning up of [my]_0-i old misdeed and old acquaintance , and could think of nothing else . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was not in a very bad temper when [we]_1191-us presented [ourselves]_1191-us in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and [Joe]_154-joe was encouraged by that unusual circumstance to tell [her]_{402-my sister} about the bright shilling . " A bad un , [I]_154-joe 'll be bound , "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe triumphantly , " or [he]_4996-he would n't have given it to [the boy]_{4532-the boy} ! Let 's look at it . "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i took it out of the paper , and it proved to be a good one . " But what 's this ? "_[154-joe] said [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe , throwing down the shilling and catching up the paper . " Two One - Pound notes ? "_[154-joe] Nothing less than two fat sweltering one - pound notes that seemed to have been on terms of the warmest intimacy with [all the cattle - markets in [the county]_{1198-the county}]_{1197-all the cattle - markets in the county} . [Joe]_154-joe caught up [his]_{1164-the strange man} hat again , and ran with [them]_1199-them to [the Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} to restore [them]_1199-them to [[their]_1199-them owner]_{1200-their owner} . While [he]_{1164-the strange man} was gone , [I]_0-i sat down on [my]_0-i usual stool and looked vacantly at [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , feeling pretty sure that [the man]_{433-the man} would not be [there]_4505-there . Presently , [Joe]_154-joe came back , saying that [the man]_{433-the man} was gone , but that [he]_{1164-the strange man} , [Joe]_154-joe , had left word at the Three Jolly Bargemen concerning the notes . Then [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} sealed them up in a piece of paper , and put them under some dried rose - leaves in an ornamental teapot on the top of a press in [the state parlor]_{1206-the state parlor} . There they remained , a nightmare to [me]_0-i , many and many a night and day . [I]_0-i had sadly broken sleep when [I]_0-i got to bed , through thinking of [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} taking aim at [me]_0-i with [his]_{1164-the strange man} invisible gun , and of the guiltily coarse and common thing it was , to be on secret terms of conspiracy with [convicts]_{4633-convicts} , - a feature in [my]_0-i low career that [I]_0-i had previously forgotten . [I]_0-i was haunted by the file too . A dread possessed [me]_0-i that when [I]_0-i least expected it , the file would reappear . [I]_0-i coaxed [myself]_0-i to sleep by thinking of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , next Wednesday ; and in [my]_0-i sleep [I]_0-i saw the file coming at [me]_0-i out of a door , without seeing who held it , and [I]_0-i screamed [myself]_0-i awake . Chapter XI At the appointed time [I]_0-i returned to [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's} , and [my]_0-i hesitating ring at the gate brought out [Estella]_195-estella . [She]_{223-miss havisham} locked it after admitting [me]_0-i , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} had done before , and again preceded [me]_0-i into [the dark passage]_{1022-the dark passage} where [her]_{223-miss havisham} candle stood . [She]_{223-miss havisham} took no notice of [me]_0-i until [she]_{223-miss havisham} had the candle in [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand , when [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked over [her]_{223-miss havisham} shoulder , superciliously saying , " [You]_0-i are to come this way to - day , "_{[223-miss havisham]} and took [me]_0-i to quite another part of [the house]_{604-the house} . [The passage]_{616-the passage} was a long one , and seemed to pervade [the whole square basement of [the Manor House]_{6-the manor house}]_{1213-the whole square basement of the manor house} . [We]_1214-we traversed but one side of [the square]_{1215-the square} , however , and at the end of [it]_{1213-the whole square basement of the manor house} [she]_{223-miss havisham} stopped , and put [her]_{223-miss havisham} candle down and opened a door . Here , the daylight reappeared , and [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i in [a small paved courtyard]_{1216-a small paved courtyard} , the opposite side of which was formed by [a detached dwelling - house]_{1217-a detached dwelling - house} , that looked as if [it]_{1217-a detached dwelling - house} had once belonged to [the manager or head clerk of [the extinct brewery]_{1219-the extinct brewery}]_{1218-the manager or head clerk of the extinct brewery} . There was a clock in the outer wall of [this house]_{995-this house} . Like the clock in [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's room]_{4929-miss havisham 's room} , and like [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's watch , it had stopped at twenty minutes to nine . [We]_1214-we went in at the door , which stood open , and into [a gloomy room]_{1222-a gloomy room} with a low ceiling , on the ground - floor at the back . There was some company in [the room]_{633-the room} , and [Estella]_195-estella said to [me]_0-i as [she]_195-estella joined [it]_{633-the room} , " [You]_0-i are to go and stand there [boy]_4519-boy , till [you]_0-i are wanted . "_{[195-estella]} " There "_{[195-estella]} , being the window , [I]_0-i crossed to it , and stood " there , "_{[195-estella]} in a very uncomfortable state of mind , looking out . It opened to the ground , and looked into a most miserable corner of [the neglected garden]_{1224-the neglected garden} , upon a rank ruin of cabbage - stalks , and one box - tree that had been clipped round long ago , like a pudding , and had a new growth at the top of it , out of shape and of a different color , as if that part of the pudding had stuck to the saucepan and got burnt . This was [my]_0-i homely thought , as [I]_0-i contemplated the box - tree . There had been some light snow , overnight , and it lay nowhere else to [my]_0-i knowledge ; but , it had not quite melted from the cold shadow of this bit of [garden]_1225-garden , and the wind caught it up in little eddies and threw it at the window , as if it pelted [me]_0-i for coming [there]_4505-there . [I]_0-i divined that [my]_0-i coming had stopped conversation in [the room]_{633-the room} , and that [its other occupants]_{1228-its other occupants} were looking at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i could see nothing of [the room]_{633-the room} except the shining of the fire in the window - glass , but [I]_0-i stiffened in all [my]_0-i joints with the consciousness that [I]_0-i was under close inspection . There were [three ladies in [the room]_{633-the room}]_{1230-three ladies in the room} and [one gentleman]_{1232-one gentleman} . Before [I]_0-i had been standing at the window five minutes , [they]_{1230-three ladies in the room} somehow conveyed to [me]_0-i that [they]_{1230-three ladies in the room} were [all toadies and humbugs]_{1233-all toadies and humbugs} , but that each of [them]_{1230-three ladies in the room} pretended not to know that [the others]_{1234-the others} were toadies and humbugs : because the admission that [he]_1235-he or [she]_1236-she did know it , would have made [him]_1235-he or [her]_1236-she out to be [a toady and humbug]_{1237-a toady and humbug} . [They]_{1230-three ladies in the room} all had a listless and dreary air of waiting [somebody]_591-somebody 's pleasure , and [the most talkative of the ladies]_{1239-the most talkative of the ladies} had to speak quite rigidly to repress a yawn . [This lady]_{1240-this lady} , whose name was [Camilla]_206-camilla , very much reminded [me]_0-i of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , with the difference that [she]_{1240-this lady} was older , and as [I]_0-i found when [I]_0-i caught sight of [her]_{1240-this lady} of a blunter cast of features . Indeed , when [I]_0-i knew [her]_{1240-this lady} better [I]_0-i began to think it was a Mercy [she]_{1240-this lady} had any features at all , so very blank and high was the dead wall of [her]_{1240-this lady} face . " [Poor dear soul]_{4999-poor dear soul} ! "_{[1240-this lady]} said [this lady]_{1240-this lady} , with an abruptness of manner quite [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's . " [[Nobody]_4527-nobody 's enemy]_{5001-nobody 's enemy} but [[his]_4527-nobody own]_{5002-his own} ! "_{[1240-this lady]} " It would be much more commendable to be [[somebody else]_{5003-somebody else} 's enemy]_{5004-somebody else 's enemy} , "_{[1244-the gentleman]} said [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} ; " far more natural . "_{[1244-the gentleman]} " [Cousin Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} , "_{[1245-another lady]} observed [another lady]_{1245-another lady} , " [we]_5005-we are to love [[our]_5005-we neighbor]_{5006-our neighbor} . "_{[1245-another lady]} " [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} , "_{[207-cousin raymond]} returned [Cousin Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} , " if [a man]_{428-a man} is not [[his]_{428-a man} own neighbor]_{5008-his own neighbor} , who is ? "_{[207-cousin raymond]} [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} laughed , and [Camilla]_206-camilla laughed and said checking a yawn , " The idea ! "_{[206-camilla]} But [I]_0-i thought [they]_1246-they seemed to think it rather a good idea too . [The other lady , who had not spoken yet]_{1247-the other lady , who had not spoken yet} , said gravely and emphatically , " Very true ! "_{[1247-the other lady , who had not spoken yet]} " [Poor soul]_{905-poor soul} ! "_{[206-camilla]} [Camilla]_206-camilla presently went on [I]_0-i knew [they]_1246-they had all been looking at [me]_0-i in the mean time , " [he]_{5006-our neighbor} is so very strange ! Would [anyone]_5010-anyone believe that when [[Tom]_209-tom 's wife]_{5011-tom 's wife} died , [he]_{5006-our neighbor} actually could not be induced to see the importance of [the children]_{5012-the children} 's having the deepest of trimmings to [their]_{5012-the children} mourning ? ' [Good Lord]_{210-good lord} ! ' says [he]_{5006-our neighbor} , ' [Camilla]_206-camilla , what can it signify so long as the poor bereaved little things are in black ? ' So like [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} ! The idea ! "_[1246-they] " Good points in [him]_{5006-our neighbor} , good points in [him]_{5006-our neighbor} , "_{[207-cousin raymond]} said [Cousin Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} ; " Heaven forbid [I]_{207-cousin raymond} should deny good points in [him]_{5006-our neighbor} ; but [he]_{5006-our neighbor} never had , and [he]_{5006-our neighbor} never will have , any sense of the proprieties . "_{[207-cousin raymond]} " [You]_0-i know [I]_206-camilla was obliged , "_{[206-camilla]} said [Camilla]_206-camilla , - " [I]_206-camilla was obliged to be firm . [I]_206-camilla said , ' It WILL NOT DO , for the credit of [the family]_{4724-the family} . ' [I]_206-camilla told [him]_{5006-our neighbor} that , without deep trimmings , [the family]_{4724-the family} was disgraced . [I]_206-camilla cried about it from breakfast till dinner . [I]_206-camilla injured [my]_206-camilla digestion . And at last [he]_{5006-our neighbor} flung out in [his]_{5006-our neighbor} violent way , and said , with a D , ' Then do as [you]_0-i like . ' Thank Goodness it will always be a consolation to [me]_206-camilla to know that [I]_206-camilla instantly went out in a pouring rain and bought the things . "_{[206-camilla]} " [He]_{5006-our neighbor} paid for them , did [he]_{5006-our neighbor} not ? "_{[195-estella]} asked [Estella]_195-estella . " It 's not the question , [[my]_206-camilla dear child]_{5015-my dear child} , who paid for them , "_{[206-camilla]} returned [Camilla]_206-camilla . " [I]_206-camilla bought them . And [I]_206-camilla shall often think of that with peace , when [I]_206-camilla wake up in the night . "_{[206-camilla]} The ringing of a distant bell , combined with the echoing of some cry or call along the passage by which [I]_0-i had come , interrupted the conversation and caused [Estella]_195-estella to say to [me]_0-i , " Now , [boy]_4519-boy ! "_{[195-estella]} On [my]_0-i turning round , [they]_1248-they all looked at [me]_0-i with the utmost contempt , and , as [I]_0-i went out , [I]_0-i heard [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} say , " Well [I]_{208-sarah pocket} am sure ! What next ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} and [Camilla]_206-camilla add , with indignation , " Was there ever such a fancy ! The i - de - a ! "_{[206-camilla]} As [we]_1249-we were going with [our]_1249-we candle along [the dark passage]_{1022-the dark passage} , [Estella]_195-estella stopped all of a sudden , and , facing round , said in [her]_195-estella taunting manner , with [her]_195-estella face quite close to [mine]_0-i , - " Well ? "_{[195-estella]} " Well , [miss]_988-miss ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , almost falling over [her]_195-estella and checking [myself]_0-i . [She]_195-estella stood looking at [me]_0-i , and , of course , [I]_0-i stood looking at [her]_195-estella . " Am [I]_195-estella pretty ? "_{[195-estella]} " Yes ; [I]_195-estella think [you]_195-estella are very pretty . "_{[195-estella]} " Am [I]_195-estella insulting ? "_{[195-estella]} " Not so much so as [you]_195-estella were last time , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Not so much so ? "_[0-i] " No . "_{[195-estella]} [She]_195-estella fired when [she]_195-estella asked the last question , and [she]_195-estella slapped [my]_0-i face with such force as [she]_195-estella had , when [I]_0-i answered it . " Now ? "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella . " [[You]_0-i little coarse monster]_{5018-you little coarse monster} , what do [you]_0-i think of [me]_195-estella now ? "_{[195-estella]} " [I]_195-estella shall not tell [you]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} " Because [you]_0-i are going to tell up [stairs]_539-stairs . Is that it ? "_{[195-estella]} " No , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " that 's not it . "_[0-i] " Why do n't [you]_0-i cry again , [you little wretch]_{5020-you little wretch} ? "_{[195-estella]} " Because [I]_0-i 'll never cry for [you]_195-estella again , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i Which was , [I]_0-i suppose , as false a declaration as ever was made ; for [I]_0-i was inwardly crying for [her]_195-estella then , and [I]_0-i know what [I]_0-i know of the pain [she]_195-estella cost [me]_0-i afterwards . [We]_1251-we went on [our]_1251-we way up stairs after this episode ; and , as [we]_1251-we were going up , [we]_1251-we met [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} groping [his]_{4657-a gentleman} way down . " Whom have [we]_1251-we here ? "_{[1244-the gentleman]} asked [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} , stopping and looking at [me]_0-i . " [A boy]_{4485-a boy} , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . [He]_{4657-a gentleman} was [a burly man of an exceedingly dark complexion , with an exceedingly large head , and a corresponding large hand]_{1254-a burly man of an exceedingly dark complexion , with an exceedingly large head , and a corresponding large hand} . [He]_{4657-a gentleman} took [my]_0-i chin in [his]_{4657-a gentleman} large hand and turned up [my]_0-i face to have a look at [me]_0-i by the light of the candle . [He]_{4657-a gentleman} was prematurely bald on the top of [his]_{4657-a gentleman} head , and had bushy black eyebrows that would n't lie down but stood up bristling . [His]_{4657-a gentleman} eyes were set very deep in [his]_{4657-a gentleman} head , and were disagreeably sharp and suspicious . [He]_{4657-a gentleman} had a large watch - chain , and strong black dots where [his]_{4657-a gentleman} beard and whiskers would have been if [he]_{4657-a gentleman} had let them . [He]_{4657-a gentleman} was nothing to [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i could have had no foresight then , that [he]_{4657-a gentleman} ever would be anything to [me]_0-i , but it happened that [I]_0-i had this opportunity of observing [him]_{4657-a gentleman} well . " [Boy of [the neighborhood]_{5023-the neighborhood}]_{5022-boy of the neighborhood} ? Hey ? "_{[4657-a gentleman]} said [he]_{4657-a gentleman} . " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[4657-a gentleman]} said [I.]_0-i " How do [you]_{4657-a gentleman} come [here]_693-here ? "_[0-i] " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} sent for [me]_0-i , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i explained . " Well ! Behave [yourself]_0-i . [I]_{4657-a gentleman} have a pretty large experience of [boys]_5027-boys , and [you]_0-i 're [a bad set of fellows]_{5028-a bad set of fellows} . Now mind ! "_{[4657-a gentleman]} said [he]_{4657-a gentleman} , biting the side of [his]_{4657-a gentleman} great forefinger as [he]_{4657-a gentleman} frowned at [me]_0-i , " [you]_0-i behave [yourself]_0-i ! "_{[4657-a gentleman]} With those words , [he]_{4657-a gentleman} released [me]_0-i - which [I]_0-i was glad of , for [his]_{4657-a gentleman} hand smelt of scented soap - and went [his]_{4657-a gentleman} way down [stairs]_539-stairs . [I]_0-i wondered whether [he]_{4657-a gentleman} could be [a doctor]_{1256-a doctor} ; but no , [I]_0-i thought ; [he]_{4657-a gentleman} could n't be [a doctor]_{1256-a doctor} , or [he]_{4657-a gentleman} would have a quieter and more persuasive manner . There was not much time to consider the subject , for [we]_1258-we were soon in [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's room]_{4929-miss havisham 's room} , where [she]_{223-miss havisham} and everything else were just as [I]_0-i had left [them]_1260-them . [Estella]_195-estella left [me]_0-i standing near the door , and [I]_0-i stood there until [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} cast [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes upon [me]_0-i from the dressing - table . " So ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , without being startled or surprised : " the days have worn away , have they ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . To - day is - "_{[223-miss havisham]} " There , there , there ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} with the impatient movement of [her]_{223-miss havisham} fingers . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} do n't want to know . Are [you]_698-ma'am ready to play ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i was obliged to answer in some confusion , " [I]_0-i do n't think [I]_0-i am , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . "_[0-i] " Not at cards again ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} demanded , with a searching look . " Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am ; [I]_{223-miss havisham} could do that , if [I]_{223-miss havisham} was wanted . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Since [this house]_{995-this house} strikes [you]_0-i old and grave , [boy]_4519-boy , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , impatiently , " and [you]_0-i are unwilling to play , are [you]_0-i willing to work ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i could answer this inquiry with a better heart than [I]_0-i had been able to find for the other question , and [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i was quite willing . " Then go into [that opposite room]_{5034-that opposite room} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [she]_{223-miss havisham} , pointing at the door behind [me]_0-i with [her]_{223-miss havisham} withered hand , " and wait there till [I]_{223-miss havisham} come . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i crossed [the staircase landing]_{1261-the staircase landing} , and entered [the room]_{633-the room} [she]_{223-miss havisham} indicated . From [that room]_{1263-that room} , too , the daylight was completely excluded , and it had an airless smell that was oppressive . A fire had been lately kindled in the damp old - fashioned grate , and it was more disposed to go out than to burn up , and the reluctant smoke which hung in [the room]_{633-the room} seemed colder than the clearer air , - like [our]_1265-our own marsh mist . Certain wintry branches of candles on the high chimney - piece faintly lighted [the chamber]_{1266-the chamber} ; or it would be more expressive to say , faintly troubled its darkness . [It]_{633-the room} was spacious , and [I]_0-i dare say had once been handsome , but every discernible thing in [it]_{633-the room} was covered with dust and mould , and dropping to pieces . The most prominent object was a long table with a tablecloth spread on it , as if a feast had been in preparation when [the house]_{604-the house} and the clocks all stopped together . An epergne or centre - piece of some kind was in the middle of this cloth ; it was so heavily overhung with cobwebs that its form was quite undistinguishable ; and , as [I]_0-i looked along the yellow expanse out of which [I]_0-i remember its seeming to grow , like a black fungus , [I]_0-i saw speckle - legged spiders with blotchy bodies running home to it , and running out from it , as if some circumstances of the greatest public importance had just transpired in [the spider community]_{1268-the spider community} . [I]_0-i heard the mice too , rattling behind the panels , as if the same occurrence were important to [their]_1269-their interests . But the black beetles took no notice of the agitation , and groped about the hearth in a ponderous elderly way , as if [they]_1269-their were short - sighted and hard of hearing , and not on terms with [one another]_{4584-one another} . These crawling things had fascinated [my]_0-i attention , and [I]_0-i was watching them from a distance , when [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} laid a hand upon [my]_0-i shoulder . In [her]_{223-miss havisham} other hand [she]_{223-miss havisham} had a crutch - headed stick on which [she]_{223-miss havisham} leaned , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked like [the Witch of [the place]_{4456-the place}]_{1271-the witch of the place} . " This , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [she]_{223-miss havisham} , pointing to the long table with [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , " is where [I]_{223-miss havisham} will be laid when [I]_{223-miss havisham} am dead . [They]_5035-they shall come and look at [me]_{223-miss havisham} here . "_{[223-miss havisham]} With some vague misgiving that [she]_{223-miss havisham} might get upon the table then and there and die at once , the complete realization of the ghastly waxwork at the Fair , [I]_0-i shrank under [her]_{223-miss havisham} touch . " What do [you]_0-i think that is ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} asked [me]_0-i , again pointing with [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick ; " that , where those cobwebs are ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_{223-miss havisham} ca n't guess what it is , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " It 's a great cake . A bride - cake . [Mine]_698-ma'am ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} looked all round [the room]_{633-the room} in a glaring manner , and then said , leaning on [me]_0-i while [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand twitched [my]_0-i shoulder , " Come , come , come ! Walk [me]_{223-miss havisham} , walk [me]_{223-miss havisham} ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i made out from this , that the work [I]_0-i had to do , was to walk [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} round and round [the room]_{633-the room} . Accordingly , [I]_0-i started at once , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} leaned upon [my]_0-i shoulder , and [we]_1275-we went away at a pace that might have been an imitation founded on [my]_0-i first impulse under that roof of [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's chaise - cart]_{1276-mr. pumblechook 's chaise - cart} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} was not physically strong , and after a little time said , " Slower ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} Still , [we]_1275-we went at an impatient fitful speed , and as [we]_1275-we went , [she]_{223-miss havisham} twitched the hand upon [my]_0-i shoulder , and worked [her]_{223-miss havisham} mouth , and led [me]_0-i to believe that [we]_1275-we were going fast because [her]_{223-miss havisham} thoughts went fast . After a while [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , " Call [Estella]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} so [I]_0-i went out on [the landing]_{1277-the landing} and roared that name as [I]_0-i had done on the previous occasion . When [her]_{223-miss havisham} light appeared , [I]_0-i returned to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , and [we]_1275-we started away again round and round [the room]_{633-the room} . If only [Estella]_195-estella had come to be a spectator of [our]_1275-we proceedings , [I]_0-i should have felt sufficiently discontented ; but as [she]_{223-miss havisham} brought with [her]_{223-miss havisham} [the three ladies and the gentleman whom [I]_0-i had seen below]_{1279-the three ladies and the gentleman whom i had seen below} , [I]_0-i did n't know what to do . In [my]_0-i politeness , [I]_0-i would have stopped ; but [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} twitched [my]_0-i shoulder , and [we]_1275-we posted on , - with a shame - faced consciousness on [my]_0-i part that [they]_1280-they would think it was all [my]_0-i doing . " [Dear Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_{[208-sarah pocket]} said [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} . " How well [you]_206-camilla look ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " [I]_{223-miss havisham} do not , "_{[223-miss havisham]} returned [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [I]_206-camilla am yellow skin and bone . "_{[206-camilla]} [Camilla]_206-camilla brightened when [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} met with this rebuff ; and [she]_{223-miss havisham} murmured , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} plaintively contemplated [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , " [Poor dear soul]_{4999-poor dear soul} ! Certainly not to be expected to look well , [poor thing]_{5038-poor thing} . The idea ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " And how are [you]_206-camilla ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} to [Camilla]_206-camilla . As [we]_1275-we were close to [Camilla]_206-camilla then , [I]_0-i would have stopped as a matter of course , only [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would n't stop . [We]_1275-we swept on , and [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i was highly obnoxious to [Camilla]_206-camilla . " Thank [you]_{223-miss havisham} , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} returned , " [I]_{223-miss havisham} am as well as can be expected . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Why , what 's the matter with [you]_206-camilla ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} asked [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , with exceeding sharpness . " Nothing worth mentioning , "_{[206-camilla]} replied [Camilla]_206-camilla . " [I]_206-camilla do n't wish to make a display of [my]_206-camilla feelings , but [I]_206-camilla have habitually thought of [you]_206-camilla more in the night than [I]_206-camilla am quite equal to . "_{[206-camilla]} " Then do n't think of [me]_{223-miss havisham} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} retorted [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Very easily said ! "_{[206-camilla]} remarked [Camilla]_206-camilla , amiably repressing a sob , while a hitch came into [her]_1281-i upper lip , and [her]_1281-i tears overflowed . " [Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} is [a witness]_{5039-a witness} what [ginger]_212-ginger and sal volatile [I]_1281-i am obliged to take in the night . [Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} is a witness what nervous jerkings [I]_1281-i have in [my]_1281-i legs . Chokings and nervous jerkings , however , are nothing new to [me]_1281-i when [I]_1281-i think with anxiety of those [I]_1281-i love . If [I]_1281-i could be less affectionate and sensitive , [I]_1281-i should have a better digestion and an iron set of nerves . [I]_1281-i am sure [I]_1281-i wish it could be so . But as to not thinking of [you]_206-camilla in the night - The idea ! "_[1281-i] Here , a burst of tears . [The Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} referred to , [I]_0-i understood to be [the gentleman present]_{1282-the gentleman present} , and [him]_{207-cousin raymond} [I]_0-i understood to be [Mr. Camilla]_206-camilla . [He]_{207-cousin raymond} came to the rescue at this point , and said in a consolatory and complimentary voice , " [Camilla]_206-camilla , [[my]_{207-cousin raymond} dear]_{4893-my dear} , it is well known that [[your]_206-camilla family]_{5041-your family} feelings are gradually undermining [you]_206-camilla to the extent of making one of [your]_206-camilla legs shorter than the other . "_{[207-cousin raymond]} " [I]_{1283-the grave lady whose voice i had heard but once} am not aware , "_{[1283-the grave lady whose voice i had heard but once]} observed [the grave lady whose voice [I]_0-i had heard but once]_{1283-the grave lady whose voice i had heard but once} , " that to think of [any person]_{5042-any person} is to make a great claim upon [that person]_{5043-that person} , [[my]_{1283-the grave lady whose voice i had heard but once} dear]_{4893-my dear} . "_{[1283-the grave lady whose voice i had heard but once]} [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} , whom [I]_0-i now saw to be [a little dry , brown , corrugated old woman , with a small face that might have been made of walnut - shells , and a large mouth like a cat 's without the whiskers]_{1284-a little dry , brown , corrugated old woman , with a small face that might have been made of walnut - shells , and a large mouth like a cat 's without the whiskers} , supported this position by saying , " No , indeed , [[my]_{1285-the grave lady} dear]_{4893-my dear} . [Hem]_213-hem ! "_{[1285-the grave lady]} " Thinking is easy enough , "_{[1285-the grave lady]} said [the grave lady]_{1285-the grave lady} . " What is easier , [you]_0-i know ? "_{[1285-the grave lady]} assented [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} . " Oh , yes , yes ! "_{[206-camilla]} cried [Camilla]_206-camilla , whose fermenting feelings appeared to rise from [her]_1286-her legs to [her]_1286-her bosom . " It 's all very true ! It 's a weakness to be so affectionate , but [I]_206-camilla ca n't help it . No doubt [my]_206-camilla health would be much better if it was otherwise , still [I]_206-camilla would n't change [my]_206-camilla disposition if [I]_206-camilla could . It 's the cause of much suffering , but it 's a consolation to know [I]_206-camilla posses it , when [I]_206-camilla wake up in the night . "_{[206-camilla]} Here another burst of feeling . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [I]_0-i had never stopped all this time , but kept going round and round [the room]_{633-the room} ; now brushing against the skirts of [the visitors]_{1288-the visitors} , now giving [them]_{1288-the visitors} the whole length of [the dismal chamber]_{1289-the dismal chamber} . " There 's [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} ! "_{[206-camilla]} said [Camilla]_206-camilla . " Never mixing with any natural ties , never coming here to see how [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} is ! [I]_206-camilla have taken to the sofa with [my]_206-camilla staylace cut , and have lain there hours insensible , with [my]_206-camilla head over the side , and [my]_206-camilla hair all down , and [my]_206-camilla feet [I]_206-camilla do n't know where - "_{[206-camilla]} " Much higher than [your]_206-camilla head , [[my]_206-camilla love]_{5046-my love} , "_{[206-camilla]} said [Mr. Camilla]_206-camilla . " [I]_206-camilla have gone off into that state , hours and hours , on account of [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} 's strange and inexplicable conduct , and [nobody]_4527-nobody has thanked [me]_206-camilla . "_{[206-camilla]} " Really [I]_{1285-the grave lady} must say [I]_{1285-the grave lady} should think not ! "_{[1285-the grave lady]} interposed [the grave lady]_{1285-the grave lady} . " [You]_206-camilla see , [[my]_{208-sarah pocket} dear]_{4893-my dear} , "_{[208-sarah pocket]} added [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} [a blandly vicious personage]_{1291-a blandly vicious personage} , " the question to put to [yourself]_206-camilla is , who did [you]_206-camilla expect to thank [you]_206-camilla , [[my]_{208-sarah pocket} love]_{5046-my love} ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " Without expecting any thanks , or anything of the sort , "_{[206-camilla]} resumed [Camilla]_206-camilla , " [I]_206-camilla have remained in that state , hours and hours , and [Raymond]_{207-cousin raymond} is a witness of the extent to which [I]_206-camilla have choked , and what the total inefficacy of ginger has been , and [I]_206-camilla have been heard at [the piano - forte tuner 's across [the street]_{4824-the street}]_{5050-the piano - forte tuner 's across the street} , where [the poor mistaken children]_{5052-the poor mistaken children} have even supposed it to be pigeons cooing at a distance , - and now to be told - "_{[206-camilla]} Here [Camilla]_206-camilla put [her]_1292-her hand to [her]_1292-her throat , and began to be quite chemical as to the formation of new combinations there . When this same [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} was mentioned , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} stopped [me]_0-i and [herself]_{223-miss havisham} , and stood looking at [the speaker]_{834-the speaker} . This change had a great influence in bringing [Camilla]_206-camilla 's chemistry to a sudden end . " [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} will come and see [me]_{223-miss havisham} at last , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , sternly , " when [I]_{223-miss havisham} am laid on that table . That will be [[his]_{211-mr. pocket} place]_{5053-his place} , - there , "_{[223-miss havisham]} striking the table with [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , " at [my]_{223-miss havisham} head ! And [yours]_0-i will be there ! And [[your]_0-i husband]_{5054-your husband} 's there ! And [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} 's there ! And [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} 's there ! Now [you]_0-i all know where to take [your]_0-i stations when [you]_0-i come to feast upon [me]_{223-miss havisham} . And now go ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} At the mention of each name , [she]_{223-miss havisham} had struck the table with [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick in a new place . [She]_{223-miss havisham} now said , " Walk [me]_{223-miss havisham} , walk [me]_{223-miss havisham} ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} and [we]_1294-we went on again . " [I]_206-camilla suppose there 's nothing to be done , "_{[206-camilla]} exclaimed [Camilla]_206-camilla , " but comply and depart . It 's something to have seen the object of [one]_5055-one 's love and duty for even so short a time . [I]_206-camilla shall think of it with a melancholy satisfaction when [I]_206-camilla wake up in the night . [I]_206-camilla wish [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} could have that comfort , but [he]_{211-mr. pocket} sets it at defiance . [I]_206-camilla am determined not to make a display of [my]_206-camilla feelings , but it 's very hard to be told [one]_5055-one wants to feast on [one]_5055-one 's relations , - as if [one]_5055-one was [a Giant]_{5059-a giant} , - and to be told to go . The bare idea ! "_{[206-camilla]} [Mr. Camilla]_206-camilla interposing , as [Mrs. Camilla]_{214-mrs. camilla} laid [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} heaving bosom , [that lady]_{4839-that lady} assumed an unnatural fortitude of manner which [I]_0-i supposed to be expressive of an intention to drop and choke when out of view , and kissing [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , was escorted forth . [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} and [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} contended who should remain last ; but [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} was too knowing to be outdone , and ambled round [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} with that artful slipperiness that [the latter]_{1296-the latter} was obliged to take precedence . [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} then made [her]_{208-sarah pocket} separate effect of departing with , " Bless [you]_0-i , [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} dear]_{5060-miss havisham dear} ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} and with a smile of forgiving pity on [her]_{208-sarah pocket} walnut - shell countenance for the weaknesses of the rest . While [Estella]_195-estella was away lighting them down , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} still walked with [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand on [my]_0-i shoulder , but more and more slowly . At last [she]_{223-miss havisham} stopped before the fire , and said , after muttering and looking at it some seconds , - " This is [my]_{223-miss havisham} birthday , [Pip]_241-pip . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i was going to wish [her]_{223-miss havisham} many happy returns , when [she]_{223-miss havisham} lifted [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} do n't suffer it to be spoken of . [I]_{223-miss havisham} do n't suffer [those who were here]_{5061-those who were here} just now , or [any one to speak of it]_{5062-any one to speak of it} . [They]_{5061-those who were here} come here on the day , but [they]_{5061-those who were here} dare not refer to it . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Of course [I]_0-i made no further effort to refer to it . " On this day of the year , long before [you]_241-pip were born , this heap of decay , "_{[223-miss havisham]} stabbing with [her]_{223-miss havisham} crutched stick at the pile of cobwebs on the table , but not touching it , " was brought [here]_693-here . It and [I]_{223-miss havisham} have worn away together . The mice have gnawed at it , and sharper teeth than teeth of mice have gnawed at [me]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} held the head of [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick against [her]_{223-miss havisham} heart as [she]_{223-miss havisham} stood looking at the table ; [she]_{223-miss havisham} in [her]_{223-miss havisham} once white dress , all yellow and withered ; the once white cloth all yellow and withered ; everything around in a state to crumble under a touch . " When the ruin is complete , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [she]_{223-miss havisham} , with a ghastly look , " and when [they]_{5061-those who were here} lay [me]_{223-miss havisham} dead , in [[my]_{223-miss havisham} bride]_{5064-my bride} 's dress on [the bride]_{5065-the bride} 's table , - which shall be done , and which will be the finished curse upon [him]_{5065-the bride} , - so much the better if it is done on this day ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} stood looking at the table as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} stood looking at [her]_{223-miss havisham} own figure lying there . [I]_0-i remained quiet . [Estella]_195-estella returned , and [she]_195-estella too remained quiet . It seemed to [me]_0-i that [we]_1297-we continued thus for a long time . In the heavy air of [the room]_{633-the room} , and the heavy darkness that brooded in [its]_{633-the room} remoter corners , [I]_0-i even had an alarming fancy that [Estella]_195-estella and [I]_0-i might presently begin to decay . At length , not coming out of [her]_{223-miss havisham} distraught state by degrees , but in an instant , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} said , " Let [me]_{223-miss havisham} see [you]_1297-we two play cards ; why have [you]_1297-we not begun ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} With that , [we]_1297-we returned to [[her]_{223-miss havisham} room]_{1299-her room} , and sat down as before ; [I]_0-i was beggared , as before ; and again , as before , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} watched [us]_1297-we all the time , directed [my]_0-i attention to [Estella]_195-estella 's beauty , and made [me]_0-i notice it the more by trying [her]_{223-miss havisham} jewels on [Estella]_195-estella 's breast and hair . [Estella]_195-estella , for [her]_195-estella part , likewise treated [me]_0-i as before , except that [she]_195-estella did not condescend to speak . When [we]_1297-we had played some half - dozen games , a day was appointed for [my]_0-i return , and [I]_0-i was taken down into [the yard]_{717-the yard} to be fed in the former dog - like manner . There , too , [I]_0-i was again left to wander about as [I]_0-i liked . It is not much to the purpose whether a gate in that garden wall which [I]_0-i had scrambled up to peep over on the last occasion was , on that last occasion , open or shut . Enough that [I]_0-i saw no gate then , and that [I]_0-i saw one now . As [it]_1301-it stood open , and as [I]_0-i knew that [Estella]_195-estella had let [the visitors]_{1288-the visitors} out , - for [she]_195-estella had returned with the keys in [her]_195-estella hand , - [I]_0-i strolled into [the garden]_{1303-the garden} , and strolled all over [it]_{1303-the garden} . It was quite a wilderness , and there were old melon - frames and cucumber - frames in [it]_{1303-the garden} , which seemed in [their]_1304-their decline to have produced a spontaneous growth of weak attempts at pieces of old hats and boots , with now and then a weedy offshoot into the likeness of a battered saucepan . When [I]_0-i had exhausted [the garden]_{1303-the garden} and [a greenhouse]_{1306-a greenhouse} with nothing in it but a fallen - down grape - vine and some bottles , [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i in the dismal corner upon which [I]_0-i had looked out of the window . Never questioning for a moment that [the house]_{604-the house} was now empty , [I]_0-i looked in at another window , and found [myself]_0-i , to [my]_0-i great surprise , exchanging a broad stare with [a pale young gentleman with red eyelids and light hair]_{1308-a pale young gentleman with red eyelids and light hair} . [This pale young gentleman]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} quickly disappeared , and reappeared beside [me]_0-i . [He]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} had been at [his]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} books when [I]_0-i had found [myself]_0-i staring at [him]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} , and [I]_0-i now saw that [he]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} was inky . " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_{[1309-this pale young gentleman]} said [he]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} , " [young fellow]_{4538-young fellow} ! "_{[1309-this pale young gentleman]} [Halloa]_167-halloa being a general observation which [I]_0-i had usually observed to be best answered by itself , [I]_0-i said , " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_[0-i] politely omitting [young fellow]_{4538-young fellow} . " Who let [you]_0-i in ? "_{[1309-this pale young gentleman]} said [he]_{1309-this pale young gentleman} . " [Miss Estella]_195-estella . "_{[1309-this pale young gentleman]} " Who gave [you]_0-i leave to prowl about ? "_[0-i] " [Miss Estella]_195-estella . "_{[1309-this pale young gentleman]} " Come and fight , "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} said [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . What could [I]_0-i do but follow [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} ? [I]_0-i have often asked [myself]_0-i the question since ; but what else could [I]_0-i do ? [His]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} manner was so final , and [I]_0-i was so astonished , that [I]_0-i followed where [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} led , as if [I]_0-i had been under a spell . " Stop a minute , though , "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} said , wheeling round before [we]_1312-we had gone many paces . " [I]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} ought to give [you]_0-i a reason for fighting , too . There it is ! "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} In a most irritating manner [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} instantly slapped [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} hands against one another , daintily flung one of [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} legs up behind [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , pulled [my]_0-i hair , slapped [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} hands again , dipped [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} head , and butted it into [my]_0-i stomach . The bull - like proceeding last mentioned , besides that it was unquestionably to be regarded in the light of a liberty , was particularly disagreeable just after bread and meat . [I]_0-i therefore hit out at [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} and was going to hit out again , when [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} said , " Aha ! Would [you]_0-i ? "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} and began dancing backwards and forwards in a manner quite unparalleled within [my]_0-i limited experience . " Laws of the game ! "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} said [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . Here , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} skipped from [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} left leg on to [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} right . " Regular rules ! "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} Here , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} skipped from [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} right leg on to [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} left . " Come to the ground , and go through the preliminaries ! "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} Here , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} dodged backwards and forwards , and did all sorts of things while [I]_0-i looked helplessly at [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . [I]_0-i was secretly afraid of [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} when [I]_0-i saw [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} so dexterous ; but [I]_0-i felt morally and physically convinced that [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} light head of hair could have had no business in the pit of [my]_0-i stomach , and that [I]_0-i had a right to consider it irrelevant when so obtruded on [my]_0-i attention . Therefore , [I]_0-i followed [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} without a word , to [a retired nook of [the garden]_{1303-the garden}]_{1313-a retired nook of the garden} , formed by the junction of two walls and screened by some rubbish . On [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} asking [me]_0-i if [I]_0-i was satisfied with the ground , and on [my]_0-i replying Yes , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} begged [my]_0-i leave to absent [himself]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} for a moment , and quickly returned with a bottle of water and a sponge dipped in vinegar . " Available for both , "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} said , placing these against the wall . And then fell to pulling off , not only [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} jacket and waistcoat , but [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} shirt too , in a manner at once light - hearted , business - like , and bloodthirsty . Although [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} did not look very healthy , - having pimples on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} face , and a breaking out at [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} mouth , - these dreadful preparations quite appalled [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i judged [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} to be about [my]_0-i own age , but [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} was much taller , and [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} had a way of spinning [himself]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} about that was full of appearance . For the rest , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} was [a young gentleman in a gray suit when not denuded for battle]_{1315-a young gentleman in a gray suit when not denuded for battle} , with [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} elbows , knees , wrists , and heels considerably in advance of the rest of [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} as to development . [My]_0-i heart failed [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i saw [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} squaring at [me]_0-i with every demonstration of mechanical nicety , and eyeing [my]_0-i anatomy as if [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} were minutely choosing [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} bone . [I]_0-i never have been so surprised in [my]_0-i life , as [I]_0-i was when [I]_0-i let out the first blow , and saw [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} lying on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} back , looking up at [me]_0-i with a bloody nose and [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} face exceedingly fore - shortened . But , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} was on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} feet directly , and after sponging [himself]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} with a great show of dexterity began squaring again . The second greatest surprise [I]_0-i have ever had in [my]_0-i life was seeing [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} back again , looking up at [me]_0-i out of a black eye . [His]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} spirit inspired [me]_0-i with great respect . [He]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} seemed to have no strength , and [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} never once hit [me]_0-i hard , and [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} was always knocked down ; but [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} would be up again in a moment , sponging [himself]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} or drinking out of the water - bottle , with the greatest satisfaction in seconding [himself]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} according to form , and then came at [me]_0-i with an air and a show that made [me]_0-i believe [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} really was going to do for [me]_0-i at last . [He]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} got heavily bruised , for [I]_0-i am sorry to record that the more [I]_0-i hit [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , the harder [I]_0-i hit [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} ; but [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} came up again and again and again , until at last [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} got a bad fall with the back of [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} head against the wall . Even after that crisis in [our]_1316-our affairs , [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} got up and turned round and round confusedly a few times , not knowing where [I]_0-i was ; but finally went on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} knees to [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} sponge and threw it up : at the same time panting out , " That means [you]_0-i have won . "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} [He]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} seemed so brave and innocent , that although [I]_0-i had not proposed the contest , [I]_0-i felt but a gloomy satisfaction in [my]_0-i victory . Indeed , [I]_0-i go so far as to hope that [I]_0-i regarded [myself]_0-i while dressing as a species of savage young wolf or other wild beast . However , [I]_0-i got dressed , darkly wiping [my]_0-i sanguinary face at intervals , and [I]_0-i said , " Can [I]_0-i help [you]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} ? "_[0-i] and [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} said " No thankee , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i said " Good afternoon , "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} and [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} said " Same to [you]_0-i . "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} When [I]_0-i got into [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} , [I]_0-i found [Estella]_195-estella waiting with the keys . But [she]_195-estella neither asked [me]_0-i where [I]_0-i had been , nor why [I]_0-i had kept [her]_195-estella waiting ; and there was a bright flush upon [her]_195-estella face , as though something had happened to delight [her]_195-estella . Instead of going straight to the gate , too , [she]_195-estella stepped back into [the passage]_{616-the passage} , and beckoned [me]_0-i . " Come here ! [You]_0-i may kiss [me]_195-estella , if [you]_0-i like . "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i kissed [her]_195-estella cheek as [she]_195-estella turned it to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i would have gone through a great deal to kiss [her]_195-estella cheek . But [I]_0-i felt that the kiss was given to [the coarse common boy]_{1319-the coarse common boy} as a piece of money might have been , and that it was worth nothing . What with [the birthday visitors]_{1320-the birthday visitors} , and what with the cards , and what with the fight , [my]_0-i stay had lasted so long , that when [I]_0-i neared [home]_4495-home the light on [the spit of sand]_{1322-the spit of sand} off [the point on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes}]_{1323-the point on the marshes} was gleaming against a black night - sky , and [Joe]_154-joe 's furnace was flinging a path of fire across [the road]_{1325-the road} . Chapter XII [My]_0-i mind grew very uneasy on the subject of [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . The more [I]_0-i thought of the fight , and recalled [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} on [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} back in various stages of puffy and incrimsoned countenance , the more certain it appeared that something would be done to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i felt that [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} 's blood was on [my]_0-i head , and that the Law would avenge it . Without having any definite idea of the penalties [I]_0-i had incurred , it was clear to [me]_0-i that [village boys]_{1329-village boys} could not go stalking about [the country]_{1330-the country} , ravaging [the houses of [gentlefolks]_{4953-gentlefolks}]_{1331-the houses of gentlefolks} and pitching into [the studious youth of [England]_7-england]_{1333-the studious youth of england} , without laying [themselves]_{1329-village boys} open to severe punishment . For some days , [I]_0-i even kept close at [home]_4495-home , and looked out at the kitchen door with the greatest caution and trepidation before going on an errand , lest [the officers of [the County Jail]_{1336-the county jail}]_{1335-the officers of the county jail} should pounce upon [me]_0-i . [The pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} 's nose had stained [my]_0-i trousers , and [I]_0-i tried to wash out that evidence of [my]_0-i guilt in the dead of night . [I]_0-i had cut [my]_0-i knuckles against [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} 's teeth , and [I]_0-i twisted [my]_0-i imagination into a thousand tangles , as [I]_0-i devised incredible ways of accounting for that damnatory circumstance when [I]_0-i should be haled before [the Judges]_{1339-the judges} . When the day came round for [my]_0-i return to the scene of the deed of violence , [my]_0-i terrors reached their height . Whether myrmidons of Justice , specially sent down from [London]_8-london , would be lying in ambush behind the gate ; - whether [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , preferring to take personal vengeance for an outrage done to [[her]_{223-miss havisham} house]_{1340-her house} , might rise in those grave - clothes of [hers]_{223-miss havisham} , draw a pistol , and shoot [me]_0-i dead : - whether [suborned boys]_{1341-suborned boys} - [a numerous band of mercenaries]_{1342-a numerous band of mercenaries} - might be engaged to fall upon [me]_0-i in the brewery , and cuff [me]_0-i until [I]_0-i was no more ; - it was high testimony to [my]_0-i confidence in the spirit of [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , that [I]_0-i never imagined [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} accessory to these retaliations ; they always came into [my]_0-i mind as the acts of [injudicious relatives of [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman}]_{1344-injudicious relatives of his} , goaded on by the state of [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} visage and an indignant sympathy with [the family features]_{1345-the family features} . However , go to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's [I]_0-i must , and go [I]_0-i did . And behold ! nothing came of the late struggle . It was not alluded to in any way , and [no pale young gentleman]_{1346-no pale young gentleman} was to be discovered on [the premises]_{4712-the premises} . [I]_0-i found the same gate open , and [I]_0-i explored [the garden]_{1303-the garden} , and even looked in at the windows of [the detached house]_{1349-the detached house} ; but [my]_0-i view was suddenly stopped by the closed shutters within , and all was lifeless . Only in the corner where the combat had taken place could [I]_0-i detect any evidence of [the young gentleman]_{1350-the young gentleman} 's existence . There were traces of [his]_{1350-the young gentleman} gore in that spot , and [I]_0-i covered them with garden - mould from the eye of [man]_4518-man . On the broad landing between [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's own room]_{1352-miss havisham 's own room} and [that other room in which the long table was laid out]_{1353-that other room in which the long table was laid out} , [I]_0-i saw a garden - chair , - a light chair on wheels , that [you]_1354-you pushed from behind . It had been placed [there]_4505-there since [my]_0-i last visit , and [I]_0-i entered , that same day , on a regular occupation of pushing [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} in this chair when [she]_{223-miss havisham} was tired of walking with [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand upon [my]_0-i shoulder round [[her]_{223-miss havisham} own room]_{1356-her own room} , and across [the landing]_{1277-the landing} , and round [the other room]_{1358-the other room} . Over and over and over again , [we]_1359-we would make these journeys , and sometimes they would last as long as three hours at a stretch . [I]_0-i insensibly fall into a general mention of these journeys as numerous , because it was at once settled that [I]_0-i should return every alternate day at noon for these purposes , and because [I]_0-i am now going to sum up a period of at least eight or ten months . As [we]_1359-we began to be more used to [one another]_{4584-one another} , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} talked more to [me]_0-i , and asked [me]_0-i such questions as what had [I]_0-i learnt and what was [I]_0-i going to be ? [I]_0-i told [her]_{223-miss havisham} [I]_0-i was going to be apprenticed to [Joe]_154-joe , [I]_0-i believed ; and [I]_0-i enlarged upon [my]_0-i knowing nothing and wanting to know everything , in the hope that [she]_{223-miss havisham} might offer some help towards that desirable end . But [she]_{223-miss havisham} did not ; on the contrary , [she]_{223-miss havisham} seemed to prefer [my]_0-i being ignorant . Neither did [she]_{223-miss havisham} ever give [me]_0-i any money , - or anything but [my]_0-i daily dinner , - nor ever stipulate that [I]_0-i should be paid for [my]_0-i services . [Estella]_195-estella was always about , and always let [me]_0-i in and out , but never told [me]_0-i [I]_0-i might kiss [her]_195-estella again . Sometimes , [she]_195-estella would coldly tolerate [me]_0-i ; sometimes , [she]_195-estella would condescend to [me]_0-i ; sometimes , [she]_195-estella would be quite familiar with [me]_0-i ; sometimes , [she]_195-estella would tell [me]_0-i energetically that [she]_195-estella hated [me]_0-i . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would often ask [me]_0-i in a whisper , or when [we]_1361-we were alone , " Does [she]_195-estella grow prettier and prettier , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} And when [I]_0-i said yes for indeed [she]_{223-miss havisham} did , would seem to enjoy it greedily . Also , when [we]_1361-we played at cards [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would look on , with a miserly relish of [Estella]_195-estella 's moods , whatever they were . And sometimes , when [her]_{223-miss havisham} moods were so many and so contradictory of one another that [I]_0-i was puzzled what to say or do , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would embrace [her]_{223-miss havisham} with lavish fondness , murmuring something in [her]_{223-miss havisham} ear that sounded like " Break [their]_1363-smiths hearts [my]_{223-miss havisham} pride and hope , break [their]_1363-smiths hearts and have no mercy ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} There was a song [Joe]_154-joe used to hum fragments of at the forge , of which the burden was [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} . This was not a very ceremonious way of rendering homage to [a patron saint]_{1362-a patron saint} , but [I]_0-i believe [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} stood in that relation towards [smiths]_1363-smiths . It was a song that imitated the measure of beating upon iron , and was a mere lyrical excuse for the introduction of [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} 's respected name . Thus , [you]_1364-you were to hammer [boys]_5027-boys round - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! With a thump and a sound - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! Beat it out , beat it out - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! With a clink for the stout - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! Blow the fire , blow the fire - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! Roaring dryer , soaring higher - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! One day soon after the appearance of the chair , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} suddenly saying to [me]_0-i , with the impatient movement of [her]_{223-miss havisham} fingers , " There , there , there ! Sing ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i was surprised into crooning this ditty as [I]_0-i pushed [her]_{223-miss havisham} over the floor . It happened so to catch [her]_{223-miss havisham} fancy that [she]_{223-miss havisham} took it up in a low brooding voice as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} were singing in [her]_{223-miss havisham} sleep . After that , it became customary with [us]_1366-us to have it as [we]_1366-us moved about , and [Estella]_195-estella would often join in ; though the whole strain was so subdued , even when there were [three of [us]_1366-us]_{1367-three of us} , that it made less noise in [the grim old house]_{1368-the grim old house} than the lightest breath of wind . What could [I]_0-i become with these surroundings ? How could [my]_0-i character fail to be influenced by [them]_1369-them ? Is it to be wondered at if [my]_0-i thoughts were dazed , as [my]_0-i eyes were , when [I]_0-i came out into the natural light from [the misty yellow rooms]_{1370-the misty yellow rooms} ? Perhaps [I]_0-i might have told [Joe]_154-joe about [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , if [I]_0-i had not previously been betrayed into those enormous inventions to which [I]_0-i had confessed . Under the circumstances , [I]_0-i felt that [Joe]_154-joe could hardly fail to discern in [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , an appropriate passenger to be put into [the black velvet coach]_{1373-the black velvet coach} ; therefore , [I]_0-i said nothing of [him]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . Besides , that shrinking from having [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella discussed , which had come upon [me]_0-i in the beginning , grew much more potent as time went on . [I]_0-i reposed complete confidence in [no one]_{4550-no one} but [Biddy]_188-biddy ; but [I]_0-i told poor [Biddy]_188-biddy everything . Why it came natural to [me]_0-i to do so , and why [Biddy]_188-biddy had a deep concern in everything [I]_0-i told [her]_188-biddy , [I]_0-i did not know then , though [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i know now . Meanwhile , [councils]_{1375-councils} went on in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} at [home]_4495-home , fraught with almost insupportable aggravation to [my]_0-i exasperated spirit . [That ass]_{1378-that ass} , [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , used often to come over of a night for the purpose of discussing [my]_0-i prospects with [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} ; and [I]_0-i really do believe to this hour with less penitence than [I]_0-i ought to feel , that if these hands could have taken a linchpin out of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chaise - cart , [they]_1380-they would have done it . [The miserable man]_{1381-the miserable man} was [a man of that confined stolidity of mind]_{1382-a man of that confined stolidity of mind} , that [he]_{1381-the miserable man} could not discuss [my]_0-i prospects without having [me]_0-i before [him]_{1381-the miserable man} , - as it were , to operate upon , - and [he]_{1381-the miserable man} would drag [me]_0-i up from [my]_0-i stool usually by the collar where [I]_0-i was quiet in a corner , and , putting [me]_0-i before the fire as if [I]_0-i were going to be cooked , would begin by saying , " Now , [Mum]_174-mum , here is [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ! Here is [this boy which [you]_174-mum brought up by hand]_{5068-this boy which you brought up by hand} . Hold up [your]_{4533-this boy} head , [boy]_4519-boy , and be forever grateful unto [them]_5070-them which so did do . Now , [Mum]_174-mum , with respections to [this boy]_{4533-this boy} ! "_{[1381-the miserable man]} And then [he]_{1381-the miserable man} would rumple [my]_0-i hair the wrong way , - which from [my]_0-i earliest remembrance , as already hinted , [I]_0-i have in [my]_0-i soul denied the right of [any fellow - creature]_{1383-any fellow - creature} to do , - and would hold [me]_0-i before [him]_{1381-the miserable man} by the sleeve , - a spectacle of imbecility only to be equalled by [himself]_{1381-the miserable man} . Then , [he]_{1381-the miserable man} and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} would pair off in such nonsensical speculations about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , and about what [she]_{223-miss havisham} would do with [me]_0-i and for [me]_0-i , that [I]_0-i used to want - quite painfully - to burst into spiteful tears , fly at [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , and pummel [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} all over . In these dialogues , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} spoke to [me]_0-i as if [she]_{402-my sister} were morally wrenching one of [my]_0-i teeth out at every reference ; while [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , self - constituted [[my]_0-i patron]_{1386-my patron} , would sit supervising [me]_0-i with a depreciatory eye , like [the architect of [my]_0-i fortunes who thought [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} engaged on a very unremunerative job]_{1387-the architect of my fortunes who thought himself engaged on a very unremunerative job} . In these discussions , [Joe]_154-joe bore no part . But [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was often talked at , while they were in progress , by reason of [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe 's perceiving that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was not favorable to [my]_0-i being taken from [the forge]_{488-the forge} . [I]_0-i was fully old enough now to be apprenticed to [Joe]_154-joe ; and when [Joe]_154-joe sat with the poker on [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} knees thoughtfully raking out the ashes between the lower bars , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} would so distinctly construe that innocent action into opposition on [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} part , that [she]_{402-my sister} would dive at [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , take the poker out of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hands , shake [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , and put it away . There was a most irritating end to every one of these debates . All in a moment , with nothing to lead up to it , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} would stop [herself]_{402-my sister} in a yawn , and catching sight of [me]_0-i as it were incidentally , would swoop upon [me]_0-i with , " Come ! there 's enough of [you]_0-i ! [You]_0-i get along to bed ; [you]_0-i 've given trouble enough for one night , [I]_{402-my sister} hope ! "_{[402-my sister]} As if [I]_0-i had besought them as a favor to bother [my]_0-i life out . [We]_1391-we went on in this way for a long time , and it seemed likely that [we]_1391-we should continue to go on in this way for a long time , when one day [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} stopped short as [she]_{223-miss havisham} and [I]_0-i were walking , [she]_{223-miss havisham} leaning on [my]_0-i shoulder ; and said with some displeasure , - " [You]_0-i are growing tall , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i thought it best to hint , through the medium of a meditative look , that this might be occasioned by circumstances over which [I]_0-i had no control . [She]_{223-miss havisham} said no more at the time ; but [she]_{223-miss havisham} presently stopped and looked at [me]_0-i again ; and presently again ; and after that , looked frowning and moody . On the next day of [my]_0-i attendance , when [our]_1391-we usual exercise was over , and [I]_0-i had landed [her]_{223-miss havisham} at [her]_{223-miss havisham} dressing - table , [she]_{223-miss havisham} stayed [me]_0-i with a movement of [her]_{223-miss havisham} impatient fingers : - " Tell [me]_{223-miss havisham} the name again of [that blacksmith of yours]_{5072-that blacksmith of yours} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Joe Gargery]_154-joe , [ma'am]_698-ma'am . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Meaning [the master [you]_0-i were to be apprenticed to]_{5074-the master you were to be apprenticed to} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Yes , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [You]_0-i had better be apprenticed at once . Would [Gargery]_154-joe come here with [you]_0-i , and bring [your]_0-i indentures , do [you]_0-i think ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i signified that [I]_0-i had no doubt [he]_1392-him would take it as an honor to be asked . " Then let [him]_1392-him come . "_[1392-him] " At any particular time , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " There , there ! [I]_1392-him know nothing about times . Let [him]_1392-him come soon , and come along with [you]_0-i . "_[1392-him] When [I]_0-i got [home]_4495-home at night , and delivered this message for [Joe]_154-joe , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} " went on the Rampage , "_{[402-my sister]} in a more alarming degree than at any previous period . [She]_{402-my sister} asked [me]_0-i and [Joe]_154-joe whether [we]_1395-we supposed [she]_{402-my sister} was door - mats under [our]_1395-we feet , and how [we]_1395-we dared to use [her]_{402-my sister} so , and what company [we]_1395-we graciously thought [she]_{402-my sister} was fit for ? When [she]_{402-my sister} had exhausted a torrent of such inquiries , [she]_{402-my sister} threw a candlestick at [Joe]_154-joe , burst into a loud sobbing , got out the dustpan , - which was always a very bad sign , - put on [her]_{402-my sister} coarse apron , and began cleaning up to a terrible extent . Not satisfied with a dry cleaning , [she]_{402-my sister} took to a pail and scrubbing - brush , and cleaned [us]_1395-we out of [house]_1396-house and [home]_4495-home , so that [we]_1395-we stood shivering in [the back - yard]_{1398-the back - yard} . It was ten o'clock at night before [we]_1395-we ventured to creep in again , and then [she]_{402-my sister} asked [Joe]_154-joe why [he]_1399-he had n't married [a Negress Slave]_{1400-a negress slave} at once ? [Joe]_154-joe offered no answer , [poor fellow]_{1401-poor fellow} , but stood feeling [his]_1399-he whisker and looking dejectedly at [me]_0-i , as if [he]_1399-he thought it really might have been a better speculation . Chapter XIII It was a trial to [my]_0-i feelings , on the next day but one , to see [Joe]_154-joe arraying [himself]_154-joe in [his]_1399-he Sunday clothes to accompany [me]_0-i to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's . However , as [he]_1399-he thought [his]_1399-he court - suit necessary to the occasion , it was not for [me]_0-i tell [him]_1399-he that [he]_1399-he looked far better in [his]_1399-he working - dress ; the rather , because [I]_0-i knew [he]_1399-he made [himself]_1399-he so dreadfully uncomfortable , entirely on [my]_0-i account , and that it was for [me]_0-i [he]_1399-he pulled up [his]_1399-he shirt - collar so very high behind , that it made the hair on the crown of [his]_1399-he head stand up like a tuft of feathers . At breakfast - time [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} declared [her]_{402-my sister} intention of going to [town]_4800-town with [us]_1404-us , and being left at [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe 's and called for " when [we]_1404-us had done with [[our]_1404-us fine ladies]_{5075-our fine ladies} "_{[402-my sister]} - a way of putting the case , from which [Joe]_172-joe appeared inclined to augur the worst . [The forge]_{488-the forge} was shut up for the day , and [Joe]_172-joe inscribed in chalk upon the door as it was [his]_172-joe custom to do on the very rare occasions when [he]_172-joe was not at work the monosyllable HOUT , accompanied by a sketch of an arrow supposed to be flying in the direction [he]_172-joe had taken . [We]_1404-us walked to [town]_4800-town , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} leading the way in a very large beaver bonnet , and carrying a basket like the Great Seal of [England]_7-england in plaited Straw , a pair of pattens , a spare shawl , and an umbrella , though it was a fine bright day . [I]_0-i am not quite clear whether these articles were carried penitentially or ostentatiously ; but [I]_0-i rather think they were displayed as articles of property , - much as [Cleopatra]_{216-cleopatra} or [any other sovereign lady on [the Rampage]_{217-the rampage}]_{1408-any other sovereign lady on the rampage} might exhibit [her]_{1408-any other sovereign lady on the rampage} wealth in a pageant or procession . When [we]_1404-us came to [Pumblechook 's]_172-joe , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} bounced in and left [us]_1404-us . As it was almost noon , [Joe]_172-joe and [I]_0-i held straight on to [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's house]_{4840-miss havisham 's house} . [Estella]_195-estella opened the gate as usual , and , the moment [she]_195-estella appeared , [Joe]_172-joe took [his]_172-joe hat off and stood weighing it by the brim in both [his]_172-joe hands ; as if [he]_172-joe had some urgent reason in [his]_172-joe mind for being particular to half a quarter of an ounce . [Estella]_195-estella took no notice of either of [us]_1404-us , but led [us]_1404-us the way that [I]_0-i knew so well . [I]_0-i followed next to [her]_195-estella , and [Joe]_172-joe came last . When [I]_0-i looked back at [Joe]_172-joe in the long passage , [he]_172-joe was still weighing [his]_172-joe hat with the greatest care , and was coming after [us]_1404-us in long strides on the tips of [his]_172-joe toes . [Estella]_195-estella told [me]_0-i [we]_1404-us were both to go in , so [I]_0-i took [Joe]_172-joe by the coat - cuff and conducted [him]_172-joe into [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's presence . [She]_195-estella was seated at [her]_195-estella dressing - table , and looked round at [us]_1404-us immediately . " Oh ! "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella to [Joe]_172-joe . " [You]_172-joe are [the husband of [the sister of [this boy]_{4533-this boy}]_{5077-the sister of this boy}]_{5076-the husband of the sister of this boy} ? "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i could hardly have imagined [dear old Joe]_172-joe looking so unlike [himself]_172-joe or so like some extraordinary bird ; standing as [he]_172-joe did speechless , with [his]_172-joe tuft of feathers ruffled , and [his]_172-joe mouth open as if [he]_172-joe wanted a worm . " [You]_172-joe are [the husband]_{5079-the husband} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} repeated [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , " of [the sister of [this boy]_{4533-this boy}]_{5077-the sister of this boy} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} It was very aggravating ; but , throughout the interview , [Joe]_172-joe persisted in addressing [Me]_0-i instead of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Which [I]_172-joe meantersay , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[172-joe] [Joe]_172-joe now observed in a manner that was at once expressive of forcible argumentation , strict confidence , and great politeness , " as [I]_172-joe hup and married [[your]_241-pip sister]_{906-your sister} , and [I]_172-joe were at the time what [you]_241-pip might call if [you]_241-pip was anyways inclined [a single man]_{5083-a single man} . "_[172-joe] " Well ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " And [you]_172-joe have reared [the boy]_{4532-the boy} , with the intention of taking [him]_{4532-the boy} for [[your]_172-joe apprentice]_{5085-your apprentice} ; is that so , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [You]_241-pip know , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[172-joe] replied [Joe]_172-joe , " as [you]_241-pip and [me]_172-joe were ever [friends]_4514-friends , and it were looked for'ard to betwixt [us]_5087-us , as being calc'lated to lead to larks . Not but what , [Pip]_241-pip , if [you]_241-pip had ever made objections to the business , - such as its being open to black and sut , or such - like , - not but what [they]_5088-they would have been attended to , do n't [you]_241-pip see ? "_[172-joe] " Has [the boy]_{4532-the boy} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , " ever made any objection ? Does [he]_{4532-the boy} like the trade ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Which it is well beknown to [yourself]_241-pip , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[172-joe] returned [Joe]_172-joe , strengthening [his]_172-joe former mixture of argumentation , confidence , and politeness , " that it were the wish of [[your]_241-pip own hart]_{5090-your own hart} . "_[172-joe] [I]_0-i saw the idea suddenly break upon [him]_172-joe that [he]_172-joe would adapt [his]_172-joe epitaph to the occasion , before [he]_172-joe went on to say " And there were n't no objection on [your]_241-pip part , and [Pip]_241-pip it were the great wish of [[your]_241-pip hart]_{5091-your hart} ! "_[172-joe] It was quite in vain for [me]_0-i to endeavor to make [him]_172-joe sensible that [he]_172-joe ought to speak to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . The more [I]_0-i made faces and gestures to [him]_172-joe to do it , the more confidential , argumentative , and polite , [he]_172-joe persisted in being to [Me]_0-i . " Have [you]_{223-miss havisham} brought [his]_172-joe indentures with [you]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} asked [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Well , [Pip]_241-pip , [you]_241-pip know , "_[172-joe] replied [Joe]_172-joe , as if that were a little unreasonable , " [you]_241-pip [yourself]_241-pip see [me]_172-joe put 'em in [my]_172-joe ' at , and therefore [you]_241-pip know as [they]_5092-they are here . "_[172-joe] With which [he]_172-joe took them out , and gave them , not to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , but to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i am afraid [I]_0-i was ashamed of [the dear good fellow]_{1411-the dear good fellow} , - [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i was ashamed of [him]_{1411-the dear good fellow} , - when [I]_0-i saw that [Estella]_195-estella stood at the back of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's chair , and that [her]_195-estella eyes laughed mischievously . [I]_0-i took the indentures out of [his]_{1411-the dear good fellow} hand and gave them to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [You]_0-i expected , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked [them]_1412-them over , " no premium with [the boy]_{4532-the boy} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Joe]_172-joe ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i remonstrated , for [he]_{1411-the dear good fellow} made no reply at all . " Why do n't [you]_0-i answer - "_{[1411-the dear good fellow]} " [Pip]_241-pip , "_[172-joe] returned [Joe]_172-joe , cutting [me]_0-i short as if [he]_{1411-the dear good fellow} were hurt , " which [I]_172-joe meantersay that were not a question requiring a answer betwixt [yourself]_0-i and [me]_172-joe , and which [you]_0-i know the answer to be full well No . [You]_0-i know it to be No , [Pip]_241-pip , and wherefore should [I]_172-joe say it ? "_[172-joe] [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} glanced at [him]_{1411-the dear good fellow} as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} understood what [he]_{1411-the dear good fellow} really was better than [I]_0-i had thought possible , seeing what [he]_{1411-the dear good fellow} was there ; and took up a little bag from the table beside [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " [Pip]_241-pip has earned a premium [here]_693-here , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , " and here it is . There are five - and - twenty guineas in this bag . Give it to [[your]_0-i master]_{5095-your master} , [Pip]_241-pip . "_{[223-miss havisham]} As if [he]_{1411-the dear good fellow} were absolutely out of [his]_{1411-the dear good fellow} mind with the wonder awakened in [him]_{1411-the dear good fellow} by [her]_{223-miss havisham} strange figure and [the strange room]_{1028-the strange room} , [Joe]_172-joe , even at this pass , persisted in addressing [me]_0-i . " This is [wery]_5096-wery liberal on [your]_0-i part , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe , " and it is as such received and grateful welcome , though never looked for , far nor near , nor nowheres . And now , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe , conveying to [me]_0-i a sensation , first of burning and then of freezing , for [I]_0-i felt as if that familiar expression were applied to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , - " and now , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , may [we]_5099-our do [our]_5099-our duty ! May [you]_0-i and [me]_{223-miss havisham} do [our]_5099-our duty , both on [us]_5099-our , by one and another , and by [them]_5100-them which [your]_0-i liberal present - have - conweyed - to be - for the satisfaction of mind - of - [them]_5100-them as never - "_{[223-miss havisham]} here [Joe]_172-joe showed that [he]_172-joe felt [he]_172-joe had fallen into frightful difficulties , until [he]_172-joe triumphantly rescued [himself]_172-joe with the words , " and from [myself]_172-joe far be it ! "_[172-joe] These words had such a round and convincing sound for [him]_172-joe that [he]_172-joe said them twice . " Good by , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Let [them]_5100-them out , [Estella]_195-estella . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Am [I]_0-i to come again , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked . " No . [Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} is [[your]_241-pip master]_{5095-your master} now . [Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ! One word ! "_[0-i] Thus calling [him]_172-joe back as [I]_0-i went out of the door , [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} say to [Joe]_172-joe in a distinct emphatic voice , " [The boy]_{4532-the boy} has been [a good boy]_{5103-a good boy} [here]_693-here , and that is [his]_{4532-the boy} reward . Of course , as [an honest man]_{5105-an honest man} , [you]_172-joe will expect no other and no more . "_{[223-miss havisham]} How [Joe]_172-joe got out of [the room]_{633-the room} , [I]_0-i have never been able to determine ; but [I]_0-i know that when [he]_172-joe did get out [he]_172-joe was steadily proceeding up stairs instead of coming down , and was deaf to all remonstrances until [I]_0-i went after [him]_172-joe and laid hold of [him]_172-joe . In another minute [we]_1415-we were outside the gate , and it was locked , and [Estella]_195-estella was gone . When [we]_1415-we stood in the daylight alone again , [Joe]_172-joe backed up against a wall , and said to [me]_0-i , " Astonishing ! "_[172-joe] And there [he]_172-joe remained so long saying , " Astonishing "_[172-joe] at intervals , so often , that [I]_0-i began to think [his]_172-joe senses were never coming back . At length [he]_172-joe prolonged [his]_172-joe remark into " [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_172-joe do assure [you]_241-pip this is as - TON - ishing ! "_[172-joe] and so , by degrees , became conversational and able to walk away . [I]_0-i have reason to think that [Joe]_172-joe 's intellects were brightened by the encounter [they]_1416-they had passed through , and that on [our]_1415-we way to [Pumblechook]_172-joe 's [he]_172-joe invented a subtle and deep design . [My]_0-i reason is to be found in what took place in [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's parlor]_{1417-mr. pumblechook 's parlor} : where , on [our]_1415-we presenting [ourselves]_1415-we , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} sat in conference with [that detested seedsman]_{1419-that detested seedsman} . " Well ? "_{[402-my sister]} cried [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , addressing [us]_1415-we both at once . " And what 's happened to [you]_172-joe ? [I]_{402-my sister} wonder [you]_172-joe condescend to come back to such poor society as this , [I]_{402-my sister} am sure [I]_{402-my sister} do ! "_{[402-my sister]} " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe , with a fixed look at [me]_0-i , like an effort of remembrance , " made it [wery]_5106-wery partick'ler that [we]_1415-we should give [her]_{223-miss havisham} - were it compliments or respects , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[172-joe] " Compliments , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said . " Which that were [my]_172-joe own belief , "_[172-joe] answered [Joe]_172-joe ; " [her]_{223-miss havisham} compliments to [Mrs. J. Gargery]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} - "_[172-joe] " Much good they 'll do [me]_{402-my sister} ! "_{[402-my sister]} observed [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} ; but rather gratified too . " And wishing , "_[172-joe] pursued [Joe]_172-joe , with another fixed look at [me]_0-i , like another effort of remembrance , " that the state of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's elth were sitch as would have - allowed , were it , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[172-joe] " Of [her]_{223-miss havisham} having the pleasure , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i added . " [Of [ladies]_704-ladies ' company]_{5107-of ladies ' company} , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe . And drew a long breath . " Well ! "_{[402-my sister]} cried [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , with a mollified glance at [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " [She]_{223-miss havisham} might have had the politeness to send that message at first , but it 's better late than never . And what did [she]_{223-miss havisham} give [young Rantipole]_{219-young rantipole} [here]_693-here ? "_{[402-my sister]} " [She]_{223-miss havisham} giv ' [him]_{219-young rantipole} , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe , " nothing . "_[172-joe] [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe was going to break out , but [Joe]_154-joe went on . " What [she]_{223-miss havisham} giv ' , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , ' [she]_1423-her giv ' to [[his]_172-joe friends]_{1424-his friends} . ' And by [[his]_172-joe friends]_{1424-his friends} , ' were [her]_1423-her explanation , ' [I]_0-i mean into the hands of [[his]_172-joe sister]_{1426-his sister} [Mrs. J. Gargery]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} . ' [Them]_1427-them were [her]_1423-her words ; ' [Mrs. J. Gargery]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} . ' [She]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} may n't have know'd , " added [Joe]_154-joe , with an appearance of reflection , "_{[218-mrs. j. gargery]} whether it were [Joe]_154-joe , or [Jorge]_220-jorge . " [[My]_220-jorge sister]_{402-my sister} looked at [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} : who smoothed the elbows of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wooden arm - chair , and nodded at [her]_{402-my sister} and at the fire , as if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had known all about it beforehand . "_[220-jorge] And how much have [you]_172-joe got ? " asked [[my]_172-joe sister]_{402-my sister} , laughing . Positively laughing ! "_[172-joe] What would present [company]_1428-company say to ten pound ? " demanded [Joe]_154-joe . "_{[1428-company]} [They]_1428-company 'd say , " returned [[my]_1428-company sister]_{402-my sister} , curtly , "_{[1428-company]} pretty well . Not too much , but pretty well . " "_{[1428-company]} It 's more than that , then , " said [Joe]_154-joe . [That fearful Impostor]_{5113-that fearful impostor} , [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , immediately nodded , and said , as [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} rubbed the arms of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chair , "_[174-mum] It 's more than that , [Mum]_174-mum . " "_[174-mum] Why , [you]_172-joe do n't mean to say - " began [[my]_172-joe sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[172-joe] Yes [I]_0-i do , [Mum]_174-mum , " said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ; "_[174-mum] but wait a bit . Go on , [Joseph]_154-joe . Good in [you]_154-joe ! Go on ! " "_[174-mum] What would [present company]_{1429-present company} say , " proceeded [Joe]_154-joe , "_[174-mum] to twenty pound ? " "_[174-mum] Handsome would be the word , " returned [[my]_174-mum sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[174-mum] Well , then , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[174-mum] It 's more than twenty pound . " [That abject hypocrite]_{5116-that abject hypocrite} , [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , nodded again , and said , with a patronizing laugh , "_[174-mum] It 's more than that , [Mum]_174-mum . Good again ! Follow [her]_1430-her up , [Joseph]_154-joe ! " "_[154-joe] Then to make an end of it , " said [Joe]_154-joe , delightedly handing the bag to [[my]_154-joe sister]_{402-my sister} ; "_[154-joe] it 's five - and - twenty pound . " "_[154-joe] It 's five - and - twenty pound , [Mum]_174-mum , " echoed [that basest of [swindlers]_{5119-swindlers}]_{5118-that basest of swindlers} , [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , rising to shake hands with [her]_174-mum ; "_[174-mum] and it 's no more than [your]_174-mum merits as [I]_0-i said when [my]_0-i opinion was asked , and [I]_0-i wish [you]_174-mum joy of the money ! " If [the villain]_{5120-the villain} had stopped [here]_693-here , [his]_{5120-the villain} case would have been sufficiently awful , but [he]_{5120-the villain} blackened [his]_{5120-the villain} guilt by proceeding to take [me]_0-i into custody , with a right of patronage that left all [his]_{5120-the villain} former criminality far behind . "_[0-i] Now [you]_174-mum see , [Joseph]_154-joe and [wife]_1431-wife , " said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , as [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} took [me]_154-joe by the arm above the elbow , "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i am one of [them]_1432-them that always go right through with what [they]_1432-them 've begun . [This boy]_{4533-this boy} must be bound , out of hand . That 's [my]_0-i way . Bound out of hand . " "_{[221-goodness]} [Goodness]_221-goodness knows , [Uncle Pumblechook]_172-joe , " said [[my]_172-joe sister]_{402-my sister} grasping the money , "_[172-joe] [we]_1434-we 're deeply beholden to [you]_172-joe . " "_[1434-we] Never mind [me]_0-i , [Mum]_174-mum , " returned [that diabolical cornchandler]_{5123-that diabolical cornchandler} . "_[174-mum] A pleasure 's a pleasure all [the world]_{4698-the world} over . But [this boy]_{4533-this boy} , [you]_174-mum know ; [we]_1434-we must have [him]_{4533-this boy} bound . [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i 'd see to it - to tell [you]_174-mum the truth . " [The Justices]_{5124-the justices} were sitting in [the Town Hall]_{5125-the town hall} near at hand , and [we]_1434-we at once went over to have [me]_0-i bound apprentice to [Joe]_172-joe in the Magisterial presence . [I]_0-i say [we]_1434-we went over , but [I]_0-i was pushed over by [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , exactly as if [I]_0-i had that moment picked a pocket or fired a rick ; indeed , it was the general impression in [Court]_5126-court that [I]_0-i had been taken red - handed ; for , as [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shoved [me]_0-i before [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} through [the crowd]_{5127-the crowd} , [I]_0-i heard [some people]_{620-some people} say , "_[0-i] What 's [he]_1437-i done ? " and [others]_5129-others , "_[1437-i] [He]_1437-i 's [a young ' un]_{1438-a young ' un} , too , but looks bad , do n't [he]_1437-i ? " [One person of mild and benevolent aspect]_{5130-one person of mild and benevolent aspect} even gave [me]_1437-i a tract ornamented with a woodcut of [a malevolent young man fitted up with a perfect sausage - shop of fetters]_{5131-a malevolent young man fitted up with a perfect sausage - shop of fetters} , and entitled TO BE READ IN [MY]_1437-i CELL . [The Hall]_{5132-the hall} was [a queer place]_{5133-a queer place} , [I]_1437-i thought , with higher pews in [it]_{5132-the hall} than [a church]_{5134-a church} , - and with [people hanging over the pews looking on]_{5135-people hanging over the pews looking on} , - and with [mighty Justices one with a powdered head leaning back in chairs , with folded arms , or taking snuff , or going to sleep , or writing , or reading the newspapers]_{5136-mighty justices one with a powdered head leaning back in chairs , with folded arms , or taking snuff , or going to sleep , or writing , or reading the newspapers} , - and with some shining black portraits on the walls , which [my]_1437-i unartistic eye regarded as a composition of hardbake and sticking - plaster . Here , in a corner [my]_1437-i indentures were duly signed and attested , and [I]_1437-i was "_[1437-i] bound " ; [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} holding [me]_1439-me all the while as if [we]_5137-we had looked in on [our]_5137-we way to the scaffold , to have those little preliminaries disposed of . When [we]_5137-we had come out again , and had got rid of [the boys who had been put into great spirits by the expectation of seeing [me]_1439-me publicly tortured , and who were much disappointed to find that [[my]_1439-me friends]_{5139-my friends} were merely rallying round [me]_1439-me]_{5138-the boys who had been put into great spirits by the expectation of seeing me publicly tortured , and who were much disappointed to find that my friends were merely rallying round me} , [we]_5137-we went back to [[Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's]_{5140-pumblechook 's} . And there [[my]_1439-me sister]_{402-my sister} became so excited by the twenty - five guineas , that nothing would serve [her]_{402-my sister} but [we]_5137-we must have a dinner out of that windfall at [the Blue Boar]_{5142-the blue boar} , and that [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} must go over in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chaise - cart , and bring [the Hubbles]_{222-the hubbles} and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . It was agreed to be done ; and a most melancholy day [I]_1439-me passed . For , it inscrutably appeared to stand to reason , in the minds of [the whole company]_{5143-the whole company} , that [I]_1439-me was [an excrescence on the entertainment]_{5144-an excrescence on the entertainment} . And to make it worse , [they]_{5143-the whole company} all asked [me]_1439-me from time to time , - in short , whenever [they]_{5143-the whole company} had nothing else to do , - why [I]_1439-me did n't enjoy [myself]_1439-me ? And what could [I]_1439-me possibly do then , but say [I]_1439-me was enjoying [myself]_1439-me , - when [I]_1439-me was n't ! However , [they]_{5143-the whole company} were grown up and had [their]_{5143-the whole company} own way , and [they]_{5143-the whole company} made the most of it . That swindling [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , exalted into [the beneficent contriver of the whole occasion]_{5145-the beneficent contriver of the whole occasion} , actually took the top of the table ; and , when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} addressed [them]_{5143-the whole company} on the subject of [my]_1439-me being bound , and had fiendishly congratulated [them]_{5143-the whole company} on [my]_1439-me being liable to imprisonment if [I]_1439-me played at cards , drank strong liquors , kept late hours or bad company , or indulged in other vagaries which the form of [my]_1439-me indentures appeared to contemplate as next to inevitable , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} placed [me]_1439-me standing on a chair beside [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} to illustrate [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} remarks . [My]_1439-me only other remembrances of the great festival are , That [they]_{5143-the whole company} would n't let [me]_1439-me go to sleep , but whenever [they]_{5143-the whole company} saw [me]_1439-me dropping off , woke [me]_1439-me up and told [me]_1439-me to enjoy [myself]_1439-me . That , rather late in the evening [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} gave [us]_5146-us [Collins]_187-collins 's ode , and threw [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} bloodstained sword in thunder down , with such effect , that [a waiter]_{5147-a waiter} came in and said , "_[1439-me] The Commercials underneath sent up [their]_1439-me compliments , and it was n't [the Tumblers]_{1440-the tumblers} ' Arms . " That , [they]_1439-me were all in excellent spirits on [the road]_{1325-the road} [home]_4495-home , and sang , O Lady Fair ! [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} taking the bass , and asserting with a tremendously strong voice in reply to [the inquisitive bore who leads that piece of music in a most impertinent manner]_{5150-the inquisitive bore who leads that piece of music in a most impertinent manner} , by wanting to know all about [everybody]_{678-everybody} 's private affairs that [he]_{5150-the inquisitive bore who leads that piece of music in a most impertinent manner} was the man with [his]_{5150-the inquisitive bore who leads that piece of music in a most impertinent manner} white locks flowing , and that [he]_{5150-the inquisitive bore who leads that piece of music in a most impertinent manner} was upon [the whole the weakest pilgrim going]_{5152-the whole the weakest pilgrim going} . Finally , [I]_1437-i remember that when [I]_1437-i got into [[my]_1437-i little bedroom]_{5153-my little bedroom} , [I]_1437-i was truly wretched , and had a strong conviction on [me]_1437-i that [I]_1437-i should never like [Joe]_172-joe 's trade . [I]_1437-i had liked it once , but once was not now . Chapter XIV It is a most miserable thing to feel ashamed of [home]_4495-home . There may be black ingratitude in the thing , and the punishment may be retributive and well deserved ; but that it is a miserable thing , [I]_1437-i can testify . [Home]_4495-home had never been [a very pleasant place]_{5156-a very pleasant place} to [me]_1437-i , because of [[my]_1437-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's temper . But , [Joe]_172-joe had sanctified [it]_4495-home , and [I]_1437-i had believed in it . [I]_1437-i had believed in [the best parlor]_{5158-the best parlor} as [a most elegant saloon]_{5159-a most elegant saloon} ; [I]_1437-i had believed in the front door , as a mysterious portal of the Temple of [State whose solemn opening was attended with a sacrifice of roast fowls]_{5160-state whose solemn opening was attended with a sacrifice of roast fowls} ; [I]_1437-i had believed in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} as [a chaste though not magnificent apartment]_{5162-a chaste though not magnificent apartment} ; [I]_1437-i had believed in [the forge]_{488-the forge} as the glowing road to manhood and independence . Within a single year all this was changed . Now it was all coarse and common , and [I]_1437-i would not have had [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella see it on any account . How much of [my]_1437-i ungracious condition of mind may have been [my]_1437-i own fault , how much [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , how much [[my]_1437-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's , is now of no moment to [me]_1437-i or to [any one]_{841-any one} . The change was made in [me]_1437-i ; the thing was done . Well or ill done , excusably or inexcusably , it was done . Once , it had seemed to [me]_1437-i that when [I]_1437-i should at last roll up [my]_1437-i shirt - sleeves and go into [the forge]_{488-the forge} , [[Joe]_172-joe 's ' prentice]_{5167-joe 's ' prentice} , [I]_1437-i should be distinguished and happy . Now the reality was in [my]_1437-i hold , [I]_1437-i only felt that [I]_1437-i was dusty with the dust of small - coal , and that [I]_1437-i had a weight upon [my]_1437-i daily remembrance to which the anvil was a feather . There have been occasions in [my]_1437-i later life [I]_1437-i suppose as in most lives when [I]_1437-i have felt for a time as if a thick curtain had fallen on all its interest and romance , to shut [me]_1437-i out from anything save dull endurance any more . Never has that curtain dropped so heavy and blank , as when [my]_1437-i way in life lay stretched out straight before [me]_1437-i through the newly entered road of apprenticeship to [Joe]_172-joe . [I]_1437-i remember that at a later period of [my]_1437-i "_[1437-i] time , " [I]_1437-i used to stand about [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} on Sunday evenings when night was falling , comparing [my]_1437-i own perspective with [the windy marsh]_{5169-the windy marsh} view , and making out some likeness between them by thinking how flat and low both were , and how on both there came an unknown way and a dark mist and then [the sea]_{415-the sea} . [I]_1437-i was quite as dejected on the first working - day of [my]_1437-i apprenticeship as in that after - time ; but [I]_1437-i am glad to know that [I]_1437-i never breathed a murmur to [Joe]_172-joe while [my]_1437-i indentures lasted . It is about the only thing [I]_1437-i am glad to know of [myself]_1437-i in that connection . For , though it includes what [I]_1437-i proceed to add , all the merit of what [I]_1437-i proceed to add was [Joe]_172-joe 's . It was not because [I]_1437-i was faithful , but because [Joe]_172-joe was faithful , that [I]_1437-i never ran away and went for [a soldier]_{822-a soldier} or [a sailor]_{5172-a sailor} . It was not because [I]_1437-i had a strong sense of the virtue of industry , but because [Joe]_172-joe had a strong sense of the virtue of industry , that [I]_1437-i worked with tolerable zeal against the grain . It is not possible to know how far the influence of [any amiable honest - hearted duty - doing man]_{5173-any amiable honest - hearted duty - doing man} flies out into [the world]_{4698-the world} ; but it is very possible to know how it has touched [one]_5055-one 's self in going by , and [I]_1437-i know right well that any good that intermixed itself with [my]_1437-i apprenticeship came of plain contented [Joe]_172-joe , and not of restlessly aspiring discontented [me]_1437-i . What [I]_1437-i wanted , who can say ? How can [I]_1437-i say , when [I]_1437-i never knew ? What [I]_1437-i dreaded was , that in some unlucky hour [I]_1437-i , being at [my]_1437-i grimiest and commonest , should lift up [my]_1437-i eyes and see [Estella]_195-estella looking in at one of the wooden windows of [the forge]_{488-the forge} . [I]_1437-i was haunted by the fear that [she]_195-estella would , sooner or later , find [me]_1437-i out , with a black face and hands , doing the coarsest part of [my]_1437-i work , and would exult over [me]_1437-i and despise [me]_1437-i . Often after dark , when [I]_1437-i was pulling the bellows for [Joe]_172-joe , and [we]_5177-we were singing [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} , and when the thought how [we]_5177-we used to sing it at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's would seem to show [me]_1437-i [Estella]_195-estella 's face in the fire , with [her]_195-estella pretty hair fluttering in the wind and [her]_195-estella eyes scorning [me]_1437-i , - often at such a time [I]_1437-i would look towards those panels of black night in the wall which the wooden windows then were , and would fancy that [I]_1437-i saw [her]_195-estella just drawing [her]_195-estella face away , and would believe that [she]_195-estella had come at last . After that , when [we]_5177-we went in to supper , [the place]_{4456-the place} and the meal would have a more homely look than ever , and [I]_1437-i would feel more ashamed of [home]_4495-home than ever , in [my]_1437-i own ungracious breast . Chapter XV As [I]_1437-i was getting too big for [[[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} 's room]_{5181-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt 's room} , [my]_1437-i education under that preposterous female terminated . Not , however , until [Biddy]_188-biddy had imparted to [me]_1437-i everything [she]_188-biddy knew , from the little catalogue of prices , to a comic song [she]_188-biddy had once bought for a half - penny . Although the only coherent part of the latter piece of literature were the opening lines , When [I]_1437-i went to [Lunnon town]_{12-lunnon town} sirs , Too rul loo rul Too rul loo rul Was n't [I]_1437-i done very brown sirs ? Too rul loo rul Too rul loo rul - still , in [my]_1437-i desire to be wiser , [I]_1437-i got this composition by heart with the utmost gravity ; nor do [I]_1437-i recollect that [I]_1437-i questioned its merit , except that [I]_1437-i thought as [I]_1437-i still do the amount of Too rul somewhat in excess of the poetry . In [my]_1437-i hunger for information , [I]_1437-i made proposals to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} to bestow some intellectual crumbs upon [me]_1437-i , with which [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} kindly complied . As it turned out , however , that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} only wanted [me]_1437-i for a dramatic lay - figure , to be contradicted and embraced and wept over and bullied and clutched and stabbed and knocked about in a variety of ways , [I]_1437-i soon declined that course of instruction ; though not until [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} poetic fury had severely mauled [me]_1437-i . Whatever [I]_1437-i acquired , [I]_1437-i tried to impart to [Joe]_172-joe . This statement sounds so well , that [I]_1437-i can not in [my]_1437-i conscience let it pass unexplained . [I]_1437-i wanted to make [Joe]_172-joe less ignorant and common , that [he]_172-joe might be worthier of [my]_1437-i society and less open to [Estella]_195-estella 's reproach . [The old Battery]_{789-the old battery} out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} was [[our]_5184-our place of study]_{5185-our place of study} , and a broken slate and a short piece of slate - pencil were [our]_5184-our educational implements : to which [Joe]_172-joe always added a pipe of tobacco . [I]_1437-i never knew [Joe]_172-joe to remember anything from [one Sunday]_{5186-one sunday} to another , or to acquire , under [my]_1437-i tuition , any piece of information whatever . Yet [he]_172-joe would smoke [his]_172-joe pipe at [the Battery]_{570-the battery} with a far more sagacious air than anywhere else , - even with a learned air , - as if [he]_172-joe considered [himself]_172-joe to be advancing immensely . [Dear fellow]_{5188-dear fellow} , [I]_1437-i hope [he]_172-joe did . It was pleasant and quiet , out there with the sails on [the river]_{413-the river} passing beyond the earthwork , and sometimes , when the tide was low , looking as if they belonged to sunken ships that were still sailing on at [the bottom of [the water]_{5191-the water}]_{5190-the bottom of the water} . Whenever [I]_1437-i watched the vessels standing out to sea with their white sails spread , [I]_1437-i somehow thought of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella ; and whenever the light struck aslant , afar off , upon a cloud or sail or [green hillside]_{5192-green hillside} or [water - line]_{5193-water - line} , it was just the same . - [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella and [the strange house]_{5194-the strange house} and the strange life appeared to have something to do with everything that was picturesque . One Sunday when [Joe]_172-joe , greatly enjoying [his]_172-joe pipe , had so plumed [himself]_172-joe on being "_[1437-i] most awful dull , " that [I]_172-joe had given [him]_172-joe up for the day , [I]_172-joe lay on [the earthwork]_{5195-the earthwork} for some time with [my]_172-joe chin on [my]_172-joe hand , descrying traces of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella all over the prospect , in the sky and in [the water]_{5191-the water} , until at last [I]_172-joe resolved to mention a thought concerning [them]_5197-them that had been much in [my]_172-joe head . "_[172-joe] [Joe]_172-joe , " said [I]_172-joe ; "_[172-joe] do n't [you]_172-joe think [I]_0-i ought to make [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} a visit ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Well , [Pip]_241-pip , " returned [Joe]_172-joe , slowly considering . "_[241-pip] What for ? " "_[172-joe] What for , [Joe]_172-joe ? What is any visit made for ? " "_[172-joe] There is some wisits p'r'aps , " said [Joe]_172-joe , "_[241-pip] as for ever remains open to the question , [Pip]_241-pip . But in regard to wisiting [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} might think [you]_172-joe wanted something , - expected something of [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Do n't [you]_241-pip think [I]_0-i might say that [I]_0-i did not , [Joe]_172-joe ? " "_[241-pip] [You]_241-pip might , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_172-joe . "_[241-pip] And [she]_{223-miss havisham} might credit it . Similarly [she]_{223-miss havisham} might n't . " [Joe]_172-joe felt , as [I]_{223-miss havisham} did , that [he]_172-joe had made a point there , and [he]_172-joe pulled hard at [his]_172-joe pipe to keep [himself]_172-joe from weakening it by repetition . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [You]_241-pip see , [Pip]_241-pip , " [Joe]_172-joe pursued , as soon as [he]_172-joe was past that danger , "_[241-pip] [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} done the handsome thing by [you]_241-pip . When [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} done the handsome thing by [you]_241-pip , [she]_{223-miss havisham} called [me]_0-i back to say to [me]_0-i as that were all . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , [Joe]_172-joe . [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} ALL , " [Joe]_172-joe repeated , very emphatically . "_[172-joe] Yes , [Joe]_172-joe . [I]_0-i tell [you]_172-joe , [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Which [I]_0-i meantersay , [Pip]_241-pip , it might be that [her]_{223-miss havisham} meaning were , - Make a end on it ! - As [you]_241-pip was ! - [Me]_0-i to [the North]_{13-the north} , and [you]_241-pip to [the South]_{14-the south} ! - Keep in sunders ! " [I]_172-joe had thought of that too , and it was very far from comforting to [me]_172-joe to find that [he]_172-joe had thought of it ; for it seemed to render it more probable . "_[172-joe] But , [Joe]_172-joe . " "_[172-joe] Yes , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . " "_{[4500-old chap]} Here am [I]_0-i , getting on in the first year of [my]_0-i time , and , since the day of [my]_0-i being bound , [I]_0-i have never thanked [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , or asked after [her]_{223-miss havisham} , or shown that [I]_0-i remember [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} That 's true , [Pip]_241-pip ; and unless [you]_241-pip was to turn [her]_{223-miss havisham} out a set of shoes all four round , - and which [I]_0-i meantersay as even a set of shoes all four round might not be acceptable as a present , in a total wacancy of hoofs - " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't mean that sort of remembrance , [Joe]_172-joe ; [I]_0-i do n't mean a present . " But [Joe]_172-joe had got the idea of a present in [his]_172-joe head and must harp upon it . "_[0-i] Or even , " said [he]_172-joe , "_[0-i] if [you]_241-pip was helped to knocking [her]_{223-miss havisham} up a new chain for the front door , - or say a gross or two of shark - headed screws for general use , - or some light fancy article , such as a toasting - fork when [she]_{223-miss havisham} took [her]_{223-miss havisham} muffins , - or a gridiron when [she]_{223-miss havisham} took a sprat or such like - " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't mean any present at all , [Joe]_172-joe , " [I]_172-joe interposed . "_[172-joe] Well , " said [Joe]_172-joe , still harping on it as though [I]_172-joe had particularly pressed it , "_[172-joe] if [I]_0-i was [yourself]_241-pip , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i would n't . No , [I]_0-i would not . For what 's a door - chain when [she]_{223-miss havisham} 's got one always up ? And shark - headers is open to misrepresentations . And if it was a toasting - fork , [you]_241-pip 'd go into brass and do [yourself]_241-pip no credit . And [the oncommonest workman]_{1443-the oncommonest workman} ca n't show [himself]_{1443-the oncommonest workman} oncommon in a gridiron , - for a gridiron IS a gridiron , " said [Joe]_172-joe , steadfastly impressing it upon [me]_241-pip , as if [he]_172-joe were endeavouring to rouse [me]_241-pip from a fixed delusion , "_[241-pip] and [you]_241-pip may haim at what [you]_241-pip like , but a gridiron it will come out , either by [your]_241-pip leave or again [your]_241-pip leave , and [you]_241-pip ca n't help [yourself]_241-pip - " "_[172-joe] [[My]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Joe]_172-joe , " [I]_172-joe cried , in desperation , taking hold of [his]_172-joe coat , "_[172-joe] do n't go on in that way . [I]_0-i never thought of making [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} any present . " "_[0-i] No , [Pip]_241-pip , " [Joe]_172-joe assented , as if [he]_172-joe had been contending for that , all along ; "_[241-pip] and what [I]_0-i say to [you]_241-pip is , [you]_241-pip are right , [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] Yes , [Joe]_172-joe ; but what [I]_0-i wanted to say , was , that as [we]_1445-we are rather slack just now , if [you]_241-pip would give [me]_0-i a half - holiday to - morrow , [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i would go up - [town]_4800-town and make a call on [Miss Est - Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Which [her]_{223-miss havisham} name , " said [Joe]_172-joe , gravely , "_{[223-miss havisham]} ai n't [Estavisham]_{224-estavisham} , [Pip]_241-pip , unless [she]_{223-miss havisham} have been rechris'ened . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know , [Joe]_172-joe , [I]_0-i know . It was a slip of [mine]_0-i . What do [you]_172-joe think of it , [Joe]_172-joe ? " In brief , [Joe]_172-joe thought that if [I]_172-joe thought well of it , [he]_172-joe thought well of it . But , [he]_172-joe was particular in stipulating that if [I]_172-joe were not received with cordiality , or if [I]_172-joe were not encouraged to repeat [my]_172-joe visit as a visit which had no ulterior object but was simply one of gratitude for a favor received , then this experimental trip should have no successor . By these conditions [I]_172-joe promised to abide . Now , [Joe]_172-joe kept [a journeyman]_{5198-a journeyman} at weekly wages whose name was [Orlick]_225-orlick . [He]_172-joe pretended that [his]_172-joe Christian name was [Dolge]_226-dolge , - a clear Impossibility , - but [he]_172-joe was [a fellow of that obstinate disposition]_{5199-a fellow of that obstinate disposition} that [I]_172-joe believe [him]_172-joe to have been the prey of no delusion in this particular , but wilfully to have imposed that name upon [the village]_{758-the village} as an affront to [its]_{758-the village} understanding . [He]_172-joe was [a broadshouldered loose - limbed swarthy fellow of great strength , never in a hurry]_{5201-a broadshouldered loose - limbed swarthy fellow of great strength , never in a hurry} , and always slouching . [He]_172-joe never even seemed to come to [his]_172-joe work on purpose , but would slouch in as if by mere accident ; and when [he]_172-joe went to [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} to eat [his]_172-joe dinner , or went away at night , [he]_172-joe would slouch out , like [Cain]_227-cain or [the Wandering Jew]_{5203-the wandering jew} , as if [he]_172-joe had no idea where [he]_172-joe was going and no intention of ever coming back . [He]_172-joe lodged at [[a sluice - keeper]_{5204-a sluice - keeper} 's out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes}]_{5205-a sluice - keeper 's out on the marshes} , and on working - days would come slouching from [[his]_172-joe hermitage]_{5207-his hermitage} , with [his]_172-joe hands in [his]_172-joe pockets and [his]_172-joe dinner loosely tied in a bundle round [his]_172-joe neck and dangling on [his]_172-joe back . On Sundays [he]_172-joe mostly lay all day on the sluice - gates , or stood against ricks and [barns]_5208-barns . [He]_172-joe always slouched , locomotively , with [his]_172-joe eyes on the ground ; and , when accosted or otherwise required to raise them , [he]_172-joe looked up in a half - resentful , half - puzzled way , as though the only thought [he]_172-joe ever had was , that it was rather an odd and injurious fact that [he]_172-joe should never be thinking . [This morose journeyman]_{5209-this morose journeyman} had no liking for [me]_172-joe . When [I]_172-joe was very small and timid , [he]_172-joe gave [me]_172-joe to understand that [the Devil]_{5210-the devil} lived in [a black corner of [the forge]_{488-the forge}]_{5211-a black corner of the forge} , and that [he]_172-joe knew [the fiend]_{5213-the fiend} very well : also that it was necessary to make up the fire , once in seven years , with [a live boy]_{5214-a live boy} , and that [I]_172-joe might consider [myself]_172-joe fuel . When [I]_172-joe became [[Joe]_172-joe 's ' prentice]_{5167-joe 's ' prentice} , [Orlick]_225-orlick was perhaps confirmed in some suspicion that [I]_172-joe should displace [him]_225-orlick ; howbeit , [he]_225-orlick liked [me]_172-joe still less . Not that [he]_225-orlick ever said anything , or did anything , openly importing hostility ; [I]_172-joe only noticed that [he]_225-orlick always beat [his]_225-orlick sparks in [my]_172-joe direction , and that whenever [I]_172-joe sang [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} , [he]_225-orlick came in out of time . [Dolge Orlick]_226-dolge was at work and present , next day , when [I]_172-joe reminded [Joe]_172-joe of [my]_172-joe half - holiday . [He]_225-orlick said nothing at the moment , for [he]_225-orlick and [Joe]_172-joe had just got a piece of hot iron between [them]_1448-them , and [I]_172-joe was at the bellows ; but by and by [he]_225-orlick said , leaning on [his]_225-orlick hammer , - "_[172-joe] Now , [master]_1447-master ! Sure [you]_1447-master 're not a going to favor only one of [us]_1448-them . If [Young Pip]_241-pip has a half - holiday , do as much for [Old Orlick]_225-orlick . " [I]_225-orlick suppose [he]_225-orlick was about five - and - twenty , but [he]_225-orlick usually spoke of [himself]_225-orlick as [an ancient person]_{5216-an ancient person} . "_[225-orlick] Why , what 'll [you]_1447-master do with a half - holiday , if [you]_1447-master get it ? " said [Joe]_172-joe . "_[0-i] What 'll [I]_0-i do with it ! What 'll [he]_241-pip do with it ? [I]_0-i 'll do as much with it as [him]_241-pip , " said [Orlick]_225-orlick . "_[0-i] As to [Pip]_241-pip , [he]_241-pip 's going up [town]_4800-town , " said [Joe]_172-joe . "_[241-pip] Well then , as to [Old Orlick]_225-orlick , [he]_225-orlick 's [a going up town]_{1450-a going up town} , " retorted [that worthy]_{5217-that worthy} . "_[225-orlick] [Two]_1451-two can go up [town]_4800-town . Tain't only one wot can go up [town]_4800-town . " Do n't lose [your]_172-joe temper , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe . " Shall if [I]_225-orlick like , "_[225-orlick] growled [Orlick]_225-orlick . " [Some]_5218-some and [their]_5218-some up - towning ! Now , [master]_1447-master ! Come . No favoring in [this shop]_{5220-this shop} . Be [a man]_{428-a man} ! "_{[1454-the master]} [The master]_{1454-the master} refusing to entertain the subject until [the journeyman]_{1455-the journeyman} was in a better temper , [Orlick]_225-orlick plunged at the furnace , drew out a red - hot bar , made at [me]_0-i with it as if [he]_225-orlick were going to run it through [my]_0-i body , whisked it round [my]_0-i head , laid it on the anvil , hammered it out , - as if it were [I]_0-i , [I]_0-i thought , and the sparks were [my]_0-i spirting blood , - and finally said , when [he]_225-orlick had hammered [himself]_225-orlick hot and the iron cold , and [he]_225-orlick again leaned on [his]_225-orlick hammer , - " Now , [master]_1447-master ! "_[225-orlick] " Are [you]_225-orlick all right now ? "_[172-joe] demanded [Joe]_172-joe . " Ah ! [I]_225-orlick am all right , "_[225-orlick] said [gruff Old Orlick]_225-orlick . " Then , as in general [you]_225-orlick stick to [your]_225-orlick work as well as [most men]_{5223-most men} , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe , " let it be a half - holiday for all . "_[172-joe] [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had been standing silent in [the yard]_{717-the yard} , within hearing , - [she]_{402-my sister} was [a most unscrupulous spy and listener]_{1458-a most unscrupulous spy and listener} , - and [she]_{402-my sister} instantly looked in at one of the windows . " Like [you]_172-joe , [[you]_172-joe fool]_{5224-you fool} ! "_{[402-my sister]} said [she]_{402-my sister} to [Joe]_172-joe , " giving holidays to [great idle hulkers like that]_{5225-great idle hulkers like that} . [You]_172-joe are [a rich man]_{5226-a rich man} , upon [my]_{402-my sister} life , to waste wages in that way . [I]_{402-my sister} wish [I]_{402-my sister} was [[his]_172-joe master]_{5227-his master} ! "_{[402-my sister]} " [You]_172-joe 'd be [[everybody]_{678-everybody} 's master]_{5229-everybody 's master} , if [you]_172-joe durst , "_[225-orlick] retorted [Orlick]_225-orlick , with an ill - favored grin . " Let [her]_{402-my sister} alone , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe . " [I]_{402-my sister} 'd be a match for all noodles and [all rogues]_{5230-all rogues} , "_{[402-my sister]} returned [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , beginning to work [herself]_{402-my sister} into a mighty rage . " And [I]_{402-my sister} could n't be a match for the noodles , without being a match for [[your]_172-joe master]_{5095-your master} , who 's [the dunder - headed king of the noodles]_{5232-the dunder - headed king of the noodles} . And [I]_{402-my sister} could n't be a match for [the rogues]_{5233-the rogues} , without being a match for [you]_172-joe , who are the blackest - looking and [the worst rogue between this and [France]_15-france]_{5234-the worst rogue between this and france} . Now ! "_{[402-my sister]} " [You]_172-joe 're [a foul shrew]_{5235-a foul shrew} , [Mother Gargery]_{229-mother gargery} , "_{[1455-the journeyman]} growled [the journeyman]_{1455-the journeyman} . " If that makes [a judge of rogues]_{5236-a judge of rogues} , [you]_172-joe ought to be [a good'un]_{5237-a good'un} . "_{[1455-the journeyman]} " Let [her]_{402-my sister} alone , will [you]_{402-my sister} ? "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe . " What did [you]_{402-my sister} say ? "_{[402-my sister]} cried [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , beginning to scream . " What did [you]_{402-my sister} say ? What did [that fellow Orlick]_{5238-that fellow orlick} say to [me]_{402-my sister} , [Pip]_241-pip ? What did [he]_{5238-that fellow orlick} call [me]_{402-my sister} , with [[my]_{402-my sister} husband]_{5239-my husband} standing by ? Oh ! oh ! oh ! "_{[402-my sister]} Each of these exclamations was a shriek ; and [I]_0-i must remark of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , what is equally true of [all the violent women [I]_0-i have ever seen]_{1463-all the violent women i have ever seen} , that passion was no excuse for [her]_{402-my sister} , because it is undeniable that instead of lapsing into passion , [she]_{402-my sister} consciously and deliberately took extraordinary pains to force [herself]_{402-my sister} into it , and became blindly furious by regular stages ; " what was the name [he]_{5238-that fellow orlick} gave [me]_{1455-the journeyman} before [the base man who swore to defend [me]_{1455-the journeyman}]_{5240-the base man who swore to defend me} ? Oh ! Hold [me]_{1455-the journeyman} ! Oh ! "_{[1455-the journeyman]} " Ah - h - h ! "_{[1455-the journeyman]} growled [the journeyman]_{1455-the journeyman} , between [his]_{1455-the journeyman} teeth , " [I]_{1455-the journeyman} 'd hold [you]_{1455-the journeyman} , if [you]_{1455-the journeyman} was [[my]_{1455-the journeyman} wife]_{4678-my wife} . [I]_{1455-the journeyman} 'd hold [you]_{1455-the journeyman} under the pump , and choke it out of [you]_{1455-the journeyman} . "_{[1455-the journeyman]} " [I]_172-joe tell [you]_{1455-the journeyman} , let [her]_{402-my sister} alone , "_[172-joe] said [Joe]_172-joe . " Oh ! To hear [him]_{1455-the journeyman} ! "_{[402-my sister]} cried [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , with a clap of [her]_{402-my sister} hands and a scream together , - which was [her]_{402-my sister} next stage . " To hear the names [he]_{1455-the journeyman} 's giving [me]_{402-my sister} ! That Orlick ! In [[my]_{402-my sister} own house]_{5242-my own house} ! [Me]_{402-my sister} , [a married woman]_{5243-a married woman} ! With [[my]_{402-my sister} husband]_{5239-my husband} standing by ! Oh ! Oh ! "_{[402-my sister]} Here [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , after a fit of clappings and screamings , beat [her]_{402-my sister} hands upon [her]_{402-my sister} bosom and upon [her]_{402-my sister} knees , and threw [her]_{402-my sister} cap off , and pulled [her]_{402-my sister} hair down , - which were the last stages on [her]_{402-my sister} road to frenzy . Being by this time a perfect Fury and a complete success , [she]_{402-my sister} made a dash at the door which [I]_0-i had fortunately locked . What could [the wretched Joe]_172-joe do now , after [his]_172-joe disregarded parenthetical interruptions , but stand up to [[his]_172-joe journeyman]_{1467-his journeyman} , and ask [him]_{1467-his journeyman} what [he]_{1467-his journeyman} meant by interfering betwixt [himself]_172-joe and [Mrs. Joe]_154-joe ; and further whether [he]_{1467-his journeyman} was [man enough to come on]_{1468-man enough to come on} ? [Old Orlick]_225-orlick felt that the situation admitted of nothing less than coming on , and was on [his]_225-orlick defence straightway ; so , without so much as pulling off [their]_1469-their singed and burnt aprons , [they]_1469-their went at [one another]_{4584-one another} , like [two giants]_{1471-two giants} . But , if [any man in [that neighborhood]_{1473-that neighborhood}]_{1472-any man in that neighborhood} could stand uplong against [Joe]_154-joe , [I]_0-i never saw [the man]_{433-the man} . [Orlick]_225-orlick , as if [he]_225-orlick had been of no more account than [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , was very soon among the coal - dust , and in no hurry to come out of it . Then [Joe]_154-joe unlocked the door and picked up [[my]_0-i sister , who had dropped insensible at the window but who had seen the fight first , [I]_0-i think , and who was carried into [the house]_{604-the house} and laid down , and who was recommended to revive , and would do nothing but struggle and clench [her]_1478-her hands in [Joe]_154-joe 's hair]_{1476-my sister , who had dropped insensible at the window but who had seen the fight first , i think , and who was carried into the house and laid down , and who was recommended to revive , and would do nothing but struggle and clench her hands in joe 's hair} . Then , came that singular calm and silence which succeed all uproars ; and then , with the vague sensation which [I]_0-i have always connected with such a lull , - namely , that it was [Sunday]_230-sunday , and [somebody]_591-somebody was dead , - [I]_0-i went up [stairs]_539-stairs to dress [myself]_0-i . When [I]_0-i came down again , [I]_0-i found [Joe]_154-joe and [Orlick]_225-orlick sweeping up , without any other traces of discomposure than a slit in one of [Orlick]_225-orlick 's nostrils , which was neither expressive nor ornamental . A pot of beer had appeared from [the Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} , and [they]_{202-the jolly bargemen} were sharing it by turns in a peaceable manner . The lull had a sedative and philosophical influence on [Joe]_154-joe , who followed [me]_0-i out into [the road]_{1325-the road} to say , as a parting observation that might do [me]_0-i good , " On the Rampage , [Pip]_241-pip , and off [the Rampage]_{217-the rampage} , [Pip]_241-pip : - such is Life ! "_[154-joe] With what absurd emotions for [we]_1482-we think the feelings that are very serious in [a man]_{428-a man} quite comical in [a boy]_{4485-a boy} [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i again going to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , matters little here . Nor , how [I]_0-i passed and repassed the gate many times before [I]_0-i could make up [my]_0-i mind to ring . Nor , how [I]_0-i debated whether [I]_0-i should go away without ringing ; nor , how [I]_0-i should undoubtedly have gone , if [my]_0-i time had been [my]_0-i own , to come back . [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} came to the gate . [No Estella]_195-estella . " How , then ? [You]_0-i here again ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} said [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} . " What do [you]_0-i want ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} When [I]_0-i said that [I]_0-i only came to see how [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was , [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} evidently deliberated whether or no [she]_{208-sarah pocket} should send [me]_0-i about [my]_0-i business . But unwilling to hazard the responsibility , [she]_{208-sarah pocket} let [me]_0-i in , and presently brought the sharp message that [I]_0-i was to " come up . "_{[208-sarah pocket]} Everything was unchanged , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was alone . " Well ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} said [she]_{208-sarah pocket} , fixing [her]_{208-sarah pocket} eyes upon [me]_0-i . " [I]_{208-sarah pocket} hope [you]_0-i want nothing ? [You]_0-i 'll get nothing . "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " No indeed , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} only wanted [you]_0-i to know that [I]_{208-sarah pocket} am doing very well in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} apprenticeship , and am always much obliged to [you]_0-i . "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " There , there ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} with the old restless fingers . " Come now and then ; come on [your]_0-i birthday . - Ay ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} [she]_{208-sarah pocket} cried suddenly , turning [herself]_{208-sarah pocket} and [her]_{208-sarah pocket} chair towards [me]_0-i , " [You]_0-i are looking round for [Estella]_195-estella ? Hey ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} [I]_0-i had been looking round , - in fact , for [Estella]_195-estella , - and [I]_0-i stammered that [I]_0-i hoped [she]_195-estella was well . " Abroad , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ; " educating for [a lady]_{5245-a lady} ; far out of reach ; prettier than ever ; admired by all who see [her]_{5245-a lady} . Do [you]_0-i feel that [you]_0-i have lost [her]_{5245-a lady} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} There was such a malignant enjoyment in [her]_{208-sarah pocket} utterance of the last words , and [she]_{208-sarah pocket} broke into such a disagreeable laugh , that [I]_0-i was at a loss what to say . [She]_{208-sarah pocket} spared [me]_0-i the trouble of considering , by dismissing [me]_0-i . When the gate was closed upon [me]_0-i by [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} of the walnut - shell countenance , [I]_0-i felt more than ever dissatisfied with [[my]_0-i home]_{1485-my home} and with [my]_0-i trade and with everything ; and that was all [I]_0-i took by that motion . As [I]_0-i was loitering along [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} , looking in disconsolately at the shop windows , and thinking what [I]_0-i would buy if [I]_0-i were [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , who should come out of [the bookshop]_{1488-the bookshop} but [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} hand the affecting tragedy of [George Barnwell]_{231-george barnwell} , in which [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had that moment invested sixpence , with the view of heaping every word of it on the head of Pumblechook , with whom [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was going to drink tea . No sooner did [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} see [me]_0-i , than [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} appeared to consider that [a special Providence]_{1489-a special providence} had put a ' prentice in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} way to be read at ; and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} laid hold of [me]_0-i , and insisted on [my]_0-i accompanying [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} to [the Pumblechookian parlor]_{1490-the pumblechookian parlor} . As [I]_0-i knew it would be miserable at [home]_4495-home , and as the nights were dark and the way was dreary , and almost any companionship on [the road]_{1325-the road} was better than none , [I]_0-i made no great resistance ; consequently , [we]_1493-we turned into [[Pumblechook]_172-joe 's]_{5140-pumblechook 's} just as [the street]_{4824-the street} and [the shops]_{1496-the shops} were lighting up . As [I]_0-i never assisted at any other representation of [George Barnwell]_{231-george barnwell} , [I]_0-i do n't know how long it may usually take ; but [I]_0-i know very well that it took until half - past nine o ' clock that night , and that when [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} got into [Newgate]_17-newgate , [I]_0-i thought [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} never would go to the scaffold , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} became so much slower than at any former period of [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} disgraceful career . [I]_0-i thought it a little too much that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} should complain of being cut short in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} flower after all , as if [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had not been running to seed , leaf after leaf , ever since [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} course began . This , however , was a mere question of length and wearisomeness . What stung [me]_0-i , was the identification of the whole affair with [my]_0-i unoffending self . When [Barnwell]_{231-george barnwell} began to go wrong , [I]_0-i declare that [I]_0-i felt positively apologetic , [Pumblechook]_172-joe 's indignant stare so taxed [me]_0-i with it . [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , too , took pains to present [me]_0-i in the worst light . At once ferocious and maudlin , [I]_0-i was made to murder [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} with no extenuating circumstances whatever ; [Millwood]_232-millwood put [me]_0-i down in argument , on every occasion ; it became sheer monomania in [[[my]_0-i master]_{1498-my master} 's daughter]_{1499-my master 's daughter} to care a button for [me]_0-i ; and all [I]_0-i can say for [my]_0-i gasping and procrastinating conduct on the fatal morning , is , that it was worthy of the general feebleness of [my]_0-i character . Even after [I]_0-i was happily hanged and [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had closed the book , [Pumblechook]_172-joe sat staring at [me]_0-i , and shaking [his]_172-joe head , and saying , " Take warning , [boy]_4519-boy , take warning ! "_[172-joe] as if it were a well - known fact that [I]_0-i contemplated murdering [a near relation]_{1500-a near relation} , provided [I]_0-i could only induce one to have the weakness to become [[my]_0-i benefactor]_{1501-my benefactor} . It was a very dark night when it was all over , and when [I]_0-i set out with [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} on the walk [home]_4495-home . Beyond [town]_4800-town , [we]_1504-we found a heavy mist out , and it fell wet and thick . The turnpike lamp was a blur , quite out of the lamp 's usual place apparently , and its rays looked solid substance on the fog . [We]_1504-we were noticing this , and saying how that the mist rose with a change of wind from a certain quarter of [[our]_1504-we marshes]_{1505-our marshes} , when [we]_1504-we came upon [a man]_{428-a man} , slouching under the lee of [the turnpike house]_{1507-the turnpike house} . " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_[1504-we] [we]_1504-we said , stopping . " [Orlick]_225-orlick there ? "_[1504-we] " Ah ! "_{[428-a man]} [he]_{428-a man} answered , slouching out . " [I]_{428-a man} was standing by a minute , on the chance of company . "_{[428-a man]} " [You]_{428-a man} are late , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i remarked . [Orlick]_225-orlick not unnaturally answered , " Well ? And [you]_{428-a man} 're late . "_[225-orlick] " [We]_1504-we have been , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , exalted with [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} late performance , - " [we]_1504-we have been indulging , [Mr. Orlick]_{233-mr. orlick} , in an intellectual evening . "_[225-orlick] [Old Orlick]_225-orlick growled , as if [he]_225-orlick had nothing to say about that , and [we]_1504-we all went on together . [I]_0-i asked [him]_225-orlick presently whether [he]_225-orlick had been spending [his]_225-orlick half - holiday up and down [town]_4800-town ? " Yes , "_[225-orlick] said [he]_225-orlick , " all of it . [I]_225-orlick come in behind [yourself]_{428-a man} . [I]_225-orlick did n't see [you]_{428-a man} , but [I]_225-orlick must have been pretty close behind [you]_{428-a man} . By the by , the guns is going again . "_[225-orlick] " At [the Hulks]_{166-the hulks} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Ay ! There 's some of the birds flown from [the cages]_{5247-the cages} . The guns have been going since dark , about . [You]_{428-a man} 'll hear one presently . "_[0-i] In effect , [we]_1504-we had not walked many yards further , when the well - remembered boom came towards [us]_1504-we , deadened by the mist , and heavily rolled away along the low grounds by [the river]_{413-the river} , as if it were pursuing and threatening [the fugitives]_{743-the fugitives} . " A good night for cutting off in , "_[225-orlick] said [Orlick]_225-orlick . " [We]_1504-we 'd be puzzled how to bring down a jail - bird on the wing , to - night . "_[225-orlick] The subject was a suggestive one to [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i thought about it in silence . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , as [the ill - requited uncle of the evening]_{1511-the ill - requited uncle of the evening} 's tragedy , fell to meditating aloud in [[his]_{169-mr. wopsle} garden at [Camberwell]_{19-camberwell}]_{1512-his garden at camberwell} . [Orlick]_225-orlick , with [his]_225-orlick hands in [his]_225-orlick pockets , slouched heavily at [my]_0-i side . It was very dark , very wet , very muddy , and so [we]_1504-we splashed along . Now and then , the sound of the signal cannon broke upon [us]_1504-we again , and again rolled sulkily along the course of [the river]_{413-the river} . [I]_0-i kept [myself]_0-i to [myself]_0-i and [my]_0-i thoughts . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} died amiably at [Camberwell]_{19-camberwell} , and exceedingly game on [Bosworth Field]_{20-bosworth field} , and in the greatest agonies at [Glastonbury]_{21-glastonbury} . [Orlick]_225-orlick sometimes growled , " Beat [it]_5248-it out , beat it out , - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! With a clink for the stout , - [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} ! "_[225-orlick] [I]_0-i thought [he]_225-orlick had been drinking , but [he]_225-orlick was not drunk . Thus , [we]_1504-we came to [the village]_{758-the village} . The way by which [we]_1504-we approached [it]_{758-the village} took [us]_1504-we past [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} , which [we]_1504-we were surprised to find - it being eleven o'clock - in a state of commotion , with the door wide open , and unwonted lights that had been hastily caught up and put down scattered about . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} dropped in to ask what was the matter surmising that [a convict]_{530-a convict} had been taken , but came running out in a great hurry . " There 's something wrong , "_[225-orlick] said [he]_225-orlick , without stopping , " up at [[your]_0-i place]_{5249-your place} , [Pip]_241-pip . Run all ! "_[225-orlick] " What is it ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , keeping up with [him]_225-orlick . So did [Orlick]_225-orlick , at [my]_0-i side . " [I]_225-orlick ca n't quite understand . [The house]_{604-the house} seems to have been violently entered when [Joe Gargery]_154-joe was out . Supposed by [convicts]_{4633-convicts} . [Somebody]_591-somebody has been attacked and hurt . "_[225-orlick] [We]_1504-we were running too fast to admit of more being said , and [we]_1504-we made no stop until [we]_1504-we got into [[our]_1504-we kitchen]_{1517-our kitchen} . [It]_{1517-our kitchen} was full of [people]_4539-people ; [the whole village]_{1519-the whole village} was [there]_4505-there , or in [the yard]_{717-the yard} ; and there was [a surgeon]_{1522-a surgeon} , and there was [Joe]_154-joe , and there were [a group of women]_{1523-a group of women} , all on the floor in the midst of [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} . [The unemployed bystanders]_{1525-the unemployed bystanders} drew back when [they]_{1525-the unemployed bystanders} saw [me]_0-i , and so [I]_0-i became aware of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , - lying without sense or movement on the bare boards where [she]_{402-my sister} had been knocked down by a tremendous blow on the back of the head , dealt by some unknown hand when [her]_{402-my sister} face was turned towards the fire , - destined never to be on the Rampage again , while [she]_{402-my sister} was [the wife of [Joe]_154-joe]_{1527-the wife of joe} . Chapter XVI With [my]_0-i head full of [George Barnwell]_{231-george barnwell} , [I]_0-i was at first disposed to believe that [I]_0-i must have had some hand in the attack upon [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , or at all events that as [her]_{402-my sister} near relation , popularly known to be under obligations to [her]_{402-my sister} , [I]_0-i was a more legitimate object of suspicion than [any one else]_{1529-any one else} . But when , in the clearer light of next morning , [I]_0-i began to reconsider the matter and to hear it discussed around [me]_0-i on all sides , [I]_0-i took another view of the case , which was more reasonable . [Joe]_154-joe had been at [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} , smoking [his]_{231-george barnwell} pipe , from a quarter after eight o'clock to a quarter before ten . While [he]_{231-george barnwell} was [there]_4505-there , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had been seen standing at the kitchen door , and had exchanged Good Night with [a farm - laborer]_{1533-a farm - laborer} going [home]_4495-home . [The man]_{433-the man} could not be more particular as to the time at which [he]_{433-the man} saw [her]_{402-my sister} [he]_{433-the man} got into dense confusion when [he]_{433-the man} tried to be , than that it must have been before nine . When [Joe]_154-joe went [home]_4495-home at five minutes before ten , [he]_{231-george barnwell} found [her]_{402-my sister} struck down on the floor , and promptly called in assistance . The fire had not then burnt unusually low , nor was the snuff of the candle very long ; the candle , however , had been blown out . Nothing had been taken away from any part of [the house]_{604-the house} . Neither , beyond the blowing out of the candle , - which stood on a table between the door and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , and was behind [her]_{402-my sister} when [she]_{402-my sister} stood facing the fire and was struck , - was there any disarrangement of [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , excepting such as [she]_{402-my sister} [herself]_{402-my sister} had made , in falling and bleeding . But , there was one remarkable piece of evidence on the spot . [She]_{402-my sister} had been struck with something blunt and heavy , on the head and spine ; after the blows were dealt , something heavy had been thrown down at [her]_{402-my sister} with considerable violence , as [she]_{402-my sister} lay on [her]_{402-my sister} face . And on the ground beside [her]_{402-my sister} , when [Joe]_154-joe picked [her]_{402-my sister} up , was [a convict]_{530-a convict} 's leg - iron which had been filed asunder . Now , [Joe]_154-joe , examining this iron with [a smith]_{1541-a smith} 's eye , declared it to have been filed asunder some time ago . The hue and cry going off to [the Hulks]_{1542-the hulks} , and [people]_4539-people coming thence to examine the iron , [Joe]_154-joe 's opinion was corroborated . [They]_4539-people did not undertake to say when it had left [the prison]_{1544-the prison} - ships to which it undoubtedly had once belonged ; but [they]_4539-people claimed to know for certain that that particular manacle had not been worn by either of [the two convicts who had escaped last night]_{1545-the two convicts who had escaped last night} . Further , [one of [those two]_{1547-those two}]_{1546-one of those two} was already retaken , and had not freed [himself]_{1546-one of those two} of [his]_{1546-one of those two} iron . Knowing what [I]_0-i knew , [I]_0-i set up an inference of [my]_0-i own [here]_693-here . [I]_0-i believed the iron to be [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} 's iron , - the iron [I]_0-i had seen and heard [him]_{1546-one of those two} filing at , on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , - but [my]_0-i mind did not accuse [him]_{1546-one of those two} of having put it to its latest use . For [I]_0-i believed one of [two other persons]_{1551-two other persons} to have become possessed of it , and to have turned it to this cruel account . [Either Orlick]_{1552-either orlick} , or [the strange man who had shown [me]_0-i the file]_{1553-the strange man who had shown me the file} . Now , as to [Orlick]_225-orlick ; [he]_225-orlick had gone to [town]_4800-town exactly as [he]_225-orlick told [us]_1555-us when [we]_1555-us picked [him]_225-orlick up at [the turnpike]_{1556-the turnpike} , [he]_225-orlick had been seen about [town]_4800-town all the evening , [he]_225-orlick had been in [divers companies in [several public - houses]_{1559-several public - houses}]_{1558-divers companies in several public - houses} , and [he]_225-orlick had come back with [myself]_0-i and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . There was nothing against [him]_225-orlick , save the quarrel ; and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had quarrelled with [him]_225-orlick , and with everybody else about [her]_{402-my sister} , ten thousand times . As to [the strange man]_{1164-the strange man} ; if [he]_{1164-the strange man} had come back for [his]_{1164-the strange man} two bank - notes there could have been no dispute about them , because [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was fully prepared to restore them . Besides , there had been no altercation ; [the assailant]_{1563-the assailant} had come in so silently and suddenly , that [she]_{402-my sister} had been felled before [she]_{402-my sister} could look round . It was horrible to think that [I]_0-i had provided the weapon , however undesignedly , but [I]_0-i could hardly think otherwise . [I]_0-i suffered unspeakable trouble while [I]_0-i considered and reconsidered whether [I]_0-i should at last dissolve that spell of [my]_0-i childhood and tell [Joe]_154-joe all the story . For months afterwards , [I]_0-i every day settled the question finally in the negative , and reopened and reargued it next morning . The contention came , after all , to this ; - the secret was such an old one now , had so grown into [me]_0-i and become a part of [myself]_0-i , that [I]_0-i could not tear it away . In addition to the dread that , having led up to so much mischief , it would be now more likely than ever to alienate [Joe]_154-joe from [me]_0-i if [he]_{1164-the strange man} believed it , [I]_0-i had a further restraining dread that [he]_{1164-the strange man} would not believe it , but would assort it with the fabulous dogs and veal - cutlets as a monstrous invention . However , [I]_0-i temporized with [myself]_0-i , of course - for , was [I]_0-i not wavering between right and wrong , when the thing is always done ? - and resolved to make a full disclosure if [I]_0-i should see any such new occasion as a new chance of helping in the discovery of [the assailant]_{1563-the assailant} . [The Constables]_{1565-the constables} and [the Bow Street men from [London]_8-london]_{1566-the bow street men from london} - for , this happened in the days of [the extinct red - waistcoated police]_{1567-the extinct red - waistcoated police} - were about [the house]_{604-the house} for a week or two , and did pretty much what [I]_0-i have heard and read of like [authorities]_{1569-authorities} doing in other such cases . [They]_1570-they took up [several obviously wrong people]_{1571-several obviously wrong people} , and [they]_1570-they ran [their]_1570-they heads very hard against wrong ideas , and persisted in trying to fit the circumstances to the ideas , instead of trying to extract ideas from the circumstances . Also , [they]_1570-they stood about the door of [the Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} , with knowing and reserved looks that filled [the whole neighborhood]_{1572-the whole neighborhood} with admiration ; and [they]_1570-they had a mysterious manner of taking [their]_1570-they drink , that was almost as good as taking [the culprit]_{1573-the culprit} . But not quite , for [they]_1570-they never did it . Long after these constitutional powers had dispersed , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} lay very ill in bed . [Her]_{402-my sister} sight was disturbed , so that [she]_{402-my sister} saw objects multiplied , and grasped at visionary teacups and wineglasses instead of the realities ; [her]_{402-my sister} hearing was greatly impaired ; [her]_{402-my sister} memory also ; and [her]_{402-my sister} speech was unintelligible . When , at last , [she]_{402-my sister} came round so far as to be helped down stairs , it was still necessary to keep [my]_0-i slate always by [her]_{402-my sister} , that [she]_{402-my sister} might indicate in writing what [she]_{402-my sister} could not indicate in speech . As [she]_{402-my sister} was very bad handwriting apart [a more than indifferent speller]_{1575-a more than indifferent speller} , and as [Joe]_154-joe was [a more than indifferent reader]_{1576-a more than indifferent reader} , extraordinary complications arose between [them]_1577-them which [I]_0-i was always called in to solve . The administration of mutton instead of medicine , the substitution of Tea for [Joe]_154-joe , and the baker for bacon , were among the mildest of [my]_0-i own mistakes . However , [her]_{402-my sister} temper was greatly improved , and [she]_{402-my sister} was patient . A tremulous uncertainty of the action of all [her]_{402-my sister} limbs soon became a part of [her]_{402-my sister} regular state , and afterwards , at intervals of two or three months , [she]_{402-my sister} would often put [her]_{402-my sister} hands to [her]_{402-my sister} head , and would then remain for about a week at a time in some gloomy aberration of mind . [We]_1578-us were at a loss to find a suitable attendant for [her]_{402-my sister} , until a circumstance happened conveniently to relieve [us]_1578-us . [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} conquered a confirmed habit of living into which [she]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} had fallen , and [Biddy]_188-biddy became a part of [[our]_1578-us establishment]_{1580-our establishment} . It may have been about a month after [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's reappearance in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , when [Biddy]_188-biddy came to [us]_1578-us with a small speckled box containing the whole of [her]_188-biddy worldly effects , and became a blessing to [the household]_{1583-the household} . Above all , [she]_188-biddy was a blessing to [Joe]_154-joe , for [the dear old fellow]_{1584-the dear old fellow} was sadly cut up by the constant contemplation of the wreck of [[his]_{1584-the dear old fellow} wife]_{1585-his wife} , and had been accustomed , while attending on [her]_{402-my sister} of an evening , to turn to [me]_0-i every now and then and say , with [his]_{1584-the dear old fellow} blue eyes moistened , " [Such a fine figure of [a woman]_{943-a woman} as [she]_{402-my sister} once were]_{5253-such a fine figure of a woman as she once were} , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[1584-the dear old fellow]} [Biddy]_188-biddy instantly taking the cleverest charge of [her]_{402-my sister} as though [she]_188-biddy had studied [her]_{402-my sister} from infancy ; [Joe]_154-joe became able in some sort to appreciate the greater quiet of [his]_{1584-the dear old fellow} life , and to get down to [the Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} now and then for a change that did [him]_{1584-the dear old fellow} good . It was characteristic of [the police people]_{1586-the police people} that [they]_{1586-the police people} had all more or less suspected poor [Joe]_154-joe though [he]_{1584-the dear old fellow} never knew it , and that [they]_{1586-the police people} had to [a man]_{428-a man} concurred in regarding [him]_{1584-the dear old fellow} as [one of the deepest spirits [they]_{1586-the police people} had ever encountered]_{1588-one of the deepest spirits they had ever encountered} . [Biddy]_188-biddy 's first triumph in [[her]_188-biddy new office]_{1589-her new office} , was to solve a difficulty that had completely vanquished [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i had tried hard at it , but had made nothing of it . Thus it was : - Again and again and again , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had traced upon the slate , a character that looked like a curious T , and then with the utmost eagerness had called [our]_1591-our attention to it as something [she]_{402-my sister} particularly wanted . [I]_0-i had in vain tried everything producible that began with a T , from tar to toast and tub . At length it had come into [my]_0-i head that the sign looked like a hammer , and on [my]_0-i lustily calling that word in [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's ear , [she]_{402-my sister} had begun to hammer on the table and had expressed a qualified assent . Thereupon , [I]_0-i had brought in all [our]_1591-our hammers , one after another , but without avail . Then [I]_0-i bethought [me]_0-i of a crutch , the shape being much the same , and [I]_0-i borrowed one in [the village]_{758-the village} , and displayed it to [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} with considerable confidence . But [she]_{402-my sister} shook [her]_{402-my sister} head to that extent when [she]_{402-my sister} was shown it , that [we]_1591-our were terrified lest in [her]_{402-my sister} weak and shattered state [she]_{402-my sister} should dislocate [her]_{402-my sister} neck . When [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} found that [Biddy]_188-biddy was very quick to understand [her]_{402-my sister} , this mysterious sign reappeared on the slate . [Biddy]_188-biddy looked thoughtfully at it , heard [my]_0-i explanation , looked thoughtfully at [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , looked thoughtfully at [Joe]_154-joe who was always represented on the slate by [his]_1597-his initial letter , and ran into [the forge]_{488-the forge} , followed by [Joe]_154-joe and [me]_0-i . " Why , of course ! "_[188-biddy] cried [Biddy]_188-biddy , with an exultant face . " Do n't [you]_188-biddy see ? It 's [him]_225-orlick ! "_[188-biddy] [Orlick]_225-orlick , without a doubt ! [She]_{402-my sister} had lost [his]_225-orlick name , and could only signify [him]_225-orlick by [his]_225-orlick hammer . [We]_1599-we told [him]_225-orlick why [we]_1599-we wanted [him]_225-orlick to come into [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and [he]_225-orlick slowly laid down [his]_225-orlick hammer , wiped [his]_225-orlick brow with [his]_225-orlick arm , took another wipe at it with [his]_225-orlick apron , and came slouching out , with a curious loose vagabond bend in the knees that strongly distinguished [him]_225-orlick . [I]_0-i confess that [I]_0-i expected to see [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} denounce [him]_225-orlick , and that [I]_0-i was disappointed by the different result . [She]_{402-my sister} manifested the greatest anxiety to be on good terms with [him]_225-orlick , was evidently much pleased by [his]_225-orlick being at length produced , and motioned that [she]_{402-my sister} would have [him]_225-orlick given something to drink . [She]_{402-my sister} watched [his]_225-orlick countenance as if [she]_{402-my sister} were particularly wishful to be assured that [he]_225-orlick took kindly to [his]_225-orlick reception , [she]_{402-my sister} showed every possible desire to conciliate [him]_225-orlick , and there was an air of humble propitiation in all [she]_{402-my sister} did , such as [I]_0-i have seen pervade the bearing of [a child]_{691-a child} towards [a hard master]_{1603-a hard master} . After that day , a day rarely passed without [her]_{402-my sister} drawing the hammer on [her]_{402-my sister} slate , and without [Orlick]_225-orlick 's slouching in and standing doggedly before [her]_{402-my sister} , as if [he]_225-orlick knew no more than [I]_0-i did what to make of it . Chapter XVII [I]_0-i now fell into a regular routine of apprenticeship life , which was varied beyond the limits of [the village]_{758-the village} and [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , by no more remarkable circumstance than the arrival of [my]_0-i birthday and [my]_0-i paying another visit to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i found [Miss Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} still on duty at the gate ; [I]_0-i found [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} just as [I]_0-i had left [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} spoke of [Estella]_195-estella in the very same way , if not in the very same words . The interview lasted but a few minutes , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} gave [me]_0-i a guinea when [I]_0-i was going , and told [me]_0-i to come again on [my]_0-i next birthday . [I]_0-i may mention at once that this became an annual custom . [I]_0-i tried to decline taking the guinea on the first occasion , but with no better effect than causing [her]_{223-miss havisham} to ask [me]_0-i very angrily , if [I]_0-i expected more ? Then , and after that , [I]_0-i took it . So unchanging was [the dull old house]_{1606-the dull old house} , the yellow light in [the darkened room]_{1607-the darkened room} , the faded spectre in the chair by the dressing - table glass , that [I]_0-i felt as if the stopping of the clocks had stopped Time in [that mysterious place]_{1608-that mysterious place} , and , while [I]_0-i and everything else outside [it]_{1606-the dull old house} grew older , it stood still . [Daylight]_234-daylight never entered [the house]_{604-the house} as to [my]_0-i thoughts and remembrances of it , any more than as to the actual fact . It bewildered [me]_0-i , and under [its]_234-daylight influence [I]_0-i continued at heart to hate [my]_0-i trade and to be ashamed of [home]_4495-home . Imperceptibly [I]_0-i became conscious of a change in [Biddy]_188-biddy , however . [Her]_188-biddy shoes came up at the heel , [her]_188-biddy hair grew bright and neat , [her]_188-biddy hands were always clean . [She]_188-biddy was not beautiful , - [she]_188-biddy was common , and could not be like [Estella]_195-estella , - but [she]_188-biddy was pleasant and wholesome and sweet - tempered . [She]_188-biddy had not been with [us]_1611-us more than a year [I]_0-i remember [her]_188-biddy being newly out of mourning at the time it struck [me]_0-i , when [I]_0-i observed to [myself]_0-i one evening that [she]_188-biddy had curiously thoughtful and attentive eyes ; eyes that were very pretty and very good . It came of [my]_0-i lifting up [my]_0-i own eyes from a task [I]_0-i was poring at - writing some passages from a book , to improve [myself]_0-i in two ways at once by a sort of stratagem - and seeing [Biddy]_188-biddy observant of what [I]_0-i was about . [I]_0-i laid down [my]_0-i pen , and [Biddy]_188-biddy stopped in [her]_188-biddy needlework without laying it down . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " how do [you]_188-biddy manage it ? Either [I]_0-i am very stupid , or [you]_188-biddy are very clever . "_[0-i] " What is it that [I]_188-biddy manage ? [I]_188-biddy do n't know , "_[188-biddy] returned [Biddy]_188-biddy , smiling . [She]_188-biddy managed [our]_1612-our whole domestic life , and wonderfully too ; but [I]_0-i did not mean that , though that made what [I]_0-i did mean more surprising . " How do [you]_188-biddy manage , [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " to learn everything that [I]_0-i learn , and always to keep up with [me]_0-i ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was beginning to be rather vain of [my]_0-i knowledge , for [I]_0-i spent [my]_0-i birthday guineas on it , and set aside the greater part of [my]_0-i pocket - money for similar investment ; though [I]_0-i have no doubt , now , that the little [I]_0-i knew was extremely dear at the price . " [I]_188-biddy might as well ask [you]_188-biddy , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , " how [you]_188-biddy manage ? "_[188-biddy] " No ; because when [I]_188-biddy come in from the forge of a night , [any one]_{841-any one} can see [me]_188-biddy turning to at it . But [you]_188-biddy never turn to at it , [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[188-biddy] " [I]_188-biddy suppose [I]_188-biddy must catch it like a cough , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , quietly ; and went on with [her]_188-biddy sewing . Pursuing [my]_0-i idea as [I]_0-i leaned back in [my]_0-i wooden chair , and looked at [Biddy]_188-biddy sewing away with [her]_188-biddy head on one side , [I]_0-i began to think [her]_188-biddy rather [an extraordinary girl]_{1613-an extraordinary girl} . For [I]_0-i called to mind now , that [she]_188-biddy was equally accomplished in the terms of [our]_1614-our trade , and the names of [our]_1614-our different sorts of work , and [our]_1614-our various tools . In short , whatever [I]_0-i knew , [Biddy]_188-biddy knew . Theoretically , [she]_188-biddy was already as good [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} as [I]_0-i , or better . " [You]_188-biddy are one of those , [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " who make the most of every chance . [You]_188-biddy never had a chance before [you]_188-biddy came [here]_693-here , and see how improved [you]_188-biddy are ! "_[0-i] [Biddy]_188-biddy looked at [me]_0-i for an instant , and went on with [her]_188-biddy sewing . " [I]_188-biddy was [[your]_188-biddy first teacher]_{5257-your first teacher} though ; was n't [I]_188-biddy ? "_[188-biddy] said [she]_188-biddy , as [she]_188-biddy sewed . " [Biddy]_188-biddy ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i exclaimed , in amazement . " Why , [you]_188-biddy are crying ! "_[0-i] " No [I]_188-biddy am not , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , looking up and laughing . " What put that in [your]_188-biddy head ? "_[188-biddy] What could have put it in [my]_0-i head but the glistening of a tear as it dropped on [her]_188-biddy work ? [I]_0-i sat silent , recalling what a drudge [she]_188-biddy had been until [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} successfully overcame that bad habit of living , so highly desirable to be got rid of by [some people]_{620-some people} . [I]_0-i recalled the hopeless circumstances by which [she]_188-biddy had been surrounded in [the miserable little shop]_{1618-the miserable little shop} and [the miserable little noisy evening school]_{1619-the miserable little noisy evening school} , with that miserable old bundle of incompetence always to be dragged and shouldered . [I]_0-i reflected that even in those untoward times there must have been latent in [Biddy]_188-biddy what was now developing , for , in [my]_0-i first uneasiness and discontent [I]_0-i had turned to [her]_188-biddy for help , as a matter of course . [Biddy]_188-biddy sat quietly sewing , shedding no more tears , and while [I]_0-i looked at [her]_188-biddy and thought about it all , it occurred to [me]_0-i that perhaps [I]_0-i had not been sufficiently grateful to [Biddy]_188-biddy . [I]_0-i might have been too reserved , and should have patronized [her]_188-biddy more though [I]_0-i did not use that precise word in [my]_0-i meditations with [my]_0-i confidence . " Yes , [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i observed , when [I]_0-i had done turning it over , " [you]_188-biddy were [[my]_0-i first teacher]_{5258-my first teacher} , and that at a time when [we]_5259-we little thought of ever being together like this , in [this kitchen]_{5260-this kitchen} . "_[0-i] " Ah , poor thing ! "_[188-biddy] replied [Biddy]_188-biddy . It was like [her]_188-biddy self - forgetfulness to transfer the remark to [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , and to get up and be busy about [her]_188-biddy , making [her]_188-biddy more comfortable ; " that 's sadly true ! "_[188-biddy] " Well ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [we]_5259-we must talk together a little more , as [we]_5259-we used to do . And [I]_0-i must consult [you]_188-biddy a little more , as [I]_0-i used to do . Let [us]_5259-we have a quiet walk on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} next Sunday , [Biddy]_188-biddy , and a long chat . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was never left alone now ; but [Joe]_154-joe more than readily undertook the care of [her]_{402-my sister} on that Sunday afternoon , and [Biddy]_188-biddy and [I]_0-i went out together . It was summer - time , and lovely weather . When [we]_1622-we had passed [the village]_{758-the village} and [the church]_{439-the church} and [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , and were out on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} and began to see the sails of [the ships]_{1627-the ships} as [they]_{1627-the ships} sailed on , [I]_0-i began to combine [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella with the prospect , in [my]_0-i usual way . When [we]_1622-we came to [the river - side]_{573-the river - side} and sat down on [the bank]_{1629-the bank} , with the water rippling at [our]_1622-we feet , making it all more quiet than it would have been without that sound , [I]_0-i resolved that it was a good time and place for the admission of [Biddy]_188-biddy into [my]_0-i inner confidence . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , after binding [her]_188-biddy to secrecy , " [I]_0-i want to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} . "_[0-i] " O , [I]_188-biddy would n't , if [I]_188-biddy was [you]_0-i ! "_[188-biddy] [she]_188-biddy returned . " [I]_0-i do n't think it would answer . "_[0-i] " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , with some severity , " [I]_0-i have particular reasons for wanting to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} . "_[0-i] " [You]_0-i know best , [Pip]_241-pip ; but do n't [you]_0-i think [you]_0-i are happier as [you]_0-i are ? "_[0-i] " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i exclaimed , impatiently , " [I]_0-i am not at all happy as [I]_0-i am . [I]_0-i am disgusted with [my]_0-i calling and with [my]_0-i life . [I]_0-i have never taken to either , since [I]_0-i was bound . Do n't be absurd . "_[0-i] " Was [I]_188-biddy absurd ? "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , quietly raising [her]_188-biddy eyebrows ; " [I]_188-biddy am sorry for that ; [I]_188-biddy did n't mean to be . [I]_188-biddy only want [you]_0-i to do well , and to be comfortable . "_[188-biddy] " Well , then , understand once for all that [I]_0-i never shall or can be comfortable - or anything but miserable - there , [Biddy]_188-biddy ! - unless [I]_0-i can lead a very different sort of life from the life [I]_0-i lead now . "_[0-i] " That 's a pity ! "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , shaking [her]_188-biddy head with a sorrowful air . Now , [I]_0-i too had so often thought it a pity , that , in the singular kind of quarrel with [myself]_0-i which [I]_0-i was always carrying on , [I]_0-i was half inclined to shed tears of vexation and distress when [Biddy]_188-biddy gave utterance to [her]_188-biddy sentiment and [my]_0-i own . [I]_0-i told [her]_188-biddy [she]_188-biddy was right , and [I]_0-i knew it was much to be regretted , but still it was not to be helped . " If [I]_0-i could have settled down , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said to [Biddy]_188-biddy , plucking up the short grass within reach , much as [I]_0-i had once upon a time pulled [my]_0-i feelings out of [my]_0-i hair and kicked them into the brewery wall , - " if [I]_188-biddy could have settled down and been but half as fond of the forge as [I]_188-biddy was when [I]_188-biddy was little , [I]_188-biddy know it would have been much better for [me]_188-biddy . [You]_188-biddy and [I]_188-biddy and [Joe]_154-joe would have wanted nothing then , and [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_188-biddy would perhaps have gone partners when [I]_188-biddy was out of [my]_188-biddy time , and [I]_188-biddy might even have grown up to keep company with [you]_188-biddy , and [we]_5264-we might have sat on this very bank on a fine Sunday , [quite different people]_{5265-quite different people} . [I]_188-biddy should have been good enough for [you]_188-biddy ; should n't [I]_188-biddy , [Biddy]_188-biddy ? "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy sighed as [she]_188-biddy looked at [the ships sailing on]_{1630-the ships sailing on} , and returned for answer , " Yes ; [I]_188-biddy am not over - particular . "_[188-biddy] It scarcely sounded flattering , but [I]_0-i knew [she]_188-biddy meant well . " Instead of that , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , plucking up more grass and chewing a blade or two , ' see how [I]_0-i am going on . [Dissatisfied]_{235-dissatisfied} , and uncomfortable , and - what would it signify to [me]_0-i , being coarse and common , if [nobody]_4527-nobody had told [me]_0-i so ! " [Biddy]_188-biddy turned [her]_188-biddy face suddenly towards [mine]_0-i , and looked far more attentively at [me]_{235-dissatisfied} than [she]_188-biddy had looked at [the sailing ships]_{5266-the sailing ships} . "_{[235-dissatisfied]} It was neither a very true nor a very polite thing to say , " [she]_188-biddy remarked , directing [her]_188-biddy eyes to [the ships]_{1627-the ships} again . "_{[235-dissatisfied]} Who said it ? " [I]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} was disconcerted , for [I]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} had broken away without quite seeing where [I]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} was going to . It was not to be shuffled off now , however , and [I]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} answered , "_{[1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's]} [The beautiful young lady at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} , and [she]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} 's more beautiful than [anybody]_4526-anybody ever was , and [I]_0-i admire [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} dreadfully , and [I]_0-i want to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} on [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} account . " Having made this lunatic confession , [I]_0-i began to throw [my]_0-i torn - up grass into [the river]_{413-the river} , as if [I]_0-i had some thoughts of following it . "_[0-i] Do [you]_0-i want to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , to spite [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} or to gain [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} over ? " [Biddy]_188-biddy quietly asked [me]_0-i , after a pause . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know , " [I]_0-i moodily answered . "_[0-i] Because , if it is to spite [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} , " [Biddy]_188-biddy pursued , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should think - but [you]_0-i know best - that might be better and more independently done by caring nothing for [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} words . And if it is to gain [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} over , [I]_0-i should think - but [you]_0-i know best - [she]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} was not worth gaining over . " Exactly what [I]_0-i [myself]_0-i had thought , many times . Exactly what was perfectly manifest to [me]_0-i at the moment . But how could [I]_0-i , [a poor dazed village lad]_{5269-a poor dazed village lad} , avoid that wonderful inconsistency into which the best and wisest of [men]_4561-men fall every day ? "_[0-i] It may be all quite true , " said [I]_0-i to [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] but [I]_0-i admire [her]_{1632-the beautiful young lady at miss havisham 's} dreadfully . " In short , [I]_0-i turned over on [my]_0-i face when [I]_0-i came to that , and got a good grasp on the hair on each side of [my]_0-i head , and wrenched it well . All the while knowing the madness of [my]_0-i heart to be so very mad and misplaced , that [I]_0-i was quite conscious it would have served [my]_0-i face right , if [I]_0-i had lifted it up by [my]_0-i hair , and knocked it against the pebbles as a punishment for belonging to [such an idiot]_{5271-such an idiot} . [Biddy]_188-biddy was [the wisest of [girls]_1124-girls]_{5272-the wisest of girls} , and [she]_188-biddy tried to reason no more with [me]_0-i . [She]_188-biddy put [her]_188-biddy hand , which was a comfortable hand though roughened by work , upon [my]_0-i hands , one after another , and gently took them out of [my]_0-i hair . Then [she]_188-biddy softly patted [my]_0-i shoulder in a soothing way , while with [my]_0-i face upon [my]_0-i sleeve [I]_0-i cried a little , - exactly as [I]_0-i had done in [the brewery yard]_{5274-the brewery yard} , - and felt vaguely convinced that [I]_0-i was very much ill - used by [somebody]_591-somebody , or by [everybody]_{678-everybody} ; [I]_0-i ca n't say which . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am glad of one thing , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[1636-you] and that is , that [you]_1636-you have felt [you]_1636-you could give [me]_0-i [your]_1636-you confidence , [Pip]_241-pip . And [I]_0-i am glad of another thing , and that is , that of course [you]_1636-you know [you]_1636-you may depend upon [my]_0-i keeping it and always so far deserving it . If [[your]_1636-you first teacher]_{5257-your first teacher} dear ! such [a poor one]_{1638-a poor one} , and so much in need of being taught [herself]_{5257-your first teacher} ! had been [[your]_1636-you teacher]_{1639-your teacher} at the present time , [she]_{5257-your first teacher} thinks [she]_{5257-your first teacher} knows what lesson [she]_{5257-your first teacher} would set . But it would be a hard one to learn , and [you]_1636-you have got beyond [her]_{5257-your first teacher} , and it 's of no use now . " So , with a quiet sigh for [me]_1636-you , [Biddy]_188-biddy rose from the bank , and said , with a fresh and pleasant change of voice , "_[1636-you] Shall [we]_1640-we walk a little farther , or go [home]_4495-home ? " "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy , " [I]_188-biddy cried , getting up , putting [my]_188-biddy arm round [her]_188-biddy neck , and giving [her]_188-biddy a kiss , "_[188-biddy] [I]_0-i shall always tell [you]_188-biddy everything . " "_[0-i] Till [you]_1636-you 're [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[1636-you] [You]_1636-you know [I]_0-i never shall be , so that 's always . Not that [I]_0-i have any occasion to tell [you]_1636-you anything , for [you]_1636-you know everything [I]_0-i know , - as [I]_0-i told [you]_1636-you at [home]_4495-home the other night . " "_[0-i] Ah ! " said [Biddy]_188-biddy , quite in a whisper , as [she]_188-biddy looked away at [the ships]_{1627-the ships} . And then repeated , with [her]_188-biddy former pleasant change , ' shall [we]_1644-we walk a little farther , or go [home]_4495-home ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said to [Biddy]_188-biddy [we]_1644-we would walk a little farther , and [we]_1644-we did so , and the summer afternoon toned down into the summer evening , and it was very beautiful . [I]_0-i began to consider whether [I]_0-i was not more naturally and wholesomely situated , after all , in these circumstances , than playing beggar [[my]_0-i neighbor]_{4898-my neighbor} by candle - light in [the room]_{633-the room} with the stopped clocks , and being despised by [Estella]_195-estella . [I]_0-i thought it would be very good for [me]_0-i if [I]_0-i could get [her]_195-estella out of [my]_0-i head , with all the rest of those remembrances and fancies , and could go to work determined to relish what [I]_0-i had to do , and stick to it , and make the best of it . [I]_0-i asked [myself]_0-i the question whether [I]_0-i did not surely know that if [Estella]_195-estella were beside [me]_0-i at that moment instead of [Biddy]_188-biddy , [she]_195-estella would make [me]_0-i miserable ? [I]_0-i was obliged to admit that [I]_0-i did know it for a certainty , and [I]_0-i said to [myself]_0-i , " [Pip]_241-pip , what [a fool]_{4943-a fool} [you]_241-pip are ! "_[0-i] [We]_1647-we talked a good deal as [we]_1647-we walked , and all that [Biddy]_188-biddy said seemed right . [Biddy]_188-biddy was never insulting , or capricious , or [Biddy]_188-biddy to - day and [somebody else to - morrow]_{1648-somebody else to - morrow} ; [she]_188-biddy would have derived only pain , and no pleasure , from giving [me]_0-i pain ; [she]_188-biddy would far rather have wounded [her]_188-biddy own breast than [mine]_0-i . How could it be , then , that [I]_0-i did not like [her]_188-biddy much the better of [the two]_{856-the two} ? " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , when [we]_1647-we were walking homeward , " [I]_0-i wish [you]_188-biddy could put [me]_0-i right . "_[0-i] " [I]_188-biddy wish [I]_188-biddy could ! "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " If [I]_188-biddy could only get [myself]_188-biddy to fall in love with [you]_188-biddy , - [you]_188-biddy do n't mind [my]_188-biddy speaking so openly to [such an old acquaintance]_{5280-such an old acquaintance} ? "_[188-biddy] " Oh dear , not at all ! "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " Do n't mind [me]_188-biddy . "_[188-biddy] " If [I]_188-biddy could only get [myself]_188-biddy to do it , that would be the thing for [me]_188-biddy . "_[188-biddy] " But [you]_188-biddy never will , [you]_188-biddy see , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . It did not appear quite so unlikely to [me]_0-i that evening , as it would have done if [we]_1650-we had discussed it a few hours before . [I]_0-i therefore observed [I]_0-i was not quite sure of that . But [Biddy]_188-biddy said [she]_188-biddy was , and [she]_188-biddy said it decisively . In [my]_0-i heart [I]_0-i believed [her]_188-biddy to be right ; and yet [I]_0-i took it rather ill , too , that [she]_188-biddy should be so positive on the point . When [we]_1650-we came near [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , [we]_1650-we had to cross [an embankment]_{1652-an embankment} , and get over a stile near a sluice - gate . There started up , from the gate , or from the rushes , or from the ooze which was quite in [his]_1653-he stagnant way , [Old Orlick]_225-orlick . " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_[1653-he] [he]_1653-he growled , " where are [you]_1650-we two going ? "_[1653-he] " Where should [we]_1650-we be going , but [home]_4495-home ? "_[1653-he] " Well , then , "_[1653-he] said [he]_1653-he , " [I]_1653-he 'm jiggered if [I]_1653-he do n't see [you]_167-halloa [home]_4495-home ! "_[1653-he] This penalty of being jiggered was a favorite supposititious case of [his]_1653-he . [He]_1653-he attached no definite meaning to the word that [I]_0-i am aware of , but used it , like [his]_1653-he own pretended Christian name , to affront [mankind]_1654-mankind , and convey an idea of something savagely damaging . When [I]_0-i was younger , [I]_0-i had had a general belief that if [he]_1653-he had jiggered [me]_0-i personally , [he]_1653-he would have done it with a sharp and twisted hook . [Biddy]_188-biddy was much against [his]_1653-he going with [us]_1655-us , and said to [me]_0-i in a whisper , " Do n't let [him]_1653-he come ; [I]_188-biddy do n't like [him]_1653-he . "_[188-biddy] As [I]_0-i did not like [him]_1653-he either , [I]_0-i took the liberty of saying that [we]_1655-us thanked [him]_1653-he , but [we]_1655-us did n't want seeing [home]_4495-home . [He]_1653-he received that piece of information with a yell of laughter , and dropped back , but came slouching after [us]_1655-us at a little distance . Curious to know whether [Biddy]_188-biddy suspected [him]_1653-he of having had a hand in that murderous attack of which [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} had never been able to give any account , [I]_0-i asked [her]_{402-my sister} why [she]_{402-my sister} did not like [him]_1653-he . " Oh ! "_{[402-my sister]} [she]_{402-my sister} replied , glancing over [her]_{402-my sister} shoulder as [he]_1653-he slouched after [us]_1655-us , " because [I]_{402-my sister} - [I]_{402-my sister} am afraid [he]_1653-he likes [me]_{402-my sister} . "_{[402-my sister]} " Did [he]_1653-he ever tell [you]_{402-my sister} [he]_1653-he liked [you]_{402-my sister} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked indignantly . " No , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , glancing over [her]_188-biddy shoulder again , " [he]_1653-he never told [me]_188-biddy so ; but [he]_1653-he dances at [me]_188-biddy , whenever [he]_1653-he can catch [my]_188-biddy eye . "_[188-biddy] However novel and peculiar this testimony of attachment , [I]_0-i did not doubt the accuracy of the interpretation . [I]_0-i was very hot indeed upon [Old Orlick]_225-orlick 's daring to admire [her]_188-biddy ; as hot as if it were an outrage on [myself]_0-i . " But it makes no difference to [you]_0-i , [you]_0-i know , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , calmly . " No , [Biddy]_188-biddy , it makes no difference to [me]_188-biddy ; only [I]_188-biddy do n't like it ; [I]_188-biddy do n't approve of it . "_[188-biddy] " Nor [I]_188-biddy neither , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " Though that makes no difference to [you]_188-biddy . "_[188-biddy] " Exactly , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i ; " but [I]_0-i must tell [you]_188-biddy [I]_0-i should have no opinion of [you]_188-biddy , [Biddy]_188-biddy , if [he]_225-orlick danced at [you]_188-biddy with [your]_188-biddy own consent . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i kept an eye on [Orlick]_225-orlick after that night , and , whenever circumstances were favorable to [his]_225-orlick dancing at [Biddy]_188-biddy , got before [him]_225-orlick to obscure that demonstration . [He]_225-orlick had struck root in [[Joe]_154-joe 's establishment]_{1658-joe 's establishment} , by reason of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's sudden fancy for [him]_225-orlick , or [I]_0-i should have tried to get [him]_225-orlick dismissed . [He]_225-orlick quite understood and reciprocated [my]_0-i good intentions , as [I]_0-i had reason to know thereafter . And now , because [my]_0-i mind was not confused enough before , [I]_0-i complicated its confusion fifty thousand - fold , by having states and seasons when [I]_0-i was clear that [Biddy]_188-biddy was immeasurably better than [Estella]_195-estella , and that the plain honest working life to which [I]_0-i was born had nothing in it to be ashamed of , but offered [me]_0-i sufficient means of self - respect and happiness . At those times , [I]_0-i would decide conclusively that [my]_0-i disaffection to [dear old Joe]_154-joe and [the forge]_{488-the forge} was gone , and that [I]_0-i was growing up in a fair way to be [partners]_{1661-partners} with [Joe]_154-joe and to keep company with [Biddy]_188-biddy , - when all in a moment some confounding remembrance of the Havisham days would fall upon [me]_0-i like a destructive missile , and scatter [my]_0-i wits again . Scattered wits take a long time picking up ; and often before [I]_0-i had got them well together , they would be dispersed in all directions by one stray thought , that perhaps after all [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was going to make [my]_0-i fortune when [my]_0-i time was out . If [my]_0-i time had run out , it would have left [me]_0-i still at the height of [my]_0-i perplexities , [I]_0-i dare say . It never did run out , however , but was brought to a premature end , as [I]_0-i proceed to relate . Chapter XVIII It was in the fourth year of [my]_0-i apprenticeship to [Joe]_154-joe , and it was a Saturday night . There was [a group]_{1662-a group} assembled round the fire at [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} , attentive to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} as [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} read the newspaper aloud . Of that group [I]_0-i was [one]_5055-one . A highly popular murder had been committed , and [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} was imbrued in blood to the eyebrows . [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} gloated over every abhorrent adjective in the description , and identified [himself]_{169-mr. wopsle} with [every witness at the Inquest]_{1665-every witness at the inquest} . [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} faintly moaned , " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} am done for , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} as [the victim]_{1666-the victim} , and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} barbarously bellowed , " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} 'll serve [you]_{1667-the murderer} out , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} as [the murderer]_{1667-the murderer} . [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} gave the medical testimony , in pointed imitation of [[our]_1668-we local practitioner]_{1669-our local practitioner} ; and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} piped and shook , as [the aged turnpike - keeper who had heard blows , to an extent so very paralytic as to suggest a doubt regarding the mental competency of that witness]_{1670-the aged turnpike - keeper who had heard blows , to an extent so very paralytic as to suggest a doubt regarding the mental competency of that witness} . [The coroner]_{1671-the coroner} , in [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's hands , became [Timon of [Athens]_22-athens]_{1672-timon of athens} ; [the beadle]_{1673-the beadle} , [Coriolanus]_{236-coriolanus} . [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} enjoyed [himself]_{169-mr. wopsle} thoroughly , and [we]_1668-we all enjoyed [ourselves]_1668-we , and were delightfully comfortable . In this cosey state of mind [we]_1668-we came to the verdict Wilful Murder . Then , and not sooner , [I]_0-i became aware of [a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite [me]_0-i]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} , looking on . There was an expression of contempt on [his]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} face , and [he]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} bit the side of a great forefinger as [he]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} watched [the group of faces]_{1675-the group of faces} . " Well ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , when the reading was done , " [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} have settled it all to [your]_{169-mr. wopsle} own satisfaction , [I]_{678-everybody} have no doubt ? "_{[678-everybody]} [Everybody]_{678-everybody} started and looked up , as if it were [the murderer]_{1667-the murderer} . [He]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} looked at [everybody]_{678-everybody} coldly and sarcastically . " Guilty , of course ? "_{[1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me]} said [he]_{1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me} . " Out with it . Come ! "_{[1674-a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me]} " [Sir]_4451-sir , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} returned [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , " without having the honor of [your]_4451-sir acquaintance , [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} do say Guilty . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Upon this [we]_1680-we all took courage to unite in a confirmatory murmur . " [I]_{1159-the stranger} know [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} do , "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} ; " [I]_{1159-the stranger} knew [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} would . [I]_{1159-the stranger} told [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} so . But now [I]_{1159-the stranger} 'll ask [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} a question . Do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know , or do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} not know , that the law of [England]_7-england supposes [every man]_{5284-every man} to be innocent , until [he]_{5284-every man} is proved - proved - to be guilty ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [Sir]_4451-sir , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} began to reply , " as [an Englishman]_{5286-an englishman} [myself]_{169-mr. wopsle} , [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} - "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " Come ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , biting [his]_{1159-the stranger} forefinger at [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Do n't evade the question . Either [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know it , or [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} do n't know it . Which is it to be ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} [He]_{1159-the stranger} stood with [his]_{1159-the stranger} head on one side and [himself]_{1159-the stranger} on one side , in a Bullying , interrogative manner , and [he]_{1159-the stranger} threw [his]_{1159-the stranger} forefinger at [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , - as it were to mark [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} out - before biting it again . " Now ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [he]_{1159-the stranger} . " Do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know it , or do n't [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know it ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " Certainly [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} know it , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} replied [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Certainly [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know it . Then why did n't [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} say so at first ? Now , [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} 'll ask [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} another question , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} - taking possession of [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , as if [he]_{1159-the stranger} had a right to [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} , - " do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know that [none of these witnesses]_{5287-none of these witnesses} have yet been cross - examined ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} was beginning , " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} can only say - "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} when [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} stopped [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " What ? [You]_{169-mr. wopsle} wo n't answer the question , yes or no ? Now , [I]_{1159-the stranger} 'll try [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} again . "_{[1159-the stranger]} Throwing [his]_{1159-the stranger} finger at [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} again . " Attend to [me]_{1159-the stranger} . Are [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} aware , or are [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} not aware , that [none of these witnesses]_{5287-none of these witnesses} have yet been cross - examined ? Come , [I]_{1159-the stranger} only want one word from [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} . Yes , or no ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} hesitated , and [we]_1684-we all began to conceive rather a poor opinion of [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Come ! "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , " [I]_{1159-the stranger} 'll help [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} . [You]_{169-mr. wopsle} do n't deserve help , but [I]_{1159-the stranger} 'll help [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} . Look at that paper [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} hold in [your]_{169-mr. wopsle} hand . What is it ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " What is it ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} repeated [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , eyeing it , much at a loss . " Is it , "_{[1159-the stranger]} pursued [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} in [his]_{1159-the stranger} most sarcastic and suspicious manner , " the printed paper [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} have just been reading from ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " Undoubtedly . "_{[1159-the stranger]} " Undoubtedly . Now , turn to that paper , and tell [me]_{1159-the stranger} whether it distinctly states that [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} expressly said that [[his]_{5289-the prisoner} legal advisers]_{5290-his legal advisers} instructed [him]_{5289-the prisoner} altogether to reserve [his]_{5289-the prisoner} defence ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} read that just now , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} pleaded . " Never mind what [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} read just now , [sir]_4451-sir ; [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} do n't ask [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} what [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} read just now . [You]_{169-mr. wopsle} may read [the Lord]_{5292-the lord} 's Prayer backwards , if [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} like , - and , perhaps , have done it before to - day . Turn to the paper . No , no , no [[my]_{169-mr. wopsle} friend]_{594-my friend} ; not to the top of the column ; [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} know better than that ; to the bottom , to the bottom . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [We]_1687-we all began to think [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} full of subterfuge . " Well ? Have [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} found it ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " Here it is , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Now , follow that passage with [your]_{169-mr. wopsle} eye , and tell [me]_{169-mr. wopsle} whether it distinctly states that [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} expressly said that [he]_{5289-the prisoner} was instructed by [[his]_{5289-the prisoner} legal advisers]_{5290-his legal advisers} wholly to reserve [his]_{5289-the prisoner} defence ? Come ! Do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} make that of it ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} answered , " Those are not the exact words . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " Not the exact words ! "_{[1244-the gentleman]} repeated [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} bitterly . " Is that the exact substance ? "_{[1244-the gentleman]} " Yes , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " Yes , "_{[1159-the stranger]} repeated [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , looking round at the rest of [the company]_{648-the company} with [his]_{1159-the stranger} right hand extended towards [the witness]_{1691-the witness} , [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " And now [I]_{1159-the stranger} ask [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} what [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} say to the conscience of [that man who , with that passage before [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} eyes , can lay [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} head upon [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} pillow]_{5296-that man who , with that passage before his eyes , can lay his head upon his pillow} after having pronounced [a fellow - creature]_{5297-a fellow - creature} guilty , unheard ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} [We]_1692-we all began to suspect that [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} was not [the man [we]_1692-we had thought [him]_{169-mr. wopsle}]_{1693-the man we had thought him} , and that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was beginning to be found out . " And [that same man]_{5298-that same man} , remember , "_{[1244-the gentleman]} pursued [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} , throwing [his]_{1244-the gentleman} finger at [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} heavily , - " [that same man]_{5298-that same man} might be summoned as [a juryman]_{5300-a juryman} upon this very trial , and , having thus deeply committed [himself]_{5298-that same man} , might return to the bosom of [[his]_{5298-that same man} family]_{5301-his family} and lay [his]_{5298-that same man} head upon [his]_{5298-that same man} pillow , after deliberately swearing that [he]_{5298-that same man} would well and truly try the issue joined between [[Our]_1695-we Sovereign Lord [the King]_{707-the king} and [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} at the bar]_{5302-our sovereign lord the king and the prisoner at the bar} , and would a true verdict give according to the evidence , so help [him]_{5298-that same man} [God]_192-god ! "_{[1244-the gentleman]} [We]_1695-we were all deeply persuaded that [the unfortunate Wopsle]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} had gone too far , and had better stop in [his]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} reckless career while there was yet time . [The strange gentleman , with an air of authority not to be disputed]_{1697-the strange gentleman , with an air of authority not to be disputed} , and with a manner expressive of knowing something secret about every one of [us]_1695-we that would effectually do for [each individual]_{1698-each individual} if [he]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} chose to disclose it , left the back of the settle , and came into [the space between [the two settles]_{1700-the two settles}]_{1699-the space between the two settles} , in front of the fire , where [he]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} remained standing , [his]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} left hand in [his]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} pocket , and [he]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} biting the forefinger of [his]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} right . " From information [I]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} have received , "_{[1696-the unfortunate wopsle]} said [he]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} , looking round at [us]_1695-we as [we]_1695-we all quailed before [him]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} , " [I]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} have reason to believe there is [a blacksmith among [you]_1695-we]_{5305-a blacksmith among you} , by name [Joseph]_154-joe - or [Joe - Gargery]_154-joe . Which is [the man]_{433-the man} ? "_{[1696-the unfortunate wopsle]} " Here is [the man]_{433-the man} , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . [The strange gentleman]_{1701-the strange gentleman} beckoned [him]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} out of [[his]_{1696-the unfortunate wopsle} place]_{5053-his place} , and [Joe]_154-joe went . " [You]_0-i have [an apprentice]_{5308-an apprentice} , "_{[1159-the stranger]} pursued [the stranger]_{1159-the stranger} , " commonly known as [Pip]_241-pip ? Is [he]_{5308-an apprentice} here ? "_{[1159-the stranger]} " [I]_0-i am here ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried . [The stranger]_{1159-the stranger} did not recognize [me]_0-i , but [I]_0-i recognized [him]_{1159-the stranger} as [the gentleman [I]_0-i had met on the stairs , on the occasion of [my]_0-i second visit to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham}]_{1705-the gentleman i had met on the stairs , on the occasion of my second visit to miss havisham} . [I]_0-i had known [him]_{1159-the stranger} the moment [I]_0-i saw [him]_{1159-the stranger} looking over the settle , and now that [I]_0-i stood confronting [him]_{1159-the stranger} with [his]_{1159-the stranger} hand upon [my]_0-i shoulder , [I]_0-i checked off again in detail [his]_{1159-the stranger} large head , [his]_{1159-the stranger} dark complexion , [his]_{1159-the stranger} deep - set eyes , [his]_{1159-the stranger} bushy black eyebrows , [his]_{1159-the stranger} large watch - chain , [his]_{1159-the stranger} strong black dots of beard and whisker , and even the smell of scented soap on [his]_{1159-the stranger} great hand . " [I]_{1159-the stranger} wish to have a private conference with [[you]_0-i two]_{4652-you two} , "_{[1159-the stranger]} said [he]_{1159-the stranger} , when [he]_{1159-the stranger} had surveyed [me]_0-i at [his]_{1159-the stranger} leisure . " It will take a little time . Perhaps [we]_{4652-you two} had better go to [[your]_0-i place of residence]_{5310-your place of residence} . [I]_{1159-the stranger} prefer not to anticipate [my]_{1159-the stranger} communication [here]_693-here ; [you]_0-i will impart as much or as little of it as [you]_0-i please to [[your]_0-i friends]_{5312-your friends} afterwards ; [I]_{1159-the stranger} have nothing to do with that . "_{[1159-the stranger]} Amidst a wondering silence , [we]_1706-we three walked out of [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} , and in a wondering silence walked [home]_4495-home . While going along , [the strange gentleman]_{1701-the strange gentleman} occasionally looked at [me]_0-i , and occasionally bit the side of [his]_{1701-the strange gentleman} finger . As [we]_1706-we neared [home]_4495-home , [Joe]_154-joe vaguely acknowledging the occasion as an impressive and ceremonious one , went on ahead to open the front door . [Our]_1706-we conference was held in [the state parlor]_{1206-the state parlor} , which was feebly lighted by one candle . It began with [the strange gentleman]_{1701-the strange gentleman} 's sitting down at the table , drawing the candle to [him]_{1701-the strange gentleman} , and looking over some entries in [his]_{1701-the strange gentleman} pocket - book . [He]_{1701-the strange gentleman} then put up the pocket - book and set the candle a little aside , after peering round it into the darkness at [Joe]_154-joe and [me]_0-i , to ascertain which was which . " [My]_{1701-the strange gentleman} name , "_{[1701-the strange gentleman]} [he]_{1701-the strange gentleman} said , " is [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} am [a lawyer in [London]_8-london]_{5313-a lawyer in london} . [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} am pretty well known . [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} have unusual business to transact with [you]_0-i , and [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} commence by explaining that it is not of [my]_{1701-the strange gentleman} originating . If [my]_{1701-the strange gentleman} advice had been asked , [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} should not have been [here]_693-here . It was not asked , and [you]_0-i see [me]_{1701-the strange gentleman} here . What [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} have to do as [the confidential agent of another]_{5315-the confidential agent of another} , [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} do . No less , no more . "_{[1701-the strange gentleman]} Finding that [he]_{1701-the strange gentleman} could not see [us]_1713-us very well from where [he]_{1701-the strange gentleman} sat , [he]_{1701-the strange gentleman} got up , and threw one leg over the back of a chair and leaned upon it ; thus having one foot on the seat of the chair , and one foot on the ground . " Now , [Joseph Gargery]_154-joe , [I]_{1701-the strange gentleman} am the bearer of an offer to relieve [you]_0-i of [this young fellow [[your]_0-i apprentice]_{5085-your apprentice}]_{5316-this young fellow your apprentice} . [You]_0-i would not object to cancel [his]_{1701-the strange gentleman} indentures at [his]_{1701-the strange gentleman} request and for [his]_{1701-the strange gentleman} good ? [You]_0-i would want nothing for so doing ? "_{[1701-the strange gentleman]} " [Lord]_5318-lord forbid that [I]_154-joe should want anything for not standing in [Pip]_241-pip 's way , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , staring . " Lord forbidding is pious , but not to the purpose , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} returned [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " The question is , Would [you]_154-joe want anything ? Do [you]_154-joe want anything ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " The answer is , "_[154-joe] returned [Joe]_154-joe , sternly , " No . "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i thought [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} glanced at [Joe]_154-joe , as if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} considered [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} a fool for [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} disinterestedness . But [I]_0-i was too much bewildered between breathless curiosity and surprise , to be sure of it . " Very well , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Recollect the admission [you]_154-joe have made , and do n't try to go from it presently . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Who 's a going to try ? "_[154-joe] retorted [Joe]_154-joe . " [I]_154-joe do n't say [anybody]_4526-anybody is . Do [you]_154-joe keep a dog ? "_[154-joe] " Yes , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do keep a dog . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [Bear]_238-bear in mind then , that [Brag]_239-brag is a good dog , but [Holdfast]_240-holdfast is a better . [Bear]_238-bear that in mind , will [you]_154-joe ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} repeated [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , shutting [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes and nodding [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head at [Joe]_154-joe , as if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} were forgiving [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} something . " Now , [I]_154-joe return to [this young fellow]_{5320-this young fellow} . And the communication [I]_154-joe have got to make is , that [he]_{5320-this young fellow} has Great Expectations . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i gasped , and looked at [one another]_{4584-one another} . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am instructed to communicate to [him]_{5320-this young fellow} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , throwing [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} finger at [me]_0-i sideways , " that [he]_{5320-this young fellow} will come into [a handsome property]_{5321-a handsome property} . Further , that it is the desire of [the present possessor of that property]_{5322-the present possessor of that property} , that [he]_{5320-this young fellow} be immediately removed from [his]_{5320-this young fellow} present sphere of life and from [this place]_{1065-this place} , and be brought up as [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , - in a word , as [a young fellow of great expectations]_{5325-a young fellow of great expectations} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [My]_0-i dream was out ; [my]_0-i wild fancy was surpassed by sober reality ; [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was going to make [my]_0-i fortune on a grand scale . " Now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1715-the lawyer]} pursued [the lawyer]_{1715-the lawyer} , " [I]_{1715-the lawyer} address the rest of what [I]_{1715-the lawyer} have to say , to [you]_241-pip . [You]_241-pip are to understand , first , that it is the request of [the person from whom [I]_{1715-the lawyer} take [my]_{1715-the lawyer} instructions that [you]_241-pip always bear the name of [Pip]_241-pip]_{5326-the person from whom i take my instructions that you always bear the name of pip} . [You]_241-pip will have no objection , [I]_{1715-the lawyer} dare say , to [your]_241-pip great expectations being encumbered with that easy condition . But if [you]_241-pip have any objection , this is the time to mention it . "_{[1715-the lawyer]} [My]_0-i heart was beating so fast , and there was such a singing in [my]_0-i ears , that [I]_0-i could scarcely stammer [I]_0-i had no objection . " [I]_0-i should think not ! Now [you]_241-pip are to understand , secondly , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , that the name of [the person who is [[your]_241-pip liberal benefactor]_{5328-your liberal benefactor}]_{5327-the person who is your liberal benefactor} remains a profound secret , until [the person]_{5329-the person} chooses to reveal it . [I]_0-i am empowered to mention that it is the intention of [the person]_{5329-the person} to reveal it at first hand by word of mouth to [yourself]_241-pip . When or where that intention may be carried out , [I]_0-i can not say ; [no one]_{4550-no one} can say . It may be years hence . Now , [you]_241-pip are distinctly to understand that [you]_241-pip are most positively prohibited from making any inquiry on this head , or any allusion or reference , however distant , to [any individual whomsoever as [the individual]_{5333-the individual} , in all the communications [you]_241-pip may have with [me]_0-i]_{5332-any individual whomsoever as the individual , in all the communications you may have with me} . If [you]_241-pip have a suspicion in [your]_241-pip own breast , keep that suspicion in [your]_241-pip own breast . It is not the least to the purpose what the reasons of this prohibition are ; they may be the strongest and gravest reasons , or they may be mere whim . This is not for [you]_241-pip to inquire into . The condition is laid down . [Your]_241-pip acceptance of it , and [your]_241-pip observance of it as binding , is the only remaining condition that [I]_0-i am charged with , by [the person from whom [I]_0-i take [my]_0-i instructions , and for whom [I]_0-i am not otherwise responsible]_{5334-the person from whom i take my instructions , and for whom i am not otherwise responsible} . [That person]_{5043-that person} is [the person from whom [you]_241-pip derive [your]_241-pip expectations]_{5336-the person from whom you derive your expectations} , and the secret is solely held by [that person]_{5043-that person} and by [me]_0-i . Again , not a very difficult condition with which to encumber such a rise in fortune ; but if [you]_241-pip have any objection to it , this is the time to mention it . Speak out . "_[0-i] Once more , [I]_0-i stammered with difficulty that [I]_0-i had no objection . " [I]_0-i should think not ! Now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i have done with stipulations . "_[0-i] Though [he]_1716-he called [me]_0-i [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , and began rather to make up to [me]_0-i , [he]_1716-he still could not get rid of a certain air of bullying suspicion ; and even now [he]_1716-he occasionally shut [his]_1716-he eyes and threw [his]_1716-he finger at [me]_0-i while [he]_1716-he spoke , as much as to express that [he]_1716-he knew all kinds of things to [my]_0-i disparagement , if [he]_1716-he only chose to mention them . " [We]_5338-we come next , to mere details of arrangement . [You]_0-i must know that , although [I]_1716-he have used the term ' expectations ' more than once , [you]_0-i are not endowed with expectations only . There is already lodged in [my]_1716-he hands a sum of money amply sufficient for [your]_0-i suitable education and maintenance . [You]_0-i will please consider [me]_1716-he [[your]_0-i guardian]_{5339-your guardian} . Oh ! "_[1716-he] for [I]_0-i was going to thank [him]_1716-he , " [I]_0-i tell [you]_1716-he at once , [I]_0-i am paid for [my]_0-i services , or [I]_0-i should n't render them . It is considered that [you]_1716-he must be better educated , in accordance with [your]_1716-he altered position , and that [you]_1716-he will be alive to the importance and necessity of at once entering on that advantage . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i had always longed for it . " Never mind what [you]_0-i have always longed for , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_[1716-he] [he]_1716-he retorted ; " keep to the record . If [you]_0-i long for it now , that 's enough . Am [I]_1716-he answered that [you]_0-i are ready to be placed at once under [some proper tutor]_{5340-some proper tutor} ? Is that it ? "_[1716-he] [I]_0-i stammered yes , that was it . " Good . Now , [your]_0-i inclinations are to be consulted . [I]_0-i do n't think that wise , mind , but it 's [my]_0-i trust . Have [you]_0-i ever heard of [any tutor whom [you]_0-i would prefer to another ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had never heard of [any tutor]_{1717-any tutor} but [Biddy]_188-biddy and [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt}]_{5341-any tutor whom you would prefer to another ? " i had never heard of any tutor but biddy and mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} ; so , [I]_0-i replied in the negative . " There is [a certain tutor , of whom [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have some knowledge , who [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} think might suit the purpose , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers}]_{5342-a certain tutor , of whom i have some knowledge , who i think might suit the purpose , " said mr. jaggers} . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do n't recommend [him]_{5342-a certain tutor , of whom i have some knowledge , who i think might suit the purpose , " said mr. jaggers} , observe ; because [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} never recommend [anybody]_4526-anybody . [The gentleman [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} speak of]_{5344-the gentleman i speak of} is one [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Ah ! [I]_0-i caught at the name directly . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's relation . [The Matthew whom Mr.]_{1719-the matthew whom mr.} and [Mrs. Camilla]_{214-mrs. camilla} had spoken of . The Matthew whose place was to be at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's head , when [she]_{223-miss havisham} lay dead , in [[her]_{223-miss havisham} bride]_{1720-her bride} 's dress on [the bride]_{5065-the bride} 's table . " [You]_0-i know the name ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , looking shrewdly at [me]_0-i , and then shutting up [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes while [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} waited for [my]_0-i answer . [My]_0-i answer was , that [I]_0-i had heard of the name . " Oh ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " [You]_0-i have heard of the name . But the question is , what do [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} say of it ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i said , or tried to say , that [I]_0-i was much obliged to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} for [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} recommendation - " No , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} young friend]_{5345-my young friend} ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} interrupted , shaking [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} great head very slowly . " Recollect [yourself]_0-i ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Not recollecting [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i began again that [I]_0-i was much obliged to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} for [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} recommendation - " No , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} young friend]_{5345-my young friend} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} interrupted , shaking [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head and frowning and smiling both at once , - " no , no , no ; it 's very well done , but it wo n't do ; [you]_0-i are too young to fix [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} with it . Recommendation is not the word , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . Try another . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Correcting [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i said that [I]_0-i was much obliged to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} for [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} mention of [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} - " That 's more like it ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} cried [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . - And [I]_0-i added , [I]_0-i would gladly try [that gentleman]_{752-that gentleman} . " Good . [You]_0-i had better try [him]_{752-that gentleman} in [[his]_{752-that gentleman} own house]_{5347-his own house} . The way shall be prepared for [you]_0-i , and [you]_0-i can see [[his]_{752-that gentleman} son]_{5348-his son} first , who is in [London]_8-london . When will [you]_0-i come to [London]_8-london ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said glancing at [Joe]_154-joe , who stood looking on , motionless , that [I]_0-i supposed [I]_0-i could come directly . " First , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " [you]_0-i should have some new clothes to come in , and they should not be working - clothes . Say this day week . [You]_0-i 'll want some money . Shall [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} leave [you]_0-i twenty guineas ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} produced a long purse , with the greatest coolness , and counted them out on the table and pushed them over to [me]_0-i . This was the first time [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had taken [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} leg from the chair . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} sat astride of the chair when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had pushed the money over , and sat swinging [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} purse and eyeing [Joe]_154-joe . " Well , [Joseph Gargery]_154-joe ? [You]_154-joe look dumbfoundered ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_154-joe am ! "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , in a very decided manner . " It was understood that [you]_154-joe wanted nothing for [yourself]_154-joe , remember ? "_[154-joe] " It were understood , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " And it are understood . And it ever will be similar according . "_[154-joe] " But what , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , swinging [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} purse , - " what if it was in [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} instructions to make [you]_154-joe a present , as compensation ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " As compensation what for ? "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe demanded . " For the loss of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} services . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe laid [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand upon [my]_0-i shoulder with the touch of [a woman]_{943-a woman} . [I]_0-i have often thought [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} since , like the steam - hammer that can crush [a man]_{428-a man} or pat an egg - shell , in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} combination of strength with gentleness . " [Pip]_241-pip is that hearty welcome , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " to go free with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} services , to honor and fortun ' , as no words can tell [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . But if [you]_0-i think as [Money]_242-money can make compensation to [me]_154-joe for the loss of [the little child]_{5349-the little child} - what come to the forge - and ever the best of [friends]_4514-friends ! - "_[154-joe] [O dear good [Joe]_154-joe , whom [I]_0-i was so ready to leave and so unthankful to]_154-joe , [I]_0-i see [you]_154-joe again , with [[your]_154-joe muscular blacksmith]_{1725-your muscular blacksmith} 's arm before [your]_154-joe eyes , and [your]_154-joe broad chest heaving , and [your]_154-joe voice dying away . [O dear good faithful tender [Joe]_154-joe]_{1726-o dear good faithful tender joe} , [I]_0-i feel the loving tremble of [your]_154-joe hand upon [my]_0-i arm , as solemnly this day as if it had been the rustle of [an angel]_{1727-an angel} 's wing ! But [I]_0-i encouraged [Joe]_154-joe at the time . [I]_0-i was lost in the mazes of [my]_0-i future fortunes , and could not retrace the by - paths [we]_1728-we had trodden together . [I]_0-i begged [Joe]_154-joe to be comforted , for as [he]_1729-he said [we]_1728-we had ever been the best of [friends]_4514-friends , and as [I]_0-i said [we]_1728-we ever would be so . [Joe]_154-joe scooped [his]_1729-he eyes with [his]_1729-he disengaged wrist , as if [he]_1729-he were bent on gouging [himself]_1729-he , but said not another word . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had looked on at this , as one who recognized in [Joe]_154-joe [the village idiot]_{1731-the village idiot} , and in [me]_0-i [[his]_1729-he keeper]_{1732-his keeper} . When it was over , [he]_1729-he said , weighing in [his]_1729-he hand the purse [he]_1729-he had ceased to swing : - " Now , [Joseph Gargery]_154-joe , [I]_1729-he warn [you]_154-joe this is [your]_154-joe last chance . No half measures with [me]_1729-he . If [you]_154-joe mean to take a present that [I]_1729-he have it in charge to make [you]_154-joe , speak out , and [you]_154-joe shall have it . If on the contrary [you]_154-joe mean to say - "_[1729-he] Here , to [his]_1729-he great amazement , [he]_1729-he was stopped by [Joe]_154-joe 's suddenly working round [him]_1729-he with every demonstration of a fell pugilistic purpose . " Which [I]_154-joe meantersay , "_[154-joe] cried [Joe]_154-joe , " that if [you]_154-joe come into [[my]_154-joe place]_{5351-my place} bull - baiting and badgering [me]_154-joe , come out ! Which [I]_154-joe meantersay as sech if [you]_154-joe 're [a man]_{428-a man} , come on ! Which [I]_154-joe meantersay that what [I]_154-joe say , [I]_154-joe meantersay and stand or fall by ! "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i drew [Joe]_154-joe away , and [he]_1729-he immediately became placable ; merely stating to [me]_0-i , in an obliging manner and as a polite expostulatory notice to [any one whom it might happen to concern]_{1733-any one whom it might happen to concern} , that [he]_1729-he were not a going to be bull - baited and badgered in [[his]_1729-he own place]_{1734-his own place} . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had risen when [Joe]_154-joe demonstrated , and had backed near the door . Without evincing any inclination to come in again , [he]_1729-he there delivered [his]_1729-he valedictory remarks . They were these . " Well , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [I]_1729-he think the sooner [you]_154-joe leave [here]_693-here - as [you]_154-joe are to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} - the better . Let it stand for this day week , and [you]_154-joe shall receive [my]_1729-he printed address in the meantime . [You]_154-joe can take [a hackney - coach at [the stage - coach office in [London]_8-london]_{5356-the stage - coach office in london}]_{5355-a hackney - coach at the stage - coach office in london} , and come straight to [me]_1729-he . Understand , that [I]_1729-he express no opinion , one way or other , on the trust [I]_1729-he undertake . [I]_1729-he am paid for undertaking it , and [I]_1729-he do so . Now , understand that , finally . Understand that ! "_[1729-he] [He]_1729-he was throwing [his]_1729-he finger at [both of [us]_{4892-both of us}]_{4892-both of us} , and [I]_0-i think would have gone on , but for [his]_1729-he seeming to think [Joe]_154-joe dangerous , and going off . Something came into [my]_0-i head which induced [me]_0-i to run after [him]_1729-he , as [he]_1729-he was going down to [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} , where [he]_1729-he had left [a hired carriage]_{1737-a hired carriage} . " [I]_1729-he beg [your]_1729-he pardon , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[1729-he] " [Halloa]_167-halloa ! "_[1729-he] said [he]_1729-he , facing round , " what 's the matter ? "_[1729-he] " [I]_1729-he wish to be quite right , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and to keep to [your]_1729-he directions ; so [I]_1729-he thought [I]_1729-he had better ask . Would there be any objection to [my]_1729-he taking leave of any one [I]_1729-he know , about here , before [I]_1729-he go away ? "_[1729-he] " No , "_[1729-he] said [he]_1729-he , looking as if [he]_1729-he hardly understood [me]_0-i . " [I]_1729-he do n't mean in [the village]_{758-the village} only , but up [town]_4800-town ? "_[1729-he] " No , "_[1729-he] said [he]_1729-he . " No objection . "_[1729-he] [I]_0-i thanked [him]_1729-he and ran [home]_4495-home again , and there [I]_0-i found that [Joe]_154-joe had already locked the front door and vacated [the state parlor]_{1206-the state parlor} , and was seated by the kitchen fire with a hand on each knee , gazing intently at the burning coals . [I]_0-i too sat down before the fire and gazed at the coals , and nothing was said for a long time . [[My]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was in [her]_{402-my sister} cushioned chair in [her]_{402-my sister} corner , and [Biddy]_188-biddy sat at [her]_188-biddy needle - work before the fire , and [Joe]_154-joe sat next [Biddy]_188-biddy , and [I]_0-i sat next [Joe]_154-joe in the corner opposite [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . The more [I]_0-i looked into the glowing coals , the more incapable [I]_0-i became of looking at [Joe]_154-joe ; the longer the silence lasted , the more unable [I]_0-i felt to speak . At length [I]_0-i got out , " [Joe]_154-joe , have [you]_154-joe told [Biddy]_188-biddy ? "_[0-i] " No , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] returned [Joe]_154-joe , still looking at the fire , and holding [his]_1742-his knees tight , as if [he]_1742-his had private information that [they]_1743-they intended to make off somewhere , " which [I]_1742-his left it to [yourself]_241-pip , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[1742-his] " [I]_1742-his would rather [you]_154-joe told , [Joe]_154-joe . "_[1742-his] " [Pip]_241-pip 's [a gentleman of fortun ']_{5359-a gentleman of fortun '} then , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " and God bless [him]_241-pip in it ! "_[154-joe] [Biddy]_188-biddy dropped [her]_188-biddy work , and looked at [me]_0-i . [Joe]_154-joe held [his]_1742-his knees and looked at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i looked at [both of [them]_{1744-both of them}]_{1744-both of them} . After a pause , [they]_{1744-both of them} both heartily congratulated [me]_0-i ; but there was a certain touch of sadness in [their]_{1744-both of them} congratulations that [I]_0-i rather resented . [I]_0-i took it upon [myself]_0-i to impress [Biddy]_188-biddy and through [Biddy]_188-biddy , [Joe]_154-joe with the grave obligation [I]_0-i considered [[my]_0-i friends]_{5139-my friends} under , to know nothing and say nothing about the maker of [my]_0-i fortune . It would all come out in good time , [I]_0-i observed , and in the meanwhile nothing was to be said , save that [I]_0-i had come into great expectations from [a mysterious patron]_{1746-a mysterious patron} . [Biddy]_188-biddy nodded [her]_188-biddy head thoughtfully at the fire as [she]_188-biddy took up [her]_188-biddy work again , and said [she]_188-biddy would be very particular ; and [Joe]_154-joe , still detaining [his]_1747-his knees , said , " Ay , ay , [I]_154-joe 'll be [ekervally partickler]_{5360-ekervally partickler} , [Pip]_241-pip ; "_[154-joe] and then [they]_1748-they congratulated [me]_0-i again , and went on to express so much wonder at the notion of [my]_0-i being [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} that [I]_0-i did n't half like it . Infinite pains were then taken by [Biddy]_188-biddy to convey to [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} some idea of what had happened . To the best of [my]_0-i belief , those efforts entirely failed . [She]_188-biddy laughed and nodded [her]_188-biddy head a great many times , and even repeated after [Biddy]_188-biddy , the words " [Pip]_241-pip "_[188-biddy] and " Property . "_[188-biddy] But [I]_0-i doubt if they had more meaning in them than an election cry , and [I]_0-i can not suggest a darker picture of [her]_188-biddy state of mind . [I]_0-i never could have believed it without experience , but as [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy became more at [their]_1748-they cheerful ease again , [I]_0-i became quite gloomy . Dissatisfied with [my]_0-i fortune , of course [I]_0-i could not be ; but it is possible that [I]_0-i may have been , without quite knowing it , dissatisfied with [myself]_0-i . Any how , [I]_0-i sat with [my]_0-i elbow on [my]_0-i knee and [my]_0-i face upon [my]_0-i hand , looking into the fire , as [those two]_{1547-those two} talked about [my]_0-i going away , and about what [they]_{1547-those two} should do without [me]_0-i , and all that . And whenever [I]_0-i caught one of [them]_{1547-those two} looking at [me]_0-i , though never so pleasantly and [they]_{1547-those two} often looked at [me]_0-i , - particularly [Biddy]_188-biddy , [I]_0-i felt offended : as if [they]_{1547-those two} were expressing some mistrust of [me]_0-i . Though Heaven knows [they]_{1547-those two} never did by word or sign . At those times [I]_0-i would get up and look out at the door ; for [our]_1752-our kitchen door opened at once upon the night , and stood open on summer evenings to air [the room]_{633-the room} . The very stars to which [I]_0-i then raised [my]_0-i eyes , [I]_0-i am afraid [I]_0-i took to be but poor and humble stars for glittering on the rustic objects among which [I]_0-i had passed [my]_0-i life . " Saturday night , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , when [we]_1752-our sat at [our]_1752-our supper of bread and cheese and beer . " Five more days , and then the day before the day ! [They]_{1547-those two} 'll soon go . "_[0-i] " Yes , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] observed [Joe]_154-joe , whose voice sounded hollow in [his]_1754-his beer - mug . " [They]_{1547-those two} 'll soon go . "_[154-joe] " Soon , soon go , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " [I]_188-biddy have been thinking , [Joe]_154-joe , that when [I]_188-biddy go down [town]_4800-town on Monday , and order [my]_188-biddy new clothes , [I]_188-biddy shall tell [the tailor]_{630-the tailor} that [I]_188-biddy 'll come and put them on [there]_4505-there , or that [I]_188-biddy 'll have them sent to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's . It would be very disagreeable to be stared at by [all the people here]_{5364-all the people here} . "_[188-biddy] " [Mr.]_5365-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} might like to see [you]_0-i in [your]_0-i new gen - teel figure too , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , industriously cutting [his]_1755-his bread , with [his]_1755-his cheese on it , in the palm of [his]_1755-his left hand , and glancing at [my]_0-i untasted supper as if [he]_1755-his thought of the time when [we]_1756-we used to compare slices . " So might [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . And [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} might take it as a compliment . "_[1755-his] " That 's just what [I]_1755-his do n't want , [Joe]_154-joe . [They]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} would make such a business of it , - such a coarse and common business , - that [I]_1755-his could n't bear [myself]_1755-his . "_[1755-his] " Ah , that indeed , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " If [you]_0-i could n't abear [yourself]_0-i - "_[154-joe] [Biddy]_188-biddy asked [me]_0-i here , as [she]_188-biddy sat holding [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's plate , " Have [you]_0-i thought about when [you]_0-i 'll show [yourself]_0-i to [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} , and [[your]_0-i sister]_{906-your sister} and [me]_188-biddy ? [You]_0-i will show [yourself]_0-i to [us]_5368-us ; wo n't [you]_0-i ? "_[188-biddy] " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned with some resentment , " [you]_188-biddy are so exceedingly quick that it 's difficult to keep up with [you]_188-biddy . "_[0-i] " [She]_188-biddy always were quick , "_[154-joe] observed [Joe]_154-joe . " If [you]_188-biddy had waited another moment , [Biddy]_188-biddy , [you]_188-biddy would have heard [me]_154-joe say that [I]_154-joe shall bring [my]_154-joe clothes [here]_693-here in a bundle one evening , - most likely on the evening before [I]_154-joe go away . "_[154-joe] [Biddy]_188-biddy said no more . Handsomely forgiving [her]_188-biddy , [I]_0-i soon exchanged an affectionate good night with [her]_188-biddy and [Joe]_154-joe , and went up to bed . When [I]_0-i got into [[my]_0-i little room]_{1115-my little room} , [I]_0-i sat down and took a long look at [it]_{1115-my little room} , as [a mean little room that [I]_0-i should soon be parted from and raised above]_{1759-a mean little room that i should soon be parted from and raised above} , for ever . [It]_{1115-my little room} was furnished with fresh young remembrances too , and even at the same moment [I]_0-i fell into much the same confused division of mind between [it]_{1115-my little room} and [the better rooms to which [I]_0-i was going , as [I]_0-i had been in so often between [the forge]_{488-the forge} and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{1760-the better rooms to which i was going , as i had been in so often between the forge and miss havisham 's} , and [Biddy]_188-biddy and [Estella]_195-estella . The sun had been shining brightly all day on the roof of [[my]_0-i attic]_{1762-my attic} , and [the room]_{633-the room} was warm . As [I]_0-i put the window open and stood looking out , [I]_0-i saw [Joe]_154-joe come slowly forth at the dark door , below , and take a turn or two in the air ; and then [I]_0-i saw [Biddy]_188-biddy come , and bring [him]_1764-him a pipe and light it for [him]_1764-him . [He]_1764-him never smoked so late , and it seemed to hint to [me]_0-i that [he]_1764-him wanted comforting , for some reason or other . [He]_1764-him presently stood at the door immediately beneath [me]_0-i , smoking [his]_1764-him pipe , and [Biddy]_188-biddy stood there too , quietly talking to [him]_1764-him , and [I]_0-i knew that [they]_1765-they talked of [me]_0-i , for [I]_0-i heard [my]_0-i name mentioned in an endearing tone by both of [them]_1765-they more than once . [I]_0-i would not have listened for more , if [I]_0-i could have heard more ; so [I]_0-i drew away from the window , and sat down in [my]_0-i one chair by the bedside , feeling it very sorrowful and strange that this first night of [my]_0-i bright fortunes should be the loneliest [I]_0-i had ever known . Looking towards the open window , [I]_0-i saw light wreaths from [Joe]_154-joe 's pipe floating there , and [I]_0-i fancied it was like a blessing from [Joe]_154-joe , - not obtruded on [me]_0-i or paraded before [me]_0-i , but pervading the air [we]_1766-we shared together . [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i light out , and crept into bed ; and it was an uneasy bed now , and [I]_0-i never slept the old sound sleep in it any more . Chapter XIX Morning made a considerable difference in [my]_0-i general prospect of Life , and brightened it so much that it scarcely seemed the same . What lay heaviest on [my]_0-i mind was , the consideration that six days intervened between [me]_0-i and the day of departure ; for [I]_0-i could not divest [myself]_0-i of a misgiving that something might happen to [London]_8-london in the meanwhile , and that , when [I]_0-i got [there]_4505-there , it would be either greatly deteriorated or clean gone . [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy were very sympathetic and pleasant when [I]_0-i spoke of [our]_1766-we approaching separation ; but [they]_1768-they only referred to it when [I]_0-i did . After breakfast , [Joe]_154-joe brought out [my]_0-i indentures from the press in [the best parlor]_{5158-the best parlor} , and [we]_1766-we put them in the fire , and [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i was free . With all the novelty of [my]_0-i emancipation on [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i went to [church]_622-church with [Joe]_154-joe , and thought perhaps [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} would n't have read that about [the rich man]_{1772-the rich man} and [the kingdom of [Heaven]_23-heaven]_{1773-the kingdom of heaven} , if [he]_{637-the clergyman} had known all . After [our]_1766-we early dinner , [I]_0-i strolled out alone , purposing to finish off the marshes at once , and get [them]_1774-them done with . As [I]_0-i passed [the church]_{439-the church} , [I]_0-i felt as [I]_0-i had felt during service in the morning a sublime compassion for [the poor creatures who were destined to go [there]_4505-there]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} , Sunday after Sunday , all [their]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} lives through , and to lie obscurely at last among [the low green mounds]_{1778-the low green mounds} . [I]_0-i promised [myself]_0-i that [I]_0-i would do something for [them]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} one of these days , and formed a plan in outline for bestowing a dinner of roast - beef and plum - pudding , a pint of ale , and a gallon of condescension , upon [everybody in [the village]_{758-the village}]_{1779-everybody in the village} . If [I]_0-i had often thought before , with something allied to shame , of [my]_0-i companionship with [the fugitive whom [I]_0-i had once seen limping among those graves]_{1781-the fugitive whom i had once seen limping among those graves} , what were [my]_0-i thoughts on this Sunday , when [the place]_{4456-the place} recalled [the wretch]_{1783-the wretch} , ragged and shivering , with [his]_{1783-the wretch} felon iron and badge ! [My]_0-i comfort was , that it happened a long time ago , and that [he]_{1783-the wretch} had doubtless been transported a long way off , and that [he]_{1783-the wretch} was dead to [me]_0-i , and might be veritably dead into the bargain . [No more low , wet grounds]_{1784-no more low , wet grounds} , no more dikes and sluices , no more of these grazing cattle , - though [they]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} seemed , in [their]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} dull manner , to wear a more respectful air now , and to face round , in order that [they]_{1776-the poor creatures who were destined to go there} might stare as long as possible at [the possessor of such great expectations]_{1785-the possessor of such great expectations} , - farewell , [monotonous acquaintances of [my]_0-i childhood]_{1786-monotonous acquaintances of my childhood} , henceforth [I]_0-i was for [London]_8-london and greatness ; not for smith 's work in general , and for [you]_1787-you ! [I]_0-i made [my]_0-i exultant way to [the old Battery]_{789-the old battery} , and , lying down there to consider the question whether [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} intended [me]_0-i for [Estella]_195-estella , fell asleep . When [I]_0-i awoke , [I]_0-i was much surprised to find [Joe]_154-joe sitting beside [me]_0-i , smoking [his]_1789-i pipe . [He]_1789-i greeted [me]_0-i with a cheerful smile on [my]_0-i opening [my]_0-i eyes , and said , - " As being the last time , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_1789-i thought [I]_1789-i 'd foller . "_[1789-i] " And [Joe]_154-joe , [I]_1789-i am very glad [you]_154-joe did so . "_[1789-i] " Thankee , [Pip]_241-pip . "_[1789-i] " [You]_154-joe may be sure , [dear Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went on , after [we]_1790-we had shaken hands , " that [I]_0-i shall never forget [you]_154-joe . "_[0-i] " No , no , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , in a comfortable tone , " [I]_154-joe 'm sure of that . Ay , [ay , old chap]_{5370-ay , old chap} ! Bless [you]_241-pip , it were only necessary to get it well round in [a man]_{428-a man} 's mind , to be certain on it . But it took a bit of time to get it well round , the change come so oncommon plump ; did n't it ? "_[154-joe] Somehow , [I]_0-i was not best pleased with [Joe]_154-joe 's being so mightily secure of [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i should have liked [him]_1791-him to have betrayed emotion , or to have said , " It does [you]_241-pip credit , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[1791-him] or something of that sort . Therefore , [I]_0-i made no remark on [Joe]_154-joe 's first head ; merely saying as to [his]_1791-him second , that the tidings had indeed come suddenly , but that [I]_0-i had always wanted to be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , and had often and often speculated on what [I]_0-i would do , if [I]_0-i were [one]_5055-one . " Have [you]_241-pip though ? "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe . " Astonishing ! "_[154-joe] " It 's a pity now , [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " that [you]_154-joe did not get on a little more , when [we]_5372-we had [our]_5372-we lessons here ; is n't it ? "_[0-i] " Well , [I]_154-joe do n't know , "_[154-joe] returned [Joe]_154-joe . " [I]_154-joe 'm so awful dull . [I]_154-joe 'm only master of [my]_154-joe own trade . It were always a pity as [I]_154-joe was so awful dull ; but it 's no more of a pity now , than it was - this day twelvemonth - do n't [you]_0-i see ? "_[154-joe] What [I]_0-i had meant was , that when [I]_0-i came into [[my]_0-i property]_{1794-my property} and was able to do something for [Joe]_154-joe , it would have been much more agreeable if [he]_1795-he had been better qualified for a rise in station . [He]_1795-he was so perfectly innocent of [my]_0-i meaning , however , that [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i would mention it to [Biddy]_188-biddy in preference . So , when [we]_1796-we had walked [home]_4495-home and had had tea , [I]_0-i took [Biddy]_188-biddy into [[our]_1796-we little garden]_{1798-our little garden} by the side of [the lane]_{669-the lane} , and , after throwing out in a general way for the elevation of [her]_188-biddy spirits , that [I]_0-i should never forget [her]_188-biddy , said [I]_0-i had a favor to ask of [her]_188-biddy . " And it is , [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " that [you]_188-biddy will not omit any opportunity of helping [Joe]_154-joe on , a little . "_[0-i] " How helping [him]_5373-he on ? "_[188-biddy] asked [Biddy]_188-biddy , with a steady sort of glance . " Well ! [Joe]_154-joe is [a dear good fellow]_{5374-a dear good fellow} , - in fact , [I]_188-biddy think [he]_5373-he is [the dearest fellow that ever lived]_{5375-the dearest fellow that ever lived} , - but [he]_5373-he is rather backward in some things . For instance , [Biddy]_188-biddy , in [his]_5373-he learning and [his]_5373-he manners . "_[188-biddy] Although [I]_0-i was looking at [Biddy]_188-biddy as [I]_0-i spoke , and although [she]_188-biddy opened [her]_188-biddy eyes very wide when [I]_0-i had spoken , [she]_188-biddy did not look at [me]_0-i . " O , [his]_5373-he manners ! wo n't [his]_5373-he manners do then ? "_[188-biddy] asked [Biddy]_188-biddy , plucking a black - currant leaf . " [[My]_188-biddy dear]_{4893-my dear} [Biddy]_188-biddy , [they]_5377-they do very well here - "_[188-biddy] " O ! [they]_5377-they do very well here ? "_[188-biddy] interrupted [Biddy]_188-biddy , looking closely at the leaf in [her]_188-biddy hand . " Hear [me]_188-biddy out , - but if [I]_188-biddy were to remove [Joe]_154-joe into a higher sphere , as [I]_188-biddy shall hope to remove [him]_5373-he when [I]_188-biddy fully come into [[my]_188-biddy property]_{1794-my property} , [they]_5377-they would hardly do [him]_5373-he justice . "_[188-biddy] " And do n't [you]_0-i think [he]_5373-he knows that ? "_[188-biddy] asked [Biddy]_188-biddy . It was such a very provoking question for it had never in the most distant manner occurred to [me]_0-i , that [I]_0-i said , snappishly , - " [Biddy]_188-biddy , what do [you]_188-biddy mean ? "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy , having rubbed the leaf to pieces between [her]_188-biddy hands , - and the smell of a black - currant bush has ever since recalled to [me]_0-i that evening in [the little garden by the side of [the lane]_{669-the lane}]_{1800-the little garden by the side of the lane} , - said , " Have [you]_188-biddy never considered that [he]_5373-he may be proud ? "_[0-i] " Proud ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i repeated , with disdainful emphasis . " O ! there are many kinds of pride , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , looking full at [me]_0-i and shaking [her]_188-biddy head ; " pride is not all of one kind - "_[188-biddy] " Well ? What are [you]_188-biddy stopping for ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Not all of one kind , "_[188-biddy] resumed [Biddy]_188-biddy . " [He]_5373-he may be too proud to let [any one]_{841-any one} take [him]_5373-he out of a place that [he]_5373-he is competent to fill , and fills well and with respect . To tell [you]_188-biddy the truth , [I]_188-biddy think [he]_5373-he is ; though it sounds bold in [me]_188-biddy to say so , for [you]_188-biddy must know [him]_5373-he far better than [I]_188-biddy do . "_[188-biddy] " Now , [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i am very sorry to see this in [you]_188-biddy . [I]_0-i did not expect to see this in [you]_188-biddy . [You]_188-biddy are envious , [Biddy]_188-biddy , and grudging . [You]_188-biddy are dissatisfied on account of [my]_0-i rise in fortune , and [you]_188-biddy ca n't help showing it . "_[0-i] " If [you]_188-biddy have the heart to think so , "_[188-biddy] returned [Biddy]_188-biddy , ' say so . Say so over and over again , if [you]_188-biddy have the heart to think so . " "_[0-i] If [you]_188-biddy have the heart to be so , [you]_188-biddy mean , [Biddy]_188-biddy , " said [I]_188-biddy , in a virtuous and superior tone ; "_[188-biddy] do n't put it off upon [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i am very sorry to see it , and it 's a - it 's a bad side of human nature . [I]_0-i did intend to ask [you]_188-biddy to use any little opportunities [you]_188-biddy might have after [I]_0-i was gone , of improving dear [Joe]_154-joe . But after this [I]_0-i ask [you]_188-biddy nothing . [I]_0-i am extremely sorry to see this in [you]_188-biddy , [Biddy]_188-biddy , " [I]_188-biddy repeated . "_[188-biddy] It 's a - it 's a bad side of human nature . " "_[188-biddy] Whether [you]_188-biddy scold [me]_0-i or approve of [me]_0-i , " returned [poor Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[188-biddy] [you]_188-biddy may equally depend upon [my]_0-i trying to do all that lies in [my]_0-i power , here , at all times . And whatever opinion [you]_188-biddy take away of [me]_0-i , shall make no difference in [my]_0-i remembrance of [you]_188-biddy . Yet [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} should not be unjust neither , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy , turning away [her]_188-biddy head . [I]_{4657-a gentleman} again warmly repeated that it was a bad side of human nature in which sentiment , waiving its application , [I]_{4657-a gentleman} have since seen reason to think [I]_{4657-a gentleman} was right , and [I]_{4657-a gentleman} walked down [the little path]_{5380-the little path} away from [Biddy]_188-biddy , and [Biddy]_188-biddy went into [the house]_{604-the house} , and [I]_{4657-a gentleman} went out at the garden gate and took a dejected stroll until supper - time ; again feeling it very sorrowful and strange that this , the second night of [my]_{4657-a gentleman} bright fortunes , should be as lonely and unsatisfactory as the first . But , morning once more brightened [my]_{4657-a gentleman} view , and [I]_{4657-a gentleman} extended [my]_{4657-a gentleman} clemency to [Biddy]_188-biddy , and [we]_5382-we dropped the subject . Putting on the best clothes [I]_{4657-a gentleman} had , [I]_{4657-a gentleman} went into [town]_4800-town as early as [I]_{4657-a gentleman} could hope to find [the shops]_{1496-the shops} open , and presented [myself]_{4657-a gentleman} before [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , [the tailor , who was having [his]_{243-mr. trabb} breakfast in [the parlor behind [his]_{243-mr. trabb} shop]_{5386-the parlor behind his shop} , and who did not think it worth [his]_{243-mr. trabb} while to come out to [me]_{4657-a gentleman} , but called [me]_{4657-a gentleman} in to [him]_{243-mr. trabb}]_{5385-the tailor , who was having his breakfast in the parlor behind his shop , and who did not think it worth his while to come out to me , but called me in to him} . "_{[4657-a gentleman]} Well ! " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , in a hail - fellow - well - met kind of way . "_{[4657-a gentleman]} How are [you]_1803-you , and what can [I]_0-i do for [you]_1803-you ? " [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} had sliced [his]_{243-mr. trabb} hot roll into three feather - beds , and was slipping butter in between the blankets , and covering it up . [He]_{243-mr. trabb} was [a prosperous old bachelor]_{5387-a prosperous old bachelor} , and [his]_{243-mr. trabb} open window looked into [a prosperous little garden and orchard]_{5388-a prosperous little garden and orchard} , and there was a prosperous iron safe let into the wall at the side of [his]_{243-mr. trabb} fireplace , and [I]_{243-mr. trabb} did not doubt that heaps of [his]_{243-mr. trabb} prosperity were put away in it in bags . "_{[243-mr. trabb]} [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , " said [I]_{243-mr. trabb} , "_{[243-mr. trabb]} it 's an unpleasant thing to have to mention , because it looks like boasting ; but [I]_0-i have come into [a handsome property]_{5321-a handsome property} . " A change passed over [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} . [He]_{243-mr. trabb} forgot the butter in bed , got up from the bedside , and wiped [his]_{243-mr. trabb} fingers on the tablecloth , exclaiming , "_[0-i] Lord bless [my]_0-i soul ! " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am going up to [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} in [London]_8-london , " said [I]_0-i , casually drawing some guineas out of [my]_0-i pocket and looking at them ; "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i want a fashionable suit of clothes to go in . [I]_0-i wish to pay for them , " [I]_0-i added - otherwise [I]_0-i thought [he]_{243-mr. trabb} might only pretend to make them , "_[0-i] with ready money . " "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i dear sir]_{1806-my dear sir} , " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , as [he]_{243-mr. trabb} respectfully bent [his]_{243-mr. trabb} body , opened [his]_{243-mr. trabb} arms , and took the liberty of touching [me]_0-i on the outside of each elbow , "_[0-i] do n't hurt [me]_0-i by mentioning that . May [I]_0-i venture to congratulate [you]_{1806-my dear sir} ? Would [you]_{1806-my dear sir} do [me]_0-i the favor of stepping into [the shop]_{4833-the shop} ? " [[Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5389-mr. trabb 's boy} was [the most audacious boy in [all that country - side]_{5391-all that country - side}]_{5390-the most audacious boy in all that country - side} . When [I]_{1806-my dear sir} had entered [he]_{243-mr. trabb} was sweeping [the shop]_{4833-the shop} , and [he]_{243-mr. trabb} had sweetened [his]_{243-mr. trabb} labors by sweeping over [me]_{1806-my dear sir} . [He]_{243-mr. trabb} was still sweeping when [I]_{1806-my dear sir} came out into [the shop]_{4833-the shop} with [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , and [he]_{243-mr. trabb} knocked the broom against all possible corners and obstacles , to express as [I]_{1806-my dear sir} understood it equality with [any blacksmith , alive or dead]_{5394-any blacksmith , alive or dead} . "_{[1806-my dear sir]} Hold that noise , " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , with the greatest sternness , "_{[1806-my dear sir]} or [I]_0-i 'll knock [your]_1808-you head off ! - Do [me]_0-i the favor to be seated , [sir]_4451-sir . Now , this , " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , taking down a roll of cloth , and tiding it out in a flowing manner over the counter , preparatory to getting [his]_{243-mr. trabb} hand under it to show the gloss , "_[1808-you] is a very sweet article . [I]_0-i can recommend it for [your]_1808-you purpose , [sir]_4451-sir , because it really is extra super . But [you]_1808-you shall see some others . Give [me]_0-i [Number Four]_{244-number four} , [you]_1808-you ! " To [the boy]_{4532-the boy} , and with a dreadfully severe stare ; foreseeing the danger of [that miscreant]_{5396-that miscreant} 's brushing [me]_{244-number four} with it , or making some other sign of familiarity . [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} never removed [his]_{243-mr. trabb} stern eye from [the boy]_{4532-the boy} until [he]_{243-mr. trabb} had deposited number four on the counter and was at a safe distance again . Then [he]_{243-mr. trabb} commanded [him]_{4532-the boy} to bring number five , and number eight . "_{[244-number four]} And let [me]_0-i have none of [your]_1808-you tricks here , " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} , "_[0-i] or [you]_1808-you shall repent it , [[you]_1808-you young scoundrel]_{1811-you young scoundrel} , the longest day [you]_1808-you have to live . " [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} then bent over number four , and in a sort of deferential confidence recommended it to [me]_{1811-you young scoundrel} as a light article for summer wear , an article much in vogue among [the nobility and gentry]_{5398-the nobility and gentry} , an article that it would ever be an honor to [him]_{243-mr. trabb} to reflect upon [a distinguished fellow - townsman]_{5399-a distinguished fellow - townsman} 's if [he]_{243-mr. trabb} might claim [me]_{1811-you young scoundrel} for [a fellow - townsman]_{5400-a fellow - townsman} having worn . "_{[1811-you young scoundrel]} Are [you]_1808-you bringing numbers five and eight , [[you]_1808-you vagabond]_{1812-you vagabond} , " said [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} to [the boy]_{4532-the boy} after that , "_[1808-you] or shall [I]_0-i kick [you]_1808-you out of [the shop]_{4833-the shop} and bring them [myself]_0-i ? " [I]_1808-you selected the materials for a suit , with the assistance of [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's judgment , and re - entered [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} to be measured . For although [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} had [my]_1808-you measure already , and had previously been quite contented with it , [he]_{243-mr. trabb} said apologetically that it "_[1808-you] would n't do under existing circumstances , [sir]_4451-sir , - would n't do at all . " So , [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} measured and calculated [me]_1808-you in [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} , as if [I]_1808-you were [an estate]_{5404-an estate} and [he]_{243-mr. trabb} the finest species of surveyor , and gave [himself]_{243-mr. trabb} such a world of trouble that [I]_1808-you felt that no suit of clothes could possibly remunerate [him]_{243-mr. trabb} for [his]_{243-mr. trabb} pains . When [he]_{243-mr. trabb} had at last done and had appointed to send the articles to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's on the Thursday evening , [he]_{243-mr. trabb} said , with [his]_{243-mr. trabb} hand upon the parlor lock , "_[1808-you] [I]_0-i know , [sir]_4451-sir , that [[London]_8-london [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen}]_{1816-london gentlemen} can not be expected to patronize local work , as a rule ; but if [you]_4451-sir would give [me]_0-i a turn now and then in the quality of [a townsman]_{1818-a townsman} , [I]_0-i should greatly esteem it . Good morning , [sir]_4451-sir , much obliged . - Door ! " The last word was flung at [the boy]_{4532-the boy} , who had not the least notion what it meant . But [I]_0-i saw [him]_{4532-the boy} collapse as [[his]_{4532-the boy} master]_{5227-his master} rubbed [me]_0-i out with [his]_{5227-his master} hands , and [my]_0-i first decided experience of the stupendous power of money was , that it had morally laid upon [his]_{5227-his master} back [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} . After this memorable event , [I]_0-i went to [the hatter]_{5408-the hatter} 's , and [the bootmaker]_{5409-the bootmaker} 's , and the [hosier 's]_{5410-hosier 's} , and felt rather like [Mother Hubbard]_{245-mother hubbard} 's dog whose outfit required [the services of so many trades]_{5411-the services of so many trades} . [I]_0-i also went to [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} and took [my]_0-i place for seven o'clock on Saturday morning . It was not necessary to explain everywhere that [I]_0-i had come into [a handsome property]_{5321-a handsome property} ; but whenever [I]_0-i said anything to that effect , it followed that [the officiating tradesman]_{5414-the officiating tradesman} ceased to have [his]_{5414-the officiating tradesman} attention diverted through the window by [the High Street]_{24-the high street} , and concentrated [his]_{5414-the officiating tradesman} mind upon [me]_0-i . When [I]_0-i had ordered everything [I]_0-i wanted , [I]_0-i directed [my]_0-i steps towards [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's , and , as [I]_0-i approached [[that gentleman]_{752-that gentleman} 's place of business]_{5416-that gentleman 's place of business} , [I]_0-i saw [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} standing at [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} door . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was waiting for [me]_0-i with great impatience . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had been out early with the chaise - cart , and had called at [the forge]_{488-the forge} and heard the news . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had prepared a collation for [me]_0-i in [the Barnwell parlor]_{5418-the barnwell parlor} , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} too ordered [[his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shopman]_{4823-his shopman} to "_[0-i] come out of the gangway " as [[my]_{1820-my dear friend} sacred person]_{5420-my sacred person} passed . "_{[1820-my dear friend]} [[My]_0-i dear friend]_{1820-my dear friend} , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , taking [me]_{1820-my dear friend} by both hands , when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} and [I]_{1820-my dear friend} and the collation were alone , "_{[1820-my dear friend]} [I]_0-i give [you]_{1820-my dear friend} joy of [your]_{1820-my dear friend} good fortune . Well deserved , well deserved ! " This was coming to the point , and [I]_0-i thought it a sensible way of expressing [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_[0-i] To think , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , after snorting admiration at [me]_0-i for some moments , "_[0-i] that [I]_0-i should have been the humble instrument of leading up to this , is a proud reward . " [I]_0-i begged [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} to remember that nothing was to be ever said or hinted , on that point . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i dear young friend]_{1821-my dear young friend} , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ; "_[0-i] if [you]_{1820-my dear friend} will allow [me]_0-i to call [you]_{1820-my dear friend} so - " [I]_{1820-my dear friend} murmured "_{[1820-my dear friend]} Certainly , " and [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} took [me]_{1820-my dear friend} by both hands again , and communicated a movement to [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} waistcoat , which had an emotional appearance , though it was rather low down , "_{[1820-my dear friend]} [[My]_0-i dear young friend]_{1821-my dear young friend} , rely upon [my]_0-i doing [my]_0-i little all in [your]_{1820-my dear friend} absence , by keeping the fact before the mind of [Joseph]_154-joe . - [Joseph]_154-joe ! " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , in the way of a compassionate adjuration . "_[154-joe] [Joseph]_154-joe ! ! [Joseph]_154-joe ! ! ! " Thereupon [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shook [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} head and tapped it , expressing [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} sense of deficiency in [Joseph]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] But [[my]_0-i dear young friend]_{1821-my dear young friend} , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_{[1821-my dear young friend]} [you]_{1820-my dear friend} must be hungry , [you]_{1820-my dear friend} must be exhausted . Be seated . Here is a chicken had round from [the Boar]_{246-the boar} , here is a tongue had round from [the Boar]_{246-the boar} , here 's one or two little things had round from the Boar , that [I]_0-i hope [you]_{1820-my dear friend} may not despise . But do [I]_0-i , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , getting up again the moment after [he]_0-i had sat down , ' see afore [me]_0-i , [him]_0-i as [I]_0-i ever sported with in [his]_0-i times of happy infancy ? And may [I]_0-i - may [I]_0-i - ? "_[0-i] This May [I]_0-i , meant might [he]_0-i shake hands ? [I]_0-i consented , and [he]_0-i was fervent , and then sat down again . " Here is wine , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . " Let [us]_5421-us drink , Thanks to [Fortune]_247-fortune , and may [she]_5422-she ever pick out [her]_5422-she favorites with equal judgment ! And yet [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} can not , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , getting up again , ' see afore [me]_0-i One - and likewise drink to One - without again expressing - May [I]_0-i - may [I]_0-i - ? " [I]_0-i said [he]_0-i might , and [he]_0-i shook hands with [me]_0-i again , and emptied [his]_0-i glass and turned it upside down . [I]_0-i did the same ; and if [I]_0-i had turned [myself]_0-i upside down before drinking , the wine could not have gone more direct to [my]_0-i head . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} helped [me]_0-i to [the liver wing]_{5423-the liver wing} , and to the best slice of tongue none of [those out - of - the - way No Thoroughfares of [Pork]_177-pork]_{5424-those out - of - the - way no thoroughfares of pork} now , and took , comparatively speaking , no care of [himself]_0-i at all . "_[0-i] Ah ! poultry , poultry ! [You]_0-i little thought , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , apostrophizing the fowl in the dish , "_[0-i] when [you]_0-i was [a young fledgling]_{1824-a young fledgling} , what was in store for [you]_0-i . [You]_0-i little thought [you]_0-i was to be refreshment beneath this humble roof for one as - Call it a weakness , if [you]_0-i will , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , getting up again , "_[0-i] but may [I]_0-i ? may [I]_0-i - ? " It began to be unnecessary to repeat the form of saying [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} might , so [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} did it at once . How [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ever did it so often without wounding [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} with [my]_0-i knife , [I]_0-i do n't know . "_[0-i] And [[your]_0-i sister]_{906-your sister} , " [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} resumed , after a little steady eating , "_[0-i] which had the honor of bringing [you]_0-i up by hand ! It 's [a sad picter]_{1826-a sad picter} , to reflect that [she]_{906-your sister} 's no longer equal to fully understanding the honor . May - " [I]_1827-i saw [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was about to come at [me]_1827-i again , and [I]_1827-i stopped [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_[1827-i] [We]_1827-i 'll drink [her]_{906-your sister} health , " said [I.]_1827-i "_[1827-i] Ah ! " cried [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , leaning back in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} chair , quite flaccid with admiration , "_[0-i] that 's the way [you]_0-i know ['em]_1828-'em , [sir]_4451-sir ! " [I]_0-i do n't know who [Sir]_248-sir was , but [he]_248-sir certainly was not [I]_0-i , and there was [no third person present]_{5425-no third person present} ; "_[0-i] that 's the way [you]_0-i know [the noble - minded]_{1830-the noble - minded} , [sir]_4451-sir ! Ever forgiving and ever affable . It might , " said [the servile Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , putting down [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} untasted glass in a hurry and getting up again , "_[0-i] to [a common person]_{1832-a common person} , have the appearance of repeating - but may [I]_0-i - ? " When [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had done it , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} resumed [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} seat and drank to [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} . "_[0-i] Let [us]_1833-us never be blind , " said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_[1834-i] to [her]_1834-i faults of temper , but it is to be hoped [she]_1834-i meant well . " At about this time , [I]_1834-i began to observe that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was getting flushed in the face ; as to [myself]_1834-i , [I]_1834-i felt all face , steeped in wine and smarting . [I]_1834-i mentioned to [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} that [I]_1834-i wished to have [my]_1834-i new clothes sent to [[his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} house]_{5427-his house} , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was ecstatic on [my]_1834-i so distinguishing [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . [I]_1834-i mentioned [my]_1834-i reason for desiring to avoid observation in [the village]_{758-the village} , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} lauded it to the skies . There was [nobody]_4527-nobody but [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} intimated , worthy of [my]_1834-i confidence , and - in short , might [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ? Then [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} asked [me]_1834-i tenderly if [I]_1834-i remembered [our]_5430-our boyish games at sums , and how [we]_5430-our had gone together to have [me]_1834-i bound [apprentice]_{5431-apprentice} , and , in effect , how [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had ever been [my]_1834-i favorite fancy and [[my]_1834-i chosen friend]_{5432-my chosen friend} ? If [I]_1834-i had taken ten times as many glasses of wine as [I]_1834-i had , [I]_1834-i should have known that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} never had stood in that relation towards [me]_1834-i , and should in [my]_1834-i heart of hearts have repudiated the idea . Yet for all that , [I]_1834-i remember feeling convinced that [I]_1834-i had been much mistaken in [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , and that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was [a sensible , practical , good - hearted prime fellow]_{5433-a sensible , practical , good - hearted prime fellow} . By degrees [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} fell to reposing such great confidence in [me]_1834-i , as to ask [my]_1834-i advice in reference to [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} own affairs . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} mentioned that there was an opportunity for a great amalgamation and monopoly of the corn and seed trade on [those premises]_{5434-those premises} , if enlarged , such as had never occurred before in that or [any other neighborhood]_{5435-any other neighborhood} . What alone was wanting to the realization of a vast fortune , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} considered to be More Capital . Those were the two little words , more capital . Now it appeared to [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} that if that capital were got into the business , through [a sleeping partner]_{5436-a sleeping partner} , [sir]_4451-sir , - which [sleeping partner]_{5438-sleeping partner} would have nothing to do but walk in , by [self]_5439-self or [deputy]_5440-deputy , whenever [he]_{5438-sleeping partner} pleased , and examine the books , - and walk in twice a year and take [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} profits away in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} pocket , to the tune of fifty per cent , - it appeared to [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} that that might be an opening for [a young gentleman of spirit combined with property]_{5441-a young gentleman of spirit combined with property} , which would be worthy of [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} attention . But what did [I]_1834-i think ? [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had great confidence in [my]_1834-i opinion , and what did [I]_1834-i think ? [I]_1834-i gave it as [my]_1834-i opinion . "_[1834-i] Wait a bit ! " The united vastness and distinctness of this view so struck [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} no longer asked if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} might shake hands with [me]_1834-i , but said [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} really must , - and did . [We]_5442-we drank all the wine , and [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} pledged [himself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} over and over again to keep [Joseph]_154-joe up to the mark [I]_1834-i do n't know what mark , and to render [me]_1834-i efficient and constant service [I]_1834-i do n't know what service . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} also made known to [me]_1834-i for the first time in [my]_1834-i life , and certainly after having kept [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} secret wonderfully well , that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had always said of [me]_1834-i , "_[1834-i] [That boy]_{532-that boy} is [no common boy]_{1836-no common boy} , and mark [me]_0-i , [his]_{532-that boy} fortun ' will be [no common fortun]_{1837-no common fortun} ' . " [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} said with a tearful smile that it was a singular thing to think of now , and [I]_{1837-no common fortun} said so too . Finally , [I]_{1837-no common fortun} went out into the air , with a dim perception that there was something unwonted in the conduct of the sunshine , and found that [I]_{1837-no common fortun} had slumberously got to [the turnpike]_{1556-the turnpike} without having taken any account of [the road]_{1325-the road} . There , [I]_{1837-no common fortun} was roused by [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's hailing [me]_{1837-no common fortun} . [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was a long way down [the sunny street]_{5445-the sunny street} , and was making expressive gestures for [me]_{1837-no common fortun} to stop . [I]_{1837-no common fortun} stopped , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} came up breathless . "_{[1837-no common fortun]} No , [[my]_0-i dear friend]_{1820-my dear friend} , " said [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had recovered wind for speech . "_{[1837-no common fortun]} Not if [I]_0-i can help it . This occasion shall not entirely pass without that affability on [your]_{1820-my dear friend} part . - May [I]_0-i , as [an old friend]_{1839-an old friend} and [well - wisher]_{1840-well - wisher} ? May [I]_0-i ? " [We]_5446-we shook hands for the hundredth time at least , and [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ordered [a young carter]_{5447-a young carter} out of [my]_1841-i way with the greatest indignation . Then , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} blessed [me]_1841-i and stood waving [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hand to [me]_1841-i until [I]_1841-i had passed the crook in [the road]_{1325-the road} ; and then [I]_1841-i turned into [a field]_{5449-a field} and had a long nap under a hedge before [I]_1841-i pursued [my]_1841-i way [home]_4495-home . [I]_1841-i had scant luggage to take with [me]_1841-i to [London]_8-london , for little of the little [I]_1841-i possessed was adapted to [[my]_1841-i new station]_{5451-my new station} . But [I]_1841-i began packing that same afternoon , and wildly packed up things that [I]_1841-i knew [I]_1841-i should want next morning , in a fiction that there was not a moment to be lost . So , Tuesday , Wednesday , and Thursday , passed ; and on Friday morning [I]_1841-i went to [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's]_{5452-mr. pumblechook 's} , to put on [my]_1841-i new clothes and pay [my]_1841-i visit to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [[Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's own room]_{5453-mr. pumblechook 's own room} was given up to [me]_1841-i to dress in , and was decorated with clean towels expressly for the event . [My]_1841-i clothes were rather a disappointment , of course . Probably every new and eagerly expected garment ever put on since clothes came in , fell a trifle short of [the wearer]_{5454-the wearer} 's expectation . But after [I]_1841-i had had [my]_1841-i new suit on some half an hour , and had gone through an immensity of posturing with [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's very limited dressing - glass , in the futile endeavor to see [my]_1841-i legs , it seemed to fit [me]_1841-i better . It being market morning at [a neighboring town]_{5455-a neighboring town} some ten miles off , [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was not at [home]_4495-home . [I]_1841-i had not told [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} exactly when [I]_1841-i meant to leave , and was not likely to shake hands with [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} again before departing . This was all as it should be , and [I]_1841-i went out in [[my]_1841-i new array]_{5457-my new array} , fearfully ashamed of having to pass [the shopman]_{4834-the shopman} , and suspicious after all that [I]_1841-i was at a personal disadvantage , something like [Joe]_154-joe 's in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} Sunday suit . [I]_1841-i went circuitously to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's by all the back ways , and rang at the bell constrainedly , on account of the stiff long fingers of [my]_1841-i gloves . [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} came to the gate , and positively reeled back when [she]_{208-sarah pocket} saw [me]_1841-i so changed ; [her]_{208-sarah pocket} walnut - shell countenance likewise turned from brown to green and yellow . "_[1841-i] [You]_1841-i ? " said [she]_{208-sarah pocket} . "_[1841-i] [You]_1841-i ? Good gracious ! What do [you]_1841-i want ? " "_[1841-i] [I]_0-i am going to [London]_8-london , [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} , " said [I]_{208-sarah pocket} , "_{[208-sarah pocket]} and want to say good by to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} was not expected , for [she]_{208-sarah pocket} left [me]_{223-miss havisham} locked in [the yard]_{717-the yard} , while [she]_{208-sarah pocket} went to ask if [I]_{223-miss havisham} were to be admitted . After a very short delay , [she]_{208-sarah pocket} returned and took [me]_{223-miss havisham} up , staring at [me]_{223-miss havisham} all the way . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was taking exercise in [the room]_{633-the room} with the long spread table , leaning on [her]_{223-miss havisham} crutch stick . [The room]_{633-the room} was lighted as of yore , and at the sound of [our]_5462-our entrance , [she]_{208-sarah pocket} stopped and turned . [She]_{208-sarah pocket} was then just abreast of the rotted bride - cake . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Do n't go , [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} , " [she]_{208-sarah pocket} said . "_{[208-sarah pocket]} Well , [Pip]_241-pip ? " "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i start for [London]_8-london , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , to - morrow , " [I]_{223-miss havisham} was exceedingly careful what [I]_{223-miss havisham} said , "_{[223-miss havisham]} and [I]_0-i thought [you]_{223-miss havisham} would kindly not mind [my]_0-i taking leave of [you]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} This is a gay figure , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [she]_{208-sarah pocket} , making [her]_{208-sarah pocket} crutch stick play round [me]_241-pip , as if [she]_{208-sarah pocket} , the fairy godmother who had changed [me]_241-pip , were bestowing the finishing gift . "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i have come into such good fortune since [I]_0-i saw [you]_{223-miss havisham} last , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , " [I]_{223-miss havisham} murmured . "_{[223-miss havisham]} And [I]_0-i am so grateful for it , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ! " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Ay , ay ! " said [she]_{208-sarah pocket} , looking at the discomfited and envious [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} , with delight . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i have seen [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . [I]_0-i have heard about it , [Pip]_241-pip . So [you]_241-pip go to - morrow ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} And [you]_241-pip are adopted by [a rich person]_{1842-a rich person} ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Not named ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} No , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} And [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is made [[your]_241-pip guardian]_{5339-your guardian} ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [She]_{208-sarah pocket} quite gloated on these questions and answers , so keen was [her]_{208-sarah pocket} enjoyment of [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} 's jealous dismay . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Well ! " [she]_{208-sarah pocket} went on ; "_{[223-miss havisham]} [you]_241-pip have a promising career before [you]_241-pip . Be good - deserve it - and abide by [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's instructions . " [She]_{208-sarah pocket} looked at [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and looked at [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} , and [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} 's countenance wrung out of [her]_{208-sarah pocket} watchful face a cruel smile . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Good by , [Pip]_241-pip ! - [you]_241-pip will always keep the name of [Pip]_241-pip , [you]_241-pip know . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Good by , [Pip]_241-pip ! " [She]_{208-sarah pocket} stretched out [her]_{208-sarah pocket} hand , and [I]_241-pip went down on [my]_241-pip knee and put it to [my]_241-pip lips . [I]_241-pip had not considered how [I]_241-pip should take leave of [her]_{208-sarah pocket} ; it came naturally to [me]_241-pip at the moment to do this . [She]_{208-sarah pocket} looked at [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} with triumph in [her]_{208-sarah pocket} weird eyes , and so [I]_241-pip left [[my]_241-pip fairy godmother]_{5463-my fairy godmother} , with both [her]_{208-sarah pocket} hands on [her]_{208-sarah pocket} crutch stick , standing in the midst of [the dimly lighted room]_{5464-the dimly lighted room} beside the rotten bride - cake that was hidden in cobwebs . [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} conducted [me]_241-pip down , as if [I]_241-pip were [a ghost who must be seen out]_{5465-a ghost who must be seen out} . [She]_{208-sarah pocket} could not get over [my]_241-pip appearance , and was in the last degree confounded . [I]_241-pip said "_[241-pip] Good by , [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} ; " but [she]_{208-sarah pocket} merely stared , and did not seem collected enough to know that [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had spoken . Clear of [the house]_{604-the house} , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} made the best of [my]_{208-sarah pocket} way back to [Pumblechook 's]_172-joe , took off [my]_{208-sarah pocket} new clothes , made them into a bundle , and went back [home]_4495-home in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} older dress , carrying it - to speak the truth - much more at [my]_{208-sarah pocket} ease too , though [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had the bundle to carry . And now , those six days which were to have run out so slowly , had run out fast and were gone , and to - morrow looked [me]_{208-sarah pocket} in the face more steadily than [I]_{208-sarah pocket} could look at it . As the six evenings had dwindled away , to five , to four , to three , to two , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had become more and more appreciative of the society of [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy . On this last evening , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} dressed [[my]_{208-sarah pocket} self]_{5468-my self} out in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} new clothes for [their]_{5468-my self} delight , and sat in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} splendor until bedtime . [We]_5469-we had a hot supper on the occasion , graced by the inevitable roast fowl , and [we]_5469-we had some flip to finish with . [We]_5469-we were all very low , and none the higher for pretending to be in spirits . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} was to leave [[our]_5469-we village]_{437-our village} at five in the morning , carrying [my]_{208-sarah pocket} little hand - portmanteau , and [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had told [Joe]_154-joe that [I]_{208-sarah pocket} wished to walk away all alone . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} am afraid - sore afraid - that this purpose originated in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} sense of the contrast there would be between [me]_{208-sarah pocket} and [Joe]_154-joe , if [we]_5469-we went to [the coach]_{4925-the coach} together . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had pretended with [myself]_{208-sarah pocket} that there was nothing of this taint in the arrangement ; but when [I]_{208-sarah pocket} went up to [[my]_{208-sarah pocket} little room]_{1115-my little room} on this last night , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} felt compelled to admit that it might be so , and had an impulse upon [me]_{208-sarah pocket} to go down again and entreat [Joe]_154-joe to walk with [me]_{208-sarah pocket} in the morning . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} did not . All night there were coaches in [my]_{208-sarah pocket} broken sleep , going to wrong places instead of to [London]_8-london , and having in [the traces]_{5473-the traces} , now dogs , now cats , now pigs , now [men]_4561-men , - never horses . Fantastic failures of journeys occupied [me]_{208-sarah pocket} until the day dawned and the birds were singing . Then , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} got up and partly dressed , and sat at the window to take a last look out , and in taking it fell asleep . [Biddy]_188-biddy was astir so early to get [my]_{208-sarah pocket} breakfast , that , although [I]_{208-sarah pocket} did not sleep at the window an hour , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} smelt the smoke of the kitchen fire when [I]_{208-sarah pocket} started up with a terrible idea that it must be late in the afternoon . But long after that , and long after [I]_{208-sarah pocket} had heard the clinking of the teacups and was quite ready , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} wanted the resolution to go down [stairs]_539-stairs . After all , [I]_{208-sarah pocket} remained up there , repeatedly unlocking and unstrapping [my]_{208-sarah pocket} small portmanteau and locking and strapping it up again , until [Biddy]_188-biddy called to [me]_{208-sarah pocket} that [I]_{208-sarah pocket} was late . It was a hurried breakfast with no taste in it . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} got up from the meal , saying with a sort of briskness , as if it had only just occurred to [me]_{208-sarah pocket} , "_{[208-sarah pocket]} Well ! [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i must be off ! " and then [I]_0-i kissed [[my]_0-i sister who was laughing and nodding and shaking in [her]_{5476-my sister who was laughing and nodding and shaking in her usual chair} usual chair]_{5476-my sister who was laughing and nodding and shaking in her usual chair} , and kissed [Biddy]_188-biddy , and threw [my]_0-i arms around [Joe]_154-joe 's neck . Then [I]_0-i took up [my]_0-i little portmanteau and walked out . The last [I]_0-i saw of [them]_5477-them was , when [I]_0-i presently heard a scuffle behind [me]_0-i , and looking back , saw [Joe]_154-joe throwing an old shoe after [me]_0-i and [Biddy]_188-biddy throwing another old shoe . [I]_0-i stopped then , to wave [my]_0-i hat , and [dear old Joe]_{5478-dear old joe} waved [his]_{5478-dear old joe} strong right arm above [his]_{5478-dear old joe} head , crying huskily "_[0-i] Hooroar ! " and [Biddy]_188-biddy put [her]_188-biddy apron to [her]_188-biddy face . [I]_0-i walked away at a good pace , thinking it was easier to go than [I]_0-i had supposed it would be , and reflecting that it would never have done to have had an old shoe thrown after [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , in sight of all [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} . [I]_0-i whistled and made nothing of going . But [the village]_{758-the village} was very peaceful and quiet , and the light mists were solemnly rising , as if to show [me]_0-i [the world]_{4698-the world} , and [I]_0-i had been so innocent and little there , and all beyond was so unknown and great , that in a moment with a strong heave and sob [I]_0-i broke into tears . It was by the finger - post at [the end of [the village]_{758-the village}]_{5483-the end of the village} , and [I]_0-i laid [my]_0-i hand upon it , and said , "_[0-i] Good by , O [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} , [dear friend]_{1845-dear friend} ! " Heaven knows [we]_5485-we need never be ashamed of [our]_5485-we tears , for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth , overlying [our]_5485-we hard hearts . [I]_0-i was better after [I]_0-i had cried than before , - more sorry , more aware of [my]_0-i own ingratitude , more gentle . If [I]_0-i had cried before , [I]_0-i should have had [Joe]_154-joe with [me]_0-i then . So subdued [I]_0-i was by those tears , and by [their]_5486-their breaking out again in the course of the quiet walk , that when [I]_0-i was on [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , and it was clear of [the town]_{5488-the town} , [I]_0-i deliberated with an aching heart whether [I]_0-i would not get down when [we]_5485-we changed horses and walk back , and have another evening at [home]_4495-home , and a better parting . [We]_5485-we changed , and [I]_0-i had not made up [my]_0-i mind , and still reflected for [my]_0-i comfort that it would be quite practicable to get down and walk back , when [we]_5485-we changed again . And while [I]_0-i was occupied with these deliberations , [I]_0-i would fancy an exact resemblance to [Joe]_154-joe in [some man coming along [the road]_{1325-the road} towards [us]_5485-we]_{5490-some man coming along the road towards us} , and [my]_0-i heart would beat high . - As if [he]_{5490-some man coming along the road towards us} could possibly be there ! [We]_5485-we changed again , and yet again , and it was now too late and too far to go back , and [I]_0-i went on . And the mists had all solemnly risen now , and [the world]_{4698-the world} lay spread before [me]_0-i . This is the end of the first stage of [Pip]_241-pip 's expectations . Chapter XX The journey from [[our]_5485-we town]_{5493-our town} to [the metropolis]_{5494-the metropolis} was a journey of about five hours . It was a little past midday when [the four - horse stage - coach by which [I]_0-i was [a passenger]_{5496-a passenger}]_{5495-the four - horse stage - coach by which i was a passenger} , got into the ravel of traffic frayed out about [the Cross Keys]_{5497-the cross keys} , [Wood Street]_{26-wood street} , [Cheapside]_27-cheapside , [London]_8-london . [[We]_5485-we Britons]_{5498-we britons} had at that time particularly settled that it was treasonable to doubt [our]_5485-we having and [our]_5485-we being the best of everything : otherwise , while [I]_0-i was scared by the immensity of [London]_8-london , [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i might have had some faint doubts whether [it]_8-london was not rather ugly , crooked , narrow , and dirty . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had duly sent [me]_0-i [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} address ; it was , [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had written after it on [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} card , "_[0-i] just out of [Smithfield]_{29-smithfield} , and close by [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} . " Nevertheless , [a hackney - coachman]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} , who seemed to have as many capes to [his]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} greasy great - coat as [he]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} was years old , packed [me]_0-i up in [[his]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} coach]_{5500-his coach} and hemmed [me]_0-i in with a folding and jingling barrier of steps , as if [he]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} were going to take [me]_0-i fifty miles . [His]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} getting on [his]_{5499-a hackney - coachman} box , which [I]_0-i remember to have been decorated with an old weather - stained pea - green hammercloth moth - eaten into rags , was quite a work of time . It was a wonderful equipage , with six great coronets outside , and ragged things behind for [I]_0-i do n't know how many [footmen to hold on by]_{5501-footmen to hold on by} , and a harrow below [them]_{5501-footmen to hold on by} , to prevent [amateur footmen]_{5502-amateur footmen} from yielding to the temptation . [I]_0-i had scarcely had time to enjoy [the coach]_{4925-the coach} and to think how like [a straw - yard]_{5504-a straw - yard} [it]_{4925-the coach} was , and yet how like [a rag - shop]_{5505-a rag - shop} , and to wonder why the horses ' nose - bags were kept inside , when [I]_0-i observed [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} beginning to get down , as if [we]_5507-we were going to stop presently . And stop [we]_5507-we presently did , in [a gloomy street]_{5508-a gloomy street} , at [certain offices]_{5509-certain offices} with an open door , whereon was painted [MR . JAGGERS]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] How much ? " [I]_0-i asked [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} . [The coachman]_{5506-the coachman} answered , "_[0-i] A shilling - unless [you]_1847-you wish to make it more . " [I]_0-i naturally said [I]_0-i had no wish to make it more . "_[0-i] Then it must be a shilling , " observed [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't want to get into trouble . [I]_0-i know [him]_1848-he ! " [He]_{5506-the coachman} darkly closed an eye at [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's name , and shook [his]_{5506-the coachman} head . When [he]_{5506-the coachman} had got [his]_{5506-the coachman} shilling , and had in course of time completed the ascent to [[his]_{5506-the coachman} box]_{5513-his box} , and had got away which appeared to relieve [his]_{5506-the coachman} mind , [I]_0-i went into [the front office]_{5514-the front office} with [my]_0-i little portmanteau in [my]_0-i hand and asked , Was [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} at [home]_4495-home ? "_[0-i] [He]_1848-he is not , " returned [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} . "_[1848-he] [He]_1848-he is in [Court]_5126-court at present . Am [I]_0-i addressing [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? " [I]_241-pip signified that [he]_0-i was addressing [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . "_[241-pip] [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} left word , would [you]_0-i wait in [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} room]_{625-his room} . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} could n't say how long [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} might be , having a case on . But it stands to reason , [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} time being valuable , that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} wo n't be longer than [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} can help . " With those words , [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} opened a door , and ushered [me]_249-mike into [an inner chamber at the back]_{5518-an inner chamber at the back} . Here , [we]_5519-we found [a gentleman with one eye]_{5520-a gentleman with one eye} , in a velveteen suit and knee - breeches , who wiped [his]_{5520-a gentleman with one eye} nose with [his]_{5520-a gentleman with one eye} sleeve on being interrupted in the perusal of the newspaper . "_[249-mike] Go and wait outside , [Mike]_249-mike , " said [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} . [I]_249-mike began to say that [I]_249-mike hoped [I]_249-mike was not interrupting , when [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} shoved [this gentleman]_{5523-this gentleman} out with as little ceremony as [I]_249-mike ever saw used , and tossing [his]_{5520-a gentleman with one eye} fur cap out after [him]_{5520-a gentleman with one eye} , left [me]_249-mike alone . [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's room]_{5524-mr. jaggers 's room} was lighted by a skylight only , and was [a most dismal place]_{5525-a most dismal place} ; the skylight , eccentrically pitched like a broken head , and the distorted adjoining houses looking as if [they]_5526-they had twisted themselves to peep down at [me]_249-mike through [it]_{5524-mr. jaggers 's room} . There were not so many papers about , as [I]_249-mike should have expected to see ; and there were some odd objects about , that [I]_249-mike should not have expected to see , - such as an old rusty pistol , a sword in a scabbard , several strange - looking boxes and packages , and two dreadful casts on a shelf , of faces peculiarly swollen , and twitchy about the nose . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's own high - backed chair was of deadly black horsehair , with rows of brass nails round it , like a coffin ; and [I]_249-mike fancied [I]_249-mike could see how [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} leaned back in it , and bit [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} forefinger at [the clients]_{5527-the clients} . [The room]_{633-the room} was but small , and [the clients]_{5527-the clients} seemed to have had a habit of backing up against the wall ; the wall , especially opposite to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's chair , being greasy with shoulders . [I]_249-mike recalled , too , that [the one - eyed gentleman]_{5530-the one - eyed gentleman} had shuffled forth against the wall when [I]_249-mike was the innocent cause of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} being turned out . [I]_249-mike sat down in the cliental chair placed over against [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's chair , and became fascinated by the dismal atmosphere of [the place]_{4456-the place} . [I]_249-mike called to mind that [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} had the same air of knowing something to [everybody else]_{5533-everybody else} 's disadvantage , as [[his]_{5516-the clerk} master]_{5227-his master} had . [I]_249-mike wondered how many [other clerks there]_{5535-other clerks there} were up - stairs , and whether [they]_{5535-other clerks there} all claimed to have the same detrimental mastery of [their]_{5535-other clerks there} fellow - creatures . [I]_249-mike wondered what was the history of all the odd litter about [the room]_{633-the room} , and how it came [there]_4505-there . [I]_249-mike wondered whether the two swollen faces were of [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's family]_{5538-mr. jaggers 's family} , and , if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} were so unfortunate as to have had [a pair of such ill - looking relations]_{5539-a pair of such ill - looking relations} , why [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} stuck them on that dusty perch for [the blacks and flies]_{5540-the blacks and flies} to settle on , instead of giving [them]_{5540-the blacks and flies} a place at [home]_4495-home . Of course [I]_249-mike had no experience of a [London]_8-london summer day , and [my]_249-mike spirits may have been oppressed by the hot exhausted air , and by the dust and grit that lay thick on everything . But [I]_249-mike sat wondering and waiting in [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's close room]_{5542-mr. jaggers 's close room} , until [I]_249-mike really could not bear the two casts on the shelf above [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's chair , and got up and went out . When [I]_249-mike told [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} that [I]_249-mike would take a turn in the air while [I]_249-mike waited , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} advised [me]_249-mike to go round the corner and [I]_249-mike should come into [Smithfield]_{29-smithfield} . So [I]_249-mike came into [Smithfield]_{29-smithfield} ; and [the shameful place]_{5544-the shameful place} , being all asmear with filth and fat and blood and foam , seemed to stick to [me]_249-mike . So , [I]_249-mike rubbed it off with all possible speed by turning into [a street]_{5545-a street} where [I]_249-mike saw [the great black dome of [Saint Paul 's]_{30-saint paul 's}]_{5546-the great black dome of saint paul 's} bulging at [me]_249-mike from behind [a grim stone building which [a bystander]_{5548-a bystander} said was [Newgate Prison]_{31-newgate prison}]_{5547-a grim stone building which a bystander said was newgate prison} . Following the wall of [the jail]_{5549-the jail} , [I]_249-mike found [the roadway]_{5550-the roadway} covered with straw to deaden the noise of [passing vehicles]_{5551-passing vehicles} ; and from this , and from the quantity of [people standing about smelling strongly of spirits]_{5552-people standing about smelling strongly of spirits} and beer , [I]_249-mike inferred that the trials were on . While [I]_249-mike looked about [me]_249-mike here , [an exceedingly dirty and partially drunk minister of justice]_{5553-an exceedingly dirty and partially drunk minister of justice} asked [me]_249-mike if [I]_249-mike would like to step in and hear a trial or so : informing [me]_249-mike that [he]_{5553-an exceedingly dirty and partially drunk minister of justice} could give [me]_249-mike a front place for half a crown , whence [I]_249-mike should command a full view of [the Lord Chief Justice]_{250-the lord chief justice} in [his]_{250-the lord chief justice} wig and robes , - mentioning [that awful personage]_{5554-that awful personage} like waxwork , and presently offering [him]_{250-the lord chief justice} at the reduced price of eighteen - pence . As [I]_249-mike declined the proposal on the plea of an appointment , [he]_{5553-an exceedingly dirty and partially drunk minister of justice} was so good as to take [me]_249-mike into [a yard]_{5555-a yard} and show [me]_249-mike where the gallows was kept , and also where [people]_4539-people were publicly whipped , and then [he]_{5553-an exceedingly dirty and partially drunk minister of justice} showed [me]_249-mike [the Debtors]_{5557-the debtors} ' Door , out of which [culprits]_{5558-culprits} came to be hanged ; heightening the interest of that dreadful portal by giving [me]_249-mike to understand that "_[249-mike] four on 'em " would come out at that door the day after to - morrow at eight in the morning , to be killed in a row . This was horrible , and gave [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} a sickening idea of [London]_8-london ; the more so as [[the Lord Chief Justice]_{5559-the lord chief justice} 's proprietor]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} wore from [his]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} hat down to [his]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} boots and up again to [his]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} pocket - handkerchief inclusive mildewed clothes which had evidently not belonged to [him]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} originally , and which [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} took it into [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} head [he]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} had bought cheap of [the executioner]_{5561-the executioner} . Under these circumstances [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought [myself]_{237-mr. jaggers} well rid of [him]_{5560-the lord chief justice 's proprietor} for a shilling . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} dropped into [the office]_{5562-the office} to ask if [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had come in yet , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} found [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had not , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} strolled out again . This time , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} made the tour of [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , and turned into [Bartholomew Close]_{156-bartholomew close} ; and now [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} became aware that [other people]_{5563-other people} were waiting about for [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , as well as [I.]_{237-mr. jaggers} There were [two men of secret appearance]_{5564-two men of secret appearance} lounging in [Bartholomew Close]_{156-bartholomew close} , and thoughtfully fitting [their]_{5564-two men of secret appearance} feet into the cracks of the pavement as [they]_{5564-two men of secret appearance} talked together , one of whom said to [the other]_{831-the other} when [they]_{5564-two men of secret appearance} first passed [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , that "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} would do it if it was to be done . " There was a knot of [three men]_{5566-three men} and [two women]_{5567-two women} standing at a corner , and [one of [the women]_{5569-the women}]_{5568-one of the women} was crying on [her]_{5568-one of the women} dirty shawl , and [the other]_{831-the other} comforted [her]_{5568-one of the women} by saying , as [she]_{831-the other} pulled [her]_{831-the other} own shawl over [her]_{831-the other} shoulders , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is for [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , ' [Melia]_251-melia , and what more could [you]_251-melia have ? " There was [a red - eyed little Jew who came into the Close while [I]_251-melia was loitering [there]_4505-there]_{5571-a red - eyed little jew who came into the close while i was loitering there} , in company with [a second little Jew whom [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} sent upon an errand]_{5573-a second little jew whom he sent upon an errand} ; and while [the messenger]_{5574-the messenger} was gone , [I]_251-melia remarked [this Jew , who was of a highly excitable temperament]_{5575-this jew , who was of a highly excitable temperament} , performing a jig of anxiety under a lamp - post and accompanying [himself]_{5575-this jew , who was of a highly excitable temperament} , in a kind of frenzy , with the words , "_[251-melia] [O Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} , [Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} , [Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} ! all otherth ith [Cag - Maggerth]_{253-cag - maggerth} , give [me]_0-i [Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} ! " These testimonies to the popularity of [[my]_{253-cag - maggerth} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} made a deep impression on [me]_{253-cag - maggerth} , and [I]_{253-cag - maggerth} admired and wondered more than ever . At length , as [I]_{253-cag - maggerth} was looking out at [the iron gate of [Bartholomew Close]_{156-bartholomew close} into [Little Britain]_{28-little britain}]_{5577-the iron gate of bartholomew close into little britain} , [I]_{253-cag - maggerth} saw [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} coming across [the road]_{1325-the road} towards [me]_{253-cag - maggerth} . [All the others who were waiting]_{5579-all the others who were waiting} saw [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} at the same time , and there was quite a rush at [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , putting a hand on [my]_{253-cag - maggerth} shoulder and walking [me]_{253-cag - maggerth} on at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} side without saying anything to [me]_{253-cag - maggerth} , addressed [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} to [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} followers]_{5580-his followers} . First , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} took [the two secret men]_{5581-the two secret men} . "_{[253-cag - maggerth]} Now , [I]_0-i have nothing to say to [you]_1851-you , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , throwing [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} finger at [them]_1851-you . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i want to know no more than [I]_0-i know . As to the result , it 's a toss - up . [I]_0-i told [you]_1851-you from the first it was a toss - up . Have [you]_1851-you paid Wemmick ? " "_[1851-you] [We]_1852-we made the money up this morning , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [one of [the men]_{5583-the men}]_{5582-one of the men} , submissively , while [the other]_{831-the other} perused [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's face . "_[1852-we] [I]_0-i do n't ask [you]_1851-you when [you]_1851-you made it up , or where , or whether [you]_1851-you made it up at all . Has [Wemmick]_254-wemmick got it ? " "_{[254-wemmick]} Yes , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [both the men]_{5585-both the men} together . "_[4451-sir] Very well ; then [you]_1851-you may go . Now , [I]_0-i wo n't have it ! " said [Mr Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , waving [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand at [them]_{5585-both the men} to put [them]_{5585-both the men} behind [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] If [you]_1851-you say a word to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i 'll throw up the case . " "_[1855-we] [We]_1855-we thought , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} - " [one of [the men]_{5583-the men}]_{5582-one of the men} began , pulling off [his]_{5582-one of the men} hat . "_[1855-we] That 's what [I]_0-i told [you]_1851-you not to do , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[1851-you] [You]_1851-you thought ! [I]_0-i think for [you]_1851-you ; that 's enough for [you]_1851-you . If [I]_0-i want [you]_1851-you , [I]_0-i know where to find [you]_1851-you ; [I]_0-i do n't want [you]_1851-you to find [me]_0-i . Now [I]_0-i wo n't have it . [I]_0-i wo n't hear a word . " [The two men]_{5588-the two men} looked at [one another]_{4584-one another} as [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} waved [them]_{5588-the two men} behind again , and humbly fell back and were heard no more . "_[1851-you] And now [you]_1851-you ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , suddenly stopping , and turning on [the two women with the shawls]_{5590-the two women with the shawls} , from whom [the three men]_{5591-the three men} had meekly separated , - "_[1851-you] Oh ! [Amelia]_255-amelia , is it ? " "_[255-amelia] Yes , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} And do [you]_1851-you remember , " retorted [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[1851-you] that but for [me]_0-i [you]_1851-you would n't be here and could n't be [here]_693-here ? " "_[1851-you] O yes , [sir]_4451-sir ! " exclaimed [both women]_{5592-both women} together . "_[4451-sir] Lord bless [you]_4451-sir , [sir]_4451-sir , well [we]_1859-we knows that ! " "_[4451-sir] Then why , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[4451-sir] do [you]_1851-you come here ? " "_[1851-you] [[My]_0-i Bill]_{1860-my bill} , [sir]_4451-sir ! " [the crying woman]_{5593-the crying woman} pleaded . "_[4451-sir] Now , [I]_0-i tell [you]_1851-you what ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] Once for all . If [you]_1851-you do n't know that [your]_1851-you Bill 's in good hands , [I]_0-i know it . And if [you]_1851-you come here bothering about [your]_1851-you Bill , [I]_0-i 'll make an example of both [your]_1851-you Bill and [you]_1851-you , and let [him]_{1860-my bill} slip through [my]_0-i fingers . Have [you]_1851-you paid [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ? " "_[1851-you] O yes , [sir]_4451-sir ! [Every farden]_{1863-every farden} . " "_{[1863-every farden]} Very well . Then [you]_1851-you have done all [you]_1851-you have got to do . Say another word - one single word - and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick shall give [you]_1851-you [your]_1851-you money back . " This terrible threat caused [the two women]_{5594-the two women} to fall off immediately . [No one]_{4550-no one} remained now but the excitable Jew , who had already raised the skirts of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's coat to [his]_{581-this man} lips several times . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know [this man]_{581-this man} ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , in the same devastating strain : "_{[581-this man]} What does [this fellow]_{1865-this fellow} want ? " "_{[252-mithter jaggerth]} [Ma thear Mithter Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} . Hown brother to [Habraham Latharuth]_{256-habraham latharuth} ? " "_{[581-this man]} Who 's [he]_{581-this man} ? " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_{[581-this man]} Let go of [my]_0-i coat . " [The suitor , kissing the hem of the garment]_{5596-the suitor , kissing the hem of the garment} again before relinquishing it , replied , "_{[581-this man]} [Habraham Latharuth]_{256-habraham latharuth} , on thuthpithion of plate . " "_{[256-habraham latharuth]} [You]_0-i 're too late , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am over the way . " "_{[1866-holy father]} [Holy father]_{1866-holy father} , [Mithter Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} ! " cried [[my]_{256-habraham latharuth} excitable acquaintance]_{5597-my excitable acquaintance} , turning white , "_{[256-habraham latharuth]} do n't [thay]_1867-thay [you]_0-i 're again [Habraham Latharuth]_{256-habraham latharuth} ! " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[0-i] and there 's an end of it . Get out of the way . " "_{[252-mithter jaggerth]} [Mithter Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} ! Half a moment ! [My]_0-i hown cuthen't h gone to Mithter Wemmick at [thith]_1868-thith prethent minute , to hoffer [him]_{581-this man} hany termth . [Mithter Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} ! Half a quarter of a moment ! If [you]_0-i 'd have the condethenthun to be bought off from the t'other thide - at [hany thuperior prithe]_{1869-hany thuperior prithe} ! - money no object ! - [Mithter Jaggerth]_{252-mithter jaggerth} - Mithter - ! " [[My]_{252-mithter jaggerth} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} threw [his]_{1805-my guardian} supplicant off with supreme indifference , and left [him]_{581-this man} dancing on [the pavement]_{5599-the pavement} as if it were red hot . Without further interruption , [we]_5600-we reached [the front office]_{5514-the front office} , where [we]_5600-we found [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} and [the man in velveteen with the fur cap]_{5603-the man in velveteen with the fur cap} . "_{[252-mithter jaggerth]} Here 's [Mike]_249-mike , " said [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} , getting down from [his]_{5516-the clerk} stool , and approaching [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} confidentially . "_[249-mike] Oh ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , turning to [the man]_{433-the man} , who was pulling a lock of hair in the middle of [his]_{433-the man} forehead , like [the Bull in Cock Robin]_{5606-the bull in cock robin} pulling at the bell - rope ; "_{[1870-your man]} [[your]_249-mike man]_{1870-your man} comes on this afternoon . Well ? " "_{[1870-your man]} Well , [Mas'r Jaggers]_{257-mas'r jaggers} , " returned [Mike]_249-mike , in the voice of [a sufferer from a constitutional cold]_{5607-a sufferer from a constitutional cold} ; "_{[257-mas'r jaggers]} arter a deal o ' trouble , [I]_0-i 've found one , [sir]_4451-sir , as might do . " "_[4451-sir] What is [he]_{1870-your man} prepared to swear ? " "_{[1870-your man]} Well , [Mas'r Jaggers]_{257-mas'r jaggers} , " said [Mike]_249-mike , wiping [his]_249-mike nose on [his]_249-mike fur cap this time ; "_{[257-mas'r jaggers]} in a general way , anythink . " [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} suddenly became most irate . "_{[257-mas'r jaggers]} Now , [I]_0-i warned [you]_1872-you before , " said [he]_0-i , throwing [his]_0-i forefinger at [the terrified client]_{5608-the terrified client} , "_[0-i] that if [you]_1872-you ever presumed to talk in that way here , [I]_0-i 'd make an example of [you]_1872-you . [[You]_1872-you infernal scoundrel]_{1873-you infernal scoundrel} , how dare [you]_1872-you tell [ME]_0-i that ? " [The client]_{5609-the client} looked scared , but bewildered too , as if [he]_{5609-the client} were unconscious what [he]_{5609-the client} had done . "_[1872-you] [Spooney]_258-spooney ! " said [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} , in a low voice , giving [him]_258-spooney a stir with [his]_{5516-the clerk} elbow . "_{[258-spooney]} [Soft Head]_{259-soft head} ! Need [you]_1872-you say it face to face ? " "_[1872-you] Now , [I]_0-i ask [you]_1872-you , [you]_1872-you blundering booby , " said [[my]_1872-you guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , very sternly , "_[1872-you] once more and for the last time , what [the man [you]_1872-you have brought [here]_693-here]_{1874-the man you have brought here} is prepared to swear ? " [Mike]_249-mike looked hard at [[my]_{1874-the man you have brought here} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , as if [he]_249-mike were trying to learn a lesson from [his]_249-mike face , and slowly replied , "_{[1874-the man you have brought here]} Ayther to character , or to having been in [his]_{1874-the man you have brought here} company and never left [him]_{1874-the man you have brought here} all the night in question . " "_{[1874-the man you have brought here]} Now , be careful . In what station of life is [this man]_{581-this man} ? " [Mike]_249-mike looked at [his]_249-mike cap , and looked at the floor , and looked at the ceiling , and looked at [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} , and even looked at [me]_1877-me , before beginning to reply in a nervous manner , "_[1877-me] [We]_1877-me 've dressed [him]_{581-this man} up like - " when [[my]_1877-me guardian]_{1805-my guardian} blustered out , - "_[1877-me] What ? [You]_1872-you WILL , will [you]_1872-you ? " "_[1872-you] [Spooney]_258-spooney ! " added [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} again , with another stir . After some helpless casting about , [Mike]_249-mike brightened and began again : - "_{[581-this man]} [He]_{581-this man} is dressed like [a ' spectable pieman]_{1878-a ' spectable pieman} . [A sort of a pastry - cook]_{1879-a sort of a pastry - cook} . " "_{[1879-a sort of a pastry - cook]} Is [he]_{581-this man} [here]_693-here ? " asked [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i left [him]_{581-this man} , " said [Mike]_249-mike , "_{[1879-a sort of a pastry - cook]} a setting on some doorsteps round the corner . " "_[0-i] Take [him]_{581-this man} past that window , and let [me]_0-i see [him]_{581-this man} . " The window indicated was the office window . [We]_5617-we all three went to it , behind the wire blind , and presently saw [the client]_{5609-the client} go by in an accidental manner , with [a murderous - looking tall individual]_{5619-a murderous - looking tall individual} , in a short suit of white linen and a paper cap . [This guileless confectioner]_{5620-this guileless confectioner} was not by any means sober , and had a black eye in the green stage of recovery , which was painted over . "_[0-i] Tell [him]_{581-this man} to take [[his]_{581-this man} witness]_{1881-his witness} away directly , " said [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} to [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} , in extreme disgust , "_[0-i] and ask [him]_{581-this man} what [he]_{581-this man} means by bringing [such a fellow as that]_{1882-such a fellow as that} . " [[My]_{581-this man} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} then took [me]_{581-this man} into [[his]_{581-this man} own room]_{5624-his own room} , and while [he]_{581-this man} lunched , standing , from a sandwich - box and a pocket - flask of sherry [he]_{581-this man} seemed to bully [his]_{581-this man} very sandwich as [he]_{581-this man} ate it , informed [me]_{581-this man} what arrangements [he]_{581-this man} had made for [me]_{581-this man} . [I]_{581-this man} was to go to "_{[581-this man]} [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} , " to [[young Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} 's rooms]_{5625-young mr. pocket 's rooms} , where a bed had been sent in for [[my]_{581-this man} accommodation]_{5626-my accommodation} ; [I]_{581-this man} was to remain with [young Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} until Monday ; on Monday [I]_{581-this man} was to go with [him]_{211-mr. pocket} to [[[his]_{211-mr. pocket} father]_{5627-his father} 's house]_{5628-his father 's house} on a visit , that [I]_{581-this man} might try how [I]_{581-this man} liked it . Also , [I]_{581-this man} was told what [my]_{581-this man} allowance was to be , - it was a very liberal one , - and had handed to [me]_{581-this man} from one of [[my]_{581-this man} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's drawers , the cards of [certain tradesmen with whom [I]_{581-this man} was to deal for all kinds of clothes , and such other things as [I]_{581-this man} could in reason want]_{5630-certain tradesmen with whom i was to deal for all kinds of clothes , and such other things as i could in reason want} . "_{[581-this man]} [You]_1883-you will find [your]_1883-you credit good , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " said [[my]_241-pip guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , whose flask of sherry smelt like a whole caskful , as [he]_0-i hastily refreshed [himself]_0-i , "_[241-pip] but [I]_0-i shall by this means be able to check [your]_1883-you bills , and to pull [you]_1883-you up if [I]_0-i find [you]_1883-you outrunning [the constable]_{1884-the constable} . Of course [you]_1883-you 'll go wrong somehow , but that 's no fault of [mine]_0-i . " After [I]_0-i had pondered a little over this encouraging sentiment , [I]_0-i asked [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} if [I]_0-i could send for [a coach]_{5632-a coach} ? [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} said it was not worth while , [I]_0-i was so near [my]_0-i destination ; [Wemmick]_254-wemmick should walk round with [me]_0-i , if [I]_0-i pleased . [I]_0-i then found that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was [the clerk in [the next room]_{5634-the next room}]_{5633-the clerk in the next room} . [Another clerk]_{5635-another clerk} was rung down from up stairs to take [his]_{5635-another clerk} place while [he]_{5635-another clerk} was out , and [I]_0-i accompanied [him]_{5635-another clerk} into [the street]_{4824-the street} , after shaking hands with [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} . [We]_5638-we found [a new set of people lingering outside]_{5639-a new set of people lingering outside} , but [Wemmick]_254-wemmick made a way among [them]_{5639-a new set of people lingering outside} by saying coolly yet decisively , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i tell [you]_1885-you it 's no use ; [he]_0-i wo n't have a word to say to one of [you]_1885-you ; " and [we]_5638-we soon got clear of [them]_{5639-a new set of people lingering outside} , and went on side by side . Chapter XXI Casting [my]_0-i eyes on [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick as [we]_5638-we went along , to see what [he]_254-wemmick was like in the light of day , [I]_0-i found [him]_254-wemmick to be [a dry man , rather short in stature , with a square wooden face , whose expression seemed to have been imperfectly chipped out with a dull - edged chisel]_{5640-a dry man , rather short in stature , with a square wooden face , whose expression seemed to have been imperfectly chipped out with a dull - edged chisel} . There were some marks in it that might have been dimples , if the material had been softer and the instrument finer , but which , as it was , were only dints . The chisel had made three or four of these attempts at embellishment over [his]_254-wemmick nose , but had given them up without an effort to smooth them off . [I]_0-i judged [him]_254-wemmick to be a bachelor from the frayed condition of [his]_254-wemmick linen , and [he]_254-wemmick appeared to have sustained a good many bereavements ; for [he]_254-wemmick wore at least four mourning rings , besides a brooch representing [a lady]_{5245-a lady} and a weeping willow at a tomb with an urn on it . [I]_0-i noticed , too , that several rings and seals hung at [his]_254-wemmick watch - chain , as if [he]_254-wemmick were quite laden with remembrances of [departed friends]_{5642-departed friends} . [He]_254-wemmick had glittering eyes , - small , keen , and black , - and thin wide mottled lips . [He]_254-wemmick had had them , to the best of [my]_0-i belief , from forty to fifty years . "_[0-i] So [you]_1886-you were never in [London]_8-london before ? " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick to [me]_1886-you . "_[1886-you] No , " said [I.]_0-i "_[1886-you] [I]_0-i was new [here]_693-here once , " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] Rum to think of now ! " "_[0-i] [You]_1886-you are well acquainted with it now ? " "_[1886-you] Why , yes , " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[1886-you] [I]_0-i know the moves of it . " "_[0-i] Is [it]_693-here [a very wicked place]_{1888-a very wicked place} ? " [I]_1886-you asked , more for the sake of saying something than for information . "_[1886-you] [You]_1886-you may get cheated , robbed , and murdered in [London]_8-london . But there are plenty of [people anywhere]_{1889-people anywhere} , who 'll do that for [you]_1886-you . " "_{[1889-people anywhere]} If there is bad blood between [you]_1886-you and [them]_1890-them , " said [I]_{1889-people anywhere} , to soften it off a little . "_{[1889-people anywhere]} O ! [I]_0-i do n't know about bad blood , " returned [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; "_[0-i] there 's not much bad blood about . [They]_1890-them 'll do it , if there 's anything to be got by it . " "_[1890-them] That makes it worse . " "_[1886-you] [You]_1886-you think so ? " returned [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[1886-you] Much about the same , [I]_0-i should say . " [He]_254-wemmick wore [his]_254-wemmick hat on the back of [his]_254-wemmick head , and looked straight before [him]_254-wemmick : walking in a self - contained way as if there were nothing in [the streets]_{5643-the streets} to claim [his]_254-wemmick attention . [His]_254-wemmick mouth was such a post - office of a mouth that [he]_254-wemmick had a mechanical appearance of smiling . [We]_5644-we had got to [the top of [Holborn Hill]_{36-holborn hill}]_{5645-the top of holborn hill} before [I]_1886-you knew that it was merely a mechanical appearance , and that [he]_254-wemmick was not smiling at all . "_[1886-you] Do [you]_0-i know where [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} lives ? " [I]_{211-mr. pocket} asked [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Yes , " said [he]_254-wemmick , nodding in the direction . "_{[211-mr. pocket]} At [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} , [west of [London]_8-london]_{1891-west of london} . " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Is that far ? " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Well ! Say five miles . " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Do [you]_0-i know [him]_{211-mr. pocket} ? " "_[0-i] Why , [you]_0-i 're [a regular cross - examiner]_{1892-a regular cross - examiner} ! " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , looking at [me]_0-i with an approving air . "_[0-i] Yes , [I]_0-i know [him]_{211-mr. pocket} . [I]_0-i know [him]_{211-mr. pocket} ! " There was an air of toleration or depreciation about [his]_254-wemmick utterance of these words that rather depressed [me]_{211-mr. pocket} ; and [I]_{211-mr. pocket} was still looking sideways at [his]_254-wemmick block of a face in search of any encouraging note to the text , when [he]_254-wemmick said here [we]_5646-we were at [[Barnard]_260-barnard 's Inn]_{5647-barnard 's inn} . [My]_{211-mr. pocket} depression was not alleviated by the announcement , for , [I]_{211-mr. pocket} had supposed [that establishment]_{636-that establishment} to be [an hotel kept by [Mr. Barnard]_260-barnard , to which the Blue Boar in [our town]_{5493-our town}]_{5649-an hotel kept by mr. barnard , to which the blue boar in our town} was [a mere public - house]_{5651-a mere public - house} . Whereas [I]_{211-mr. pocket} now found [Barnard]_260-barnard to be [a disembodied spirit , or a fiction]_{5652-a disembodied spirit , or a fiction} , and [[his]_260-barnard inn]_{5653-his inn} the dingiest collection of [shabby buildings ever squeezed together in a rank corner]_{5654-shabby buildings ever squeezed together in a rank corner} as [a club for Tom - cats]_{5655-a club for tom - cats} . [We]_5646-we entered [this haven]_{5656-this haven} through a wicket - gate , and were disgorged by an introductory passage into [a melancholy little square that looked to [me]_{211-mr. pocket} like [a flat burying - ground]_{5658-a flat burying - ground}]_{5657-a melancholy little square that looked to me like a flat burying - ground} . [I]_{211-mr. pocket} thought [it]_{5656-this haven} had the most dismal trees in [it]_{5656-this haven} , and the most dismal sparrows , and the most dismal cats , and [the most dismal houses in number half a dozen or so , that [I]_{211-mr. pocket} had ever seen]_{5659-the most dismal houses in number half a dozen or so , that i had ever seen} . [I]_{211-mr. pocket} thought the windows of [the sets of chambers into which [those houses]_{5661-those houses} were divided]_{5660-the sets of chambers into which those houses were divided} were in every stage of dilapidated blind and curtain , crippled flower - pot , cracked glass , dusty decay , and miserable makeshift ; while To [Let]_261-let , To [Let]_261-let , To Let , glared at [me]_{211-mr. pocket} from [empty rooms]_{5662-empty rooms} , as if no new wretches ever came there , and the vengeance of the soul of [Barnard]_260-barnard were being slowly appeased by the gradual suicide of [the present occupants]_{5663-the present occupants} and [their]_{5663-the present occupants} unholy interment under the gravel . [A frowzy mourning of soot and smoke]_{5664-a frowzy mourning of soot and smoke} attired this forlorn creation of [Barnard]_260-barnard , and it had strewn ashes on its head , and was undergoing penance and humiliation as a mere dust - hole . Thus far [my]_{211-mr. pocket} sense of sight ; while dry rot and wet rot and all the silent rots that rot in neglected roof and [cellar]_5665-cellar , - rot of rat and mouse and bug and coaching - stables near at hand besides - addressed [themselves]_{5663-the present occupants} faintly to [my]_{211-mr. pocket} sense of smell , and moaned , "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Try [Barnard]_260-barnard 's Mixture . " So imperfect was this realization of the first of [my]_260-barnard great expectations , that [I]_260-barnard looked in dismay at [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[260-barnard]} Ah ! " said [he]_0-i , mistaking [me]_260-barnard ; "_{[260-barnard]} the retirement reminds [you]_1893-you of [the country]_{1330-the country} . So it does [me]_0-i . " [He]_0-i led [me]_0-i into a corner and conducted [me]_0-i up [a flight of stairs]_{5666-a flight of stairs} , - which appeared to [me]_0-i to be slowly collapsing into sawdust , so that one of those days [the upper lodgers]_{5667-the upper lodgers} would look out at [their]_{5667-the upper lodgers} doors and find [themselves]_{5667-the upper lodgers} without the means of coming down , - to [a set of chambers on [the top floor]_{5669-the top floor}]_{5668-a set of chambers on the top floor} . [MR . POCKET , JUN .]_{262-mr. pocket} , was painted on the door , and there was a label on the letter - box , "_[0-i] Return shortly . " "_[0-i] [He]_0-i hardly thought [you]_1893-you 'd come so soon , " [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick explained . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i do n't want [me]_0-i any more ? " "_[0-i] No , thank [you]_0-i , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] As [I]_0-i keep the cash , " [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick observed , "_[0-i] [we]_1895-we shall most likely meet pretty often . Good day . " "_[0-i] Good day . " [I]_0-i put out [my]_0-i hand , and [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick at first looked at it as if [he]_254-wemmick thought [I]_0-i wanted something . Then [he]_254-wemmick looked at [me]_0-i , and said , correcting [himself]_254-wemmick , - "_[0-i] To be sure ! Yes . [You]_1893-you 're in the habit of shaking hands ? " [I]_1893-you was rather confused , thinking it must be out of the [London]_8-london fashion , but said yes . "_[1893-you] [I]_0-i have got so out of it ! " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , - "_[0-i] except at last . Very glad , [I]_0-i 'm sure , to make [your]_1893-you acquaintance . Good day ! " When [we]_1895-we had shaken hands and [he]_254-wemmick was gone , [I]_241-pip opened the staircase window and had nearly beheaded [myself]_241-pip , for , the lines had rotted away , and it came down like the guillotine . Happily it was so quick that [I]_241-pip had not put [my]_241-pip head out . After this escape , [I]_241-pip was content to take a foggy view of [the Inn]_{5670-the inn} through the window 's encrusting dirt , and to stand dolefully looking out , saying to [myself]_241-pip that [London]_8-london was decidedly overrated . [Mr. Pocket]_{262-mr. pocket} , [Junior]_263-junior 's , idea of [Shortly]_264-shortly was not [mine]_241-pip , for [I]_241-pip had nearly maddened [myself]_241-pip with looking out for half an hour , and had written [my]_241-pip name with [my]_241-pip finger several times in the dirt of every pane in the window , before [I]_241-pip heard footsteps on the stairs . Gradually there arose before [me]_241-pip the hat , head , neckcloth , waistcoat , trousers , boots , of [a member of society of about [my]_241-pip own standing]_{5671-a member of society of about my own standing} . [He]_{262-mr. pocket} had a paper - bag under each arm and a pottle of strawberries in one hand , and was out of breath . "_[241-pip] [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? " said [he]_{262-mr. pocket} . "_[241-pip] [Mr. Pocket]_{262-mr. pocket} ? " said [I.]_241-pip "_{[262-mr. pocket]} Dear [me]_0-i ! " [he]_{262-mr. pocket} exclaimed . "_{[262-mr. pocket]} [I]_0-i am extremely sorry ; but [I]_0-i knew there was a coach from [[your]_241-pip part of [the country]_{1330-the country}]_{1896-your part of the country} at midday , and [I]_0-i thought [you]_241-pip would come by that one . The fact is , [I]_0-i have been out on [your]_241-pip account , - not that that is any excuse , - for [I]_0-i thought , coming from [the country]_{1330-the country} , [you]_241-pip might like a little fruit after dinner , and [I]_0-i went to [Covent Garden Market]_{38-covent garden market} to get it good . " For a reason that [I]_0-i had , [I]_0-i felt as if [my]_0-i eyes would start out of [my]_0-i head . [I]_0-i acknowledged [his]_0-i attention incoherently , and began to think this was a dream . "_[0-i] Dear [me]_0-i ! " said [Mr. Pocket]_{262-mr. pocket} , [Junior]_263-junior . "_[0-i] This door sticks so ! " As [he]_0-i was fast making jam of [his]_0-i fruit by wrestling with the door while the paper - bags were under [his]_0-i arms , [I]_0-i begged [him]_0-i to allow [me]_0-i to hold them . [He]_0-i relinquished them with an agreeable smile , and combated with the door as if it were a wild beast . It yielded so suddenly at last , that [he]_0-i staggered back upon [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i staggered back upon the opposite door , and [we]_5672-we both laughed . But still [I]_0-i felt as if [my]_0-i eyes must start out of [my]_0-i head , and as if this must be a dream . "_[0-i] Pray come in , " said [Mr. Pocket]_{262-mr. pocket} , [Junior]_263-junior . "_[0-i] Allow [me]_0-i to lead the way . [I]_0-i am rather bare [here]_693-here , but [I]_0-i hope [you]_1900-you 'll be able to make out tolerably well till Monday . [[My]_0-i father]_{400-my father} thought [you]_1900-you would get on more agreeably through to - morrow with [me]_0-i than with [him]_{400-my father} , and might like to take a walk about [London]_8-london . [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i shall be very happy to show [London]_8-london to [you]_1900-you . As to [our]_1902-our table , [you]_1900-you wo n't find that bad , [I]_0-i hope , for it will be supplied from [[our]_1902-our coffee - house]_{1903-our coffee - house} here , and it is only right [I]_0-i should add at [your]_1900-you expense , such being [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's directions . As to [[our]_1902-our lodging]_{1904-our lodging} , it 's not by any means splendid , because [I]_0-i have [my]_0-i own bread to earn , and [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} has n't anything to give [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i should n't be willing to take it , if [he]_{400-my father} had . This is [[our]_1902-our sitting - room]_{1906-our sitting - room} , - just such chairs and tables and carpet and so forth , [you]_1900-you see , as [they]_1907-they could spare from [home]_4495-home . [You]_1900-you must n't give [me]_0-i credit for the tablecloth and spoons and [castors]_1909-castors , because [they]_1907-they come for [you]_1900-you from [the coffee - house]_{1910-the coffee - house} . This is [[my]_0-i little bedroom]_{5153-my little bedroom} ; rather musty , but [Barnard]_260-barnard 's is musty . This is [[your]_1900-you bedroom]_{1912-your bedroom} ; the furniture 's hired for the occasion , but [I]_0-i trust it will answer the purpose ; if [you]_1900-you should want anything , [I]_0-i 'll go and fetch it . [The chambers]_{1913-the chambers} are retired , and [we]_1902-our shall be alone together , but [we]_1902-our sha n't fight , [I]_0-i dare say . But dear [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i beg [your]_1900-you pardon , [you]_1900-you 're holding the fruit all this time . Pray let [me]_0-i take these bags from [you]_1900-you . [I]_0-i am quite ashamed . " As [I]_0-i stood opposite to [Mr. Pocket]_{262-mr. pocket} , [Junior]_263-junior , delivering [him]_{262-mr. pocket} the bags , One , Two , [I]_0-i saw the starting appearance come into [his]_{262-mr. pocket} own eyes that [I]_0-i knew to be in [mine]_0-i , and [he]_{262-mr. pocket} said , falling back , - "_[0-i] Lord bless [me]_0-i , [you]_1900-you 're [the prowling boy]_{1914-the prowling boy} ! " "_[1900-you] And [you]_1900-you , " said [I]_1900-you , "_[1900-you] are [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} ! " Chapter XXII [The pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} and [I]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} stood contemplating [one another]_{4584-one another} in [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} , until [we]_5675-we both burst out laughing . "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} The idea of its being [you]_1900-you ! " said [he]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} . "_{[1311-the pale young gentleman]} The idea of its being [you]_1900-you ! " said [I.]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} And then [we]_5675-we contemplated [one another]_{4584-one another} afresh , and laughed again . "_[1900-you] Well ! " said [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , reaching out [his]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} hand good - humoredly , "_[1900-you] it 's all over now , [I]_0-i hope , and it will be magnanimous in [you]_1900-you if [you]_1900-you 'll forgive [me]_0-i for having knocked [you]_1900-you about so . " [I]_0-i derived from this speech that [Mr. Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert for [Herbert]_265-herbert was [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} 's name still rather confounded [his]_0-i intention with [his]_0-i execution . But [I]_0-i made a modest reply , and [we]_5679-we shook hands warmly . "_[0-i] [You]_1900-you had n't come into [your]_1900-you good fortune at that time ? " said [Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert . "_[1900-you] No , " said [I.]_0-i "_[1900-you] No , " [he]_0-i acquiesced : "_[0-i] [I]_0-i heard it had happened very lately . [I]_0-i was rather on the lookout for good fortune then . " "_[0-i] Indeed ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had sent for [me]_0-i , to see if [she]_{223-miss havisham} could take a fancy to [me]_0-i . But [she]_{223-miss havisham} could n't , - at all events , [she]_{223-miss havisham} did n't . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} thought it polite to remark that [I]_{223-miss havisham} was surprised to hear that . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Bad taste , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , laughing , "_{[223-miss havisham]} but a fact . Yes , [she]_{223-miss havisham} had sent for [me]_0-i on a trial visit , and if [I]_0-i had come out of it successfully , [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i should have been provided for ; perhaps [I]_0-i should have been what - [you]_1916-you - may - called it to [Estella]_195-estella . " "_[1916-you] What 's that ? " [I]_1916-you asked , with sudden gravity . [He]_0-i was arranging [his]_0-i fruit in plates while [we]_5680-we talked , which divided [his]_0-i attention , and was the cause of [his]_0-i having made this lapse of a word . "_[1916-you] Affianced , " [he]_0-i explained , still busy with the fruit . "_[1916-you] [Betrothed]_{1917-betrothed} . [Engaged]_1918-engaged . What's - [his]_1919-his - named . Any word of that sort . " "_[1919-his] How did [you]_0-i bear [your]_0-i disappointment ? " [I]_0-i asked . "_[0-i] Pooh ! " said [he]_0-i , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did n't care much for it . [She]_195-estella 's [a Tartar]_{1920-a tartar} . " "_{[195-estella]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i do n't say no to that , but [I]_0-i meant [Estella]_195-estella . [That girl]_{1921-that girl} 's hard and haughty and capricious to the last degree , and has been brought up by [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} to wreak revenge on [all the male sex]_{1922-all the male sex} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} What relation is [she]_{1921-that girl} to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} None , " said [he]_0-i . "_{[1923-only adopted]} [Only adopted]_{1923-only adopted} . " "_{[1923-only adopted]} Why should [she]_{1921-that girl} wreak revenge on [all the male sex]_{1922-all the male sex} ? What revenge ? " "_[1925-lord] [Lord]_1925-lord , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! " said [he]_0-i . "_[241-pip] Do n't [you]_241-pip know ? " "_[241-pip] No , " said [I.]_241-pip "_[241-pip] [Dear]_1926-dear [me]_0-i ! It 's quite a story , and shall be saved till dinner - time . And now let [me]_0-i take the liberty of asking [you]_241-pip a question . How did [you]_241-pip come [there]_4505-there , that day ? " [I]_241-pip told [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was attentive until [I]_241-pip had finished , and then burst out laughing again , and asked [me]_241-pip if [I]_241-pip was sore afterwards ? [I]_241-pip did n't ask [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was , for [my]_241-pip conviction on that point was perfectly established . "_[241-pip] [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is [[your]_241-pip guardian]_{5339-your guardian} , [I]_0-i understand ? " [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} went on . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Yes . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [You]_241-pip know [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} is [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's man of business and [solicitor]_{1930-solicitor}]_{1929-miss havisham 's man of business and solicitor} , and has [her]_{223-miss havisham} confidence when [nobody else]_{1931-nobody else} has ? " This was bringing [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} felt towards dangerous ground . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} answered with a constraint [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} made no attempt to disguise , that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had seen [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} in [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's house]_{4840-miss havisham 's house} on the very day of [our]_5682-our combat , but never at any other time , and that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} believed [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had no recollection of having ever seen [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} [there]_4505-there . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} was so obliging as to suggest [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} for [[your]_1933-your tutor]_{1934-your tutor} , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} called on [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} to propose it . Of course [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} knew about [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} from [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} connection with [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [[My]_0-i father]_{400-my father} is [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's cousin]_{1938-miss havisham 's cousin} ; not that that implies familiar intercourse between [them]_1939-them , for [he]_{400-my father} is [a bad courtier]_{1940-a bad courtier} and will not propitiate [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " [Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert had a frank and easy way with [him]_{400-my father} that was very taking . [I]_{400-my father} had never seen [any one]_{841-any one} then , and [I]_{400-my father} have never seen [any one]_{841-any one} since , who more strongly expressed to [me]_{400-my father} , in every look and tone , a natural incapacity to do anything secret and mean . There was something wonderfully hopeful about [his]_{400-my father} general air , and something that at the same time whispered to [me]_{400-my father} [he]_{400-my father} would never be very successful or rich . [I]_{400-my father} do n't know how this was . [I]_{400-my father} became imbued with the notion on that first occasion before [we]_5686-we sat down to dinner , but [I]_{400-my father} can not define by what means . [He]_{400-my father} was still [a pale young gentleman]_{5687-a pale young gentleman} , and had a certain conquered languor about [him]_{400-my father} in the midst of [his]_{400-my father} spirits and briskness , that did not seem indicative of natural strength . [He]_{400-my father} had not a handsome face , but it was better than handsome : being extremely amiable and cheerful . [His]_{400-my father} figure was a little ungainly , as in the days when [my]_{400-my father} knuckles had taken such liberties with it , but it looked as if it would always be light and young . Whether [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's local work would have sat more gracefully on [him]_{400-my father} than on [me]_{400-my father} , may be a question ; but [I]_{400-my father} am conscious that [he]_{400-my father} carried off [his]_{400-my father} rather old clothes much better than [I]_{400-my father} carried off [my]_{400-my father} new suit . As [he]_{400-my father} was so communicative , [I]_{400-my father} felt that reserve on [my]_{400-my father} part would be a bad return unsuited to [our]_5686-we years . [I]_{400-my father} therefore told [him]_{400-my father} [my]_{400-my father} small story , and laid stress on [my]_{400-my father} being forbidden to inquire who [[my]_{400-my father} benefactor]_{1501-my benefactor} was . [I]_{400-my father} further mentioned that as [I]_{400-my father} had been brought up [a blacksmith in [a country place]_{5690-a country place}]_{5689-a blacksmith in a country place} , and knew very little of the ways of politeness , [I]_{400-my father} would take it as a great kindness in [him]_{400-my father} if [he]_{400-my father} would give [me]_{400-my father} a hint whenever [he]_{400-my father} saw [me]_{400-my father} at a loss or going wrong . "_{[400-my father]} With pleasure , " said [he]_{400-my father} , "_{[400-my father]} though [I]_0-i venture to prophesy that [you]_1941-i 'll want very few hints . [I]_0-i dare say [we]_1942-we shall be often together , and [I]_0-i should like to banish any needless restraint between [us]_1942-we . Will [you]_1941-i do [me]_0-i the favour to begin at once to call [me]_0-i by [my]_0-i Christian name , [Herbert]_265-herbert ? " [I]_1941-i thanked [him]_{400-my father} and said [I]_1941-i would . [I]_1941-i informed [him]_{400-my father} in exchange that [my]_1941-i Christian name was [Philip]_241-pip . "_[1941-i] [I]_0-i do n't take to [Philip]_241-pip , " said [he]_{400-my father} , smiling , "_[0-i] for it sounds like [a moral boy out of the spelling - book]_{1943-a moral boy out of the spelling - book} , who was so lazy that [he]_0-i fell into [a pond]_{1944-a pond} , or so fat that [he]_0-i could n't see out of [his]_0-i eyes , or so avaricious that [he]_0-i locked up [his]_0-i cake till the mice ate it , or so determined to go a bird's - nesting that [he]_0-i got [himself]_0-i eaten by bears who lived handy in [the neighborhood]_{5023-the neighborhood} . [I]_0-i tell [you]_0-i what [I]_0-i should like . [We]_1946-we are so harmonious , and [you]_0-i have been [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} , - -would [you]_0-i mind it ? " "_{[4506-a blacksmith]} [I]_0-i should n't mind anything that [you]_0-i propose , " [I]_0-i answered , "_[0-i] but [I]_0-i do n't understand [you]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Would [you]_0-i mind [Handel]_266-handel for a familiar name ? There 's a charming piece of music by [Handel]_266-handel , called [the Harmonious Blacksmith]_{1948-the harmonious blacksmith} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should like it very much . " "_[0-i] Then , [my]_0-i dear [Handel]_266-handel , " said [he]_0-i , turning round as the door opened , "_[266-handel] here is the dinner , and [I]_0-i must beg of [you]_266-handel to take the top of the table , because the dinner is of [your]_266-handel providing . " This [I]_266-handel would not hear of , so [he]_0-i took the top , and [I]_266-handel faced [him]_0-i . It was a nice little dinner , - seemed to [me]_266-handel then [a very Lord Mayor]_{5691-a very lord mayor} 's Feast , - and it acquired additional relish from being eaten under those independent circumstances , with [no old people]_{5692-no old people} by , and with [London]_8-london all around [us]_5693-us . This again was heightened by a certain gypsy character that set the banquet off ; for while the table was , as [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} might have said , the lap of luxury , - being entirely furnished forth from [the coffee - house]_{1910-the coffee - house} , - the circumjacent region of [sitting - room]_{5695-sitting - room} was of a comparatively pastureless and shifty character ; imposing on [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} the wandering habits of putting the covers on the floor where [he]_{5696-the waiter} fell over them , the melted butter in the arm - chair , the bread on the bookshelves , the cheese in the coal - scuttle , and the boiled fowl into [my]_266-handel bed in [the next room]_{5634-the next room} , - where [I]_266-handel found much of its parsley and butter in a state of congelation when [I]_266-handel retired for the night . All this made the feast delightful , and when [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} was not there to watch [me]_266-handel , [my]_266-handel pleasure was without alloy . [We]_5693-us had made some progress in the dinner , when [I]_266-handel reminded [Herbert]_265-herbert of [his]_265-herbert promise to tell [me]_266-handel about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_[266-handel] True , " [he]_265-herbert replied . "_[266-handel] [I]_0-i 'll redeem it at once . Let [me]_0-i introduce the topic , [Handel]_266-handel , by mentioning that in [London]_8-london it is not the custom to put the knife in the mouth , - for fear of accidents , - and that while the fork is reserved for that use , it is not put further in than necessary . It is scarcely worth mentioning , only it 's as well to do as [other people]_{5563-other people} do . Also , the spoon is not generally used over - hand , but under . This has two advantages . [You]_1950-you get at [your]_1950-you mouth better which after all is the object , and [you]_1950-you save a good deal of the attitude of opening oysters , on the part of the right elbow . " [He]_265-herbert offered these friendly suggestions in such a lively way , that [we]_0-i both laughed and [I]_1950-you scarcely blushed . "_[1950-you] Now , " [he]_265-herbert pursued , "_{[223-miss havisham]} concerning [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [you]_1950-you must know , was [a spoilt child]_{1951-a spoilt child} . [[Her]_{223-miss havisham} mother]_{1952-her mother} died when [she]_{223-miss havisham} was [a baby]_{1953-a baby} , and [[her]_{223-miss havisham} father]_{1954-her father} denied [her]_{223-miss havisham} nothing . [[Her]_{223-miss havisham} father]_{1954-her father} was [a country gentleman down in [[your]_1950-you part of [the world]_{4698-the world}]_{1957-your part of the world}]_{1956-a country gentleman down in your part of the world} , and was [a brewer]_{1959-a brewer} . [I]_0-i do n't know why it should be a crack thing to be [a brewer]_{1959-a brewer} ; but it is indisputable that while [you]_1950-you can not possibly be genteel and bake , [you]_1950-you may be as genteel as never was and brew . [You]_1950-you see it every day . " "_[1950-you] Yet [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} may not keep a public - house ; may [he]_{4657-a gentleman} ? " said [I.]_0-i "_{[4657-a gentleman]} Not on any account , " returned [Herbert]_265-herbert ; "_{[4657-a gentleman]} but [a public - house]_{1962-a public - house} may keep [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} . Well ! [Mr. Havisham]_{267-mr. havisham} was very rich and very proud . So was [[his]_{267-mr. havisham} daughter]_{1964-his daughter} . " "_{[1964-his daughter]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was [an only child]_{1965-an only child} ? " [I]_{1964-his daughter} hazarded . "_{[1964-his daughter]} Stop a moment , [I]_0-i am coming to that . No , [she]_{223-miss havisham} was not [an only child]_{1965-an only child} ; [she]_{223-miss havisham} had [a half - brother]_{1967-a half - brother} . [[Her]_{223-miss havisham} father]_{1954-her father} privately married again - [[his]_{1954-her father} cook]_{1969-his cook} , [I]_0-i rather think . " "_{[1969-his cook]} [I]_0-i thought [he]_{1954-her father} was proud , " said [I.]_0-i "_{[1954-her father]} [[My]_0-i good Handel]_{1970-my good handel} , so [he]_{1954-her father} was . [He]_{1954-her father} married [[his]_{1954-her father} second wife]_{1971-his second wife} privately , because [he]_{1954-her father} was proud , and in course of time [she]_{1971-his second wife} died . When [she]_{1971-his second wife} was dead , [I]_0-i apprehend [he]_{1954-her father} first told [[his]_{1954-her father} daughter]_{1964-his daughter} what [he]_{1954-her father} had done , and then [the son]_{1973-the son} became a part of [the family]_{4724-the family} , residing in [the house [you]_1976-you are acquainted with]_{1975-the house you are acquainted with} . As [the son]_{1973-the son} grew [a young man]_{4480-a young man} , [he]_{1973-the son} turned out riotous , extravagant , undutiful , - altogether bad . At last [[his]_{1973-the son} father]_{5627-his father} disinherited [him]_{1973-the son} ; but [he]_{5627-his father} softened when [he]_{5627-his father} was dying , and left [him]_{1973-the son} well off , though not nearly so well off as [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . - Take another glass of wine , and excuse [my]_0-i mentioning that society as [a body]_{1980-a body} does not expect [one]_5055-one to be so strictly conscientious in emptying one 's glass , as to turn it bottom upwards with the rim on one 's nose . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} had been doing this , in an excess of attention to [his]_{1973-the son} recital . [I]_{223-miss havisham} thanked [him]_{1973-the son} , and apologized . [He]_{1973-the son} said , "_{[223-miss havisham]} Not at all , " and resumed . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was now [an heiress]_{1982-an heiress} , and [you]_1983-you may suppose was looked after as a great match . [[Her]_{223-miss havisham} half - brother]_{1984-her half - brother} had now ample means again , but what with debts and what with new madness wasted them most fearfully again . There were stronger differences between [him]_{1973-the son} and [her]_{223-miss havisham} than there had been between [him]_{1973-the son} and [[his]_{1973-the son} father]_{5627-his father} , and it is suspected that [he]_{1973-the son} cherished a deep and mortal grudge against [her]_{223-miss havisham} as having influenced [the father]_{1986-the father} 's anger . Now , [I]_0-i come to the cruel part of the story , - merely breaking off , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , to remark that a dinner - napkin will not go into a tumbler . " Why [I]_0-i was trying to pack mine into [my]_0-i tumbler , [I]_0-i am wholly unable to say . [I]_0-i only know that [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i , with a perseverance worthy of a much better cause , making the most strenuous exertions to compress it within those limits . Again [I]_0-i thanked [him]_266-handel and apologized , and again [he]_266-handel said in the cheerfullest manner , "_[0-i] Not at all , [I]_0-i am sure ! " and resumed . "_[0-i] There appeared upon the scene - say at the races , or the public balls , or anywhere else [you]_1988-you like - [a certain man , who made love to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham}]_{1989-a certain man , who made love to miss havisham} . [I]_0-i never saw [him]_{1989-a certain man , who made love to miss havisham} for this happened five - and - twenty years ago , before [you]_1988-you and [I]_0-i were , [Handel]_266-handel , but [I]_0-i have heard [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} mention that [he]_{400-my father} was [a showy man]_{1991-a showy man} , and [the kind of man for the purpose]_{1992-the kind of man for the purpose} . But that [he]_{400-my father} was not to be , without ignorance or prejudice , mistaken for [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} most strongly asseverates ; because it is a principle of [his]_{400-my father} that [no man who was not a true gentleman at heart]_{1995-no man who was not a true gentleman at heart} ever was , since [the world]_{4698-the world} began , [a true gentleman in manner]_{1997-a true gentleman in manner} . [He]_{400-my father} says , no varnish can hide the grain of the wood ; and that the more varnish [you]_1988-you put on , the more the grain will express itself . Well ! [This man]_{581-this man} pursued [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} closely , and professed to be devoted to [her]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i believe [she]_{223-miss havisham} had not shown much susceptibility up to that time ; but all the susceptibility [she]_{223-miss havisham} possessed certainly came out then , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} passionately loved [him]_{581-this man} . There is no doubt that [she]_{223-miss havisham} perfectly idolized [him]_{581-this man} . [He]_{581-this man} practised on [her]_{223-miss havisham} affection in that systematic way , that [he]_{581-this man} got great sums of money from [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and [he]_{581-this man} induced [her]_{223-miss havisham} to buy [[her]_{223-miss havisham} brother]_{1999-her brother} out of a share in the brewery which had been weakly left [him]_{581-this man} by [[his]_{581-this man} father]_{5627-his father} at an immense price , on the plea that when [he]_{581-this man} was [[her]_{223-miss havisham} husband]_{473-her husband} [he]_{581-this man} must hold and manage it all . [[Your]_2002-your guardian]_{5339-your guardian} was not at that time in [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's counsels , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} was too haughty and too much in love to be advised by [any one]_{841-any one} . [Her]_{223-miss havisham} relations were poor and scheming , with the exception of [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} ; [he]_{400-my father} was poor enough , but not time - serving or jealous . [The only independent one among [them]_2007-them]_{2006-the only independent one among them} , [he]_{400-my father} warned [her]_{223-miss havisham} that [she]_{223-miss havisham} was doing too much for [this man]_{581-this man} , and was placing [herself]_{223-miss havisham} too unreservedly in [his]_{400-my father} power . [She]_{223-miss havisham} took the first opportunity of angrily ordering [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} out of [the house]_{604-the house} , in [his]_{400-my father} presence , and [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} has never seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} since . " [I]_{211-mr. pocket} thought of [her]_{223-miss havisham} having said , "_{[211-mr. pocket]} [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} will come and see [me]_0-i at last when [I]_0-i am laid dead upon that table ; " and [I]_{211-mr. pocket} asked [Herbert]_265-herbert whether [[his]_265-herbert father]_{5627-his father} was so inveterate against [her]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[211-mr. pocket]} It 's not that , " said [he]_{211-mr. pocket} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} but [she]_{223-miss havisham} charged [him]_{211-mr. pocket} , in the presence of [[her]_{223-miss havisham} intended husband]_{2012-her intended husband} , with being disappointed in the hope of fawning upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} for [his]_{211-mr. pocket} own advancement , and , if [he]_{211-mr. pocket} were to go to [her]_{223-miss havisham} now , it would look true - even to [him]_{211-mr. pocket} - and even to [her]_{223-miss havisham} . To return to [the man]_{433-the man} and make an end of [him]_{433-the man} . The marriage day was fixed , the wedding dresses were bought , the wedding tour was planned out , [the wedding guests]_{2014-the wedding guests} were invited . The day came , but not [the bridegroom]_{2015-the bridegroom} . [He]_{211-mr. pocket} wrote [her]_{223-miss havisham} a letter - " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Which [she]_{223-miss havisham} received , " [I]_{211-mr. pocket} struck in , "_{[211-mr. pocket]} when [she]_{223-miss havisham} was dressing for [her]_{223-miss havisham} marriage ? At twenty minutes to nine ? " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} At the hour and minute , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , nodding , "_{[223-miss havisham]} at which [she]_{223-miss havisham} afterwards stopped all the clocks . What was in it , further than that it most heartlessly broke the marriage off , [I]_0-i ca n't tell [you]_2016-you , because [I]_0-i do n't know . When [she]_{223-miss havisham} recovered from a bad illness that [she]_{223-miss havisham} had , [she]_{223-miss havisham} laid [the whole place]_{2017-the whole place} waste , as [you]_2016-you have seen [it]_2018-it , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} has never since looked upon the light of day . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Is that all the story ? " [I]_{223-miss havisham} asked , after considering it . "_{[223-miss havisham]} All [I]_0-i know of it ; and indeed [I]_0-i only know so much , through piecing it out for [myself]_0-i ; for [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} always avoids it , and , even when [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} invited [me]_0-i to go [there]_4505-there , told [me]_0-i no more of it than it was absolutely requisite [I]_0-i should understand . But [I]_0-i have forgotten one thing . It has been supposed that [the man to whom [she]_{223-miss havisham} gave [her]_{223-miss havisham} misplaced confidence]_{2021-the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence} acted throughout in concert with [[her]_{223-miss havisham} half - brother]_{1984-her half - brother} ; that it was a conspiracy between [them]_2023-them ; and that [they]_2023-them shared the profits . " "_{[2021-the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence]} [I]_0-i wonder [he]_{2021-the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence} did n't marry [her]_{223-miss havisham} and get all the property , " said [I.]_0-i "_{[2021-the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence]} [He]_{2021-the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence} may have been married already , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} cruel mortification may have been a part of [[her]_{223-miss havisham} half - brother]_{1984-her half - brother} 's scheme , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Mind ! [I]_0-i do n't know that . " "_[0-i] What became of [the two men]_{5588-the two men} ? " [I]_{5588-the two men} asked , after again considering the subject . "_{[5588-the two men]} [They]_{5588-the two men} fell into deeper shame and degradation - if there can be deeper - and ruin . " "_{[5588-the two men]} Are [they]_{5588-the two men} alive now ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i said just now that [Estella]_195-estella was not related to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , but adopted . When adopted ? " [Herbert]_265-herbert shrugged [his]_265-herbert shoulders . "_[0-i] There has always been an [Estella]_195-estella , since [I]_0-i have heard of a [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i know no more . And now , [Handel]_266-handel , " said [he]_265-herbert , finally throwing off the story as it were , "_[266-handel] there is a perfectly open understanding between [us]_{5588-the two men} . All that [I]_0-i know about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [you]_0-i know . " "_[0-i] And all that [I]_0-i know , " [I]_0-i retorted , "_[0-i] [you]_0-i know . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i fully believe it . So there can be no competition or perplexity between [you]_0-i and [me]_0-i . And as to the condition on which [you]_0-i hold [your]_0-i advancement in life , - namely , that [you]_0-i are not to inquire or discuss to whom [you]_0-i owe it , - [you]_0-i may be very sure that it will never be encroached upon , or even approached , by [me]_0-i , or by [any one belonging to [me]_0-i]_{2026-any one belonging to me} . " In truth , [he]_265-herbert said this with so much delicacy , that [I]_{2027-a capitalist} felt the subject done with , even though [I]_{2027-a capitalist} should be under [[his]_265-herbert father]_{5627-his father} 's roof for years and years to come . Yet [he]_265-herbert said it with so much meaning , too , that [I]_{2027-a capitalist} felt [he]_265-herbert as perfectly understood [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} to be [[my]_{2027-a capitalist} benefactress]_{5701-my benefactress} , as [I]_{2027-a capitalist} understood the fact [myself]_{2027-a capitalist} . It had not occurred to [me]_{2027-a capitalist} before , that [he]_265-herbert had led up to the theme for the purpose of clearing it out of [our]_5702-we way ; but [we]_5702-we were so much the lighter and easier for having broached it , that [I]_{2027-a capitalist} now perceived this to be the case . [We]_5702-we were very gay and sociable , and [I]_{2027-a capitalist} asked [him]_265-herbert , in the course of conversation , what [he]_265-herbert was ? [He]_265-herbert replied , "_{[2027-a capitalist]} [A capitalist]_{2027-a capitalist} , - [an Insurer of Ships]_{2028-an insurer of ships} . " [I]_{2027-a capitalist} suppose [he]_265-herbert saw [me]_{2027-a capitalist} glancing about [the room]_{633-the room} in search of some tokens of Shipping , or capital , for [he]_265-herbert added , "_{[2027-a capitalist]} In [the City]_{2029-the city} . " [I]_0-i had grand ideas of the wealth and importance of [Insurers of Ships in [the City]_{2029-the city}]_{5704-insurers of ships in the city} , and [I]_0-i began to think with awe of having laid [a young Insurer]_{5706-a young insurer} on [his]_265-herbert back , blackened [his]_265-herbert enterprising eye , and cut [his]_265-herbert responsible head open . But again there came upon [me]_0-i , for [my]_0-i relief , that odd impression that [Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert would never be very successful or rich . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i shall not rest satisfied with merely employing [my]_0-i capital in [insuring ships]_{2030-insuring ships} . [I]_0-i shall buy up some good Life Assurance shares , and cut into the Direction . [I]_0-i shall also do a little in the mining way . None of these things will interfere with [my]_0-i chartering a few thousand tons on [my]_0-i own account . [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i shall trade , " said [he]_0-i , leaning back in [his]_0-i chair , "_[0-i] to the [East Indies]_{39-east indies} , for silks , shawls , spices , dyes , drugs , and precious woods . It 's an interesting trade . " "_[0-i] And the profits are large ? " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] Tremendous ! " said [he]_0-i . [I]_0-i wavered again , and began to think here were greater expectations than [my]_0-i own . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i shall trade , also , " said [he]_0-i , putting [his]_0-i thumbs in [his]_0-i waist - coat pockets , "_[0-i] to [the West Indies]_{40-the west indies} , for sugar , tobacco , and rum . Also to [Ceylon]_41-ceylon , specially for elephants ' tusks . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i will want [a good many ships]_{2031-a good many ships} , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] A perfect fleet , " said [he]_0-i . Quite overpowered by the magnificence of these transactions , [I]_0-i asked [him]_0-i where [the ships [he]_0-i insured mostly traded to at present]_{5707-the ships he insured mostly traded to at present} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have n't begun insuring yet , " [he]_0-i replied . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am looking about [me]_0-i . " Somehow , that pursuit seemed more in keeping with [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} . [I]_0-i said in a tone of conviction , "_[0-i] Ah - h ! " "_[0-i] Yes . [I]_0-i am in [a counting - house]_{2032-a counting - house} , and looking about [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Is [a counting - house]_{2032-a counting - house} profitable ? " [I]_0-i asked . "_[0-i] To - do [you]_0-i mean to [the young fellow who 's in it]_{2034-the young fellow who 's in it} ? " [he]_0-i asked , in reply . "_[0-i] Yes ; to [you]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Why , n - no ; not to [me]_0-i . " [He]_0-i said this with the air of one carefully reckoning up and striking a balance . "_[0-i] Not directly profitable . That is , it does n't pay [me]_0-i anything , and [I]_0-i have to - keep [myself]_0-i . " This certainly had not a profitable appearance , and [I]_0-i shook [my]_0-i head as if [I]_0-i would imply that it would be difficult to lay by much accumulative capital from such a source of income . "_[0-i] But the thing is , " said [Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] that [you]_0-i look about [you]_0-i . That 's the grand thing . [You]_0-i are in [a counting - house]_{2032-a counting - house} , [you]_0-i know , and [you]_0-i look about [you]_0-i . " It struck [me]_0-i as a singular implication that [you]_0-i could n't be out of [a counting - house]_{2032-a counting - house} , [you]_0-i know , and look about [you]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i silently deferred to [his]_0-i experience . "_[0-i] Then the time comes , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] when [you]_0-i see [your]_0-i opening . And [you]_0-i go in , and [you]_0-i swoop upon it and [you]_0-i make [your]_0-i capital , and then there [you]_0-i are ! When [you]_0-i have once made [your]_0-i capital , [you]_0-i have nothing to do but employ it . " This was very like [his]_0-i way of conducting that encounter in [the garden]_{1303-the garden} ; very like . [His]_0-i manner of bearing [his]_0-i poverty , too , exactly corresponded to [his]_0-i manner of bearing that defeat . It seemed to [me]_2036-mamma that [he]_0-i took all blows and buffets now with just the same air as [he]_0-i had taken [mine]_2036-mamma then . It was evident that [he]_0-i had nothing around [him]_0-i but the simplest necessaries , for everything that [I]_2036-mamma remarked upon turned out to have been sent in on [my]_2036-mamma account from [the coffee - house]_{1910-the coffee - house} or somewhere else . Yet , having already made [his]_0-i fortune in [his]_0-i own mind , [he]_0-i was so unassuming with it that [I]_2036-mamma felt quite grateful to [him]_0-i for not being puffed up . It was a pleasant addition to [his]_0-i naturally pleasant ways , and [we]_5711-we got on famously . In the evening [we]_5711-we went out for a walk in [the streets]_{5643-the streets} , and went half - price to [the Theatre]_{5713-the theatre} ; and next day [we]_5711-we went to church at [Westminster Abbey]_{42-westminster abbey} , and in the afternoon [we]_5711-we walked in [the Parks]_{5714-the parks} ; and [I]_2036-mamma wondered who shod all the horses there , and wished [Joe]_154-joe did . On a moderate computation , it was many months , that Sunday , since [I]_2036-mamma had left [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy . The space interposed between [myself]_2036-mamma and [them]_5715-them partook of that expansion , and [[our]_5711-we marshes]_{1505-our marshes} were any distance off . That [I]_2036-mamma could have been at [[our]_5711-we old church]_{5717-our old church} in [[my]_2036-mamma old church]_{5718-my old church} - going clothes , on the very last Sunday that ever was , seemed a combination of impossibilities , geographical and social , solar and lunar . Yet in [the [London]_8-london streets]_{5719-the london streets} so crowded with [people]_4539-people and so brilliantly lighted in the dusk of evening , there were depressing hints of reproaches for that [I]_2036-mamma had put [the poor old kitchen at [home]_4495-home so far away]_{5721-the poor old kitchen at home so far away} ; and in the dead of night , the footsteps of [some incapable impostor of a porter]_{5723-some incapable impostor of a porter} mooning about [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} , under pretence of watching it , fell hollow on [my]_2036-mamma heart . On the Monday morning at a quarter before nine , [Herbert]_265-herbert went to [the counting - house]_{5724-the counting - house} to report [himself]_265-herbert , - to look about [him]_265-herbert , too , [I]_2036-mamma suppose , - and [I]_2036-mamma bore [him]_265-herbert company . [He]_265-herbert was to come away in an hour or two to attend [me]_2036-mamma to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} , and [I]_2036-mamma was to wait about for [him]_265-herbert . It appeared to [me]_2036-mamma that the eggs from which [young Insurers]_{5725-young insurers} were hatched were incubated in dust and heat , like the eggs of ostriches , judging from the places to which [those incipient giants]_{5726-those incipient giants} repaired on a Monday morning . Nor did [the counting - house]_{5724-the counting - house} where [Herbert]_265-herbert assisted , show in [my]_2036-mamma eyes as at all [a good Observatory]_{5728-a good observatory} ; being a back second floor up [a yard]_{5555-a yard} , of a grimy presence in all particulars , and with a look into [another back second floor]_{5730-another back second floor} , rather than a look out . [I]_2036-mamma waited about until it was noon , and [I]_2036-mamma went upon ' [Change]_44-change , and [I]_2036-mamma saw [fluey men sitting there under the bills about shipping]_{5731-fluey men sitting there under the bills about shipping} , whom [I]_2036-mamma took to be [great merchants]_{5732-great merchants} , though [I]_2036-mamma could n't understand why [they]_{5731-fluey men sitting there under the bills about shipping} should all be out of spirits . When [Herbert]_265-herbert came , [we]_5733-we went and had lunch at [a celebrated house which [I]_2036-mamma then quite venerated , but now believe to have been the most abject superstition in [Europe]_45-europe]_{5734-a celebrated house which i then quite venerated , but now believe to have been the most abject superstition in europe} , and where [I]_2036-mamma could not help noticing , even then , that there was much more gravy on the tablecloths and knives and [waiters]_5735-waiters ' clothes , than in the steaks . This collation disposed of at a moderate price considering the grease , which was not charged for , [we]_5733-we went back to [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} and got [my]_2036-mamma little portmanteau , and then took [coach]_5736-coach for [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} . [We]_5733-we arrived [there]_4505-there at two or three o'clock in the afternoon , and had very little way to walk to [[Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's house]_{5738-mr. pocket 's house} . Lifting the latch of a gate , [we]_5733-we passed direct into a little garden overlooking [the river]_{413-the river} , where [[Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's children]_{5740-mr. pocket 's children} were playing about . And unless [I]_2036-mamma deceive [myself]_2036-mamma on a point where [my]_2036-mamma interests or prepossessions are certainly not concerned , [I]_2036-mamma saw that [Mr.]_5741-mr. and [[Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's children]_{5742-mrs. pocket 's children} were not growing up or being brought up , but were tumbling up . [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} was sitting on a garden chair under a tree , reading , with [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} legs upon another garden chair ; and [[Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's two [nurse - maids]_{5744-nurse - maids}]_{5743-mrs. pocket 's two nurse - maids} were looking about [them]_{5740-mr. pocket 's children} while [the children]_{5012-the children} played . "_[2036-mamma] [Mamma]_2036-mamma , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[2036-mamma] this is young [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . " Upon which [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} received [me]_241-pip with an appearance of amiable dignity . "_[241-pip] [Master Alick]_{269-master alick} and [Miss Jane]_270-jane , " cried [one of [the nurses]_{5747-the nurses} to [two of [the children]_{5012-the children}]_{5748-two of the children}]_{5746-one of the nurses to two of the children} , "_[241-pip] if [you]_2037-you go a bouncing up against [them]_2038-them bushes [you]_2037-you 'll fall over into [the river]_{413-the river} and be drownded , and what 'll [[your]_2037-you pa]_{2040-your pa} say then ? " At the same time [this nurse]_{5750-this nurse} picked up [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's handkerchief , and said , "_{[2040-your pa]} If that do n't make six times [you]_2037-you 've dropped it , [Mum]_174-mum ! " Upon which [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} laughed and said , "_[174-mum] Thank [you]_2041-you , [Flopson]_271-flopson , " and settling [herself]_{268-mrs. pocket} in one chair only , resumed [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} book . [Her]_{268-mrs. pocket} countenance immediately assumed a knitted and intent expression as if [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} had been reading for a week , but before [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} could have read half a dozen lines , [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} fixed [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} eyes upon [me]_271-flopson , and said , "_{[271-flopson]} [I]_0-i hope [[your]_2037-you mamma]_{2042-your mamma} is quite well ? " This unexpected inquiry put [me]_{2042-your mamma} into such a difficulty that [I]_{2042-your mamma} began saying in the absurdest way that if there had been [any such person]_{5751-any such person} [I]_{2042-your mamma} had no doubt [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} would have been quite well and would have been very much obliged and would have sent [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} compliments , when [the nurse]_{5752-the nurse} came to [my]_{2042-your mamma} rescue . "_{[2042-your mamma]} Well ! " [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} cried , picking up the pocket - handkerchief , "_{[271-flopson]} if that do n't make seven times ! What ARE [you]_2037-you a doing of this afternoon , [Mum]_2043-mum ! " [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} received [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} property , at first with a look of unutterable surprise as if [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} had never seen it before , and then with a laugh of recognition , and said , "_[2043-mum] Thank [you]_2037-you , [Flopson]_271-flopson , " and forgot [me]_271-flopson , and went on reading . [I]_271-flopson found , now [I]_271-flopson had leisure to count them , that there were no fewer than six little Pockets present , in various stages of tumbling up . [I]_271-flopson had scarcely arrived at the total when a seventh was heard , as in [the region of air]_{5753-the region of air} , wailing dolefully . "_{[271-flopson]} If there ai n't [Baby]_272-baby ! " said [Flopson]_271-flopson , appearing to think it most surprising . "_{[2044-millers]} Make haste up , [Millers]_2044-millers . " [Millers]_271-flopson , who was [the other nurse]_{5754-the other nurse} , retired into [the house]_{604-the house} , and by degrees [the child]_{1037-the child} 's wailing was hushed and stopped , as if it were a young ventriloquist with something in its mouth . [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} read all the time , and [I]_2044-millers was curious to know what the book could be . [We]_5757-we were waiting , [I]_2044-millers supposed , for [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert to come out to [us]_5757-we ; at any rate [we]_5757-we waited [there]_4505-there , and so [I]_2044-millers had an opportunity of observing the remarkable family phenomenon that whenever [any of [the children]_{5012-the children}]_{5759-any of the children} strayed near [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} in [their]_{5759-any of the children} play , [they]_{5759-any of the children} always tripped [themselves]_{5759-any of the children} up and tumbled over [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} , - always very much to [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} momentary astonishment , and [their]_{5759-any of the children} own more enduring lamentation . [I]_2044-millers was at a loss to account for this surprising circumstance , and could not help giving [my]_2044-millers mind to speculations about it , until by and by [Millers]_271-flopson came down with [the baby]_{5761-the baby} , which baby was handed to [Flopson]_271-flopson , which [Flopson]_271-flopson was handing it to [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , when [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} too went fairly head foremost over [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , [baby]_5762-baby and all , and was caught by [Herbert]_265-herbert and [myself]_2044-millers . "_{[2044-millers]} Gracious [me]_0-i , [Flopson]_271-flopson ! " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , looking off [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} book for a moment , "_[0-i] [everybody]_{678-everybody} 's tumbling ! " "_[0-i] Gracious [you]_0-i , indeed , [Mum]_174-mum ! " returned [Flopson]_271-flopson , very red in the face ; "_[174-mum] what have [you]_0-i got there ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i got [here]_693-here , [Flopson]_271-flopson ? " asked [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . "_{[271-flopson]} Why , if it ai n't [your]_0-i footstool ! " cried [Flopson]_271-flopson . "_[0-i] And if [you]_0-i keep it under [your]_0-i skirts like that , who 's to help tumbling ? Here ! Take [the baby]_{5761-the baby} , [Mum]_174-mum , and give [me]_0-i [your]_0-i book . " [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} acted on the advice , and inexpertly danced [the infant]_{5763-the infant} a little in [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} lap , while [the other children]_{5764-the other children} played about it . This had lasted but a very short time , when [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} issued summary orders that [they]_{5764-the other children} were all to be taken into [the house]_{604-the house} for a nap . Thus [I]_0-i made the second discovery on that first occasion , that the nurture of [the little Pockets]_{273-the little pockets} consisted of alternately tumbling up and lying down . Under these circumstances , when [Flopson]_271-flopson and [Millers]_271-flopson had got [the children]_{5012-the children} into [the house]_{604-the house} , like a little flock of sheep , and [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert came out of [it]_{604-the house} to make [my]_0-i acquaintance , [I]_0-i was not much surprised to find that [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert was [a gentleman with a rather perplexed expression of face]_{5768-a gentleman with a rather perplexed expression of face} , and with [his]_265-herbert very gray hair disordered on [his]_265-herbert head , as if [he]_265-herbert did n't quite see [his]_265-herbert way to putting anything straight . Chapter XXIII [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert said [he]_265-herbert was glad to see [me]_0-i , and [he]_265-herbert hoped [I]_0-i was not sorry to see [him]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] For , [I]_0-i really am not , " [he]_265-herbert added , with [[his]_265-herbert son]_{5348-his son} 's smile , "_{[2048-an alarming personage]} [an alarming personage]_{2048-an alarming personage} . " [He]_265-herbert was [a young - looking man]_{5770-a young - looking man} , in spite of [his]_265-herbert perplexities and [his]_265-herbert very gray hair , and [his]_265-herbert manner seemed quite natural . [I]_274-belinda use the word natural , in the sense of its being unaffected ; there was something comic in [his]_265-herbert distraught way , as though it would have been downright ludicrous but for [his]_265-herbert own perception that it was very near being so . When [he]_265-herbert had talked with [me]_274-belinda a little , [he]_265-herbert said to [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , with a rather anxious contraction of [his]_265-herbert eyebrows , which were black and handsome , "_{[274-belinda]} [Belinda]_274-belinda , [I]_0-i hope [you]_274-belinda have welcomed [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? " And [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} looked up from [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} book , and said , "_[241-pip] Yes . " [She]_{268-mrs. pocket} then smiled upon [me]_241-pip in an absent state of mind , and asked [me]_241-pip if [I]_241-pip liked the taste of orange - flower water ? As the question had no bearing , near or remote , on any foregone or subsequent transaction , [I]_241-pip consider it to have been thrown out , like [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} previous approaches , in general conversational condescension . [I]_241-pip found out within a few hours , and may mention at once , that [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} was [the only daughter of [a certain quite accidental deceased Knight]_{5772-a certain quite accidental deceased knight} , who had invented for [himself]_265-herbert a conviction that [[his]_265-herbert deceased father]_{5773-his deceased father} would have been made [a Baronet]_{5774-a baronet} but for [somebody]_591-somebody 's determined opposition arising out of entirely personal motives]_{5771-the only daughter of a certain quite accidental deceased knight , who had invented for himself a conviction that his deceased father would have been made a baronet but for somebody 's determined opposition arising out of entirely personal motives} , - [I]_241-pip forget whose , if [I]_241-pip ever knew , - [the Sovereign]_{5776-the sovereign} 's , [the Prime Minister]_{5777-the prime minister} 's , [the Lord Chancellor]_{5778-the lord chancellor} 's , [the Archbishop of [Canterbury]_{46-canterbury} 's]_{5779-the archbishop of canterbury 's} , [anybody]_4526-anybody 's , - and had tacked [himself]_265-herbert on to [the nobles of [the earth]_{5782-the earth}]_{5781-the nobles of the earth} in right of this quite supposititious fact . [I]_241-pip believe [he]_265-herbert had been knighted [himself]_265-herbert for storming the English grammar at the point of the pen , in a desperate address engrossed on vellum , on the occasion of the laying of the first stone of [some building]_{5783-some building} or other , and for handing [some Royal Personage]_{5784-some royal personage} either the trowel or the mortar . Be that as it may , [he]_265-herbert had directed [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} to be brought up from [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} cradle as [one who in the nature of things must marry a title , and who was to be guarded from the acquisition of plebeian domestic knowledge]_{5785-one who in the nature of things must marry a title , and who was to be guarded from the acquisition of plebeian domestic knowledge} . So successful a watch and ward had been established over [the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} by [this judicious parent]_{5787-this judicious parent} , that [she]_{5786-the young lady} had grown up highly ornamental , but perfectly helpless and useless . With [her]_{5786-the young lady} character thus happily formed , in the first bloom of [her]_{5786-the young lady} youth [she]_{5786-the young lady} had encountered [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert : who was [also in the first bloom of youth , and not quite decided whether to mount to the Woolsack]_{5788-also in the first bloom of youth , and not quite decided whether to mount to the woolsack} , or to roof [himself]_265-herbert in with a mitre . As [his]_265-herbert doing the one or the other was a mere question of time , [he]_265-herbert and [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} had taken Time by the forelock when , to judge from its length , it would seem to have wanted cutting , and had married without the knowledge of [the judicious parent]_{5789-the judicious parent} . [The judicious parent]_{5789-the judicious parent} , having nothing to bestow or withhold but [his]_265-herbert blessing , had handsomely settled that dower upon [them]_5791-them after a short struggle , and had informed [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert that [[his]_265-herbert wife]_{1585-his wife} was "_[241-pip] a treasure for [a Prince]_{2049-a prince} . " [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert had invested [the Prince]_{5793-the prince} 's treasure in the ways of [the world]_{4698-the world} ever since , and it was supposed to have brought [him]_265-herbert in but indifferent interest . Still , [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} was in general the object of a queer sort of respectful pity , because [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} had not married a title ; while [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert was the object of a queer sort of forgiving reproach , because [he]_265-herbert had never got one . [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert took [me]_698-ma'am into [the house]_{604-the house} and showed [me]_698-ma'am [[my]_698-ma'am room]_{555-my room} : which was a pleasant one , and so furnished as that [I]_698-ma'am could use [it]_{555-my room} with comfort for [[my]_698-ma'am own private sitting - room]_{5797-my own private sitting - room} . [He]_265-herbert then knocked at the doors of [two other similar rooms]_{5798-two other similar rooms} , and introduced [me]_698-ma'am to [[their]_{5798-two other similar rooms} occupants]_{5799-their occupants} , by name [Drummle]_275-drummle and [Startop]_276-startop . [Drummle]_275-drummle , [an old - looking young man of a heavy order of architecture]_{5800-an old - looking young man of a heavy order of architecture} , was whistling . [Startop , younger in years and appearance]_{5801-startop , younger in years and appearance} , was reading and holding [his]_{5801-startop , younger in years and appearance} head , as if [he]_{5801-startop , younger in years and appearance} thought [himself]_{5801-startop , younger in years and appearance} in danger of exploding it with too strong a charge of knowledge . Both [Mr.]_5802-mr. and [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} had such a noticeable air of being in [somebody else]_{5003-somebody else} 's hands , that [I]_698-ma'am wondered who really was in possession of [the house]_{604-the house} and let [them]_{5799-their occupants} live [there]_4505-there , until [I]_698-ma'am found this unknown power to be [the servants]_{5806-the servants} . It was a smooth way of going on , perhaps , in respect of saving trouble ; but it had the appearance of being expensive , for [the servants]_{5806-the servants} felt it a duty [they]_{5806-the servants} owed to [themselves]_{5806-the servants} to be nice in [their]_{5806-the servants} eating and drinking , and to keep a deal of company down [stairs]_539-stairs . [They]_{5806-the servants} allowed a very liberal table to [Mr.]_5809-mr. and [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , yet it always appeared to [me]_698-ma'am that by far the best part of [the house]_{604-the house} to have boarded in would have been [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , - always supposing [the boarder capable of self - defence]_{5812-the boarder capable of self - defence} , for , before [I]_698-ma'am had been [there]_4505-there a week , [a neighboring lady with whom [the family]_{4724-the family} were personally unacquainted]_{5814-a neighboring lady with whom the family were personally unacquainted} , wrote in to say that [she]_{5814-a neighboring lady with whom the family were personally unacquainted} had seen [Millers]_271-flopson slapping [the baby]_{5761-the baby} . This greatly distressed [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , who burst into tears on receiving the note , and said that it was an extraordinary thing that [the neighbors]_{472-the neighbors} could n't mind [their]_{472-the neighbors} own business . By degrees [I]_698-ma'am learnt , and chiefly from [Herbert]_265-herbert , that [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert had been educated at [Harrow]_47-harrow and at [Cambridge]_48-cambridge , where [he]_265-herbert had distinguished [himself]_265-herbert ; but that when [he]_265-herbert had had the happiness of marrying [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} very early in life , [he]_265-herbert had impaired [his]_265-herbert prospects and taken up the calling of [a Grinder]_{5818-a grinder} . After grinding a number of dull blades , - of whom it was remarkable that [[their]_5819-their fathers]_{5820-their fathers} , when influential , were always going to help [him]_265-herbert to preferment , but always forgot to do it when the blades had left [the Grindstone]_{49-the grindstone} , - [he]_265-herbert had wearied of that poor work and had come to [London]_8-london . Here , after gradually failing in loftier hopes , [he]_265-herbert had "_[698-ma'am] read " with divers who had lacked opportunities or neglected [them]_5821-them , and had refurbished [divers others]_{5822-divers others} for special occasions , and had turned [his]_265-herbert acquirements to the account of literary compilation and correction , and on such means , added to some very moderate private resources , still maintained [the house]_{604-the house} [I]_698-ma'am saw . [Mr.]_5824-mr. and [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} had [a toady neighbor]_{5825-a toady neighbor} ; [a widow lady of that highly sympathetic nature]_{5826-a widow lady of that highly sympathetic nature} that [she]_{5825-a toady neighbor} agreed with [everybody]_{678-everybody} , blessed [everybody]_{678-everybody} , and shed smiles and tears on [everybody]_{678-everybody} , according to circumstances . [This lady]_{1240-this lady} 's name was [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} , and [I]_698-ma'am had the honor of taking [her]_{1240-this lady} down to dinner on the day of [my]_698-ma'am installation . [She]_{1240-this lady} gave [me]_698-ma'am to understand on the stairs , that it was a blow to [dear Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} that [dear Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert should be under the necessity of receiving [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} to read with [him]_265-herbert . That did not extend to [me]_698-ma'am , [she]_{1240-this lady} told [me]_698-ma'am in a gush of love and confidence at that time , [I]_698-ma'am had known [her]_{1240-this lady} something less than five minutes ; if [they]_{4982-gentlemen} were all like [Me]_698-ma'am , it would be quite another thing . "_[698-ma'am] But [dear Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , " said [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} , "_{[268-mrs. pocket]} after [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} early disappointment not that [dear Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert was to blame in that , requires so much luxury and elegance - " "_[698-ma'am] Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am , " [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} said , to stop [her]_{1240-this lady} , for [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} was afraid [she]_{1240-this lady} was going to cry . "_{[268-mrs. pocket]} And [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} is of so aristocratic a disposition - " "_[698-ma'am] Yes , [ma'am]_698-ma'am , " [I]_698-ma'am said again , with the same object as before . "_[698-ma'am] - That it is hard , " said [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} , "_[698-ma'am] to have [dear Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's time and attention diverted from [dear Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . " [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} could not help thinking that it might be harder if [the butcher]_{697-the butcher} 's time and attention were diverted from [dear Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} ; but [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} said nothing , and indeed had enough to do in keeping a bashful watch upon [my]_{268-mrs. pocket} company manners . It came to [my]_{268-mrs. pocket} knowledge , through what passed between [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} and [Drummle]_275-drummle while [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} was attentive to [my]_{268-mrs. pocket} knife and fork , spoon , glasses , and other instruments of self - destruction , that [Drummle]_275-drummle , whose Christian name was [Bentley]_278-drummle , was actually [the next heir but one to a baronetcy]_{5833-the next heir but one to a baronetcy} . It further appeared that the book [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} had seen [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} reading in [the garden]_{1303-the garden} was all about titles , and that [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} knew the exact date at which [[her]_{268-mrs. pocket} grandpapa]_{5835-her grandpapa} would have come into the book , if [he]_{5835-her grandpapa} ever had come at all . [Drummle]_275-drummle did n't say much , but in [his]_275-drummle limited way [he]_275-drummle struck [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} as a sulky kind of fellow [he]_275-drummle spoke as [one of the elect]_{5836-one of the elect} , and recognized [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} as [a woman]_{943-a woman} and [a sister]_{5838-a sister} . [No one]_{4550-no one} but [themselves]_{4550-no one} and [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} [the toady neighbor]_{5840-the toady neighbor} showed any interest in this part of the conversation , and it appeared to [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} that it was painful to [Herbert]_265-herbert ; but it promised to last a long time , when the page came in with the announcement of a domestic affliction . It was , in effect , that [the cook]_{5841-the cook} had mislaid the beef . To [my]_{268-mrs. pocket} unutterable amazement , [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} now , for the first time , saw [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert relieve [his]_265-herbert mind by going through a performance that struck [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} as very extraordinary , but which made no impression on [anybody else]_{5842-anybody else} , and with which [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} soon became as familiar as the rest . [He]_265-herbert laid down the carving - knife and fork , - being engaged in carving , at the moment , - put [his]_265-herbert two hands into [his]_265-herbert disturbed hair , and appeared to make an extraordinary effort to lift [himself]_265-herbert up by it . When [he]_265-herbert had done this , and had not lifted [himself]_265-herbert up at all , [he]_265-herbert quietly went on with what [he]_265-herbert was about . [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} then changed the subject and began to flatter [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} . [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} liked it for a few moments , but [she]_{277-mrs. coiler} flattered [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} so very grossly that the pleasure was soon over . [She]_{277-mrs. coiler} had a serpentine way of coming close at [me]_{268-mrs. pocket} when [she]_{277-mrs. coiler} pretended to be vitally interested in [the friends]_{5843-the friends} and localities [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} had left , which was altogether snaky and fork - tongued ; and when [she]_{277-mrs. coiler} made an occasional bounce upon [Startop]_276-startop who said very little to [her]_{277-mrs. coiler} , or upon [Drummle]_275-drummle who said less , [I]_{268-mrs. pocket} rather envied [them]_5844-them for being on the opposite side of the table . After dinner [the children]_{5012-the children} were introduced , and [Mrs. Coiler]_{277-mrs. coiler} made admiring comments on [their]_{5012-the children} eyes , noses , and legs , - a sagacious way of improving [their]_{5012-the children} minds . There were [four little girls]_{5846-four little girls} , and [two little boys]_{5847-two little boys} , besides [the baby who might have been either]_{5848-the baby who might have been either} , and [[the baby]_{5761-the baby} 's next successor who was as yet neither]_{5850-the baby 's next successor who was as yet neither} . [They]_{5012-the children} were brought in by [Flopson and Millers]_271-flopson , much as though [those two non - commissioned officers]_{5851-those two non - commissioned officers} had been recruiting somewhere for [children]_{1036-children} and had enlisted these , while [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} looked at [the young Nobles]_{5853-the young nobles} that ought to have been as if [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} rather thought [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} had had the pleasure of inspecting [them]_{5853-the young nobles} before , but did n't quite know what to make of [them]_{5853-the young nobles} . "_{[268-mrs. pocket]} Here ! Give [me]_0-i [your]_2052-your fork , [Mum]_174-mum , and take [the baby]_{5761-the baby} , " said [Flopson]_271-flopson . "_[2052-your] Do n't take it that way , or [you]_2052-your 'll get its head under the table . " Thus advised , [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} took it the other way , and got [its]_{5761-the baby} head upon the table ; which was announced to [all present by a prodigious concussion]_{5854-all present by a prodigious concussion} . "_[2052-your] [Dear]_1926-dear , [dear]_1926-dear ! Give it [me]_0-i back , [Mum]_174-mum , " said [Flopson]_271-flopson ; "_[174-mum] and [Miss Jane]_270-jane , come and dance to [baby]_5762-baby , do ! " One of [the little girls]_{5855-the little girls} , [a mere mite who seemed to have prematurely taken upon [herself]_{5856-a mere mite who seemed to have prematurely taken upon herself some charge of the others} some charge of [the others]_{1234-the others}]_{5856-a mere mite who seemed to have prematurely taken upon herself some charge of the others} , stepped out of [her]_{5856-a mere mite who seemed to have prematurely taken upon herself some charge of the others} place by [me]_2057-you , and danced to and from [the baby]_{5761-the baby} until it left off crying , and laughed . Then , [all the children]_{5859-all the children} laughed , and [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert who in the meantime had twice endeavored to lift [himself]_265-herbert up by the hair laughed , and [we]_2057-you all laughed and were glad . [Flopson]_271-flopson , by dint of doubling [the baby]_{5761-the baby} at the joints like [a Dutch doll]_{5861-a dutch doll} , then got it safely into [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's lap , and gave it the nut - crackers to play with ; at the same time recommending [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} to take notice that the handles of that instrument were not likely to agree with [its]_{5761-the baby} eyes , and sharply charging [Miss Jane]_270-jane to look after the same . Then , [the two nurses]_{5862-the two nurses} left [the room]_{633-the room} , and had a lively scuffle on the staircase with [a dissipated page who had waited at dinner , and who had clearly lost half [his]_265-herbert buttons at the gaming - table]_{5864-a dissipated page who had waited at dinner , and who had clearly lost half his buttons at the gaming - table} . [I]_2057-you was made very uneasy in [my]_2057-you mind by [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's falling into a discussion with [Drummle]_275-drummle respecting two baronetcies , while [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} ate a sliced orange steeped in sugar and wine , and , forgetting all about the baby on [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} lap , who did most appalling things with the nut - crackers . At length [little Jane]_270-jane , perceiving [its]_270-jane young brains to be imperilled , softly left [her]_270-jane place , and with many small artifices coaxed the dangerous weapon away . [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} finishing [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} orange at about the same time , and not approving of this , said to [Jane]_270-jane , - "_[2057-you] [[You]_2057-you naughty child]_{2058-you naughty child} , how dare [you]_2057-you ? Go and sit down this instant ! " "_[279-mamma] [[Mamma]_279-mamma dear]_{2059-mamma dear} , " lisped [the little girl]_{5865-the little girl} , "_[5762-baby] [baby]_5762-baby ood have put [hith]_2061-hith eyeth out . " "_[5762-baby] How dare [you]_2057-you tell [me]_0-i so ? " retorted [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . "_[2057-you] Go and sit down in [your]_2057-you chair this moment ! " [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's dignity was so crushing , that [I]_274-belinda felt quite abashed , as if [I]_274-belinda myself had done something to rouse it . "_{[274-belinda]} [Belinda]_274-belinda , " remonstrated [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert , from the other end of the table , "_[2057-you] how can [you]_2057-you be so unreasonable ? [Jane]_270-jane only interfered for the protection of [baby]_5762-baby . " "_[270-jane] [I]_0-i will not allow [anybody]_4526-anybody to interfere , " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am surprised , [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} , that [you]_{211-mr. pocket} should expose [me]_0-i to the affront of interference . " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} [Good God]_{2064-good god} ! " cried [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} , in an outbreak of desolate desperation . "_{[2064-good god]} Are [infants]_2065-infants to be nut - crackered into [[their]_2065-infants tombs]_{2066-their tombs} , and is [nobody]_4527-nobody to save [them]_2065-infants ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will not be interfered with by [Jane]_270-jane , " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , with a majestic glance at [that innocent little offender]_{5866-that innocent little offender} . "_[270-jane] [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i know [[my]_0-i poor grandpapa]_{2068-my poor grandpapa} 's position . [Jane]_270-jane , indeed ! " [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} got [his]_{211-mr. pocket} hands in [his]_{211-mr. pocket} hair again , and this time really did lift [himself]_{211-mr. pocket} some inches out of [his]_{211-mr. pocket} chair . "_[270-jane] Hear this ! " [he]_{211-mr. pocket} helplessly exclaimed to [the elements]_{5867-the elements} . "_[270-jane] [Babies]_2069-babies are to be nut - crackered dead , for [people 's poor grandpapa]_{2070-people 's poor grandpapa} 's positions ! " Then [he]_{211-mr. pocket} let [himself]_{211-mr. pocket} down again , and became silent . [We]_5868-we all looked awkwardly at the tablecloth while this was going on . A pause succeeded , during which [the honest and irrepressible baby]_{5869-the honest and irrepressible baby} made a series of leaps and crows at [little Jane]_270-jane , who appeared to [me]_275-drummle to be [the only member of [the family]_{4724-the family} irrespective of [servants with whom it had any decided acquaintance]_{5872-servants with whom it had any decided acquaintance}]_{5870-the only member of the family irrespective of servants with whom it had any decided acquaintance} . "_{[275-drummle]} [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , "_{[275-drummle]} will [you]_275-drummle ring for [Flopson]_271-flopson ? [Jane]_270-jane , [you]_270-jane undutiful little thing , go and lie down . Now , [baby darling]_{2071-baby darling} , come with [ma]_2072-ma ! " [The baby]_{5761-the baby} was the soul of honor , and protested with all [its]_{5761-the baby} might . It doubled itself up the wrong way over [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} 's arm , exhibited a pair of knitted shoes and dimpled ankles to [the company]_{648-the company} in lieu of [its]_{5761-the baby} soft face , and was carried out in the highest state of mutiny . And it gained [its]_{5761-the baby} point after all , for [I]_2072-ma saw it through the window within a few minutes , being nursed by [little Jane]_270-jane . It happened that [the other five children]_{5875-the other five children} were left behind at the dinner - table , through [Flopson]_271-flopson 's having some private engagement , and [their]_{5875-the other five children} not being [anybody else]_{5842-anybody else} 's business . [I]_2072-ma thus became aware of the mutual relations between [them]_{5875-the other five children} and [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} , which were exemplified in the following manner . [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} , with the normal perplexity of [his]_{211-mr. pocket} face heightened and [his]_{211-mr. pocket} hair rumpled , looked at [them]_{5875-the other five children} for some minutes , as if [he]_{211-mr. pocket} could n't make out how [they]_{5875-the other five children} came to be boarding and lodging in [that establishment]_{636-that establishment} , and why [they]_{5875-the other five children} had n't been billeted by [Nature]_280-nature on [somebody else]_{5003-somebody else} . Then , in a distant Missionary way [he]_{211-mr. pocket} asked [them]_{5875-the other five children} certain questions , - as why [little Joe]_154-joe had that hole in [his]_{211-mr. pocket} frill , who said , [Pa]_281-pa , [Flopson]_271-flopson was going to mend it when [she]_271-flopson had time , - and how [little Fanny]_{282-little fanny} came by that whitlow , who said , [Pa]_281-pa , [Millers]_271-flopson was going to poultice it when [she]_271-flopson did n't forget . Then , [he]_{211-mr. pocket} melted into parental tenderness , and gave [them]_{5875-the other five children} a shilling apiece and told [them]_{5875-the other five children} to go and play ; and then as [they]_{5875-the other five children} went out , with one very strong effort to lift [himself]_{211-mr. pocket} up by the hair [he]_{211-mr. pocket} dismissed the hopeless subject . In the evening there was rowing on [the river]_{413-the river} . As [Drummle]_275-drummle and [Startop]_276-startop had each [a boat]_{5880-a boat} , [I]_2072-ma resolved to set up [mine]_2072-ma , and to cut [them]_{5880-a boat} both out . [I]_2072-ma was pretty good at most exercises in which [country boys]_{5881-country boys} are [adepts]_5882-adepts , but as [I]_2072-ma was conscious of wanting elegance of style for [the Thames]_{50-the thames} , - not to say for [other waters]_{5883-other waters} , - [I]_2072-ma at once engaged to place [myself]_2072-ma under the tuition of [the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at [our]_5885-we stairs , and to whom [I]_2072-ma was introduced by [[my]_2072-ma new allies]_{5886-my new allies}]_{5884-the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at our stairs , and to whom i was introduced by my new allies} . This practical authority confused [me]_2072-ma very much by saying [I]_2072-ma had the arm of [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} . If [he]_{5884-the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at our stairs , and to whom i was introduced by my new allies} could have known how nearly the compliment lost [him]_{5884-the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at our stairs , and to whom i was introduced by my new allies} [[his]_{5884-the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at our stairs , and to whom i was introduced by my new allies} pupil]_{5888-his pupil} , [I]_2072-ma doubt if [he]_{5884-the winner of a prize - wherry who plied at our stairs , and to whom i was introduced by my new allies} would have paid it . There was a supper - tray after [we]_5885-we got [home]_4495-home at night , and [I]_2072-ma think [we]_5885-we should all have enjoyed [ourselves]_5885-we , but for a rather disagreeable domestic occurrence . [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} was in good spirits , when [a housemaid]_{5890-a housemaid} came in , and said , "_[2072-ma] If [you]_2073-you please , [sir]_4451-sir , [I]_0-i should wish to speak to [you]_2073-you . " "_[0-i] Speak to [[your]_2073-you master]_{5095-your master} ? " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , whose dignity was roused again . "_[0-i] How can [you]_2073-you think of such a thing ? Go and speak to [Flopson]_271-flopson . Or speak to [me]_0-i - at some other time . " "_[2073-you] Begging [your]_2073-you pardon , [ma'am]_698-ma'am , " returned [the housemaid]_{5891-the housemaid} , "_[2073-you] [I]_0-i should wish to speak at once , and to speak to [master]_1447-master . " Hereupon , [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} went out of [the room]_{633-the room} , and [we]_5893-we made the best of [ourselves]_5893-we until [he]_{211-mr. pocket} came back . "_{[1447-master]} This is a pretty thing , [Belinda]_274-belinda ! " said [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} , returning with a countenance expressive of grief and despair . "_{[274-belinda]} Here 's [the cook lying insensibly drunk on the [kitchen]_605-kitchen floor]_{2078-the cook lying insensibly drunk on the kitchen floor} , with a large bundle of fresh butter made up in the cupboard ready to sell for grease ! " [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} instantly showed much amiable emotion , and said , "_[283-sophia] This is that odious [Sophia]_283-sophia 's doing ! " "_[283-sophia] What do [you]_274-belinda mean , [Belinda]_274-belinda ? " demanded [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} . "_{[274-belinda]} [Sophia]_283-sophia has told [you]_2073-you , " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . "_[283-sophia] Did [I]_0-i not see [her]_283-sophia with [my]_0-i own eyes and hear [her]_283-sophia with [my]_0-i own ears , come into [the room]_{633-the room} just now and ask to speak to [you]_2073-you ? " "_[283-sophia] But has [she]_283-sophia not taken [me]_0-i down [stairs]_539-stairs , [Belinda]_274-belinda , " returned [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} , "_[283-sophia] and shown [me]_0-i [the woman]_{2082-the woman} , and the bundle too ? " "_[283-sophia] And do [you]_2073-you defend [her]_283-sophia , [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} , " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , "_[2073-you] for making mischief ? " [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} uttered a dismal groan . "_[2073-you] Am [I]_0-i , [[grandpapa]_{2083-grandpapa} 's granddaughter]_{2084-grandpapa 's granddaughter} , to be nothing in [the house]_{604-the house} ? " said [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} . "_[0-i] Besides , [the cook]_{5841-the cook} has always been [a very nice respectful woman]_{2087-a very nice respectful woman} , and said in the most natural manner when [she]_{5841-the cook} came to look after the situation , that [she]_{5841-the cook} felt [I]_0-i was born to be [a Duchess]_{2088-a duchess} . " There was a sofa where [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} stood , and [he]_{211-mr. pocket} dropped upon it in the attitude of [the Dying Gladiator]_{5894-the dying gladiator} . Still in that attitude [he]_{211-mr. pocket} said , with a hollow voice , "_{[5841-the cook]} Good night , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " when [I]_{5841-the cook} deemed it advisable to go to bed and leave [him]_{211-mr. pocket} . Chapter XXIV After two or three days , when [I]_{5841-the cook} had established [myself]_{5841-the cook} in [[my]_{5841-the cook} room]_{555-my room} and had gone backwards and forwards to [London]_8-london several times , and had ordered all [I]_{5841-the cook} wanted of [[my]_{5841-the cook} tradesmen]_{5896-my tradesmen} , [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} and [I]_{5841-the cook} had a long talk together . [He]_{211-mr. pocket} knew more of [my]_{5841-the cook} intended career than [I]_{5841-the cook} knew [myself]_{5841-the cook} , for [he]_{211-mr. pocket} referred to [his]_{211-mr. pocket} having been told by [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} that [I]_{5841-the cook} was not designed for any profession , and that [I]_{5841-the cook} should be well enough educated for [my]_{5841-the cook} destiny if [I]_{5841-the cook} could "_{[5841-the cook]} hold [my]_0-i own " with the average of [young men]_{5897-young men} in prosperous circumstances . [I]_241-pip acquiesced , of course , knowing nothing to the contrary . [He]_{211-mr. pocket} advised [my]_241-pip attending [certain places in [London]_8-london]_{5898-certain places in london} , for the acquisition of such mere rudiments as [I]_241-pip wanted , and [my]_241-pip investing [him]_{211-mr. pocket} with the functions of [explainer]_{5899-explainer} and [director of all [my]_241-pip studies]_{5900-director of all my studies} . [He]_{211-mr. pocket} hoped that with intelligent assistance [I]_241-pip should meet with little to discourage [me]_241-pip , and should soon be able to dispense with any aid but [his]_{211-mr. pocket} . Through [his]_{211-mr. pocket} way of saying this , and much more to similar purpose , [he]_{211-mr. pocket} placed [himself]_{211-mr. pocket} on confidential terms with [me]_241-pip in an admirable manner ; and [I]_241-pip may state at once that [he]_{211-mr. pocket} was always so zealous and honorable in fulfilling [his]_{211-mr. pocket} compact with [me]_241-pip , that [he]_{211-mr. pocket} made [me]_241-pip zealous and honorable in fulfilling [mine]_241-pip with [him]_{211-mr. pocket} . If [he]_{211-mr. pocket} had shown indifference as [a master]_{5901-a master} , [I]_241-pip have no doubt [I]_241-pip should have returned the compliment as [a pupil]_{5902-a pupil} ; [he]_{211-mr. pocket} gave [me]_241-pip no such excuse , and each of [us]_5903-us did the other justice . Nor did [I]_241-pip ever regard [him]_{211-mr. pocket} as having anything ludicrous about [him]_{211-mr. pocket} - or anything but what was serious , honest , and good - in [his]_{211-mr. pocket} tutor communication with [me]_241-pip . When these points were settled , and so far carried out as that [I]_241-pip had begun to work in earnest , it occurred to [me]_241-pip that if [I]_241-pip could retain [[my]_241-pip bedroom in [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn}]_{5904-my bedroom in barnard 's inn} , [my]_241-pip life would be agreeably varied , while [my]_241-pip manners would be none the worse for [[Herbert]_265-herbert 's society]_{5905-herbert 's society} . [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert did not object to this arrangement , but urged that before any step could possibly be taken in it , it must be submitted to [[my]_241-pip guardian]_{1805-my guardian} . [I]_241-pip felt that this delicacy arose out of the consideration that the plan would save [Herbert]_265-herbert some expense , so [I]_241-pip went off to [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} and imparted [my]_241-pip wish to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[241-pip] If [I]_0-i could buy the furniture now hired for [me]_0-i , " said [I]_241-pip , "_[241-pip] and one or two other little things , [I]_0-i should be quite at [home]_4495-home [there]_4505-there . " "_[241-pip] Go it ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , with a short laugh . "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i told [you]_0-i [you]_0-i 'd get on . Well ! How much do [you]_0-i want ? " [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i did n't know how much . "_[0-i] Come ! " retorted [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] How much ? Fifty pounds ? " "_[0-i] O , not nearly so much . " "_[0-i] Five pounds ? " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . This was such a great fall , that [I]_0-i said in discomfiture , "_[0-i] O , more than that . " "_[0-i] More than that , eh ! " retorted [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , lying in wait for [me]_0-i , with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hands in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pockets , [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head on one side , and [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes on the wall behind [me]_0-i ; "_[0-i] how much more ? " "_[0-i] It is so difficult to fix a sum , " said [I]_0-i , hesitating . "_[0-i] Come ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[0-i] Let 's get at it . Twice five ; will that do ? Three times five ; will that do ? Four times five ; will that do ? " [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i thought that would do handsomely . "_[0-i] Four times five will do handsomely , will it ? " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , knitting [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} brows . "_[0-i] Now , what do [you]_0-i make of four times five ? " "_[0-i] What do [I]_0-i make of it ? " "_[0-i] Ah ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; "_[0-i] how much ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i suppose [you]_0-i make it twenty pounds , " said [I]_0-i , smiling . "_[0-i] Never mind what [I]_0-i make it , [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} , " observed [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , with a knowing and contradictory toss of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i want to know what [you]_0-i make it . " "_[0-i] Twenty pounds , of course . " "_[0-i] Wemmick ! " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , opening [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} office door . "_[0-i] Take [Mr. Pip]_241-pip 's written order , and pay [him]_241-pip twenty pounds . " This strongly marked way of doing business made a strongly marked impression on [me]_0-i , and that not of an agreeable kind . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} never laughed ; but [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} wore great bright creaking boots , and , in poising [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} on these boots , with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} large head bent down and [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyebrows joined together , awaiting an answer , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} sometimes caused the boots to creak , as if they laughed in a dry and suspicious way . As [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} happened to go out now , and as [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was brisk and talkative , [I]_0-i said to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick that [I]_0-i hardly knew what to make of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's manner . "_[0-i] Tell [him]_241-pip that , and [he]_241-pip 'll take it as a compliment , " answered [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; "_[241-pip] [he]_241-pip do n't mean that [you]_2092-you should know what to make of it . - Oh ! " for [I]_241-pip looked surprised , "_[241-pip] it 's not personal ; it 's professional : only professional . " [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was at [his]_254-wemmick desk , lunching - and crunching - on a dry hard biscuit ; pieces of which [he]_254-wemmick threw from time to time into [his]_254-wemmick slit of a mouth , as if [he]_254-wemmick were posting them . "_[241-pip] Always seems to [me]_0-i , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[241-pip] as if [he]_241-pip had set a man - trap and was watching it . Suddenly - click - [you]_2092-you 're caught ! " Without remarking that man - traps were not among the amenities of life , [I]_241-pip said [I]_241-pip supposed [he]_241-pip was very skilful ? "_[241-pip] Deep , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[241-pip] as [Australia]_51-australia . " Pointing with [his]_254-wemmick pen at [the office floor]_{5907-the office floor} , to express that [Australia]_51-australia was understood , for the purposes of the figure , to be symmetrically on the opposite spot of the globe . "_[241-pip] If there was anything deeper , " added [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , bringing [his]_254-wemmick pen to paper , "_[241-pip] [he]_241-pip 'd be it . " Then , [I]_241-pip said [I]_241-pip supposed [he]_241-pip had a fine business , and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick said , "_[241-pip] [Ca - pi - tal]_{285-ca - pi - tal} ! " Then [I]_{285-ca - pi - tal} asked if there were many [clerks]_5908-clerks ? to which [he]_241-pip replied , - "_{[285-ca - pi - tal]} [We]_2093-we do n't run much into [clerks]_5908-clerks , because there 's only one [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and [people]_4539-people wo n't have [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} at second hand . There are only [four of [us]_2093-we]_{2096-four of us} . Would [you]_2097-me like to see ['em]_2098-'em ? [You]_2097-me are one of [us]_2093-we , as [I]_0-i may say . " [I]_2097-me accepted the offer . When [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick had put all the biscuit into the post , and had paid [me]_2097-me [my]_2097-me money from a cash - box in a safe , the key of which safe [he]_241-pip kept somewhere down [his]_241-pip back and produced from [his]_241-pip coat - collar like an iron - pigtail , [we]_2093-we went up [stairs]_539-stairs . [The house]_{604-the house} was dark and shabby , and the greasy shoulders that had left their mark in [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's room]_{5524-mr. jaggers 's room} seemed to have been shuffling up and down the staircase for years . In the front first floor , [a clerk who looked something between [a publican]_{5913-a publican} and [a rat - catcher]_{5914-a rat - catcher}]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} - [a large pale , puffed , swollen man]_{5915-a large pale , puffed , swollen man} - was attentively engaged with [three or four people of shabby appearance]_{5916-three or four people of shabby appearance} , whom [he]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} treated as unceremoniously as [everybody]_{678-everybody} seemed to be treated who contributed to [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's coffers]_{5918-mr. jaggers 's coffers} . "_[2097-me] Getting evidence together , " said [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , as [we]_2093-we came out , "_[2097-me] for [the Bailey]_{2099-the bailey} . " In [the room]_{633-the room} over that , [a little flabby terrier of [a clerk with dangling hair [his]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} cropping seemed to have been forgotten when [he]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} was [a puppy]_{4945-a puppy}]_{5921-a clerk with dangling hair his cropping seemed to have been forgotten when he was a puppy} was similarly engaged with [a man with weak eyes]_{5923-a man with weak eyes} , whom [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick presented to [me]_2097-me as [a smelter who kept [his]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} pot always boiling , and who would melt [me]_2097-me anything [I]_2097-me pleased , - and who was in an excessive white - perspiration , as if [he]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} had been trying [his]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} art on [himself]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher}]_{5924-a smelter who kept his pot always boiling , and who would melt me anything i pleased , - and who was in an excessive white - perspiration , as if he had been trying his art on himself}]_{5920-a little flabby terrier of a clerk with dangling hair his cropping seemed to have been forgotten when he was a puppy was similarly engaged with a man with weak eyes , whom mr. wemmick presented to me as a smelter who kept his pot always boiling , and who would melt me anything i pleased , - and who was in an excessive white - perspiration , as if he had been trying his art on himself} . In [a back room]_{5925-a back room} , [a high - shouldered man with a face - ache]_{5926-a high - shouldered man with a face - ache} tied up in dirty flannel , who was dressed in old black clothes that bore the appearance of having been waxed , was stooping over [his]_{5912-a clerk who looked something between a publican and a rat - catcher} work of making fair copies of the notes of [the other two gentlemen]_{5927-the other two gentlemen} , for [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's own use . This was all the establishment . When [we]_5928-we went down [stairs]_539-stairs again , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick led [me]_2097-me into [[[my]_2097-me guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's room]_{5931-my guardian 's room} , and said , "_[2097-me] This [you]_2100-you 've seen already . " "_[2097-me] Pray , " said [I]_2097-me , as [the two odious casts with the twitchy leer upon them]_{5932-the two odious casts with the twitchy leer upon them} caught [my]_2097-me sight again , "_[2097-me] whose likenesses are those ? " "_[2097-me] These ? " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , getting upon a chair , and blowing the dust off the horrible heads before bringing them down . "_[2097-me] These are [two celebrated ones]_{2101-two celebrated ones} . [Famous clients of [ours]_2103-ours that got [us]_2103-ours a world of credit]_{2102-famous clients of ours that got us a world of credit} . [This chap]_{2104-this chap} why [you]_2100-you must have come down in the night and been peeping into the inkstand , to get this blot upon [your]_2100-you eyebrow , [[you]_2100-you old rascal]_{2105-you old rascal} ! murdered [[his]_{2104-this chap} master]_{5227-his master} , and , considering that [he]_{5227-his master} was n't brought up to evidence , did n't plan it badly . " "_{[2104-this chap]} Is it like [him]_{2104-this chap} ? " [I]_{2104-this chap} asked , recoiling from [the brute]_{5933-the brute} , as [Wemmick]_254-wemmick spat upon [his]_0-i eyebrow and gave it a rub with [his]_254-wemmick sleeve . "_{[2104-this chap]} Like [him]_{2104-this chap} ? It 's [himself]_{2104-this chap} , [you]_2100-you know . The cast was made in [Newgate]_17-newgate , directly after [he]_{2104-this chap} was taken down . [You]_2100-you had a particular fancy for [me]_0-i , had n't [you]_2100-you , [Old Artful]_{286-old artful} ? " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . [He]_254-wemmick then explained this affectionate apostrophe , by touching [his]_254-wemmick brooch representing [the lady]_{5934-the lady} and the weeping willow at [the tomb]_{5935-the tomb} with the urn upon it , and saying , "_{[286-old artful]} Had it made for [me]_0-i , express ! " "_{[286-old artful]} Is [the lady]_{5934-the lady} [anybody]_4526-anybody ? " said [I.]_2100-you "_{[4526-anybody]} No , " returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[4526-anybody]} Only [his]_{2104-this chap} game . [You]_2100-you liked [your]_2100-you bit of game , did n't [you]_2100-you ? No ; deuce a bit of [a lady in the case]_{2109-a lady in the case} , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , except one , - and [she]_{5934-the lady} was n't of [this slender lady]_{2110-this slender lady} - like sort , and [you]_2100-you would n't have caught [her]_{5934-the lady} looking after this urn , unless there was something to drink in it . " [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's attention being thus directed to [his]_254-wemmick brooch , [he]_254-wemmick put down the cast , and polished the brooch with [his]_254-wemmick pocket - handkerchief . "_{[5934-the lady]} Did that other creature come to the same end ? " [I]_{2104-this chap} asked . "_{[2104-this chap]} [He]_{2104-this chap} has the same look . " "_{[2104-this chap]} [You]_2100-you 're right , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; "_[2100-you] it 's the genuine look . Much as if one nostril was caught up with a horse - hair and a little fish - hook . Yes , [he]_{2104-this chap} came to the same end ; quite the natural end here , [I]_0-i assure [you]_2100-you . [He]_{2104-this chap} forged wills , this blade did , if [he]_{2104-this chap} did n't also put the supposed testators to sleep too . [You]_2100-you were [a gentlemanly Cove]_{2111-a gentlemanly cove} , though " [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick was again apostrophizing , "_[2100-you] and [you]_2100-you said [you]_2100-you could write Greek . Yah , [Bounceable]_{287-bounceable} ! What [a liar]_{4665-a liar} [you]_2100-you were ! [I]_0-i never met such a liar as [you]_2100-you ! " Before putting [[his]_254-wemmick late friend]_{5936-his late friend} on [his]_254-wemmick shelf again , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick touched the largest of [his]_254-wemmick mourning rings and said , "_[2100-you] Sent out to buy it for [me]_0-i , only the day before . " While [he]_254-wemmick was putting up the other cast and coming down from the chair , the thought crossed [my]_2100-you mind that all [his]_254-wemmick personal jewelry was derived from like sources . As [he]_254-wemmick had shown no diffidence on the subject , [I]_2100-you ventured on the liberty of asking [him]_254-wemmick the question , when [he]_254-wemmick stood before [me]_2100-you , dusting [his]_254-wemmick hands . "_[2100-you] O yes , " [he]_254-wemmick returned , "_[2100-you] these are all gifts of that kind . [One]_5055-one brings another , [you]_2100-you see ; that 's the way of it . [I]_0-i always take ['em]_2114-'em . [They]_2114-'em 're curiosities . And they 're property . They may not be worth much , but , after all , they 're property and portable . It do n't signify to [you]_2100-you with [your]_2100-you brilliant lookout , but as to [myself]_0-i , [my]_0-i guiding - star always is , ' Get hold of portable property ' . " When [I]_2100-you had rendered homage to this light , [he]_0-i went on to say , in a friendly manner : - "_[2100-you] If at any odd time when [you]_2100-you have nothing better to do , [you]_2100-you would n't mind coming over to see [me]_0-i at [Walworth]_52-walworth , [I]_0-i could offer [you]_2100-you a bed , and [I]_0-i should consider it an honor . [I]_0-i have not much to show [you]_2100-you ; but such two or three curiosities as [I]_0-i have got [you]_2100-you might like to look over ; and [I]_0-i am fond of a bit of [garden]_1225-garden and [a summer - house]_{2116-a summer - house} . " [I]_288-thankee said [I]_288-thankee should be delighted to accept [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hospitality . "_{[288-thankee]} [Thankee]_288-thankee , " said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; "_{[288-thankee]} then [we]_2117-we 'll consider that it 's to come off , when convenient to [you]_2100-you . Have [you]_2100-you dined with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} yet ? " "_[2100-you] Not yet . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Well , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll give [you]_2100-you wine , and good wine . [I]_0-i 'll give [you]_2100-you punch , and not bad punch . And now [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_2100-you something . When [you]_2100-you go to dine with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , look at [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} housekeeper]_{2118-his housekeeper} . " "_{[2118-his housekeeper]} Shall [I]_0-i see something very uncommon ? " "_[0-i] Well , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[2100-you] [you]_2100-you 'll see a wild beast tamed . Not so very uncommon , [you]_2100-you 'll tell [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i reply , that depends on the original wildness of the beast , and the amount of taming . It wo n't lower [your]_2100-you opinion of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's powers . Keep [your]_2100-you eye on it . " [I]_2100-you told [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} [I]_2100-you would do so , with all the interest and curiosity that [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} preparation awakened . As [I]_2100-you was taking [my]_2100-you departure , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} asked [me]_2100-you if [I]_2100-you would like to devote five minutes to seeing [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} "_[2100-you] at [it]_2119-it ? " For several reasons , and not least because [I]_2100-you did n't clearly know what [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} would be found to be "_[2100-you] at , " [I]_2100-you replied in the affirmative . [We]_5937-we dived into [the City]_{2029-the city} , and came up in [a crowded police - court]_{5939-a crowded police - court} , where [a blood - relation in the murderous sense of the deceased]_{5940-a blood - relation in the murderous sense of the deceased} , with the fanciful taste in brooches , was standing at the bar , uncomfortably chewing something ; while [[my]_2100-you guardian]_{1805-my guardian} had [a woman under examination or cross - examination]_{5942-a woman under examination or cross - examination} , - [I]_2100-you do n't know which , - and was striking [her]_{5942-a woman under examination or cross - examination} , and the bench , and [everybody present]_{5943-everybody present} , with awe . If [anybody , of whatsoever degree]_{5944-anybody , of whatsoever degree} , said a word that [he]_{5944-anybody , of whatsoever degree} did n't approve of , [he]_{5944-anybody , of whatsoever degree} instantly required to have it "_[2100-you] taken down . " If [anybody]_4526-anybody would n't make an admission , [he]_0-i said , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll have it out of [you]_2120-you ! " and if [anybody]_4526-anybody made an admission , [he]_0-i said , "_[0-i] Now [I]_0-i have got [you]_2120-you ! " [The magistrates]_{5947-the magistrates} shivered under a single bite of [his]_0-i finger . [Thieves]_5948-thieves and [thief - takers]_{5949-thief - takers} hung in dread rapture on [his]_0-i words , and shrank when a hair of [his]_0-i eyebrows turned in [their]_{5947-the magistrates} direction . Which side [he]_0-i was on [I]_2122-i could n't make out , for [he]_0-i seemed to [me]_2122-i to be grinding [the whole place]_{2017-the whole place} in [a mill]_{5951-a mill} ; [I]_2122-i only know that when [I]_2122-i stole out on tiptoe , [he]_0-i was not on the side of the bench ; for , [he]_0-i was making the legs of [the old gentleman who presided , quite convulsive under the table , by [his]_0-i denunciations of [his]_0-i conduct as [the representative of British law and justice]_{5953-the representative of british law and justice} in that chair that day]_{5952-the old gentleman who presided , quite convulsive under the table , by his denunciations of his conduct as the representative of british law and justice in that chair that day} . Chapter XXV [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle , who was so sulky a fellow that [he]_0-i even took up a book as if [[its]_278-drummle writer]_{5954-its writer} had done [him]_0-i an injury , did not take up [an acquaintance in a more agreeable spirit]_{5955-an acquaintance in a more agreeable spirit} . Heavy in figure , movement , and comprehension , - in the sluggish complexion of [his]_0-i face , and in the large , awkward tongue that seemed to loll about in [his]_0-i mouth as [he]_0-i [himself]_0-i lolled about in [a room]_{4866-a room} , - [he]_0-i was idle , proud , niggardly , reserved , and suspicious . [He]_0-i came of [rich people down in [Somersetshire]_{53-somersetshire} , who had nursed this combination of qualities until [they]_{5957-rich people down in somersetshire , who had nursed this combination of qualities until they made the discovery that it was just of age and a blockhead} made the discovery that it was just of age and a blockhead]_{5957-rich people down in somersetshire , who had nursed this combination of qualities until they made the discovery that it was just of age and a blockhead} . Thus , [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle had come to [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert when [he]_0-i was a head taller than [that gentleman]_{752-that gentleman} , and half a dozen heads thicker than [most gentlemen]_{5959-most gentlemen} . [Startop]_276-startop had been spoilt by [a weak mother]_{5960-a weak mother} and kept at [home]_4495-home when [he]_276-startop ought to have been at [school]_4758-school , but [he]_276-startop was devotedly attached to [her]_2122-i , and admired [her]_2122-i beyond measure . [He]_276-startop had [a woman]_{943-a woman} 's delicacy of feature , and was - "_[2122-i] as [you]_2121-you may see , though [you]_2121-you never saw [her]_2122-i , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert to [me]_2122-i - "_[2122-i] exactly like [[his]_2122-i mother]_{2123-his mother} . " It was but natural that [I]_2122-i should take to [him]_276-startop much more kindly than to [Drummle]_278-drummle , and that , even in the earliest evenings of [our]_5964-our boating , [he]_276-startop and [I]_2122-i should pull homeward abreast of [one another]_{4584-one another} , conversing from [boat]_5966-boat to [boat]_5966-boat , while [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle came up in [our]_5964-our wake alone , under the overhanging banks and among the rushes . [He]_276-startop would always creep in - [shore]_5968-shore like some uncomfortable amphibious creature , even when the tide would have sent [him]_276-startop fast upon [his]_276-startop way ; and [I]_2122-i always think of [him]_276-startop as coming after [us]_5964-our in the dark or by the back - water , when [[our]_5964-our own two boats]_{5969-our own two boats} were breaking the sunset or the moonlight in mid - stream . [Herbert]_265-herbert was [[my]_2122-i intimate companion]_{5970-my intimate companion} and [friend]_4695-friend . [I]_2122-i presented [him]_265-herbert with a half - share in [[my]_2122-i boat]_{5972-my boat} , which was the occasion of [his]_265-herbert often coming down to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} ; and [my]_2122-i possession of a half - share in [[his]_265-herbert chambers]_{5973-his chambers} often took [me]_2122-i up to [London]_8-london . [We]_5964-our used to walk between [the two places]_{5974-the two places} at all hours . [I]_2122-i have an affection for [the road]_{1325-the road} yet though it is not so pleasant [a road]_{5976-a road} as [it]_{1325-the road} was then , formed in the impressibility of untried youth and hope . When [I]_2122-i had been in [[Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's family]_{5977-mr. pocket 's family} a month or two , [Mr.]_5978-mr. and [Mrs. Camilla]_{214-mrs. camilla} turned up . [Camilla]_{214-mrs. camilla} was [[Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's sister]_{5979-mr. pocket 's sister} . [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} , whom [I]_2122-i had seen at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's on the same occasion , also turned up . [She]_{160-georgiana} was [a cousin]_{5980-a cousin} , - [an indigestive single woman , who called [her]_{160-georgiana} rigidity religion , and [her]_{160-georgiana} liver love]_{5981-an indigestive single woman , who called her rigidity religion , and her liver love} . [These people]_{5982-these people} hated [me]_2122-i with the hatred of cupidity and disappointment . As a matter of course , [they]_{5982-these people} fawned upon [me]_2122-i in [my]_2122-i prosperity with the basest meanness . Towards [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert , as [a grown - up infant]_{5983-a grown - up infant} with no notion of [his]_265-herbert own interests , [they]_{5982-these people} showed the complacent forbearance [I]_2122-i had heard [them]_{5982-these people} express . [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} [they]_{5982-these people} held in contempt ; but [they]_{5982-these people} allowed [the poor soul]_{5984-the poor soul} to have been heavily disappointed in life , because that shed a feeble reflected light upon [themselves]_{5982-these people} . These were the surroundings among which [I]_2122-i settled down , and applied [myself]_2122-i to [my]_2122-i education . [I]_2122-i soon contracted expensive habits , and began to spend an amount of money that within a few short months [I]_2122-i should have thought almost fabulous ; but through good and evil [I]_2122-i stuck to [my]_2122-i books . There was no other merit in this , than [my]_2122-i having sense enough to feel [my]_2122-i deficiencies . Between [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert and [Herbert]_265-herbert [I]_2122-i got on fast ; and , with one or the other always at [my]_2122-i elbow to give [me]_2122-i the start [I]_2122-i wanted , and clear obstructions out of [[my]_2122-i road]_{5985-my road} , [I]_2122-i must have been [as great a dolt as [Drummle]_278-drummle]_{5986-as great a dolt as drummle} if [I]_2122-i had done less . [I]_2122-i had not seen [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick for some weeks , when [I]_2122-i thought [I]_2122-i would write [him]_254-wemmick a note and propose to go [home]_4495-home with [him]_254-wemmick on a certain evening . [He]_254-wemmick replied that it would give [him]_254-wemmick much pleasure , and that [he]_254-wemmick would expect [me]_2122-i at [the office]_{5562-the office} at six o'clock . [Thither]_289-thither [I]_2122-i went , and there [I]_2122-i found [him]_254-wemmick , putting the key of [his]_254-wemmick safe down [his]_254-wemmick back as the clock struck . "_[2122-i] Did [you]_2124-you think of walking down to [Walworth]_52-walworth ? " said [he]_254-wemmick . "_[2124-you] Certainly , " said [I]_2124-you , "_[2124-you] if [you]_2125-you approve . " "_[2125-you] Very much , " was [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's reply , "_[2125-you] for [I]_0-i have had [my]_0-i legs under the desk all day , and shall be glad to stretch them . Now , [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_2125-you what [I]_0-i have got for supper , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i have got a stewed steak , - which is of home preparation , - and a cold roast fowl , - which is from [the cook's - shop]_{2126-the cook's - shop} . [I]_0-i think it 's tender , because [the master of [the shop]_{4833-the shop}]_{2127-the master of the shop} was [a Juryman]_{5300-a juryman} in some cases of [ours]_2130-we the other day , and [we]_2130-we let [him]_{2127-the master of the shop} down easy . [I]_0-i reminded [him]_2125-you of it when [I]_0-i bought the fowl , and [I]_0-i said , " Pick [us]_2130-we out a good one , [old Briton]_{290-old briton} , because if [we]_2130-we had chosen to keep [you]_2125-you in the box another day or two , [we]_2130-we could easily have done it . "_[0-i] [He]_2125-you said to that , " Let [me]_2125-you make [you]_2125-you a present of the best fowl in [the shop]_{4833-the shop} . "_[2125-you] [I]_0-i let [him]_2125-you , of course . As far as it goes , it 's property and portable . [You]_2125-you do n't object to [an aged parent]_{2131-an aged parent} , [I]_0-i hope ? " [I]_0-i really thought [he]_2125-you was still speaking of the fowl , until [he]_2125-you added , "_[0-i] Because [I]_0-i have got [an aged parent]_{2131-an aged parent} at [[my]_0-i place]_{5351-my place} . " [I]_{2131-an aged parent} then said what politeness required . "_{[2131-an aged parent]} So , [you]_0-i have n't dined with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} yet ? " [he]_2125-you pursued , as [we]_5990-we walked along . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Not yet . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} told [me]_0-i so this afternoon when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} heard [you]_0-i were coming . [I]_0-i expect [you]_0-i 'll have an invitation to - morrow . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's going to ask [[your]_0-i pals]_{2134-your pals} , too . Three of ['em]_2135-'em ; ai n't [there]_4505-there ? " Although [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} was not in the habit of counting [Drummle]_278-drummle as [one of [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} intimate associates]_{5992-my intimate associates}]_{5991-one of my intimate associates} , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} answered , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Yes . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Well , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's going to ask [the whole gang]_{2137-the whole gang} , " - [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} hardly felt complimented by the word , - "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and whatever [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} gives [you]_0-i , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll give [you]_0-i good . Do n't look forward to variety , but [you]_0-i 'll have excellence . And there'sa nother rum thing in [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} house]_{5427-his house} , " proceeded [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , after a moment 's pause , as if the remark followed on [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} understood ; "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} never lets a door or window be fastened at night . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Is [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} never robbed ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} That 's it ! " returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} says , and gives it out publicly , " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} want to see [the man who 'll rob [me]_{237-mr. jaggers}]_{5994-the man who 'll rob me} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Lord bless [you]_0-i , [I]_0-i have heard [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , a hundred times , if [I]_0-i have heard [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} once , say to [regular cracksmen in [[our]_2140-our front office]_{2141-our front office}]_{2139-regular cracksmen in our front office} , " [You]_0-i know where [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} live ; now , no bolt is ever drawn there ; why do n't [you]_0-i do a stroke of business with [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? Come ; ca n't [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} tempt [you]_0-i ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Not [a man of [them]_2143-they]_{2142-a man of them} , [sir]_4451-sir , would be bold enough to try it on , for love or money . " "_[2143-they] [They]_2143-they dread [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} so much ? " said [I.]_4451-sir "_[2143-they] Dread [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i believe [you]_4451-sir [they]_2143-they dread [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . Not but what [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's artful , even in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} defiance of [them]_2143-they . No silver , [sir]_4451-sir . Britannia metal , every spoon . " "_[4451-sir] So [they]_2143-they would n't have much , " [I]_2143-they observed , "_[2143-they] even if [they]_2143-they - " "_[4451-sir] Ah ! But [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would have much , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , cutting [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} short , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and [they]_2143-they know it . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'd have [their]_2143-they lives , and the lives of scores of 'em . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'd have all [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could get . And it 's impossible to say what [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could n't get , if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} gave [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} mind to it . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} was falling into meditation on [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's greatness , when [Wemmick]_254-wemmick remarked : - "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} As to the absence of plate , that 's only [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} natural depth , [you]_2146-you know . [A river]_{2147-a river} 's its natural depth , and [he]_{2147-a river} 's [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} natural depth . Look at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} watch - chain . That 's real enough . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} It 's very massive , " said [I.]_{237-mr. jaggers} "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Massive ? " repeated [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i think so . And [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} watch is a gold repeater , and worth a hundred pound if it 's worth a penny . [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , there are about [seven hundred thieves in [this town]_{2149-this town}]_{2148-seven hundred thieves in this town} who know all about that watch ; there 's not [a man]_{428-a man} , [a woman]_{943-a woman} , or [a child]_{691-a child} , among [them]_{2148-seven hundred thieves in this town} , who would n't identify the smallest link in that chain , and drop it as if it was red hot , if inveigled into touching it . " At first with such discourse , and afterwards with conversation of a more general nature , did [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick and [I]_0-i beguile the time and [the road]_{1325-the road} , until [he]_254-wemmick gave [me]_0-i to understand that [we]_5997-we had arrived in [the district of [Walworth]_52-walworth]_{5998-the district of walworth} . [It]_{5998-the district of walworth} appeared to be a collection of [back lanes]_{5999-back lanes} , ditches , and [little gardens]_{6000-little gardens} , and to present the aspect of a rather dull retirement . [[Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's house]_{6001-wemmick 's house} was [a little wooden cottage in the midst of plots of [garden]_1225-garden]_{6002-a little wooden cottage in the midst of plots of garden} , and the top of [it]_{6001-wemmick 's house} was cut out and painted like a battery mounted with guns . "_[0-i] [My]_0-i own doing , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] Looks pretty ; do n't it ? " [I]_0-i highly commended it , [I]_0-i think [it]_{6001-wemmick 's house} was [the smallest house [I]_0-i ever saw]_{6004-the smallest house i ever saw} ; with the queerest gothic windows by far the greater part of them sham , and a gothic door almost too small to get in at . "_[0-i] That 's a real flagstaff , [you]_2153-you see , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[0-i] and on Sundays [I]_0-i run up a real flag . Then look here . After [I]_0-i have crossed [this bridge]_{2154-this bridge} , [I]_0-i hoist it up - so - and cut off the communication . " [The bridge]_{6005-the bridge} was a plank , and [it]_{6005-the bridge} crossed a chasm about four feet wide and two deep . But it was very pleasant to see the pride with which [he]_0-i hoisted it up and made it fast ; smiling as [he]_0-i did so , with a relish and not merely mechanically . "_[0-i] At nine o'clock every night , Greenwich time , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[0-i] the gun fires . There [he]_2155-he is , [you]_2153-you see ! And when [you]_2153-you hear [him]_2155-he go , [I]_0-i think [you]_2153-you 'll say [he]_2155-he 's [a Stinger]_{2156-a stinger} . " The piece of ordnance referred to , was mounted in [a separate fortress]_{6006-a separate fortress} , constructed of lattice - work . [It]_{6006-a separate fortress} was protected from the weather by an ingenious little tarpaulin contrivance in the nature of an umbrella . "_[2153-you] Then , at the back , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[2153-you] out of sight , so as not to impede the idea of [fortifications]_{2157-fortifications} , - for it 's a principle with [me]_0-i , if [you]_2153-you have an idea , carry it out and keep it up , - [I]_0-i do n't know whether that 's [your]_2153-you opinion - " [I]_2153-you said , decidedly . "_[2153-you] - At the back , there 's a pig , and there are fowls and rabbits ; then , [I]_0-i knock together [my]_0-i own little frame , [you]_2153-you see , and grow cucumbers ; and [you]_2153-you 'll judge at supper what sort of a salad [I]_0-i can raise . So , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , smiling again , but seriously too , as [he]_254-wemmick shook [his]_254-wemmick head , "_[4451-sir] if [you]_2153-you can suppose [the little place]_{2159-the little place} besieged , it would hold out a devil of a time in point of provisions . " Then , [he]_254-wemmick conducted [me]_0-i to a bower about a dozen yards off , but which was approached by such ingenious twists of path that it took quite a long time to get at ; and in this retreat [our]_6007-our glasses were already set forth . [Our]_6007-our punch was cooling in [an ornamental lake]_{6008-an ornamental lake} , on whose margin [the bower]_{6009-the bower} was raised . This piece of water with [an island in the middle]_{6010-an island in the middle} which might have been the salad for supper was of a circular form , and [he]_254-wemmick had constructed a fountain in it , which , when [you]_2153-you set [a little mill]_{6011-a little mill} going and took a cork out of a pipe , played to that powerful extent that it made the back of [your]_2153-you hand quite wet . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am [[my]_0-i own engineer]_{2160-my own engineer} , and [[my]_0-i own carpenter]_{2161-my own carpenter} , and [[my]_0-i own plumber]_{2162-my own plumber} , and [[my]_0-i own gardener]_{2163-my own gardener} , and [[my]_0-i own [Jack of all Trades]_{2165-jack of all trades}]_{2164-my own jack of all trades} , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , in acknowledging [my]_{2165-jack of all trades} compliments . "_{[2165-jack of all trades]} Well ; it 's a good thing , [you]_0-i know . It brushes the Newgate cobwebs away , and pleases [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} . [You]_0-i would n't mind being at once introduced to [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , would [you]_0-i ? It would n't put [you]_0-i out ? " [I]_{2168-well aged parent} expressed the readiness [I]_{2168-well aged parent} felt , and [we]_6012-we went into [the castle]_{6013-the castle} . There [we]_6012-we found , sitting by a fire , [a very old man in a flannel coat : clean , cheerful , comfortable , and well cared for , but intensely deaf]_{6014-a very old man in a flannel coat : clean , cheerful , comfortable , and well cared for , but intensely deaf} . "_{[2168-well aged parent]} [Well aged parent]_{2168-well aged parent} , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , shaking hands with [him]_241-pip in a cordial and jocose way , "_{[2169-aged parent]} how am [you]_{2168-well aged parent} ? " "_{[2168-well aged parent]} All right , [John]_291-john ; all right ! " replied [the old man]_{6015-the old man} . "_[291-john] Here 's [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [aged parent]_{2169-aged parent} , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[241-pip] and [I]_0-i wish [you]_{2168-well aged parent} could hear [his]_241-pip name . Nod away at [him]_241-pip , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ; that 's what [he]_241-pip likes . Nod away at [him]_241-pip , if [you]_{2168-well aged parent} please , like winking ! " "_{[2168-well aged parent]} This is [a fine place of [[my]_0-i son]_{2171-my son} 's]_{2170-a fine place of my son 's} , [sir]_4451-sir , " cried [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , while [I]_4451-sir nodded as hard as [I]_4451-sir possibly could . "_[4451-sir] This is a pretty pleasure - ground , [sir]_4451-sir . [This spot]_{2174-this spot} and these beautiful works upon [it]_{2174-this spot} ought to be kept together by [the Nation]_{2175-the nation} , after [[my]_0-i son]_{2171-my son} 's time , for [the people]_{759-the people} 's enjoyment . " "_[4451-sir] [You]_4451-sir 're as proud of it as [Punch]_292-punch ; ai n't [you]_4451-sir , [Aged]_2178-aged ? " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , contemplating [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , with [his]_{6015-the old man} hard face really softened ; "_[2178-aged] there 's a nod for [you]_4451-sir ; " giving [him]_{6015-the old man} a tremendous one ; "_[2178-aged] there 's another for [you]_4451-sir ; " giving [him]_{6015-the old man} a still more tremendous one ; "_[4451-sir] [you]_4451-sir like that , do n't [you]_4451-sir ? If [you]_4451-sir 're not tired , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip - though [I]_0-i know it 's tiring to [strangers]_{2179-strangers} - will [you]_4451-sir tip [him]_241-pip one more ? [You]_4451-sir ca n't think how it pleases [him]_241-pip . " [I]_4451-sir tipped [him]_{6015-the old man} several more , and [he]_{6015-the old man} was in great spirits . [We]_254-wemmick left [him]_{6015-the old man} bestirring [himself]_{6015-the old man} to feed the fowls , and [we]_254-wemmick sat down to [our]_254-wemmick punch in [the arbor]_{6018-the arbor} ; where [Wemmick]_254-wemmick told [me]_4451-sir , as [he]_254-wemmick smoked a pipe , that it had taken [him]_254-wemmick a good many years to bring [the property]_{6019-the property} up to its present pitch of perfection . "_[4451-sir] Is it [your]_4451-sir own , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick ? " "_{[254-wemmick]} O yes , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[254-wemmick]} [I]_0-i have got hold of it , a bit at a time . [It]_2180-it 's a freehold , by [George]_{231-george barnwell} ! " "_{[231-george barnwell]} Is it indeed ? [I]_0-i hope [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} admires [it]_2180-it ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Never seen it , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Never heard of it . Never seen [the Aged]_{293-the aged} . Never heard of [him]_{293-the aged} . No ; [the office]_{5562-the office} is one thing , and private life is another . When [I]_0-i go into [the office]_{5562-the office} , [I]_0-i leave [the Castle]_{54-the castle} behind [me]_0-i , and when [I]_0-i come into [the Castle]_{54-the castle} , [I]_0-i leave [the office]_{5562-the office} behind [me]_0-i . If it 's not in any way disagreeable to [you]_2184-you , [you]_2184-you 'll oblige [me]_0-i by doing the same . [I]_0-i do n't wish it professionally spoken about . " Of course [I]_0-i felt [my]_0-i good faith involved in the observance of [his]_0-i request . The punch being very nice , [we]_6020-we sat there drinking it and talking , until it was almost nine o'clock . "_[0-i] Getting near gun - fire , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick then , as [he]_254-wemmick laid down [his]_254-wemmick pipe ; "_{[2166-the aged]} it 's [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} 's treat . " Proceeding into [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} again , [we]_6020-we found [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} heating the poker , with expectant eyes , as a preliminary to the performance of this great nightly ceremony . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick stood with [his]_254-wemmick watch in [his]_254-wemmick hand until the moment was come for [him]_254-wemmick to take the red - hot poker from [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , and repair to the battery . [He]_254-wemmick took it , and went out , and presently the Stinger went off with a Bang that shook the crazy little box of [a cottage]_{6024-a cottage} as if it must fall to pieces , and made every glass and teacup in it ring . Upon this , [the Aged - who [I]_{2166-the aged} believe would have been blown out of [his]_{6025-the aged - who i believe would have been blown out of his arm - chair} arm - chair]_{6025-the aged - who i believe would have been blown out of his arm - chair} but for holding on by the elbows - cried out exultingly , "_{[2166-the aged]} [He]_{2166-the aged} 's fired ! [I]_0-i heerd [him]_{2166-the aged} ! " and [I]_0-i nodded at [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} until it is no figure of speech to declare that [I]_0-i absolutely could not see [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} . The interval between that time and supper [Wemmick]_254-wemmick devoted to showing [me]_0-i [his]_254-wemmick collection of curiosities . They were mostly of a felonious character ; comprising the pen with which a celebrated forgery had been committed , a distinguished razor or two , some locks of hair , and several manuscript confessions written under condemnation , - upon which [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick set particular value as being , to use [his]_254-wemmick own words , "_[0-i] every one of 'em Lies , [sir]_4451-sir . " These were agreeably dispersed among small specimens of china and glass , various neat trifles made by [the proprietor of [the museum]_{6028-the museum}]_{6027-the proprietor of the museum} , and some tobacco - stoppers carved by [the Aged]_{293-the aged} . They were all displayed in [that chamber of the Castle into which [I]_4451-sir had been first inducted]_{6029-that chamber of the castle into which i had been first inducted} , and which served , not only as [the general sitting - room]_{6030-the general sitting - room} but as [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} too , if [I]_4451-sir might judge from a saucepan on the hob , and a brazen bijou over the fireplace designed for the suspension of a roasting - jack . There was [a neat little girl in attendance]_{6032-a neat little girl in attendance} , who looked after [the Aged in the day]_{6033-the aged in the day} . When [she]_{6032-a neat little girl in attendance} had laid the supper - cloth , the bridge was lowered to give [her]_{6032-a neat little girl in attendance} means of egress , and [she]_{6032-a neat little girl in attendance} withdrew for the night . The supper was excellent ; and though [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} was rather subject to dry - rot insomuch that it tasted like a bad nut , and though the pig might have been farther off , [I]_4451-sir was heartily pleased with [my]_4451-sir whole entertainment . Nor was there any drawback on [[my]_4451-sir little turret bedroom]_{6035-my little turret bedroom} , beyond there being such a very thin ceiling between [me]_4451-sir and [the flagstaff]_{6036-the flagstaff} , that when [I]_4451-sir lay down on [my]_4451-sir back in bed , it seemed as if [I]_4451-sir had to balance that pole on [my]_4451-sir forehead all night . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was up early in the morning , and [I]_4451-sir am afraid [I]_4451-sir heard [him]_254-wemmick cleaning [my]_4451-sir boots . After that , [he]_254-wemmick fell to gardening , and [I]_4451-sir saw [him]_254-wemmick from [my]_4451-sir gothic window pretending to employ [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , and nodding at [him]_254-wemmick in a most devoted manner . [Our]_6038-we breakfast was as good as the supper , and at half - past eight precisely [we]_6038-we started for [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} . By degrees , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick got dryer and harder as [we]_6038-we went along , and [his]_254-wemmick mouth tightened into a post - office again . At last , when [we]_6038-we got to [[his]_254-wemmick place of business]_{6039-his place of business} and [he]_254-wemmick pulled out [his]_254-wemmick key from [his]_254-wemmick coat - collar , [he]_254-wemmick looked as unconscious of [[his]_254-wemmick Walworth property]_{6040-his walworth property} as if [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} and [the drawbridge]_{6042-the drawbridge} and [the arbor]_{6018-the arbor} and [the lake]_{6044-the lake} and [the fountain]_{6045-the fountain} and [the Aged]_{293-the aged} , had all been blown into space together by the last discharge of the Stinger . Chapter XXVI It fell out as [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had told [me]_4451-sir it would , that [I]_4451-sir had an early opportunity of comparing [[[my]_4451-sir guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's establishment]_{6047-my guardian 's establishment} with that of [[his]_254-wemmick cashier]_{6048-his cashier} and [clerk]_6049-clerk . [[My]_4451-sir guardian]_{1805-my guardian} was in [[his]_254-wemmick room]_{625-his room} , washing [his]_254-wemmick hands with [his]_254-wemmick scented soap , when [I]_4451-sir went into [the office]_{5562-the office} from [Walworth]_52-walworth ; and [he]_254-wemmick called [me]_4451-sir to [him]_254-wemmick , and gave [me]_4451-sir the invitation for [myself]_4451-sir and [friends]_4514-friends which [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had prepared [me]_4451-sir to receive . "_[4451-sir] No ceremony , " [he]_254-wemmick stipulated , "_[4451-sir] and no dinner dress , and say to - morrow . " [I]_4451-sir asked [him]_254-wemmick where [we]_6054-we should come to for [I]_4451-sir had no idea where [he]_254-wemmick lived , and [I]_4451-sir believe it was in [his]_254-wemmick general objection to make anything like an admission , that [he]_254-wemmick replied , "_[4451-sir] Come here , and [I]_0-i 'll take [you]_2187-you [home]_4495-home with [me]_0-i . " [I]_241-pip embrace this opportunity of remarking that [he]_254-wemmick washed [[his]_254-wemmick clients]_{6055-his clients} off , as if [he]_254-wemmick were [a surgeon]_{1522-a surgeon} or [a dentist]_{6057-a dentist} . [He]_254-wemmick had [a closet in [[his]_254-wemmick room]_{625-his room}]_{6058-a closet in his room} , fitted up for the purpose , which smelt of the scented soap like [[a perfumer]_{6060-a perfumer} 's shop]_{6061-a perfumer 's shop} . It had an unusually large jack - towel on a roller inside the door , and [he]_254-wemmick would wash [his]_254-wemmick hands , and wipe them and dry them all over this towel , whenever [he]_254-wemmick came in from [a police court]_{6062-a police court} or dismissed [a client]_{6063-a client} from [[his]_254-wemmick room]_{625-his room} . When [I]_241-pip and [[my]_241-pip friends]_{5139-my friends} repaired to [him]_254-wemmick at six o'clock next day , [he]_254-wemmick seemed to have been engaged on a case of a darker complexion than usual , for [we]_6066-we found [him]_254-wemmick with [his]_254-wemmick head butted into [this closet]_{6067-this closet} , not only washing [his]_254-wemmick hands , but laving [his]_254-wemmick face and gargling [his]_254-wemmick throat . And even when [he]_254-wemmick had done all that , and had gone all round the jack - towel , [he]_254-wemmick took out [his]_254-wemmick penknife and scraped the case out of [his]_254-wemmick nails before [he]_254-wemmick put [his]_254-wemmick coat on . There were [some people slinking about as usual]_{6068-some people slinking about as usual} when [we]_6066-we passed out into [the street]_{4824-the street} , who were evidently anxious to speak with [him]_254-wemmick ; but there was something so conclusive in the halo of scented soap which encircled [his]_254-wemmick presence , that [they]_{6068-some people slinking about as usual} gave it up for that day . As [we]_6066-we walked along westward , [he]_254-wemmick was recognized ever and again by some face in [the crowd of [the streets]_{5643-the streets}]_{6070-the crowd of the streets} , and whenever that happened [he]_254-wemmick talked louder to [me]_241-pip ; but [he]_254-wemmick never otherwise recognized [anybody]_4526-anybody , or took notice that [anybody]_4526-anybody recognized [him]_254-wemmick . [He]_254-wemmick conducted [us]_6066-we to [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} , [Soho]_57-soho , to [a house on [the south side of [that street]_{6076-that street}]_{6075-the south side of that street}]_{6074-a house on the south side of that street} . Rather [a stately house of [its]_{6074-a house on the south side of that street} kind]_{6077-a stately house of its kind} , but dolefully in want of painting , and with dirty windows . [He]_254-wemmick took out [his]_254-wemmick key and opened the door , and [we]_6066-we all went into [a stone hall]_{6078-a stone hall} , bare , gloomy , and little used . So , up [a dark brown staircase]_{6079-a dark brown staircase} into a series of [three dark brown rooms on the first floor]_{6080-three dark brown rooms on the first floor} . There were carved garlands on the panelled walls , and as [he]_254-wemmick stood among them giving [us]_6066-we welcome , [I]_241-pip know what kind of loops [I]_241-pip thought they looked like . Dinner was laid in [the best of [these rooms]_{6082-these rooms}]_{6081-the best of these rooms} ; [the second]_{6083-the second} was [[his]_254-wemmick dressing - room]_{6084-his dressing - room} ; [the third]_{6085-the third} , [[his]_254-wemmick bedroom]_{6086-his bedroom} . [He]_254-wemmick told [us]_6066-we that [he]_254-wemmick held [the whole house]_{6087-the whole house} , but rarely used more of [it]_{6087-the whole house} than [we]_6066-we saw . The table was comfortably laid - no silver in the service , of course - and at the side of [his]_254-wemmick chair was [a capacious dumb - waiter]_{6088-a capacious dumb - waiter} , with a variety of bottles and decanters on it , and four dishes of fruit for dessert . [I]_241-pip noticed throughout , that [he]_254-wemmick kept everything under [his]_254-wemmick own hand , and distributed everything [himself]_254-wemmick . There was a bookcase in [the room]_{633-the room} ; [I]_241-pip saw from the backs of the books , that they were about evidence , criminal law , criminal biography , trials , acts of Parliament , and such things . The furniture was all very solid and good , like [his]_254-wemmick watch - chain . It had an official look , however , and there was nothing merely ornamental to be seen . In a corner was a little table of papers with a shaded lamp : so that [he]_254-wemmick seemed to bring [the office]_{5562-the office} [home]_4495-home with [him]_254-wemmick in that respect too , and to wheel it out of an evening and fall to work . As [he]_254-wemmick had scarcely seen [[my]_241-pip three companions]_{6092-my three companions} until now , - for [he]_254-wemmick and [I]_241-pip had walked together , - [he]_254-wemmick stood on the hearth - rug , after ringing the bell , and took a searching look at [them]_{6092-my three companions} . To [my]_241-pip surprise , [he]_254-wemmick seemed at once to be principally if not solely interested in [Drummle]_278-drummle . "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip , " said [he]_254-wemmick , putting [his]_254-wemmick large hand on [my]_241-pip shoulder and moving [me]_241-pip to the window , "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i do n't know one from the other . Who 's [the Spider]_{2189-the spider} ? " "_{[2189-the spider]} The spider ? " said [I.]_241-pip "_{[2190-the blotchy , sprawly , sulky fellow]} [The blotchy , sprawly , sulky fellow]_{2190-the blotchy , sprawly , sulky fellow} . " "_{[2190-the blotchy , sprawly , sulky fellow]} That 's [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle , " [I]_{2191-the one with the delicate face} replied ; "_{[2191-the one with the delicate face]} [the one with the delicate face]_{2191-the one with the delicate face} is [Startop]_276-startop . " Not making the least account of "_{[2191-the one with the delicate face]} [the one with the delicate face]_{2191-the one with the delicate face} , " [he]_254-wemmick returned , "_{[2191-the one with the delicate face]} [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle is [his]_{2191-the one with the delicate face} name , is it ? [I]_0-i like the look of [that fellow]_{2193-that fellow} . " [He]_254-wemmick immediately began to talk to [Drummle]_278-drummle : not at all deterred by [his]_254-wemmick replying in [his]_254-wemmick heavy reticent way , but apparently led on by it to screw discourse out of [him]_254-wemmick . [I]_{2193-that fellow} was looking at [the two]_{856-the two} , when there came between [me]_{2193-that fellow} and [them]_{856-the two} [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} , with the first dish for the table . [She]_{5993-the housekeeper} was [a woman of about forty]_{6095-a woman of about forty} , [I]_{2193-that fellow} supposed , - but [I]_{2193-that fellow} may have thought [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} younger than [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} was . Rather tall , of a lithe nimble figure , extremely pale , with large faded eyes , and a quantity of streaming hair . [I]_{2193-that fellow} can not say whether any diseased affection of the heart caused [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} lips to be parted as if [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} were panting , and [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} face to bear a curious expression of suddenness and flutter ; but [I]_{2193-that fellow} know that [I]_{2193-that fellow} had been to see [Macbeth]_294-macbeth at [the theatre]_{5713-the theatre} , a night or two before , and that [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} face looked to [me]_{2193-that fellow} as if it were all disturbed by fiery air , like the faces [I]_{2193-that fellow} had seen rise out of [the Witches]_{295-the witches} ' caldron . [She]_{5993-the housekeeper} set the dish on , touched [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} quietly on the arm with a finger to notify that dinner was ready , and vanished . [We]_6098-we took [our]_6098-we seats at the round table , and [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} kept [Drummle]_278-drummle on one side of [him]_{1805-my guardian} , while [Startop]_276-startop sat on the other . It was a noble dish of fish that [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} had put on table , and [we]_6098-we had a joint of equally choice mutton afterwards , and then an equally choice bird . Sauces , wines , all the accessories [we]_6098-we wanted , and all of the best , were given out by [[our]_6098-we host]_{6101-our host} from [[his]_{6101-our host} dumb - waiter]_{6102-his dumb - waiter} ; and when [they]_6103-they had made the circuit of the table , [he]_{6101-our host} always put them back again . Similarly , [he]_{6101-our host} dealt [us]_6098-we clean plates and knives and forks , for each course , and dropped those just disused into two baskets on the ground by [his]_{6101-our host} chair . [No other attendant]_{6104-no other attendant} than [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} appeared . [She]_{5993-the housekeeper} set on every dish ; and [I]_{2193-that fellow} always saw in [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} face , a face rising out of the caldron . Years afterwards , [I]_{2193-that fellow} made a dreadful likeness of [that woman]_{6106-that woman} , by causing a face that had no other natural resemblance to it than it derived from flowing hair to pass behind a bowl of flaming spirits in [a dark room]_{6107-a dark room} . Induced to take particular notice of [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} , both by [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} own striking appearance and by [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's preparation , [I]_{2193-that fellow} observed that whenever [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} was in [the room]_{633-the room} [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} kept [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} eyes attentively on [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , and that [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} would remove [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} hands from any dish [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} put before [him]_{1805-my guardian} , hesitatingly , as if [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} dreaded [his]_{1805-my guardian} calling [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} back , and wanted [him]_{1805-my guardian} to speak when [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} was nigh , if [he]_{1805-my guardian} had anything to say . [I]_{2193-that fellow} fancied that [I]_{2193-that fellow} could detect in [his]_{1805-my guardian} manner a consciousness of this , and a purpose of always holding [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} in suspense . Dinner went off gayly , and although [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} seemed to follow rather than [originate subjects]_{6112-originate subjects} , [I]_{2193-that fellow} knew that [he]_{1805-my guardian} wrenched the weakest part of [our]_6113-our dispositions out of [us]_6113-our . For [myself]_{2193-that fellow} , [I]_{2193-that fellow} found that [I]_{2193-that fellow} was expressing [my]_{2193-that fellow} tendency to lavish expenditure , and to patronize [Herbert]_265-herbert , and to boast of [my]_{2193-that fellow} great prospects , before [I]_{2193-that fellow} quite knew that [I]_{2193-that fellow} had opened [my]_{2193-that fellow} lips . It was so with all of [us]_6113-our , but with [no one]_{4550-no one} more than [Drummle]_278-drummle : the development of whose inclination to gird in a grudging and suspicious way at the rest , was screwed out of [him]_{1805-my guardian} before the fish was taken off . It was not then , but when [we]_6113-our had got to the cheese , that [our]_6113-our conversation turned upon [our]_6113-our rowing feats , and that [Drummle]_278-drummle was rallied for coming up behind of a night in that slow amphibious way of [his]_{1805-my guardian} . [Drummle]_278-drummle upon this , informed [[our]_6113-our host]_{6101-our host} that [he]_{1805-my guardian} much preferred [[our]_6113-our room]_{6116-our room} to [our]_6113-our company , and that as to skill [he]_{1805-my guardian} was more than [[our]_6113-our master]_{6117-our master} , and that as to strength [he]_{1805-my guardian} could scatter [us]_6113-our like chaff . By some invisible agency , [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} wound [him]_{1805-my guardian} up to a pitch little short of ferocity about this trifle ; and [he]_{1805-my guardian} fell to baring and spanning [his]_{1805-my guardian} arm to show how muscular it was , and [we]_6113-our all fell to baring and spanning [our]_6113-our arms in a ridiculous manner . Now [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} was at that time clearing the table ; [[my]_{2193-that fellow} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , taking no heed of [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} , but with the side of [his]_{1805-my guardian} face turned from [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} , was leaning back in [his]_{1805-my guardian} chair biting the side of [his]_{1805-my guardian} forefinger and showing an interest in Drummle , that , to [me]_{2193-that fellow} , was quite inexplicable . Suddenly , [he]_{1805-my guardian} clapped [his]_{1805-my guardian} large hand on [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} 's , like a trap , as [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} stretched it across the table . So suddenly and smartly did [he]_{1805-my guardian} do this , that [we]_6122-we all stopped in [our]_6122-we foolish contention . "_{[2193-that fellow]} If [you]_2194-you talk of strength , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll show [you]_2194-you a wrist . [Molly]_296-molly , let [them]_2195-them see [your]_2194-you wrist . " [Her]_{5993-the housekeeper} entrapped hand was on the table , but [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} had already put [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} other hand behind [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} waist . "_{[1447-master]} [Master]_1447-master , " [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} said , in a low voice , with [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} eyes attentively and entreatingly fixed upon [him]_1447-master . "_{[1447-master]} Do n't . " "_{[1447-master]} [I]_0-i 'll show [you]_2194-you a wrist , " repeated [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , with an immovable determination to show it . "_[296-molly] [Molly]_296-molly , let [them]_2195-them see [your]_2194-you wrist . " "_{[1447-master]} [Master]_1447-master , " [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} again murmured . "_{[1447-master]} Please ! " "_[296-molly] [Molly]_296-molly , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , not looking at [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} , but obstinately looking at the opposite side of [the room]_{633-the room} , "_[296-molly] let [them]_2195-them see both [your]_2194-you wrists . Show [them]_2195-them . Come ! " [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} took [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand from [hers]_{5993-the housekeeper} , and turned that wrist up on the table . [She]_{5993-the housekeeper} brought [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} other hand from behind [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} , and held the two out side by side . The last wrist was much disfigured , - deeply scarred and scarred across and across . When [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} held [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} hands out [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} took [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} eyes from [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and turned them watchfully on [every one of the rest of [us]_6125-us]_{6124-every one of the rest of us} in succession . "_{[1447-master]} There 's power here , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , coolly tracing out the sinews with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} forefinger . "_{[1447-master]} [Very few men]_{2198-very few men} have the power of wrist that [this woman]_{2199-this woman} has . It 's remarkable what mere force of grip there is in these hands . [I]_0-i have had occasion to notice many hands ; but [I]_0-i never saw stronger in that respect , [man]_4518-man 's or [woman]_2201-woman 's , than these . " While [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} said these words in a leisurely , critical style , [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} continued to look at every one of [us]_6125-us in regular succession as [we]_6125-us sat . The moment [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} ceased , [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} looked at [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} again . "_[296-molly] That 'll do , [Molly]_296-molly , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , giving [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} a slight nod ; "_[296-molly] [you]_296-molly have been admired , and can go . " [She]_{5993-the housekeeper} withdrew [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} hands and went out of [the room]_{633-the room} , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , putting the decanters on from [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} dumb - waiter]_{6102-his dumb - waiter} , filled [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} glass and passed round the wine . "_[296-molly] At half - past nine , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , " said [he]_0-i , "_[296-molly] [we]_2203-we must break up . [Pray]_2204-pray make the best use of [your]_{4982-gentlemen} time . [I]_0-i am glad to see [you]_{4982-gentlemen} all . [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , [I]_0-i drink to [you]_{4982-gentlemen} . " If [his]_0-i object in singling out [Drummle]_275-drummle were to bring [him]_275-drummle out still more , it perfectly succeeded . In a sulky triumph , [Drummle]_275-drummle showed [his]_275-drummle morose depreciation of [the rest of [us]_2203-we]_{6128-the rest of us} , in a more and more offensive degree , until [he]_275-drummle became downright intolerable . Through all [his]_275-drummle stages , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} followed [him]_275-drummle with the same strange interest . [He]_0-i actually seemed to serve as a zest to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's wine . In [our]_2203-we boyish want of discretion [I]_0-i dare say [we]_2203-we took too much to drink , and [I]_0-i know [we]_2203-we talked too much . [We]_2203-we became particularly hot upon some boorish sneer of [Drummle]_275-drummle 's , to the effect that [we]_2203-we were too free with [our]_2203-we money . It led to [my]_0-i remarking , with more zeal than discretion , that it came with a bad grace from [him]_275-drummle , to whom [Startop]_276-startop had lent money in [my]_0-i presence but a week or so before . "_[0-i] Well , " retorted [Drummle]_275-drummle ; "_[0-i] [he]_2205-you 'll be paid . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't mean to imply that [he]_2205-you wo n't , " said [I]_2205-you , "_[2205-you] but it might make [you]_2205-you hold [your]_2205-you tongue about [us]_2206-we and [our]_2206-we money , [I]_0-i should think . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i should think ! " retorted [Drummle]_275-drummle . "_[0-i] [Oh Lord]_{2207-oh lord} ! " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i dare say , " [I]_0-i went on , meaning to be very severe , "_[0-i] that [you]_2205-you would n't lend money to any of [us]_2206-we if [we]_2206-we wanted it . " "_[2205-you] [You]_0-i are right , " said [Drummle]_275-drummle . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would n't lend one of [you]_2205-you a sixpence . [I]_0-i would n't lend [anybody]_4526-anybody a sixpence . " "_[0-i] Rather mean to borrow under those circumstances , [I]_0-i should say . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i should say , " repeated [Drummle]_275-drummle . "_[0-i] Oh [Lord]_2209-lord ! " This was so very aggravating - the more especially as [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i making no way against [his]_275-drummle surly obtuseness - that [I]_0-i said , disregarding [Herbert]_265-herbert 's efforts to check [me]_0-i , - "_[0-i] Come , [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , since [we]_2206-we are on the subject , [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_275-drummle what passed between [Herbert]_265-herbert here and [me]_0-i , when [you]_275-drummle borrowed that money . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't want to know what passed between [Herbert]_265-herbert there and [you]_0-i , " growled [Drummle]_275-drummle . And [I]_0-i think [he]_275-drummle added in a lower growl , that [we]_2206-we might both go to the devil and shake [ourselves]_2206-we . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_275-drummle , however , " said [I]_0-i , "_[0-i] whether [you]_275-drummle want to know or not . [We]_2206-we said that as [you]_275-drummle put it in [your]_275-drummle pocket very glad to get it , [you]_275-drummle seemed to be immensely amused at [his]_265-herbert being so weak as to lend it . " [Drummle]_275-drummle laughed outright , and sat laughing in [our]_2206-we faces , with [his]_275-drummle hands in [his]_275-drummle pockets and [his]_275-drummle round shoulders raised ; plainly signifying that it was quite true , and that [he]_275-drummle despised [us]_2206-we as [asses all]_{6129-asses all} . [Hereupon Startop]_276-startop took [him]_275-drummle in hand , though with a much better grace than [I]_275-drummle had shown , and exhorted [him]_275-drummle to be a little more agreeable . [Startop]_276-startop , being [a lively , bright young fellow]_{6130-a lively , bright young fellow} , and [Drummle]_275-drummle being the exact opposite , [the latter]_{1296-the latter} was always disposed to resent [him]_276-startop as a direct personal affront . [He]_276-startop now retorted in a coarse , lumpish way , and [Startop]_276-startop tried to turn the discussion aside with some small pleasantry that made [us]_2206-we all laugh . Resenting this little success more than anything , [Drummle]_275-drummle , without any threat or warning , pulled [his]_275-drummle hands out of [his]_275-drummle pockets , dropped [his]_275-drummle round shoulders , swore , took up a large glass , and would have flung it at [[his]_275-drummle adversary]_{6132-his adversary} 's head , but for [[our]_2206-we entertainer]_{6133-our entertainer} 's dexterously seizing it at the instant when it was raised for that purpose . "_{[275-drummle]} [Gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , deliberately putting down the glass , and hauling out [his]_0-i gold repeater by its massive chain , "_{[4982-gentlemen]} [I]_0-i am exceedingly sorry to announce that it 's half past nine . " On this hint [we]_2206-we all rose to depart . Before [we]_2206-we got to [the street]_{4824-the street} door , [Startop]_276-startop was cheerily calling [Drummle]_275-drummle "_{[2211-old boy]} [old boy]_{2211-old boy} , " as if nothing had happened . But [the old boy]_{6135-the old boy} was so far from responding , that [he]_{6135-the old boy} would not even walk to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} on the same side of the way ; so [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_{2211-old boy} , who remained in [town]_4800-town , saw [them]_6137-them going down [the street on opposite sides]_{6138-the street on opposite sides} ; [Startop]_276-startop leading , and [Drummle]_275-drummle lagging behind in the shadow of [the houses]_{6139-the houses} , much as [he]_{6135-the old boy} was wo nt to follow in [[his]_{6135-the old boy} boat]_{6140-his boat} . As the door was not yet shut , [I]_{2211-old boy} thought [I]_{2211-old boy} would leave [Herbert]_265-herbert there for a moment , and run up [stairs]_539-stairs again to say a word to [[my]_{2211-old boy} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} . [I]_{2211-old boy} found [him]_{6135-the old boy} in [[his]_{6135-the old boy} dressing - room]_{6084-his dressing - room} surrounded by [his]_{6135-the old boy} stock of boots , already hard at it , washing [his]_{6135-the old boy} hands of [us]_6144-us . [I]_{2211-old boy} told [him]_{6135-the old boy} [I]_{2211-old boy} had come up again to say how sorry [I]_{2211-old boy} was that anything disagreeable should have occurred , and that [I]_{2211-old boy} hoped [he]_{6135-the old boy} would not blame [me]_{2211-old boy} much . "_{[2211-old boy]} Pooh ! " said [he]_{6135-the old boy} , sluicing [his]_{6135-the old boy} face , and speaking through the water - drops ; "_[241-pip] it 's nothing , [Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i like that Spider though . " [He]_{6135-the old boy} had turned towards [me]_0-i now , and was shaking [his]_{6135-the old boy} head , and blowing , and towelling [himself]_{6135-the old boy} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am glad [you]_0-i like [him]_2212-him , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [I]_4451-sir - "_[4451-sir] but [I]_0-i do n't . " "_[0-i] No , no , " [[my]_4451-sir guardian]_{1805-my guardian} assented ; "_[4451-sir] do n't have too much to do with [him]_2212-him . Keep as clear of [him]_2212-him as [you]_241-pip can . But [I]_0-i like [the fellow]_{2214-the fellow} , [Pip]_241-pip ; [he]_{2214-the fellow} is [one of the true sort]_{2215-one of the true sort} . Why , if [I]_0-i was [a fortune - teller]_{2216-a fortune - teller} - " Looking out of the towel , [he]_0-i caught [my]_0-i eye . "_[0-i] But [I]_0-i am not [a fortune - teller]_{2216-a fortune - teller} , " [he]_0-i said , letting [his]_0-i head drop into a festoon of towel , and towelling away at [his]_0-i two ears . "_[0-i] [You]_241-pip know what [I]_0-i am , do n't [you]_241-pip ? Good night , [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] Good night , [sir]_4451-sir . " In about a month after that , [the Spider]_{297-the spider} 's time with [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert was up for good , and , to the great relief of all [the house]_{604-the house} but [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} , [he]_0-i went [home]_4495-home to [the family hole]_{6148-the family hole} . Chapter XXVII "_[4451-sir] [MY]_0-i DEAR [MR PIP]_241-pip : - " [I]_188-biddy write this by request of [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} , for to let [you]_241-pip know that [he]_{203-mr. gargery} is going to [London]_8-london in company with [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} and would be glad if agreeable to be allowed to see [you]_241-pip . [He]_{203-mr. gargery} would call at [Barnard 's Hotel]_{58-barnard 's hotel} Tuesday morning at nine o'clock , when if not agreeable please leave word . [[Your]_241-pip poor sister]_{6149-your poor sister} is much the same as when [you]_241-pip left . [We]_6150-we talk of [you]_241-pip in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} every night , and wonder what [you]_241-pip are saying and doing . If now considered in the light of a liberty , excuse it for the love of poor old days . No more , [dear Mr. Pip]_241-pip , from [[your]_241-pip ever obliged , and affectionate servant]_{6152-your ever obliged , and affectionate servant} , "_[188-biddy] [BIDDY]_188-biddy . " "_[188-biddy] P.S. [He]_2219-i wishes [me]_0-i most particular to write what larks . [He]_2219-i says [you]_2220-you will understand . [I]_0-i hope and do not doubt it will be agreeable to see [him]_2219-i , even though [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , for [you]_2220-you had ever a good heart , and [he]_2219-i is [a worthy , worthy man]_{2222-a worthy , worthy man} . [I]_0-i have read [him]_2219-i all , excepting only the last little sentence , and [he]_2219-i wishes [me]_0-i most particular to write again what larks . " [I]_2219-i received this letter by the post on Monday morning , and therefore its appointment was for next day . Let [me]_2219-i confess exactly with what feelings [I]_2219-i looked forward to [Joe]_154-joe 's coming . Not with pleasure , though [I]_2219-i was bound to [him]_2219-i by so many ties ; no ; with considerable disturbance , some mortification , and a keen sense of incongruity . If [I]_2219-i could have kept [him]_2219-i away by paying money , [I]_2219-i certainly would have paid money . [My]_2219-i greatest reassurance was that [he]_2219-i was coming to [[Barnard]_260-barnard 's Inn]_{5647-barnard 's inn} , not to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} , and consequently would not fall in [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle 's way . [I]_2219-i had little objection to [his]_2219-i being seen by [Herbert]_265-herbert or [[his]_2219-i father]_{5627-his father} , for both of whom [I]_2219-i had a respect ; but [I]_2219-i had the sharpest sensitiveness as to [his]_2219-i being seen by [Drummle]_278-drummle , whom [I]_2219-i held in contempt . So , throughout life , [our]_6155-our worst weaknesses and meannesses are usually committed for the sake of [the people whom [we]_6155-our most despise]_{6156-the people whom we most despise} . [I]_2219-i had begun to be always decorating [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} in some quite unnecessary and inappropriate way or other , and very expensive those wrestles with [Barnard]_260-barnard proved to be . By this time , [the rooms]_{6158-the rooms} were vastly different from what [I]_2219-i had found [them]_{6158-the rooms} , and [I]_2219-i enjoyed the honor of occupying a few prominent pages in the books of [a neighboring upholsterer]_{6159-a neighboring upholsterer} . [I]_2219-i had got on so fast of late , that [I]_2219-i had even started [a boy in boots , - top boots]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} , - in bondage and slavery to whom [I]_2219-i might have been said to pass [my]_2219-i days . For , after [I]_2219-i had made [the monster out of the refuse of [[my]_2219-i washerwoman 's family]_{6162-my washerwoman 's family}]_{6161-the monster out of the refuse of my washerwoman 's family} , and had clothed [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} with a blue coat , canary waistcoat , white cravat , creamy breeches , and the boots already mentioned , [I]_2219-i had to find [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} a little to do and a great deal to eat ; and with both of those horrible requirements [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} haunted [my]_2219-i existence . [This avenging phantom]_{6163-this avenging phantom} was ordered to be on duty at eight on Tuesday morning in [the hall]_{5132-the hall} , [it]_{5132-the hall} was two feet square , as charged for floorcloth , and [Herbert]_265-herbert suggested certain things for breakfast that [he]_265-herbert thought [Joe]_154-joe would like . While [I]_2219-i felt sincerely obliged to [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} for being so interested and considerate , [I]_2219-i had an odd half - provoked sense of suspicion upon [me]_2219-i , that if [Joe]_154-joe had been coming to see [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} , [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} would n't have been quite so brisk about it . However , [I]_2219-i came into [town]_4800-town on the Monday night to be ready for [Joe]_154-joe , and [I]_2219-i got up early in the morning , and caused [the sitting - room]_{6166-the sitting - room} and breakfast - table to assume [their]_6167-their most splendid appearance . Unfortunately the morning was drizzly , and [an angel]_{1727-an angel} could not have concealed the fact that [Barnard]_260-barnard was shedding sooty tears outside the window , like [some weak giant of a Sweep]_{6169-some weak giant of a sweep} . As the time approached [I]_2219-i should have liked to run away , but [the Avenger pursuant to orders]_{6170-the avenger pursuant to orders} was in [the hall]_{5132-the hall} , and presently [I]_2219-i heard [Joe]_154-joe on the staircase . [I]_2219-i knew it was [Joe]_154-joe , by [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} clumsy manner of coming up [stairs]_539-stairs , - [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} state boots being always too big for [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} , - and by the time it took [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} to read the names on the other floors in the course of [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} ascent . When at last [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} stopped outside [our]_6173-our door , [I]_2219-i could hear [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} finger tracing over the painted letters of [my]_2219-i name , and [I]_2219-i afterwards distinctly heard [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} breathing in at the keyhole . Finally [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} gave a faint single rap , and [Pepper]_299-pepper - such was the compromising name of [the avenging boy]_{6174-the avenging boy} - announced "_[2219-i] [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ! " [I]_154-joe thought [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} never would have done wiping [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} feet , and that [I]_154-joe must have gone out to lift [him]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} off the mat , but at last [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} came in . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe , how are [you]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip , how AIR [you]_154-joe , [Pip]_241-pip ? " With [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} good honest face all glowing and shining , and [his]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} hat put down on the floor between [us]_6175-us , [he]_{6160-a boy in boots , - top boots} caught both [my]_241-pip hands and worked them straight up and down , as if [I]_241-pip had been [the last - patented Pump]_{6176-the last - patented pump} . "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i am glad to see [you]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe . Give [me]_0-i [your]_154-joe hat . " But [Joe]_154-joe , taking it up carefully with both hands , like a bird's - nest with eggs in it , would n't hear of parting with that piece of property , and persisted in standing talking over it in a most uncomfortable way . "_[154-joe] Which [you]_154-joe have that growed , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[154-joe] and that swelled , and that gentle - folked ; " [Joe]_154-joe considered a little before [he]_0-i discovered this word ; "_[154-joe] as to be sure [you]_154-joe are a honor to [[your]_154-joe king]_{2223-your king} and [country]_2224-country . " "_[154-joe] And [you]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe , look wonderfully well . " "_[154-joe] Thank [God]_192-god , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[192-god] [I]_0-i 'm ekerval to most . And [[your]_154-joe sister]_{906-your sister} , [she]_{906-your sister} 's no worse than [she]_{906-your sister} were . And [Biddy]_188-biddy , [she]_188-biddy 's ever right and ready . And [all friends]_{981-all friends} is [no backerder]_{2227-no backerder} , if not [no forarder]_{2228-no forarder} . ' Ceptin [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} ; [he]_2229-he 's had a drop . " All this time still with both hands taking great care of the bird's - nest , [Joe]_154-joe was rolling [his]_0-i eyes round and round [the room]_{633-the room} , and round and round the flowered pattern of [my]_2229-he dressing - gown . "_[2229-he] Had a drop , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Why yes , " said [Joe]_154-joe , lowering [his]_0-i voice , "_[154-joe] [he]_2229-he 's left [the Church]_{439-the church} and went into the playacting . Which the playacting have likeways brought [him]_2229-he to [London]_8-london along with [me]_0-i . And [his]_2229-he wish were , " said [Joe]_154-joe , getting the bird's - nest under [his]_0-i left arm for the moment , and groping in it for an egg with [his]_0-i right ; "_[2229-he] if no offence , as [I]_0-i would ' and [you]_2231-you that . " [I]_2231-you took what [Joe]_154-joe gave [me]_2231-you , and found it to be the crumpled play - bill of [a small metropolitan theatre]_{6178-a small metropolitan theatre} , announcing the first appearance , in that very week , of "_[2231-you] [the celebrated Provincial Amateur of Roscian renown , whose unique performance in the highest tragic walk of [[our]_2233-our National Bard]_{59-our national bard}]_{2232-the celebrated provincial amateur of roscian renown , whose unique performance in the highest tragic walk of our national bard} has lately occasioned so great a sensation in local dramatic circles . " "_[0-i] Were [you]_0-i at [his]_2229-he performance , [Joe]_154-joe ? " [I]_0-i inquired . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i were , " said [Joe]_154-joe , with emphasis and solemnity . "_[0-i] Was there a great sensation ? " "_[0-i] Why , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] yes , there certainly were a peck of orange - peel . [Partickler]_{193-partickler} when [he]_2229-he see the ghost . Though [I]_0-i put it to [yourself]_2231-you , [sir]_4451-sir , whether it were calc'lated to keep [a man]_{428-a man} up to [his]_{428-a man} work with [a good hart]_{2236-a good hart} , to be continiwally cutting in betwixt [him]_{428-a man} and [the Ghost]_{2237-the ghost} with " Amen ! "_{[428-a man]} [A man]_{428-a man} may have had a misfortun ' and been in [the Church]_{439-the church} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , lowering [his]_0-i voice to an argumentative and feeling tone , "_{[428-a man]} but that is no reason why [you]_2231-you should put [him]_{428-a man} out at such a time . Which [I]_0-i meantersay , if [the ghost of [[a man]_{428-a man} 's own father]_{2242-a man 's own father}]_{2240-the ghost of a man 's own father} can not be allowed to claim [his]_{428-a man} attention , what can , [Sir]_4451-sir ? Still more , when [his]_{428-a man} mourning ' at is unfortunately made so small as that the weight of the black feathers brings it off , try to keep it on how [you]_2231-you may . " A ghost - seeing effect in [Joe]_154-joe 's own countenance informed [me]_{2244-your servant} that [Herbert]_265-herbert had entered [the room]_{633-the room} . So , [I]_{2244-your servant} presented [Joe]_154-joe to [Herbert]_265-herbert , who held out [his]_265-herbert hand ; but [Joe]_154-joe backed from it , and held on by the bird's - nest . "_{[2244-your servant]} [[Your]_2231-you servant]_{2244-your servant} , [Sir]_4451-sir , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] which [I]_0-i hope as [you]_2231-you and [Pip]_241-pip " - here [his]_0-i eye fell on [the Avenger , who was putting some toast on table]_{6180-the avenger , who was putting some toast on table} , and so plainly denoted an intention to make [that young gentleman]_{6181-that young gentleman} [one of [the family]_{4724-the family}]_{6182-one of the family} , that [I]_0-i frowned it down and confused [him]_0-i more - "_[0-i] [I]_0-i meantersay , [[you]_2246-you two gentlemen]_{2247-you two gentlemen} , - which [I]_0-i hope as [you]_2246-you get [your]_2246-you elths in [this close spot]_{2248-this close spot} ? For the present may be [a werry good inn]_{2249-a werry good inn} , according to [London]_8-london opinions , " said [Joe]_154-joe , confidentially , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i believe its character do stand [i]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i would n't keep a pig in it [myself]_0-i , - not in the case that [I]_0-i wished [him]_2250-him to fatten wholesome and to eat with a meller flavor on [him]_2250-him . " Having borne this flattering testimony to the merits of [[our]_6184-our dwelling - place]_{6185-our dwelling - place} , and having incidentally shown this tendency to call [me]_154-joe ' [sir]_4451-sir , "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe , being invited to sit down to table , looked all round [the room]_{633-the room} for a suitable spot on which to deposit [his]_0-i hat , - as if it were only on some very few rare substances in nature that it could find a resting place , - and ultimately stood [it]_2252-it on an extreme corner of the chimney - piece , from which it ever afterwards fell off at intervals . " Do [you]_154-joe take tea , or coffee , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ? "_{[265-herbert]} asked [Herbert]_265-herbert , who always presided of a morning . " [Thankee]_288-thankee , [Sir]_4451-sir , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , stiff from head to foot , " [I]_154-joe 'll take whichever is most agreeable to [yourself]_265-herbert . "_[154-joe] " What do [you]_154-joe say to coffee ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Thankee , [Sir]_4451-sir , "_[154-joe] returned [Joe]_154-joe , evidently dispirited by the proposal , ' since [you]_265-herbert are so kind as make chice of coffee , [I]_0-i will not run contrairy to [your]_265-herbert own opinions . But do n't [you]_265-herbert never find it a little ' eating ? " "_[154-joe] Say tea then , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , pouring it out . Here [Joe]_154-joe 's hat tumbled off the mantel - piece , and [he]_0-i started out of [his]_0-i chair and picked it up , and fitted it to the same exact spot . As if it were an absolute point of good breeding that it should tumble off again soon . "_[154-joe] When did [you]_154-joe come to [town]_4800-town , [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} ? " "_{[203-mr. gargery]} Were it yesterday afternoon ? " said [Joe]_154-joe , after coughing behind [his]_0-i hand , as if [he]_0-i had had time to catch the whooping - cough since [he]_0-i came . "_{[203-mr. gargery]} No it were not . Yes it were . Yes . [It]_2254-it were yesterday afternoon " with an appearance of mingled wisdom , relief , and strict impartiality . "_[2254-it] Have [you]_154-joe seen anything of [London]_8-london yet ? " "_[154-joe] Why , yes , [Sir]_4451-sir , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[4451-sir] [me]_0-i and [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} went off straight to look at [the Blacking Ware'us]_{300-the blacking ware'us} . But [we]_2256-we did n't find that it come up to its likeness in the red bills at [the shop]_{4833-the shop} doors ; which [I]_0-i meantersay , " added [Joe]_154-joe , in an explanatory manner , "_[0-i] as it is there drawd too architectooralooral . " [I]_2258-i really believe [Joe]_154-joe would have prolonged this word mightily expressive to [my]_2258-i mind of some architecture that [I]_2258-i know into a perfect Chorus , but for [his]_0-i attention being providentially attracted by [his]_0-i hat , which was toppling . Indeed , it demanded from [him]_0-i a constant attention , and a quickness of eye and hand , very like that exacted by wicket - keeping . [He]_0-i made extraordinary play with it , and showed the greatest skill ; now , rushing at it and catching it neatly as it dropped ; now , merely stopping it midway , beating [it]_{300-the blacking ware'us} up , and humoring it in various parts of [the room]_{633-the room} and against a good deal of the pattern of the paper on the wall , before [he]_0-i felt it safe to close with it ; finally splashing it into the slop - basin , where [I]_2258-i took the liberty of laying hands upon it . As to [his]_0-i shirt - collar , and [his]_0-i coat - collar , [they]_6190-they were perplexing to reflect upon , - insoluble mysteries both . Why should [a man]_{428-a man} scrape [himself]_{428-a man} to that extent , before [he]_{428-a man} could consider [himself]_{428-a man} full dressed ? Why should [he]_{428-a man} suppose it necessary to be purified by suffering for [his]_{428-a man} holiday clothes ? Then [he]_0-i fell into such unaccountable fits of meditation , with [his]_0-i fork midway between [his]_0-i plate and [his]_0-i mouth ; had [his]_0-i eyes attracted in such strange directions ; was afflicted with such remarkable coughs ; sat so far from the table , and dropped so much more than [he]_0-i ate , and pretended that [he]_0-i had n't dropped it ; that [I]_2258-i was heartily glad when [Herbert]_265-herbert left [us]_6192-us for [the City]_{2029-the city} . [I]_2258-i had neither the good sense nor the good feeling to know that this was all [my]_2258-i fault , and that if [I]_2258-i had been easier with [Joe]_154-joe , [Joe]_154-joe would have been easier with [me]_2258-i . [I]_2258-i felt impatient of [him]_0-i and out of temper with [him]_0-i ; in which condition [he]_0-i heaped coals of fire on [my]_2258-i head . "_[2258-i] [[Us]_2258-i two]_{2259-us two} being now alone , [sir]_4451-sir , " - began [Joe]_154-joe . "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe , " [I]_154-joe interrupted , pettishly , "_[154-joe] how can [you]_154-joe call [me]_0-i , [sir]_4451-sir ? " [Joe]_154-joe looked at [me]_154-joe for a single instant with something faintly like reproach . Utterly preposterous as [his]_0-i cravat was , and as [his]_0-i collars were , [I]_154-joe was conscious of a sort of dignity in the look . "_[154-joe] [[Us]_2258-i two]_{2259-us two} being now alone , " resumed [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] and [me]_0-i having the intentions and abilities to stay not many minutes more , [I]_0-i will now conclude - leastways begin - to mention what have led to [my]_0-i having had the present honor . For was it not , " said [Joe]_154-joe , with [his]_0-i old air of lucid exposition , "_[0-i] that [my]_0-i only wish were to be useful to [you]_2263-you , [I]_0-i should not have had the honor of breaking wittles in the company and abode of [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} . " [I]_4451-sir was so unwilling to see the look again , that [I]_4451-sir made no remonstrance against this tone . "_[4451-sir] Well , [sir]_4451-sir , " pursued [Joe]_154-joe , "_[4451-sir] this is how it were . [I]_0-i were at the Bargemen t'other night , [Pip]_241-pip ; " - whenever [he]_0-i subsided into affection , [he]_0-i called [me]_241-pip [Pip]_241-pip , and whenever [he]_0-i relapsed into politeness [he]_0-i called [me]_241-pip [sir]_4451-sir ; "_[241-pip] when there come up in [his]_0-i shay - cart , Pumblechook . Which that same identical , " said [Joe]_154-joe , going down a new track , "_[0-i] do comb [my]_0-i ' air the wrong way sometimes , awful , by giving out up and down [town]_4800-town as it were [him]_0-i which ever had [your]_2267-your infant companionation and were looked upon as a playfellow by [yourself]_2267-your . " "_[0-i] Nonsense . It was [you]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[0-i] Which [I]_0-i fully believed it were , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [Joe]_154-joe , slightly tossing [his]_0-i head , "_[241-pip] though it signify little now , [sir]_4451-sir . Well , [Pip]_241-pip ; this same identical , which [his]_241-pip manners is given to blusterous , come to [me]_0-i at [the Bargemen]_{2269-the bargemen} wot a pipe and a pint of beer do give refreshment to [the workingman]_{2270-the workingman} , [sir]_4451-sir , and do not over stimilate , and [his]_0-i word were , ' [Joseph]_154-joe , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} [she]_{223-miss havisham} wish to speak to [you]_154-joe . ' " "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} ' [She]_{223-miss havisham} wish , ' were [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's word , ' to speak to [you]_154-joe . ' " [Joe]_154-joe sat and rolled [his]_0-i eyes at the ceiling . "_[154-joe] Yes , [Joe]_154-joe ? Go on , please . " "_[154-joe] Next day , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [Joe]_154-joe , looking at [me]_0-i as if [I]_0-i were a long way off , "_[0-i] having cleaned [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i go and [I]_0-i see [Miss A.]_{301-miss a.} " "_{[301-miss a.]} [Miss A.]_{301-miss a.} , [Joe]_154-joe ? [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Which [I]_0-i say , [sir]_4451-sir , " replied [Joe]_154-joe , with an air of legal formality , as if [he]_0-i were making [his]_0-i will , "_{[301-miss a.]} [Miss A.]_{301-miss a.} , or otherways [Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [Her]_{301-miss a.} expression air then as follering : ' [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} . [You]_0-i air in correspondence with [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? ' Having had a letter from [you]_4451-sir , [I]_0-i were able to say ' [I]_0-i am . ' When [I]_0-i married [[your]_4451-sir sister]_{906-your sister} , [sir]_4451-sir , [I]_0-i said ' [I]_0-i will ; ' and when [I]_0-i answered [[your]_4451-sir friend]_{2276-your friend} , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i said ' [I]_0-i am . ' ' Would [you]_4451-sir tell [him]_{2276-your friend} , then , ' said [she]_{906-your sister} , ' that which [Estella]_195-estella has come [home]_4495-home and would be glad to see [him]_{2276-your friend} . ' " [I]_188-biddy felt [my]_188-biddy face fire up as [I]_188-biddy looked at [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_188-biddy hope one remote cause of its firing may have been [my]_188-biddy consciousness that if [I]_188-biddy had known [his]_{2276-your friend} errand , [I]_188-biddy should have given [him]_{2276-your friend} more encouragement . "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy , " pursued [Joe]_154-joe , "_[188-biddy] when [I]_0-i got [home]_4495-home and asked [her]_188-biddy fur to write the message to [you]_188-biddy , a little hung back . [Biddy]_188-biddy says , " [I]_188-biddy know [he]_{2276-your friend} will be very glad to have it by word of mouth , it is holiday time , [you]_154-joe want to see [him]_{2276-your friend} , go ! "_[188-biddy] [I]_0-i have now concluded , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [Joe]_154-joe , rising from [his]_0-i chair , "_[0-i] and , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i wish [you]_241-pip ever well and ever prospering to a greater and a greater height . " "_[0-i] But [you]_0-i are not going now , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[0-i] Yes [I]_0-i am , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[0-i] But [you]_0-i are coming back to dinner , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] No [I]_0-i am not , " said [Joe]_154-joe . [Our]_6195-our eyes met , and all the "_[154-joe] ir " melted out of that manly heart as [he]_0-i gave [me]_241-pip [his]_0-i hand . "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip , [dear old chap]_{2280-dear old chap} , life is made of ever so many partings welded together , as [I]_0-i may say , and [one man]_{2281-one man} 's [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} , and [one 's]_{2283-one 's} [a whitesmith]_{2284-a whitesmith} , and [one]_5055-one 's [a goldsmith]_{2286-a goldsmith} , and [one]_5055-one 's [a coppersmith]_{2288-a coppersmith} . Diwisions among such must come , and must be met as they come . If there 's been any fault at all to - day , it 's [mine]_0-i . [You]_2289-you and [me]_0-i is [not two figures to be together in [London]_8-london]_{2290-not two figures to be together in london} ; nor yet anywheres else but what is private , and beknown , and understood among [friends]_4514-friends . It ai n't that [I]_0-i am proud , but that [I]_0-i want to be right , as [you]_2289-you shall never see [me]_0-i no more in these clothes . [I]_0-i 'm wrong in these clothes . [I]_0-i 'm wrong out of [the forge]_{488-the forge} , [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , or off th ' meshes . [You]_2289-you wo n't find half so much fault in [me]_0-i if [you]_2289-you think of [me]_0-i in [my]_0-i forge dress , with [my]_0-i hammer in [my]_0-i hand , or even [my]_0-i pipe . [You]_2289-you wo n't find half so much fault in [me]_0-i if , supposing as [you]_2289-you should ever wish to see [me]_0-i , [you]_2289-you come and put [your]_2289-you head in at the forge window and see [Joe]_154-joe [the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} , there , at [the old anvil]_{2295-the old anvil} , in the old burnt apron , sticking to the old work . [I]_0-i 'm awful dull , but [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i 've beat out something nigh the rights of this at last . And so [GOD]_192-god bless [you]_2289-you , [dear old Pip]_{2296-dear old pip} , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , GOD bless [you]_2289-you ! " [I]_2298-convict had not been mistaken in [my]_2298-convict fancy that there was a simple dignity in [him]_{4500-old chap} . The fashion of [his]_{4500-old chap} dress could no more come in its way when [he]_{4500-old chap} spoke these words than it could come in its way in Heaven . [He]_{4500-old chap} touched [me]_2298-convict gently on the forehead , and went out . As soon as [I]_2298-convict could recover [myself]_2298-convict sufficiently , [I]_2298-convict hurried out after [him]_{4500-old chap} and looked for [him]_{4500-old chap} in [the neighboring streets]_{6196-the neighboring streets} ; but [he]_{4500-old chap} was gone . Chapter XXVIII It was clear that [I]_2298-convict must repair to [[our]_6197-our town]_{5493-our town} next day , and in the first flow of [my]_2298-convict repentance , it was equally clear that [I]_2298-convict must stay at [Joe]_154-joe 's . But , when [I]_2298-convict had secured [[my]_2298-convict box - place]_{6199-my box - place} by [to - morrow 's coach]_{6200-to - morrow 's coach} , and had been down to [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert 's and back , [I]_2298-convict was not by any means convinced on the last point , and began to invent reasons and make excuses for putting up at [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar} . [I]_2298-convict should be an inconvenience at [Joe]_154-joe 's ; [I]_2298-convict was not expected , and [my]_2298-convict bed would not be ready ; [I]_2298-convict should be too far from [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} was exacting and might n't like it . [All other swindlers upon earth]_{6201-all other swindlers upon earth} are nothing to [the self - swindlers]_{6202-the self - swindlers} , and with such pretences did [I]_2298-convict cheat [myself]_2298-convict . Surely a curious thing . That [I]_2298-convict should innocently take a bad half - crown of [somebody else]_{5003-somebody else} 's manufacture is reasonable enough ; but that [I]_2298-convict should knowingly reckon the spurious coin of [my]_2298-convict own make as good money ! [An obliging stranger]_{6204-an obliging stranger} , under pretence of compactly folding up [my]_2298-convict bank - notes for security 's sake , abstracts the notes and gives [me]_2298-convict nutshells ; but what is [his]_{6204-an obliging stranger} sleight of hand to [mine]_2298-convict , when [I]_2298-convict fold up [my]_2298-convict own nutshells and pass them on [myself]_2298-convict as notes ! Having settled that [I]_2298-convict must go to [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar} , [my]_2298-convict mind was much disturbed by indecision whether or not to take [the Avenger]_{302-the avenger} . It was tempting to think of [that expensive Mercenary publicly airing [his]_{6204-an obliging stranger} boots in [the archway of [the Blue Boar 's posting - yard]_{6207-the blue boar 's posting - yard}]_{6206-the archway of the blue boar 's posting - yard}]_{6205-that expensive mercenary publicly airing his boots in the archway of the blue boar 's posting - yard} ; it was almost solemn to imagine [him]_{6204-an obliging stranger} casually produced in [[the tailor]_{630-the tailor} 's shop]_{6209-the tailor 's shop} , and confounding the disrespectful senses of [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} . On the other hand , [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} might worm [himself]_{5407-trabb 's boy} into [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} intimacy and tell [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} things ; or , reckless and desperate wretch as [I]_2298-convict knew [he]_{6204-an obliging stranger} could be , might hoot [him]_{6204-an obliging stranger} in [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} , [[My]_2298-convict patroness]_{6213-my patroness} , too , might hear of [him]_{6204-an obliging stranger} , and not approve . On the whole , [I]_2298-convict resolved to leave [the Avenger]_{302-the avenger} behind . It was [the afternoon coach by which [I]_2298-convict had taken [my]_2298-convict place]_{6214-the afternoon coach by which i had taken my place} , and , as winter had now come round , [I]_2298-convict should not arrive at [my]_2298-convict destination until two or three hours after dark . [Our]_6215-our time of starting from [the Cross Keys]_{5497-the cross keys} was two o'clock . [I]_2298-convict arrived on the ground with a quarter of an hour to spare , attended by [the Avenger]_{6217-the avenger} , - if [I]_2298-convict may connect that expression with one who never attended on [me]_2298-convict if [he]_{6217-the avenger} could possibly help it . At that time it was customary to carry [Convicts]_{4633-convicts} down to [the dock - yards]_{6219-the dock - yards} by [stage - coach]_{6220-stage - coach} . As [I]_2298-convict had often heard of [them]_{4633-convicts} in the capacity of [outside passengers]_{6221-outside passengers} , and had more than once seen [them]_{4633-convicts} on [the high road]_{6222-the high road} dangling [their]_{4633-convicts} ironed legs over the coach roof , [I]_2298-convict had no cause to be surprised when [Herbert]_265-herbert , meeting [me]_2298-convict in [the yard]_{717-the yard} , came up and told [me]_2298-convict there were [two convicts]_{6224-two convicts} going down with [me]_2298-convict . But [I]_2298-convict had a reason that was an old reason now for constitutionally faltering whenever [I]_2298-convict heard the word "_{[2298-convict]} [convict]_2298-convict . " "_{[2298-convict]} [You]_2299-you do n't mind [them]_2300-i , [Handel]_266-handel ? " said [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_[2299-you] O no ! " "_[2299-you] [I]_0-i thought [you]_2299-you seemed as if [you]_2299-you did n't like [them]_2300-i ? " "_[2299-you] [I]_0-i ca n't pretend that [I]_0-i do like [them]_2300-i , and [I]_0-i suppose [you]_2299-you do n't particularly . But [I]_0-i do n't mind [them]_2300-i . " "_[0-i] See ! There [they]_2300-i are , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[2300-i] coming out of [the Tap]_{2301-the tap} . What a degraded and vile sight it is ! " [They]_2300-i had been treating [their]_2300-i guard , [I]_2300-i suppose , for [they]_2300-i had [a gaoler]_{6225-a gaoler} with [them]_2300-i , and [all three]_{6226-all three} came out wiping [their]_2300-i mouths on [their]_2300-i hands . [The two convicts]_{6227-the two convicts} were handcuffed together , and had irons on [their]_{6227-the two convicts} legs , - irons of a pattern that [I]_2300-i knew well . [They]_{6227-the two convicts} wore the dress that [I]_2300-i likewise knew well . [[Their]_{6227-the two convicts} keeper]_{6228-their keeper} had a brace of pistols , and carried a thick - knobbed bludgeon under [his]_{6228-their keeper} arm ; but [he]_{6228-their keeper} was on terms of good understanding with [them]_{6227-the two convicts} , and stood with [them]_{6227-the two convicts} beside [him]_{6228-their keeper} , looking on at the putting - to of the horses , rather with an air as if [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} were an interesting Exhibition not formally open at the moment , and [he]_{6228-their keeper} [the Curator]_{6230-the curator} . [One]_5055-one was [a taller and stouter man than the other]_{6232-a taller and stouter man than the other} , and appeared as a matter of course , according to the mysterious ways of [the world]_{4698-the world} , both [convict]_2298-convict and free , to have had allotted to [him]_5055-one the smaller suit of clothes . [His]_5055-one arms and legs were like great pincushions of those shapes , and [his]_5055-one attire disguised [him]_5055-one absurdly ; but [I]_2300-i knew [his]_5055-one half - closed eye at one glance . There stood [the man whom [I]_2300-i had seen on the settle at [the Three Jolly Bargemen]_{1146-the three jolly bargemen} on a Saturday night , and who had brought [me]_2300-i down with [his]_5055-one invisible gun]_{6235-the man whom i had seen on the settle at the three jolly bargemen on a saturday night , and who had brought me down with his invisible gun} ! It was easy to make sure that as yet [he]_5055-one knew [me]_2300-i no more than if [he]_5055-one had never seen [me]_2300-i in [his]_5055-one life . [He]_5055-one looked across at [me]_2300-i , and [his]_5055-one eye appraised [my]_2300-i watch - chain , and then [he]_5055-one incidentally spat and said something to [the other convict]_{820-the other convict} , and [they]_{820-the other convict} laughed and slued [themselves]_{820-the other convict} round with a clink of [their]_{820-the other convict} coupling manacle , and looked at something else . The great numbers on [their]_{820-the other convict} backs , as if [they]_{820-the other convict} were street doors ; [their]_{820-the other convict} coarse mangy ungainly outer surface , as if [they]_{820-the other convict} were lower animals ; [their]_{820-the other convict} ironed legs , apologetically garlanded with pocket - handkerchiefs ; and the way in which all present looked at [them]_{820-the other convict} and kept from [them]_{820-the other convict} ; made [them]_{820-the other convict} as [Herbert]_265-herbert had said a most disagreeable and degraded spectacle . But this was not the worst of it . It came out that the whole of the back of [the coach]_{4925-the coach} had been taken by [a family removing from [London]_8-london]_{6239-a family removing from london} , and that there were no places for [the two prisoners]_{862-the two prisoners} but on the seat in front behind [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} . [Hereupon]_276-startop , [a choleric gentleman , who had taken the fourth place on that seat]_{6242-a choleric gentleman , who had taken the fourth place on that seat} , flew into a most violent passion , and said that it was a breach of contract to mix [him]_{6242-a choleric gentleman , who had taken the fourth place on that seat} up with such villainous company , and that it was poisonous , and pernicious , and infamous , and shameful , and [I]_2300-i do n't know what else . At this time [the coach]_{4925-the coach} was ready and [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} impatient , and [we]_6245-we were all preparing to get up , and [the prisoners]_{4691-the prisoners} had come over with [[their]_{4691-the prisoners} keeper]_{6228-their keeper} , - bringing with [them]_{4691-the prisoners} that curious flavor of bread - poultice , baize , rope - yarn , and hearthstone , which attends [the convict]_{4709-the convict} presence . "_[2300-i] Do n't take it so much amiss , [sir]_4451-sir , " pleaded [the keeper]_{6249-the keeper} to [the angry passenger]_{6250-the angry passenger} ; "_[4451-sir] [I]_0-i 'll sit next [you]_4451-sir [myself]_0-i . [I]_0-i 'll put ['em]_2303-'em on the outside of the row . [They]_2304-they wo n't interfere with [you]_4451-sir , [sir]_4451-sir . [You]_4451-sir need n't know [they]_2304-they 're [there]_4505-there . " "_[4451-sir] And do n't blame [me]_0-i , " growled [the convict [I]_0-i had recognized]_{6251-the convict i had recognized} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't want to go . [I]_0-i am quite ready to stay behind . As fur as [I]_0-i am concerned [any one]_{841-any one} 's welcome to [[my]_0-i place]_{5351-my place} . " "_[2309-mine] Or [mine]_2309-mine , " said [the other]_{831-the other} , gruffly . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would n't have incommoded none of [you]_4451-sir , if [I]_0-i 'd had [my]_0-i way . " Then [they]_2304-they both laughed , and began cracking nuts , and spitting the shells about . - As [I]_0-i really think [I]_0-i should have liked to do [myself]_0-i , if [I]_0-i had been in [their]_2304-they place and so despised . At length , it was voted that there was no help for [the angry gentleman]_{6253-the angry gentleman} , and that [he]_{6253-the angry gentleman} must either go in [his]_{6253-the angry gentleman} chance company or remain behind . So [he]_{6253-the angry gentleman} got into [[his]_{6253-the angry gentleman} place]_{5053-his place} , still making complaints , and [the keeper]_{6249-the keeper} got into [the place next [him]_{6253-the angry gentleman}]_{6256-the place next him} , and [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} hauled [themselves]_{784-the convicts} up as well as [they]_{784-the convicts} could , and [the convict [I]_0-i had recognized]_{6251-the convict i had recognized} sat behind [me]_0-i with [his]_{6251-the convict i had recognized} breath on the hair of [my]_0-i head . "_[0-i] Good by , [Handel]_266-handel ! " [Herbert]_265-herbert called out as [we]_6259-we started . [I]_266-handel thought what a blessed fortune it was , that [he]_265-herbert had found another name for [me]_266-handel than [Pip]_241-pip . It is impossible to express with what acuteness [I]_266-handel felt [the convict]_{4709-the convict} 's breathing , not only on the back of [my]_266-handel head , but all along [my]_266-handel spine . The sensation was like being touched in the marrow with some pungent and searching acid , it set [my]_266-handel very teeth on edge . [He]_{4709-the convict} seemed to have more breathing business to do than [another man]_{580-another man} , and to make more noise in doing it ; and [I]_266-handel was conscious of growing high - shouldered on one side , in [my]_266-handel shrinking endeavors to fend [him]_{4709-the convict} off . The weather was miserably raw , and the two cursed the cold . It made [us]_6259-we all lethargic before [we]_6259-we had gone far , and when [we]_6259-we had left [the Half - way House]_{6262-the half - way house} behind , [we]_6259-we habitually dozed and shivered and were silent . [I]_266-handel dozed off , [myself]_266-handel , in considering the question whether [I]_266-handel ought to restore a couple of pounds sterling to [this creature]_{6263-this creature} before losing sight of [him]_{4709-the convict} , and how it could best be done . In the act of dipping forward as if [I]_266-handel were going to bathe among the horses , [I]_266-handel woke in a fright and took the question up again . But [I]_266-handel must have lost it longer than [I]_266-handel had thought , since , although [I]_266-handel could recognize nothing in the darkness and the fitful lights and shadows of [our]_6259-we lamps , [I]_266-handel traced [marsh country]_{6264-marsh country} in the cold damp wind that blew at [us]_6259-we . Cowering forward for warmth and to make [me]_266-handel a screen against the wind , [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} were closer to [me]_266-handel than before . The very first words [I]_266-handel heard them interchange as [I]_266-handel became conscious , were the words of [my]_266-handel own thought , "_[266-handel] Two One Pound notes . " "_[266-handel] How did [he]_2310-he get ['em]_2311-'em ? " said [the convict [I]_2310-he had never seen]_{6266-the convict i had never seen} . "_[2310-he] How should [I]_0-i know ? " returned [the other]_{831-the other} . "_[2310-he] [He]_2310-he had 'em stowed away somehows . Giv [him]_2310-he by [friends]_4514-friends , [I]_0-i expect . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wish , " said [the other]_{831-the other} , with a bitter curse upon the cold , "_[2310-he] that [I]_0-i had 'em [here]_693-here . " "_[0-i] Two one pound notes , or [friends]_4514-friends ? " "_[0-i] Two one pound notes . [I]_0-i 'd sell all [the friends]_{5843-the friends} [I]_0-i ever had for one , and think it a blessed good bargain . Well ? So [he]_2310-he says - ? " "_[2310-he] So [he]_2310-he says , " resumed [the convict [I]_2310-he had recognized]_{6251-the convict i had recognized} , - "_[2310-he] it was all said and done in half a minute , behind a pile of timber in [the Dock - yard]_{2316-the dock - yard} , - ' [You]_2317-you 're [a going to be discharged]_{2318-a going to be discharged} ? ' Yes , [I]_0-i was . Would [I]_0-i find out [that boy that had fed [him]_2310-he and kep [his]_2310-he secret]_{2319-that boy that had fed him and kep his secret} , and give [him]_2310-he them two one pound notes ? Yes , [I]_0-i would . And [I]_0-i did . " "_[0-i] More fool [you]_2317-you , " growled [the other]_{831-the other} . "_[2317-you] [I]_0-i 'd have spent 'em on [a Man]_{428-a man} , in wittles and drink . [He]_{428-a man} must have been [a green one]_{2321-a green one} . Mean to say [he]_{428-a man} knowed nothing of [you]_2317-you ? " "_{[428-a man]} Not a ha'porth . Different gangs and [different ships]_{2322-different ships} . [He]_{428-a man} was tried again for prison breaking , and got made [a Lifer]_{2323-a lifer} . " "_{[2323-a lifer]} And was that - Honor ! - the only time [you]_2317-you worked out , in [this part of [the country]_{1330-the country}]_{2324-this part of the country} ? " "_[2317-you] The only time . " "_[2317-you] What might have been [your]_2317-you opinion of [the place]_{4456-the place} ? " "_[2317-you] [A most beastly place]_{2327-a most beastly place} . Mudbank , [mist , swamp]_{2328-mist , swamp} , and work ; work , swamp , mist , and mudbank . " [They]_6271-they both execrated [the place]_{4456-the place} in very strong language , and gradually growled [themselves]_6271-they out , and had nothing left to say . After overhearing this dialogue , [I]_2329-i should assuredly have got down and been left in the solitude and darkness of [the highway]_{6273-the highway} , but for feeling certain that [the man]_{433-the man} had no suspicion of [my]_2329-i identity . Indeed , [I]_2329-i was not only so changed in the course of nature , but so differently dressed and so differently circumstanced , that it was not at all likely [he]_{433-the man} could have known [me]_2329-i without accidental help . Still , the coincidence of [our]_6275-our being together on [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , was sufficiently strange to fill [me]_2329-i with a dread that some other coincidence might at any moment connect [me]_2329-i , in [his]_{433-the man} hearing , with [my]_2329-i name . For this reason , [I]_2329-i resolved to alight as soon as [we]_6275-our touched [the town]_{5488-the town} , and put [myself]_2329-i out of [his]_{433-the man} hearing . This device [I]_2329-i executed successfully . [My]_2329-i little portmanteau was in the boot under [my]_2329-i feet ; [I]_2329-i had but to turn a hinge to get it out ; [I]_2329-i threw it down before [me]_2329-i , got down after it , and was left at the first lamp on the first stones of [the town pavement]_{6278-the town pavement} . As to [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} , [they]_{784-the convicts} went [their]_{784-the convicts} way with [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , and [I]_2329-i knew at what point [they]_{784-the convicts} would be spirited off to [the river]_{413-the river} . In [my]_2329-i fancy , [I]_2329-i saw [the boat]_{4680-the boat} with [[its]_{4680-the boat} convict crew]_{6283-its convict crew} waiting for [them]_{6283-its convict crew} at the slime - washed stairs , - again heard the gruff "_[2329-i] Give way , [you]_2329-i ! " like and order to dogs , - again saw the wicked [Noah]_183-noah 's Ark lying out on [the black water]_{6284-the black water} . [I]_2329-i could not have said what [I]_2329-i was afraid of , for [my]_2329-i fear was altogether undefined and vague , but there was great fear upon [me]_2329-i . As [I]_2329-i walked on to [the hotel]_{6285-the hotel} , [I]_2329-i felt that a dread , much exceeding the mere apprehension of a painful or disagreeable recognition , made [me]_2329-i tremble . [I]_2329-i am confident that it took no distinctness of shape , and that it was the revival for a few minutes of the terror of childhood . [The coffee - room at [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar}]_{6286-the coffee - room at the blue boar} was empty , and [I]_2329-i had not only ordered [my]_2329-i dinner [there]_4505-there , but had sat down to it , before [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} knew [me]_2329-i . As soon as [he]_{5696-the waiter} had apologized for the remissness of [his]_{5696-the waiter} memory , [he]_{5696-the waiter} asked [me]_2329-i if [he]_{5696-the waiter} should send [Boots]_303-boots for [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ? "_[2329-i] No , " said [I]_2329-i , "_[2329-i] certainly not . " [The waiter]_{5696-the waiter} it was [he]_{5696-the waiter} who had brought up the Great Remonstrance from [the Commercials]_{61-the commercials} , on the day when [I]_225-orlick was bound appeared surprised , and took the earliest opportunity of putting a dirty old copy of a local newspaper so directly in [my]_225-orlick way , that [I]_225-orlick took it up and read this paragraph : - [[Our]_6290-our readers]_{6291-our readers} will learn , not altogether without interest , in reference to the recent romantic rise in fortune of [a young artificer]_{6292-a young artificer} in iron of [this neighborhood]_{6293-this neighborhood} what a theme , by the way , for the magic pen of [[our]_6290-our as yet not universally acknowledged townsman [TOOBY]_304-tooby]_{6294-our as yet not universally acknowledged townsman tooby} , [the poet of [our]_6290-our columns]_{6295-the poet of our columns} ! that [[the youth]_{6296-the youth} 's earliest patron]_{6297-the youth 's earliest patron} , [companion]_{6298-companion} , and [friend]_4695-friend , was [a highly respected individual not entirely unconnected with the corn and seed trade]_{6300-a highly respected individual not entirely unconnected with the corn and seed trade} , and whose eminently convenient and commodious business premises are situate within a hundred miles of [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} . It is not wholly irrespective of [our]_6290-our personal feelings that [we]_6290-our record [HIM]_304-tooby as [the Mentor of [[our]_6290-our young Telemachus]_{6303-our young telemachus}]_{6302-the mentor of our young telemachus} , for it is good to know that [[our]_6290-our town]_{5493-our town} produced [the founder of the latter]_{6305-the founder of the latter} 's fortunes . Does the thought - contracted brow of [the local Sage]_{6306-the local sage} or the lustrous eye of [local Beauty]_{6307-local beauty} inquire whose fortunes ? [We]_6290-our believe that [Quintin Matsys]_{305-quintin matsys} was the BLACKSMITH of [[Antwerp]_62-antwerp . VERB . SAP]_{63-antwerp . verb . sap} . [I]_225-orlick entertain a conviction , based upon large experience , that if in the days of [my]_225-orlick prosperity [I]_225-orlick had gone to [the North Pole]_{64-the north pole} , [I]_225-orlick should have met [somebody]_591-somebody [there]_4505-there , wandering Esquimaux or [civilized man]_{6310-civilized man} , who would have told [me]_225-orlick that [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was [[my]_225-orlick earliest patron]_{6311-my earliest patron} and [the founder of [my]_225-orlick fortunes]_{6312-the founder of my fortunes} . Chapter XXIX Betimes in the morning [I]_225-orlick was up and out . It was too early yet to go to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , so [I]_225-orlick loitered into [the country]_{1330-the country} on [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's side of [town]_4800-town]_{223-miss havisham} , - which was not [[Joe]_154-joe 's side]_{6315-joe 's side} ; [I]_225-orlick could go [there]_4505-there to - morrow , - thinking about [[my]_225-orlick patroness]_{6213-my patroness} , and painting brilliant pictures of [her]_{6213-my patroness} plans for [me]_225-orlick . [She]_{6213-my patroness} had adopted [Estella]_195-estella , [she]_{6213-my patroness} had as good as adopted [me]_225-orlick , and it could not fail to be [her]_{6213-my patroness} intention to bring [us]_6318-us together . [She]_{6213-my patroness} reserved it for [me]_225-orlick to restore [the desolate house]_{6319-the desolate house} , admit the sunshine into [the dark rooms]_{6320-the dark rooms} , set the clocks a - going and the cold hearths a - blazing , tear down the cobwebs , destroy the vermin , - in short , do all the shining deeds of [the young Knight of romance]_{6321-the young knight of romance} , and marry [the Princess]_{6322-the princess} . [I]_225-orlick had stopped to look at [the house]_{604-the house} as [I]_225-orlick passed ; and [its]_{604-the house} seared red brick walls , blocked windows , and strong green ivy clasping even the stacks of chimneys with its twigs and tendons , as if with sinewy old arms , had made up a rich attractive mystery , of which [I]_225-orlick was [the hero]_{6324-the hero} . [Estella]_195-estella was the inspiration of it , and the heart of it , of course . But , though [she]_195-estella had taken such strong possession of [me]_225-orlick , though [my]_225-orlick fancy and [my]_225-orlick hope were so set upon [her]_195-estella , though [her]_195-estella influence on [my]_225-orlick boyish life and character had been all - powerful , [I]_225-orlick did not , even that romantic morning , invest [her]_195-estella with any attributes save those [she]_195-estella possessed . [I]_225-orlick mention this in this place , of a fixed purpose , because it is the clew by which [I]_225-orlick am to be followed into [[my]_225-orlick poor labyrinth]_{6325-my poor labyrinth} . According to [my]_225-orlick experience , the conventional notion of [a lover]_{6326-a lover} can not be always true . The unqualified truth is , that when [I]_225-orlick loved [Estella]_195-estella with the love of [a man]_{428-a man} , [I]_225-orlick loved [her]_195-estella simply because [I]_225-orlick found [her]_195-estella irresistible . Once for all ; [I]_225-orlick knew to [my]_225-orlick sorrow , often and often , if not always , that [I]_225-orlick loved [her]_195-estella against reason , against promise , against peace , against hope , against happiness , against all discouragement that could be . Once for all ; [I]_225-orlick loved [her]_195-estella none the less because [I]_225-orlick knew it , and it had no more influence in restraining [me]_225-orlick than if [I]_225-orlick had devoutly believed [her]_195-estella to be [human perfection]_{6328-human perfection} . [I]_225-orlick so shaped out [my]_225-orlick walk as to arrive at the gate at [my]_225-orlick old time . When [I]_225-orlick had rung at the bell with an unsteady hand , [I]_225-orlick turned [my]_225-orlick back upon the gate , while [I]_225-orlick tried to get [my]_225-orlick breath and keep the beating of [my]_225-orlick heart moderately quiet . [I]_225-orlick heard the side - door open , and steps come across [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} ; but [I]_225-orlick pretended not to hear , even when the gate swung on [its]_6330-its rusty hinges . Being at last touched on the shoulder , [I]_225-orlick started and turned . [I]_225-orlick started much more naturally then , to find [myself]_225-orlick confronted by [a man in a sober gray dress]_{6331-a man in a sober gray dress} . [The last man [I]_225-orlick should have expected to see in [that place of [porter]_6334-porter at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's door]_{6333-that place of porter at miss havisham 's door}]_{6332-the last man i should have expected to see in that place of porter at miss havisham 's door} . "_[225-orlick] [Orlick]_225-orlick ! " "_[225-orlick] Ah , [young master]_{2330-young master} , there 's more changes than [yours]_225-orlick . But come in , come in . [It]_2331-it 's opposed to [my]_0-i orders to hold the gate open . " [I]_2331-it entered and [he]_225-orlick swung it , and locked it , and took the key out . "_[2331-it] Yes ! " said [he]_225-orlick , facing round , after doggedly preceding [me]_2331-it a few steps towards [the house]_{604-the house} . "_[2331-it] Here [I]_0-i am ! " "_[0-i] How did [you]_0-i come [here]_693-here ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i come [her]_2333-her , " [he]_225-orlick retorted , "_[2333-her] on [my]_0-i legs . [I]_0-i had [my]_0-i box brought alongside [me]_0-i in a barrow . " "_[0-i] Are [you]_0-i here for good ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ai n't here for harm , [young master]_{2330-young master} , [I]_0-i suppose ? " [I]_0-i was not so sure of that . [I]_0-i had leisure to entertain the retort in [my]_0-i mind , while [he]_225-orlick slowly lifted [his]_225-orlick heavy glance from the pavement , up [my]_0-i legs and arms , to [my]_0-i face . "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i have left [the forge]_{488-the forge} ? " [I]_0-i said . "_[0-i] Do this look like [a forge]_{2336-a forge} ? " replied [Orlick]_225-orlick , sending [his]_225-orlick glance all round [him]_225-orlick with an air of injury . "_[0-i] Now , do it look like it ? " [I]_0-i asked [him]_225-orlick how long [he]_225-orlick had left [[Gargery]_154-joe 's forge]_{6336-gargery 's forge} ? "_[0-i] One day is so like another here , " [he]_225-orlick replied , "_[0-i] that [I]_0-i do n't know without casting it up . However , [I]_0-i come [here]_693-here some time since [you]_0-i left . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could have told [you]_0-i that , [Orlick]_225-orlick . " "_[225-orlick] Ah ! " said [he]_225-orlick , dryly . "_[225-orlick] But then [you]_0-i 've got to be [a scholar]_{893-a scholar} . " By this time [we]_6337-we had come to [the house]_{604-the house} , where [I]_{893-a scholar} found [[his]_225-orlick room]_{625-his room} to be one just within the side - door , with a little window in [it]_{625-his room} looking on [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} . In [its]_{625-his room} small proportions , [it]_{625-his room} was not unlike [the kind of place usually assigned to [a gate - porter in [Paris]_66-paris]_{6342-a gate - porter in paris}]_{6341-the kind of place usually assigned to a gate - porter in paris} . Certain keys were hanging on the wall , to which [he]_225-orlick now added the gate key ; and [his]_225-orlick patchwork - covered bed was in a little inner division or recess . [The whole]_{6343-the whole} had a slovenly , confined , and sleepy look , like a cage for [a human dormouse]_{6344-a human dormouse} ; while [he]_225-orlick , looming dark and heavy in the shadow of a corner by the window , looked like [the human dormouse for whom it was fitted up]_{6345-the human dormouse for whom it was fitted up} , - as indeed [he]_225-orlick was . "_{[893-a scholar]} [I]_0-i never saw [this room]_{2339-this room} before , " [I]_{893-a scholar} remarked ; "_{[893-a scholar]} but there used to be [no Porter]_{2340-no porter} [here]_693-here . " "_{[2340-no porter]} No , " said [he]_225-orlick ; "_{[2340-no porter]} not till it got about that there was no protection on [the premises]_{4712-the premises} , and it come to be considered dangerous , with [convicts]_{4633-convicts} and [Tag]_306-tag and [Rag and Bobtail]_{2344-rag and bobtail} going up and down . And then [I]_0-i was recommended to [the place]_{4456-the place} as [a man who could give [another man]_{580-another man} as good as [he]_{2346-a man who could give another man as good as he brought} brought]_{2346-a man who could give another man as good as he brought} , and [I]_0-i took it . It 's easier than bellowsing and hammering . - That 's loaded , that is . " [My]_0-i eye had been caught by a gun with a brass - bound stock over the chimney - piece , and [his]_0-i eye had followed [mine]_0-i . "_[0-i] Well , " said [I]_0-i , not desirous of more conversation , ' shall [I]_0-i go up to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_[0-i] " Burn [me]_0-i , if [I]_0-i know ! "_[0-i] [he]_0-i retorted , first stretching [himself]_0-i and then shaking [himself]_0-i ; " [my]_0-i orders ends here , [young master]_{2330-young master} . [I]_0-i give this here bell a rap with this here hammer , and [you]_{2330-young master} go on along [the passage]_{616-the passage} till [you]_{2330-young master} meet [somebody]_591-somebody . "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am expected , [I]_0-i believe ? "_[0-i] " Burn [me]_0-i twice over , if [I]_0-i can say ! "_[0-i] said [he]_0-i . Upon that , [I]_0-i turned down the long passage which [I]_0-i had first trodden in [my]_0-i thick boots , and [he]_0-i made [his]_0-i bell sound . At the end of [the passage]_{616-the passage} , while the bell was still reverberating , [I]_0-i found [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} , who appeared to have now become constitutionally green and yellow by reason of [me]_0-i . " Oh ! "_{[208-sarah pocket]} said [she]_{208-sarah pocket} . " [You]_0-i , is it , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " It is , [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} . [I]_{208-sarah pocket} am glad to tell [you]_0-i that [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert and [family]_6349-family are all well . "_{[208-sarah pocket]} " Are [they]_6349-family any wiser ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} said [Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} , with a dismal shake of the head ; " [they]_6349-family had better be wiser , than well . Ah , [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} , [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} ! [You]_{211-mr. pocket} know [your]_{211-mr. pocket} way , [sir]_4451-sir ? "_{[208-sarah pocket]} Tolerably , for [I]_0-i had gone up the staircase in the dark , many a time . [I]_0-i ascended [it]_2349-it now , in lighter boots than of yore , and tapped in [my]_0-i old way at the door of [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's room]_{4929-miss havisham 's room} . " [Pip]_241-pip 's rap , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} say , immediately ; " come in , [Pip]_241-pip . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} was in [her]_{223-miss havisham} chair near the old table , in the old dress , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} two hands crossed on [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , [her]_{223-miss havisham} chin resting on them , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes on the fire . Sitting near [her]_{223-miss havisham} , with the white shoe , that had never been worn , in [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} head bent as [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked at it , was [an elegant lady whom [I]_0-i had never seen]_{2351-an elegant lady whom i had never seen} . " Come in , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} continued to mutter , without looking round or up ; " come in , [Pip]_241-pip , how do [you]_241-pip do , [Pip]_241-pip ? so [you]_241-pip kiss [my]_{223-miss havisham} hand as if [I]_{223-miss havisham} were [a queen]_{4860-a queen} , eh ? - Well ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} looked up at [me]_0-i suddenly , only moving [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes , and repeated in a grimly playful manner , - " Well ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_0-i heard , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , rather at a loss , " that [you]_{223-miss havisham} were so kind as to wish [me]_0-i to come and see [you]_{223-miss havisham} , and [I]_0-i came directly . "_[0-i] " Well ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [The lady whom [I]_0-i had never seen before]_{2352-the lady whom i had never seen before} , lifted up [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes and looked archly at [me]_0-i , and then [I]_0-i saw that the eyes were [Estella]_195-estella 's eyes . But [she]_{223-miss havisham} was so much changed , was so much more beautiful , so much more womanly , in all things winning admiration , had made such wonderful advance , that [I]_0-i seemed to have made none . [I]_0-i fancied , as [I]_0-i looked at [her]_{223-miss havisham} , that [I]_0-i slipped hopelessly back into [the coarse and common boy]_{2353-the coarse and common boy} again . O the sense of distance and disparity that came upon [me]_0-i , and the inaccessibility that came about [her]_{223-miss havisham} ! [She]_{223-miss havisham} gave [me]_0-i [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand . [I]_0-i stammered something about the pleasure [I]_0-i felt in seeing [her]_{223-miss havisham} again , and about [my]_0-i having looked forward to it , for a long , long time . " Do [you]_0-i find [her]_{223-miss havisham} much changed , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} asked [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} greedy look , and striking [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick upon a chair that stood between [them]_2354-them , as a sign to [me]_0-i to sit down there . " When [I]_{223-miss havisham} came in , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [I]_{223-miss havisham} thought there was nothing of [Estella]_195-estella in the face or figure ; but now it all settles down so curiously into the old - "_{[223-miss havisham]} " What ? [You]_{223-miss havisham} are not going to say into [the old Estella]_{6352-the old estella} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} interrupted . " [She]_195-estella was proud and insulting , and [you]_0-i wanted to go away from [her]_195-estella . Do n't [you]_{223-miss havisham} remember ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i said confusedly that that was long ago , and that [I]_0-i knew no better then , and the like . [Estella]_195-estella smiled with perfect composure , and said [she]_195-estella had no doubt of [my]_0-i having been quite right , and of [her]_195-estella having been very disagreeable . " Is [he]_6353-he changed ? "_{[195-estella]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} asked [her]_195-estella . " Very much , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , looking at [me]_0-i . " Less coarse and common ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , playing with [Estella]_195-estella 's hair . [Estella]_195-estella laughed , and looked at the shoe in [her]_195-estella hand , and laughed again , and looked at [me]_0-i , and put the shoe down . [She]_195-estella treated [me]_0-i as [a boy]_{4485-a boy} still , but [she]_195-estella lured [me]_0-i on . [We]_2356-we sat in [the dreamy room]_{2357-the dreamy room} among the old strange influences which had so wrought upon [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i learnt that [she]_195-estella had but just come [home]_4495-home from [France]_15-france , and that [she]_195-estella was going to [London]_8-london . Proud and wilful as of old , [she]_195-estella had brought those qualities into such subjection to [her]_195-estella beauty that it was impossible and out of nature - or [I]_0-i thought so - to separate them from [her]_195-estella beauty . Truly it was impossible to dissociate [her]_195-estella presence from all those wretched hankerings after money and gentility that had disturbed [[my]_0-i boyhood]_{2359-my boyhood} , - from all those ill - regulated aspirations that had first made [me]_0-i ashamed of [home]_4495-home and [Joe]_154-joe , - from all those visions that had raised [her]_195-estella face in the glowing fire , struck it out of the iron on the anvil , extracted it from the darkness of night to look in at the wooden window of the forge , and flit away . In a word , it was impossible for [me]_0-i to separate [her]_195-estella , in the past or in the present , from the innermost life of [my]_0-i life . It was settled that [I]_0-i should stay [there]_4505-there all the rest of the day , and return to [the hotel]_{6285-the hotel} at night , and to [London]_8-london to - morrow . When [we]_2363-we had conversed for a while , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} sent [us]_2363-we two out to walk in [the neglected garden]_{1224-the neglected garden} : on [our]_2363-we coming in by and by , [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , [I]_0-i should wheel [her]_195-estella about a little , as in times of yore . So , [Estella]_195-estella and [I]_0-i went out into [the garden]_{1303-the garden} by the gate through which [I]_0-i had strayed to [my]_0-i encounter with [the pale young gentleman]_{1311-the pale young gentleman} , now [Herbert]_265-herbert ; [I]_0-i , trembling in spirit and worshipping the very hem of [her]_195-estella dress ; [she]_195-estella , quite composed and most decidedly not worshipping the hem of [mine]_0-i . As [we]_2363-we drew near to [the place of encounter]_{2367-the place of encounter} , [she]_195-estella stopped and said , - " [I]_195-estella must have been a singular little creature to hide and see that fight that day ; but [I]_195-estella did , and [I]_195-estella enjoyed it very much . "_{[195-estella]} " [You]_0-i rewarded [me]_195-estella very much . "_{[195-estella]} " Did [I]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella replied , in an incidental and forgetful way . " [I]_195-estella remember [I]_195-estella entertained a great objection to [[your]_0-i adversary]_{6354-your adversary} , because [I]_195-estella took it ill that [he]_{6354-your adversary} should be brought [here]_693-here to pester [me]_195-estella with [his]_{6354-your adversary} company . "_{[195-estella]} " [He]_{6354-your adversary} and [I]_195-estella are [great friends]_{6356-great friends} now . "_{[195-estella]} " Are [you]_195-estella ? [I]_195-estella think [I]_195-estella recollect though , that [you]_195-estella read with [[his]_{6354-your adversary} father]_{5627-his father} ? "_{[195-estella]} " Yes . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i made the admission with reluctance , for it seemed to have a boyish look , and [she]_195-estella already treated [me]_0-i more than enough like [a boy]_{4485-a boy} . " Since [your]_195-estella change of fortune and prospects , [you]_195-estella have changed [[your]_195-estella companions]_{6358-your companions} , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . " Naturally , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And necessarily , "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella added , in a haughty tone ; " what was fit company for [you]_195-estella once , would be quite unfit company for [you]_195-estella now . "_{[195-estella]} In [my]_0-i conscience , [I]_0-i doubt very much whether [I]_0-i had any lingering intention left of going to see [Joe]_154-joe ; but if [I]_0-i had , this observation put it to flight . " [You]_0-i had no idea of [your]_0-i impending good fortune , in those times ? "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , with a slight wave of [her]_195-estella hand , signifying in the fighting times . " Not the least . "_{[195-estella]} The air of completeness and superiority with which [she]_195-estella walked at [my]_0-i side , and the air of youthfulness and submission with which [I]_0-i walked at [hers]_195-estella , made a contrast that [I]_0-i strongly felt . It would have rankled in [me]_0-i more than it did , if [I]_0-i had not regarded [myself]_0-i as eliciting it by being so set apart for [her]_195-estella and assigned to [her]_195-estella . [The garden]_{1303-the garden} was too overgrown and rank for walking in with ease , and after [we]_2370-we had made the round of [it]_{1303-the garden} twice or thrice , [we]_2370-we came out again into [the brewery yard]_{5274-the brewery yard} . [I]_0-i showed [her]_195-estella to [a nicety where [I]_0-i had seen [her]_195-estella walking on the casks]_{2372-a nicety where i had seen her walking on the casks} , that first old day , and [she]_195-estella said , with a cold and careless look in that direction , " Did [I]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i reminded [her]_195-estella where [she]_195-estella had come out of [the house]_{604-the house} and given [me]_0-i [my]_0-i meat and drink , and [she]_195-estella said , " [I]_195-estella do n't remember . "_{[195-estella]} " Not remember that [you]_195-estella made [me]_0-i cry ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " No , "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella , and shook [her]_195-estella head and looked about [her]_195-estella . [I]_0-i verily believe that [her]_195-estella not remembering and not minding in the least , made [me]_0-i cry again , inwardly , - and that is the sharpest crying of all . " [You]_0-i must know , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , condescending to [me]_0-i as [a brilliant and beautiful woman]_{2374-a brilliant and beautiful woman} might , " that [I]_195-estella have no heart , - if that has anything to do with [my]_195-estella memory . "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i got through some jargon to the effect that [I]_0-i took the liberty of doubting that . That [I]_0-i knew better . That there could be no such beauty without it . " Oh ! [I]_195-estella have a heart to be stabbed in or shot in , [I]_195-estella have no doubt , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , " and of course if it ceased to beat [I]_195-estella should cease to be . But [you]_0-i know what [I]_195-estella mean . [I]_195-estella have no softness there , no - sympathy - sentiment - nonsense . "_{[195-estella]} What was it that was borne in upon [my]_0-i mind when [she]_195-estella stood still and looked attentively at [me]_0-i ? Anything that [I]_0-i had seen in [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? No . In some of [her]_195-estella looks and gestures there was that tinge of resemblance to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} which may often be noticed to have been acquired by [children]_{1036-children} , from [grown person with whom they have been much associated and secluded]_{2376-grown person with whom they have been much associated and secluded} , and which , when childhood is passed , will produce a remarkable occasional likeness of expression between faces that are otherwise quite different . And yet [I]_0-i could not trace this to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i looked again , and though [she]_195-estella was still looking at [me]_0-i , the suggestion was gone . What was it ? " [I]_195-estella am serious , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , not so much with a frown for [her]_195-estella brow was smooth as with a darkening of [her]_195-estella face ; " if [we]_2377-we are to be thrown much together , [you]_0-i had better believe it at once . No ! "_{[195-estella]} imperiously stopping [me]_0-i as [I]_0-i opened [my]_0-i lips . " [I]_195-estella have not bestowed [my]_195-estella tenderness anywhere . [I]_195-estella have never had any such thing . "_{[195-estella]} In another moment [we]_2377-we were in [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} , so long disused , and [she]_195-estella pointed to the high gallery where [I]_0-i had seen [her]_195-estella going out on that same first day , and told [me]_0-i [she]_195-estella remembered to have been up there , and to have seen [me]_0-i standing scared below . As [my]_0-i eyes followed [her]_195-estella white hand , again the same dim suggestion that [I]_0-i could not possibly grasp crossed [me]_0-i . [My]_0-i involuntary start occasioned [her]_195-estella to lay [her]_195-estella hand upon [my]_0-i arm . Instantly the ghost passed once more and was gone . What was it ? " What is the matter ? "_{[195-estella]} asked [Estella]_195-estella . " Are [you]_0-i scared again ? "_{[195-estella]} " [I]_0-i should be , if [I]_0-i believed what [you]_195-estella said just now , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , to turn it off . " Then [you]_0-i do n't ? Very well . [It]_6359-it is said , at any rate . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} will soon be expecting [you]_0-i at [[your]_0-i old post]_{6360-your old post} , though [I]_0-i think that might be laid aside now , with other old belongings . Let [us]_6361-us make one more round of [the garden]_{1303-the garden} , and then go in . Come ! [You]_0-i shall not shed tears for [my]_0-i cruelty to - day ; [you]_0-i shall be [[my]_0-i Page]_{6363-my page} , and give [me]_0-i [your]_0-i shoulder . "_[0-i] [Her]_2379-her handsome dress had trailed upon the ground . [She]_2379-her held it in one hand now , and with the other lightly touched [my]_0-i shoulder as [we]_2380-we walked . [We]_2380-we walked round [the ruined garden]_{2381-the ruined garden} twice or thrice more , and it was all in bloom for [me]_0-i . If the green and yellow growth of weed in the chinks of the old wall had been the most precious flowers that ever blew , it could not have been more cherished in [my]_0-i remembrance . There was no discrepancy of years between [us]_2380-we to remove [her]_2379-her far from [me]_0-i ; [we]_2380-we were of nearly the same age , though of course the age told for more in [her]_2379-her case than in [mine]_0-i ; but the air of inaccessibility which [her]_2379-her beauty and [her]_2379-her manner gave [her]_2379-her , tormented [me]_0-i in the midst of [my]_0-i delight , and at the height of the assurance [I]_0-i felt that [[our]_2380-we patroness]_{2382-our patroness} had chosen [us]_2380-we for [one another]_{4584-one another} . [Wretched boy]_{2384-wretched boy} ! At last [we]_2380-we went back into [the house]_{604-the house} , and there [I]_0-i heard , with surprise , that [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} had come down to see [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} on business , and would come back to dinner . The old wintry branches of chandeliers in [the room where the mouldering table was spread]_{2387-the room where the mouldering table was spread} had been lighted while [we]_2380-we were out , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was in [her]_{223-miss havisham} chair and waiting for [me]_0-i . It was like pushing the chair itself back into the past , when [we]_2380-we began the old slow circuit round about the ashes of the bridal feast . But , in [the funereal room]_{2388-the funereal room} , with that figure of the grave fallen back in the chair fixing its eyes upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} , [Estella]_195-estella looked more bright and beautiful than before , and [I]_0-i was under stronger enchantment . The time so melted away , that [our]_2380-we early dinner - hour drew close at hand , and [Estella]_195-estella left [us]_2380-we to prepare [herself]_195-estella . [We]_2380-we had stopped near the centre of the long table , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , with one of [her]_{223-miss havisham} withered arms stretched out of the chair , rested that clenched hand upon the yellow cloth . As [Estella]_195-estella looked back over [her]_195-estella shoulder before going out at the door , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} kissed that hand to [her]_{223-miss havisham} , with a ravenous intensity that was of its kind quite dreadful . Then , [Estella]_195-estella being gone and [we]_2380-we two left alone , [she]_{223-miss havisham} turned to [me]_0-i , and said in a whisper , - " Is [she]_195-estella beautiful , graceful , well - grown ? Do [you]_0-i admire [her]_195-estella ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Everybody]_{678-everybody} must who sees [her]_195-estella , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} drew an arm round [my]_0-i neck , and drew [my]_0-i head close down to [hers]_{223-miss havisham} as [she]_{223-miss havisham} sat in the chair . " Love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella ! How does [she]_195-estella use [you]_0-i ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} Before [I]_0-i could answer if [I]_0-i could have answered so difficult a question at all [she]_{223-miss havisham} repeated , " Love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella ! If [she]_195-estella favors [you]_0-i , love [her]_195-estella . If [she]_195-estella wounds [you]_0-i , love [her]_195-estella . If [she]_195-estella tears [your]_0-i heart to pieces , - and as it gets older and stronger it will tear deeper , - love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} Never had [I]_0-i seen such passionate eagerness as was joined to [her]_{223-miss havisham} utterance of these words . [I]_0-i could feel the muscles of the thin arm round [my]_0-i neck swell with the vehemence that possessed [her]_{223-miss havisham} . " Hear [me]_{223-miss havisham} , [Pip]_241-pip ! [I]_{223-miss havisham} adopted [her]_195-estella , to be loved . [I]_{223-miss havisham} bred [her]_195-estella and educated [her]_195-estella , to be loved . [I]_{223-miss havisham} developed [her]_195-estella into what [she]_195-estella is , that [she]_195-estella might be loved . Love [her]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} said the word often enough , and there could be no doubt that [she]_{223-miss havisham} meant to say it ; but if the often repeated word had been hate instead of love - despair - revenge - dire death - it could not have sounded from [her]_{223-miss havisham} lips more like a curse . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} 'll tell [you]_241-pip , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [she]_{223-miss havisham} , in the same hurried passionate whisper , " what real love is . It is blind devotion , unquestioning self - humiliation , utter submission , trust and belief against [yourself]_241-pip and against [the whole world]_{6365-the whole world} , giving up [your]_241-pip whole heart and soul to [the smiter]_{6366-the smiter} - as [I]_{223-miss havisham} did ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} When [she]_{223-miss havisham} came to that , and to a wild cry that followed that , [I]_0-i caught [her]_{223-miss havisham} round the waist . For [she]_{223-miss havisham} rose up in the chair , in [her]_{223-miss havisham} shroud of a dress , and struck at the air as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} would as soon have struck [herself]_{223-miss havisham} against the wall and fallen dead . All this passed in a few seconds . As [I]_0-i drew [her]_{223-miss havisham} down into [her]_{223-miss havisham} chair , [I]_0-i was conscious of a scent that [I]_0-i knew , and turning , saw [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} in [the room]_{633-the room} . [He]_{1805-my guardian} always carried [I]_0-i have not yet mentioned it , [I]_0-i think a pocket - handkerchief of rich silk and of imposing proportions , which was of great value to [him]_{1805-my guardian} in [his]_{1805-my guardian} profession . [I]_0-i have seen [him]_{1805-my guardian} so terrify [a client]_{6063-a client} or [a witness]_{5039-a witness} by ceremoniously unfolding this pocket - handkerchief as if [he]_{1805-my guardian} were immediately going to blow [his]_{1805-my guardian} nose , and then pausing , as if [he]_{1805-my guardian} knew [he]_{1805-my guardian} should not have time to do it before [such client]_{2393-such client} or [witness]_2394-witness committed [himself]_{1805-my guardian} , that [the self - committal]_{2395-the self - committal} has followed directly , quite as a matter of course . When [I]_0-i saw [him]_{1805-my guardian} in [the room]_{633-the room} [he]_{1805-my guardian} had this expressive pocket - handkerchief in both hands , and was looking at [us]_2397-us . On meeting [my]_0-i eye , [he]_{1805-my guardian} said plainly , by a momentary and silent pause in that attitude , " Indeed ? Singular ! "_{[1805-my guardian]} and then put the handkerchief to its right use with wonderful effect . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had seen [him]_{1805-my guardian} as soon as [I]_0-i , and was like [everybody else]_{5533-everybody else} afraid of [him]_{1805-my guardian} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} made a strong attempt to compose [herself]_{223-miss havisham} , and stammered that [he]_{1805-my guardian} was as punctual as ever . " As punctual as ever , "_{[1805-my guardian]} [he]_{1805-my guardian} repeated , coming up to [us]_2397-us . " How do [you]_0-i do , [Pip]_241-pip ? Shall [I]_0-i give [you]_0-i a ride , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? Once round ? And so [you]_0-i are [here]_693-here , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i told [him]_{1805-my guardian} when [I]_0-i had arrived , and how [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had wished [me]_0-i to come and see [Estella]_195-estella . To which [he]_{1805-my guardian} replied , " Ah ! [Very fine young lady]_{6368-very fine young lady} ! "_{[1805-my guardian]} Then [he]_{1805-my guardian} pushed [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} in [her]_{223-miss havisham} chair before [him]_{1805-my guardian} , with one of [his]_{1805-my guardian} large hands , and put the other in [his]_{1805-my guardian} trousers - pocket as if the pocket were full of secrets . " Well , [Pip]_241-pip ! How often have [you]_241-pip seen [Miss Estella]_195-estella before ? "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [he]_{1805-my guardian} , when [he]_{1805-my guardian} came to a stop . " How often ? "_{[1805-my guardian]} " Ah ! How many times ? Ten thousand times ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Oh ! Certainly not so many . "_{[1805-my guardian]} " Twice ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_{[1805-my guardian]} interposed [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , much to [my]_0-i relief , " leave [[my]_{1805-my guardian} [Pip]_241-pip]_{6369-my pip} alone , and go with [him]_241-pip to [your]_{237-mr. jaggers} dinner . "_{[1805-my guardian]} [He]_{1805-my guardian} complied , and [we]_2399-we groped [our]_2399-we way down [the dark stairs]_{2400-the dark stairs} together . While [we]_2399-we were still on [our]_2399-we way to [those detached apartments across [the paved yard]_{2402-the paved yard} at the back]_{2401-those detached apartments across the paved yard at the back} , [he]_{1805-my guardian} asked [me]_0-i how often [I]_0-i had seen [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} eat and drink ; offering [me]_0-i a breadth of choice , as usual , between a hundred times and once . [I]_0-i considered , and said , " Never . "_[0-i] " And never will , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1805-my guardian]} [he]_{1805-my guardian} retorted , with a frowning smile . " [She]_{223-miss havisham} has never allowed [herself]_{223-miss havisham} to be seen doing either , since [she]_{223-miss havisham} lived this present life of [hers]_{223-miss havisham} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} wanders about in the night , and then lays hands on such food as [she]_{223-miss havisham} takes . "_{[1805-my guardian]} " Pray , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " may [I]_0-i ask [you]_{1805-my guardian} a question ? "_[0-i] " [You]_0-i may , "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [he]_{1805-my guardian} , " and [I]_{1805-my guardian} may decline to answer it . Put [your]_0-i question . "_{[1805-my guardian]} " [Estella]_195-estella 's name . Is it [Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} or - ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had nothing to add . " Or what ? "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [he]_{1805-my guardian} . " Is it [Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[1805-my guardian]} " It is [Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_[2404-she] This brought [us]_2403-us to the dinner - table , where [she]_2404-she and [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} awaited [us]_2403-us . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} presided , [Estella]_195-estella sat opposite to [him]_{1805-my guardian} , [I]_0-i faced [[my]_0-i green and yellow friend]_{2405-my green and yellow friend} . [We]_2403-us dined very well , and were waited on by [a maid - servant whom [I]_0-i had never seen in all [my]_0-i comings and goings , but who , for anything [I]_0-i know , had been in [that mysterious house]_{2407-that mysterious house} the whole time]_{2406-a maid - servant whom i had never seen in all my comings and goings , but who , for anything i know , had been in that mysterious house the whole time} . After dinner a bottle of choice old port was placed before [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} [he]_{1805-my guardian} was evidently well acquainted with the vintage , and [the two ladies]_{2409-the two ladies} left [us]_2403-us . Anything to equal the determined reticence of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} under that roof [I]_0-i never saw elsewhere , even in [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} kept [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} very looks to [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and scarcely directed [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes to [Estella]_195-estella 's face once during dinner . When [she]_195-estella spoke to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} listened , and in due course answered , but never looked at [her]_195-estella , that [I]_0-i could see . On the other hand , [she]_195-estella often looked at [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , with interest and curiosity , if not distrust , but [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} face never , showed the least consciousness . Throughout dinner [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} took a dry delight in making [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} greener and yellower , by often referring in conversation with [me]_0-i to [my]_0-i expectations ; but here , again , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} showed no consciousness , and even made it appear that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} extorted - and even did extort , though [I]_0-i do n't know how - those references out of [my]_0-i innocent self . And when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [I]_0-i were left alone together , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} sat with an air upon [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} of general lying by in consequence of information [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} possessed , that really was too much for [me]_0-i . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} cross - examined [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} very wine when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had nothing else in hand . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} held it between [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} and the candle , tasted the port , rolled it in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} mouth , swallowed it , looked at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} glass again , smelt the port , tried it , drank it , filled again , and cross - examined the glass again , until [I]_0-i was as nervous as if [I]_0-i had known the wine to be telling [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} something to [my]_0-i disadvantage . Three or four times [I]_0-i feebly thought [I]_0-i would start conversation ; but whenever [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw [me]_0-i going to ask [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} anything , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} looked at [me]_0-i with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} glass in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand , and rolling [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} wine about in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} mouth , as if requesting [me]_0-i to take notice that it was of no use , for [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could n't answer . [I]_0-i think [Miss Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} was conscious that the sight of [me]_0-i involved [her]_{208-sarah pocket} in the danger of being goaded to madness , and perhaps tearing off [her]_{208-sarah pocket} cap , - which was a very hideous one , in the nature of a muslin mop , - and strewing the ground with [her]_{208-sarah pocket} hair , - which assuredly had never grown on [her]_{208-sarah pocket} head . [She]_{208-sarah pocket} did not appear when [we]_2410-we afterwards went up to [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's room]_{4929-miss havisham 's room} , and [we]_2410-we four played at whist . In the interval , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , in a fantastic way , had put some of the most beautiful jewels from [her]_{223-miss havisham} dressing - table into [Estella]_195-estella 's hair , and about [her]_195-estella bosom and arms ; and [I]_0-i saw even [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} look at [her]_195-estella from under [his]_{1805-my guardian} thick eyebrows , and raise them a little , when [her]_195-estella loveliness was before [him]_{1805-my guardian} , with those rich flushes of glitter and color in it . Of the manner and extent to which [he]_{1805-my guardian} took [our]_2410-we trumps into custody , and came out with mean little cards at the ends of hands , before which the glory of [[our]_2410-we Kings]_{2413-our kings} and [Queens]_2414-queens was utterly abased , [I]_0-i say nothing ; nor , of the feeling that [I]_0-i had , respecting [his]_{1805-my guardian} looking upon [us]_2410-we personally in the light of three very obvious and poor riddles that [he]_{1805-my guardian} had found out long ago . What [I]_0-i suffered from , was the incompatibility between [his]_{1805-my guardian} cold presence and [my]_0-i feelings towards [Estella]_195-estella . It was not that [I]_0-i knew [I]_0-i could never bear to speak to [him]_{1805-my guardian} about [her]_195-estella , that [I]_0-i knew [I]_0-i could never bear to hear [him]_{1805-my guardian} creak [his]_{1805-my guardian} boots at [her]_195-estella , that [I]_0-i knew [I]_0-i could never bear to see [him]_{1805-my guardian} wash [his]_{1805-my guardian} hands of [her]_195-estella ; it was , that [my]_0-i admiration should be within a foot or two of [him]_{1805-my guardian} , - it was , that [my]_0-i feelings should be in the same place with [him]_{1805-my guardian} , - that , was the agonizing circumstance . [We]_2415-we played until nine o'clock , and then it was arranged that when [Estella]_195-estella came to [London]_8-london [I]_0-i should be forewarned of [her]_195-estella coming and should meet [her]_195-estella at [the coach]_{4925-the coach} ; and then [I]_0-i took leave of [her]_195-estella , and touched [her]_195-estella and left [her]_195-estella . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} lay at the Boar in [the next room to [mine]_0-i]_{2418-the next room to mine} . Far into the night , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's words , " Love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella , love [her]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} sounded in [my]_0-i ears . [I]_0-i adapted them for [my]_0-i own repetition , and said to [my]_0-i pillow , " [I]_0-i love [her]_195-estella , [I]_0-i love [her]_195-estella , [I]_0-i love [her]_195-estella ! "_[0-i] hundreds of times . Then , a burst of gratitude came upon [me]_0-i , that [she]_195-estella should be destined for [me]_0-i , once [[the blacksmith]_{403-the blacksmith} 's boy]_{2420-the blacksmith 's boy} . Then [I]_0-i thought if [she]_195-estella were , as [I]_0-i feared , by no means rapturously grateful for that destiny yet , when would [she]_195-estella begin to be interested in [me]_0-i ? When should [I]_0-i awaken the heart within [her]_195-estella that was mute and sleeping now ? Ah [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i thought those were high and great emotions . But [I]_0-i never thought there was anything low and small in [my]_0-i keeping away from [Joe]_154-joe , because [I]_0-i knew [she]_195-estella would be contemptuous of [him]_2421-him . It was but a day gone , and [Joe]_154-joe had brought the tears into [my]_0-i eyes ; they had soon dried , God forgive [me]_0-i ! soon dried . Chapter XXX After well considering the matter while [I]_0-i was dressing at [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar} in the morning , [I]_0-i resolved to tell [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} that [I]_0-i doubted [Orlick]_225-orlick 's being [the right sort of man to fill a post of trust at [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's}]_{2423-the right sort of man to fill a post of trust at miss havisham 's} . " Why of course [he]_225-orlick is not [the right sort of man]_{6371-the right sort of man} , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , comfortably satisfied beforehand on the general head , " because [the man who fills the post of trust]_{6372-the man who fills the post of trust} never is [the right sort of man]_{6371-the right sort of man} . "_{[1805-my guardian]} It seemed quite to put [him]_{1805-my guardian} into spirits to find that this particular post was not exceptionally held by [the right sort of man]_{6371-the right sort of man} , and [he]_{1805-my guardian} listened in a satisfied manner while [I]_0-i told [him]_{1805-my guardian} what knowledge [I]_0-i had of [Orlick]_225-orlick . " Very good , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1805-my guardian]} [he]_{1805-my guardian} observed , when [I]_0-i had concluded , " [I]_{1805-my guardian} 'll go round presently , and pay [[our]_2427-our friend]_{6374-our friend} off . "_{[1805-my guardian]} Rather alarmed by this summary action , [I]_0-i was for a little delay , and even hinted that [[our]_2427-our friend]_{6374-our friend} [himself]_{6374-our friend} might be difficult to deal with . " Oh no [he]_{6374-our friend} wo n't , "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} , making [his]_{1805-my guardian} pocket - handkerchief - point , with perfect confidence ; " [I]_{1805-my guardian} should like to see [him]_{6374-our friend} argue the question with [me]_{1805-my guardian} . "_{[1805-my guardian]} As [we]_2427-our were going back together to [London]_8-london by [the midday coach]_{2430-the midday coach} , and as [I]_0-i breakfasted under such terrors of [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} that [I]_0-i could scarcely hold [my]_0-i cup , this gave [me]_0-i an opportunity of saying that [I]_0-i wanted a walk , and that [I]_0-i would go on along [the London road]_{2431-the london road} while [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was occupied , if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would let [the coachman]_{5506-the coachman} know that [I]_0-i would get into [[my]_0-i place]_{5351-my place} when overtaken . [I]_0-i was thus enabled to fly from [the Blue Boar]_{5142-the blue boar} immediately after breakfast . By then making a loop of about a couple of miles into [the open country]_{2435-the open country} at the back of [[Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's premises]_{2436-pumblechook 's premises} , [I]_0-i got round into [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} again , a little beyond that pitfall , and felt [myself]_0-i in comparative security . It was interesting to be in [the quiet old town]_{2438-the quiet old town} once more , and it was not disagreeable to be here and there suddenly recognized and stared after . [One or two of [the tradespeople]_{2440-the tradespeople}]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} even darted out of [[their]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} shops]_{2441-their shops} and went a little way down [the street]_{4824-the street} before [me]_0-i , that [they]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} might turn , as if [they]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} had forgotten something , and pass [me]_0-i face to face , - on which occasions [I]_0-i do n't know whether [they]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} or [I]_0-i made the worse pretence ; [they]_{2439-one or two of the tradespeople} of not doing it , or [I]_0-i of not seeing it . Still [my]_0-i position was a distinguished one , and [I]_0-i was not at all dissatisfied with it , until [Fate]_307-fate threw [me]_0-i in the way of [that unlimited miscreant , [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy}]_{2443-that unlimited miscreant , trabb 's boy} . Casting [my]_0-i eyes along [the street]_{4824-the street} at a certain point of [my]_0-i progress , [I]_0-i beheld [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} approaching , lashing [himself]_{5407-trabb 's boy} with an empty blue bag . Deeming that a serene and unconscious contemplation of [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} would best beseem [me]_0-i , and would be most likely to quell [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} evil mind , [I]_0-i advanced with that expression of countenance , and was rather congratulating [myself]_0-i on [my]_0-i success , when suddenly [the knees of [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy}]_{2447-the knees of trabb 's boy} smote together , [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} hair uprose , [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} cap fell off , [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} trembled violently in every limb , staggered out into [the road]_{1325-the road} , and crying to [the populace]_{2450-the populace} , " Hold [me]_{5407-trabb 's boy} ! [I]_{5407-trabb 's boy} 'm so frightened ! "_{[5407-trabb 's boy]} feigned to be in a paroxysm of terror and contrition , occasioned by the dignity of [my]_0-i appearance . As [I]_0-i passed [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} , [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} teeth loudly chattered in [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} head , and with every mark of extreme humiliation , [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} prostrated [himself]_{5407-trabb 's boy} in the dust . This was a hard thing to bear , but this was nothing . [I]_0-i had not advanced another two hundred yards when , to [my]_0-i inexpressible terror , amazement , and indignation , [I]_0-i again beheld [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} approaching . [He]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was coming round a narrow corner . [His]_{5407-trabb 's boy} blue bag was slung over [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} shoulder , honest industry beamed in [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} eyes , a determination to proceed to [Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's with cheerful briskness was indicated in [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} gait . With a shock [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} became aware of [me]_0-i , and was severely visited as before ; but this time [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} motion was rotatory , and [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} staggered round and round [me]_0-i with knees more afflicted , and with uplifted hands as if beseeching for mercy . [His]_{5407-trabb 's boy} sufferings were hailed with the greatest joy by a knot of [spectators]_{2452-spectators} , and [I]_0-i felt utterly confounded . [I]_0-i had not got as much further down [the street]_{4824-the street} as [the post - office]_{2454-the post - office} , when [I]_0-i again beheld [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} shooting round by a back way . This time , [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was entirely changed . [He]_{5407-trabb 's boy} wore the blue bag in the manner of [my]_0-i great - coat , and was strutting along [the pavement]_{5599-the pavement} towards [me]_0-i on the opposite side of [the street]_{4824-the street} , attended by [a company of delighted young friends to whom [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy}]_{2458-a company of delighted young friends to whom he} from time to time exclaimed , with a wave of [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} hand , " Do n't know [yah]_6375-yah ! "_{[5407-trabb 's boy]} Words can not state the amount of aggravation and injury wreaked upon [me]_0-i by [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} , when passing abreast of [me]_0-i , [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} pulled up [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} shirt - collar , twined [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} side - hair , stuck an arm akimbo , and smirked extravagantly by , wriggling [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} elbows and body , and drawling to [[his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} attendants]_{2460-his attendants} , " Do n't know [yah]_6375-yah , do n't know [yah]_6375-yah , ' pon [my]_{5407-trabb 's boy} soul do n't know [yah]_6375-yah ! "_{[5407-trabb 's boy]} [The disgrace attendant on [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} immediately afterwards taking to crowing and pursuing [me]_0-i across [the bridge]_{6005-the bridge} with crows , as from [an exceedingly dejected fowl who had known [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i was [a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} , culminated the disgrace with which [I]_0-i left [the town]_{5488-the town} , and was , so to speak , ejected by it into [the open country]_{2435-the open country}]_{2463-an exceedingly dejected fowl who had known me when i was a blacksmith , culminated the disgrace with which i left the town , and was , so to speak , ejected by it into the open country}]_{2461-the disgrace attendant on his immediately afterwards taking to crowing and pursuing me across the bridge with crows , as from an exceedingly dejected fowl who had known me when i was a blacksmith , culminated the disgrace with which i left the town , and was , so to speak , ejected by it into the open country} . But unless [I]_0-i had taken the life of [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} on that occasion , [I]_0-i really do not even now see what [I]_0-i could have done save endure . To have struggled with [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} in [the street]_{4824-the street} , or to have exacted any lower recompense from [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} than [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} heart 's best blood , would have been futile and degrading . Moreover , [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was [a boy whom [no man]_{801-no man} could hurt]_{2469-a boy whom no man could hurt} ; [an invulnerable and dodging serpent who , when chased into a corner , flew out again between [[his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} captor]_{2472-his captor} 's legs , scornfully yelping . [I]_0-i wrote , however , to [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} by next day 's post]_{2471-an invulnerable and dodging serpent who , when chased into a corner , flew out again between his captor 's legs , scornfully yelping . i wrote , however , to mr. trabb by next day 's post} , to say that [Mr. Pip]_241-pip must decline to deal further with [one who could so far forget what [he]_241-pip owed to the best interests of society]_{2473-one who could so far forget what he owed to the best interests of society} , as to employ [a boy who excited Loathing in every respectable mind]_{2474-a boy who excited loathing in every respectable mind} . [The coach]_{4925-the coach} , with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} inside , came up in due time , and [I]_0-i took [my]_0-i box - seat again , and arrived in [London]_8-london safe , - but not sound , for [my]_0-i heart was gone . As soon as [I]_0-i arrived , [I]_0-i sent a penitential codfish and barrel of oysters to [Joe]_154-joe as reparation for not having gone [myself]_0-i , and then went on to [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} . [I]_0-i found [Herbert]_265-herbert dining on cold meat , and delighted to welcome [me]_0-i back . Having despatched [The Avenger]_{302-the avenger} to [the coffee - house]_{1910-the coffee - house} for an addition to the dinner , [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i must open [my]_0-i breast that very evening to [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} and chum . As confidence was out of the question with The Avenger in [the hall]_{5132-the hall} , which could merely be regarded in the light of an antechamber to the keyhole , [I]_0-i sent [him]_265-herbert to [the Play]_{2479-the play} . A better proof of the severity of [my]_0-i bondage to [that taskmaster]_{2480-that taskmaster} could scarcely be afforded , than the degrading shifts to which [I]_0-i was constantly driven to find [him]_265-herbert employment . So mean is extremity , that [I]_0-i sometimes sent [him]_265-herbert to [Hyde Park corner]_{67-hyde park corner} to see what o'clock it was . Dinner done and [we]_2481-we sitting with [our]_2481-we feet upon the fender , [I]_0-i said to [Herbert]_265-herbert , " [[My]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Herbert]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i have something very particular to tell [you]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] " [[My]_265-herbert dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [he]_265-herbert returned , " [I]_265-herbert shall esteem and respect [your]_266-handel confidence . "_{[265-herbert]} " It concerns [myself]_0-i , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " and [one other person]_{6378-one other person} . "_[0-i] [Herbert]_265-herbert crossed [his]_265-herbert feet , looked at the fire with [his]_265-herbert head on one side , and having looked at it in vain for some time , looked at [me]_0-i because [I]_0-i did n't go on . " [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , laying [my]_0-i hand upon [his]_265-herbert knee , " [I]_0-i love - [I]_0-i adore - [Estella]_195-estella . "_[0-i] Instead of being transfixed , [Herbert]_265-herbert replied in an easy matter - ofcourse way , " Exactly . Well ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Well , [Herbert]_265-herbert ? Is that all [you]_265-herbert say ? Well ? "_{[265-herbert]} " What next , [I]_265-herbert mean ? "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " Of course [I]_265-herbert know that . "_{[265-herbert]} " How do [you]_265-herbert know it ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " How do [I]_0-i know it , [Handel]_266-handel ? Why , from [you]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] " [I]_265-herbert never told [you]_265-herbert . "_{[265-herbert]} " Told [me]_265-herbert ! [You]_265-herbert have never told [me]_265-herbert when [you]_265-herbert have got [your]_265-herbert hair cut , but [I]_265-herbert have had senses to perceive it . [You]_265-herbert have always adored [her]_6379-her , ever since [I]_265-herbert have known [you]_265-herbert . [You]_265-herbert brought [your]_265-herbert adoration and [your]_265-herbert portmanteau here together . Told [me]_265-herbert ! Why , [you]_265-herbert have always told [me]_265-herbert all day long . When [you]_265-herbert told [me]_265-herbert [your]_265-herbert own story , [you]_265-herbert told [me]_265-herbert plainly that [you]_265-herbert began adoring [her]_6379-her the first time [you]_265-herbert saw [her]_6379-her , when [you]_265-herbert were very young indeed . "_{[265-herbert]} " Very well , then , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , to whom this was a new and not unwelcome light , " [I]_0-i have never left off adoring [her]_6379-her . And [she]_6379-her has come back , a most beautiful and most elegant creature . And [I]_0-i saw [her]_6379-her yesterday . And if [I]_0-i adored [her]_6379-her before , [I]_0-i now doubly adore [her]_6379-her . "_[0-i] " Lucky for [you]_265-herbert then , [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " that [you]_265-herbert are picked out for [her]_6379-her and allotted to [her]_6379-her . Without encroaching on [forbidden ground]_{6380-forbidden ground} , [we]_6381-we may venture to say that there can be no doubt between [ourselves]_6381-we of that fact . Have [you]_265-herbert any idea yet , of [Estella]_195-estella 's views on the adoration question ? "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i shook [my]_0-i head gloomily . " Oh ! [She]_195-estella is thousands of miles away , from [me]_0-i , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Patience , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel : time enough , time enough . But [you]_265-herbert have something more to say ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am ashamed to say it , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned , " and yet it 's no worse to say it than to think it . [You]_265-herbert call [me]_0-i [a lucky fellow]_{6383-a lucky fellow} . Of course , [I]_0-i am . [I]_0-i was [[a blacksmith]_{4506-a blacksmith} 's boy]_{6385-a blacksmith 's boy} but yesterday ; [I]_0-i am - what shall [I]_0-i say [I]_0-i am - to - day ? "_[0-i] " Say [a good fellow]_{6386-a good fellow} , if [you]_0-i want a phrase , "_{[265-herbert]} returned [Herbert]_265-herbert , smiling , and clapping [his]_265-herbert hand on the back of [mine]_0-i - " [a good fellow , with impetuosity and hesitation , boldness and diffidence , action and dreaming]_{6387-a good fellow , with impetuosity and hesitation , boldness and diffidence , action and dreaming} , curiously mixed in [him]_{6387-a good fellow , with impetuosity and hesitation , boldness and diffidence , action and dreaming} . "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i stopped for a moment to consider whether there really was this mixture in [my]_0-i character . On the whole , [I]_0-i by no means recognized the analysis , but thought it not worth disputing . " When [I]_0-i ask what [I]_0-i am to call [myself]_0-i to - day , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went on , " [I]_0-i suggest what [I]_0-i have in [my]_0-i thoughts . [You]_265-herbert say [I]_0-i am lucky . [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i have done nothing to raise [myself]_0-i in life , and that [Fortune]_247-fortune alone has raised [me]_0-i ; that is being very lucky . And yet , when [I]_0-i think of [Estella]_195-estella - "_[0-i] " And when do n't [you]_0-i , [you]_0-i know ? "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert threw in , with [his]_265-herbert eyes on the fire ; which [I]_0-i thought kind and sympathetic of [him]_265-herbert . " - Then , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Herbert]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_265-herbert how dependent and uncertain [I]_0-i feel , and how exposed to hundreds of chances . Avoiding forbidden ground , as [you]_265-herbert did just now , [I]_0-i may still say that on the constancy of [one person]_{6389-one person} naming [no person]_{6390-no person} all [my]_0-i expectations depend . And at the best , how indefinite and unsatisfactory , only to know so vaguely what they are ! "_[0-i] In saying this , [I]_0-i relieved [my]_0-i mind of what had always been there , more or less , though no doubt most since yesterday . " Now , [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert replied , in [his]_265-herbert gay , hopeful way , " it seems to [me]_0-i that in the despondency of the tender passion , [we]_6391-we are looking into [our]_6391-we gift - horse 's mouth with a magnifying - glass . Likewise , it seems to [me]_0-i that , concentrating [our]_6391-we attention on the examination , [we]_6391-we altogether overlook one of the best points of the animal . Did n't [you]_265-herbert tell [me]_0-i that [[your]_265-herbert guardian]_{5339-your guardian} , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , told [you]_265-herbert in the beginning , that [you]_265-herbert were not endowed with expectations only ? And even if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had not told [you]_265-herbert so , - though that is a very large If , [I]_0-i grant , - could [you]_265-herbert believe that of [all men in [London]_8-london]_{6393-all men in london} , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is [the man to hold [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} present relations towards [you]_265-herbert unless [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} were sure of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} ground]_{6394-the man to hold his present relations towards you unless he were sure of his ground} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i could not deny that this was a strong point . [I]_0-i said it [people]_4539-people often do so , in such cases like a rather reluctant concession to truth and justice ; - as if [I]_0-i wanted to deny it ! " [I]_265-herbert should think it was a strong point , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " and [I]_265-herbert should think [you]_265-herbert would be puzzled to imagine a stronger ; as to the rest , [you]_265-herbert must bide [[your]_265-herbert guardian]_{5339-your guardian} 's time , and [he]_{5339-your guardian} must bide [[his]_{5339-your guardian} client]_{6396-his client} 's time . [You]_265-herbert 'll be one - and - twenty before [you]_265-herbert know where [you]_265-herbert are , and then perhaps [you]_265-herbert 'll get some further enlightenment . At all events , [you]_265-herbert 'll be nearer getting it , for it must come at last . "_{[265-herbert]} " What a hopeful disposition [you]_265-herbert have ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , gratefully admiring [his]_265-herbert cheery ways . " [I]_265-herbert ought to have , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " for [I]_265-herbert have not much else . [I]_265-herbert must acknowledge , by the by , that the good sense of what [I]_265-herbert have just said is not [my]_265-herbert own , but [[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} 's . The only remark [I]_265-herbert ever heard [him]_265-herbert make on [your]_265-herbert story , was the final one , "_{[265-herbert]} The thing is settled and done , or [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} would not be in it . " And now before [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} say anything more about [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} father]_{400-my father} , or [[[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} father]_{400-my father} 's son]_{6400-my father 's son} , and repay confidence with confidence , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} want to make [myself]_{237-mr. jaggers} seriously disagreeable to [you]_265-herbert for a moment , - positively repulsive . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [You]_{237-mr. jaggers} wo n't succeed , "_[2483-i.] said [I.]_2483-i. " O yes [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} shall ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " One , two , three , and now [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am in for it . [Handel]_266-handel , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} good fellow]_{6401-my good fellow} ; "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} - though [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} spoke in this light tone , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was very much in earnest , - " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have been thinking since [we]_6402-we have been talking with [our]_6402-we feet on this fender , that [Estella]_195-estella surely can not be a condition of [your]_265-herbert inheritance , if [she]_195-estella was never referred to by [[your]_265-herbert guardian]_{5339-your guardian} . Am [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} right in so understanding what [you]_265-herbert have told [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , as that [he]_{5339-your guardian} never referred to [her]_195-estella , directly or indirectly , in any way ? Never even hinted , for instance , that [[your]_265-herbert patron]_{6404-your patron} might have views as to [your]_265-herbert marriage ultimately ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Never . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Now , [Handel]_266-handel , [I]_0-i am quite free from the flavor of sour grapes , upon [my]_0-i soul and honor ! Not being bound to [her]_195-estella , can [you]_266-handel not detach [yourself]_266-handel from [her]_195-estella ? - [I]_0-i told [you]_266-handel [I]_0-i should be disagreeable . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i head aside , for , with a rush and a sweep , like the old marsh winds coming up from [the sea]_{415-the sea} , a feeling like that which had subdued [me]_0-i on the morning when [I]_0-i left [the forge]_{488-the forge} , when the mists were solemnly rising , and when [I]_0-i laid [my]_0-i hand upon the village finger - post , smote upon [my]_0-i heart again . There was silence between [us]_2486-us for a little while . " Yes ; but [[my]_265-herbert dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert went on , as if [we]_2486-us had been talking , instead of silent , " its having been so strongly rooted in the breast of [a boy whom nature and circumstances made so romantic]_{6406-a boy whom nature and circumstances made so romantic} , renders it very serious . Think of [her]_6407-her bringing - up , and think of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . Think of what [she]_6407-her is [herself]_6407-her now [I]_265-herbert am repulsive and [you]_265-herbert abominate [me]_265-herbert . This may lead to miserable things . "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_0-i know it , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , with [my]_0-i head still turned away , " but [I]_0-i ca n't help it . "_[0-i] " [You]_265-herbert ca n't detach [yourself]_265-herbert ? "_{[265-herbert]} " No . Impossible ! "_{[265-herbert]} " [You]_265-herbert ca n't try , [Handel]_266-handel ? "_[0-i] " No . Impossible ! "_{[265-herbert]} " Well ! "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , getting up with a lively shake as if [he]_265-herbert had been asleep , and stirring the fire , " now [I]_265-herbert 'll endeavor to make [myself]_265-herbert agreeable again ! "_{[265-herbert]} So [he]_265-herbert went round [the room]_{633-the room} and shook the curtains out , put the chairs in their places , tidied the books and so forth that were lying about , looked into [the hall]_{5132-the hall} , peeped into the letter - box , shut the door , and came back to [his]_265-herbert chair by the fire : where [he]_265-herbert sat down , nursing [his]_265-herbert left leg in both arms . " [I]_265-herbert was going to say a word or two , [Handel]_266-handel , concerning [[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} and [[[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} 's son]_{6400-my father 's son} . [I]_265-herbert am afraid it is scarcely necessary for [[[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} 's son]_{6400-my father 's son} to remark that [[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} 's establishment is not particularly brilliant in its housekeeping . "_{[265-herbert]} " There is always plenty , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , to say something encouraging . " O yes ! and so [the dustman]_{6414-the dustman} says , [I]_0-i believe , with the strongest approval , and so does [the marine - store shop in [the back street]_{6416-the back street}]_{6415-the marine - store shop in the back street} . [Gravely]_308-gravely , [Handel]_266-handel , for the subject is grave enough , [you]_266-handel know how it is as well as [I]_0-i do . [I]_0-i suppose there was a time once when [[my]_0-i father]_{400-my father} had not given matters up ; but if ever there was , the time is gone . May [I]_0-i ask [you]_266-handel if [you]_266-handel have ever had an opportunity of remarking , down in [[your]_266-handel part of [the country]_{1330-the country}]_{1896-your part of the country} , that [the children of not exactly suitable marriages]_{6420-the children of not exactly suitable marriages} are always most particularly anxious to be married ? "_[0-i] This was such a singular question , that [I]_0-i asked [him]_2489-him in return , " Is it so ? "_[0-i] " [I]_265-herbert do n't know , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " that 's what [I]_265-herbert want to know . Because it is decidedly the case with [us]_6421-us . [[My]_265-herbert poor sister [Charlotte]_{309-charlotte} , who was next [me]_265-herbert and died before [she]_{309-charlotte} was fourteen]_{6422-my poor sister charlotte , who was next me and died before she was fourteen} , was a striking example . [Little Jane]_270-jane is the same . In [her]_270-jane desire to be matrimonially established , [you]_266-handel might suppose [her]_270-jane to have passed [her]_270-jane short existence in the perpetual contemplation of domestic bliss . [Little Alick]_{310-little alick} in a frock has already made arrangements for [his]_{310-little alick} union with [a suitable young person]_{6423-a suitable young person} at [Kew]_68-kew . And indeed , [I]_265-herbert think [we]_6424-we are all engaged , except [the baby]_{5761-the baby} . "_{[265-herbert]} " Then [you]_265-herbert are ? "_[2490-i.] said [I.]_2490-i. " [I]_265-herbert am , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert ; " but it 's a secret . "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i assured [him]_265-herbert of [my]_0-i keeping the secret , and begged to be favored with further particulars . [He]_265-herbert had spoken so sensibly and feelingly of [my]_0-i weakness that [I]_0-i wanted to know something about [his]_265-herbert strength . " May [I]_0-i ask the name ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said . " Name of [Clara]_311-clara , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " Live in [London]_8-london ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Yes , perhaps [I]_265-herbert ought to mention , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , who had become curiously crestfallen and meek , since [we]_2491-we entered on the interesting theme , " that [she]_311-clara is rather below [[my]_265-herbert mother]_{405-my mother} 's nonsensical family notions . [[Her]_311-clara father]_{1954-her father} had to do with the victualling of [passenger - ships]_{6428-passenger - ships} . [I]_265-herbert think [he]_{1954-her father} was [a species of purser]_{6429-a species of purser} . "_{[265-herbert]} " What is [he]_{1954-her father} now ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [He]_{1954-her father} 's [an invalid]_{6430-an invalid} now , "_{[265-herbert]} replied [Herbert]_265-herbert . " Living on - ? "_{[265-herbert]} " On [the first floor]_{6431-the first floor} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . Which was not at all what [I]_0-i meant , for [I]_0-i had intended [my]_0-i question to apply to [his]_265-herbert means . " [I]_0-i have never seen [him]_{1954-her father} , for [he]_{1954-her father} has always kept [[his]_{1954-her father} room]_{625-his room} overhead , since [I]_0-i have known [Clara]_311-clara . But [I]_0-i have heard [him]_{1954-her father} constantly . [He]_{1954-her father} makes tremendous rows , - roars , and pegs at the floor with some frightful instrument . "_[0-i] In looking at [me]_0-i and then laughing heartily , [Herbert]_265-herbert for the time recovered [his]_265-herbert usual lively manner . " Do n't [you]_265-herbert expect to see [him]_{1954-her father} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " O yes , [I]_265-herbert constantly expect to see [him]_{1954-her father} , "_{[265-herbert]} returned [Herbert]_265-herbert , " because [I]_265-herbert never hear [him]_{1954-her father} , without expecting [him]_{1954-her father} to come tumbling through the ceiling . But [I]_265-herbert do n't know how long the rafters may hold . "_{[265-herbert]} When [he]_265-herbert had once more laughed heartily , [he]_265-herbert became meek again , and told [me]_0-i that the moment [he]_265-herbert began to realize Capital , it was [his]_265-herbert intention to marry [this young lady]_{2492-this young lady} . [He]_265-herbert added as a self - evident proposition , engendering low spirits , " But [you]_0-i ca n't marry , [you]_0-i know , while [you]_0-i 're looking about [you]_0-i . "_{[265-herbert]} As [we]_2493-our contemplated the fire , and as [I]_0-i thought what a difficult vision to realize this same Capital sometimes was , [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i hands in [my]_0-i pockets . A folded piece of paper in one of them attracting [my]_0-i attention , [I]_0-i opened it and found it to be the play - bill [I]_0-i had received from [Joe]_154-joe , relative to [the celebrated provincial amateur of [Roscian]_69-roscian renown]_{2494-the celebrated provincial amateur of roscian renown} . " And bless [my]_0-i heart , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i involuntarily added aloud , " it 's to - night ! "_[0-i] This changed the subject in an instant , and made [us]_2493-our hurriedly resolve to go to the play . So , when [I]_0-i had pledged [myself]_0-i to comfort and abet [Herbert]_265-herbert in the affair of [his]_265-herbert heart by all practicable and impracticable means , and when [Herbert]_265-herbert had told [me]_0-i that [[his]_265-herbert affianced]_{2495-his affianced} already knew [me]_0-i by reputation and that [I]_0-i should be presented to [her]_{2495-his affianced} , and when [we]_2493-our had warmly shaken hands upon [our]_2493-our mutual confidence , [we]_2493-our blew out [our]_2493-our candles , made up [our]_2493-our fire , locked [our]_2493-our door , and issued forth in quest of [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} and [Denmark]_70-denmark . Chapter XXXI On [our]_2493-our arrival in [Denmark]_70-denmark , [we]_2493-our found [the king]_{707-the king} and queen of [that country]_{2497-that country} elevated in two arm - chairs on [a kitchen]_{1120-a kitchen} - table , holding [a Court]_{2499-a court} . [The whole of the Danish nobility]_{2500-the whole of the danish nobility} were in attendance ; consisting of [a noble boy in the wash - leather boots of [a gigantic ancestor]_{2502-a gigantic ancestor}]_{2501-a noble boy in the wash - leather boots of a gigantic ancestor} , [a venerable Peer with a dirty face who seemed to have risen from [the people late in life]_{2504-the people late in life} , and the Danish chivalry with a comb in [its]_2505-its hair and a pair of white silk legs , and presenting on the whole a feminine appearance]_{2503-a venerable peer with a dirty face who seemed to have risen from the people late in life , and the danish chivalry with a comb in its hair and a pair of white silk legs , and presenting on the whole a feminine appearance} . [[My]_0-i gifted townsman]_{2506-my gifted townsman} stood gloomily apart , with folded arms , and [I]_0-i could have wished that [his]_{2506-my gifted townsman} curls and forehead had been more probable . Several curious little circumstances transpired as the action proceeded . [The late king of [the country]_{1330-the country}]_{2507-the late king of the country} not only appeared to have been troubled with a cough at the time of [his]_{2507-the late king of the country} decease , but to have taken it with [him]_{2507-the late king of the country} to [the tomb]_{5935-the tomb} , and to have brought it back . [The royal phantom]_{2510-the royal phantom} also carried a ghostly manuscript round its truncheon , to which it had the appearance of occasionally referring , and that too , with an air of anxiety and a tendency to lose the place of reference which were suggestive of a state of mortality . It was this , [I]_0-i conceive , which led to [the Shade]_{2511-the shade} 's being advised by [the gallery]_{2512-the gallery} to " turn over ! "_{[2513-this majestic spirit]} - a recommendation which it took extremely ill . It was likewise to be noted of [this majestic spirit]_{2513-this majestic spirit} , that whereas it always appeared with an air of having been out a long time and walked an immense distance , it perceptibly came from a closely contiguous wall . This occasioned its terrors to be received derisively . [The Queen of [Denmark]_70-denmark]_{2514-the queen of denmark} , [a very buxom lady]_{2515-a very buxom lady} , though no doubt historically brazen , was considered by [the public]_{2516-the public} to have too much brass about [her]_{2515-a very buxom lady} ; [her]_{2515-a very buxom lady} chin being attached to [her]_{2515-a very buxom lady} diadem by a broad band of that metal as if [she]_{2515-a very buxom lady} had a gorgeous toothache , [her]_{2515-a very buxom lady} waist being encircled by another , and each of [her]_{2515-a very buxom lady} arms by another , so that [she]_{2515-a very buxom lady} was openly mentioned as " the kettle - drum . "_{[2515-a very buxom lady]} [The noble boy in the ancestral boots]_{2517-the noble boy in the ancestral boots} was inconsistent , representing [himself]_{2517-the noble boy in the ancestral boots} , as it were in one breath , as [an able seaman]_{2518-an able seaman} , [a strolling actor]_{2519-a strolling actor} , [a grave - digger]_{2520-a grave - digger} , [a clergyman]_{2521-a clergyman} , and [a person of the utmost importance at a Court fencing - match]_{2522-a person of the utmost importance at a court fencing - match} , on the authority of whose practised eye and nice discrimination the finest strokes were judged . This gradually led to a want of toleration for [him]_{2517-the noble boy in the ancestral boots} , and even - on [his]_{2517-the noble boy in the ancestral boots} being detected in holy orders , and declining to perform the funeral service - to the general indignation taking the form of nuts . Lastly , [Ophelia]_312-ophelia was a prey to such slow musical madness , that when , in course of time , [she]_312-ophelia had taken off [her]_312-ophelia white muslin scarf , folded it up , and buried it , [a sulky man who had been long cooling [his]_{2523-a sulky man who had been long cooling his impatient nose against an iron bar in the front row of the gallery} impatient nose against an iron bar in the front row of [the gallery]_{2512-the gallery}]_{2523-a sulky man who had been long cooling his impatient nose against an iron bar in the front row of the gallery} , growled , " Now [the baby]_{5761-the baby} 's put to bed let ['s]_6434-'s have supper ! "_{[2523-a sulky man who had been long cooling his impatient nose against an iron bar in the front row of the gallery]} Which , to say the least of it , was out of keeping . Upon [[my]_0-i unfortunate townsman]_{2525-my unfortunate townsman} all these incidents accumulated with playful effect . Whenever [that undecided Prince]_{2526-that undecided prince} had to ask a question or state a doubt , [the public]_{2516-the public} helped [him]_{2526-that undecided prince} out with it . As for example ; on the question whether ' twas [nobler in the mind]_{2528-nobler in the mind} to suffer , some roared yes , and some no , and [some inclining to both opinions]_{2529-some inclining to both opinions} said " Toss up for it ; "_{[2529-some inclining to both opinions]} and quite a Debating Society arose . When [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} asked what should [such fellows as [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} do crawling between [earth and heaven]_{2531-earth and heaven}]_{2530-such fellows as he do crawling between earth and heaven} , [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} was encouraged with loud cries of " Hear , hear ! "_{[2526-that undecided prince]} When [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} appeared with [his]_{2526-that undecided prince} stocking disordered its disorder expressed , according to usage , by one very neat fold in the top , which [I]_0-i suppose to be always got up with a flat iron , a conversation took place in [the gallery]_{2512-the gallery} respecting the paleness of [his]_{2526-that undecided prince} leg , and whether it was occasioned by the turn [the ghost]_{2237-the ghost} had given [him]_{2526-that undecided prince} . On [his]_{2526-that undecided prince} taking the recorders , - very like a little black flute that had just been played in the orchestra and handed out at the door , - [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} was called upon unanimously for [Rule Britannia]_{313-rule britannia} . When [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} recommended [the player]_{2534-the player} not to saw the air thus , [the sulky man]_{2535-the sulky man} said , " And do n't [you]_{2534-the player} do it , neither ; [you]_{2534-the player} 're a deal worse than [him]_{2526-that undecided prince} ! "_{[2535-the sulky man]} And [I]_0-i grieve to add that peals of laughter greeted [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} on every one of these occasions . But [his]_{2526-that undecided prince} greatest trials were in [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , which had the appearance of [a primeval forest]_{2537-a primeval forest} , with [a kind of small ecclesiastical wash - house]_{2538-a kind of small ecclesiastical wash - house} on one side , and a turnpike gate on the other . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} in a comprehensive black cloak , being descried entering at [the turnpike]_{1556-the turnpike} , [the gravedigger]_{2540-the gravedigger} was admonished in a friendly way , " Look out ! Here 's [the undertaker]_{6435-the undertaker} a coming , to see how [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} 're a getting on with [your]_{169-mr. wopsle} work ! "_{[2540-the gravedigger]} [I]_0-i believe it is well known in [a constitutional country]_{2541-a constitutional country} that [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} could not possibly have returned the skull , after moralizing over it , without dusting [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} fingers on a white napkin taken from [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} breast ; but even that innocent and indispensable action did not pass without the comment , " Wai - ter ! "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} The arrival of the body for interment in an empty black box with the lid tumbling open , was the signal for a general joy , which was much enhanced by the discovery , among [the bearers]_{2542-the bearers} , of [an individual obnoxious to identification]_{2543-an individual obnoxious to identification} . The joy attended [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} through [his]_{2526-that undecided prince} struggle with [Laertes]_314-laertes on the brink of the orchestra and the grave , and slackened no more until [he]_{2526-that undecided prince} had tumbled [the king]_{707-the king} off the kitchen - table , and had died by inches from the ankles upward . [We]_2545-we had made some pale efforts in the beginning to applaud [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} ; but they were too hopeless to be persisted in . Therefore [we]_2545-we had sat , feeling keenly for [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} , but laughing , nevertheless , from ear to ear . [I]_0-i laughed in spite of [myself]_0-i all the time , the whole thing was so droll ; and yet [I]_0-i had a latent impression that there was something decidedly fine in [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's elocution , - not for [old associations]_{2546-old associations} ' sake , [I]_0-i am afraid , but because it was very slow , very dreary , very up - hill and down - hill , and very unlike any way in which [any man in any natural circumstances of life or death]_{2547-any man in any natural circumstances of life or death} ever expressed [himself]_{2547-any man in any natural circumstances of life or death} about anything . When the tragedy was over , and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had been called for and hooted , [I]_0-i said to [Herbert]_265-herbert , " Let [us]_2545-we go at once , or perhaps [we]_2545-we shall meet [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} . "_[0-i] [We]_2545-we made all the haste [we]_2545-we could down [stairs]_539-stairs , but [we]_2545-we were not quick enough either . Standing at the door was [a Jewish man with an unnatural heavy smear of eyebrow]_{2549-a jewish man with an unnatural heavy smear of eyebrow} , who caught [my]_0-i eyes as [we]_2545-we advanced , and said , when [we]_2545-we came up with [him]_{2549-a jewish man with an unnatural heavy smear of eyebrow} , - " [Mr. Pip]_241-pip and [friend]_4695-friend ? "_{[2549-a jewish man with an unnatural heavy smear of eyebrow]} [Identity of [Mr. Pip]_241-pip and [friend]_4695-friend]_{2550-identity of mr. pip and friend} confessed . " [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , "_{[433-the man]} said [the man]_{433-the man} , " would be glad to have the honor . "_{[433-the man]} " [Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i repeated - when [Herbert]_265-herbert murmured in [my]_0-i ear , " Probably [Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . "_{[265-herbert]} " Oh ! "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Yes . Shall [we]_2545-we follow [you]_265-herbert ? "_[0-i] " A few steps , please . "_{[265-herbert]} When [we]_2545-we were in [a side alley]_{2553-a side alley} , [he]_265-herbert turned and asked , " How did [you]_0-i think [he]_265-herbert looked ? - [I]_265-herbert dressed [him]_265-herbert . "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i do n't know what [he]_265-herbert had looked like , except a funeral ; with the addition of a large Danish sun or star hanging round [his]_265-herbert neck by a blue ribbon , that had given [him]_265-herbert the appearance of being insured in [some extraordinary Fire Office]_{2554-some extraordinary fire office} . But [I]_0-i said [he]_265-herbert had looked very nice . " When [he]_265-herbert come to the grave , "_[0-i] said [[our]_2545-we conductor]_{2555-our conductor} , " [he]_265-herbert showed [his]_265-herbert cloak beautiful . But , judging from the wing , it looked to [me]_0-i that when [he]_265-herbert see the ghost in [[the queen]_{6437-the queen} 's apartment]_{6438-the queen 's apartment} , [he]_265-herbert might have made more of [his]_265-herbert stockings . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i modestly assented , and [we]_2545-we all fell through a little dirty swing door , into a sort of hot packing - case immediately behind [it]_2556-it . Here [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} was divesting [himself]_{169-mr. wopsle} of [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} Danish garments , and here there was just room for [us]_2545-we to look at [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} over [one another]_{4584-one another} 's shoulders , by keeping the packing - case door , or lid , wide open . " [Gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} am proud to see [you]_{4982-gentlemen} . [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} hope , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [you]_{4982-gentlemen} will excuse [my]_{169-mr. wopsle} sending round . [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} had the happiness to know [you]_{4982-gentlemen} in former times , and [the Drama]_{6440-the drama} has ever had a claim which has ever been acknowledged , on [the noble]_{6441-the noble} and [the affluent]_{6442-the affluent} . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Meanwhile , [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , in a frightful perspiration , was trying to get [himself]_{315-mr. waldengarver} out of [his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} princely sables . " Skin the stockings off [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , "_{[2558-the owner of that property]} said [the owner of [that property]_{2559-that property}]_{2558-the owner of that property} , " or [you]_{315-mr. waldengarver} 'll bust 'em . Bust 'em , and [you]_{315-mr. waldengarver} 'll bust five - and - thirty shillings . [Shakspeare]_{316-shakspeare} never was complimented with a finer pair . Keep quiet in [your]_{315-mr. waldengarver} chair now , and leave 'em to [me]_{315-mr. waldengarver} . "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} With that , [he]_{315-mr. waldengarver} went upon [his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} knees , and began to flay [[his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} victim]_{2560-his victim} ; who , on the first stocking coming off , would certainly have fallen over backward with [his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} chair , but for there being no room to fall anyhow . [I]_0-i had been afraid until then to say a word about the play . But then , [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} looked up at [us]_2561-us complacently , and said , - " [Gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , how did it seem to [you]_{4982-gentlemen} , to go , in front ? "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert said from behind at the same time poking [me]_0-i , " Capitally . "_{[265-herbert]} So [I]_0-i said " Capitally . "_[0-i] " How did [you]_{4982-gentlemen} like [my]_{315-mr. waldengarver} reading of the character , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} ? "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} said [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , almost , if not quite , with patronage . [Herbert]_265-herbert said from behind again poking [me]_0-i , " Massive and concrete . "_{[265-herbert]} So [I]_0-i said boldly , as if [I]_0-i had originated it , and must beg to insist upon it , " Massive and concrete . "_[0-i] " [I]_{315-mr. waldengarver} am glad to have [your]_{4982-gentlemen} approbation , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} said [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , with an air of dignity , in spite of [his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} being ground against the wall at the time , and holding on by the seat of the chair . " But [I]_{315-mr. waldengarver} 'll tell [you]_0-i one thing , [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , "_{[6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading]} said [the man who was on [his]_{315-mr. waldengarver} knees , " in which [you]_0-i 're out in [your]_0-i reading]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} . Now mind ! [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} do n't care who says contrairy ; [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} tell [you]_0-i so . [You]_0-i 're out in [your]_0-i reading of [Hamlet]_5-hamlet when [you]_0-i get [your]_0-i legs in profile . [The last Hamlet]_{6447-the last hamlet} as [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} dressed , made the same mistakes in [his]_{6447-the last hamlet} reading at rehearsal , till [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} got [him]_{6447-the last hamlet} to put a large red wafer on each of [his]_{6447-the last hamlet} shins , and then at that rehearsal which was the last [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} went in front , [sir]_4451-sir , to the back of [the pit]_{6449-the pit} , and whenever [his]_{6447-the last hamlet} reading brought [him]_{6447-the last hamlet} into profile , [I]_{6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading} called out "_{[6446-the man who was on his knees , " in which you 're out in your reading]} [I]_0-i do n't see no wafers ! " And at night [his]_{6447-the last hamlet} reading was lovely . "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} smiled at [me]_0-i , as much as to say " [a faithful Dependent]_{6450-a faithful dependent} - [I]_{315-mr. waldengarver} overlook [his]_{6447-the last hamlet} folly ; "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} and then said aloud , " [My]_265-herbert view is a little classic and thoughtful for [them]_2562-they here ; but [they]_2562-they will improve , [they]_2562-they will improve . "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i said together , O , no doubt [they]_2562-they would improve . " Did [you]_2563-we observe , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} said [Mr. Waldengarver]_{315-mr. waldengarver} , " that there was [a man in [the gallery]_{2512-the gallery}]_{6452-a man in the gallery} who endeavored to cast derision on the service , - [I]_{315-mr. waldengarver} mean , the representation ? "_{[315-mr. waldengarver]} [We]_2563-we basely replied that [we]_2563-we rather thought [we]_2563-we had noticed [such a man]_{2564-such a man} . [I]_0-i added , " [He]_{2564-such a man} was drunk , no doubt . "_[0-i] " O dear no , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , " not drunk . [[His]_{2564-such a man} employer]_{6455-his employer} would see to that , [sir]_4451-sir . [[His]_{2564-such a man} employer]_{6455-his employer} would not allow [him]_{2564-such a man} to be drunk . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " [You]_{169-mr. wopsle} know [[his]_{2564-such a man} employer]_{6455-his employer} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} shut [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} eyes , and opened them again ; performing both ceremonies very slowly . " [You]_0-i must have observed , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} , " [an ignorant and a blatant ass , with a rasping throat and a countenance expressive of low malignity]_{6460-an ignorant and a blatant ass , with a rasping throat and a countenance expressive of low malignity} , who went through - [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} will not say sustained - the role if [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} may use a French expression of [Claudius]_318-claudius , [King of [Denmark]_70-denmark]_{6461-king of denmark} . That is [[his]_{169-mr. wopsle} employer]_{6455-his employer} , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} . Such is the profession ! "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Without distinctly knowing whether [I]_0-i should have been more sorry for [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} if [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had been in despair , [I]_0-i was so sorry for [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} as it was , that [I]_0-i took the opportunity of [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} turning round to have [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} braces put on , - which jostled [us]_2565-us out at the doorway , - to ask [Herbert]_265-herbert what [he]_265-herbert thought of having [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} [home]_4495-home to supper ? [Herbert]_265-herbert said [he]_265-herbert thought it would be kind to do so ; therefore [I]_0-i invited [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} , and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} went to [Barnard]_260-barnard 's with [us]_2565-us , wrapped up to the eyes , and [we]_2565-us did [our]_2565-us best for [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} , and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} sat until two o'clock in the morning , reviewing [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} success and developing [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} plans . [I]_0-i forget in detail what they were , but [I]_0-i have a general recollection that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} was to begin with reviving the Drama , and to end with crushing it ; inasmuch as [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} decease would leave it utterly bereft and without a chance or hope . Miserably [I]_0-i went to bed after all , and miserably thought of [Estella]_195-estella , and miserably dreamed that [my]_0-i expectations were all cancelled , and that [I]_0-i had to give [my]_0-i hand in marriage to [[Herbert]_265-herbert 's Clara]_{2567-herbert 's clara} , or play Hamlet to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's Ghost , before [twenty thousand people]_{2568-twenty thousand people} , without knowing twenty words of it . Chapter XXXII One day when [I]_0-i was busy with [my]_0-i books and [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i received a note by the post , the mere outside of which threw [me]_0-i into a great flutter ; for , though [I]_0-i had never seen the handwriting in which it was addressed , [I]_0-i divined whose hand it was . It had no set beginning , as [Dear Mr. Pip]_241-pip , or [Dear Pip]_241-pip , or [Dear Sir]_{2569-dear sir} , or [Dear Anything]_{2570-dear anything} , but ran thus : - " [I]_2571-i am to come to [London]_8-london the day after to - morrow by [the midday coach]_{2430-the midday coach} . [I]_2571-i believe it was settled [you]_2571-i should meet [me]_2571-i ? At all events [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} has that impression , and [I]_2571-i write in obedience to it . [She]_{223-miss havisham} sends [you]_2571-i [her]_{223-miss havisham} regard . "_[2571-i] [Yours]_2571-i , [ESTELLA]_195-estella . " If there had been time , [I]_195-estella should probably have ordered several suits of clothes for this occasion ; but as there was not , [I]_195-estella was fain to be content with those [I]_195-estella had . [My]_195-estella appetite vanished instantly , and [I]_195-estella knew no peace or rest until the day arrived . Not that its arrival brought [me]_195-estella either ; for , then [I]_195-estella was worse than ever , and began haunting [the coach - office in [Wood Street]_{26-wood street}]_{6465-the coach - office in wood street} , [Cheapside]_27-cheapside , before [the coach]_{4925-the coach} had left [the Blue Boar in [[our]_6468-our town]_{5493-our town}]_{6467-the blue boar in our town} . For all that [I]_195-estella knew this perfectly well , [I]_195-estella still felt as if it were not safe to let [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} be out of [my]_195-estella sight longer than five minutes at a time ; and in this condition of unreason [I]_195-estella had performed the first half - hour of a watch of four or five hours , when [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ran against [me]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} Halloa , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " said [he]_254-wemmick ; "_[241-pip] how do [you]_241-pip do ? [I]_0-i should hardly have thought this was [your]_241-pip beat . " [I]_241-pip explained that [I]_241-pip was waiting to meet somebody who was coming up by [coach]_5736-coach , and [I]_241-pip inquired after [the Castle]_{54-the castle} and [the Aged]_{293-the aged} . "_[241-pip] Both flourishing thankye , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[293-the aged]} and particularly [the Aged]_{293-the aged} . [He]_{293-the aged} 's in wonderful feather . [He]_{293-the aged} 'll be eighty - two next birthday . [I]_0-i have a notion of firing eighty - two times , if [the neighborhood]_{5023-the neighborhood} should n't complain , and that cannon of [mine]_0-i should prove equal to the pressure . However , this is not [London]_8-london talk . Where do [you]_0-i think [I]_0-i am going to ? " "_[0-i] To [the office]_{5562-the office} ? " said [I]_0-i , for [he]_0-i was tending in that direction . "_[0-i] Next thing to it , " returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am going to [Newgate]_17-newgate . [We]_2574-us are in a banker's - parcel case just at present , and [I]_0-i have been down [the road]_{1325-the road} taking a squint at the scene of action , and thereupon must have a word or two with [[our]_2574-us client]_{2576-our client} . " "_{[2576-our client]} Did [[your]_0-i client]_{2577-your client} commit the robbery ? " [I]_{2576-our client} asked . "_{[2576-our client]} Bless [your]_0-i soul and body , no , " answered [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , very drily . "_{[2576-our client]} But [he]_{2577-your client} is accused of it . So might [you]_0-i or [I]_0-i be . Either of [us]_2574-us might be accused of it , [you]_0-i know . " "_[0-i] Only neither of [us]_2574-us is , " [I]_0-i remarked . "_[0-i] Yah ! " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , touching [me]_0-i on the breast with [his]_254-wemmick forefinger ; "_[0-i] [you]_0-i 're [a deep one]_{2578-a deep one} , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! Would [you]_0-i like to have a look at [Newgate]_17-newgate ? Have [you]_0-i time to spare ? " [I]_0-i had so much time to spare , that the proposal came as a relief , notwithstanding its irreconcilability with [my]_0-i latent desire to keep [my]_0-i eye on [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} . Muttering that [I]_0-i would make the inquiry whether [I]_0-i had time to walk with [him]_254-wemmick , [I]_0-i went into [the office]_{5562-the office} , and ascertained from [the clerk]_{5516-the clerk} with the nicest precision and much to the trying of [his]_254-wemmick temper , the earliest moment at which the coach could be expected , - which [I]_0-i knew beforehand , quite as well as [he]_254-wemmick . [I]_0-i then rejoined [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and affecting to consult [my]_0-i watch , and to be surprised by the information [I]_0-i had received , accepted [his]_254-wemmick offer . [We]_6475-we were at [Newgate]_17-newgate in a few minutes , and [we]_6475-we passed through [the lodge]_{6476-the lodge} where some fetters were hanging up on the bare walls among [the prison rules]_{6477-the prison rules} , into [the interior of [the jail]_{5549-the jail}]_{6478-the interior of the jail} . At that time [jails]_6480-jails were much neglected , and the period of exaggerated reaction consequent on all public wrongdoing - and which is always its heaviest and longest punishment - was still far off . So [felons]_6481-felons were not lodged and fed better than [soldiers]_{4611-soldiers} , to say nothing of [paupers]_6483-paupers , and seldom set fire to [[their]_6483-paupers prisons]_{6484-their prisons} with the excusable object of improving the flavor of [their]_6483-paupers soup . It was visiting time when [Wemmick]_254-wemmick took [me]_0-i in , and [a potman]_{6485-a potman} was going [his]_{6485-a potman} rounds with beer ; and [the prisoners]_{4691-the prisoners} , behind bars in [yards]_6487-yards , were buying beer , and talking to [friends]_4514-friends ; and [a frowzy , ugly , disorderly , depressing scene]_{6489-a frowzy , ugly , disorderly , depressing scene} it was . It struck [me]_0-i that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick walked among [the prisoners]_{4691-the prisoners} much as [a gardener]_{6491-a gardener} might walk among [his]_{6491-a gardener} plants . This was first put into [my]_0-i head by [his]_254-wemmick seeing a shoot that had come up in the night , and saying , "_[0-i] What , [Captain Tom]_209-tom ? Are [you]_209-tom there ? Ah , indeed ! " and also , "_[209-tom] Is that Black Bill behind the cistern ? Why [I]_0-i did n't look for [you]_209-tom these two months ; how do [you]_209-tom find [yourself]_209-tom ? " Equally in [his]_254-wemmick stopping at [the bars]_{6492-the bars} and attending to [anxious whisperers]_{6493-anxious whisperers} , - always singly , - [Wemmick]_254-wemmick with [[his]_254-wemmick post - office]_{6494-his post - office} in an immovable state , looked at [them]_{6493-anxious whisperers} while in conference , as if [he]_254-wemmick were taking particular notice of the advance [they]_{6493-anxious whisperers} had made , since last observed , towards coming out in full blow at [their]_{6493-anxious whisperers} trial . [He]_254-wemmick was highly popular , and [I]_0-i found that [he]_254-wemmick took the familiar department of [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's business]_{6495-mr. jaggers 's business} ; though something of the state of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} hung about [him]_254-wemmick too , forbidding approach beyond certain limits . [His]_254-wemmick personal recognition of [each successive client]_{6496-each successive client} was comprised in a nod , and in [his]_254-wemmick settling [his]_254-wemmick hat a little easier on [his]_254-wemmick head with both hands , and then tightening the post - office , and putting [his]_254-wemmick hands in [his]_254-wemmick pockets . In one or two instances there was a difficulty respecting the raising of fees , and then [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , backing as far as possible from the insufficient money produced , said , "_[0-i] it 's no use , [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} . [I]_0-i 'm only [a subordinate]_{2580-a subordinate} . [I]_0-i ca n't take it . Do n't go on in that way with [a subordinate]_{2580-a subordinate} . If [you]_{4554-my boy} are unable to make up [your]_{4554-my boy} quantum , [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} , [you]_{4554-my boy} had better address [yourself]_{4554-my boy} to [a principal]_{2583-a principal} ; there are plenty of [principals in the profession]_{2584-principals in the profession} , [you]_{4554-my boy} know , and what is not worth the while of one , may be worth the while of another ; that 's [my]_0-i recommendation to [you]_{4554-my boy} , speaking as [a subordinate]_{2580-a subordinate} . Do n't try on useless measures . Why should [you]_{4554-my boy} ? Now , who 's next ? " Thus , [we]_6497-we walked through [[Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's greenhouse]_{6498-wemmick 's greenhouse} , until [he]_0-i turned to [me]_{2586-the man i shall shake hands with} and said , "_{[2586-the man i shall shake hands with]} Notice [the man [I]_0-i shall shake hands with]_{2586-the man i shall shake hands with} . " [I]_2587-colonel should have done so , without the preparation , as [he]_0-i had shaken hands with [no one]_{4550-no one} yet . Almost as soon as [he]_0-i had spoken , [a portly upright man whom [I]_2587-colonel can see now , as [I]_2587-colonel write in a well - worn olive - colored frock - coat , with a peculiar pallor overspreading the red in [his]_0-i complexion , and eyes that went wandering about when [he]_0-i tried to fix them]_{6500-a portly upright man whom i can see now , as i write in a well - worn olive - colored frock - coat , with a peculiar pallor overspreading the red in his complexion , and eyes that went wandering about when he tried to fix them} , came up to a corner of the bars , and put [his]_0-i hand to [his]_0-i hat - which had a greasy and fatty surface like cold broth - with a half - serious and half - jocose military salute . "_{[2587-colonel]} [Colonel]_2587-colonel , to [you]_2587-colonel ! " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; "_{[2587-colonel]} how are [you]_2587-colonel , [Colonel]_320-colonel ? " "_{[320-colonel]} All right , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " "_{[254-wemmick]} Everything was done that could be done , but the evidence was too strong for [us]_2588-us , [Colonel]_320-colonel . " "_{[320-colonel]} Yes , it was too strong , [sir]_4451-sir , - but [I]_0-i do n't care . " "_[0-i] No , no , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , coolly , "_{[2587-colonel]} [you]_2587-colonel do n't care . " Then , turning to [me]_2587-colonel , "_{[2587-colonel]} Served [[His]_2590-his Majesty]_{4627-his majesty} [this man]_{581-this man} . Was [a soldier in the line]_{2593-a soldier in the line} and bought [his]_{581-this man} discharge . " [I]_2587-colonel said , "_{[2587-colonel]} Indeed ? " and [the man]_{433-the man} 's eyes looked at [me]_0-i , and then looked over [my]_0-i head , and then looked all round [me]_0-i , and then [he]_{433-the man} drew [his]_{433-the man} hand across [his]_{433-the man} lips and laughed . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i shall be out of this on Monday , [sir]_4451-sir , " [he]_{433-the man} said to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] Perhaps , " returned [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} , "_[0-i] but there 's no knowing . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am glad to have the chance of bidding [you]_4451-sir good by , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " said [the man]_{433-the man} , stretching out [his]_{433-the man} hand between two bars . "_{[254-wemmick]} [Thankye]_321-thankye , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , shaking hands with [him]_{433-the man} . "_{[321-thankye]} Same to [you]_4451-sir , [Colonel]_320-colonel . " "_{[320-colonel]} If what [I]_0-i had upon [me]_0-i when taken had been real , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " said [the man]_{433-the man} , unwilling to let [his]_{433-the man} hand go , "_{[254-wemmick]} [I]_0-i should have asked the favor of [your]_4451-sir wearing another ring - in acknowledgment of [your]_4451-sir attentions . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll accept the will for the deed , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[0-i] By the by ; [you]_0-i were quite [a pigeon - fancier]_{2595-a pigeon - fancier} . " [The man]_{433-the man} looked up at the sky . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am told [you]_4451-sir had a remarkable breed of tumblers . Could [you]_4451-sir commission [any friend of yours]_{2596-any friend of yours} to bring [me]_0-i a pair , of [you]_4451-sir 've no further use for 'em ? " "_[4451-sir] It shall be done , [sir]_4451-sir ? " "_[4451-sir] All right , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[4451-sir] [they]_2598-they shall be taken care of . Good afternoon , [Colonel]_2587-colonel . [Good by]_{2600-good by} ! " [They]_2598-they shook hands again , and as [we]_254-wemmick walked away [Wemmick]_254-wemmick said to [me]_{2601-a coiner} , "_{[2601-a coiner]} [A Coiner]_{2601-a coiner} , [a very good workman]_{2602-a very good workman} . [The Recorder]_{2603-the recorder} 's report is made to - day , and [he]_{2601-a coiner} is sure to be executed on Monday . Still [you]_4451-sir see , as far as it goes , a pair of pigeons are portable property all the same . " With that , [he]_254-wemmick looked back , and nodded at this dead plant , and then cast [his]_254-wemmick eyes about [him]_254-wemmick in walking out of [the yard]_{717-the yard} , as if [he]_254-wemmick were considering what other pot would go best in its place . As [we]_254-wemmick came out of [the prison]_{1544-the prison} through [the lodge]_{6476-the lodge} , [I]_254-wemmick found that the great importance of [[my]_254-wemmick guardian]_{1805-my guardian} was appreciated by [the turnkeys]_{6510-the turnkeys} , no less than by [those whom [they]_{6510-the turnkeys} held in charge]_{6511-those whom they held in charge} . "_{[254-wemmick]} Well , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " said [the turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} , who kept [us]_254-wemmick between [the two studded and spiked lodge]_{6513-the two studded and spiked lodge} gates , and who carefully locked one before [he]_{6512-the turnkey} unlocked the other , "_{[254-wemmick]} what 's [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} going to do with that water - side murder ? Is [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} going to make it manslaughter , or what 's [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} going to make of it ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Why do n't [you]_254-wemmick ask [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? " returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[254-wemmick]} O yes , [I]_0-i dare say ! " said [the turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} . "_{[254-wemmick]} Now , that 's the way with [them]_2604-them here , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " remarked [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , turning to [me]_241-pip with [his]_254-wemmick post - office elongated . "_[241-pip] [They]_2604-them do n't mind what [they]_2604-them ask of [me]_0-i , [the subordinate]_{2605-the subordinate} ; but [you]_241-pip 'll never catch ['em]_2606-'em asking any questions of [[my]_0-i principal]_{2607-my principal} . " "_[2606-'em] Is [this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of [[your]_254-wemmick office]_{2609-your office}]_{2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office} ? " asked [the turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} , with a grin at [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's humor . "_{[2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office]} There [he]_{2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office} goes again , [you]_241-pip see ! " cried [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office]} [I]_0-i told [you]_241-pip so ! Asks another question of [the subordinate]_{2605-the subordinate} before [his]_{2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office} first is dry ! Well , supposing [Mr. Pip]_241-pip is one of [them]_2604-them ? " "_[241-pip] Why then , " said [the turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} , grinning again , "_{[2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office]} [he]_{2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office} knows what [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Yah ! " cried [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , suddenly hitting out at [the turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} in a facetious way , "_{[2608-this young gentleman one of the ' prentices or articled ones of your office]} [you]_241-pip 're dumb as one of [your]_241-pip own keys when [you]_241-pip have to do with [[my]_0-i principal]_{2607-my principal} , [you]_241-pip know [you]_241-pip are . Let [us]_2612-us out , [[you]_241-pip old fox]_{2613-you old fox} , or [I]_0-i 'll get [him]_{2607-my principal} to bring an action against [you]_241-pip for false imprisonment . " [The turnkey]_{6512-the turnkey} laughed , and gave [us]_2612-us good day , and stood laughing at [us]_2612-us over the spikes of [the wicket]_{6519-the wicket} when [we]_2612-us descended the steps into [the street]_{4824-the street} . "_{[2607-my principal]} Mind [you]_241-pip , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , gravely in [my]_241-pip ear , as [he]_254-wemmick took [my]_241-pip arm to be more confidential ; "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i do n't know that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} does a better thing than the way in which [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} keeps [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} so high . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's always so high . [His]_{237-mr. jaggers} constant height is of a piece with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} immense abilities . That [Colonel durst]_320-colonel no more take leave of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , than [that turnkey durst]_{2614-that turnkey durst} ask [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} intentions respecting a case . Then , between [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} height and [them]_2615-them , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} slips in [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} subordinate]_{2616-his subordinate} , - do n't [you]_2617-you see ? - and so [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} has 'em , soul and body . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} was very much impressed , and not for the first time , by [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's subtlety . To confess the truth , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} very heartily wished , and not for the first time , that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had had [some other guardian of minor abilities]_{6522-some other guardian of minor abilities} . [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} parted at [the office in [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , where suppliants for [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's notice]_{6523-the office in little britain , where suppliants for mr. jaggers 's notice} were lingering about as usual , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} returned to [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} watch in [the street of [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office}]_{6524-the street of the coach - office} , with some three hours on hand . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} consumed the whole time in thinking how strange it was that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} should be encompassed by all this taint of prison and crime ; that , in [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} childhood out on [[our]_6526-our lonely marshes]_{6527-our lonely marshes} on a winter evening , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} should have first encountered it ; that , it should have reappeared on two occasions , starting out like a stain that was faded but not gone ; that , it should in this new way pervade [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} fortune and advancement . While [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} mind was thus engaged , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought of the beautiful young [Estella]_195-estella , proud and refined , coming towards [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought with absolute abhorrence of the contrast between [the jail]_{5549-the jail} and [her]_195-estella . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} wished that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had not met [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , or that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had not yielded to [him]_254-wemmick and gone with [him]_254-wemmick , so that , of all days in the year on this day , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} might not have had [Newgate]_17-newgate in [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} breath and on [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} clothes . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} beat the prison dust off [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} feet as [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} sauntered to and fro , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} shook it out of [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} dress , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} exhaled its air from [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} lungs . So contaminated did [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} feel , remembering who was coming , that [the coach]_{4925-the coach} came quickly after all , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} was not yet free from the soiling consciousness of [[Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's conservatory]_{6530-mr. wemmick 's conservatory} , when [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw [her]_6531-her face at the coach window and [her]_6531-her hand waving to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} . What was the nameless shadow which again in that one instant had passed ? Chapter XXXIII In [her]_6531-her furred travelling - dress , [Estella]_195-estella seemed more delicately beautiful than [she]_6531-her had ever seemed yet , even in [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes . [Her]_6531-her manner was more winning than [she]_6531-her had cared to let it be to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} before , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's influence in the change . [We]_6532-we stood in [the Inn Yard]_{6533-the inn yard} while [she]_6531-her pointed out [her]_6531-her luggage to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and when it was all collected [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} remembered - having forgotten everything but [herself]_6531-her in the meanwhile - that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} knew nothing of [her]_6531-her destination . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i am going to [Richmond]_72-richmond , " [she]_6531-her told [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [Our]_2618-our lesson is , that there are two [Richmonds]_73-richmonds , one in [Surrey]_74-surrey and one in [Yorkshire]_75-yorkshire , and that mine is the [Surrey Richmond]_{76-surrey richmond} . The distance is ten miles . [I]_0-i am to have [a carriage]_{2619-a carriage} , and [you]_2620-i are to take [me]_0-i . This is [my]_0-i purse , and [you]_2620-i are to pay [my]_0-i charges out of it . O , [you]_2620-i must take the purse ! [We]_2618-our have no choice , [you]_2620-i and [I]_0-i , but to obey [our]_2618-our instructions . [We]_2618-our are not free to follow [our]_2618-our own devices , [you]_2620-i and [I.]_0-i " As [she]_195-estella looked at [me]_0-i in giving [me]_0-i the purse , [I]_0-i hoped there was an inner meaning in [her]_195-estella words . [She]_195-estella said them slightingly , but not with displeasure . "_[0-i] [A carriage]_{2619-a carriage} will have to be sent for , [Estella]_195-estella . Will [you]_195-estella rest [here]_693-here a little ? " "_{[195-estella]} Yes , [I]_0-i am to rest here a little , and [I]_0-i am to drink some tea , and [you]_2620-i are to take care of [me]_0-i the while . " [She]_195-estella drew [her]_195-estella arm through [mine]_0-i , as if it must be done , and [I]_2620-i requested [a waiter who had been staring at [the coach]_{4925-the coach} like [a man who had never seen such a thing in [his]_{6536-a man who had never seen such a thing in his life} life]_{6536-a man who had never seen such a thing in his life} , to show [us]_6537-us [a private sitting - room]_{6538-a private sitting - room}]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} . Upon that , [he]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} pulled out a napkin , as if it were a magic clew without which [he]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} could n't find the way up [stairs]_539-stairs , and led [us]_6537-us to [the black hole of [the establishment]_{6541-the establishment}]_{6540-the black hole of the establishment} , fitted up with a diminishing mirror quite a superfluous article , considering the hole 's proportions , an anchovy sauce - cruet , and [somebody]_591-somebody 's pattens . On [my]_2620-i objecting to this retreat , [he]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} took [us]_6537-us into [another room]_{6543-another room} with a dinner - table for thirty , and in the grate a scorched leaf of a copy - book under a bushel of coal - dust . Having looked at this extinct conflagration and shaken [his]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} head , [he]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} took [my]_2620-i order ; which , proving to be merely , "_[2620-i] Some tea for [the lady]_{5934-the lady} , " sent [him]_{6534-a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life , to show us a private sitting - room} out of [the room]_{633-the room} in a very low state of mind . [I]_2620-i was , and [I]_2620-i am , sensible that the air of [this chamber]_{6545-this chamber} , in [its]_{6545-this chamber} strong combination of stable with soup - stock , might have led [one]_5055-one to infer that [the coaching department]_{6547-the coaching department} was not doing well , and that [the enterprising proprietor]_{6548-the enterprising proprietor} was boiling down the horses for the refreshment department . Yet [the room]_{633-the room} was all in all to [me]_2620-i , [Estella]_195-estella being in [it]_{633-the room} . [I]_2620-i thought that with [her]_195-estella [I]_2620-i could have been happy [there]_4505-there for life . [I]_2620-i was not at all happy [there]_4505-there at the time , observe , and [I]_2620-i knew it well . "_[2620-i] Where are [you]_2624-you going to , at [Richmond]_72-richmond ? " [I]_2624-you asked [Estella]_195-estella . "_[2624-you] [I]_0-i am going to live , " said [she]_195-estella , "_{[2625-a lady there]} at a great expense , with [a lady there]_{2625-a lady there} , who has the power - or says [she]_{2625-a lady there} has - of taking [me]_0-i about , and introducing [me]_0-i , and showing [people]_4539-people to [me]_0-i and showing [me]_0-i to [people]_4539-people . " "_{[2625-a lady there]} [I]_0-i suppose [you]_2624-you will be glad of variety and admiration ? " "_[2624-you] Yes , [I]_0-i suppose so . " [She]_195-estella answered so carelessly , that [I]_2624-you said , "_[2624-you] [You]_2624-you speak of [yourself]_2624-you as if [you]_2624-you were [some one else]_{2628-some one else} . " "_[2624-you] Where did [you]_2624-you learn how [I]_0-i speak of [others]_5129-others ? Come , come , " said [Estella]_195-estella , smiling delightfully , "_[2624-you] [you]_2624-you must not expect [me]_0-i to go to school to [you]_2624-you ; [I]_0-i must talk in [my]_0-i own way . How do [you]_2624-you thrive with [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert ? " "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i live quite pleasantly [there]_4505-there ; at least - " It appeared to [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i was losing a chance . "_[0-i] At least ? " repeated [Estella]_195-estella . "_[0-i] As pleasantly as [I]_0-i could anywhere , away from [you]_2624-you . " "_[0-i] [[You]_2624-you silly boy]_{2631-you silly boy} , " said [Estella]_195-estella , quite composedly , "_[0-i] how can [you]_2624-you talk such nonsense ? [[Your]_2624-you friend]_{2276-your friend} [Mr. Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} , [I]_0-i believe , is superior to [the rest of [[his]_{211-mr. pocket} family]_{5301-his family}]_{2633-the rest of his family} ? " "_{[211-mr. pocket]} Very superior indeed . [He]_{2276-your friend} is [[nobody]_4527-nobody 's enemy]_{5001-nobody 's enemy} - " - "_{[2276-your friend]} Do n't add but [his]_{2276-your friend} own , " interposed [Estella]_195-estella , "_{[2276-your friend]} for [I]_0-i hate [that class of man]_{2637-that class of man} . But [he]_{2276-your friend} really is disinterested , and above small jealousy and spite , [I]_0-i have heard ? " "_{[2276-your friend]} [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i have every reason to say so . " "_[0-i] [You]_2624-you have not every reason to say so of [the rest of [[his]_{2276-your friend} people]_{2639-his people}]_{2638-the rest of his people} , " said [Estella]_195-estella , nodding at [me]_2624-you with an expression of face that was at once grave and rallying , "_[2624-you] for [they]_{2639-his people} beset [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} with reports and insinuations to [your]_2624-you disadvantage . [They]_{2639-his people} watch [you]_2624-you , misrepresent [you]_2624-you , write letters about [you]_2624-you anonymous sometimes , and [you]_2624-you are the torment and the occupation of [their]_{2639-his people} lives . [You]_2624-you can scarcely realize to [yourself]_2624-you the hatred [those people]_{2640-those people} feel for [you]_2624-you . " "_{[2640-those people]} [They]_{2640-those people} do [me]_0-i no harm , [I]_0-i hope ? " Instead of answering , [Estella]_195-estella burst out laughing . This was very singular to [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i looked at [her]_195-estella in considerable perplexity . When [she]_195-estella left off - and [she]_195-estella had not laughed languidly , but with real enjoyment - [I]_0-i said , in [my]_0-i diffident way with [her]_195-estella , - "_[0-i] [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i may suppose that [you]_0-i would not be amused if [they]_{2640-those people} did [me]_0-i any harm . " "_[2624-you] No , no [you]_2624-you may be sure of that , " said [Estella]_195-estella . "_[2624-you] [You]_2624-you may be certain that [I]_0-i laugh because [they]_{2640-those people} fail . O , [those people with [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham}]_{2641-those people with miss havisham} , and the tortures [they]_{2640-those people} undergo ! " [She]_195-estella laughed again , and even now when [she]_195-estella had told [me]_2624-you why , [her]_195-estella laughter was very singular to [me]_2624-you , for [I]_2624-you could not doubt its being genuine , and yet it seemed too much for the occasion . [I]_2624-you thought there must really be something more here than [I]_2624-you knew ; [she]_195-estella saw the thought in [my]_2624-you mind , and answered it . "_[2624-you] It is not easy for even [you]_2624-you . " said [Estella]_195-estella , "_[2624-you] to know what satisfaction it gives [me]_0-i to see [those people]_{2640-those people} thwarted , or what an enjoyable sense of the ridiculous [I]_0-i have when [they]_{2640-those people} are made ridiculous . For [you]_2624-you were not brought up in [that strange house]_{2643-that strange house} from [a mere baby]_{2644-a mere baby} . [I]_0-i was . [You]_2624-you had not [your]_2624-you little wits sharpened by [their]_{2640-those people} intriguing against [you]_2624-you , suppressed and defenceless , under the mask of sympathy and pity and what not that is soft and soothing . [I]_0-i had . [You]_2624-you did not gradually open [your]_2624-you round childish eyes wider and wider to the discovery of [that impostor of [a woman who calculates [her]_{2646-a woman who calculates her stores of peace of mind for when she wakes up in the night} stores of peace of mind for when [she]_{2646-a woman who calculates her stores of peace of mind for when she wakes up in the night} wakes up in the night]_{2646-a woman who calculates her stores of peace of mind for when she wakes up in the night}]_{2645-that impostor of a woman who calculates her stores of peace of mind for when she wakes up in the night} . [I]_0-i did . " It was no laughing matter with [Estella]_195-estella now , nor was [she]_195-estella summoning these remembrances from any shallow place . [I]_0-i would not have been the cause of that look of [hers]_195-estella for all [my]_0-i expectations in a heap . "_[0-i] Two things [I]_0-i can tell [you]_2624-you , " said [Estella]_195-estella . "_[0-i] First , notwithstanding the proverb that constant dropping will wear away a stone , [you]_2624-you may set [your]_2624-you mind at rest that [these people]_{5982-these people} never will - never would , in hundred years - impair [your]_2624-you ground with [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , in any particular , great or small . Second , [I]_0-i am beholden to [you]_2624-you as the cause of [their]_{5982-these people} being so busy and so mean in vain , and there is [my]_0-i hand upon it . " As [she]_195-estella gave it to [me]_2624-you playfully , - for [her]_195-estella darker mood had been but Momentary , - [I]_2624-you held it and put it to [my]_2624-you lips . "_[2624-you] [[You]_2624-you ridiculous boy]_{2648-you ridiculous boy} , " said [Estella]_195-estella , "_[2624-you] will [you]_2624-you never take warning ? Or do [you]_2624-you kiss [my]_0-i hand in the same spirit in which [I]_0-i once let [you]_2624-you kiss [my]_0-i cheek ? " "_[2624-you] What spirit was that ? " said [I.]_2624-you "_[0-i] [I]_0-i must think a moment . A spirit of contempt for [the fawners]_{2649-the fawners} and [plotters]_{2650-plotters} . " "_[0-i] If [I]_0-i say yes , may [I]_0-i kiss the cheek again ? " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i should have asked before [you]_0-i touched the hand . But , yes , if [you]_0-i like . " [I]_0-i leaned down , and [her]_2624-you calm face was like a statue 's . "_[0-i] Now , " said [Estella]_195-estella , gliding away the instant [I]_2624-you touched [her]_2624-you cheek , "_[2624-you] [you]_2624-you are to take care that [I]_0-i have some tea , and [you]_2624-you are to take [me]_0-i to [Richmond]_72-richmond . " [Her]_2624-you reverting to this tone as if [our]_6552-our association were forced upon [us]_6552-our , and [we]_6552-our were [mere puppets]_{6553-mere puppets} , gave [me]_2624-you pain ; but everything in [our]_6552-our intercourse did give [me]_2624-you pain . Whatever [her]_2624-you tone with [me]_2624-you happened to be , [I]_2624-you could put no trust in it , and build no hope on it ; and yet [I]_2624-you went on against trust and against hope . Why repeat it a thousand times ? So it always was . [I]_2624-you rang for the tea , and [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} , reappearing with [his]_{5696-the waiter} magic clew , brought in by degrees some fifty adjuncts to that refreshment , but of tea not a glimpse . A teaboard , cups and saucers , plates , knives and forks including carvers , spoons various , saltcellars , a meek little muffin confined with the utmost precaution under a strong iron cover , [Moses]_323-moses in the bulrushes typified by a soft bit of butter in a quantity of parsley , a pale loaf with a powdered head , two proof impressions of the bars of the kitchen fireplace on triangular bits of bread , and ultimately a fat family urn ; which [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} staggered in with , expressing in [his]_{5696-the waiter} countenance burden and suffering . After a prolonged absence at this stage of the entertainment , [he]_{5696-the waiter} at length came back with a casket of precious appearance containing twigs . These [I]_2624-you steeped in hot water , and so from the whole of these appliances extracted one cup of [I]_2624-you do n't know what for [Estella]_195-estella . The bill paid , and [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} remembered , and [the ostler]_{6557-the ostler} not forgotten , and [the chambermaid]_{6558-the chambermaid} taken into consideration , - in a word , [the whole house]_{6087-the whole house} bribed into a state of contempt and animosity , and [Estella]_195-estella 's purse much lightened , - [we]_6560-we got into [[our]_6560-we post - coach]_{6561-our post - coach} and drove away . Turning into [Cheapside]_27-cheapside and rattling up [Newgate Street]_{77-newgate street} , [we]_6560-we were soon under the walls of which [I]_2624-you was so ashamed . "_[2624-you] What place is that ? " [Estella]_195-estella asked [me]_2624-you . [I]_2624-you made a foolish pretence of not at first recognizing it , and then told [her]_195-estella . As [she]_195-estella looked at it , and drew in [her]_195-estella head again , murmuring , "_[2624-you] Wretches ! " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} would not have confessed to [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} visit for any consideration . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " said [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} , by way of putting it neatly on [somebody else]_{5003-somebody else} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} has the reputation of being more in the secrets of [that dismal place]_{2651-that dismal place} than [any man in [London]_8-london]_{2652-any man in london} . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} is more in the secrets of [every place]_{2653-every place} , [I]_0-i think , " said [Estella]_195-estella , in a low voice . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i have been accustomed to see [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} often , [I]_0-i suppose ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have been accustomed to see [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} at uncertain intervals , ever since [I]_0-i can remember . But [I]_0-i know [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} no better now , than [I]_0-i did before [I]_0-i could speak plainly . What is [your]_0-i own experience of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? Do [you]_0-i advance with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? " "_[0-i] Once habituated to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} distrustful manner , " said [I]_0-i , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have done very well . " "_[0-i] Are [you]_0-i intimate ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have dined with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} at [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} private house]_{2654-his private house} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i fancy , " said [Estella]_195-estella , shrinking "_[0-i] that must be [a curious place]_{2655-a curious place} . " "_[0-i] [It]_{2655-a curious place} is [a curious place]_{2655-a curious place} . " [I]_0-i should have been chary of discussing [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} too freely even with [her]_195-estella ; but [I]_0-i should have gone on with the subject so far as to describe the dinner in [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} , if [we]_6564-we had not then come into a sudden glare of gas . It seemed , while it lasted , to be all alight and alive with that inexplicable feeling [I]_0-i had had before ; and when [we]_6564-we were out of it , [I]_0-i was as much dazed for a few moments as if [I]_0-i had been in lightning . So [we]_6564-we fell into other talk , and it was principally about the way by which [we]_6564-we were travelling , and about what parts of [London]_8-london lay on this side of it , and what on that . [The great city]_{6565-the great city} was almost new to [her]_195-estella , [she]_195-estella told [me]_0-i , for [she]_195-estella had never left [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's neighborhood]_{6566-miss havisham 's neighborhood} until [she]_195-estella had gone to [France]_15-france , and [she]_195-estella had merely passed through [London]_8-london then in going and returning . [I]_0-i asked [her]_195-estella if [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} had any charge of [her]_195-estella while [she]_195-estella remained [here]_693-here ? To that [she]_195-estella emphatically said "_[0-i] God forbid ! " and no more . It was impossible for [me]_0-i to avoid seeing that [she]_195-estella cared to attract [me]_0-i ; that [she]_195-estella made [herself]_195-estella winning , and would have won [me]_0-i even if the task had needed pains . Yet this made [me]_0-i none the happier , for even if [she]_195-estella had not taken that tone of [our]_6569-our being disposed of by [others]_5129-others , [I]_0-i should have felt that [she]_195-estella held [my]_0-i heart in [her]_195-estella hand because [she]_195-estella wilfully chose to do it , and not because it would have wrung any tenderness in [her]_195-estella to crush it and throw it away . When [we]_6569-our passed through [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} , [I]_0-i showed [her]_195-estella where [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} lived , and said it was no great way from [Richmond]_72-richmond , and that [I]_0-i hoped [I]_0-i should see [her]_195-estella sometimes . "_[0-i] O yes , [you]_2657-you are to see [me]_0-i ; [you]_2657-you are to come when [you]_2657-you think proper ; [you]_2657-you are to be mentioned to [the family]_{4724-the family} ; indeed [you]_2657-you are already mentioned . " [I]_2659-mother inquired was it a large household [she]_195-estella was going to be [a member of]_{6571-a member of} ? "_{[2659-mother]} No ; there are only two ; [mother]_2659-mother and [daughter]_{2660-daughter} . [The mother]_{2661-the mother} is [a lady of some station]_{2662-a lady of some station} , though not averse to increasing [her]_{2661-the mother} income . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wonder [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} could part with [you]_0-i again so soon . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} It is a part of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's plans for [me]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [Estella]_195-estella , with a sigh , as if [she]_195-estella were tired ; "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i am to write to [her]_{223-miss havisham} constantly and see [her]_{223-miss havisham} regularly and report how [I]_0-i go on , - [I]_0-i and the jewels , - for they are nearly all mine now . " It was the first time [she]_195-estella had ever called [me]_{4982-gentlemen} by [my]_{4982-gentlemen} name . Of course [she]_195-estella did so purposely , and knew that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} should treasure it up . [We]_6572-we came to [Richmond]_72-richmond all too soon , and [[our]_6572-we destination]_{6573-our destination} there was [a house by [the green]_{6575-the green}]_{6574-a house by the green} , - [a staid old house]_{6576-a staid old house} , where hoops and powder and patches , embroidered coats , rolled stockings , ruffles and swords , had had [their]_6577-their court days many a time . Some ancient trees before [the house]_{604-the house} were still cut into fashions as formal and unnatural as the hoops and wigs and stiff skirts ; but [their]_6577-their own allotted places in the great procession of [the dead]_{6579-the dead} were not far off , and [they]_6577-their would soon drop into [them]_6577-their and go the silent way of the rest . A bell with an old voice - which [I]_{4982-gentlemen} dare say in [its]_{604-the house} time had often said to [the house]_{604-the house} , Here is the green farthingale , Here is the diamond - hilted sword , Here are the shoes with red heels and the blue solitaire - sounded gravely in the moonlight , and [two cherry - colored maids]_{6581-two cherry - colored maids} came fluttering out to receive [Estella]_195-estella . [The doorway]_{6582-the doorway} soon absorbed [her]_195-estella boxes , and [she]_195-estella gave [me]_{4982-gentlemen} [her]_195-estella hand and a smile , and said good night , and was absorbed likewise . And still [I]_{4982-gentlemen} stood looking at [the house]_{604-the house} , thinking how happy [I]_{4982-gentlemen} should be if [I]_{4982-gentlemen} lived [there]_4505-there with [her]_195-estella , and knowing that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} never was happy with [her]_195-estella , but always miserable . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} got into [the carriage]_{6585-the carriage} to be taken back to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} , and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} got in with a bad heart - ache , and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} got out with a worse heart - ache . At [our]_6586-our own door , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} found little [Jane Pocket]_{324-jane pocket} coming [home]_4495-home from a little party escorted by [[her]_{324-jane pocket} little lover]_{6588-her little lover} ; and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} envied [[her]_{324-jane pocket} little lover]_{6588-her little lover} , in spite of [his]_{6588-her little lover} being subject to [Flopson]_271-flopson . [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} was out lecturing ; for , [he]_{211-mr. pocket} was [a most delightful lecturer on domestic economy]_{6590-a most delightful lecturer on domestic economy} , and [his]_{211-mr. pocket} treatises on the management of [children]_{1036-children} and [servants]_{6592-servants} were considered the very best text - books on those themes . But [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} was at [home]_4495-home , and was in a little difficulty , on account of [the baby]_{5761-the baby} 's having been accommodated with a needle - case to keep [him]_{5761-the baby} quiet during the unaccountable absence with [a relative in the Foot Guards of Millers]_{6595-a relative in the foot guards of millers} . And more needles were missing than it could be regarded as quite wholesome for [a patient of such tender years either to apply externally or to take as a tonic]_{6596-a patient of such tender years either to apply externally or to take as a tonic} . [Mr. Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} being justly celebrated for giving most excellent practical advice , and for having a clear and sound perception of things and a highly judicious mind , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had some notion in [my]_{4982-gentlemen} heart - ache of begging [him]_{5761-the baby} to accept [my]_{4982-gentlemen} confidence . But happening to look up at [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} as [she]_{268-mrs. pocket} sat reading [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} book of dignities after prescribing Bed as a sovereign remedy for [baby]_5762-baby , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} thought - Well - No , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} would n't . Chapter XXXIV As [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had grown accustomed to [my]_{4982-gentlemen} expectations , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had insensibly begun to notice their effect upon [myself]_{4982-gentlemen} and [those around [me]_{4982-gentlemen}]_{6598-those around me} . [Their]_6599-their influence on [my]_{4982-gentlemen} own character [I]_{4982-gentlemen} disguised from [my]_{4982-gentlemen} recognition as much as possible , but [I]_{4982-gentlemen} knew very well that it was not all good . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} lived in a state of chronic uneasiness respecting [my]_{4982-gentlemen} behavior to [Joe]_154-joe . [My]_{4982-gentlemen} conscience was not by any means comfortable about [Biddy]_188-biddy . When [I]_{4982-gentlemen} woke up in the night , - like [Camilla]_{214-mrs. camilla} , - [I]_{4982-gentlemen} used to think , with a weariness on [my]_{4982-gentlemen} spirits , that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} should have been happier and better if [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had never seen [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's face , and had risen to manhood content to be partners with [Joe]_154-joe in the honest old forge . Many a time of an evening , when [I]_{4982-gentlemen} sat alone looking at the fire , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} thought , after all there was no fire like the forge fire and the kitchen fire at [home]_4495-home . Yet [Estella]_195-estella was so inseparable from all [my]_{4982-gentlemen} restlessness and disquiet of mind , that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} really fell into confusion as to the limits of [my]_{4982-gentlemen} own part in its production . That is to say , supposing [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had had no expectations , and yet had had [Estella]_195-estella to think of , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} could not make out to [my]_{4982-gentlemen} satisfaction that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} should have done much better . Now , concerning the influence of [my]_{4982-gentlemen} position on [others]_5129-others , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was in no such difficulty , and so [I]_{4982-gentlemen} perceived - though dimly enough perhaps - that it was not beneficial to [anybody]_4526-anybody , and , above all , that it was not beneficial to [Herbert]_265-herbert . [My]_{4982-gentlemen} lavish habits led [his]_265-herbert easy nature into expenses that [he]_265-herbert could not afford , corrupted the simplicity of [his]_265-herbert life , and disturbed [his]_265-herbert peace with anxieties and regrets . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was not at all remorseful for having unwittingly set those other branches of [the Pocket family]_{6603-the pocket family} to the poor arts [they]_{6603-the pocket family} practised ; because such littlenesses were [their]_{6603-the pocket family} natural bent , and would have been evoked by [anybody else]_{5842-anybody else} , if [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had left [them]_{6603-the pocket family} slumbering . But [Herbert]_265-herbert 's was a very different case , and it often caused [me]_{4982-gentlemen} a twinge to think that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had done [him]_265-herbert evil service in crowding [[his]_265-herbert sparely furnished chambers]_{6605-his sparely furnished chambers} with incongruous upholstery work , and placing [the Canary - breasted Avenger]_{6606-the canary - breasted avenger} at [his]_265-herbert disposal . So now , as an infallible way of making little ease great ease , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} began to contract a quantity of debt . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} could hardly begin but [Herbert]_265-herbert must begin too , so [he]_265-herbert soon followed . At [Startop]_276-startop 's suggestion , [we]_6607-we put [ourselves]_6607-we down for election into [a club called [The Finches of the Grove]_{6609-the finches of the grove}]_{6608-a club called the finches of the grove} : the object of which institution [I]_{4982-gentlemen} have never divined , if it were not that [the members]_{6610-the members} should dine expensively once a fortnight , to quarrel among [themselves]_{6610-the members} as much as possible after dinner , and to cause [six waiters]_{6611-six waiters} to get drunk on the stairs . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} know that these gratifying social ends were so invariably accomplished , that [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} understood nothing else to be referred to in the first standing toast of [the society]_{6612-the society} : which ran "_{[4982-gentlemen]} [Gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , may the present promotion of good feeling ever reign predominant among [the Finches of [the Grove]_{78-the grove}]_{6609-the finches of the grove} . " [The Finches]_{325-the finches} spent [their]_{325-the finches} money foolishly [the Hotel [we]_6607-we dined at]_{6613-the hotel we dined at} was in [Covent Garden]_{79-covent garden} , and the first Finch [I]_{4982-gentlemen} saw when [I]_{4982-gentlemen} had the honor of joining [the Grove]_{78-the grove} was [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle , at that time floundering about [town]_4800-town in [a cab of [his]_6616-his own]_{6615-a cab of his own} , and doing a great deal of damage to the posts at [the street corners]_{6617-the street corners} . Occasionally , [he]_6616-his shot [himself]_6616-his out of [his]_6616-his equipage headforemost over the apron ; and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} saw [him]_6616-his on one occasion deliver [himself]_6616-his at the door of [the Grove]_{6618-the grove} in this unintentional way - like coals . But here [I]_{4982-gentlemen} anticipate a little , for [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was not [a Finch]_{6619-a finch} , and could not be , according to the sacred laws of [the society]_{6612-the society} , until [I]_{4982-gentlemen} came of age . In [my]_{4982-gentlemen} confidence in [my]_{4982-gentlemen} own resources , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} would willingly have taken [Herbert]_265-herbert 's expenses on [myself]_{4982-gentlemen} ; but [Herbert]_265-herbert was proud , and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} could make no such proposal to [him]_265-herbert . So [he]_265-herbert got into difficulties in every direction , and continued to look about [him]_265-herbert . When [we]_6621-we gradually fell into keeping late hours and late company , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} noticed that [he]_265-herbert looked about [him]_265-herbert with a desponding eye at breakfast - time ; that [he]_265-herbert began to look about [him]_265-herbert more hopefully about mid - day ; that [he]_265-herbert drooped when [he]_265-herbert came into dinner ; that [he]_265-herbert seemed to descry Capital in the distance , rather clearly , after dinner ; that [he]_265-herbert all but realized Capital towards midnight ; and that at about two o'clock in the morning , [he]_265-herbert became so deeply despondent again as to talk of buying a rifle and going to [America]_80-america , with a general purpose of compelling buffaloes to make [his]_265-herbert fortune . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was usually at [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} about half the week , and when [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was at [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} [I]_{4982-gentlemen} haunted [Richmond]_72-richmond , whereof separately by and by . [Herbert]_265-herbert would often come to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} when [I]_{4982-gentlemen} was [there]_4505-there , and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} think at those seasons [[his]_265-herbert father]_{5627-his father} would occasionally have some passing perception that the opening [he]_265-herbert was looking for , had not appeared yet . But in the general tumbling up of [the family]_{4724-the family} , [his]_265-herbert tumbling out in life somewhere , was a thing to transact itself somehow . In the meantime [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert grew grayer , and tried oftener to lift [himself]_265-herbert out of [his]_265-herbert perplexities by the hair . While [Mrs. Pocket]_{268-mrs. pocket} tripped up [the family]_{4724-the family} with [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} footstool , read [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} book of dignities , lost [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} pocket - handkerchief , told [us]_6626-we about [[her]_{268-mrs. pocket} grandpapa]_{5835-her grandpapa} , and taught [the young idea]_{6628-the young idea} how to shoot , by shooting it into bed whenever it attracted [her]_{268-mrs. pocket} notice . As [I]_{4982-gentlemen} am now generalizing a period of [my]_{4982-gentlemen} life with the object of clearing [my]_{4982-gentlemen} way before [me]_{4982-gentlemen} , [I]_{4982-gentlemen} can scarcely do so better than by at once completing the description of [our]_6626-we usual manners and customs at [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} . [We]_6626-we spent as much money as [we]_6626-we could , and got as little for it as [people]_4539-people could make up [their]_4539-people minds to give [us]_6626-we . [We]_6626-we were always more or less miserable , and most of [our]_6626-we acquaintance were in the same condition . There was a gay fiction among [us]_6626-we that [we]_6626-we were constantly enjoying [ourselves]_6626-we , and a skeleton truth that [we]_6626-we never did . To the best of [my]_{4982-gentlemen} belief , [our]_6626-we case was in the last aspect a rather common one . Every morning , with an air ever new , [Herbert]_265-herbert went into [the City]_{2029-the city} to look about [him]_265-herbert . [I]_{4982-gentlemen} often paid [him]_265-herbert a visit in [the dark back - room in which [he]_265-herbert consorted with an ink - jar]_{6631-the dark back - room in which he consorted with an ink - jar} , a hat - peg , a coal - box , a string - box , an almanac , a desk and stool , and a ruler ; and [I]_{4982-gentlemen} do not remember that [I]_{4982-gentlemen} ever saw [him]_265-herbert do anything else but look about [him]_265-herbert . If [we]_6626-we all did what [we]_6626-we undertake to do , as faithfully as [Herbert]_265-herbert did , [we]_6626-we might live in [a Republic of the Virtues]_{6632-a republic of the virtues} . [He]_265-herbert had nothing else to do , [poor fellow]_{1401-poor fellow} , except at a certain hour of every afternoon to "_{[4982-gentlemen]} go to [Lloyd]_326-lloyd 's " - in observance of a ceremony of seeing [[his]_265-herbert principal]_{6634-his principal} , [I]_326-lloyd think . [He]_265-herbert never did anything else in connection with [Lloyd]_326-lloyd 's that [I]_326-lloyd could find out , except come back again . When [he]_265-herbert felt [his]_265-herbert case unusually serious , and that [he]_265-herbert positively must find an opening , [he]_265-herbert would go on ' Change at a busy time , and walk in and out , in a kind of gloomy country dance figure , among [the assembled magnates]_{6635-the assembled magnates} . "_[326-lloyd] For , " says [Herbert]_265-herbert to [me]_326-lloyd , coming [home]_4495-home to dinner on one of those special occasions , "_[326-lloyd] [I]_0-i find the truth to be , [Handel]_266-handel , that an opening wo n't come to one , but [one]_5055-one must go to it , - so [I]_0-i have been . " If [we]_6637-we had been less attached to [one another]_{4584-one another} , [I]_0-i think [we]_6637-we must have hated [one another]_{4584-one another} regularly every morning . [I]_0-i detested [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} beyond expression at that period of repentance , and could not endure the sight of [the Avenger]_{302-the avenger} 's livery ; which had a more expensive and a less remunerative appearance then than at any other time in the four - and - twenty hours . As [we]_6637-we got more and more into debt , breakfast became a hollower and hollower form , and , being on one occasion at breakfast - time threatened by letter with legal proceedings , "_[0-i] not unwholly unconnected , " as [my]_0-i local paper might put it , "_[0-i] with jewelery , " [I]_0-i went so far as to seize [the Avenger]_{6217-the avenger} by [his]_{6217-the avenger} blue collar and shake [him]_{6217-the avenger} off [his]_{6217-the avenger} feet , - so that [he]_{6217-the avenger} was actually in the air , like a booted Cupid , - for presuming to suppose that [we]_6637-we wanted a roll . At certain times - meaning at uncertain times , for they depended on [our]_6637-we humor - [I]_0-i would say to [Herbert]_265-herbert , as if it were a remarkable discovery , - "_[0-i] [My]_0-i dear [Herbert]_265-herbert , [we]_2666-we are getting on badly . " "_[266-handel] [[My]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , " [Herbert]_265-herbert would say to [me]_266-handel , in all sincerity , if [you]_266-handel will believe [me]_266-handel , those very words were on [my]_266-handel lips , by a strange coincidence . "_[266-handel] " Then , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would respond , " let [us]_2666-we look into out affairs . "_[0-i] [We]_2666-we always derived profound satisfaction from making an appointment for this purpose . [I]_0-i always thought this was business , this was the way to confront the thing , this was the way to take [the foe]_{2668-the foe} by the throat . And [I]_0-i know [Herbert]_265-herbert thought so too . [We]_2666-we ordered something rather special for dinner , with a bottle of something similarly out of the common way , in order that [our]_2666-we minds might be fortified for the occasion , and [we]_2666-we might come well up to the mark . Dinner over , [we]_2666-we produced a bundle of pens , a copious supply of ink , and a goodly show of writing and blotting paper . For there was something very comfortable in having plenty of stationery . [I]_0-i would then take a sheet of paper , and write across the top of it , in a neat hand , the heading , " Memorandum of [Pip]_241-pip 's debts "_[0-i] ; with [Barnard]_260-barnard 's Inn and the date very carefully added . [Herbert]_265-herbert would also take a sheet of paper , and write across it with similar formalities , " Memorandum of [Herbert]_265-herbert 's debts . "_{[265-herbert]} [Each of [us]_2666-we]_{2669-each of us} would then refer to a confused heap of papers at [his]_265-herbert side , which had been thrown into drawers , worn into holes in pockets , half burnt in lighting candles , stuck for weeks into the looking - glass , and otherwise damaged . The sound of [our]_2666-we pens going refreshed [us]_2666-we exceedingly , insomuch that [I]_0-i sometimes found it difficult to distinguish between this edifying business proceeding and actually paying the money . In point of meritorious character , the two things seemed about equal . When [we]_2666-we had written a little while , [I]_0-i would ask [Herbert]_265-herbert how [he]_265-herbert got on ? [Herbert]_265-herbert probably would have been scratching [his]_265-herbert head in a most rueful manner at the sight of [his]_265-herbert accumulating figures . " [They]_6642-they are mounting up , [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert would say ; " upon [my]_265-herbert life , [they]_6642-they are mounting up . "_{[265-herbert]} " Be firm , [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would retort , plying [my]_0-i own pen with great assiduity . " Look the thing in the face . Look into [your]_265-herbert affairs . Stare [them]_6642-they out of countenance . "_[0-i] " So [I]_0-i would , [Handel]_266-handel , only [they]_6642-they are staring [me]_0-i out of countenance . "_[0-i] However , [my]_0-i determined manner would have its effect , and [Herbert]_265-herbert would fall to work again . After a time [he]_265-herbert would give up once more , on the plea that [he]_265-herbert had not got [Cobbs]_327-cobbs 's bill , or [Lobbs]_328-lobbs 's , or [Nobbs]_329-nobbs 's , as the case might be . " Then , [Herbert]_265-herbert , estimate ; estimate it in round numbers , and put it down . "_[329-nobbs] " What [a fellow of resource]_{6643-a fellow of resource} [you]_0-i are ! "_{[594-my friend]} [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} would reply , with admiration . " Really [your]_0-i business powers are very remarkable . "_{[594-my friend]} [I]_0-i thought so too . [I]_0-i established with [myself]_0-i , on these occasions , the reputation of [a first - rate man of business]_{2671-a first - rate man of business} , - prompt , decisive , energetic , clear , cool - headed . When [I]_0-i had got all [my]_0-i responsibilities down upon [my]_0-i list , [I]_0-i compared each with the bill , and ticked it off . [My]_0-i self - approval when [I]_0-i ticked an entry was quite a luxurious sensation . When [I]_0-i had no more ticks to make , [I]_0-i folded all [my]_0-i bills up uniformly , docketed each on the back , and tied the whole into a symmetrical bundle . Then [I]_0-i did the same for [Herbert]_265-herbert who modestly said [he]_265-herbert had not [my]_0-i administrative genius , and felt that [I]_0-i had brought [his]_265-herbert affairs into a focus for [him]_265-herbert . [My]_0-i business habits had one other bright feature , which [I]_0-i called " leaving a Margin . "_[0-i] For example ; supposing [Herbert]_265-herbert 's debts to be one hundred and sixty - four pounds four - and - twopence , [I]_0-i would say , " Leave a margin , and put them down at two hundred . "_[0-i] Or , supposing [my]_0-i own to be four times as much , [I]_0-i would leave a margin , and put them down at seven hundred . [I]_0-i had the highest opinion of the wisdom of this same Margin , but [I]_0-i am bound to acknowledge that on looking back , [I]_0-i deem it to have been an expensive device . For , [we]_2672-we always ran into new debt immediately , to the full extent of the margin , and sometimes , in the sense of freedom and solvency it imparted , got pretty far on into another margin . But there was a calm , a rest , a virtuous hush , consequent on these examinations of [our]_2672-we affairs that gave [me]_0-i , for the time , an admirable opinion of [myself]_0-i . Soothed by [my]_0-i exertions , [my]_0-i method , and [Herbert]_265-herbert 's compliments , [I]_0-i would sit with [his]_265-herbert symmetrical bundle and [my]_0-i own on the table before [me]_0-i among the stationary , and feel like [a Bank of some sort]_{2673-a bank of some sort} , rather than [a private individual]_{2674-a private individual} . [We]_2672-we shut [our]_2672-we outer door on these solemn occasions , in order that [we]_2672-we might not be interrupted . [I]_0-i had fallen into [my]_0-i serene state one evening , when [we]_2672-we heard a letter dropped through the slit in the said door , and fall on the ground . " It 's for [you]_0-i , [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , going out and coming back with it , " and [I]_265-herbert hope there is nothing the matter . "_{[265-herbert]} This was in allusion to its heavy black seal and border . The letter was signed [Trabb Co.]_330-co. , and its contents were simply , that [I]_0-i was [an honored sir]_{2675-an honored sir} , and that [they]_2676-they begged to inform [me]_0-i that [Mrs. J. Gargery]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} had departed this life on Monday last at twenty minutes past six in the evening , and that [my]_0-i attendance was requested at the interment on Monday next at three o'clock in the afternoon . Chapter XXXV It was the first time that a grave had opened in [my]_0-i road of life , and the gap it made in the smooth ground was wonderful . The figure of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} in [her]_{402-my sister} chair by the kitchen fire , haunted [me]_0-i night and day . That [the place]_{4456-the place} could possibly be , without [her]_{402-my sister} , was something [my]_0-i mind seemed unable to compass ; and whereas [she]_{402-my sister} had seldom or never been in [my]_0-i thoughts of late , [I]_0-i had now the strangest ideas that [she]_{402-my sister} was coming towards [me]_0-i in [the street]_{4824-the street} , or that [she]_{402-my sister} would presently knock at the door . In [[my]_0-i rooms]_{2680-my rooms} too , with which [she]_{402-my sister} had never been at all associated , there was at once the blankness of death and a perpetual suggestion of the sound of [her]_{402-my sister} voice or the turn of [her]_{402-my sister} face or figure , as if [she]_{402-my sister} were still alive and had been often there . Whatever [my]_0-i fortunes might have been , [I]_0-i could scarcely have recalled [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} with much tenderness . But [I]_0-i suppose there is a shock of regret which may exist without much tenderness . Under its influence and perhaps to make up for the want of the softer feeling [I]_0-i was seized with a violent indignation against [the assailant from whom [she]_{402-my sister} had suffered so much]_{2682-the assailant from whom she had suffered so much} ; and [I]_0-i felt that on sufficient proof [I]_0-i could have revengefully pursued [Orlick]_225-orlick , or [any one else]_{1529-any one else} , to the last extremity . Having written to [Joe]_154-joe , to offer [him]_2684-him consolation , and to assure [him]_2684-him that [I]_0-i would come to the funeral , [I]_0-i passed the intermediate days in the curious state of mind [I]_0-i have glanced at . [I]_0-i went down early in the morning , and alighted at [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar} in good time to walk over to [the forge]_{488-the forge} . It was fine summer weather again , and , as [I]_0-i walked along , the times when [I]_0-i was [a little helpless creature]_{2686-a little helpless creature} , and [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} did not spare [me]_0-i , vividly returned . But [they]_2688-they returned with a gentle tone upon [them]_2688-they that softened even the edge of [Tickler]_162-tickler . For now , the very breath of the beans and clover whispered to [my]_0-i heart that the day must come when it would be well for [my]_0-i memory that [others walking in the sunshine]_{2689-others walking in the sunshine} should be softened as [they]_{2689-others walking in the sunshine} thought of [me]_0-i . At last [I]_0-i came within sight of [the house]_{604-the house} , and saw that [Trabb]_330-co. and [Co.]_330-co. had put in a funereal execution and taken possession . [Two dismally absurd persons]_{2691-two dismally absurd persons} , each ostentatiously exhibiting a crutch done up in a black bandage , - as if that instrument could possibly communicate any comfort to [anybody]_4526-anybody , - were posted at the front door ; and in one of [them]_{2691-two dismally absurd persons} [I]_0-i recognized [a postboy discharged from [the Boar]_{246-the boar}]_{2693-a postboy discharged from the boar} for turning [a young couple]_{2694-a young couple} into a sawpit on [their]_{2694-a young couple} bridal morning , in consequence of intoxication rendering it necessary for [him]_{2693-a postboy discharged from the boar} to ride [his]_{2693-a postboy discharged from the boar} horse clasped round the neck with both arms . [All the children of [the village]_{758-the village}]_{2695-all the children of the village} , and [most of [the women]_{5569-the women}]_{2697-most of the women} , were admiring [these sable warders]_{2699-these sable warders} and the closed windows of [the house]_{604-the house} and forge ; and as [I]_0-i came up , one of [the two warders]_{2701-the two warders} [the postboy]_{2702-the postboy} knocked at the door , - implying that [I]_0-i was far too much exhausted by grief to have strength remaining to knock for [myself]_0-i . [Another sable warder]_{2703-another sable warder} [a carpenter]_{2704-a carpenter} , who had once eaten two geese for a wager opened the door , and showed [me]_0-i into [the best parlor]_{5158-the best parlor} . Here , [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} had taken unto [himself]_{243-mr. trabb} the best table , and had got all the leaves up , and was holding a kind of black Bazaar , with the aid of a quantity of black pins . At the moment of [my]_0-i arrival , [he]_{243-mr. trabb} had just finished putting [somebody]_591-somebody 's hat into black long - clothes , like [an African baby]_{2707-an african baby} ; so [he]_{243-mr. trabb} held out [his]_{243-mr. trabb} hand for [mine]_0-i . But [I]_0-i , misled by the action , and confused by the occasion , shook hands with [him]_{243-mr. trabb} with every testimony of warm affection . [Poor dear Joe]_154-joe , entangled in a little black cloak tied in a large bow under [his]_{243-mr. trabb} chin , was seated apart at the upper end of [the room]_{633-the room} ; where , as [chief mourner]_{2709-chief mourner} , [he]_{243-mr. trabb} had evidently been stationed by [Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} . When [I]_0-i bent down and said to [him]_{243-mr. trabb} , " [Dear Joe]_154-joe , how are [you]_{243-mr. trabb} ? "_{[243-mr. trabb]} [he]_{243-mr. trabb} said , " [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , [you]_241-pip knowed [her]_188-biddy when [she]_188-biddy were a fine figure of a - "_{[243-mr. trabb]} and clasped [my]_0-i hand and said no more . [Biddy]_188-biddy , looking very neat and modest in [her]_188-biddy black dress , went quietly here and there , and was very helpful . When [I]_0-i had spoken to [Biddy]_188-biddy , as [I]_0-i thought it not a time for talking [I]_0-i went and sat down near [Joe]_154-joe , and there began to wonder in what part of [the house]_{604-the house} [it]_188-biddy - [she]_188-biddy - [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} - was . The air of [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} being faint with the smell of sweet - cake , [I]_0-i looked about for the table of refreshments ; [it]_2713-it was scarcely visible until [one]_5055-one had got accustomed to the gloom , but there was a cut - up plum cake upon it , and there were cut - up oranges , and sandwiches , and biscuits , and two decanters that [I]_0-i knew very well as ornaments , but had never seen used in all [my]_0-i life ; one full of port , and one of sherry . Standing at this table , [I]_0-i became conscious of [the servile Pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing [himself]_{2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention} , and making obsequious movements to catch [my]_0-i attention]_{2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention} . The moment [he]_{2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention} succeeded , [he]_{2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention} came over to [me]_0-i breathing sherry and crumbs , and said in a subdued voice , " May [I]_{2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention} , [dear sir]_{2569-dear sir} ? "_{[2715-the servile pumblechook in a black cloak and several yards of hatband , who was alternately stuffing himself , and making obsequious movements to catch my attention]} and did . [I]_0-i then descried [Mr.]_2716-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} ; the last - named in a decent speechless paroxysm in a corner . [We]_2717-we were all going to " follow , "_{[243-mr. trabb]} and were all in course of being tied up separately by [Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} into ridiculous bundles . " Which [I]_154-joe meantersay , [Pip]_241-pip , "_[154-joe] [Joe]_154-joe whispered [me]_0-i , as [we]_2717-we were being what [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} called " formed "_{[243-mr. trabb]} in [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} , two and two , - and it was dreadfully like a preparation for some grim kind of dance ; " which [I]_{243-mr. trabb} meantersay , [sir]_4451-sir , as [I]_{243-mr. trabb} would in preference have carried [her]_{171-mrs. hubble} to [the church]_{439-the church} [myself]_{243-mr. trabb} , along with [three or four friendly ones]_{6648-three or four friendly ones} wot come to it with willing harts and arms , but it were considered wot [the neighbors]_{472-the neighbors} would look down on such and would be of opinions as it were wanting in respect . "_{[243-mr. trabb]} " Pocket - handkerchiefs out , all ! "_{[243-mr. trabb]} cried [Mr. Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} at this point , in a depressed business - like voice . " Pocket - handkerchiefs out ! [We]_2717-we are ready ! "_{[243-mr. trabb]} So [we]_2717-we all put [our]_2717-we pocket - handkerchiefs to [our]_2717-we faces , as if [our]_2717-we noses were bleeding , and filed out two and two ; [Joe]_154-joe and [I]_0-i ; [Biddy]_188-biddy and [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ; [Mr.]_2719-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} . The remains of [[my]_0-i poor sister]_{2720-my poor sister} had been brought round by the [kitchen]_605-kitchen door , and , it being a point of Undertaking ceremony that [the six bearers]_{2722-the six bearers} must be stifled and blinded under a horrible black velvet housing with a white border , the whole looked like [a blind monster with twelve human legs]_{2723-a blind monster with twelve human legs} , shuffling and blundering along , under the guidance of [two keepers]_{2724-two keepers} , - [the postboy]_{2702-the postboy} and [[his]_{2702-the postboy} comrade]_{2726-his comrade} . [The neighborhood]_{5023-the neighborhood} , however , highly approved of these arrangements , and [we]_2717-we were much admired as [we]_2717-we went through [the village]_{758-the village} ; [the more youthful and vigorous part of [the community]_{2730-the community}]_{2729-the more youthful and vigorous part of the community} making dashes now and then to cut [us]_2717-we off , and lying in wait to intercept [us]_2717-we at points of vantage . At such times the more exuberant among [them]_{5023-the neighborhood} called out in an excited manner on [our]_2717-we emergence round some corner of expectancy , " Here [they]_{5023-the neighborhood} come ! "_{[5023-the neighborhood]} " Here [they]_{5023-the neighborhood} are ! "_{[5023-the neighborhood]} and [we]_2717-we were all but cheered . In this progress [I]_0-i was much annoyed by the abject Pumblechook , who , being behind [me]_0-i , persisted all the way as a delicate attention in arranging [my]_0-i streaming hatband , and smoothing [my]_0-i cloak . [My]_0-i thoughts were further distracted by the excessive pride of [Mr.]_2731-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} , who were surpassingly conceited and vainglorious in being [members of so distinguished a procession]_{2732-members of so distinguished a procession} . And now [the range of marshes]_{2733-the range of marshes} lay clear before [us]_2717-we , with the sails of [the ships]_{1627-the ships} on [the river]_{413-the river} growing out of [it]_{2733-the range of marshes} ; and [we]_2717-we went into [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , close to [the graves of [[my]_0-i unknown parents]_{2738-my unknown parents}]_{2737-the graves of my unknown parents} , [Philip Pirrip]_241-pip , [late of [this parish]_{418-this parish}]_{4465-late of this parish} , and Also [Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} , [Wife of the Above]_{890-wife of the above} . And there , [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} was laid quietly in [the earth]_{5782-the earth} , while the larks sang high above it , and the light wind strewed [it]_{5782-the earth} with beautiful shadows of clouds and trees . Of the conduct of [the worldly minded [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook}]_{2744-the worldly minded pumblechook} while this was doing , [I]_0-i desire to say no more than it was all addressed to [me]_0-i ; and that even when those noble passages were read which remind humanity how it brought nothing into [the world]_{4698-the world} and can take nothing out , and how it fleeth like a shadow and never continueth long in one stay , [I]_0-i heard [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} cough a reservation of the case of [a young gentleman who came unexpectedly into [large property]_{2747-large property}]_{2746-a young gentleman who came unexpectedly into large property} . When [we]_2748-we got back , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had the hardihood to tell [me]_0-i that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wished [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} could have known [I]_0-i had done [her]_{402-my sister} so much honor , and to hint that [she]_{402-my sister} would have considered it reasonably purchased at the price of [her]_{402-my sister} death . After that , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} drank all the rest of the sherry , and [Mr. Hubble]_{170-mr. hubble} drank the port , and [the two]_{856-the two} talked which [I]_0-i have since observed to be customary in such cases as if [they]_{856-the two} were of quite another race from [the deceased]_{2751-the deceased} , and were notoriously immortal . Finally , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} went away with [Mr.]_2752-mr. and [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} , - to make an evening of it , [I]_0-i felt sure , and to tell [the Jolly Bargemen]_{202-the jolly bargemen} that [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was [the founder of [my]_0-i fortunes and [[my]_0-i earliest benefactor]_{2754-my earliest benefactor}]_{2753-the founder of my fortunes and my earliest benefactor} . When [they]_{202-the jolly bargemen} were all gone , and when [Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} and [[his]_{243-mr. trabb} men]_{714-his men} - but not [[his]_{243-mr. trabb} Boy]_{2756-his boy} ; [I]_0-i looked for [him]_{2756-his boy} - had crammed [their]_{202-the jolly bargemen} mummery into bags , and were gone too , [the house]_{604-the house} felt wholesomer . Soon afterwards , [Biddy]_188-biddy , [Joe]_154-joe , and [I]_0-i , had a cold dinner together ; but [we]_2758-we dined in [the best parlor]_{5158-the best parlor} , not in [the old kitchen]_{2760-the old kitchen} , and [Joe]_154-joe was so exceedingly particular what [he]_{243-mr. trabb} did with [his]_{243-mr. trabb} knife and fork and the saltcellar and what not , that there was great restraint upon [us]_2758-we . But after dinner , when [I]_0-i made [him]_{243-mr. trabb} take [his]_{243-mr. trabb} pipe , and when [I]_0-i had loitered with [him]_{243-mr. trabb} about [the forge]_{488-the forge} , and when [we]_2758-we sat down together on the great block of stone outside [it]_{488-the forge} , [we]_2758-we got on better . [I]_0-i noticed that after the funeral [Joe]_154-joe changed [his]_{243-mr. trabb} clothes so far , as to make a compromise between [his]_{243-mr. trabb} Sunday dress and working dress ; in which [the dear fellow]_{4693-the dear fellow} looked natural , and like [the Man]_{433-the man} [he]_{4693-the dear fellow} was . [He]_{243-mr. trabb} was very much pleased by [my]_0-i asking if [I]_0-i might sleep in [[my]_0-i own little room]_{2764-my own little room} , and [I]_0-i was pleased too ; for [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i had done rather a great thing in making the request . When the shadows of evening were closing in , [I]_0-i took an opportunity of getting into [the garden]_{1303-the garden} with [Biddy]_188-biddy for a little talk . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i think [you]_188-biddy might have written to [me]_0-i about these sad matters . "_[0-i] " Do [you]_188-biddy , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " [I]_188-biddy should have written if [I]_188-biddy had thought that . "_[188-biddy] " Do n't suppose that [I]_0-i mean to be unkind , [Biddy]_188-biddy , when [I]_0-i say [I]_0-i consider that [you]_188-biddy ought to have thought that . "_[0-i] " Do [you]_188-biddy , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? "_[188-biddy] [She]_188-biddy was so quiet , and had such an orderly , good , and pretty way with [her]_188-biddy , that [I]_0-i did not like the thought of making [her]_188-biddy cry again . After looking a little at [her]_188-biddy downcast eyes as [she]_188-biddy walked beside [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i gave up that point . " [I]_188-biddy suppose it will be difficult for [you]_188-biddy to remain [here]_693-here now , [[Biddy]_188-biddy dear]_{6651-biddy dear} ? "_[188-biddy] " Oh ! [I]_188-biddy ca n't do so , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , in a tone of regret but still of quiet conviction . " [I]_188-biddy have been speaking to [Mrs. Hubble]_{171-mrs. hubble} , and [I]_188-biddy am going to [her]_{171-mrs. hubble} to - morrow . [I]_188-biddy hope [we]_6652-we shall be able to take some care of [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} , together , until [he]_{203-mr. gargery} settles down . "_[188-biddy] " How are [you]_188-biddy going to live , [Biddy]_188-biddy ? If [you]_188-biddy want any mo - "_[188-biddy] " How am [I]_188-biddy going to live ? "_[188-biddy] repeated [Biddy]_188-biddy , striking in , with a momentary flush upon [her]_188-biddy face . " [I]_188-biddy 'll tell [you]_241-pip , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . [I]_188-biddy am going to try to get the place of [mistress]_{6653-mistress} in [the new school]_{6654-the new school} nearly finished [here]_693-here . [I]_188-biddy can be well recommended by all [the neighbors]_{472-the neighbors} , and [I]_188-biddy hope [I]_188-biddy can be industrious and patient , and teach [myself]_188-biddy while [I]_188-biddy teach [others]_5129-others . [You]_241-pip know , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_[188-biddy] pursued [Biddy]_188-biddy , with a smile , as [she]_188-biddy raised [her]_188-biddy eyes to [my]_0-i face , " [the new schools]_{6658-the new schools} are not like the old , but [I]_188-biddy learnt a good deal from [you]_241-pip after that time , and have had time since then to improve . "_[188-biddy] " [I]_188-biddy think [you]_188-biddy would always improve , [Biddy]_188-biddy , under any circumstances . "_[188-biddy] " Ah ! Except in [my]_188-biddy bad side of human nature , "_[188-biddy] murmured [Biddy]_188-biddy . It was not so much a reproach as an irresistible thinking aloud . Well ! [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i would give up that point too . So , [I]_0-i walked a little further with [Biddy]_188-biddy , looking silently at [her]_188-biddy downcast eyes . " [I]_0-i have not heard the particulars of [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's death , [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[0-i] " They are very slight , [poor thing]_{5038-poor thing} . [She]_{402-my sister} had been in one of [[her]_{402-my sister} bad states]_{6661-her bad states} - though they had got better of late , rather than worse - for four days , when [she]_{402-my sister} came out of it in the evening , just at tea - time , and said quite plainly , ' [Joe]_154-joe . ' As [she]_{402-my sister} had never said any word for a long while , [I]_188-biddy ran and fetched in [Mr. Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} from [the forge]_{488-the forge} . [She]_{402-my sister} made signs to [me]_188-biddy that [she]_{402-my sister} wanted [him]_{203-mr. gargery} to sit down close to [her]_{402-my sister} , and wanted [me]_188-biddy to put [her]_{402-my sister} arms round [his]_{203-mr. gargery} neck . So [I]_188-biddy put them round [his]_{203-mr. gargery} neck , and [she]_{402-my sister} laid [her]_{402-my sister} head down on [his]_{203-mr. gargery} shoulder quite content and satisfied . And so [she]_{402-my sister} presently said ' [Joe]_154-joe ' again , and once ' Pardon , ' and once ' [Pip]_241-pip . ' And so [she]_{402-my sister} never lifted [her]_{402-my sister} head up any more , and it was just an hour later when [we]_6663-we laid it down on [her]_{402-my sister} own bed , because [we]_6663-we found [she]_{402-my sister} was gone . "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy cried ; [the darkening garden]_{2766-the darkening garden} , and [the lane]_{669-the lane} , and the stars that were coming out , were blurred in [my]_0-i own sight . " Nothing was ever discovered , [Biddy]_188-biddy ? "_[188-biddy] " Nothing . "_[188-biddy] " Do [you]_188-biddy know what is become of [Orlick]_225-orlick ? "_[188-biddy] " [I]_188-biddy should think from the color of [his]_{203-mr. gargery} clothes that [he]_{203-mr. gargery} is working in [the quarries]_{6664-the quarries} . "_[188-biddy] " Of course [you]_188-biddy have seen [him]_{203-mr. gargery} then ? - Why are [you]_188-biddy looking at that dark tree in [the lane]_{669-the lane} ? "_[188-biddy] " [I]_188-biddy saw [him]_{203-mr. gargery} [there]_4505-there , on the night [she]_188-biddy died . "_[188-biddy] " That was not the last time either , [Biddy]_188-biddy ? "_[188-biddy] " No ; [I]_188-biddy have seen [him]_{203-mr. gargery} [there]_4505-there , since [we]_6668-we have been walking [here]_693-here . - It is of no use , "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy , laying [her]_188-biddy hand upon [my]_0-i arm , as [I]_0-i was for running out , " [you]_0-i know [I]_188-biddy would not deceive [you]_0-i ; [he]_{203-mr. gargery} was not there a minute , and [he]_{203-mr. gargery} is gone . "_[188-biddy] It revived [my]_0-i utmost indignation to find that [she]_188-biddy was still pursued by [this fellow]_{1865-this fellow} , and [I]_0-i felt inveterate against [him]_{1865-this fellow} . [I]_0-i told [her]_188-biddy so , and told [her]_188-biddy that [I]_0-i would spend any money or take any pains to drive [him]_{1865-this fellow} out of [that country]_{2497-that country} . By degrees [she]_188-biddy led [me]_0-i into more temperate talk , and [she]_188-biddy told [me]_0-i how [Joe]_154-joe loved [me]_0-i , and how [Joe]_154-joe never complained of anything , - [she]_188-biddy did n't say , of [me]_0-i ; [she]_188-biddy had no need ; [I]_0-i knew what [she]_188-biddy meant , - but ever did [his]_{1865-this fellow} duty in [his]_{1865-this fellow} way of life , with a strong hand , a quiet tongue , and a gentle heart . " Indeed , it would be hard to say too much for [him]_{1865-this fellow} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i ; " and [Biddy]_188-biddy , [we]_6670-we must often speak of these things , for of course [I]_0-i shall be often down here now . [I]_0-i am not going to leave poor [Joe]_154-joe alone . "_[0-i] [Biddy]_188-biddy said never a single word . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , do n't [you]_188-biddy hear [me]_188-biddy ? "_[188-biddy] " Yes , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . "_[0-i] " Not to mention [your]_188-biddy calling [me]_0-i [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , - which appears to [me]_0-i to be in bad taste , [Biddy]_188-biddy , - what do [you]_188-biddy mean ? "_[0-i] " What do [I]_188-biddy mean ? "_[188-biddy] asked [Biddy]_188-biddy , timidly . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , in a virtuously self - asserting manner , " [I]_0-i must request to know what [you]_188-biddy mean by this ? "_[0-i] " By this ? "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " Now , do n't echo , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i retorted . " [You]_188-biddy used not to echo , [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[0-i] " Used not ! "_[188-biddy] said [Biddy]_188-biddy . " [O Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! Used ! "_[188-biddy] Well ! [I]_0-i rather thought [I]_0-i would give up that point too . After another silent turn in [the garden]_{1303-the garden} , [I]_0-i fell back on the main position . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i made a remark respecting [my]_0-i coming down here often , to see [Joe]_154-joe , which [you]_188-biddy received with a marked silence . Have the goodness , [Biddy]_188-biddy , to tell [me]_0-i why . "_[0-i] " Are [you]_0-i quite sure , then , that [you]_0-i WILL come to see [him]_6671-him often ? "_[188-biddy] asked [Biddy]_188-biddy , stopping in [the narrow garden walk]_{2771-the narrow garden walk} , and looking at [me]_0-i under the stars with a clear and honest eye . " O dear [me]_0-i ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , as if [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i compelled to give up [Biddy]_188-biddy in despair . " This really is a very bad side of human nature ! Do n't say any more , if [you]_188-biddy please , [Biddy]_188-biddy . This shocks [me]_0-i very much . "_[0-i] For which cogent reason [I]_0-i kept [Biddy]_188-biddy at a distance during supper , and when [I]_0-i went up to [[my]_0-i own old little room]_{2772-my own old little room} , took as stately a leave of [her]_188-biddy as [I]_0-i could , in [my]_0-i murmuring soul , deem reconcilable with the churchyard and the event of the day . As often as [I]_0-i was restless in the night , and that was every quarter of an hour , [I]_0-i reflected what an unkindness , what an injury , what an injustice , [Biddy]_188-biddy had done [me]_0-i . Early in the morning [I]_0-i was to go . Early in the morning [I]_0-i was out , and looking in , unseen , at one of the wooden windows of [the forge]_{488-the forge} . There [I]_0-i stood , for minutes , looking at [Joe]_154-joe , already at work with a glow of health and strength upon [his]_2774-his face that made it show as if the bright sun of the life in store for [him]_2774-his were shining on it . " Good by , [dear Joe]_154-joe ! - No , do n't wipe it off - for [God]_192-god 's sake , give [me]_154-joe [your]_154-joe blackened hand ! - [I]_154-joe shall be down soon and often . "_[154-joe] " Never too soon , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " and never too often , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_[154-joe] [Biddy]_188-biddy was waiting for [me]_0-i at the [kitchen]_605-kitchen door , with a mug of new milk and a crust of bread . " [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , when [I]_0-i gave [her]_188-biddy [my]_0-i hand at parting , " [I]_0-i am not angry , but [I]_0-i am hurt . "_[0-i] " No , do n't be hurt , "_[188-biddy] [she]_188-biddy pleaded quite pathetically ; " let only [me]_188-biddy be hurt , if [I]_188-biddy have been ungenerous . "_[188-biddy] Once more , the mists were rising as [I]_0-i walked away . If [they]_2776-they disclosed to [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i suspect [they]_2776-they did , that [I]_0-i should not come back , and that [Biddy]_188-biddy was quite right , all [I]_0-i can say is , - [they]_2776-they were quite right too . Chapter XXXVI [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i went on from bad to worse , in the way of increasing [our]_2777-our debts , looking into [our]_2777-our affairs , leaving Margins , and the like exemplary transactions ; and Time went on , whether or no , as [he]_265-herbert has a way of doing ; and [I]_0-i came of age , - in fulfilment of [Herbert]_265-herbert 's prediction , that [I]_0-i should do so before [I]_0-i knew where [I]_0-i was . [Herbert]_265-herbert [himself]_265-herbert had come of age eight months before [me]_0-i . As [he]_265-herbert had nothing else than [his]_265-herbert majority to come into , the event did not make a profound sensation in [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} . But [we]_2777-our had looked forward to [my]_0-i one - and - twentieth birthday , with a crowd of speculations and anticipations , for [we]_2777-our had both considered that [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} could hardly help saying something definite on that occasion . [I]_0-i had taken care to have it well understood in [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} when [my]_0-i birthday was . On the day before it , [I]_0-i received an official note from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , informing [me]_0-i that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} would be glad if [I]_0-i would call upon [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} at five in the afternoon of the auspicious day . This convinced [us]_2777-our that something great was to happen , and threw [me]_0-i into an unusual flutter when [I]_0-i repaired to [[[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's office]_{2780-my guardian 's office} , a model of punctuality . In [the outer office]_{2781-the outer office} [Wemmick]_254-wemmick offered [me]_0-i [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} congratulations , and incidentally rubbed the side of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} nose with a folded piece of tissue - paper that [I]_0-i liked the look of . But [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} said nothing respecting it , and motioned [me]_0-i with a nod into [[[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's room]_{5931-my guardian 's room} . It was November , and [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} was standing before [his]_{1805-my guardian} fire leaning [his]_{1805-my guardian} back against the chimney - piece , with [his]_{1805-my guardian} hands under [his]_{1805-my guardian} coattails . " Well , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [he]_{1805-my guardian} , " [I]_{1805-my guardian} must call [you]_241-pip [Mr. Pip]_241-pip to - day . Congratulations , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . "_{[1805-my guardian]} [We]_2785-we shook hands , - [he]_{1805-my guardian} was always [a remarkably short shaker]_{2786-a remarkably short shaker} , - and [I]_0-i thanked [him]_{1805-my guardian} . " Take a chair , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[1805-my guardian]} said [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} . As [I]_0-i sat down , and [he]_{1805-my guardian} preserved [his]_{1805-my guardian} attitude and bent [his]_{1805-my guardian} brows at [his]_{1805-my guardian} boots , [I]_0-i felt at a disadvantage , which reminded [me]_0-i of that old time when [I]_0-i had been put upon a tombstone . [The two ghastly casts on the shelf]_{2788-the two ghastly casts on the shelf} were not far from [him]_{1805-my guardian} , and [their]_{2788-the two ghastly casts on the shelf} expression was as if [they]_{2788-the two ghastly casts on the shelf} were making a stupid apoplectic attempt to attend to the conversation . " Now [[my]_{1805-my guardian} young friend]_{5345-my young friend} , "_{[1805-my guardian]} [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} began , as if [I]_0-i were [a witness in the box]_{2790-a witness in the box} , " [I]_{1805-my guardian} am going to have a word or two with [you]_{5345-my young friend} . "_{[1805-my guardian]} " If [you]_{5345-my young friend} please , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " What do [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} suppose , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , bending forward to look at the ground , and then throwing [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head back to look at the ceiling , - " what do [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} suppose [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} are living at the rate of ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " At the rate of , [sir]_4451-sir ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " At , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} repeated [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , still looking at the ceiling , " the - rate - of ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} And then looked all round [the room]_{633-the room} , and paused with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pocket - handkerchief in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand , half - way to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} nose . [I]_0-i had looked into [my]_0-i affairs so often , that [I]_0-i had thoroughly destroyed any slight notion [I]_0-i might ever have had of [their]_2792-their bearings . Reluctantly , [I]_0-i confessed [myself]_0-i quite unable to answer the question . This reply seemed agreeable to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , who said , " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought so ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and blew [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} nose with an air of satisfaction . " Now , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have asked [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} a question , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} friend]_{594-my friend} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Have [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} anything to ask [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Of course it would be a great relief to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} to ask [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} several questions , [sir]_4451-sir ; but [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} remember [your]_{237-mr. jaggers} prohibition . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Ask one , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Is [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} benefactor]_{1501-my benefactor} to be made known to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} to - day ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " No . Ask another . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Is that confidence to be imparted to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} soon ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Waive that , a moment , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " and ask another . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i looked about [me]_0-i , but there appeared to be now no possible escape from the inquiry , " Have - [I]_0-i - anything to receive , [sir]_4451-sir ? "_[0-i] On that , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} said , triumphantly , " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} thought [we]_6680-we should come to it ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and called to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to give [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} that piece of paper . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick appeared , handed it in , and disappeared . " Now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " attend , if [you]_241-pip please . [You]_241-pip have been drawing pretty freely here ; [your]_241-pip name occurs pretty often in [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's cash - book ; but [you]_241-pip are in debt , of course ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am afraid [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} must say yes , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [You]_4451-sir know [you]_4451-sir must say yes ; do n't [you]_4451-sir ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do n't ask [you]_241-pip what [you]_241-pip owe , because [you]_241-pip do n't know ; and if [you]_241-pip did know , [you]_241-pip would n't tell [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; [you]_241-pip would say less . Yes , yes , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} friend]_{594-my friend} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} cried [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , waving [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} forefinger to stop [me]_0-i as [I]_0-i made a show of protesting : " it 's likely enough that [you]_241-pip think [you]_241-pip would n't , but [you]_241-pip would . [You]_241-pip 'll excuse [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , but [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} know better than [you]_241-pip . Now , take this piece of paper in [your]_241-pip hand . [You]_241-pip have got it ? Very good . Now , unfold it and tell [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} what it is . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " This is a bank - note , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " for five hundred pounds . "_[0-i] " That is a bank - note , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} repeated [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " for five hundred pounds . And a very handsome sum of money too , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} think . [You]_241-pip consider it so ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " How could [I]_0-i do otherwise ! "_[0-i] " Ah ! But answer the question , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Undoubtedly . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [You]_0-i consider it , undoubtedly , a handsome sum of money . Now , that handsome sum of money , [Pip]_241-pip , is [your]_241-pip own . It is a present to [you]_241-pip on this day , in earnest of [your]_241-pip expectations . And at the rate of that handsome sum of money per annum , and at no higher rate , [you]_241-pip are to live until [the donor of the whole]_{6684-the donor of the whole} appears . That is to say , [you]_241-pip will now take [your]_241-pip money affairs entirely into [your]_241-pip own hands , and [you]_241-pip will draw from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick one hundred and twenty - five pounds per quarter , until [you]_241-pip are in communication with [the fountain - head]_{6685-the fountain - head} , and no longer with [the mere agent]_{6686-the mere agent} . As [I]_0-i have told [you]_241-pip before , [I]_0-i am [the mere agent]_{6686-the mere agent} . [I]_0-i execute [my]_0-i instructions , and [I]_0-i am paid for doing so . [I]_0-i think [them]_6688-them injudicious , but [I]_0-i am not paid for giving any opinion on [their]_6688-them merits . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was beginning to express [my]_0-i gratitude to [[my]_0-i benefactor]_{1501-my benefactor} for the great liberality with which [I]_0-i was treated , when [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} stopped [me]_0-i . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am not paid , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} , coolly , " to carry [your]_241-pip words to [any one]_{841-any one} ; "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and then gathered up [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} coat - tails , as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had gathered up the subject , and stood frowning at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} boots as if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} suspected them of designs against [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . After a pause , [I]_0-i hinted , - " There was a question just now , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , which [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} desired [me]_0-i to waive for a moment . [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i am doing nothing wrong in asking it again ? "_[0-i] " What is it ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} . [I]_0-i might have known that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would never help [me]_0-i out ; but it took [me]_0-i aback to have to shape the question afresh , as if it were quite new . " Is it likely , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , after hesitating , " that [[my]_0-i patron]_{1386-my patron} , the fountain - head [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} have spoken of , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , will soon - "_[0-i] there [I]_0-i delicately stopped . " Will soon what ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} asked [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " That 's no question as it stands , [you]_0-i know . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Will soon come to [London]_8-london , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , after casting about for a precise form of words , " or summon [me]_0-i anywhere else ? "_[0-i] " Now , here , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} replied [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , fixing [me]_0-i for the first time with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} dark deep - set eyes , " [we]_6691-we must revert to the evening when [we]_6691-we first encountered [one another]_{4584-one another} in [[your]_0-i village]_{6693-your village} . What did [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} tell [you]_0-i then , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [You]_{237-mr. jaggers} told [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , that it might be years hence when [that person]_{5043-that person} appeared . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Just so , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " that 's [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} answer . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} As [we]_2794-we looked full at [one another]_{4584-one another} , [I]_0-i felt [my]_0-i breath come quicker in [my]_0-i strong desire to get something out of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . And as [I]_0-i felt that it came quicker , and as [I]_0-i felt that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw that it came quicker , [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i had less chance than ever of getting anything out of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Do [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} suppose it will still be years hence , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} shook [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head , - not in negativing the question , but in altogether negativing the notion that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could anyhow be got to answer it , - and [the two horrible casts of the twitched faces]_{2796-the two horrible casts of the twitched faces} looked , when [my]_0-i eyes strayed up to [them]_{2796-the two horrible casts of the twitched faces} , as if [they]_{2796-the two horrible casts of the twitched faces} had come to a crisis in [their]_{2796-the two horrible casts of the twitched faces} suspended attention , and were going to sneeze . " Come ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , warming the backs of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} legs with the backs of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} warmed hands , " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll be plain with [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} friend]_{594-my friend} [Pip]_241-pip . That 's a question [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} must not be asked . [You]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll understand that better , when [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} tell [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} it 's a question that might compromise [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} . Come ! [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll go a little further with [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll say something more . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} bent down so low to frown at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} boots , that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was able to rub the calves of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} legs in the pause [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} made . " When [that person]_{5043-that person} discloses , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , straightening [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [that person]_{5043-that person} will settle [your]_{237-mr. jaggers} own affairs . When [that person]_{5043-that person} discloses , [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} part in this business will cease and determine . When [that person]_{5043-that person} discloses , it will not be necessary for [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} to know anything about it . And that 's all [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have got to say . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [We]_2797-we looked at [one another]_{4584-one another} until [I]_0-i withdrew [my]_0-i eyes , and looked thoughtfully at the floor . From this last speech [I]_0-i derived the notion that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , for some reason or no reason , had not taken [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} into [her]_{223-miss havisham} confidence as to [her]_{223-miss havisham} designing [me]_0-i for [Estella]_195-estella ; that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} resented this , and felt a jealousy about it ; or that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} really did object to that scheme , and would have nothing to do with it . When [I]_0-i raised [my]_0-i eyes again , [I]_0-i found that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had been shrewdly looking at [me]_0-i all the time , and was doing so still . " If that is all [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} have to say , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i remarked , " there can be nothing left for [me]_0-i to say . "_[0-i] [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} nodded assent , and pulled out [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} thief - dreaded watch , and asked [me]_0-i where [I]_0-i was going to dine ? [I]_0-i replied at [[my]_0-i own chambers]_{2799-my own chambers} , with [Herbert]_265-herbert . As a necessary sequence , [I]_0-i asked [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would favor [us]_2800-us with [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} company]_{2801-his company} , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} promptly accepted the invitation . But [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} insisted on walking [home]_4495-home with [me]_0-i , in order that [I]_0-i might make no extra preparation for [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and first [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had a letter or two to write , and of course had [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hands to wash . So [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i would go into [the outer office]_{2781-the outer office} and talk to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . The fact was , that when the five hundred pounds had come into [my]_0-i pocket , a thought had come into [my]_0-i head which had been often there before ; and it appeared to [me]_0-i that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was [a good person to advise with concerning such thought]_{2804-a good person to advise with concerning such thought} . [He]_254-wemmick had already locked up [his]_254-wemmick safe , and made preparations for going [home]_4495-home . [He]_254-wemmick had left [his]_254-wemmick desk , brought out [his]_254-wemmick two greasy office candlesticks and stood them in line with the snuffers on a slab near the door , ready to be extinguished ; [he]_254-wemmick had raked [his]_254-wemmick fire low , put [his]_254-wemmick hat and great - coat ready , and was beating [himself]_254-wemmick all over the chest with [his]_254-wemmick safe - key , as an athletic exercise after business . " [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i want to ask [your]_254-wemmick opinion . [I]_0-i am very desirous to serve [a friend]_{6701-a friend} . "_[0-i] [Wemmick]_254-wemmick tightened [his]_254-wemmick post - office and shook [his]_254-wemmick head , as if [his]_254-wemmick opinion were dead against any fatal weakness of that sort . " [This friend]_{6702-this friend} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i pursued , " is trying to get on in commercial life , but has no money , and finds it difficult and disheartening to make a beginning . Now [I]_0-i want somehow to help [him]_{6702-this friend} to a beginning . "_[0-i] " With money down ? "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , in a tone drier than any sawdust . " With some money down , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , for an uneasy remembrance shot across [me]_0-i of that symmetrical bundle of papers at [home]_4495-home - " with some money down , and perhaps some anticipation of [my]_0-i expectations . "_[0-i] " [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " [I]_254-wemmick should like just to run over with [you]_241-pip on [my]_254-wemmick fingers , if [you]_241-pip please , the names of [the various bridges up as high as [Chelsea Reach]_{81-chelsea reach}]_{6703-the various bridges up as high as chelsea reach} . Let 's see ; there 's [London]_8-london , one ; [Southwark]_82-southwark , two ; [Blackfriars]_{83-blackfriars} , three ; [Waterloo]_84-waterloo , four ; [Westminster]_{85-westminster} , five ; [Vauxhall]_86-vauxhall , six . "_{[254-wemmick]} [He]_254-wemmick had checked off [each bridge]_{2807-each bridge} in its turn , with the handle of [his]_254-wemmick safe - key on the palm of [his]_254-wemmick hand . " There 's as many as six , [you]_241-pip see , to choose from . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_2808-i do n't understand [you]_254-wemmick , "_[2808-i] said [I.]_2808-i " Choose [[your]_241-pip bridge]_{6704-your bridge} , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[254-wemmick]} returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " and take a walk upon [[your]_241-pip bridge]_{6704-your bridge} , and pitch [your]_241-pip money into the Thames over the centre arch of [[your]_241-pip bridge]_{6704-your bridge} , and [you]_241-pip know the end of it . Serve [a friend]_{6701-a friend} with it , and [you]_241-pip may know the end of it too , - but it 's a less pleasant and profitable end . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could have posted a newspaper in [his]_254-wemmick mouth , [he]_254-wemmick made it so wide after saying this . " This is very discouraging , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Meant to be so , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " Then is it [your]_254-wemmick opinion , "_{[254-wemmick]} [I]_0-i inquired , with some little indignation , " that [a man]_{428-a man} should never - "_[0-i] " - Invest portable property in [a friend]_{6701-a friend} ? "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " Certainly [he]_{428-a man} should not . Unless [he]_{428-a man} wants to get rid of [the friend]_{6710-the friend} , - and then it becomes a question how much portable property it may be worth to get rid of [him]_{428-a man} . "_{[254-wemmick]} " And that , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " is [your]_254-wemmick deliberate opinion , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick ? "_[0-i] " That , "_{[254-wemmick]} [he]_254-wemmick returned , " is [my]_0-i deliberate opinion in [this office]_{6711-this office} . "_[0-i] " Ah ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , pressing [him]_254-wemmick , for [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i saw [him]_254-wemmick near a loophole here ; " but would that be [your]_254-wemmick opinion at [Walworth]_52-walworth ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[254-wemmick]} [he]_254-wemmick replied , with gravity , " [Walworth]_52-walworth is one place , and [this office]_{6711-this office} is another . Much as [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} is [one person]_{6389-one person} , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} is another . [They]_6715-they must not be confounded together . [My]_254-wemmick [Walworth]_52-walworth sentiments must be taken at [Walworth]_52-walworth ; none but [my]_254-wemmick official sentiments can be taken in [this office]_{6711-this office} . "_{[254-wemmick]} " Very well , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , much relieved , " then [I]_0-i shall look [you]_254-wemmick up at [Walworth]_52-walworth , [you]_254-wemmick may depend upon it . "_[0-i] " [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[254-wemmick]} [he]_254-wemmick returned , " [you]_241-pip will be welcome [there]_4505-there , in a private and personal capacity . "_{[254-wemmick]} [We]_2809-we had held this conversation in a low voice , well knowing [[my]_0-i guardian]_{1805-my guardian} 's ears to be the sharpest of the sharp . As [he]_254-wemmick now appeared in [his]_254-wemmick doorway , towelling [his]_254-wemmick hands , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick got on [his]_254-wemmick great - coat and stood by to snuff out the candles . [We]_2809-we all three went into [the street]_{4824-the street} together , and from the door - step [Wemmick]_254-wemmick turned [his]_254-wemmick way , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [I]_0-i turned [ours]_2809-we . [I]_0-i could not help wishing more than once that evening , that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had had an Aged in [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} , or [a Stinger]_{2156-a stinger} , or [a Something]_{2813-a something} , or [a Somebody]_{2814-a somebody} , to unbend [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} brows a little . It was an uncomfortable consideration on a twenty - first birthday , that coming of age at all seemed hardly worth while in such a guarded and suspicious world as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} made of it . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} was a thousand times better informed and cleverer than [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and yet [I]_0-i would a thousand times rather have had [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to dinner . And [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} made not [me]_0-i alone intensely melancholy , because , after [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was gone , [Herbert]_265-herbert said of [himself]_265-herbert , with [his]_265-herbert eyes fixed on the fire , that [he]_265-herbert thought [he]_265-herbert must have committed a felony and forgotten the details of it , [he]_265-herbert felt so dejected and guilty . Chapter XXXVII Deeming Sunday the best day for taking [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's [Walworth]_52-walworth sentiments , [I]_0-i devoted the next ensuing Sunday afternoon to a pilgrimage to [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} . On arriving before the battlements , [I]_0-i found [the Union Jack]_{87-the union jack} flying and the drawbridge up ; but undeterred by this show of defiance and resistance , [I]_0-i rang at the gate , and was admitted in a most pacific manner by [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} . " [[My]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[6015-the old man]} said [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , after securing the drawbridge , " rather had it in [his]_{6015-the old man} mind that [you]_4451-sir might happen to drop in , and [he]_{6015-the old man} left word that [he]_{6015-the old man} would soon be [home]_4495-home from [his]_{6015-the old man} afternoon 's walk . [He]_{2171-my son} is very regular in [his]_{2171-my son} walks , is [[my]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} . Very regular in everything , is [[my]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} . "_{[6015-the old man]} [I]_0-i nodded at [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} as [Wemmick]_254-wemmick [himself]_254-wemmick might have nodded , and [we]_2819-we went in and sat down by the fireside . " [You]_0-i made acquaintance with [[my]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[6015-the old man]} said [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , in [his]_{6015-the old man} chirping way , while [he]_{6015-the old man} warmed [his]_{6015-the old man} hands at the blaze , " at [[his]_{2171-my son} office]_{6725-his office} , [I]_0-i expect ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i nodded . " Hah ! [I]_0-i have heerd that [[my]_0-i son]_{2171-my son} is a wonderful hand at [his]_{2171-my son} business , [sir]_4451-sir ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i nodded hard . " Yes ; so [they]_6728-they tell [me]_0-i . [His]_{2171-my son} business is the Law ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i nodded harder . " Which makes it more surprising in [[my]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} , "_{[6015-the old man]} said [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , " for [he]_{2171-my son} was not brought up to the Law , but to the Wine - Coopering . "_{[6015-the old man]} Curious to know how [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} stood informed concerning the reputation of [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [I]_0-i roared that name at [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} . [He]_{6026-the old gentleman} threw [me]_0-i into the greatest confusion by laughing heartily and replying in a very sprightly manner , " No , to be sure ; [you]_0-i 're right . "_{[6026-the old gentleman]} And to this hour [I]_0-i have not the faintest notion what [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} meant , or what joke [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} thought [I]_0-i had made . As [I]_0-i could not sit there nodding at [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} perpetually , without making some other attempt to interest [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} , [I]_0-i shouted at inquiry whether [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} own calling in life had been " the Wine - Coopering . "_{[6026-the old gentleman]} By dint of straining that term out of [myself]_0-i several times and tapping [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} on the chest to associate it with [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} , [I]_0-i at last succeeded in making [my]_0-i meaning understood . " No , "_{[6026-the old gentleman]} said [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} ; " the warehousing , the warehousing . First , over yonder ; "_{[6026-the old gentleman]} [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} appeared to mean up the chimney , but [I]_0-i believe [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} intended to refer [me]_0-i to [Liverpool]_88-liverpool ; " and then in [the City of [London]_8-london]_{6730-the city of london} [here]_693-here . However , having an infirmity - for [I]_{6026-the old gentleman} am hard of hearing , [sir]_4451-sir - "_{[6026-the old gentleman]} [I]_0-i expressed in pantomime the greatest astonishment . " - Yes , hard of hearing ; having that infirmity coming upon [me]_{6015-the old man} , [[my]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} [he]_{2171-my son} went into the Law , and [he]_{2171-my son} took charge of [me]_{6015-the old man} , and [he]_{2171-my son} by little and little made out [this elegant and beautiful property]_{6734-this elegant and beautiful property} . But returning to what [you]_0-i said , [you]_0-i know , "_{[6015-the old man]} pursued [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , again laughing heartily , " what [I]_{6015-the old man} say is , No to be sure ; [you]_0-i 're right . "_{[6015-the old man]} [I]_0-i was modestly wondering whether [my]_0-i utmost ingenuity would have enabled [me]_0-i to say anything that would have amused [him]_{6015-the old man} half as much as this imaginary pleasantry , when [I]_0-i was startled by a sudden click in the wall on one side of the chimney , and the ghostly tumbling open of a little wooden flap with " [JOHN]_291-john "_{[6015-the old man]} upon it . [The old man]_{6015-the old man} , following [my]_0-i eyes , cried with great triumph , " [[My]_{6015-the old man} son]_{2171-my son} 's come [home]_4495-home ! "_{[6015-the old man]} and [we]_2827-we both went out to the drawbridge . It was worth any money to see [Wemmick]_254-wemmick waving a salute to [me]_0-i from [the other side of [the moat]_{2829-the moat}]_{2828-the other side of the moat} , when [we]_2827-we might have shaken hands across [it]_{2829-the moat} with the greatest ease . [The Aged]_{2166-the aged} was so delighted to work [the drawbridge]_{6042-the drawbridge} , that [I]_0-i made no offer to assist [him]_{2166-the aged} , but stood quiet until [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had come across , and had presented [me]_0-i to [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} ; [a lady by whom [he]_{2166-the aged} was accompanied]_{2832-a lady by whom he was accompanied} . [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} was of a wooden appearance , and was , like [[her]_{332-miss skiffins} escort]_{2833-her escort} , in [the post - office branch of [the service]_{2835-the service}]_{2834-the post - office branch of the service} . [She]_{332-miss skiffins} might have been some two or three years younger than [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and [I]_0-i judged [her]_{332-miss skiffins} to stand possessed of [portable property]_{2836-portable property} . The cut of [her]_{332-miss skiffins} dress from the waist upward , both before and behind , made [her]_{332-miss skiffins} figure very like [a boy]_{4485-a boy} 's kite ; and [I]_0-i might have pronounced [her]_{332-miss skiffins} gown a little too decidedly orange , and [her]_{332-miss skiffins} gloves a little too intensely green . But [she]_{332-miss skiffins} seemed to be [a good sort of fellow]_{2838-a good sort of fellow} , and showed a high regard for [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} . [I]_0-i was not long in discovering that [she]_{332-miss skiffins} was [a frequent visitor at [the Castle]_{54-the castle}]_{2840-a frequent visitor at the castle} ; for , on [our]_2841-our going in , and [my]_0-i complimenting [Wemmick]_254-wemmick on [his]_254-wemmick ingenious contrivance for announcing [himself]_254-wemmick to [the Aged]_{293-the aged} , [he]_254-wemmick begged [me]_0-i to give [my]_0-i attention for a moment to the other side of the chimney , and disappeared . Presently another click came , and another little door tumbled open with " [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} "_{[332-miss skiffins]} on it ; then [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} shut up and [John]_291-john tumbled open ; then [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} and [John]_291-john both tumbled open together , and finally shut up together . On [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's return from working these mechanical appliances , [I]_0-i expressed the great admiration with which [I]_0-i regarded [them]_2842-them , and [he]_254-wemmick said , " Well , [you]_0-i know , they 're both pleasant and useful to [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} . And by [George]_{231-george barnwell} , [sir]_4451-sir , it 's a thing worth mentioning , that of [all the people who come to this gate]_{6739-all the people who come to this gate} , the secret of those pulls is only known to [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} , and [me]_254-wemmick ! "_{[254-wemmick]} " And [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick made them , "_{[332-miss skiffins]} added [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} , " with [his]_254-wemmick own hands out of [his]_254-wemmick own head . "_{[332-miss skiffins]} While [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} was taking off [her]_{332-miss skiffins} bonnet [she]_{332-miss skiffins} retained [her]_{332-miss skiffins} green gloves during the evening as an outward and visible sign that there was [company]_1428-company , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick invited [me]_0-i to take a walk with [him]_254-wemmick round [the property]_{6019-the property} , and see how [the island]_{2845-the island} looked in wintertime . Thinking that [he]_254-wemmick did this to give [me]_0-i an opportunity of taking [his]_254-wemmick [Walworth]_52-walworth sentiments , [I]_0-i seized the opportunity as soon as [we]_2846-we were out of [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} . Having thought of the matter with care , [I]_0-i approached [my]_0-i subject as if [I]_0-i had never hinted at it before . [I]_0-i informed [Wemmick]_254-wemmick that [I]_0-i was anxious in behalf of [Herbert Pocket]_265-herbert , and [I]_0-i told [him]_254-wemmick how [we]_2846-we had first met , and how [we]_2846-we had fought . [I]_0-i glanced at [[Herbert]_265-herbert 's home]_{2848-herbert 's home} , and at [his]_265-herbert character , and at [his]_265-herbert having no means but such as [he]_265-herbert was dependent on [[his]_265-herbert father]_{5627-his father} for ; those , uncertain and unpunctual . [I]_0-i alluded to the advantages [I]_0-i had derived in [my]_0-i first rawness and ignorance from [his]_265-herbert society , and [I]_0-i confessed that [I]_0-i feared [I]_0-i had but ill repaid [them]_2850-them , and that [he]_265-herbert might have done better without [me]_0-i and [my]_0-i expectations . Keeping [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} in the background at a great distance , [I]_0-i still hinted at the possibility of [my]_0-i having competed with [him]_265-herbert in [his]_265-herbert prospects , and at the certainty of [his]_265-herbert possessing a generous soul , and being far above any mean distrusts , retaliations , or designs . For all these reasons [I]_0-i told [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and because [he]_265-herbert was [[my]_0-i young companion]_{2851-my young companion} and [friend]_4695-friend , and [I]_0-i had a great affection for [him]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i wished [my]_0-i own good fortune to reflect some rays upon [him]_265-herbert , and therefore [I]_0-i sought advice from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's experience and knowledge of [men]_4561-men and affairs , how [I]_0-i could best try with [my]_0-i resources to help [Herbert]_265-herbert to some present income , - say of a hundred a year , to keep [him]_265-herbert in good hope and heart , - and gradually to buy [him]_265-herbert on to some small partnership . [I]_0-i begged [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , in conclusion , to understand that [my]_0-i help must always be rendered without [Herbert]_265-herbert 's knowledge or suspicion , and that there was [no one else in [the world]_{4698-the world} with whom [I]_0-i could advise]_{2854-no one else in the world with whom i could advise} . [I]_0-i wound up by laying [my]_0-i hand upon [his]_254-wemmick shoulder , and saying , " [I]_0-i ca n't help confiding in [you]_254-wemmick , though [I]_0-i know it must be troublesome to [you]_254-wemmick ; but that is [your]_254-wemmick fault , in having ever brought [me]_0-i here . "_[0-i] [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was silent for a little while , and then said with a kind of start , " Well [you]_254-wemmick know , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [I]_254-wemmick must tell [you]_254-wemmick one thing . This is devilish good of [you]_254-wemmick . "_{[254-wemmick]} " Say [you]_254-wemmick 'll help [me]_0-i to be good then , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Ecod , "_{[254-wemmick]} replied [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , shaking [his]_254-wemmick head , " that 's not [my]_254-wemmick trade . "_{[254-wemmick]} " Nor is this [[your]_254-wemmick trading - place]_{6741-your trading - place} , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [You]_254-wemmick are right , "_{[254-wemmick]} [he]_254-wemmick returned . " [You]_254-wemmick hit the nail on the head . [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [I]_254-wemmick 'll put on [my]_254-wemmick considering - cap , and [I]_254-wemmick think all [you]_241-pip want to do may be done by degrees . [Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} that 's [[her]_{332-miss skiffins} brother]_{1999-her brother} is [an accountant and agent]_{6743-an accountant and agent} . [I]_254-wemmick 'll look [him]_{1999-her brother} up and go to work for [you]_241-pip . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_254-wemmick thank [you]_241-pip ten thousand times . "_{[254-wemmick]} " On the contrary , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [he]_254-wemmick , " [I]_254-wemmick thank [you]_241-pip , for though [we]_2856-we are strictly in [our]_2856-we private and personal capacity , still it may be mentioned that there are [Newgate]_17-newgate cobwebs about , and it brushes [them]_6744-them away . "_{[254-wemmick]} After a little further conversation to the same effect , [we]_2856-we returned into [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} where [we]_2856-we found [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} preparing tea . The responsible duty of making the toast was delegated to [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , and [that excellent old gentleman]_{2859-that excellent old gentleman} was so intent upon it that [he]_{2859-that excellent old gentleman} seemed to [me]_0-i in some danger of melting [his]_{2859-that excellent old gentleman} eyes . It was no nominal meal that [we]_2856-we were going to make , but a vigorous reality . [The Aged]_{293-the aged} prepared such a hay - stack of buttered toast , that [I]_0-i could scarcely see [him]_{2859-that excellent old gentleman} over it as it simmered on an iron stand hooked on to the top - bar ; while [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} brewed such a jorum of tea , that [the pig in the back premises]_{2860-the pig in the back premises} became strongly excited , and repeatedly expressed [his]_{2859-that excellent old gentleman} desire to participate in the entertainment . The flag had been struck , and the gun had been fired , at the right moment of time , and [I]_0-i felt as snugly cut off from [the rest of [Walworth]_52-walworth]_{2861-the rest of walworth} as if [the moat]_{2829-the moat} were thirty feet wide by as many deep . Nothing disturbed the tranquillity of [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} , but the occasional tumbling open of [John]_291-john and [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} : which little doors were a prey to some spasmodic infirmity that made [me]_0-i sympathetically uncomfortable until [I]_0-i got used to it . [I]_0-i inferred from the methodical nature of [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's arrangements that [she]_{332-miss skiffins} made tea [there]_4505-there every Sunday night ; and [I]_0-i rather suspected that a classic brooch [she]_{332-miss skiffins} wore , representing the profile of [an undesirable female with a very straight nose and a very new moon]_{2865-an undesirable female with a very straight nose and a very new moon} , was a piece of portable property that had been given [her]_{332-miss skiffins} by [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . [We]_2866-we ate the whole of the toast , and drank tea in proportion , and it was delightful to see how warm and greasy [we]_2866-we all got after it . [The Aged]_{293-the aged} especially , might have passed for [some clean old chief of [a savage tribe , just oiled]_{2868-a savage tribe , just oiled}]_{2867-some clean old chief of a savage tribe , just oiled} . After a short pause of repose , [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} - in the absence of [the little servant who , it seemed , retired to the bosom of [[her]_{332-miss skiffins} family]_{2870-her family} on Sunday afternoons]_{2869-the little servant who , it seemed , retired to the bosom of her family on sunday afternoons} - washed up the tea - things , in a trifling lady - like amateur manner that compromised none of [us]_2866-we . Then , [she]_{332-miss skiffins} put on [her]_{332-miss skiffins} gloves again , and [we]_2866-we drew round the fire , and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick said , " Now , [Aged Parent]_{333-aged parent} , tip [us]_2866-we the paper . "_{[254-wemmick]} [Wemmick]_254-wemmick explained to [me]_0-i while [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} got [his]_{2166-the aged} spectacles out , that this was according to custom , and that it gave [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} infinite satisfaction to read the news aloud . " [I]_254-wemmick wo n't offer an apology , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " for [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} is n't capable of many pleasures - are [you]_{2166-the aged} , [Aged P.]_{293-the aged} ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " All right , [John]_291-john , all right , "_{[6015-the old man]} returned [the old man]_{6015-the old man} , seeing [himself]_{6015-the old man} spoken to . " Only tip [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} a nod every now and then when [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} looks off [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} paper , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " and [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} 'll be as happy as [a king]_{6745-a king} . [We]_6746-we are [all attention]_{6747-all attention} , [Aged One]_{334-aged one} . "_{[254-wemmick]} " All right , [John]_291-john , all right ! "_{[2874-the cheerful old man]} returned [the cheerful old man]_{2874-the cheerful old man} , so busy and so pleased , that it really was quite charming . [The Aged]_{2166-the aged} 's reading reminded [me]_0-i of the classes at [[Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's great - aunt]_{4734-mr. wopsle 's great - aunt} 's , with the pleasanter peculiarity that it seemed to come through a keyhole . As [he]_{2166-the aged} wanted the candles close to [him]_{2166-the aged} , and as [he]_{2166-the aged} was always on the verge of putting either [his]_{2166-the aged} head or the newspaper into them , [he]_{2166-the aged} required as much watching as a powder - mill . But [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was equally untiring and gentle in [his]_254-wemmick vigilance , and [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} read on , quite unconscious of [his]_{2166-the aged} many rescues . Whenever [he]_{2166-the aged} looked at [us]_2878-us , [we]_2878-us all expressed the greatest interest and amazement , and nodded until [he]_{2166-the aged} resumed again . As [Wemmick]_254-wemmick and [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} sat side by side , and as [I]_0-i sat in a shadowy corner , [I]_0-i observed a slow and gradual elongation of [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's mouth , powerfully suggestive of [his]_{2166-the aged} slowly and gradually stealing [his]_{2166-the aged} arm round [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's waist . In course of time [I]_0-i saw [his]_{2166-the aged} hand appear on the other side of [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} ; but at that moment [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} neatly stopped [him]_{2166-the aged} with the green glove , unwound [his]_{2166-the aged} arm again as if it were an article of dress , and with the greatest deliberation laid it on the table before [her]_{332-miss skiffins} . [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's composure while [she]_{332-miss skiffins} did this was one of the most remarkable sights [I]_0-i have ever seen , and if [I]_0-i could have thought the act consistent with abstraction of mind , [I]_0-i should have deemed that [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} performed it mechanically . By and by , [I]_0-i noticed [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's arm beginning to disappear again , and gradually fading out of view . Shortly afterwards , [his]_{2166-the aged} mouth began to widen again . After an interval of suspense on [my]_0-i part that was quite enthralling and almost painful , [I]_0-i saw [his]_{2166-the aged} hand appear on the other side of [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} . Instantly , [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} stopped it with the neatness of a placid boxer , took off that girdle or cestus as before , and laid it on the table . Taking the table to represent the path of virtue , [I]_0-i am justified in stating that during the whole time of [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} 's reading , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's arm was straying from the path of virtue and being recalled to it by [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} . At last , [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} read [himself]_{2166-the aged} into a light slumber . This was the time for [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to produce a little kettle , a tray of glasses , and a black bottle with a porcelain - topped cork , representing [some clerical dignitary of a rubicund and social aspect]_{2881-some clerical dignitary of a rubicund and social aspect} . With the aid of these appliances [we]_2882-we all had something warm to drink , including the Aged , who was soon awake again . [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} mixed , and [I]_0-i observed that [she]_{332-miss skiffins} and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick drank out of one glass . Of course [I]_0-i knew better than to offer to see [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} [home]_4495-home , and under the circumstances [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i had best go first ; which [I]_0-i did , taking a cordial leave of [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , and having passed a pleasant evening . Before a week was out , [I]_0-i received a note from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , dated [Walworth]_52-walworth , stating that [he]_254-wemmick hoped [he]_254-wemmick had made some advance in that matter appertaining to [our]_2882-we private and personal capacities , and that [he]_254-wemmick would be glad if [I]_0-i could come and see [him]_254-wemmick again upon it . So , [I]_0-i went out to [Walworth]_52-walworth again , and yet again , and yet again , and [I]_0-i saw [him]_254-wemmick by appointment in [the City]_{2029-the city} several times , but never held any communication with [him]_254-wemmick on the subject in or near [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} . The upshot was , that [we]_2882-we found [a worthy young merchant]_{2886-a worthy young merchant} or [shipping - broker , not long established in business , who wanted intelligent help , and who wanted capital , and who in due course of time and receipt]_{2887-shipping - broker , not long established in business , who wanted intelligent help , and who wanted capital , and who in due course of time and receipt} would want [a partner]_{2888-a partner} . Between [him]_254-wemmick and [me]_0-i , secret articles were signed of which [Herbert]_265-herbert was the subject , and [I]_0-i paid [him]_254-wemmick half of [my]_0-i five hundred pounds down , and engaged for sundry other payments : some , to fall due at certain dates out of [my]_0-i income : some , contingent on [my]_0-i coming into [[my]_0-i property]_{1794-my property} . [[Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's brother]_{2890-miss skiffins 's brother} conducted the negotiation . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick pervaded it throughout , but never appeared in it . The whole business was so cleverly managed , that [Herbert]_265-herbert had not the least suspicion of [my]_0-i hand being in it . [I]_0-i never shall forget the radiant face with which [he]_265-herbert came [home]_4495-home one afternoon , and told [me]_0-i , as a mighty piece of news , of [his]_265-herbert having fallen in with [one Clarriker]_{2892-one clarriker} [the young merchant]_{2893-the young merchant} 's name , and of [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} 's having shown an extraordinary inclination towards [him]_265-herbert , and of [his]_265-herbert belief that the opening had come at last . Day by day as [his]_265-herbert hopes grew stronger and [his]_265-herbert face brighter , [he]_265-herbert must have thought [me]_0-i [a more and more affectionate friend]_{2894-a more and more affectionate friend} , for [I]_0-i had the greatest difficulty in restraining [my]_0-i tears of triumph when [I]_0-i saw [him]_265-herbert so happy . At length , the thing being done , and [he]_265-herbert having that day entered [[Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} 's House]_{2895-clarriker 's house} , and [he]_265-herbert having talked to [me]_0-i for a whole evening in a flush of pleasure and success , [I]_0-i did really cry in good earnest when [I]_0-i went to bed , to think that [my]_0-i expectations had done some good to [somebody]_591-somebody . A great event in [my]_0-i life , the turning point of [my]_0-i life , now opens on [my]_0-i view . But , before [I]_0-i proceed to narrate it , and before [I]_0-i pass on to all the changes it involved , [I]_0-i must give one chapter to [Estella]_195-estella . It is not much to give to the theme that so long filled [my]_0-i heart . Chapter XXXVIII If [that staid old house near the Green]_{2897-that staid old house near the green} at [Richmond]_72-richmond should ever come to be haunted when [I]_0-i am dead , it will be haunted , surely , by [my]_0-i ghost . O the many , many nights and days through which the unquiet spirit within [me]_0-i haunted [that house]_{2898-that house} when [Estella]_195-estella lived [there]_4505-there ! Let [my]_0-i body be where it would , [my]_0-i spirit was always wandering , wandering , wandering , about [that house]_{2898-that house} . [The lady with whom [Estella]_195-estella was placed]_{2901-the lady with whom estella was placed} , [Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} by name , was [a widow]_{2902-a widow} , with [one daughter several years older than [Estella]_195-estella]_{2903-one daughter several years older than estella} . [The mother]_{2661-the mother} looked young , and [the daughter]_{2905-the daughter} looked old ; [the mother]_{2661-the mother} 's complexion was pink , and [the daughter]_{2905-the daughter} 's was yellow ; [the mother]_{2661-the mother} set up for frivolity , and [the daughter]_{2905-the daughter} for theology . [They]_2910-them were in what is called a good position , and visited , and were visited by , numbers of [people]_4539-people . Little , if any , [community of feeling]_{2912-community of feeling} subsisted between [them]_2910-them and [Estella]_195-estella , but the understanding was established that they were necessary to [her]_195-estella , and that [she]_195-estella was necessary to [them]_2910-them . [Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} had been [a friend of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's before the time of [her]_{337-mrs. brandley} seclusion]_{2913-a friend of miss havisham 's before the time of her seclusion} . In [[Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} 's house]_{2914-mrs. brandley 's house} and out of [[Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} 's house]_{2914-mrs. brandley 's house} , [I]_0-i suffered every kind and degree of torture that [Estella]_195-estella could cause [me]_0-i . The nature of [my]_0-i relations with [her]_195-estella , which placed [me]_0-i on terms of familiarity without placing [me]_0-i on terms of favor , conduced to [my]_0-i distraction . [She]_195-estella made use of [me]_0-i to tease [other admirers]_{2916-other admirers} , and [she]_195-estella turned the very familiarity between [herself]_195-estella and [me]_0-i to the account of putting a constant slight on [my]_0-i devotion to [her]_195-estella . If [I]_0-i had been [[her]_195-estella secretary]_{2917-her secretary} , [steward]_2918-steward , [half - brother]_{2919-half - brother} , [poor relation]_{2920-poor relation} , - if [I]_0-i had been [a younger brother of [[her]_195-estella appointed husband]_{2922-her appointed husband}]_{2921-a younger brother of her appointed husband} , - [I]_0-i could not have seemed to [myself]_0-i further from [my]_0-i hopes when [I]_0-i was nearest to [her]_195-estella . The privilege of calling [her]_195-estella by [her]_195-estella name and hearing [her]_195-estella call [me]_0-i by [mine]_0-i became , under the circumstances an aggravation of [my]_0-i trials ; and while [I]_0-i think it likely that it almost maddened [[her]_195-estella other lovers]_{2923-her other lovers} , [I]_0-i know too certainly that it almost maddened [me]_0-i . [She]_195-estella had [admirers]_{2924-admirers} without end . No doubt [my]_0-i jealousy made [an admirer of every one who went near [her]_195-estella]_{2925-an admirer of every one who went near her} ; but there were more than enough of [them]_{2924-admirers} without that . [I]_0-i saw [her]_195-estella often at [Richmond]_72-richmond , [I]_0-i heard of [her]_195-estella often in [town]_4800-town , and [I]_0-i used often to take [her]_195-estella and [the Brandleys]_{338-the brandleys} on [the water]_{5191-the water} ; there were picnics , fete days , plays , operas , concerts , parties , all sorts of pleasures , through which [I]_0-i pursued [her]_195-estella , - and they were all miseries to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i never had one hour 's happiness in [her]_195-estella society , and yet [my]_0-i mind all round the four - and - twenty hours was harping on the happiness of having [her]_195-estella with [me]_0-i unto death . Throughout this part of [our]_2928-our intercourse , - and it lasted , as will presently be seen , for what [I]_0-i then thought a long time , - [she]_195-estella habitually reverted to that tone which expressed that [our]_2928-our association was forced upon [us]_2928-our . There were other times when [she]_195-estella would come to a sudden check in this tone and in all [her]_195-estella many tones , and would seem to pity [me]_0-i . " [Pip]_241-pip , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella said one evening , coming to such a check , when [we]_2928-our sat apart at a darkening window of [the house in [Richmond]_72-richmond]_{2929-the house in richmond} ; " will [you]_241-pip never take warning ? "_{[195-estella]} " Of what ? "_{[195-estella]} " Of [me]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} " Warning not to be attracted by [you]_241-pip , do [you]_241-pip mean , [Estella]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} " Do [I]_195-estella mean ! If [you]_241-pip do n't know what [I]_195-estella mean , [you]_241-pip are blind . "_{[195-estella]} [I]_0-i should have replied that Love was commonly reputed blind , but for the reason that [I]_0-i always was restrained - and this was not the least of [my]_0-i miseries - by a feeling that it was ungenerous to press [myself]_0-i upon [her]_195-estella , when [she]_195-estella knew that [she]_195-estella could not choose but obey [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . [My]_0-i dread always was , that this knowledge on [her]_195-estella part laid [me]_0-i under a heavy disadvantage with [her]_195-estella pride , and made [me]_0-i the subject of a rebellious struggle in [her]_195-estella bosom . " At any rate , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i have no warning given [me]_0-i just now , for [you]_195-estella wrote to [me]_0-i to come to [you]_195-estella , this time . "_[0-i] " That 's true , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , with a cold careless smile that always chilled [me]_0-i . After looking at the twilight without , for a little while , [she]_195-estella went on to say : - " The time has come round when [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} wishes to have [me]_195-estella for a day at [Satis]_89-satis . [You]_0-i are to take [me]_195-estella [there]_4505-there , and bring [me]_195-estella back , if [you]_0-i will . [She]_{223-miss havisham} would rather [I]_195-estella did not travel alone , and objects to receiving [[my]_195-estella maid]_{6749-my maid} , for [she]_{223-miss havisham} has a sensitive horror of being talked of by [such people]_{6750-such people} . Can [you]_0-i take [me]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} " Can [I]_195-estella take [you]_195-estella , [Estella]_195-estella ! "_{[195-estella]} " [You]_0-i can then ? The day after to - morrow , if [you]_0-i please . [You]_0-i are to pay all charges out of [my]_195-estella purse , [You]_0-i hear the condition of [your]_0-i going ? "_{[195-estella]} " And must obey , "_[2930-i.] said [I.]_2930-i. This was all the preparation [I]_0-i received for that visit , or for others like it ; [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} never wrote to [me]_0-i , nor had [I]_0-i ever so much as seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} handwriting . [We]_2931-we went down on the next day but one , and [we]_2931-we found [her]_{223-miss havisham} in [the room where [I]_0-i had first beheld [her]_{223-miss havisham}]_{2932-the room where i had first beheld her} , and it is needless to add that there was no change in [Satis House]_{90-satis house} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} was even more dreadfully fond of [Estella]_195-estella than [she]_{223-miss havisham} had been when [I]_0-i last saw [them]_2933-them together ; [I]_0-i repeat the word advisedly , for there was something positively dreadful in the energy of [her]_{223-miss havisham} looks and embraces . [She]_{223-miss havisham} hung upon [Estella]_195-estella 's beauty , hung upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} words , hung upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} gestures , and sat mumbling [her]_{223-miss havisham} own trembling fingers while [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked at [her]_195-estella , as though [she]_{223-miss havisham} were devouring the beautiful creature [she]_{223-miss havisham} had reared . From [Estella]_195-estella [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked at [me]_0-i , with a searching glance that seemed to pry into [my]_0-i heart and probe its wounds . " How does [she]_{223-miss havisham} use [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip ; how does [she]_{223-miss havisham} use [you]_0-i ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} asked [me]_0-i again , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} witch - like eagerness , even in [Estella]_195-estella 's hearing . But , when [we]_2934-we sat by [her]_{223-miss havisham} flickering fire at night , [she]_{223-miss havisham} was most weird ; for then , keeping [Estella]_195-estella 's hand drawn through [her]_{223-miss havisham} arm and clutched in [her]_{223-miss havisham} own hand , [she]_{223-miss havisham} extorted from [her]_{223-miss havisham} , by dint of referring back to what [Estella]_195-estella had told [her]_{223-miss havisham} in [her]_{223-miss havisham} regular letters , the names and conditions of [the men whom [she]_{223-miss havisham} had fascinated]_{2935-the men whom she had fascinated} ; and as [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} dwelt upon this roll , with the intensity of a mind mortally hurt and diseased , [she]_{223-miss havisham} sat with [her]_{223-miss havisham} other hand on [her]_{223-miss havisham} crutch stick , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} chin on that , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} wan bright eyes glaring at [me]_0-i , a very spectre . [I]_0-i saw in this , wretched though it made [me]_0-i , and bitter the sense of dependence and even of degradation that it awakened , - [I]_0-i saw in this that [Estella]_195-estella was set to wreak [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's revenge on [men]_4561-men , and that [she]_195-estella was not to be given to [me]_0-i until [she]_195-estella had gratified it for a term . [I]_0-i saw in this , a reason for [her]_{223-miss havisham} being beforehand assigned to [me]_0-i . Sending [her]_{223-miss havisham} out to attract and torment and do mischief , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} sent [her]_{223-miss havisham} with the malicious assurance that [she]_{223-miss havisham} was beyond the reach of [all admirers]_{2937-all admirers} , and that [all who staked upon that cast]_{2938-all who staked upon that cast} were secured to lose . [I]_0-i saw in this that [I]_0-i , too , was tormented by a perversion of ingenuity , even while the prize was reserved for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i saw in this the reason for [my]_0-i being staved off so long and the reason for [[my]_0-i late guardian]_{2939-my late guardian} 's declining to commit [himself]_{2939-my late guardian} to the formal knowledge of such a scheme . In a word , [I]_0-i saw in this [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} as [I]_0-i had [her]_{223-miss havisham} then and there before [my]_0-i eyes , and always had had [her]_{223-miss havisham} before [my]_0-i eyes ; and [I]_0-i saw in this , the distinct shadow of [the darkened and unhealthy house in which [her]_{223-miss havisham} life was hidden from the sun]_{2940-the darkened and unhealthy house in which her life was hidden from the sun} . The candles that lighted [that room of [hers]_{223-miss havisham}]_{2941-that room of hers} were placed in sconces on the wall . They were high from the ground , and they burnt with the steady dulness of artificial light in air that is seldom renewed . As [I]_0-i looked round at [them]_2942-them , and at the pale gloom [they]_2942-them made , and at the stopped clock , and at the withered articles of bridal dress upon the table and the ground , and at [her]_{223-miss havisham} own awful figure with its ghostly reflection thrown large by the fire upon the ceiling and the wall , [I]_0-i saw in everything the construction that [my]_0-i mind had come to , repeated and thrown back to [me]_0-i . [My]_0-i thoughts passed into [the great room]_{2943-the great room} across the landing where the table was spread , and [I]_0-i saw it written , as it were , in the falls of the cobwebs from the centre - piece , in the crawlings of the spiders on the cloth , in the tracks of the mice as [they]_2944-they betook [their]_2944-they little quickened hearts behind the panels , and in the gropings and pausings of the beetles on the floor . It happened on the occasion of this visit that some sharp words arose between [Estella]_195-estella and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . It was the first time [I]_0-i had ever seen [them]_2945-them opposed . [We]_2946-we were seated by the fire , as just now described , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} still had [Estella]_195-estella 's arm drawn through [her]_{223-miss havisham} own , and still clutched [Estella]_195-estella 's hand in [hers]_{223-miss havisham} , when [Estella]_195-estella gradually began to detach [herself]_195-estella . [She]_195-estella had shown a proud impatience more than once before , and had rather endured that fierce affection than accepted or returned it . " What ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , flashing [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes upon [her]_195-estella , " are [you]_195-estella tired of [me]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Only a little tired of [myself]_195-estella , "_{[195-estella]} replied [Estella]_195-estella , disengaging [her]_195-estella arm , and moving to the great chimney - piece , where [she]_195-estella stood looking down at the fire . " Speak the truth , [you]_195-estella ingrate ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} cried [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , passionately striking [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick upon the floor ; " [you]_195-estella are tired of [me]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Estella]_195-estella looked at [her]_195-estella with perfect composure , and again looked down at the fire . [Her]_195-estella graceful figure and [her]_195-estella beautiful face expressed a self - possessed indifference to the wild heat of the other , that was almost cruel . " [You]_195-estella stock and stone ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} exclaimed [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [You]_195-estella cold , cold heart ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " What ? "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , preserving [her]_195-estella attitude of indifference as [she]_195-estella leaned against the great chimney - piece and only moving [her]_195-estella eyes ; " do [you]_195-estella reproach [me]_195-estella for being cold ? [You]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} " Are [you]_195-estella not ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} was the fierce retort . " [You]_195-estella should know , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . " [I]_195-estella am what [you]_195-estella have made [me]_195-estella . Take all the praise , take all the blame ; take all the success , take all the failure ; in short , take [me]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} " O , look at [her]_195-estella , look at [her]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} cried [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , bitterly ; " Look at [her]_195-estella so hard and thankless , on the hearth where [she]_195-estella was reared ! Where [I]_{223-miss havisham} took [her]_195-estella into this wretched breast when it was first bleeding from its stabs , and where [I]_{223-miss havisham} have lavished years of tenderness upon [her]_195-estella ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " At least [I]_195-estella was [no party to the compact]_{6751-no party to the compact} , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , " for if [I]_195-estella could walk and speak , when it was made , it was as much as [I]_195-estella could do . But what would [you]_195-estella have ? [You]_195-estella have been very good to [me]_195-estella , and [I]_195-estella owe everything to [you]_195-estella . What would [you]_195-estella have ? "_{[195-estella]} " Love , "_{[831-the other]} replied [the other]_{831-the other} . " [You]_195-estella have it . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_{223-miss havisham} have not , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [Mother]_2659-mother by adoption , "_{[195-estella]} retorted [Estella]_195-estella , never departing from the easy grace of [her]_195-estella attitude , never raising [her]_195-estella voice as [the other]_{831-the other} did , never yielding either to anger or tenderness , - " [mother]_2659-mother by adoption , [I]_{223-miss havisham} have said that [I]_{223-miss havisham} owe everything to [you]_195-estella . All [I]_{223-miss havisham} possess is freely [yours]_195-estella . All that [you]_195-estella have given [me]_{223-miss havisham} , is at [your]_195-estella command to have again . Beyond that , [I]_{223-miss havisham} have nothing . And if [you]_195-estella ask [me]_{223-miss havisham} to give [you]_195-estella , what [you]_195-estella never gave [me]_{223-miss havisham} , [my]_{223-miss havisham} gratitude and duty can not do impossibilities . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Did [I]_{223-miss havisham} never give [her]_6754-her love ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} cried [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , turning wildly to [me]_0-i . " Did [I]_{223-miss havisham} never give [her]_6754-her a burning love , inseparable from jealousy at all times , and from sharp pain , while [she]_6754-her speaks thus to [me]_{223-miss havisham} ! Let [her]_6754-her call [me]_{223-miss havisham} mad , let [her]_6754-her call [me]_{223-miss havisham} mad ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Why should [I]_195-estella call [you]_195-estella mad , "_{[195-estella]} returned [Estella]_195-estella , " [I]_195-estella , of [all people]_{6755-all people} ? Does [any one]_{841-any one} live , who knows what set purposes [you]_195-estella have , half as well as [I]_195-estella do ? Does [any one live]_{6757-any one live} , who knows what a steady memory [you]_195-estella have , half as well as [I]_195-estella do ? [I]_195-estella who have sat on this same hearth on the little stool that is even now beside [you]_195-estella there , learning [your]_195-estella lessons and looking up into [your]_195-estella face , when [your]_195-estella face was strange and frightened [me]_195-estella ! "_{[195-estella]} " Soon forgotten ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} moaned [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " Times soon forgotten ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " No , not forgotten , "_{[195-estella]} retorted [Estella]_195-estella , - " not forgotten , but treasured up in [my]_195-estella memory . When have [you]_195-estella found [me]_195-estella false to [your]_195-estella teaching ? When have [you]_195-estella found [me]_195-estella unmindful of [your]_195-estella lessons ? When have [you]_195-estella found [me]_195-estella giving admission here , "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella touched [her]_195-estella bosom with [her]_195-estella hand , " to anything that [you]_195-estella excluded ? Be just to [me]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} " So proud , so proud ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} moaned [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , pushing away [her]_{223-miss havisham} gray hair with both [her]_{223-miss havisham} hands . " Who taught [me]_195-estella to be proud ? "_{[195-estella]} returned [Estella]_195-estella . " Who praised [me]_195-estella when [I]_195-estella learnt [my]_195-estella lesson ? "_{[195-estella]} " So hard , so hard ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} moaned [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} former action . " Who taught [me]_195-estella to be hard ? "_{[195-estella]} returned [Estella]_195-estella . " Who praised [me]_195-estella when [I]_195-estella learnt [my]_195-estella lesson ? "_{[195-estella]} " But to be proud and hard to [me]_{223-miss havisham} ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} quite shrieked , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} stretched out [her]_{223-miss havisham} arms . " [Estella]_195-estella , [Estella]_195-estella , [Estella]_195-estella , to be proud and hard to [me]_{223-miss havisham} ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Estella]_195-estella looked at [her]_195-estella for a moment with a kind of calm wonder , but was not otherwise disturbed ; when the moment was past , [she]_195-estella looked down at the fire again . " [I]_195-estella can not think , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , raising [her]_195-estella eyes after a silence " why [you]_195-estella should be so unreasonable when [I]_195-estella come to see [you]_195-estella after a separation . [I]_195-estella have never forgotten [your]_195-estella wrongs and their causes . [I]_195-estella have never been unfaithful to [you]_195-estella or [your]_195-estella schooling . [I]_195-estella have never shown any weakness that [I]_195-estella can charge [myself]_195-estella with . "_{[195-estella]} " Would it be weakness to return [my]_{223-miss havisham} love ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} exclaimed [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " But yes , yes , [she]_195-estella would call it so ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_195-estella begin to think , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , in a musing way , after another moment of calm wonder , " that [I]_195-estella almost understand how this comes about . If [you]_195-estella had brought up [[your]_195-estella adopted daughter]_{6758-your adopted daughter} wholly in the dark confinement of [these rooms]_{6082-these rooms} , and had never let [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} know that there was such a thing as the daylight by which [she]_{6758-your adopted daughter} had never once seen [your]_195-estella face , - if [you]_195-estella had done that , and then , for a purpose had wanted [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} to understand the daylight and know all about it , [you]_195-estella would have been disappointed and angry ? "_{[195-estella]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} head in [her]_{223-miss havisham} hands , sat making a low moaning , and swaying [herself]_{223-miss havisham} on [her]_{223-miss havisham} chair , but gave no answer . " Or , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , - " which is a nearer case , - if [you]_195-estella had taught [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} , from the dawn of [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} intelligence , with [your]_195-estella utmost energy and might , that there was such a thing as daylight , but that it was made to be [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} enemy and destroyer , and [she]_{6758-your adopted daughter} must always turn against it , for it had blighted [you]_195-estella and would else blight [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} ; - if [you]_195-estella had done this , and then , for a purpose , had wanted [her]_{6758-your adopted daughter} to take naturally to the daylight and [she]_{6758-your adopted daughter} could not do it , [you]_195-estella would have been disappointed and angry ? "_{[195-estella]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} sat listening or it seemed so , for [I]_0-i could not see [her]_{223-miss havisham} face , but still made no answer . " So , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , " [I]_195-estella must be taken as [I]_195-estella have been made . The success is not [mine]_195-estella , the failure is not [mine]_195-estella , but the two together make [me]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had settled down , [I]_0-i hardly knew how , upon the floor , among the faded bridal relics with which it was strewn . [I]_0-i took advantage of the moment - [I]_0-i had sought one from the first - to leave [the room]_{633-the room} , after beseeching [Estella]_195-estella 's attention to [her]_195-estella , with a movement of [my]_0-i hand . When [I]_0-i left , [Estella]_195-estella was yet standing by the great chimney - piece , just as [she]_195-estella had stood throughout . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's gray hair was all adrift upon the ground , among the other bridal wrecks , and was a miserable sight to see . It was with a depressed heart that [I]_0-i walked in the starlight for an hour and more , about [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard} , and about [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} , and about [the ruined garden]_{2381-the ruined garden} . When [I]_0-i at last took courage to return to [the room]_{633-the room} , [I]_0-i found [Estella]_195-estella sitting at [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's knee , taking up some stitches in one of those old articles of dress that were dropping to pieces , and of which [I]_0-i have often been reminded since by the faded tatters of old banners that [I]_0-i have seen hanging up in [cathedrals]_{2954-cathedrals} . Afterwards , [Estella]_195-estella and [I]_0-i played at cards , as of yore , - only [we]_2955-we were skilful now , and played French games , - and so the evening wore away , and [I]_0-i went to bed . [I]_0-i lay in [that separate building across [the courtyard]_{4852-the courtyard}]_{2956-that separate building across the courtyard} . It was the first time [I]_0-i had ever lain down to rest in [Satis House]_{90-satis house} , and sleep refused to come near [me]_0-i . A thousand [Miss Havishams]_{339-miss havishams} haunted [me]_0-i . [She]_{339-miss havishams} was on this side of [my]_0-i pillow , on that , at the head of the bed , at the foot , behind the half - opened door of [the dressing - room]_{2958-the dressing - room} , in [the dressing - room]_{2958-the dressing - room} , in [the room overhead]_{2960-the room overhead} , in [the room beneath]_{2961-the room beneath} , - everywhere . At last , when the night was slow to creep on towards two o'clock , [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i absolutely could no longer bear the place as a place to lie down in , and that [I]_0-i must get up . [I]_0-i therefore got up and put on [my]_0-i clothes , and went out across [the yard]_{717-the yard} into [the long stone passage]_{2963-the long stone passage} , designing to gain [the outer courtyard]_{2964-the outer courtyard} and walk there for the relief of [my]_0-i mind . But [I]_0-i was no sooner in [the passage]_{616-the passage} than [I]_0-i extinguished [my]_0-i candle ; for [I]_0-i saw [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} going along [it]_{616-the passage} in a ghostly manner , making a low cry . [I]_0-i followed [her]_{223-miss havisham} at a distance , and saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} go up [the staircase]_{2966-the staircase} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} carried a bare candle in [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand , which [she]_{223-miss havisham} had probably taken from one of the sconces in [[her]_{223-miss havisham} own room]_{1356-her own room} , and was a most unearthly object by its light . Standing at the bottom of [the staircase]_{2966-the staircase} , [I]_0-i felt the mildewed air of [the feast - chamber]_{2969-the feast - chamber} , without seeing [her]_{223-miss havisham} open the door , and [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} walking [there]_4505-there , and so across into [[her]_{223-miss havisham} own room]_{1356-her own room} , and so across again into that , never ceasing the low cry . After a time , [I]_0-i tried in the dark both to get out , and to go back , but [I]_0-i could do neither until some streaks of day strayed in and showed [me]_0-i where to lay [my]_0-i hands . During the whole interval , whenever [I]_0-i went to the bottom of the staircase , [I]_0-i heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} footstep , saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} light pass above , and heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} ceaseless low cry . Before [we]_2972-we left next day , there was no revival of the difference between [her]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella , nor was it ever revived on any similar occasion ; and there were four similar occasions , to the best of [my]_0-i remembrance . Nor , did [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's manner towards [Estella]_195-estella in anywise change , except that [I]_0-i believed it to have something like fear infused among its former characteristics . It is impossible to turn this leaf of [my]_0-i life , without putting [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle 's name upon it ; or [I]_0-i would , very gladly . On a certain occasion when [the Finches]_{2973-the finches} were assembled in force , and when good feeling was being promoted in the usual manner by [nobody]_4527-nobody 's agreeing with [anybody else]_{5842-anybody else} , [the presiding Finch]_{2976-the presiding finch} called [the Grove]_{78-the grove} to order , forasmuch as [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle had not yet toasted [a lady]_{5245-a lady} ; which , according to the solemn constitution of [the society]_{6612-the society} , it was [the brute]_{5933-the brute} 's turn to do that day . [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i saw [him]_275-drummle leer in an ugly way at [me]_0-i while the decanters were going round , but as there was no love lost between [us]_2980-us , that might easily be . What was [my]_0-i indignant surprise when [he]_275-drummle called upon [the company]_{648-the company} to pledge [him]_275-drummle to " [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[0-i] " [Estella]_195-estella who ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Never [you]_0-i mind , "_{[275-drummle]} retorted [Drummle]_275-drummle . " [Estella]_195-estella of where ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [You]_275-drummle are bound to say of where . "_{[275-drummle]} Which [he]_275-drummle was , as [a Finch]_{6619-a finch} . " Of [Richmond]_72-richmond , [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle , putting [me]_0-i out of the question , " and [a peerless beauty]_{6761-a peerless beauty} . "_{[275-drummle]} Much [he]_275-drummle knew about [peerless beauties]_{2983-peerless beauties} , [a mean , miserable idiot]_{2984-a mean , miserable idiot} ! [I]_0-i whispered [Herbert]_265-herbert . " [I]_265-herbert know [that lady]_{4839-that lady} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , across the table , when the toast had been honored . " Do [you]_265-herbert ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . " And so do [I]_0-i , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i added , with a scarlet face . " Do [you]_265-herbert ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . " O , [Lord]_6763-lord ! "_{[275-drummle]} This was the only retort - except glass or crockery - that [the heavy creature]_{2985-the heavy creature} was capable of making ; but , [I]_0-i became as highly incensed by it as if it had been barbed with wit , and [I]_0-i immediately rose in [my]_0-i place and said that [I]_0-i could not but regard it as being like the honorable [Finch]_341-finch 's impudence to come down to [that Grove]_{2986-that grove} , - [we]_2987-we always talked about coming down to [that Grove]_{2986-that grove} , as a neat Parliamentary turn of expression , - down to [that Grove]_{2986-that grove} , proposing [a lady of whom [he]_275-drummle knew nothing]_{2990-a lady of whom he knew nothing} . [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , upon this , starting up , demanded what [I]_0-i meant by that ? Whereupon [I]_0-i made [him]_275-drummle the extreme reply that [I]_0-i believed [he]_275-drummle knew where [I]_0-i was to be found . Whether it was possible in [a Christian country]_{2991-a christian country} to get on without blood , after this , was a question on which [the Finches]_{2973-the finches} were divided . The debate upon it grew so lively , indeed , that at least [six more honorable members]_{2993-six more honorable members} told [six more]_{2994-six more} , during the discussion , that [they]_{2993-six more honorable members} believed [they]_{2993-six more honorable members} knew where [they]_{2993-six more honorable members} were to be found . However , it was decided at last [the Grove]_{78-the grove} being [a Court of Honor]_{2995-a court of honor} that if [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle would bring never so slight a certificate from [the lady]_{5934-the lady} , importing that [he]_275-drummle had the honor of [her]_{5934-the lady} acquaintance , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip must express [his]_241-pip regret , as [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} and [a Finch]_{6619-a finch} , for " having been betrayed into a warmth which . "_[241-pip] Next day was appointed for the production lest [our]_2999-our honor should take cold from delay , and next day [Drummle]_275-drummle appeared with a polite little avowal in [Estella]_195-estella 's hand , that [she]_195-estella had had the honor of dancing with [him]_275-drummle several times . This left [me]_0-i no course but to regret that [I]_0-i had been " betrayed into a warmth which , "_[0-i] and on the whole to repudiate , as untenable , the idea that [I]_0-i was to be found anywhere . [Drummle]_275-drummle and [I]_0-i then sat snorting at [one another]_{4584-one another} for an hour , while [the Grove]_{6618-the grove} engaged in indiscriminate contradiction , and finally the promotion of good feeling was declared to have gone ahead at an amazing rate . [I]_0-i tell this lightly , but it was no light thing to [me]_0-i . For , [I]_0-i can not adequately express what pain it gave [me]_0-i to think that [Estella]_195-estella should show any favor to [a contemptible , clumsy , sulky booby]_{3002-a contemptible , clumsy , sulky booby} , so very far below the average . To the present moment , [I]_0-i believe it to have been referable to some pure fire of generosity and disinterestedness in [my]_0-i love for [her]_195-estella , that [I]_0-i could not endure the thought of [her]_195-estella stooping to that hound . No doubt [I]_0-i should have been miserable whomsoever [she]_195-estella had favored ; but a worthier object would have caused [me]_0-i a different kind and degree of distress . It was easy for [me]_0-i to find out , and [I]_0-i did soon find out , that [Drummle]_275-drummle had begun to follow [her]_195-estella closely , and that [she]_195-estella allowed [him]_275-drummle to do it . A little while , and [he]_275-drummle was always in pursuit of [her]_195-estella , and [he]_275-drummle and [I]_0-i crossed [one another]_{4584-one another} every day . [He]_275-drummle held on , in a dull persistent way , and [Estella]_195-estella held [him]_275-drummle on ; now with encouragement , now with discouragement , now almost flattering [him]_275-drummle , now openly despising [him]_275-drummle , now knowing [him]_275-drummle very well , now scarcely remembering who [he]_275-drummle was . The Spider , as [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had called [him]_3004-his , was used to lying in wait , however , and had the patience of [[his]_3004-his tribe]_{3005-his tribe} . Added to that , [he]_3004-his had a blockhead confidence in [his]_3004-his money and in [his]_3004-his family greatness , which sometimes did [him]_3004-his good service , - almost taking the place of concentration and determined purpose . So , the Spider , doggedly watching [Estella]_195-estella , outwatched many brighter insects , and would often uncoil [himself]_3004-his and drop at the right nick of time . At a certain Assembly Ball at [Richmond]_72-richmond there used to be Assembly Balls at most places then , where [Estella]_195-estella had outshone all other beauties , [this blundering Drummle]_275-drummle so hung about [her]_195-estella , and with so much toleration on [her]_195-estella part , that [I]_0-i resolved to speak to [her]_195-estella concerning [him]_275-drummle . [I]_0-i took the next opportunity ; which was when [she]_195-estella was waiting for [Mrs. Blandley]_{342-mrs. blandley} to take [her]_195-estella [home]_4495-home , and was sitting apart among some flowers , ready to go . [I]_0-i was with [her]_195-estella , for [I]_0-i almost always accompanied [them]_3007-them to and from such places . " Are [you]_195-estella tired , [Estella]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} " Rather , [Pip]_241-pip . "_{[195-estella]} " [You]_195-estella should be . "_{[195-estella]} " Say rather , [I]_195-estella should not be ; for [I]_195-estella have [my]_195-estella letter to [Satis House]_{90-satis house} to write , before [I]_195-estella go to sleep . "_{[195-estella]} " Recounting to - night 's triumph ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Surely [a very poor one]_{6764-a very poor one} , [Estella]_195-estella . "_[0-i] " What do [you]_195-estella mean ? [I]_195-estella did n't know there had been any . "_{[195-estella]} " [Estella]_195-estella , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " do look at [that fellow in the corner yonder]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} , who is looking over here at [us]_6766-us . "_[0-i] " Why should [I]_195-estella look at [him]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} ? "_{[195-estella]} returned [Estella]_195-estella , with [her]_195-estella eyes on [me]_0-i instead . " What is there in [that fellow in the corner yonder]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} , - to use [your]_195-estella words , - that [I]_195-estella need look at ? "_{[195-estella]} " Indeed , that is the very question [I]_0-i want to ask [you]_195-estella , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " For [he]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} has been hovering about [you]_195-estella all night . "_[0-i] " [Moths]_344-moths , and [all sorts of ugly creatures]_{6768-all sorts of ugly creatures} , "_{[195-estella]} replied [Estella]_195-estella , with a glance towards [him]_3008-him , " hover about a lighted candle . Can the candle help it ? "_{[195-estella]} " No , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned ; " but can not [the Estella]_195-estella help it ? "_[0-i] " Well ! "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella , laughing , after a moment , " perhaps . Yes . Anything [you]_0-i like . "_{[195-estella]} " But , [Estella]_195-estella , do hear [me]_0-i speak . It makes [me]_0-i wretched that [you]_195-estella should encourage [a man so generally despised as [Drummle]_275-drummle]_{6769-a man so generally despised as drummle} . [You]_0-i know [he]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} is despised . "_[0-i] " Well ? "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella . " [You]_0-i know [he]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} is as ungainly within as without . [A deficient , ill - tempered , lowering , stupid fellow]_{6770-a deficient , ill - tempered , lowering , stupid fellow} . "_{[195-estella]} " Well ? "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella . " [You]_0-i know [he]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} has nothing to recommend [him]_{6765-that fellow in the corner yonder} but money and a ridiculous roll of [addle - headed predecessors]_{6771-addle - headed predecessors} ; now , do n't [you]_0-i ? "_{[195-estella]} " Well ? "_{[195-estella]} said [she]_195-estella again ; and each time [she]_195-estella said it , [she]_195-estella opened [her]_195-estella lovely eyes the wider . To overcome the difficulty of getting past that monosyllable , [I]_0-i took it from [her]_195-estella , and said , repeating it with emphasis , " Well ! Then , that is why it makes [me]_0-i wretched . "_[0-i] Now , if [I]_0-i could have believed that [she]_195-estella favored [Drummle]_275-drummle with any idea of making [me]_0-i - [me]_0-i - wretched , [I]_0-i should have been in better heart about it ; but in that habitual way of [hers]_195-estella , [she]_195-estella put [me]_0-i so entirely out of the question , that [I]_0-i could believe nothing of the kind . " [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , casting [her]_195-estella glance over [the room]_{633-the room} , " do n't be foolish about its effect on [you]_241-pip . It may have its effect on [others]_5129-others , and may be meant to have . It 's not worth discussing . "_{[195-estella]} " Yes it is , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " because [I]_0-i can not bear that [people]_4539-people should say , ' [she]_195-estella throws away [her]_195-estella graces and attractions on a mere boor , the lowest in [the crowd]_{5127-the crowd} . ' "_[0-i] " [I]_195-estella can bear it , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . " Oh ! do n't be so proud , [Estella]_195-estella , and so inflexible . "_{[195-estella]} " Calls [me]_195-estella proud and inflexible in this breath ! "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , opening [her]_195-estella hands . " And in [his]_6775-him last breath reproached [me]_195-estella for stooping to a boor ! "_{[195-estella]} " There is no doubt [you]_195-estella do , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , something hurriedly , " for [I]_0-i have seen [you]_195-estella give [him]_6775-him looks and smiles this very night , such as [you]_195-estella never give to - [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] " Do [you]_195-estella want [me]_195-estella then , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , turning suddenly with a fixed and serious , if not angry , look , " to deceive and entrap [you]_195-estella ? "_{[195-estella]} " Do [you]_195-estella deceive and entrap [him]_6775-him , [Estella]_195-estella ? "_[0-i] " Yes , and many others , - all of [them]_6776-them but [you]_195-estella . Here is [Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} . [I]_0-i 'll say no more . "_[0-i] And now that [I]_0-i have given the one chapter to the theme that so filled [my]_0-i heart , and so often made it ache and ache again , [I]_0-i pass on unhindered , to the event that had impended over [me]_0-i longer yet ; the event that had begun to be prepared for , before [I]_0-i knew that [the world]_{4698-the world} held [Estella]_195-estella , and in the days when [her]_195-estella baby intelligence was receiving its first distortions from [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's wasting hands . In the Eastern story , the heavy slab that was to fall on the bed of state in the flush of conquest was slowly wrought out of [the quarry]_{3011-the quarry} , [the tunnel for the rope to hold it in its place]_{3012-the tunnel for the rope to hold it in its place} was slowly carried through the leagues of rock , the slab was slowly raised and fitted in the roof , the rope was rove to it and slowly taken through the miles of hollow to the great iron ring . All being made ready with much labor , and the hour come , [the sultan]_{3013-the sultan} was aroused in the dead of the night , and the sharpened axe that was to sever the rope from the great iron ring was put into [his]_{3013-the sultan} hand , and [he]_{3013-the sultan} struck with it , and the rope parted and rushed away , and the ceiling fell . So , in [my]_0-i case ; all the work , near and afar , that tended to the end , had been accomplished ; and in an instant the blow was struck , and the roof of [[my]_0-i stronghold]_{3014-my stronghold} dropped upon [me]_0-i . Chapter XXXIX [I]_0-i was three - and - twenty years of age . Not another word had [I]_0-i heard to enlighten [me]_0-i on the subject of [my]_0-i expectations , and [my]_0-i twenty - third birthday was a week gone . [We]_3015-we had left [Barnard 's Inn]_{35-barnard 's inn} more than a year , and lived in [the Temple]_{92-the temple} . [[Our]_3015-we chambers]_{3016-our chambers} were in [Garden - court]_{3017-garden - court} , down by [the river]_{413-the river} . [Mr. Pocket]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i had for some time parted company as to [our]_3015-we original relations , though [we]_3015-we continued on the best terms . Notwithstanding [my]_0-i inability to settle to anything , - which [I]_0-i hope arose out of the restless and incomplete tenure on which [I]_0-i held [my]_0-i means , - [I]_0-i had a taste for reading , and read regularly so many hours a day . That matter of [Herbert]_265-herbert 's was still progressing , and everything with [me]_0-i was as [I]_0-i have brought it down to the close of the last preceding chapter . Business had taken [Herbert]_265-herbert on a journey to [Marseilles]_{93-marseilles} . [I]_0-i was alone , and had a dull sense of being alone . Dispirited and anxious , long hoping that to - morrow or next week would clear [my]_0-i way , and long disappointed , [I]_0-i sadly missed the cheerful face and ready response of [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} . It was wretched weather ; stormy and wet , stormy and wet ; and mud , mud , mud , deep in all [the streets]_{5643-the streets} . Day after day , a vast heavy veil had been driving over [London]_8-london from [the East]_{94-the east} , and it drove still , as if in [the East]_{94-the east} there were an Eternity of cloud and wind . So furious had been the gusts , that [high buildings in [town]_4800-town]_{3021-high buildings in town} had had the lead stripped off [their]_{3021-high buildings in town} roofs ; and in [the country]_{1330-the country} , trees had been torn up , and sails of [windmills]_{3024-windmills} carried away ; and gloomy accounts had come in from [the coast]_{3025-the coast} , of shipwreck and death . Violent blasts of rain had accompanied these rages of wind , and the day just closed as [I]_0-i sat down to read had been the worst of all . Alterations have been made in [that part of [the Temple]_{3027-the temple}]_{3026-that part of the temple} since that time , and it has not now so lonely a character as it had then , nor is it so exposed to [the river]_{413-the river} . [We]_3029-we lived at the top of [the last house]_{3030-the last house} , and the wind rushing up [the river]_{413-the river} shook [the house]_{604-the house} that night , like discharges of cannon , or breakings of [a sea]_{3033-a sea} . When the rain came with it and dashed against the windows , [I]_0-i thought , raising [my]_0-i eyes to them as they rocked , that [I]_0-i might have fancied [myself]_0-i in [a storm - beaten lighthouse]_{3034-a storm - beaten lighthouse} . Occasionally , the smoke came rolling down the chimney as though it could not bear to go out into such a night ; and when [I]_0-i set the doors open and looked down the staircase , the staircase lamps were blown out ; and when [I]_0-i shaded [my]_0-i face with [my]_0-i hands and looked through the black windows opening them ever so little was out of the question in the teeth of such wind and rain , [I]_0-i saw that the lamps in [the court]_{3035-the court} were blown out , and that the lamps on [the bridges]_{3036-the bridges} and [the shore]_{4688-the shore} were shuddering , and that the coal - fires in barges on [the river]_{413-the river} were being carried away before the wind like red - hot splashes in the rain . [I]_0-i read with [my]_0-i watch upon the table , purposing to close [my]_0-i book at eleven o'clock . As [I]_0-i shut it , [[Saint Paul]_{30-saint paul 's} 's]_{3039-saint paul 's} , and all the many church - clocks in [the City]_{2029-the city} - some leading , some accompanying , some following - struck that hour . The sound was curiously flawed by the wind ; and [I]_0-i was listening , and thinking how the wind assailed and tore it , when [I]_0-i heard a footstep on the stair . What nervous folly made [me]_0-i start , and awfully connect it with the footstep of [[my]_0-i dead sister]_{3041-my dead sister} , matters not . It was past in a moment , and [I]_0-i listened again , and heard the footstep stumble in coming on . Remembering then , that the staircase - lights were blown out , [I]_0-i took up [my]_0-i reading - lamp and went out to [the stair - head]_{3042-the stair - head} . [Whoever was below]_{3043-whoever was below} had stopped on seeing [my]_0-i lamp , for all was quiet . " There is some one down there , is there not ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i called out , looking down . " Yes , "_{[3044-the voice]} said a voice from the darkness beneath . " What floor do [you]_0-i want ? "_{[3044-the voice]} " The top . [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . "_{[3044-the voice]} " That is [my]_{3044-the voice} name . - There is nothing the matter ? "_{[3044-the voice]} " Nothing the matter , "_{[3044-the voice]} returned [the voice]_{3044-the voice} . And [the man]_{433-the man} came on . [I]_0-i stood with [my]_0-i lamp held out over the stair - rail , and [he]_{433-the man} came slowly within its light . It was a shaded lamp , to shine upon a book , and its circle of light was very contracted ; so that [he]_{433-the man} was in it for a mere instant , and then out of it . In the instant , [I]_0-i had seen a face that was strange to [me]_0-i , looking up with an incomprehensible air of being touched and pleased by the sight of [me]_0-i . Moving the lamp as [the man]_{433-the man} moved , [I]_0-i made out that [he]_{433-the man} was substantially dressed , but roughly , like [a voyager by sea]_{3047-a voyager by sea} . That [he]_{433-the man} had long iron - gray hair . That [his]_{433-the man} age was about sixty . That [he]_{433-the man} was [a muscular man]_{3048-a muscular man} , strong on [his]_{433-the man} legs , and that [he]_{433-the man} was browned and hardened by exposure to weather . As [he]_{433-the man} ascended the last stair or two , and the light of [my]_0-i lamp included [us]_3049-us both , [I]_0-i saw , with a stupid kind of amazement , that [he]_{433-the man} was holding out both [his]_{433-the man} hands to [me]_0-i . " Pray what is [your]_{433-the man} business ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked [him]_{433-the man} . " [My]_{433-the man} business ? "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} repeated , pausing . " Ah ! Yes . [I]_{433-the man} will explain [my]_{433-the man} business , by [your]_0-i leave . "_{[433-the man]} " Do [you]_{433-the man} wish to come in ? "_{[433-the man]} " Yes , "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} replied ; " [I]_{433-the man} wish to come in , [master]_1447-master . "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i had asked [him]_{433-the man} the question inhospitably enough , for [I]_0-i resented the sort of bright and gratified recognition that still shone in [his]_{433-the man} face . [I]_0-i resented it , because it seemed to imply that [he]_{433-the man} expected [me]_0-i to respond to it . But [I]_0-i took [him]_{433-the man} into [the room]_{633-the room} [I]_0-i had just left , and , having set the lamp on the table , asked [him]_{433-the man} as civilly as [I]_0-i could to explain [himself]_{433-the man} . [He]_{433-the man} looked about [him]_{433-the man} with the strangest air , - an air of wondering pleasure , as if [he]_{433-the man} had some part in the things [he]_{433-the man} admired , - and [he]_{433-the man} pulled off a rough outer coat , and [his]_{433-the man} hat . Then , [I]_0-i saw that [his]_{433-the man} head was furrowed and bald , and that the long iron - gray hair grew only on its sides . But , [I]_0-i saw nothing that in the least explained [him]_{433-the man} . On the contrary , [I]_0-i saw [him]_{433-the man} next moment , once more holding out both [his]_{433-the man} hands to [me]_0-i . " What do [you]_{433-the man} mean ? "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , half suspecting [him]_{433-the man} to be mad . [He]_{433-the man} stopped in [his]_{433-the man} looking at [me]_0-i , and slowly rubbed [his]_{433-the man} right hand over [his]_{433-the man} head . " It 's disapinting to [a man]_{428-a man} , "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} said , in a coarse broken voice , " [arter]_{433-the man} having looked for'ard so distant , and come so fur ; but [you]_0-i 're not to blame for that , - neither on [us]_6779-us is to blame for that . [I]_{433-the man} 'll speak in half a minute . Give [me]_{433-the man} half a minute , please . "_{[433-the man]} [He]_{433-the man} sat down on a chair that stood before the fire , and covered [his]_{433-the man} forehead with [his]_{433-the man} large brown veinous hands . [I]_0-i looked at [him]_{433-the man} attentively then , and recoiled a little from [him]_{433-the man} ; but [I]_0-i did not know [him]_{433-the man} . " There 's [no one nigh]_{6780-no one nigh} , "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , looking over [his]_{433-the man} shoulder ; " is there ? "_{[433-the man]} " Why do [you]_{433-the man} , [a stranger coming into [[my]_0-i rooms]_{2680-my rooms}]_{6781-a stranger coming into my rooms} at this time of the night , ask that question ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [You]_0-i 're [a game one]_{6783-a game one} , "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} returned , shaking [his]_{433-the man} head at [me]_0-i with a deliberate affection , at once most unintelligible and most exasperating ; " [I]_{433-the man} 'm glad [you]_0-i 've grow'd up , [a game one]_{6783-a game one} ! But do n't catch hold of [me]_{433-the man} . [You]_0-i 'd be sorry arterwards to have done it . "_{[433-the man]} [I]_0-i relinquished the intention [he]_{433-the man} had detected , for [I]_0-i knew [him]_{433-the man} ! Even yet [I]_0-i could not recall a single feature , but [I]_0-i knew [him]_{433-the man} ! If the wind and the rain had driven away the intervening years , had scattered all the intervening objects , had swept [us]_3051-us to [the churchyard where [we]_3051-us first stood]_{3052-the churchyard where we first stood} face to face on such different levels , [I]_0-i could not have known [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} more distinctly than [I]_0-i knew [him]_{433-the man} now as [he]_{433-the man} sat in the chair before the fire . No need to take a file from [his]_{433-the man} pocket and show it to [me]_0-i ; no need to take the handkerchief from [his]_{433-the man} neck and twist it round [his]_{433-the man} head ; no need to hug [himself]_{433-the man} with both [his]_{433-the man} arms , and take a shivering turn across [the room]_{633-the room} , looking back at [me]_0-i for recognition . [I]_0-i knew [him]_{433-the man} before [he]_{433-the man} gave [me]_0-i one of those aids , though , a moment before , [I]_0-i had not been conscious of remotely suspecting [his]_{433-the man} identity . [He]_{433-the man} came back to where [I]_0-i stood , and again held out both [his]_{433-the man} hands . Not knowing what to do , - for , in [my]_0-i astonishment [I]_0-i had lost [my]_0-i self - possession , - [I]_0-i reluctantly gave [him]_{433-the man} [my]_0-i hands . [He]_{433-the man} grasped them heartily , raised them to [his]_{433-the man} lips , kissed them , and still held them . " [You]_0-i acted noble , [[my]_{433-the man} boy]_{4554-my boy} , "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} . " Noble , [Pip]_241-pip ! And [I]_{433-the man} have never forgot it ! "_{[433-the man]} At a change in [his]_{433-the man} manner as if [he]_{433-the man} were even going to embrace [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i laid a hand upon [his]_{433-the man} breast and put [him]_{433-the man} away . " Stay ! "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Keep off ! If [you]_0-i are grateful to [me]_0-i for what [I]_0-i did when [I]_0-i was [a little child]_{6786-a little child} , [I]_0-i hope [you]_0-i have shown [your]_0-i gratitude by mending [your]_0-i way of life . If [you]_0-i have come here to thank [me]_0-i , it was not necessary . Still , however [you]_0-i have found [me]_0-i out , there must be something good in the feeling that has brought [you]_0-i here , and [I]_0-i will not repulse [you]_0-i ; but surely [you]_0-i must understand that - [I]_0-i - "_[0-i] [My]_0-i attention was so attracted by the singularity of [his]_3055-i fixed look at [me]_0-i , that the words died away on [my]_0-i tongue . " [You]_6787-you was [a saying]_{6788-a saying} , "_[3055-i] [he]_3055-i observed , when [we]_3056-we had confronted [one another]_{4584-one another} in silence , " that surely [I]_3055-i must understand . What , surely must [I]_3055-i understand ? "_[3055-i] " That [I]_3058-i can not wish to renew that chance intercourse with [you]_0-i of long ago , under these different circumstances . [I]_3058-i am glad to believe [you]_0-i have repented and recovered [yourself]_0-i . [I]_3058-i am glad to tell [you]_0-i so . [I]_3058-i am glad that , thinking [I]_3058-i deserve to be thanked , [you]_0-i have come to thank [me]_3058-i . But [our]_3056-we ways are different ways , none the less . [You]_0-i are wet , and [you]_0-i look weary . Will [you]_0-i drink something before [you]_0-i go ? "_[3058-i] [He]_3058-i had replaced [his]_3058-i neckerchief loosely , and had stood , keenly observant of [me]_0-i , biting a long end of it . " [I]_3058-i think , "_[3058-i] [he]_3058-i answered , still with the end at [his]_3058-i mouth and still observant of [me]_0-i , " that [I]_3058-i will drink [I]_3058-i thank [you]_0-i afore [I]_3058-i go . "_[3058-i] There was a tray ready on a side - table . [I]_0-i brought it to the table near the fire , and asked [him]_3058-i what [he]_3058-i would have ? [He]_3058-i touched one of the bottles without looking at it or speaking , and [I]_0-i made [him]_3058-i some hot rum and water . [I]_0-i tried to keep [my]_0-i hand steady while [I]_0-i did so , but [his]_3058-i look at [me]_0-i as [he]_3058-i leaned back in [his]_3058-i chair with the long draggled end of [his]_3058-i neckerchief between [his]_3058-i teeth - evidently forgotten - made [my]_0-i hand very difficult to master . When at last [I]_0-i put the glass to [him]_3058-i , [I]_0-i saw with amazement that [his]_3058-i eyes were full of tears . Up to this time [I]_0-i had remained standing , not to disguise that [I]_0-i wished [him]_3058-i gone . But [I]_0-i was softened by the softened aspect of [the man]_{433-the man} , and felt a touch of reproach . " [I]_0-i hope , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , hurriedly putting something into a glass for [myself]_0-i , and drawing a chair to the table , " that [you]_3058-i will not think [I]_0-i spoke harshly to [you]_3058-i just now . [I]_0-i had no intention of doing it , and [I]_0-i am sorry for it if [I]_0-i did . [I]_0-i wish [you]_3058-i well and happy ! "_[0-i] As [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i glass to [my]_0-i lips , [he]_3058-i glanced with surprise at the end of [his]_3058-i neckerchief , dropping from [his]_3058-i mouth when [he]_3058-i opened it , and stretched out [his]_3058-i hand . [I]_0-i gave [him]_3058-i mine , and then [he]_3058-i drank , and drew [his]_3058-i sleeve across [his]_3058-i eyes and forehead . " How are [you]_3058-i living ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked [him]_3058-i . " [I]_3058-i 've been [a sheep - farmer]_{6789-a sheep - farmer} , [stock - breeder]_{6790-stock - breeder} , other trades besides , away in [the new world]_{6791-the new world} , "_[3058-i] said [he]_3058-i ; " many a thousand mile of stormy water off from this . "_[3058-i] " [I]_0-i hope [you]_3058-i have done well ? "_[0-i] " [I]_3058-i 've done wonderfully well . There 's [others]_5129-others went out alonger [me]_3058-i as has done well too , but [no man]_{801-no man} has done nigh as well as [me]_3058-i . [I]_3058-i 'm famous for it . "_[3058-i] " [I]_3058-i am glad to hear it . "_[3058-i] " [I]_3058-i hope to hear [you]_3058-i say so , [[my]_3058-i dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} . "_[3058-i] Without stopping to try to understand those words or the tone in which they were spoken , [I]_0-i turned off to a point that had just come into [my]_0-i mind . " Have [you]_3058-i ever seen [a messenger [you]_3058-i once sent to [me]_0-i]_{6795-a messenger you once sent to me} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i inquired , ' since [he]_3060-he undertook that trust ? " "_[0-i] Never set eyes upon [him]_3060-he . [I]_0-i warn't likely to it . " "_[0-i] [He]_3060-he came faithfully , and [he]_3060-he brought [me]_0-i the two one - pound notes . [I]_0-i was [a poor boy]_{3061-a poor boy} then , as [you]_3062-you know , and to [a poor boy]_{3061-a poor boy} they were a little fortune . But , like [you]_3062-you , [I]_0-i have done well since , and [you]_3062-you must let [me]_0-i pay them back . [You]_3062-you can put them to [some other poor boy]_{3064-some other poor boy} 's use . " [I]_3062-you took out [my]_3062-you purse . [He]_3060-he watched [me]_3062-you as [I]_3062-you laid [my]_3062-you purse upon the table and opened it , and [he]_3060-he watched [me]_3062-you as [I]_3062-you separated two one - pound notes from its contents . They were clean and new , and [I]_3062-you spread them out and handed them over to [him]_3060-he . Still watching [me]_3062-you , [he]_3060-he laid them one upon the other , folded them long - wise , gave them a twist , set fire to them at the lamp , and dropped the ashes into the tray . "_[3062-you] May [I]_0-i make so bold , " [he]_3060-he said then , with a smile that was like a frown , and with a frown that was like a smile , "_[0-i] as ask [you]_3062-you how [you]_3062-you have done well , since [you]_3062-you and [me]_0-i was out on them lone shivering marshes ? " "_[0-i] How ? " "_[0-i] Ah ! " [He]_3060-he emptied [his]_3060-he glass , got up , and stood at the side of the fire , with [his]_3060-he heavy brown hand on the mantel - shelf . [He]_3060-he put a foot up to the bars , to dry and warm it , and the wet boot began to steam ; but , [he]_3060-he neither looked at it , nor at the fire , but steadily looked at [me]_0-i . It was only now that [I]_0-i began to tremble . When [my]_0-i lips had parted , and had shaped some words that were without sound , [I]_0-i forced [myself]_0-i to tell [him]_3060-he though [I]_0-i could not do it distinctly , that [I]_0-i had been chosen to succeed to [some property]_{6796-some property} . "_[0-i] Might [a mere warmint]_{3065-a mere warmint} ask what property ? " said [he]_3060-he . [I]_0-i faltered , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know . " "_[0-i] Might [a mere warmint]_{3065-a mere warmint} ask [whose property]_{3067-whose property} ? " said [he]_3060-he . [I]_0-i faltered again , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know . " "_[0-i] Could [I]_0-i make a guess , [I]_0-i wonder , " said [the Convict]_{4709-the convict} , "_[0-i] at [your]_0-i income since [you]_0-i come of age ! As to [the first figure]_{3068-the first figure} now . Five ? " With [my]_{3068-the first figure} heart beating like a heavy hammer of disordered action , [I]_{3068-the first figure} rose out of [my]_{3068-the first figure} chair , and stood with [my]_{3068-the first figure} hand upon the back of it , looking wildly at [him]_3060-he . "_{[3068-the first figure]} Concerning [a guardian]_{3069-a guardian} , " [he]_3060-he went on . "_{[3068-the first figure]} There ought to have been [some guardian]_{3070-some guardian} , or such - like , whiles [you]_0-i was [a minor]_{3071-a minor} . [Some lawyer]_{3072-some lawyer} , maybe . As to the first letter of [that lawyer]_{3073-that lawyer} 's name now . Would it be [J]_346-j ? " All the truth of [my]_346-j position came flashing on [me]_346-j ; and its disappointments , dangers , disgraces , consequences of all kinds , rushed in in such a multitude that [I]_346-j was borne down by [them]_6798-them and had to struggle for every breath [I]_346-j drew . "_[346-j] Put it , " [he]_0-i resumed , "_[346-j] as the employer of [that lawyer whose name begun with a J]_{3074-that lawyer whose name begun with a j} , and might be [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , - put it as [he]_{3074-that lawyer whose name begun with a j} had come over [sea]_4858-sea to [Portsmouth]_{95-portsmouth} , and had landed [there]_4505-there , and had wanted to come on to [you]_0-i . ' However , [you]_0-i have found [me]_0-i out , ' [you]_0-i says just now . Well ! However , did [I]_0-i find [you]_0-i out ? Why , [I]_0-i wrote from [Portsmouth]_{95-portsmouth} to [a person in [London]_8-london]_{3077-a person in london} , for particulars of [your]_0-i address . [That person]_{5043-that person} 's name ? Why , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " [I]_254-wemmick could not have spoken one word , though it had been to save [my]_254-wemmick life . [I]_254-wemmick stood , with a hand on the chair - back and a hand on [my]_254-wemmick breast , where [I]_254-wemmick seemed to be suffocating , - [I]_254-wemmick stood so , looking wildly at [him]_0-i , until [I]_254-wemmick grasped at the chair , when [the room]_{633-the room} began to surge and turn . [He]_0-i caught [me]_254-wemmick , drew [me]_254-wemmick to the sofa , put [me]_254-wemmick up against the cushions , and bent on one knee before [me]_254-wemmick , bringing the face that [I]_254-wemmick now well remembered , and that [I]_254-wemmick shuddered at , very near to [mine]_254-wemmick . "_{[254-wemmick]} Yes , [Pip]_241-pip , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , [I]_0-i 've made [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} on [you]_{3079-dear boy} ! It 's [me]_0-i wot has done it ! [I]_0-i swore that time , sure as ever [I]_0-i earned a guinea , that guinea should go to [you]_{3079-dear boy} . [I]_0-i swore arterwards , sure as ever [I]_0-i spec'lated and got rich , [you]_{3079-dear boy} should get rich . [I]_0-i lived rough , that [you]_{3079-dear boy} should live smooth ; [I]_0-i worked hard , that [you]_{3079-dear boy} should be above work . What odds , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ? Do [I]_0-i tell it , fur [you]_{3079-dear boy} to feel a obligation ? Not a bit . [I]_0-i tell it , fur [you]_{3079-dear boy} to know as that there hunted dunghill dog wot [you]_{3079-dear boy} kep life in , got [his]_3082-his head so high that [he]_3082-his could make [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , - and , [Pip]_241-pip , [you]_{3079-dear boy} 're [him]_3082-his ! " The abhorrence in which [I]_241-pip held [the man]_{433-the man} , the dread [I]_241-pip had of [him]_{433-the man} , the repugnance with which [I]_241-pip shrank from [him]_{433-the man} , could not have been exceeded if [he]_{433-the man} had been some terrible beast . "_[241-pip] Look'ee here , [Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i 'm [[your]_{3079-dear boy} second father]_{3084-your second father} . [You]_{3079-dear boy} 're [[my]_0-i son]_{2171-my son} , - more to [me]_0-i nor [any son]_{3086-any son} . [I]_0-i 've put away money , only for [you]_{3079-dear boy} to spend . When [I]_0-i was [a hired - out shepherd]_{3087-a hired - out shepherd} in [a solitary hut]_{3088-a solitary hut} , not seeing no faces but faces of sheep till [I]_0-i half forgot wot [men]_4561-men 's and [women]_1013-women 's faces wos like , [I]_0-i see [yourn]_{3079-dear boy} . [I]_0-i drops [my]_0-i knife many a time in [that hut]_{3091-that hut} when [I]_0-i was a - eating [my]_0-i dinner or [my]_0-i supper , and [I]_0-i says , ' Here 's [the boy]_{4532-the boy} again , a looking at [me]_0-i whiles [I]_0-i eats and drinks ! ' [I]_0-i see [you]_{3079-dear boy} there a many times , as plain as ever [I]_0-i see [you]_{3079-dear boy} on [them misty marshes]_{3093-them misty marshes} . ' [Lord]_3094-lord strike [me]_0-i dead ! ' [I]_0-i says each time , - and [I]_0-i goes out in the air to say it under the open heavens , - ' but wot , if [I]_0-i gets liberty and money , [I]_0-i 'll make [that boy]_{532-that boy} [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} ! ' And [I]_0-i done it . Why , look at [you]_{3079-dear boy} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! Look at these here lodgings o'yourn , fit for [a lord]_{3098-a lord} ! [A lord]_{3098-a lord} ? Ah ! [You]_{3079-dear boy} shall show money with [lords]_3100-lords for wagers , and beat ['em]_3101-'em ! " In [his]_{532-that boy} heat and triumph , and in [his]_{532-that boy} knowledge that [I]_{3079-dear boy} had been nearly fainting , [he]_{532-that boy} did not remark on [my]_{3079-dear boy} reception of all this . It was the one grain of relief [I]_{3079-dear boy} had . "_{[3079-dear boy]} Look'ee here ! " [he]_{532-that boy} went on , taking [my]_{3079-dear boy} watch out of [my]_{3079-dear boy} pocket , and turning towards [him]_{532-that boy} a ring on [my]_{3079-dear boy} finger , while [I]_{3079-dear boy} recoiled from [his]_{532-that boy} touch as if [he]_{532-that boy} had been a snake , "_{[3079-dear boy]} a gold ' un and a beauty : that 's [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} 's , [I]_0-i hope ! A diamond all set round with rubies ; that 's [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} 's , [I]_0-i hope ! Look at [your]_3104-you linen ; fine and beautiful ! Look at [your]_3104-you clothes ; better ai n't to be got ! And [your]_3104-you books too , " turning [his]_{532-that boy} eyes round [the room]_{633-the room} , "_[3104-you] mounting up , on [their]_3105-their shelves , by [hundreds]_{3106-hundreds} ! And [you]_3104-you read 'em ; do n't [you]_3104-you ? [I]_0-i see [you]_3104-you 'd been a reading of 'em when [I]_0-i come in . Ha , ha , ha ! [You]_3104-you shall read 'em to [me]_0-i , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! And if they 're in foreign languages wot [I]_0-i do n't understand , [I]_0-i shall be just as proud as if [I]_0-i did . " Again [he]_{532-that boy} took both [my]_0-i hands and put them to [his]_{532-that boy} lips , while [my]_0-i blood ran cold within [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] Do n't [you]_3104-you mind talking , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [he]_{532-that boy} , after again drawing [his]_{532-that boy} sleeve over [his]_{532-that boy} eyes and forehead , as the click came in [his]_{532-that boy} throat which [I]_3104-you well remembered , - and [he]_{532-that boy} was all the more horrible to [me]_3104-you that [he]_{532-that boy} was so much in earnest ; "_[3104-you] [you]_3104-you ca n't do better nor keep quiet , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . [You]_3104-you ai n't looked slowly forward to this as [I]_0-i have ; [you]_3104-you wosn't prepared for this as [I]_0-i wos . But did n't [you]_3104-you never think it might be [me]_0-i ? " "_[3104-you] O no , no , no , " [I]_3104-you returned , "_[3104-you] Never , never ! " "_[3104-you] Well , [you]_3104-you see it wos [me]_0-i , and single - handed . Never a soul in it but [[my]_0-i own self]_{901-my own self} and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Was there [no one else]_{4591-no one else} ? " [I]_{4591-no one else} asked . "_{[4591-no one else]} No , " said [he]_0-i , with a glance of surprise : "_{[4591-no one else]} who else should there be ? And , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , how good looking [you]_3104-you have growed ! There 's bright eyes somewheres - eh ? Is n't there bright eyes somewheres , wot [you]_3104-you love the thoughts on ? " O [Estella]_195-estella , [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[3112-they] [They]_3112-they shall be [yourn]_3113-yourn , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , if money can buy ['em]_3115-'em . Not that [a gentleman like [you]_3104-you]_{3116-a gentleman like you} , so well set up as [you]_3104-you , ca n't win ['em]_3115-'em off of [his]_{3116-a gentleman like you} own game ; but money shall back [you]_3104-you ! Let [me]_0-i finish wot [I]_0-i was a telling [you]_{3079-dear boy} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . From that there hut and that there hiring - out , [I]_0-i got money left [me]_0-i by [[my]_0-i master]_{1498-my master} which died , and had been the same as [me]_0-i , and got [my]_0-i liberty and went for [myself]_0-i . In every single thing [I]_0-i went for , [I]_0-i went for [you]_{3079-dear boy} . ' [Lord]_3119-lord strike a blight upon it , ' [I]_0-i says , wotever it was [I]_0-i went for , ' if it ai n't for [him]_{1498-my master} ! ' It all prospered wonderful . As [I]_0-i giv ' [you]_{3079-dear boy} to understand just now , [I]_0-i 'm famous for it . It was the money left [me]_0-i , and the gains of the first few year wot [I]_0-i sent [home]_4495-home to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} - all for [you]_{3079-dear boy} - when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} first come arter [you]_{3079-dear boy} , agreeable to [my]_0-i letter . " O that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had never come ! That [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had left [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} at [the forge]_{488-the forge} , - far from contented , yet , by comparison happy ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} And then , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , it was a recompense to [me]_0-i , look'ee here , to know in secret that [I]_0-i was making [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} . The blood horses of [them]_3123-them colonists might fling up the dust over [me]_0-i as [I]_0-i was walking ; what do [I]_0-i say ? [I]_0-i says to [myself]_0-i , ' [I]_0-i 'm making [a better gentleman]_{3124-a better gentleman} nor ever [you]_{3079-dear boy} 'll be ! ' When [one of 'em]_{3125-one of 'em} says to [another]_3126-another , ' [He]_3127-he was [a convict]_{530-a convict} , a few year ago , and is [a ignorant common fellow]_{3129-a ignorant common fellow} now , for all [he]_3127-he 's lucky , ' what do [I]_0-i say ? [I]_0-i says to [myself]_0-i , ' If [I]_0-i ai n't [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , nor yet ai n't got no learning , [I]_0-i 'm [the owner of such]_{3131-the owner of such} . All on [you]_{3079-dear boy} owns stock and land ; which on [you]_{3079-dear boy} owns a brought - up [London]_8-london [gentleman]_{705-gentleman} ? ' This way [I]_0-i kep [myself]_0-i a going . And this way [I]_0-i held steady afore [my]_0-i mind that [I]_0-i would for certain come one day and see [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} , and make [myself]_0-i known to [him]_{4554-my boy} , on [his]_{4554-my boy} own ground . " [He]_{4554-my boy} laid [his]_{4554-my boy} hand on [my]_0-i shoulder . [I]_0-i shuddered at the thought that for anything [I]_0-i knew , [his]_{4554-my boy} hand might be stained with blood . "_[0-i] It warn't easy , [Pip]_241-pip , for [me]_0-i to leave [them]_3134-them parts , nor yet it warn't safe . But [I]_0-i held to it , and the harder it was , the stronger [I]_0-i held , for [I]_0-i was determined , and [my]_0-i mind firm made up . At last [I]_0-i done it . [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , [I]_0-i done it ! " [I]_0-i tried to collect [my]_0-i thoughts , but [I]_0-i was stunned . [Throughout]_{347-throughout} , [I]_0-i had seemed to [myself]_0-i to attend more to the wind and the rain than to [him]_0-i ; even now , [I]_0-i could not separate [his]_0-i voice from those voices , though those were loud and [his]_0-i was silent . "_[0-i] Where will [you]_0-i put [me]_0-i ? " [he]_0-i asked , presently . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i must be put somewheres , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " "_[0-i] To sleep ? " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] Yes . And to sleep long and sound , " [he]_0-i answered ; "_[0-i] for [I]_0-i 've been sea - tossed and sea - washed , months and months . " "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i friend and companion]_{3137-my friend and companion} , " said [I]_0-i , rising from the sofa , "_[0-i] is absent ; [you]_0-i must have [[his]_{3137-my friend and companion} room]_{625-his room} . " "_{[3137-my friend and companion]} [He]_{3137-my friend and companion} wo n't come back to - morrow ; will [he]_{3137-my friend and companion} ? " "_{[3137-my friend and companion]} No , " said [I]_{3137-my friend and companion} , answering almost mechanically , in spite of [my]_{3137-my friend and companion} utmost efforts ; "_{[3137-my friend and companion]} not to - morrow . " "_{[3137-my friend and companion]} Because , look'ee here , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_0-i said , dropping [his]_0-i voice , and laying a long finger on [my]_{3137-my friend and companion} breast in an impressive manner , "_{[3137-my friend and companion]} caution is necessary . " "_[0-i] How do [you]_0-i mean ? Caution ? " "_[0-i] By G - - , it 's Death ! " "_[0-i] What 's death ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was sent for life . It 's death to come back . There 's been overmuch coming back of late years , and [I]_0-i should of a certainty be hanged if took . " Nothing was needed but this ; [the wretched man]_{4592-the wretched man} , after loading wretched [me]_0-i with [his]_{4592-the wretched man} gold and silver chains for years , had risked [his]_{4592-the wretched man} life to come to [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i held it there in [my]_0-i keeping ! If [I]_0-i had loved [him]_0-i instead of abhorring [him]_0-i ; if [I]_0-i had been attracted to [him]_0-i by the strongest admiration and affection , instead of shrinking from [him]_0-i with the strongest repugnance ; it could have been no worse . On the contrary , it would have been better , for [his]_0-i preservation would then have naturally and tenderly addressed [my]_0-i heart . [My]_0-i first care was to close the shutters , so that no light might be seen from without , and then to close and make fast the doors . While [I]_0-i did so , [he]_0-i stood at the table drinking rum and eating biscuit ; and when [I]_0-i saw [him]_0-i thus engaged , [I]_0-i saw [[my]_0-i convict]_{814-my convict} on the marshes at [his]_0-i meal again . It almost seemed to [me]_0-i as if [he]_0-i must stoop down presently , to file at [his]_0-i leg . When [I]_0-i had gone into [[Herbert]_265-herbert 's room]_{6805-herbert 's room} , and had shut off any other communication between [it]_{6805-herbert 's room} and [the staircase]_{2966-the staircase} than through [the room in which [our]_6808-our conversation had been held]_{6807-the room in which our conversation had been held} , [I]_0-i asked [him]_0-i if [he]_0-i would go to bed ? [He]_0-i said yes , but asked [me]_0-i for some of [my]_0-i "_[0-i] gentleman 's linen " to put on in the morning . [I]_0-i brought it out , and laid it ready for [him]_0-i , and [my]_0-i blood again ran cold when [he]_0-i again took [me]_0-i by both hands to give [me]_0-i good night . [I]_0-i got away from [him]_0-i , without knowing how [I]_0-i did it , and mended the fire in [the room where [we]_6808-our had been together]_{6809-the room where we had been together} , and sat down by [it]_{6809-the room where we had been together} , afraid to go to bed . For an hour or more , [I]_0-i remained too stunned to think ; and it was not until [I]_0-i began to think , that [I]_0-i began fully to know how wrecked [I]_0-i was , and how [the ship in which [I]_0-i had sailed]_{6810-the ship in which i had sailed} was gone to pieces . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's intentions towards [me]_0-i , all a mere dream ; [Estella]_195-estella not designed for [me]_0-i ; [I]_0-i only suffered in [Satis House]_{90-satis house} as a convenience , a sting for the greedy relations , [a model with a mechanical heart to practise on when no other practice was at hand]_{6811-a model with a mechanical heart to practise on when no other practice was at hand} ; those were the first smarts [I]_0-i had . But , sharpest and deepest pain of all , - it was for [the convict]_{4709-the convict} , guilty of [I]_0-i knew not what crimes , and liable to be taken out of [those rooms where [I]_0-i sat thinking , and hanged at [the Old Bailey]_{6814-the old bailey} door]_{6813-those rooms where i sat thinking , and hanged at the old bailey door} , that [I]_0-i had deserted [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_0-i would not have gone back to [Joe]_154-joe now , [I]_0-i would not have gone back to [Biddy]_188-biddy now , for any consideration ; simply , [I]_0-i suppose , because [my]_0-i sense of [my]_0-i own worthless conduct to [them]_6815-them was greater than every consideration . No wisdom on [earth]_6816-earth could have given [me]_0-i the comfort that [I]_0-i should have derived from [their]_6815-them simplicity and fidelity ; but [I]_0-i could never , never , undo what [I]_0-i had done . In every rage of wind and rush of rain , [I]_0-i heard [pursuers]_{6817-pursuers} . Twice , [I]_0-i could have sworn there was a knocking and whispering at the outer door . With these fears upon [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i began either to imagine or recall that [I]_0-i had had mysterious warnings of [this man]_{581-this man} 's approach . That , for weeks gone by , [I]_0-i had passed faces in [the streets which [I]_0-i had thought like [his]_{581-this man}]_{6819-the streets which i had thought like his} . That these likenesses had grown more numerous , as [he]_{581-this man} , coming over [the sea]_{415-the sea} , had drawn nearer . That [his]_{581-this man} wicked spirit had somehow sent these messengers to [mine]_0-i , and that now on this stormy night [he]_{581-this man} was as good as [his]_{581-this man} word , and with [me]_0-i . Crowding up with these reflections came the reflection that [I]_0-i had seen [him]_{581-this man} with [my]_0-i childish eyes to be [a desperately violent man]_{6821-a desperately violent man} ; that [I]_0-i had heard [that other convict]_{6822-that other convict} reiterate that [he]_{6822-that other convict} had tried to murder [him]_{581-this man} ; that [I]_0-i had seen [him]_{581-this man} down in the ditch tearing and fighting like a wild beast . Out of such remembrances [I]_0-i brought into the light of the fire a half - formed terror that it might not be safe to be shut up there with [him]_{581-this man} in the dead of the wild solitary night . This dilated until it filled [the room]_{633-the room} , and impelled [me]_0-i to take a candle and go in and look at [my]_0-i dreadful burden . [He]_{581-this man} had rolled a handkerchief round [his]_{581-this man} head , and [his]_{581-this man} face was set and lowering in [his]_{581-this man} sleep . But [he]_{581-this man} was asleep , and quietly too , though [he]_{581-this man} had a pistol lying on the pillow . Assured of this , [I]_0-i softly removed the key to the outside of [his]_{581-this man} door , and turned it on [him]_{581-this man} before [I]_0-i again sat down by the fire . Gradually [I]_0-i slipped from the chair and lay on the floor . When [I]_0-i awoke without having parted in [my]_0-i sleep with the perception of [my]_0-i wretchedness , the clocks of [the Eastward churches]_{6824-the eastward churches} were striking five , the candles were wasted out , the fire was dead , and the wind and rain intensified the thick black darkness . THIS IS THE END OF [THE SECOND STAGE OF PIP]_{96-the second stage of pip} 'S EXPECTATIONS . Chapter XL It was fortunate for [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i had to take precautions to ensure so far as [I]_0-i could the safety of [[my]_0-i dreaded visitor]_{6825-my dreaded visitor} ; for , this thought pressing on [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i awoke , held other thoughts in a confused concourse at a distance . The impossibility of keeping [him]_{581-this man} concealed in [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} was self - evident . It could not be done , and the attempt to do it would inevitably engender suspicion . True , [I]_0-i had [no Avenger]_{6827-no avenger} in [my]_0-i service now , but [I]_0-i was looked after by [an inflammatory old female , assisted by an animated rag - bag whom [she]_6829-she called [[her]_6829-she niece]_{4924-her niece} , and to keep [a room]_{4866-a room} secret from [them]_6832-they]_{6828-an inflammatory old female , assisted by an animated rag - bag whom she called her niece , and to keep a room secret from them} would be to invite curiosity and exaggeration . [They]_6832-they both had weak eyes , which [I]_0-i had long attributed to [their]_6832-they chronically looking in at keyholes , and [they]_6832-they were always at hand when not wanted ; indeed that was [their]_6832-they only reliable quality besides larceny . Not to get up a mystery with [these people]_{5982-these people} , [I]_0-i resolved to announce in the morning that [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} had unexpectedly come from [the country]_{1330-the country} . This course [I]_0-i decided on while [I]_0-i was yet groping about in the darkness for the means of getting a light . Not stumbling on the means after all , [I]_0-i was fain to go out to [the adjacent Lodge]_{6836-the adjacent lodge} and get [the watchman there]_{6837-the watchman there} to come with [his]_{6837-the watchman there} lantern . Now , in groping [my]_0-i way down [the black staircase]_{6838-the black staircase} [I]_0-i fell over something , and that something was [a man crouching in a corner]_{6839-a man crouching in a corner} . As [the man]_{433-the man} made no answer when [I]_0-i asked [him]_{433-the man} what [he]_{433-the man} did there , but eluded [my]_0-i touch in silence , [I]_0-i ran to [the Lodge]_{6476-the lodge} and urged [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} to come quickly ; telling [him]_{6842-the watchman} of the incident on the way back . The wind being as fierce as ever , [we]_6843-we did not care to endanger the light in the lantern by rekindling the extinguished lamps on the staircase , but [we]_6843-we examined the staircase from the bottom to the top and found [no one there]_{6844-no one there} . It then occurred to [me]_0-i as possible that [the man]_{433-the man} might have slipped into [[my]_0-i rooms]_{2680-my rooms} ; so , lighting [my]_0-i candle at [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} 's , and leaving [him]_{433-the man} standing at the door , [I]_0-i examined them carefully , including [the room in which [[my]_0-i dreaded guest]_{6849-my dreaded guest} lay asleep]_{6848-the room in which my dreaded guest lay asleep} . All was quiet , and assuredly [no other man]_{6850-no other man} was in [those chambers]_{6851-those chambers} . It troubled [me]_0-i that there should have been [a lurker on the stairs]_{6852-a lurker on the stairs} , on that night of all nights in the year , and [I]_0-i asked [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} , on the chance of eliciting some hopeful explanation as [I]_0-i handed [him]_{6842-the watchman} a dram at the door , whether [he]_{6842-the watchman} had admitted at [his]_{6842-the watchman} gate [any gentleman who had perceptibly been dining out]_{6854-any gentleman who had perceptibly been dining out} ? Yes , [he]_{6842-the watchman} said ; at different times of the night , three . One lived in [Fountain Court]_{97-fountain court} , and [the other two]_{1103-the other two} lived in [the Lane]_{669-the lane} , and [he]_{6842-the watchman} had seen [them]_{1103-the other two} all go [home]_4495-home . Again , the only other man who dwelt in [the house of which [[my]_0-i chambers]_{6859-my chambers}]_{6858-the house of which my chambers} formed a part had been in [the country]_{1330-the country} for some weeks , and [he]_{6842-the watchman} certainly had not returned in the night , because [we]_6861-we had seen [his]_{6842-the watchman} door with [his]_{6842-the watchman} seal on it as [we]_6861-we came up - [stairs]_539-stairs . "_[0-i] The night being so bad , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} , as [he]_{6842-the watchman} gave [me]_4451-sir back [my]_4451-sir glass , "_[4451-sir] uncommon [few]_3141-few have come in at [[my]_0-i gate]_{3142-my gate} . Besides [them]_3141-few [three gentlemen that [I]_0-i have named]_{3143-three gentlemen that i have named} , [I]_0-i do n't call to mind another since about eleven o'clock , when [a stranger]_{1158-a stranger} asked for [you]_4451-sir . " "_{[1158-a stranger]} [[My]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} , " [I]_{1158-a stranger} muttered . "_{[1158-a stranger]} Yes . " "_{[1158-a stranger]} [You]_0-i saw [him]_{1497-my uncle} , [sir]_4451-sir ? " "_[0-i] Yes . Oh yes . " "_[0-i] Likewise [the person with [him]_{1497-my uncle}]_{3147-the person with him} ? " "_{[3147-the person with him]} Person with [him]_{1497-my uncle} ! " [I]_{1497-my uncle} repeated . "_{[1497-my uncle]} [I]_0-i judged [the person]_{5329-the person} to be with [him]_{1497-my uncle} , " returned [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} . "_[0-i] [The person]_{5329-the person} stopped , when [he]_{5329-the person} stopped to make inquiry of [me]_0-i , and [the person]_{5329-the person} took this way when [he]_{5329-the person} took this way . " "_{[5329-the person]} What sort of person ? " [The watchman]_{6842-the watchman} had not particularly noticed ; [he]_{6842-the watchman} should say [a working person]_{6866-a working person} ; to the best of [his]_{6842-the watchman} belief , [he]_{6842-the watchman} had a dust - colored kind of clothes on , under a dark coat . [The watchman]_{6842-the watchman} made more light of the matter than [I]_0-i did , and naturally ; not having [my]_0-i reason for attaching weight to it . When [I]_0-i had got rid of [him]_{6842-the watchman} , which [I]_0-i thought it well to do without prolonging explanations , [my]_0-i mind was much troubled by these two circumstances taken together . Whereas they were easy of innocent solution apart , - as , for instance , [some diner out or diner at [home]_4495-home , who had not gone near [[this watchman]_{6870-this watchman} 's gate]_{6871-this watchman 's gate}]_{6868-some diner out or diner at home , who had not gone near this watchman 's gate} , might have strayed to [[my]_0-i staircase]_{6872-my staircase} and dropped asleep there , - and [[my]_0-i nameless visitor]_{6873-my nameless visitor} might have brought some one with [him]_{6873-my nameless visitor} to show [him]_{6873-my nameless visitor} the way , - still , joined , [they]_6874-they had an ugly look to one as prone to distrust and fear as the changes of a few hours had made [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i lighted [my]_0-i fire , which burnt with a raw pale flare at that time of the morning , and fell into a doze before it . [I]_0-i seemed to have been dozing a whole night when the clocks struck six . As there was full an hour and a half between [me]_0-i and daylight , [I]_0-i dozed again ; now , waking up uneasily , with prolix conversations about nothing , in [my]_0-i ears ; now , making thunder of the wind in the chimney ; at length , falling off into a profound sleep from which the daylight woke [me]_0-i with a start . All this time [I]_0-i had never been able to consider [my]_0-i own situation , nor could [I]_0-i do so yet . [I]_0-i had not the power to attend to it . [I]_0-i was greatly dejected and distressed , but in an incoherent wholesale sort of way . As to forming any plan for the future , [I]_0-i could as soon have formed an elephant . When [I]_0-i opened the shutters and looked out at the wet wild morning , all of a leaden hue ; when [I]_0-i walked from [room]_6875-room to [room]_6875-room ; when [I]_0-i sat down again shivering , before the fire , waiting for [[my]_0-i laundress]_{6877-my laundress} to appear ; [I]_0-i thought how miserable [I]_0-i was , but hardly knew why , or how long [I]_0-i had been so , or on what day of the week [I]_0-i made the reflection , or even who [I]_0-i was that made it . At last , [the old woman]_{6878-the old woman} and [the niece]_{6879-the niece} came in , - the latter with a head not easily distinguishable from [her]_{6878-the old woman} dusty broom , - and testified surprise at sight of [me]_0-i and the fire . To whom [I]_0-i imparted how [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} had come in the night and was then asleep , and how the breakfast preparations were to be modified accordingly . Then [I]_0-i washed and dressed while [they]_6881-they knocked the furniture about and made a dust ; and so , in a sort of dream or sleep - waking , [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i sitting by the fire again , waiting for - [Him]_{1497-my uncle} - to come to breakfast . By and by , [his]_{1497-my uncle} door opened and [he]_{1497-my uncle} came out . [I]_0-i could not bring [myself]_0-i to bear the sight of [him]_{1497-my uncle} , and [I]_0-i thought [he]_{1497-my uncle} had a worse look by daylight . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do not even know , " said [I]_0-i , speaking low as [he]_{1497-my uncle} took [his]_{1497-my uncle} seat at the table , "_[0-i] by what name to call [you]_3151-he . [I]_0-i have given out that [you]_3151-he are [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} . " "_[0-i] That 's it , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! Call [me]_0-i [uncle]_658-uncle . " "_[658-uncle] [You]_3151-he assumed some name , [I]_0-i suppose , on [board ship]_{3155-board ship} ? " "_[3151-he] Yes , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . [I]_0-i took the name of [Provis]_348-provis . " "_[348-provis] Do [you]_3151-he mean to keep that name ? " "_[3151-he] Why , yes , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , it 's as good as another , - unless [you]_{3079-dear boy} 'd like another . " "_{[3079-dear boy]} What is [your]_3151-he real name ? " [I]_349-magwitch asked [him]_3151-he in a whisper . "_{[349-magwitch]} [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , " [he]_3151-he answered , in the same tone ; "_{[349-magwitch]} chrisen'd [Abel]_349-magwitch . " "_{[349-magwitch]} What were [you]_3151-he brought up to be ? " "_{[3158-a warmint]} [A warmint]_{3158-a warmint} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " [He]_3151-he answered quite seriously , and used the word as if it denoted some profession . "_{[3158-a warmint]} When [you]_3151-he came into [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} last night - " said [I]_3151-he , pausing to wonder whether that could really have been last night , which seemed so long ago . "_[3151-he] Yes , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ? " "_[3151-he] When [you]_3151-he came in at the gate and asked [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} the way here , had [you]_3151-he any one with [you]_3151-he ? " "_[3151-he] With [me]_0-i ? No , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " "_[3151-he] But there was [some one there]_{3164-some one there} ? " "_{[3164-some one there]} [I]_0-i did n't take particular notice , " [he]_3151-he said , dubiously , "_[0-i] not knowing the ways of [the place]_{4456-the place} . But [I]_0-i think there was [a person]_{3166-a person} , too , come in alonger [me]_0-i . " "_{[3166-a person]} Are [you]_3151-he known in [London]_8-london ? " "_[3151-he] [I]_0-i hope not ! " said [he]_3151-he , giving [his]_3151-he neck a jerk with [his]_3151-he forefinger that made [me]_3151-he turn hot and sick . "_[3151-he] Were [you]_3151-he known in [London]_8-london , once ? " "_[3151-he] Not over and above , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . [I]_0-i was in [the provinces]_{3168-the provinces} mostly . " "_[3151-he] Were [you]_3151-he - tried - in [London]_8-london ? " "_[3151-he] Which time ? " said [he]_3151-he , with a sharp look . "_[3151-he] The last time . " [He]_3151-he nodded . "_[3151-he] First knowed [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} that way . [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was for [me]_0-i . " It was on [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} lips to ask [him]_3151-he what [he]_3151-he was tried for , but [he]_3151-he took up a knife , gave it a flourish , and with the words , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} And what [I]_0-i done is worked out and paid for ! " fell to at [his]_3151-he breakfast . [He]_3151-he ate in a ravenous way that was very disagreeable , and all [his]_3151-he actions were uncouth , noisy , and greedy . Some of [his]_3151-he teeth had failed [him]_3151-he since [I]_0-i saw [him]_3151-he eat on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , and as [he]_3151-he turned [his]_3151-he food in [his]_3151-he mouth , and turned [his]_3151-he head sideways to bring [his]_3151-he strongest fangs to bear upon it , [he]_3151-he looked terribly like a hungry old dog . If [I]_0-i had begun with any appetite , [he]_3151-he would have taken it away , and [I]_0-i should have sat much as [I]_0-i did , - repelled from [him]_3151-he by an insurmountable aversion , and gloomily looking at the cloth . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm [a heavy grubber]_{3169-a heavy grubber} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_3151-he said , as a polite kind of apology when [he]_3151-he made an end of [his]_3151-he meal , "_[0-i] but [I]_0-i always was . If it had been in [my]_0-i constitution to be [a lighter grubber]_{3171-a lighter grubber} , [I]_0-i might ha ' got into lighter trouble . Similarly , [I]_0-i must have [my]_0-i smoke . When [I]_0-i was first hired out as shepherd t'other side [the world]_{4698-the world} , it 's [my]_0-i belief [I]_0-i should ha ' turned into [a molloncolly - mad sheep]_{3173-a molloncolly - mad sheep} [myself]_0-i , if [I]_0-i had n't a had [my]_0-i smoke . " As [he]_3151-he said so , [he]_3151-he got up from table , and putting [his]_3151-he hand into the breast of the pea - coat [he]_3151-he wore , brought out a short black pipe , and a handful of loose tobacco of the kind that is called [Negro]_350-negro - head . Having filled [his]_3151-he pipe , [he]_3151-he put the surplus tobacco back again , as if [his]_3151-he pocket were a drawer . Then , [he]_3151-he took a live coal from the fire with the tongs , and lighted [his]_3151-he pipe at it , and then turned round on the hearth - rug with [his]_3151-he back to the fire , and went through [his]_3151-he favorite action of holding out both [his]_3151-he hands for [mine]_3176-you . "_[0-i] And this , " said [he]_3151-he , dandling [my]_0-i hands up and down in [his]_3151-he , as [he]_3151-he puffed at [his]_3151-he pipe , - "_[0-i] and this is [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} what [I]_0-i made ! [The real genuine One]_{3175-the real genuine one} ! It does [me]_0-i good fur to look at [you]_3176-you , [Pip]_241-pip . All [I]_0-i stip'late , is , to stand by and look at [you]_3176-you , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! " [I]_0-i released [my]_0-i hands as soon as [I]_0-i could , and found that [I]_0-i was beginning slowly to settle down to the contemplation of [my]_0-i condition . What [I]_0-i was chained to , and how heavily , became intelligible to [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i heard [his]_0-i hoarse voice , and sat looking up at [his]_0-i furrowed bald head with its iron gray hair at the sides . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i must n't see [[my]_0-i gentleman]_{3178-my gentleman} a footing it in the mire of [the streets]_{5643-the streets} ; there must n't be no mud on [his]_{3178-my gentleman} boots . [[My]_0-i gentleman]_{3178-my gentleman} must have horses , [Pip]_241-pip ! [Horses]_3181-horses to ride , and horses to drive , and horses for [[his]_{3178-my gentleman} servant]_{3182-his servant} to ride and drive as well . Shall [colonists]_{3183-colonists} have [their]_{3183-colonists} horses and blood ' uns , if [you]_241-pip please , [good Lord]_{3184-good lord} ! and not [[my]_0-i London gentleman]_{3185-my london gentleman} ? No , no . [We]_3186-we 'll show ['em]_3187-'em another pair of shoes than that , [Pip]_241-pip ; wo n't [us]_3186-we ? " [He]_0-i took out of [his]_0-i pocket a great thick pocket - book , bursting with papers , and tossed it on the table . "_[241-pip] There 's something worth spending in that there book , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . It 's [yourn]_3189-yourn . All [I]_0-i 've got ai n't mine ; it 's [yourn]_3189-yourn . Do n't [you]_{3079-dear boy} be afeerd on it . There 's more where that come from . [I]_0-i 've come to [the old country]_{3190-the old country} fur to see [[my]_0-i gentleman]_{3178-my gentleman} spend [his]_{3178-my gentleman} money like [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} . That 'll be [my]_0-i pleasure . [My]_0-i pleasure ' ull be fur to see [him]_{3178-my gentleman} do it . And blast [you]_{3079-dear boy} all ! " [he]_0-i wound up , looking round [the room]_{633-the room} and snapping [his]_0-i fingers once with a loud snap , "_{[3079-dear boy]} blast [you]_{3079-dear boy} every one , from [the judge in [his]_{3193-the judge in his wig} wig]_{3193-the judge in his wig} , to [the colonist]_{3194-the colonist} a stirring up the dust , [I]_0-i 'll show [a better gentleman]_{3124-a better gentleman} than the whole kit on [you]_{3079-dear boy} put together ! " "_{[3124-a better gentleman]} Stop ! " said [I]_{3124-a better gentleman} , almost in a frenzy of fear and dislike , "_{[3124-a better gentleman]} [I]_0-i want to speak to [you]_{3079-dear boy} . [I]_0-i want to know what is to be done . [I]_0-i want to know how [you]_{3079-dear boy} are to be kept out of danger , how long [you]_{3079-dear boy} are going to stay , what projects [you]_{3079-dear boy} have . " "_[241-pip] Look'ee here , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [he]_0-i , laying [his]_0-i hand on [my]_241-pip arm in a suddenly altered and subdued manner ; "_[241-pip] first of all , look'ee here . [I]_0-i forgot [myself]_0-i half a minute ago . What [I]_0-i said was low ; that 's what it was ; low . Look'ee here , [Pip]_241-pip . Look over it . [I]_0-i ai n't a going to be low . " "_[0-i] First , " [I]_0-i resumed , half groaning , "_[0-i] what precautions can be taken against [your]_{3079-dear boy} being recognized and seized ? " "_[241-pip] No , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_0-i said , in the same tone as before , "_[241-pip] that do n't go first . [Lowness]_351-lowness goes first . [I]_0-i ai n't took so many year to make [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , not without knowing what 's due to [him]_{4657-a gentleman} . Look'ee here , [Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i was low ; that 's what [I]_0-i was ; low . Look over it , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " Some sense of the grimly - ludicrous moved [me]_0-i to a fretful laugh , as [I]_0-i replied , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have looked over it . In [Heaven]_23-heaven 's name , do n't harp upon it ! " "_[23-heaven] Yes , but look'ee here , " [he]_0-i persisted . "_{[3079-dear boy]} [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , [I]_0-i ai n't come so fur , not fur to be low . Now , go on , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . [You]_3201-you was a saying - " "_[3201-you] How are [you]_{3079-dear boy} to be guarded from the danger [you]_{3079-dear boy} have incurred ? " "_[3201-you] Well , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , the danger ai n't so great . Without [I]_0-i was informed agen , the danger ai n't so much to signify . There 's [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and there 's Wemmick , and there 's [you]_{3079-dear boy} . Who else is there to inform ? " "_[3201-you] Is there no chance person who might identify [you]_{3079-dear boy} in [the street]_{4824-the street} ? " said [I.]_0-i "_[3201-you] Well , " [he]_0-i returned , "_[3201-you] there ai n't many . Nor yet [I]_0-i do n't intend to advertise [myself]_0-i in the newspapers by the name of A.M. come back from [Botany Bay]_{98-botany bay} ; and years have rolled away , and who 's to gain by it ? Still , look'ee here , [Pip]_241-pip . If the danger had been fifty times as great , [I]_0-i should ha ' come to see [you]_241-pip , mind [you]_241-pip , just the same . " "_[0-i] And how long do [you]_{3079-dear boy} remain ? " "_[0-i] How long ? " said [he]_0-i , taking [his]_0-i black pipe from [his]_0-i mouth , and dropping [his]_0-i jaw as [he]_0-i stared at [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm not a going back . [I]_0-i 've come for good . " "_[0-i] Where are [you]_{3079-dear boy} to live ? " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] What is to be done with [you]_{3079-dear boy} ? Where will [you]_{3079-dear boy} be safe ? " "_{[3079-dear boy]} [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_0-i returned , "_{[3079-dear boy]} there 's disguising wigs can be bought for money , and there 's hair powder , and spectacles , and black clothes , - shorts and what not . [Others]_5129-others has done it safe afore , and what [others]_5129-others has done afore , [others]_5129-others can do agen . As to the where and how of living , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , give [me]_0-i [your]_{3079-dear boy} own opinions on it . " "_{[3079-dear boy]} [You]_{3079-dear boy} take it smoothly now , " said [I]_{3079-dear boy} , "_{[3079-dear boy]} but [you]_{3079-dear boy} were very serious last night , when [you]_{3079-dear boy} swore it was [Death]_353-death . " "_{[3079-dear boy]} And so [I]_0-i swear it is [Death]_353-death , " said [he]_0-i , putting [his]_0-i pipe back in [his]_0-i mouth , "_[353-death] and [Death]_353-death by the rope , in [the open street]_{3209-the open street} not fur from this , and it 's serious that [you]_{3079-dear boy} should fully understand it to be so . What then , when that 's once done ? Here [I]_0-i am . To go back now ' ud be as bad as to stand ground - worse . Besides , [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i 'm here , because [I]_0-i 've meant it by [you]_241-pip , years and years . As to what [I]_0-i dare , [I]_0-i 'm [a old bird]_{3210-a old bird} now , as has dared all manner of traps since first [he]_0-i was fledged , and [I]_0-i 'm not afeerd to perch upon a scarecrow . If there 's [Death]_353-death hid inside of it , there is , and let [him]_353-death come out , and [I]_0-i 'll face [him]_353-death , and then [I]_0-i 'll believe in [him]_353-death and not afore . And now let [me]_0-i have a look at [[my]_0-i gentleman agen]_{3211-my gentleman agen} . " Once more , [he]_0-i took [me]_0-i by both hands and surveyed [me]_0-i with an air of admiring proprietorship : smoking with great complacency all the while . It appeared to [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i could do no better than secure [him]_0-i some quiet lodging hard by , of which [he]_0-i might take possession when [Herbert]_265-herbert returned : whom [I]_0-i expected in two or three days . That the secret must be confided to [Herbert]_265-herbert as a matter of unavoidable necessity , even if [I]_0-i could have put the immense relief [I]_0-i should derive from sharing it with [him]_0-i out of the question , was plain to [me]_0-i . But it was by no means so plain to [Mr. Provis]_348-provis [I]_0-i resolved to call [him]_0-i by that name , who reserved [his]_0-i consent to [Herbert]_265-herbert 's participation until [he]_0-i should have seen [him]_3214-i and formed a favorable judgment of [his]_3214-i physiognomy . "_[0-i] And even then , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " said [he]_0-i , pulling a greasy little clasped black Testament out of [his]_0-i pocket , "_[0-i] [we]_3213-we 'll have [him]_3214-i on [his]_3214-i oath . " To state that [[my]_3214-i terrible patron]_{6884-my terrible patron} carried this little black book about [the world]_{4698-the world} solely to swear [people]_4539-people on in cases of emergency , would be to state what [I]_3214-i never quite established ; but this [I]_3214-i can say , that [I]_3214-i never knew [him]_0-i put it to any other use . The book itself had the appearance of having been stolen from [some court of justice]_{6887-some court of justice} , and perhaps [his]_0-i knowledge of its antecedents , combined with [his]_0-i own experience in that wise , gave [him]_0-i a reliance on its powers as a sort of legal spell or charm . On this first occasion of [his]_0-i producing it , [I]_3214-i recalled how [he]_0-i had made [me]_3214-i swear fidelity in [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} long ago , and how [he]_0-i had described [himself]_0-i last night as always swearing to [his]_0-i resolutions in [his]_0-i solitude . As [he]_0-i was at present dressed in a seafaring slop suit , in which [he]_0-i looked as if [he]_0-i had some parrots and cigars to dispose of , [I]_3214-i next discussed with [him]_0-i what dress [he]_0-i should wear . [He]_0-i cherished an extraordinary belief in the virtues of ' shorts "_[3214-i] as a disguise , and had in [his]_3215-his own mind sketched a dress for [himself]_3215-his that would have made [him]_3215-his something between [a dean]_{3216-a dean} and [a dentist]_{6057-a dentist} . It was with considerable difficulty that [I]_0-i won [him]_3215-his over to the assumption of a dress more like [a prosperous farmer]_{3218-a prosperous farmer} 's ; and [we]_3219-we arranged that [he]_3215-his should cut [his]_3215-his hair close , and wear a little powder . Lastly , as [he]_3215-his had not yet been seen by [the laundress]_{3220-the laundress} or [[her]_{3220-the laundress} niece]_{4924-her niece} , [he]_3215-his was to keep [himself]_3215-his out of [their]_3222-their view until [his]_3215-his change of dress was made . It would seem a simple matter to decide on these precautions ; but in [my]_0-i dazed , not to say distracted , state , it took so long , that [I]_0-i did not get out to further [them]_3223-them until two or three in the afternoon . [He]_3215-his was to remain shut up in [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} while [I]_0-i was gone , and was on no account to open the door . There being to [my]_0-i knowledge [a respectable lodging - house in [Essex Street]_{99-essex street} , the back of which looked into [the Temple]_{3027-the temple}]_{3225-a respectable lodging - house in essex street , the back of which looked into the temple} , and was almost within hail of [my]_0-i windows , [I]_0-i first of all repaired to [that house]_{2898-that house} , and was so fortunate as to secure [the second floor]_{3228-the second floor} for [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1497-my uncle} , [Mr. Provis]_348-provis . [I]_0-i then went from [shop]_3230-shop to [shop]_3230-shop , making such purchases as were necessary to the change in [his]_3215-his appearance . This business transacted , [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i face , on [my]_0-i own account , to [Little Britain]_{354-little britain} . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} desk , but , seeing [me]_0-i enter , got up immediately and stood before [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} fire . " Now , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " be careful . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_0-i will , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned . For , coming along [I]_0-i had thought well of what [I]_0-i was going to say . " Do n't commit [yourself]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " and do n't commit [any one]_{841-any one} . [You]_241-pip understand - any one . Do n't tell [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} anything : [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do n't want to know anything ; [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am not curious . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} Of course [I]_0-i saw that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} knew [the man]_{433-the man} was come . " [I]_0-i merely want , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " to assure [myself]_0-i that what [I]_0-i have been told is true . [I]_0-i have no hope of its being untrue , but at least [I]_0-i may verify it . "_[0-i] [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} nodded . " But did [you]_0-i say ' told ' or ' informed ' ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} asked [me]_0-i , with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head on one side , and not looking at [me]_0-i , but looking in a listening way at the floor . " Told would seem to imply verbal communication . [You]_0-i ca n't have verbal communication with [a man in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales}]_{6891-a man in new south wales} , [you]_0-i know . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} will say , informed , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Good . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have been informed by [a person named [Abel Magwitch]_349-magwitch]_{6892-a person named abel magwitch} , that [he]_{6892-a person named abel magwitch} is [the benefactor so long unknown to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers}]_{6893-the benefactor so long unknown to me} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " That is [the man]_{433-the man} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " And only [he]_{433-the man} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " And only [he]_{433-the man} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am not so unreasonable , [sir]_4451-sir , as to think [you]_0-i at all responsible for [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} mistakes and wrong conclusions ; but [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} always supposed it was [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " As [you]_0-i say , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} returned [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , turning [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes upon [me]_0-i coolly , and taking a bite at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} forefinger , " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am not at all responsible for that . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " And yet it looked so like it , [sir]_4451-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i pleaded with a downcast heart . " Not a particle of evidence , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , shaking [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head and gathering up [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} skirts . " Take nothing on its looks ; take everything on evidence . There 's no better rule . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_0-i have no more to say , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , with a sigh , after standing silent for a little while . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have verified [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} information , and there 's an end . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " And [Magwitch]_349-magwitch - in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} - having at last disclosed [himself]_349-magwitch , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " [you]_241-pip will comprehend , [Pip]_241-pip , how rigidly throughout [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} communication with [you]_241-pip , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have always adhered to the strict line of fact . There has never been the least departure from the strict line of fact . [You]_241-pip are quite aware of that ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Quite , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} communicated to [Magwitch]_349-magwitch - in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} - when [he]_349-magwitch first wrote to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} - from [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} - the caution that [he]_349-magwitch must not expect [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} ever to deviate from the strict line of fact . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} also communicated to [him]_349-magwitch another caution . [He]_349-magwitch appeared to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} to have obscurely hinted in [his]_349-magwitch letter at some distant idea [he]_349-magwitch had of seeing [you]_241-pip in [England]_7-england [here]_693-here . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} cautioned [him]_349-magwitch that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} must hear no more of that ; that [he]_349-magwitch was not at all likely to obtain a pardon ; that [he]_349-magwitch was expatriated for the term of [his]_349-magwitch natural life ; and that [his]_349-magwitch presenting [himself]_349-magwitch in [this country]_{4981-this country} would be an act of felony , rendering [him]_349-magwitch liable to the extreme penalty of the law . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} gave [Magwitch]_349-magwitch that caution , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , looking hard at [me]_0-i ; " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} wrote it to [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} . [He]_349-magwitch guided [himself]_349-magwitch by it , no doubt . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " No doubt , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have been informed by [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} pursued [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , still looking hard at [me]_0-i , " that [he]_349-magwitch has received a letter , under date [Portsmouth]_{95-portsmouth} , from [a colonist of the name of [Purvis]_356-purvis]_{6900-a colonist of the name of purvis} , or - "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Or Provis , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i suggested . " Or [Provis]_348-provis - thank [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip . Perhaps it is [Provis]_348-provis ? Perhaps [you]_0-i know it 's Provis ? "_[0-i] " Yes , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [You]_241-pip know it 's Provis . A letter , under date Portsmouth , from [a colonist of the name of Provis]_{6901-a colonist of the name of provis} , asking for the particulars of [your]_241-pip address , on behalf of [Magwitch]_349-magwitch . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick sent [him]_349-magwitch the particulars , [I]_0-i understand , by return of post . Probably it is through [Provis]_348-provis that [you]_241-pip have received the explanation of [Magwitch]_349-magwitch - in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} ? "_[0-i] " It came through [Provis]_348-provis , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied . " Good day , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , offering [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand ; " glad to have seen [you]_241-pip . In writing by post to [Magwitch]_349-magwitch - in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} - or in communicating with [him]_349-magwitch through Provis , have the goodness to mention that the particulars and vouchers of [our]_3233-our long account shall be sent to [you]_241-pip , together with the balance ; for there is still a balance remaining . Good day , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [We]_3233-our shook hands , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} looked hard at [me]_0-i as long as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could see [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i turned at the door , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was still looking hard at [me]_0-i , while [the two vile casts on the shelf]_{3234-the two vile casts on the shelf} seemed to be trying to get [their]_{3234-the two vile casts on the shelf} eyelids open , and to force out of [their]_{3234-the two vile casts on the shelf} swollen throats , " O , what [a man]_{428-a man} [he]_348-provis is ! "_{[254-wemmick]} [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was out , and though [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had been at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} desk [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could have done nothing for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i went straight back to [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} , where [I]_0-i found [the terrible Provis]_348-provis drinking rum and water and smoking negro - head , in safety . Next day the clothes [I]_0-i had ordered all came [home]_4495-home , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} put them on . Whatever [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} put on , became [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} less it dismally seemed to [me]_0-i than what [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had worn before . To [my]_0-i thinking , there was something in [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} that made it hopeless to attempt to disguise [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . The more [I]_0-i dressed [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} and the better [I]_0-i dressed [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , the more [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} looked like [the slouching fugitive on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes}]_{3237-the slouching fugitive on the marshes} . This effect on [my]_0-i anxious fancy was partly referable , no doubt , to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} old face and manner growing more familiar to [me]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i believe too that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} dragged one of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} legs as if there were still a weight of iron on it , and that from head to foot there was [Convict]_357-convict in the very grain of [the man]_{433-the man} . The influences of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} solitary hut - life were upon [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} besides , and gave [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} a savage air that no dress could tame ; added to these were the influences of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} subsequent branded life among [men]_4561-men , and , crowning all , [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} consciousness that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was dodging and hiding now . In all [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} ways of sitting and standing , and eating and drinking , - of brooding about in a high - shouldered reluctant style , - of taking out [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} great horn - handled jackknife and wiping it on [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} legs and cutting [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} food , - of lifting light glasses and cups to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} lips , as if they were clumsy pannikins , - of chopping a wedge off [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} bread , and soaking up with it the last fragments of gravy round and round [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} plate , as if to make the most of an allowance , and then drying [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} finger - ends on it , and then swallowing it , - in these ways and a thousand other small nameless instances arising every minute in the day , there was [Prisoner]_358-prisoner , [Felon]_359-felon , [Bondsman]_{3241-bondsman} , plain as plain could be . It had been [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} own idea to wear that touch of powder , and [I]_0-i had conceded the powder after overcoming the shorts . But [I]_0-i can compare the effect of it , when on , to nothing but the probable effect of rouge upon the dead ; so awful was the manner in which everything in [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} that it was most desirable to repress , started through that thin layer of pretence , and seemed to come blazing out at the crown of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head . It was abandoned as soon as tried , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} wore [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} grizzled hair cut short . [Words]_360-words can not tell what a sense [I]_0-i had , at the same time , of the dreadful mystery that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was to [me]_0-i . When [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} fell asleep of an evening , with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} knotted hands clenching the sides of the easy - chair , and [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} bald head tattooed with deep wrinkles falling forward on [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} breast , [I]_0-i would sit and look at [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , wondering what [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had done , and loading [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} with all the crimes in the Calendar , until the impulse was powerful on [me]_0-i to start up and fly from [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . Every hour so increased [my]_0-i abhorrence of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , that [I]_0-i even think [I]_0-i might have yielded to this impulse in the first agonies of being so haunted , notwithstanding all [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had done for [me]_0-i and the risk [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} ran , but for the knowledge that [Herbert]_265-herbert must soon come back . Once , [I]_0-i actually did start out of bed in the night , and begin to dress [myself]_0-i in [my]_0-i worst clothes , hurriedly intending to leave [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} there with everything else [I]_0-i possessed , and enlist for [India]_361-india as [a private soldier]_{3242-a private soldier} . [I]_0-i doubt if a ghost could have been more terrible to [me]_0-i , up in [those lonely rooms]_{3243-those lonely rooms} in the long evenings and long nights , with the wind and the rain always rushing by . [A ghost]_{3244-a ghost} could not have been taken and hanged on [my]_0-i account , and the consideration that [he]_{3244-a ghost} could be , and the dread that [he]_{3244-a ghost} would be , were no small addition to [my]_0-i horrors . When [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was not asleep , or playing a complicated kind of Patience with a ragged pack of cards of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} own , - a game that [I]_0-i never saw before or since , and in which [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} recorded [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} winnings by sticking [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} jackknife into the table , - when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was not engaged in either of these pursuits , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would ask [me]_0-i to read to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , - " Foreign language , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} While [I]_0-i complied , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} , not comprehending a single word , would stand before the fire surveying [me]_0-i with the air of [an Exhibitor]_{3245-an exhibitor} , and [I]_0-i would see [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , between the fingers of the hand with which [I]_0-i shaded [my]_0-i face , appealing in dumb show to the furniture to take notice of [my]_0-i proficiency . [The imaginary student pursued by the misshapen creature [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had impiously made]_{3246-the imaginary student pursued by the misshapen creature he had impiously made} , was not more wretched than [I]_0-i , pursued by the creature who had made [me]_0-i , and recoiling from [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} with a stronger repulsion , the more [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} admired [me]_0-i and the fonder [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was of [me]_0-i . This is written of , [I]_0-i am sensible , as if it had lasted a year . It lasted about five days . [Expecting Herbert]_265-herbert all the time , [I]_0-i dared not go out , except when [I]_0-i took [Provis]_348-provis for an airing after dark . At length , one evening when dinner was over and [I]_0-i had dropped into a slumber quite worn out , - for [my]_0-i nights had been agitated and [my]_0-i rest broken by fearful dreams , - [I]_0-i was roused by the welcome footstep on the staircase . [Provis]_348-provis , who had been asleep too , staggered up at the noise [I]_0-i made , and in an instant [I]_0-i saw [his]_348-provis jackknife shining in [his]_348-provis hand . " Quiet ! It 's [Herbert]_265-herbert ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said ; and [Herbert]_265-herbert came bursting in , with the airy freshness of six hundred miles of [France]_15-france upon [him]_265-herbert . " [Handel]_266-handel , [[my]_265-herbert dear fellow]_{6904-my dear fellow} , how are [you]_265-herbert , and again how are [you]_265-herbert , and again how are [you]_265-herbert ? [I]_265-herbert seem to have been gone a twelvemonth ! Why , so [I]_265-herbert must have been , for [you]_265-herbert have grown quite thin and pale ! [Handel]_266-handel , [my]_265-herbert - Halloa ! [I]_265-herbert beg [your]_265-herbert pardon . "_{[265-herbert]} [He]_265-herbert was stopped in [his]_265-herbert running on and in [his]_265-herbert shaking hands with [me]_0-i , by seeing [Provis]_348-provis . [Provis]_348-provis , regarding [him]_265-herbert with a fixed attention , was slowly putting up [his]_348-provis jackknife , and groping in another pocket for something else . " [Herbert]_265-herbert , [[my]_0-i dear friend]_{1820-my dear friend} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , shutting the double doors , while [Herbert]_265-herbert stood staring and wondering , ' something very strange has happened . This is - [a visitor of [mine]_348-provis]_{3247-a visitor of mine} . " "_{[3247-a visitor of mine]} It 's all right , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! " said [Provis]_348-provis coming forward , with [his]_348-provis little clasped black book , and then addressing [himself]_348-provis to [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_{[3247-a visitor of mine]} Take it in [your]_{3079-dear boy} right hand . [Lord]_3249-lord strike [you]_{3079-dear boy} dead on the spot , if ever [you]_{3079-dear boy} split in any way sumever ! Kiss it ! " "_{[265-herbert]} Do so , as [he]_265-herbert wishes it , " [I]_265-herbert said to [Herbert]_265-herbert . So , [Herbert]_265-herbert , looking at [me]_265-herbert with a friendly uneasiness and amazement , complied , and [Provis]_348-provis immediately shaking hands with [him]_265-herbert , said , "_{[265-herbert]} Now [you]_{3079-dear boy} 're on [your]_{3079-dear boy} oath , [you]_{3079-dear boy} know . And never believe [me]_0-i on [mine]_0-i , if [Pip]_241-pip sha n't make [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} on [you]_{3079-dear boy} ! " Chapter XLI In vain should [I]_{3079-dear boy} attempt to describe the astonishment and disquiet of [Herbert]_265-herbert , when [he]_265-herbert and [I]_{3079-dear boy} and [Provis]_348-provis sat down before the fire , and [I]_{3079-dear boy} recounted the whole of the secret . Enough , that [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw [my]_{3079-dear boy} own feelings reflected in [Herbert]_265-herbert 's face , and not least among them , [my]_{3079-dear boy} repugnance towards [the man who had done so much for [me]_{3079-dear boy}]_{6906-the man who had done so much for me} . What would alone have set a division between [that man]_{6907-that man} and [us]_6908-us , if there had been no other dividing circumstance , was [his]_{3079-dear boy} triumph in [my]_{3079-dear boy} story . Saving [his]_{3079-dear boy} troublesome sense of having been "_{[3079-dear boy]} low ' on one occasion since [his]_{3079-dear boy} return , - on which point [he]_{3079-dear boy} began to hold forth to [Herbert]_265-herbert , the moment [my]_0-i revelation was finished , - [he]_{3079-dear boy} had no perception of the possibility of [my]_0-i finding any fault with [my]_0-i good fortune . [His]_{3079-dear boy} boast that [he]_{3079-dear boy} had made [me]_0-i [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , and that [he]_{3079-dear boy} had come to see [me]_0-i support the character on [his]_{3079-dear boy} ample resources , was made for [me]_0-i quite as much as for [himself]_{3079-dear boy} . And that it was a highly agreeable boast to both of [us]_3252-us , and that [we]_3252-us must both be very proud of it , was a conclusion quite established in [his]_{3079-dear boy} own mind . " Though , look'ee here , [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} , "_{[3079-dear boy]} [he]_{3079-dear boy} said to [Herbert]_265-herbert , after having discoursed for some time , " [I]_265-herbert know very well that once since [I]_265-herbert come back - for half a minute - [I]_265-herbert 've been low . [I]_265-herbert said to [Pip]_241-pip , [I]_265-herbert knowed as [I]_265-herbert had been low . But do n't [you]_241-pip fret [yourself]_241-pip on that score . [I]_265-herbert ai n't made [Pip]_241-pip [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , and [Pip]_241-pip ai n't a going to make [you]_241-pip [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , not fur [me]_265-herbert not to know what 's due to [ye]_241-pip both . [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , and [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} , [you]_{3079-dear boy} two may count upon [me]_265-herbert always having a gen - teel muzzle on . Muzzled [I]_265-herbert have been since that half a minute when [I]_265-herbert was betrayed into lowness , muzzled [I]_265-herbert am at the present time , muzzled [I]_265-herbert ever will be . "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert said , " Certainly , "_{[265-herbert]} but looked as if there were no specific consolation in this , and remained perplexed and dismayed . [We]_3253-us were anxious for the time when [he]_265-herbert would go to [[his]_265-herbert lodging]_{3254-his lodging} and leave [us]_3253-us together , but [he]_265-herbert was evidently jealous of leaving [us]_3253-us together , and sat late . It was midnight before [I]_0-i took [him]_265-herbert round to [Essex Street]_{99-essex street} , and saw [him]_265-herbert safely in at [his]_265-herbert own dark door . When it closed upon [him]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i experienced the first moment of relief [I]_0-i had known since the night of [his]_265-herbert arrival . Never quite free from an uneasy remembrance of [the man on the stairs]_{3255-the man on the stairs} , [I]_0-i had always looked about [me]_0-i in taking [[my]_0-i guest]_{3256-my guest} out after dark , and in bringing [him]_265-herbert back ; and [I]_0-i looked about [me]_0-i now . Difficult as it is in [a large city]_{3257-a large city} to avoid the suspicion of being watched , when the mind is conscious of danger in that regard , [I]_0-i could not persuade [myself]_0-i that any of [the people within sight]_{3258-the people within sight} cared about [my]_0-i movements . [The few who were passing]_{3259-the few who were passing} passed on [their]_{3259-the few who were passing} several ways , and [the street]_{4824-the street} was empty when [I]_0-i turned back into [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} . [Nobody]_4527-nobody had come out at the gate with [us]_3263-we , [nobody]_4527-nobody went in at the gate with [me]_0-i . As [I]_0-i crossed by [the fountain]_{6045-the fountain} , [I]_0-i saw [his]_265-herbert lighted back windows looking bright and quiet , and , when [I]_0-i stood for a few moments in the doorway of [the building where [I]_0-i lived]_{3266-the building where i lived} , before going up the stairs , [Garden Court]_{103-garden court} was as still and lifeless as the staircase was when [I]_0-i ascended [it]_{103-garden court} . [Herbert]_265-herbert received [me]_0-i with open arms , and [I]_0-i had never felt before so blessedly what it is to have [a friend]_{6701-a friend} . When [he]_265-herbert had spoken some sound words of sympathy and encouragement , [we]_3263-we sat down to consider the question , What was to be done ? The chair that [Provis]_348-provis had occupied still remaining where [it]_3268-it had Stood , - for [he]_265-herbert had a barrack way with [him]_265-herbert of hanging about one spot , in one unsettled manner , and going through one round of observances with [his]_265-herbert pipe and [his]_265-herbert negro - head and [his]_265-herbert jackknife and [his]_265-herbert pack of cards , and what not , as if it were all put down for [him]_265-herbert on a slate , - [I]_0-i say [his]_265-herbert chair remaining where it had stood , [Herbert]_265-herbert unconsciously took it , but next moment started out of it , pushed it away , and took another . [He]_265-herbert had no occasion to say after that that [he]_265-herbert had conceived an aversion for [[my]_0-i patron]_{1386-my patron} , neither had [I]_0-i occasion to confess [my]_0-i own . [We]_3263-we interchanged that confidence without shaping a syllable . " What , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i to [Herbert]_265-herbert , when [he]_265-herbert was safe in another chair , - " what is to be done ? "_[0-i] " [My]_265-herbert poor dear [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [he]_265-herbert replied , holding [his]_265-herbert head , " [I]_265-herbert am too stunned to think . "_{[265-herbert]} " So was [I]_0-i , [Herbert]_265-herbert , when the blow first fell . Still , something must be done . [He]_265-herbert is intent upon various new expenses , - horses , and [carriages]_{6914-carriages} , and lavish appearances of all kinds . [He]_265-herbert must be stopped somehow . "_[0-i] " [You]_265-herbert mean that [you]_265-herbert ca n't accept - "_[0-i] " How can [I]_0-i ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i interposed , as [Herbert]_265-herbert paused . " Think of [him]_265-herbert ! Look at [him]_265-herbert ! "_{[265-herbert]} An involuntary shudder passed over both of [us]_3270-us . " Yet [I]_265-herbert am afraid the dreadful truth is , [Herbert]_265-herbert , that [he]_265-herbert is attached to [me]_265-herbert , strongly attached to [me]_265-herbert . Was there ever such a fate ! "_{[265-herbert]} " [My]_265-herbert poor dear [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert repeated . " Then , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " after all , stopping short here , never taking another penny from [him]_265-herbert , think what [I]_0-i owe [him]_265-herbert already ! Then again : [I]_0-i am heavily in debt , - very heavily for [me]_0-i , who have now no expectations , - and [I]_0-i have been bred to no calling , and [I]_0-i am fit for nothing . "_[0-i] " Well , well , well ! "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert remonstrated . " Do n't say fit for nothing . "_{[265-herbert]} " What am [I]_0-i fit for ? [I]_0-i know only one thing that [I]_0-i am fit for , and that is , to go for [a soldier]_{822-a soldier} . And [I]_0-i might have gone , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Herbert]_265-herbert , but for the prospect of taking counsel with [your]_265-herbert friendship and affection . "_[0-i] Of course [I]_0-i broke down there : and of course [Herbert]_265-herbert , beyond seizing a warm grip of [my]_0-i hand , pretended not to know it . " Anyhow , [[my]_265-herbert dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} said [he]_265-herbert presently , ' soldiering wo n't do . If [you]_0-i were to renounce this patronage and these favors , [I]_0-i suppose [you]_0-i would do so with some faint hope of one day repaying what [you]_0-i have already had . Not very strong , that hope , if [you]_0-i went soldiering ! Besides , it 's absurd . [You]_0-i would be infinitely better in [[Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} 's house]_{2895-clarriker 's house} , small as it is . [I]_0-i am working up towards a partnership , [you]_0-i know . " [Poor fellow]_{1401-poor fellow} ! [He]_{1401-poor fellow} little suspected with whose money . "_[0-i] But there is another question , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] This is [an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . More than that]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} , [he]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} seems to [me]_0-i [I]_0-i may misjudge [him]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} to be [a man of a desperate and fierce character]_{3273-a man of a desperate and fierce character} . " "_{[3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that]} [I]_0-i know [he]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} is , " [I]_0-i returned . "_[0-i] Let [me]_0-i tell [you]_0-i what evidence [I]_0-i have seen of it . " And [I]_0-i told [him]_0-i what [I]_0-i had not mentioned in [my]_0-i narrative , of that encounter with [the other convict]_{820-the other convict} . "_[0-i] See , then , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert ; "_[0-i] think of this ! [He]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} comes here at the peril of [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} life , for the realization of [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} fixed idea . In the moment of realization , after all [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} toil and waiting , [you]_3274-you cut the ground from under [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} feet , destroy [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} idea , and make [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} gains worthless to [him]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} . Do [you]_3274-you see nothing that [he]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} might do , under the disappointment ? " "_[3274-you] [I]_0-i have seen it , [Herbert]_265-herbert , and dreamed of it , ever since the fatal night of [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} arrival . Nothing has been in [my]_0-i thoughts so distinctly as [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} putting [himself]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} in the way of being taken . " "_{[3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that]} Then [you]_3274-you may rely upon it , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_{[3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that]} that there would be great danger of [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} doing it . That is [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} power over [you]_3274-you as long as [he]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} remains in [England]_7-england , and that would be [his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} reckless course if [you]_3274-you forsook [him]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} . " [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} was so struck by the horror of this idea , which had weighed upon [me]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} from the first , and the working out of which would make [me]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} regard [myself]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} , in some sort , as [[his]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} murderer]_{6920-his murderer} , that [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} could not rest in [my]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} chair , but began pacing to and fro . [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} said to [Herbert]_265-herbert , meanwhile , that even if [Provis]_348-provis were recognized and taken , in spite of [himself]_348-provis , [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} should be wretched as the cause , however innocently . Yes ; even though [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} was so wretched in having [him]_348-provis at large and near [me]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} , and even though [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} would far rather have worked at the forge all the days of [my]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} life than [I]_{3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that} would ever have come to this ! But there was no staving off the question , What was to be done ? "_{[3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that]} The first and the main thing to be done , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_{[3272-an ignorant , determined man , who has long had one fixed idea . more than that]} is to get [him]_3275-him out of [England]_7-england . [You]_3276-your will have to go with [him]_3275-him , and then [he]_3275-him may be induced to go . " "_[266-handel] But get [him]_3275-him where [I]_0-i will , could [I]_0-i prevent [his]_3275-him coming back ? " "_[0-i] [My]_0-i good [Handel]_266-handel , is it not obvious that with [Newgate]_17-newgate in [the next street]_{3277-the next street} , there must be far greater hazard in [your]_3276-your breaking [your]_3276-your mind to [him]_3275-him and making [him]_3275-him reckless , here , than elsewhere . If a pretext to get [him]_3275-him away could be made out of [that other convict]_{6822-that other convict} , or out of anything else in [his]_3275-him life , now . " "_[3276-your] There , again ! " said [I]_3276-your , stopping before [Herbert]_265-herbert , with [my]_3276-your open hands held out , as if they contained the desperation of the case . "_[3276-your] [I]_0-i know nothing of [his]_3275-him life . It has almost made [me]_0-i mad to sit here of a night and see [him]_3275-him before [me]_0-i , so bound up with [my]_0-i fortunes and misfortunes , and yet so unknown to [me]_0-i , except as [the miserable wretch who terrified [me]_0-i two days in [my]_0-i childhood]_{3279-the miserable wretch who terrified me two days in my childhood} ! " [Herbert]_265-herbert got up , and linked [his]_265-herbert arm in [mine]_0-i , and [we]_6921-we slowly walked to and fro together , studying the carpet . "_[266-handel] [Handel]_266-handel , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , stopping , "_[266-handel] [you]_266-handel feel convinced that [you]_266-handel can take no further benefits from [him]_3275-him ; do [you]_266-handel ? " "_[266-handel] Fully . Surely [you]_266-handel would , too , if [you]_266-handel were in [my]_0-i place ? " "_[266-handel] And [you]_266-handel feel convinced that [you]_266-handel must break with [him]_3275-him ? " "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert , can [you]_265-herbert ask [me]_0-i ? " "_{[265-herbert]} And [you]_265-herbert have , and are bound to have , that tenderness for the life [he]_3275-him has risked on [your]_265-herbert account , that [you]_265-herbert must save [him]_3275-him , if possible , from throwing it away . Then [you]_265-herbert must get [him]_3275-him out of [England]_7-england before [you]_265-herbert stir a finger to extricate [yourself]_265-herbert . That done , extricate [yourself]_265-herbert , in [Heaven]_23-heaven 's name , and [we]_3280-we 'll see it out together , [dear old boy]_{3281-dear old boy} . " It was a comfort to shake hands upon it , and walk up and down again , with only that done . "_{[265-herbert]} Now , [Herbert]_265-herbert , " said [I]_265-herbert , "_{[265-herbert]} with reference to gaining some knowledge of [his]_3275-him history . There is but one way that [I]_0-i know of . [I]_0-i must ask [him]_3275-him point blank . " "_[0-i] Yes . Ask [him]_3275-him , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[3275-him] when [we]_3280-we sit at breakfast in the morning . " For [he]_265-herbert had said , on taking leave of [Herbert]_265-herbert , that [he]_265-herbert would come to breakfast with [us]_3280-we . With this project formed , [we]_3280-we went to bed . [I]_3275-him had the wildest dreams concerning [him]_265-herbert , and woke unrefreshed ; [I]_3275-him woke , too , to recover the fear which [I]_3275-him had lost in the night , of [his]_265-herbert being found out as [a returned transport]_{6922-a returned transport} . Waking , [I]_3275-him never lost that fear . [He]_265-herbert came round at the appointed time , took out [his]_265-herbert jackknife , and sat down to [his]_265-herbert meal . [He]_265-herbert was full of plans "_[3275-him] for [[his]_3275-him gentleman]_{3282-his gentleman} 's coming out strong , and like [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , " and urged [me]_{4657-a gentleman} to begin speedily upon the pocket - book which [he]_265-herbert had left in [my]_{4657-a gentleman} possession . [He]_265-herbert considered [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} and [[his]_265-herbert own lodging]_{6924-his own lodging} as [temporary residences]_{6925-temporary residences} , and advised [me]_{4657-a gentleman} to look out at once for [a "_{[4657-a gentleman]} fashionable crib " near [Hyde Park]_{67-hyde park corner}]_{6926-a " fashionable crib " near hyde park} , in which [he]_265-herbert could have "_{[4657-a gentleman]} a shake - down . " When [he]_265-herbert had made an end of [his]_265-herbert breakfast , and was wiping [his]_265-herbert knife on [his]_265-herbert leg , [I]_{4657-a gentleman} said to [him]_265-herbert , without a word of preface , - "_{[4657-a gentleman]} After [you]_3284-you were gone last night , [I]_0-i told [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} of the struggle that [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} found [you]_3284-you engaged in on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , when [we]_3288-we came up . [You]_3284-you remember ? " "_[3284-you] Remember ! " said [he]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i think so ! " "_[0-i] [We]_3288-we want to know something about [that man]_{6907-that man} - and about [you]_3284-you . It is strange to know no more about either , and particularly [you]_3284-you , than [I]_0-i was able to tell last night . Is not this as good a time as another for [our]_3288-we knowing more ? " "_[3284-you] Well ! " [he]_265-herbert said , after consideration . "_[3284-you] [You]_3284-you 're on [your]_3284-you oath , [you]_3284-you know , [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} ? " "_[3284-you] Assuredly , " replied [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_[3284-you] As to anything [I]_0-i say , [you]_3284-you know , " [he]_265-herbert insisted . "_[0-i] The oath applies to all . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i understand it to do so . " "_[0-i] And look'ee here ! Wotever [I]_0-i done is worked out and paid for , " [he]_265-herbert insisted again . "_[0-i] So be it . " [He]_265-herbert took out [his]_265-herbert black pipe and was going to fill it with negro - head , when , looking at the tangle of tobacco in [his]_265-herbert hand , [he]_265-herbert seemed to think it might perplex the thread of [his]_265-herbert narrative . [He]_265-herbert put it back again , stuck [his]_265-herbert pipe in a button - hole of [his]_265-herbert coat , spread a hand on each knee , and after turning an angry eye on the fire for a few silent moments , looked round at [us]_6927-us and said what follows . Chapter XLII "_{[3079-dear boy]} [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} and [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} . [I]_0-i am not a going fur to tell [you]_{3079-dear boy} [my]_0-i life like a song , or a story - book . But to give it [you]_{3079-dear boy} short and handy , [I]_0-i 'll put it at once into a mouthful of English . In [jail]_3293-jail and out of [jail]_3293-jail , in [jail]_3293-jail and out of [jail]_3293-jail , in [jail]_3293-jail and out of [jail]_3293-jail . [There]_4505-there , [you]_{3079-dear boy} 've got it . That 's [my]_0-i life pretty much , down to such times as [I]_0-i got shipped off , arter [Pip]_241-pip stood [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} . " [I]_241-pip 've been done everything to , pretty well - except hanged . [I]_241-pip 've been locked up as much as a silver tea - kittle . [I]_241-pip 've been carted here and carted there , and put out of [this town]_{2149-this town} , and put out of [that town]_{6929-that town} , and stuck in the stocks , and whipped and worried and drove . [I]_241-pip 've no more notion where [I]_241-pip was born than [you]_{3079-dear boy} have - if so much . [I]_241-pip first become aware of [myself]_241-pip down in [Essex]_105-essex , [a thieving turnips for [my]_241-pip living]_{6930-a thieving turnips for my living} . [Summun]_362-summun had run away from [me]_241-pip - [a man]_{428-a man} - [a tinker]_{6932-a tinker} - and [he]_362-summun 'd took the fire with [him]_362-summun , and left [me]_241-pip wery cold . "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i know'd [my]_0-i name to be [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , chrisen'd [Abel]_349-magwitch . How did [I]_0-i know it ? Much as [I]_0-i know'd the birds ' names in the hedges to be chaffinch , sparrer , thrush . [I]_0-i might have thought it was all lies together , only as the birds ' names come out true , [I]_0-i supposed [mine]_0-i did . " So fur as [I]_0-i could find , there warn't a soul that see young [Abel Magwitch]_349-magwitch , with [us]_6933-us little on [him]_349-magwitch as in [him]_349-magwitch , but wot caught fright at [him]_349-magwitch , and either drove [him]_349-magwitch off , or took [him]_349-magwitch up . [I]_0-i was took up , took up , took up , to that extent that [I]_0-i reg'larly grow'd up took up . "_[0-i] This is the way it was , that when [I]_0-i was [a ragged little creetur as much to be pitied as ever]_{3301-a ragged little creetur as much to be pitied as ever} [I]_0-i see not that [I]_0-i looked in the glass , for there warn't many insides of [furnished houses]_{3302-furnished houses} known to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i got the name of being hardened . " This is [a terrible hardened one]_{6934-a terrible hardened one} , "_[3303-they] [they]_3303-they says to [prison wisitors]_{3304-prison wisitors} , picking out [me]_0-i . " May be said to live in [jails]_6480-jails , [this boy]_{4533-this boy} . "_[3303-they] Then [they]_3303-they looked at [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i looked at [them]_3303-they , and [they]_3303-they measured [my]_0-i head , some on 'em , - [they]_3303-they had better a measured [my]_0-i stomach , - and others on 'em giv [me]_0-i tracts what [I]_0-i could n't read , and made [me]_0-i speeches what [I]_0-i could n't understand . [They]_3303-they always went on agen [me]_0-i about [the Devil]_{5210-the devil} . But what [the Devil]_{5210-the devil} was [I]_0-i to do ? [I]_0-i must put something into [my]_0-i stomach , must n't [I]_0-i ? - [Howsomever]_{363-howsomever} , [I]_0-i 'm a getting low , and [I]_0-i know what 's due . [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} and [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} , do n't [you]_{3079-dear boy} be afeerd of [me]_0-i being low . " Tramping , begging , thieving , working sometimes when [I]_{3079-dear boy} could , - though that warn't as often as [you]_{3079-dear boy} may think , till [you]_{3079-dear boy} put the question whether [you]_{3079-dear boy} would ha ' been over - ready to give [me]_{3079-dear boy} work [yourselves]_{3079-dear boy} , - a bit of [a poacher]_{6937-a poacher} , a bit of [a laborer]_{6938-a laborer} , a bit of [a wagoner]_{6939-a wagoner} , a bit of [a haymaker]_{6940-a haymaker} , a bit of [a hawker]_{6941-a hawker} , a bit of most things that do n't pay and lead to trouble , [I]_{3079-dear boy} got to be [a man]_{428-a man} . [A deserting soldier]_{6943-a deserting soldier} in [a Traveller 's Rest]_{6944-a traveller 's rest} , what lay hid up to the chin under a lot of taturs , learnt [me]_{3079-dear boy} to read ; and [a travelling Giant]_{6945-a travelling giant} what signed [his]_{6945-a travelling giant} name at a penny a time learnt [me]_{3079-dear boy} to write . [I]_{3079-dear boy} warn't locked up as often now as formerly , but [I]_{3079-dear boy} wore out [my]_{3079-dear boy} good share of key - metal still . "_{[3079-dear boy]} At [Epsom]_106-epsom races , a matter of over twenty years ago , [I]_0-i got acquainted wi ' [a man whose skull [I]_0-i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if [I]_0-i 'd got it on this hob]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} . [His]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} right name was [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} ; and that 's [the man]_{433-the man} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , what [you]_{3079-dear boy} see [me]_0-i [a pounding in the ditch]_{3312-a pounding in the ditch} , according to what [you]_{3079-dear boy} truly told [[your]_{3079-dear boy} comrade]_{3313-your comrade} arter [I]_0-i was gone last night . " [He]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} set up fur [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} , [this Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , and [he]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} 'd been to [a public boarding - school]_{6947-a public boarding - school} and had learning . [He]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} was [a smooth one to talk]_{6948-a smooth one to talk} , and was [a dab at the ways of [gentlefolks]_{4953-gentlefolks}]_{6949-a dab at the ways of gentlefolks} . [He]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} was good - looking too . It was the night afore the great race , when [I]_{364-compeyson} found [him]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} on [the heath]_{6951-the heath} , in [a booth that [I]_{364-compeyson} know'd on]_{6952-a booth that i know'd on} . [Him]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} and some more was a sitting among the tables when [I]_{364-compeyson} went in , and [the landlord which had a knowledge of [me]_{364-compeyson}]_{6953-the landlord which had a knowledge of me} , and was [a sporting one]_{6954-a sporting one} called [him]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob} out , and said , ' [I]_{364-compeyson} think this is [a man that might suit [you]_{3309-a man whose skull i 'd crack wi ' this poker , like the claw of a lobster , if i 'd got it on this hob}]_{6955-a man that might suit you} , ' - meaning [I]_{364-compeyson} was . "_{[364-compeyson]} [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , [he]_{364-compeyson} looks at [me]_0-i very noticing , and [I]_0-i look at [him]_{364-compeyson} . [He]_{364-compeyson} has a watch and a chain and a ring and a breast - pin and a handsome suit of clothes . " ' To judge from appearances , [you]_0-i 're out of luck , ' says [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} to [me]_{364-compeyson} . "_{[364-compeyson]} ' Yes , [master]_1447-master , and [I]_0-i 've never been in it much . ' [I]_0-i had come out of [Kingston Jail]_{107-kingston jail} last on a vagrancy committal . Not but what it might have been for something else ; but it warn't . " ' Luck changes , ' says [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} ; ' perhaps [yours]_0-i is going to change . ' "_[0-i] [I]_0-i says , ' [I]_0-i hope it may be so . There 's [room]_6875-room . ' " ' What can [you]_0-i do ? ' says [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} . "_[0-i] ' Eat and drink , ' [I]_0-i says ; ' if [you]_{364-compeyson} 'll find the materials . ' " [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} laughed , looked at [me]_0-i again very noticing , giv [me]_0-i five shillings , and appointed [me]_0-i for next night . Same place . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went to [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} next night , [same place]_{3316-same place} , and [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} took [me]_0-i on to be [[his]_{364-compeyson} man]_{3317-his man} and [pardner]_3318-pardner . And what was [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's business in which [we]_3319-we was to go [pardners]_{3320-pardners} ? [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's business was the swindling , handwriting forging , stolen bank - note passing , and such - like . All sorts of traps as [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} could set with [his]_{364-compeyson} head , and keep [his]_{364-compeyson} own legs out of and get the profits from and let [another man]_{580-another man} in for , was [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's business . [He]_{364-compeyson} 'd no more heart than a iron file , [he]_{364-compeyson} was as cold as death , and [he]_{364-compeyson} had the head of [the Devil afore mentioned]_{3322-the devil afore mentioned} . " There was another in with [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , as was called [Arthur]_365-arthur , - not as being so chrisen'd , but as a surname . [He]_365-arthur was in a Decline , and was a shadow to look at . [Him]_365-arthur and [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} had been in a bad thing with [a rich lady]_{6956-a rich lady} some years afore , and [they]_3319-we 'd made a pot of money by it ; but [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} betted and gamed , and [he]_{364-compeyson} 'd have run through [the king]_{707-the king} 's taxes . So , [Arthur]_365-arthur was a dying , and [a dying poor]_{6958-a dying poor} and with the horrors on [him]_365-arthur , and [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's wife]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} which [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} kicked mostly was a having pity on [him]_{364-compeyson} when [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} could , and [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} was a having pity on nothing and [nobody]_4527-nobody . "_{[364-compeyson]} [I]_0-i might a took warning by [Arthur]_365-arthur , but [I]_0-i did n't ; and [I]_0-i wo n't pretend [I]_0-i was [partick'ler]_{3323-partick'ler} - for where ' ud be the good on it , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} and [comrade]_3325-comrade ? So [I]_0-i begun wi ' [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , and a poor tool [I]_0-i was in [his]_365-arthur hands . [Arthur]_365-arthur lived at the top of [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's house]_{3326-compeyson 's house} over nigh [Brentford]_{108-brentford} [it]_{3326-compeyson 's house} was , and [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} kept a careful account agen [him]_365-arthur for board and lodging , in case [he]_365-arthur should ever get better to work it out . But [Arthur]_365-arthur soon settled the account . The second or third time as ever [I]_0-i see [him]_365-arthur , [he]_365-arthur come a tearing down into [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's parlor]_{3327-compeyson 's parlor} late at night , in only a flannel gown , with [his]_365-arthur hair all in a sweat , and [he]_365-arthur says to [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's wife]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} , ' [Sally]_{208-sarah pocket} , [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} really is [upstairs]_{3329-upstairs} alonger [me]_0-i , now , and [I]_0-i ca n't get rid of [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} . [She]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's all in white , ' [he]_365-arthur says , ' wi ' white flowers in [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} hair , and [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's awful mad , and [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's got a shroud hanging over [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} arm , and [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} says [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 'll put it on [me]_0-i at five in the morning . ' " Says [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} : ' Why , [[you]_365-arthur fool]_{5224-you fool} , do n't [you]_365-arthur know [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's got a living body ? And how should [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} be up [there]_4505-there , without coming through the door , or in at the window , and up the stairs ? ' "_{[6959-compeyson 's wife]} ' [I]_0-i do n't know how [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's there , ' says [Arthur]_365-arthur , shivering dreadful with the horrors , ' but [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's standing in the corner at the foot of the bed , awful mad . And over where [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} heart 's broke - [you]_365-arthur broke it ! - there 's drops of blood . ' " [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} spoke hardy , but [he]_{364-compeyson} was always [a coward]_{6963-a coward} . ' Go up alonger [this drivelling sick man]_{6964-this drivelling sick man} , ' [he]_{364-compeyson} says to [[his]_{364-compeyson} wife]_{1585-his wife} , ' and [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , lend [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} a hand , will [you]_349-magwitch ? ' But [he]_{364-compeyson} never come nigh [himself]_{364-compeyson} . "_{[364-compeyson]} [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's wife]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} and [me]_0-i took [him]_{364-compeyson} up to bed agen , and [he]_{364-compeyson} raved most dreadful . ' Why look at [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} ! ' [he]_{364-compeyson} cries out . ' [She]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's a shaking the shroud at [me]_0-i ! Do n't [you]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} see [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} ? Look at [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} eyes ! Ai n't it awful to see [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} so mad ? ' Next [he]_{364-compeyson} cries , ' [She]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 'll put it on [me]_0-i , and then [I]_0-i 'm done for ! Take it away from [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} , take it away ! ' And then [he]_{364-compeyson} catched hold of [us]_3331-us , and kep on a talking to [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} , and answering of [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} , till [I]_0-i half believed [I]_0-i see [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} [myself]_0-i . " [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's wife]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} , being used to [him]_{364-compeyson} , giv [him]_{364-compeyson} some liquor to get the horrors off , and by and by [he]_{364-compeyson} quieted . ' O , [she]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 's gone ! Has [[her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} keeper]_{6967-her keeper} been for [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} ? ' [he]_{364-compeyson} says . ' Yes , ' says [[Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's wife]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} . ' Did [you]_{364-compeyson} tell [him]_{364-compeyson} to lock [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} and bar [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} in ? ' ' Yes . ' ' And to take that ugly thing away from [her]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} ? ' ' Yes , yes , all right . ' ' [You]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} 're [a good creetur]_{6969-a good creetur} , ' [he]_3332-he says , ' do n't leave [me]_3332-he , whatever [you]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} do , and thank [you]_{6959-compeyson 's wife} ! ' "_[3332-he] [He]_3332-he rested pretty quiet till it might want a few minutes of five , and then [he]_3332-he starts up with a scream , and screams out , ' Here [she]_3333-she is ! [She]_3333-she 's got the shroud again . [She]_3333-she 's unfolding it . [She]_3333-she 's coming out of the corner . [She]_3333-she 's coming to the bed . Hold [me]_0-i , both on [you]_3334-you - one of each side - do n't let [her]_3333-she touch [me]_0-i with it . Hah ! [she]_3333-she missed [me]_0-i that time . Do n't let [her]_3333-she throw it over [my]_0-i shoulders . Do n't let [her]_3333-she lift [me]_0-i up to get it round [me]_0-i . [She]_3333-she 's lifting [me]_0-i up . Keep [me]_0-i down ! ' Then [he]_3332-he lifted [himself]_3332-he up hard , and was dead . " [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} took it easy as a good riddance for both sides . [Him]_{364-compeyson} and [me]_3332-he was soon busy , and first [he]_{364-compeyson} swore [me]_3332-he being ever artful on [my]_3332-he own book , - this here little black book , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , what [I]_3332-he swore [[your]_3335-your comrade]_{3313-your comrade} on . "_[3332-he] Not to go into the things that [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} planned , and [I]_0-i done - which ' ud take a week - [I]_0-i 'll simply say to [you]_3335-your , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , and [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} , that [that man]_{6907-that man} got [me]_0-i into such nets as made [me]_0-i [[his]_{364-compeyson} black slave]_{3339-his black slave} . [I]_0-i was always in debt to [him]_{364-compeyson} , always under [his]_{364-compeyson} thumb , always a working , always a getting into danger . [He]_{364-compeyson} was younger than [me]_0-i , but [he]_{364-compeyson} 'd got craft , and [he]_{364-compeyson} 'd got learning , and [he]_{364-compeyson} overmatched [me]_0-i five hundred times told and no mercy . [[My]_0-i Missis]_{3340-my missis} as [I]_0-i had the hard time wi ' - Stop though ! [I]_0-i ai n't brought [her]_{3340-my missis} in - " [He]_{364-compeyson} looked about [him]_{364-compeyson} in a confused way , as if [he]_{364-compeyson} had lost [his]_{364-compeyson} place in the book of [his]_{364-compeyson} remembrance ; and [he]_{364-compeyson} turned [his]_{364-compeyson} face to the fire , and spread [his]_{364-compeyson} hands broader on [his]_{364-compeyson} knees , and lifted them off and put them on again . "_[0-i] There ai n't no need to go into it , " [he]_{364-compeyson} said , looking round once more . "_[0-i] The time wi ' [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} was a'most as hard a time as ever [I]_0-i had ; that said , all 's said . Did [I]_0-i tell [you]_3341-you as [I]_0-i was tried , alone , for misdemeanor , while with [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} ? " [I]_0-i answered , No . "_[0-i] Well ! " [he]_{364-compeyson} said , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was , and got convicted . As to took up on suspicion , that was twice or three times in the four or five year that it lasted ; but evidence was wanting . At last , [me]_0-i and [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} was both committed for felony , - on a charge of putting stolen notes in circulation , - and there was other charges behind . [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} says to [me]_0-i , ' Separate defences , no communication , ' and that was all . And [I]_0-i was so miserable poor , that [I]_0-i sold all the clothes [I]_0-i had , except what hung on [my]_0-i back , afore [I]_0-i could get [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " When [we]_6972-we was put in [the dock]_{6973-the dock} , [I]_3342-me noticed first of all what [a gentleman Compeyson]_{6974-a gentleman compeyson} looked , wi ' [his]_{364-compeyson} curly hair and [his]_{364-compeyson} black clothes and [his]_{364-compeyson} white pocket - handkercher , and what a common sort of a wretch [I]_3342-me looked . When the prosecution opened and the evidence was put short , aforehand , [I]_3342-me noticed how heavy it all bore on [me]_3342-me , and how light on [him]_{364-compeyson} . When the evidence was giv in the box , [I]_3342-me noticed how it was always [me]_3342-me that had come for'ard , and could be swore to , how it was always [me]_3342-me that the money had been paid to , how it was always [me]_3342-me that had seemed to work the thing and get the profit . But when the defence come on , then [I]_3342-me see the plan plainer ; for , says [the counsellor for [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson}]_{6975-the counsellor for compeyson} , ' [[My]_3342-me lord]_{6976-my lord} and [gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , here [you]_{4982-gentlemen} has afore [you]_{4982-gentlemen} , side by side , two persons as [your]_{4982-gentlemen} eyes can separate wide ; one , [the younger]_{6978-the younger} , well brought up , who will be spoke to as such ; one , [the elder , ill brought up , who will be spoke to as such]_{6979-the elder , ill brought up , who will be spoke to as such} ; one , [the younger]_{6978-the younger} , seldom if ever seen in these [here transactions]_{6981-here transactions} , and only suspected ; t'other , [the elder]_{6982-the elder} , always seen in ['em]_6983-'em and always [wi'his]_6984-wi'his guilt brought [home]_4495-home . Can [you]_{4982-gentlemen} doubt , if there is but one in it , which is the one , and , if there is two in it , which is much the worst one ? ' And such - like . And when it come to character , warn't it [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} as had been to [the school]_{6986-the school} , and warn't it [[his]_{364-compeyson} schoolfellows]_{6987-his schoolfellows} as was in this position and in that , and warn't it [him]_{364-compeyson} as had been know'd by [witnesses in such clubs and societies]_{6988-witnesses in such clubs and societies} , and nowt to [his]_{364-compeyson} disadvantage ? And warn't it [me]_3342-me as had been tried afore , and as had been know'd up hill and down dale in Bridewells and Lock - Ups ! And when it come to speech - making , warn't it [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} as could speak to ['em]_6989-'em wi ' [his]_{364-compeyson} face dropping every now and then into [his]_{364-compeyson} white pocket - handkercher , - ah ! and [wi]_6990-wi ' verses in [his]_{364-compeyson} speech , too , - and warn't it [me]_3342-me as could only say , ' [Gentlemen]_{4982-gentlemen} , [this man at [my]_3342-me side]_{6992-this man at my side} is [a most precious rascal]_{6993-a most precious rascal} ' ? And when the verdict come , warn't it [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} as was recommended to mercy on account of good character and bad company , and giving up all the information [he]_{364-compeyson} could agen [me]_3342-me , and warn't it [me]_3342-me as got never a word but Guilty ? And when [I]_3342-me says to [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , ' Once out of [this court]_{6994-this court} , [I]_3342-me 'll smash that face of [yourn]_{364-compeyson} ! ' ai n't it [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} as prays [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} to be protected , and gets two turnkeys stood betwixt [us]_6996-us ? And when [we]_6996-us 're sentenced , ai n't it [him]_{364-compeyson} as gets seven year , and [me]_3342-me fourteen , and ai n't it [him]_{364-compeyson} as [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} is sorry for , because [he]_{364-compeyson} might a done so well , and ai n't it [me]_3342-me as [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} perceives to be [a old offender of wiolent passion]_{6999-a old offender of wiolent passion} , likely to come to worse ? "_[3342-me] [He]_3342-me had worked [himself]_3342-me into a state of great excitement , but [he]_3342-me checked it , took two or three short breaths , swallowed as often , and stretching out [his]_3342-me hand towards [me]_0-i said , in a reassuring manner , " [I]_3342-me ai n't a going to be low , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! "_[3342-me] [He]_3342-me had so heated [himself]_3342-me that [he]_3342-me took out [his]_3342-me handkerchief and wiped [his]_3342-me face and head and neck and hands , before [he]_3342-me could go on . " [I]_3343-i had said to [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} that [I]_3343-i 'd smash that face of [his]_{364-compeyson} , and [I]_3343-i swore [Lord]_7001-lord smash [mine]_3343-i ! to do it . [We]_7002-we was in [the same prison - ship]_{7003-the same prison - ship} , but [I]_3343-i could n't get at [him]_{364-compeyson} for long , though [I]_3343-i tried . At last [I]_3343-i come behind [him]_{364-compeyson} and hit [him]_{364-compeyson} on the cheek to turn [him]_{364-compeyson} round and get a smashing one at [him]_{364-compeyson} , when [I]_3343-i was seen and seized . [The black - hole of [that ship]_{7005-that ship}]_{7004-the black - hole of that ship} warn't a strong one , to [a judge of black - holes that could swim and dive]_{7006-a judge of black - holes that could swim and dive} . [I]_3343-i escaped to [the shore]_{4688-the shore} , and [I]_3343-i was a hiding among the graves there , envying [them]_7008-them as was in 'em and all over , when [I]_3343-i first see [[my]_3343-i boy]_{4554-my boy} ! "_[3343-i] [He]_3343-i regarded [me]_0-i with a look of affection that made [him]_3343-i almost abhorrent to [me]_0-i again , though [I]_0-i had felt great pity for [him]_3343-i . " By [[my]_3344-i boy]_{4554-my boy} , [I]_3344-i was giv to understand as [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} was out on [them]_7008-them marshes too . Upon [my]_3344-i soul , [I]_3344-i half believe [he]_{364-compeyson} escaped in [his]_{364-compeyson} terror , to get quit of [me]_3344-i , not knowing it was [me]_3344-i as had got [ashore]_549-ashore . [I]_3344-i hunted [him]_{364-compeyson} down . [I]_3344-i smashed [his]_{364-compeyson} face . ' And now , ' says [I]_3344-i ' as the worst thing [I]_3344-i can do , caring nothing for [myself]_3344-i , [I]_3344-i 'll drag [you]_3344-i back . ' And [I]_3344-i 'd have swum off , towing [him]_3344-i by the hair , if it had come to that , and [I]_3344-i 'd a got [him]_3344-i aboard without [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} . "_[3344-i] Of course [he]_3344-i 'd much the best of it to the last , - [his]_3344-i character was so good . [He]_3344-i had escaped when [he]_3344-i was made half wild by [me]_0-i and [my]_0-i murderous intentions ; and [his]_3344-i punishment was light . [I]_0-i was put in irons , brought to trial again , and sent for life . [I]_0-i did n't stop for life , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} and [[Pip]_241-pip 's comrade]_{6909-pip 's comrade} , being here . " "_[3344-i] [He]_3344-i wiped [himself]_3344-i again , as [he]_3344-i had done before , and then slowly took [his]_3344-i tangle of tobacco from [his]_3344-i pocket , and plucked [his]_3344-i pipe from [his]_3344-i button - hole , and slowly filled it , and began to smoke . " Is [he]_3344-i dead ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , after a silence . " Is who dead , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ? "_[0-i] " [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} . "_{[265-herbert]} " [He]_3344-i hopes [I]_265-herbert am , if [he]_3344-i 's alive , [you]_0-i may be sure , "_{[265-herbert]} with a fierce look . " [I]_265-herbert never heerd no more of [him]_3344-i . "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert had been writing with [his]_265-herbert pencil in the cover of a book . [He]_265-herbert softly pushed the book over to [me]_0-i , as [Provis]_348-provis stood smoking with [his]_348-provis eyes on the fire , and [I]_0-i read in it : - " [Young Havisham]_{366-young havisham} 's name was [Arthur]_365-arthur . [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} is [the man who professed to be [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's lover]_{7015-miss havisham 's lover}]_{7014-the man who professed to be miss havisham 's lover} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i shut the book and nodded slightly to [Herbert]_265-herbert , and put the book by ; but [we]_3347-we neither of [us]_3347-we said anything , and [both]_816-both looked at [Provis]_348-provis as [he]_348-provis stood smoking by the fire . Chapter XLIII Why should [I]_0-i pause to ask how much of [my]_0-i shrinking from [Provis]_348-provis might be traced to [Estella]_195-estella ? Why should [I]_0-i loiter on [[my]_0-i road]_{5985-my road} , to compare the state of mind in which [I]_0-i had tried to rid [myself]_0-i of the stain of [the prison]_{1544-the prison} before meeting [her]_195-estella at [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} , with the state of mind in which [I]_0-i now reflected on the abyss between [Estella]_195-estella in [her]_195-estella pride and beauty , and the returned transport whom [I]_0-i harbored ? [The road]_{1325-the road} would be none the smoother for it , the end would be none the better for it , [he]_348-provis would not be helped , nor [I]_0-i extenuated . A new fear had been engendered in [my]_0-i mind by [his]_348-provis narrative ; or rather , [his]_348-provis narrative had given form and purpose to the fear that was already there . If [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} were alive and should discover [his]_{364-compeyson} return , [I]_0-i could hardly doubt the consequence . That , [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} stood in mortal fear of [him]_{364-compeyson} , [neither of the two]_{3353-neither of the two} could know much better than [I]_0-i ; and that [any such man as that man]_{3354-any such man as that man} had been described to be would hesitate to release [himself]_{3354-any such man as that man} for good from [a dreaded enemy]_{3355-a dreaded enemy} by the safe means of becoming [an informer]_{3356-an informer} was scarcely to be imagined . Never had [I]_0-i breathed , and never would [I]_0-i breathe - or so [I]_0-i resolved - a word of [Estella]_195-estella to [Provis]_348-provis . But , [I]_0-i said to [Herbert]_265-herbert that , before [I]_0-i could go abroad , [I]_0-i must see both [Estella]_195-estella and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . This was when [we]_3357-we were left alone on the night of the day when [Provis]_348-provis told [us]_3357-we [his]_348-provis story . [I]_0-i resolved to go out to [Richmond]_72-richmond next day , and [I]_0-i went . On [my]_0-i presenting [myself]_0-i at [Mrs. Brandley]_{337-mrs. brandley} 's , [[Estella]_195-estella 's maid]_{3358-estella 's maid} was called to tell that [Estella]_195-estella had gone into [the country]_{1330-the country} . Where ? To [Satis House]_{90-satis house} , as usual . Not as usual , [I]_0-i said , for [she]_195-estella had never yet gone [there]_4505-there without [me]_0-i ; when was [she]_195-estella coming back ? There was an air of reservation in the answer which increased [my]_0-i perplexity , and the answer was , that [[her]_195-estella maid]_{3361-her maid} believed [she]_195-estella was only coming back at all for a little while . [I]_0-i could make nothing of this , except that it was meant that [I]_0-i should make nothing of it , and [I]_0-i went [home]_4495-home again in complete discomfiture . Another night consultation with [Herbert]_265-herbert after [Provis]_348-provis was gone [home]_4495-home [I]_0-i always took [him]_265-herbert [home]_4495-home , and always looked well about [me]_0-i , led [us]_3365-we to the conclusion that nothing should be said about going abroad until [I]_0-i came back from [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's]_{4838-miss havisham 's} . In the mean time , [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i were to consider separately what it would be best to say ; whether [we]_3365-we should devise any pretence of being afraid that [he]_265-herbert was under suspicious observation ; or whether [I]_0-i , who had never yet been abroad , should propose an expedition . [We]_3365-we both knew that [I]_0-i had but to propose anything , and [he]_265-herbert would consent . [We]_3365-we agreed that [his]_265-herbert remaining many days in [his]_265-herbert present hazard was not to be thought of . Next day [I]_0-i had the meanness to feign that [I]_0-i was under a binding promise to go down to [Joe]_154-joe ; but [I]_0-i was capable of almost any meanness towards [Joe]_154-joe or [his]_265-herbert name . Provis was to be strictly careful while [I]_0-i was gone , and [Herbert]_265-herbert was to take the charge of [him]_265-herbert that [I]_0-i had taken . [I]_0-i was to be absent only one night , and , on [my]_0-i return , the gratification of [his]_265-herbert impatience for [my]_0-i starting as [a gentleman on a greater scale]_{3367-a gentleman on a greater scale} was to be begun . It occurred to [me]_0-i then , and as [I]_0-i afterwards found to [Herbert]_265-herbert also , that [he]_265-herbert might be best got away across [the water]_{5191-the water} , on that pretence , - as , to make purchases , or the like . Having thus cleared the way for [my]_0-i expedition to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , [I]_0-i set off by [the early morning coach]_{3369-the early morning coach} before it was yet light , and was out on [the open country road]_{3370-the open country road} when the day came creeping on , halting and whimpering and shivering , and wrapped in patches of cloud and rags of mist , like [a beggar]_{3371-a beggar} . When [we]_3372-we drove up to [the Blue Boar]_{5142-the blue boar} after a drizzly ride , whom should [I]_0-i see come out under the gateway , toothpick in hand , to look at [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , but [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle ! As [he]_265-herbert pretended not to see [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i pretended not to see [him]_265-herbert . It was a very lame pretence on both sides ; the lamer , because [we]_3372-we both went into [the coffee - room]_{3375-the coffee - room} , where [he]_265-herbert had just finished [his]_265-herbert breakfast , and where [I]_0-i ordered mine . It was poisonous to [me]_0-i to see [him]_265-herbert in [the town]_{5488-the town} , for [I]_0-i very well knew why [he]_265-herbert had come [there]_4505-there . Pretending to read a smeary newspaper long out of date , which had nothing half so legible in its local news , as the foreign matter of coffee , pickles , fish sauces , gravy , melted butter , and wine with which it was sprinkled all over , as if it had taken the measles in a highly irregular form , [I]_0-i sat at [my]_0-i table while [he]_265-herbert stood before the fire . By degrees it became an enormous injury to [me]_0-i that [he]_265-herbert stood before the fire . And [I]_0-i got up , determined to have [my]_0-i share of it . [I]_0-i had to put [my]_0-i hand behind [his]_265-herbert legs for the poker when [I]_0-i went up to the fireplace to stir the fire , but still pretended not to know [him]_265-herbert . " Is this a cut ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle . " Oh ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , poker in hand ; " it 's [you]_265-herbert , is it ? How do [you]_265-herbert do ? [I]_0-i was wondering who it was , who kept the fire off . "_[0-i] With that , [I]_0-i poked tremendously , and having done so , planted [myself]_0-i side by side with [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , [my]_0-i shoulders squared and [my]_0-i back to the fire . " [You]_0-i have just come down ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , edging [me]_0-i a little away with [his]_275-drummle shoulder . " Yes , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , edging [him]_265-herbert a little away with [my]_0-i shoulder . " [Beastly place]_{7016-beastly place} , "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . " [[Your]_0-i part of [the country]_{1330-the country}]_{1896-your part of the country} , [I]_275-drummle think ? "_{[275-drummle]} " Yes , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i assented . " [I]_0-i am told it 's very like [[your]_275-drummle Shropshire]_{7019-your shropshire} . "_[0-i] " Not in the least like it , "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . Here [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle looked at [his]_275-drummle boots and [I]_0-i looked at [mine]_0-i , and then [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle looked at [my]_0-i boots , and [I]_0-i looked at [his]_275-drummle . " Have [you]_275-drummle been [here]_693-here long ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , determined not to yield an inch of the fire . " Long enough to be tired of it , "_{[275-drummle]} returned [Drummle]_275-drummle , pretending to yawn , but equally determined . " Do [you]_275-drummle stay here long ? "_{[275-drummle]} " Ca n't say , "_{[275-drummle]} answered [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle . " Do [you]_275-drummle ? "_{[275-drummle]} " Ca n't say , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [I]_0-i felt here , through a tingling in [my]_0-i blood , that if [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle 's shoulder had claimed another hair 's breadth of [room]_6875-room , [I]_0-i should have jerked [him]_275-drummle into the window ; equally , that if [my]_0-i own shoulder had urged a similar claim , [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle would have jerked [me]_0-i into the nearest box . [He]_275-drummle whistled a little . So did [I.]_0-i " [Large tract of marshes about here]_{7021-large tract of marshes about here} , [I]_275-drummle believe ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . " Yes . What of that ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle looked at [me]_0-i , and then at [my]_0-i boots , and then said , " Oh ! "_{[275-drummle]} and laughed . " Are [you]_275-drummle amused , [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle ? "_{[275-drummle]} " No , "_{[275-drummle]} said [he]_275-drummle , " not particularly . [I]_275-drummle am going out for a ride in the saddle . [I]_275-drummle mean to explore [those marshes]_{7022-those marshes} for amusement . [Out - of - the - way villages there]_{7023-out - of - the - way villages there} , [they]_7024-they tell [me]_275-drummle . [Curious little public - houses]_{7025-curious little public - houses} - and [smithies]_{7026-smithies} - and [that . Waiter]_{7027-that . waiter} ! "_{[275-drummle]} " Yes , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[275-drummle]} " Is that horse of [mine]_275-drummle ready ? "_{[275-drummle]} " Brought round to the door , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[275-drummle]} " [I]_275-drummle say . Look here , [[you]_4451-sir sir]_{7030-you sir} . [The lady]_{5934-the lady} wo n't ride to - day ; the weather wo n't do . "_{[275-drummle]} " Very good , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[275-drummle]} " And [I]_275-drummle do n't dine , because [I]_275-drummle 'm going to dine at [the lady]_{5934-the lady} 's . "_{[275-drummle]} " Very good , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[275-drummle]} Then , [Drummle]_275-drummle glanced at [me]_0-i , with an insolent triumph on [his]_275-drummle great - jowled face that cut [me]_0-i to the heart , dull as [he]_275-drummle was , and so exasperated [me]_0-i , that [I]_0-i felt inclined to take [him]_275-drummle in [my]_0-i arms as [the robber in the story - book]_{3379-the robber in the story - book} is said to have taken [the old lady]_{3380-the old lady} and seat [him]_275-drummle on the fire . One thing was manifest to both of [us]_3381-us , and that was , that until relief came , [neither of [us]_3381-us]_{3382-neither of us} could relinquish the fire . There [we]_3381-us stood , well squared up before it , shoulder to shoulder and foot to foot , with [our]_3381-us hands behind [us]_3381-us , not budging an inch . The horse was visible outside in the drizzle at the door , [my]_0-i breakfast was put on the table , [Drummle]_275-drummle 's was cleared away , [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} invited [me]_0-i to begin , [I]_0-i nodded , [we]_3381-us both stood [our]_3381-us ground . " Have [you]_275-drummle been to [the Grove]_{78-the grove} since ? "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . " No , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i had quite enough of [the Finches]_{325-the finches} the last time [I]_0-i was [there]_4505-there . "_[0-i] " Was that when [we]_3381-us had a difference of opinion ? "_{[275-drummle]} " Yes , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , very shortly . " Come , come ! [They]_{325-the finches} let [you]_275-drummle off easily enough , "_{[275-drummle]} sneered [Drummle]_275-drummle . " [You]_275-drummle should n't have lost [your]_275-drummle temper . "_{[275-drummle]} " [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [you]_275-drummle are not competent to give advice on that subject . When [I]_0-i lose [my]_0-i temper not that [I]_0-i admit having done so on that occasion , [I]_0-i do n't throw glasses . "_[0-i] " [I]_275-drummle do , "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle . After glancing at [him]_275-drummle once or twice , in an increased state of smouldering ferocity , [I]_0-i said , - " [Mr. Drummle]_275-drummle , [I]_0-i did not seek this conversation , and [I]_0-i do n't think it an agreeable one . "_[0-i] " [I]_275-drummle am sure it 's not , "_{[275-drummle]} said [he]_275-drummle , superciliously over [his]_275-drummle shoulder ; " [I]_275-drummle do n't think anything about it . "_{[275-drummle]} " And therefore , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went on , " with [your]_275-drummle leave , [I]_0-i will suggest that [we]_7036-we hold no kind of communication in future . "_[0-i] " Quite [my]_275-drummle opinion , "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle , " and what [I]_275-drummle should have suggested [myself]_275-drummle , or done - more likely - without suggesting . But do n't lose [your]_275-drummle temper . Have n't [you]_275-drummle lost enough without that ? "_{[275-drummle]} " What do [you]_275-drummle mean , [sir]_4451-sir ? "_[0-i] " [Waiter]_7038-waiter ! "_{[275-drummle]} said [Drummle]_275-drummle , by way of answering [me]_0-i . [The waiter]_{5696-the waiter} reappeared . " Look here , [[you]_275-drummle sir]_{7030-you sir} . [You]_275-drummle quite understand that [the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} do n't ride to - day , and that [I]_{5696-the waiter} dine at [the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} 's ? "_{[5696-the waiter]} " Quite so , [sir]_4451-sir ! "_{[275-drummle]} When [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} had felt [my]_0-i fast - cooling teapot with the palm of [his]_{5696-the waiter} hand , and had looked imploringly at [me]_0-i , and had gone out , [Drummle]_275-drummle , careful not to move the shoulder next [me]_0-i , took a cigar from [his]_275-drummle pocket and bit the end off , but showed no sign of stirring . Choking and boiling as [I]_0-i was , [I]_0-i felt that [we]_3386-we could not go a word further , without introducing [Estella]_195-estella 's name , which [I]_0-i could not endure to hear [him]_275-drummle utter ; and therefore [I]_0-i looked stonily at the opposite wall , as if there were [no one present]_{3387-no one present} , and forced [myself]_0-i to silence . How long [we]_3386-we might have remained in this ridiculous position it is impossible to say , but for the incursion of [three thriving farmers]_{3388-three thriving farmers} - laid on by [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} , [I]_0-i think - who came into [the coffee - room]_{3375-the coffee - room} unbuttoning [their]_{3388-three thriving farmers} great - coats and rubbing [their]_{3388-three thriving farmers} hands , and before whom , as [they]_{3388-three thriving farmers} charged at the fire , [we]_3386-we were obliged to give way . [I]_0-i saw [him]_275-drummle through the window , seizing [his]_275-drummle horse 's mane , and mounting in [his]_275-drummle blundering brutal manner , and sidling and backing away . [I]_0-i thought [he]_275-drummle was gone , when [he]_275-drummle came back , calling for a light for the cigar in [his]_275-drummle mouth , which [he]_275-drummle had forgotten . [A man in a dust - colored dress]_{3391-a man in a dust - colored dress} appeared with what was wanted , - [I]_0-i could not have said from where : whether from [the inn yard]_{6533-the inn yard} , or [the street]_{4824-the street} , or where not , - and as [Drummle]_275-drummle leaned down from the saddle and lighted [his]_275-drummle cigar and laughed , with a jerk of [his]_275-drummle head towards the coffee - room windows , the slouching shoulders and ragged hair of [this man whose back was towards [me]_0-i]_{3394-this man whose back was towards me} reminded [me]_0-i of [Orlick]_225-orlick . Too heavily out of sorts to care much at the time whether it were [he]_3395-he or no , or after all to touch the breakfast , [I]_0-i washed the weather and the journey from [my]_0-i face and hands , and went out to [the memorable old house]_{3396-the memorable old house} that it would have been so much the better for [me]_0-i never to have entered , never to have seen . Chapter XLIV In [the room where the dressing - table stood]_{3397-the room where the dressing - table stood} , and where the wax - candles burnt on the wall , [I]_0-i found [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} and [Estella]_195-estella ; [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} seated on a settee near the fire , and [Estella]_195-estella on a cushion at [her]_195-estella feet . [Estella]_195-estella was knitting , and [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was looking on . [They]_3398-they both raised [their]_3398-they eyes as [I]_0-i went in , and [both]_816-both saw an alteration in [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i derived that , from the look [they]_3398-they interchanged . " And what wind , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , " blows [you]_0-i here , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} Though [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked steadily at [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i saw that [she]_{223-miss havisham} was rather confused . [Estella]_195-estella , pausing a moment in [her]_195-estella knitting with [her]_195-estella eyes upon [me]_0-i , and then going on , [I]_0-i fancied that [I]_0-i read in the action of [her]_195-estella fingers , as plainly as if [she]_195-estella had told [me]_0-i in the dumb alphabet , that [she]_195-estella perceived [I]_0-i had discovered [[my]_0-i real benefactor]_{3400-my real benefactor} . " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i went to [Richmond]_72-richmond yesterday , to speak to [Estella]_195-estella ; and finding that some wind had blown [her]_195-estella here , [I]_0-i followed . "_[0-i] [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} motioning to [me]_0-i for the third or fourth time to sit down , [I]_0-i took the chair by the dressing - table , which [I]_0-i had often seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} occupy . With all that ruin at [my]_0-i feet and about [me]_0-i , it seemed a natural place for [me]_0-i , that day . " What [I]_{223-miss havisham} had to say to [Estella]_195-estella , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [I]_{223-miss havisham} will say before [you]_195-estella , presently - in a few moments . It will not surprise [you]_195-estella , it will not displease [you]_195-estella . [I]_{223-miss havisham} am as unhappy as [you]_195-estella can ever have meant [me]_{223-miss havisham} to be . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} continued to look steadily at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i could see in the action of [Estella]_195-estella 's fingers as they worked that [she]_{223-miss havisham} attended to what [I]_0-i said ; but [she]_{223-miss havisham} did not look up . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} have found out who [[my]_{223-miss havisham} patron]_{1386-my patron} is . It is not a fortunate discovery , and is not likely ever to enrich [me]_{223-miss havisham} in reputation , station , fortune , anything . There are reasons why [I]_{223-miss havisham} must say no more of that . It is not [my]_{223-miss havisham} secret , but another 's . "_{[223-miss havisham]} As [I]_0-i was silent for a while , looking at [Estella]_195-estella and considering how to go on , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} repeated , " It is not [your]_0-i secret , but another 's . Well ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " When [you]_{223-miss havisham} first caused [me]_{223-miss havisham} to be brought [here]_693-here , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , when [I]_{223-miss havisham} belonged to [the village over yonder]_{7045-the village over yonder} , that [I]_{223-miss havisham} wish [I]_{223-miss havisham} had never left , [I]_{223-miss havisham} suppose [I]_{223-miss havisham} did really come [here]_693-here , as [any other chance boy]_{7047-any other chance boy} might have come , - as [a kind of servant]_{7048-a kind of servant} , to gratify a want or a whim , and to be paid for it ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Ay , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[223-miss havisham]} replied [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , steadily nodding [her]_{223-miss havisham} head ; " [you]_241-pip did . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " And that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} - "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , taking [me]_0-i up in a firm tone , " had nothing to do with it , and knew nothing of it . [His]_{237-mr. jaggers} being [[my]_{223-miss havisham} lawyer]_{7049-my lawyer} , and [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} being [the lawyer of [[your]_0-i patron]_{6404-your patron}]_{7050-the lawyer of your patron} is a coincidence . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} holds the same relation towards numbers of [people]_4539-people , and it might easily arise . Be that as it may , it did arise , and was not brought about by [any one]_{841-any one} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [Any one]_{841-any one} might have seen in [her]_{223-miss havisham} haggard face that there was no suppression or evasion so far . " But when [I]_0-i fell into the mistake [I]_0-i have so long remained in , at least [you]_{223-miss havisham} led [me]_0-i on ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Yes , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} returned , again nodding steadily , " [I]_{223-miss havisham} let [you]_0-i go on . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Was that kind ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Who am [I]_{223-miss havisham} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} cried [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , striking [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick upon the floor and flashing into wrath so suddenly that [Estella]_195-estella glanced up at [her]_{223-miss havisham} in surprise , - " who am [I]_195-estella , for God 's sake , that [I]_195-estella should be kind ? "_{[195-estella]} It was a weak complaint to have made , and [I]_0-i had not meant to make it . [I]_0-i told [her]_{223-miss havisham} so , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} sat brooding after this outburst . " Well , well , well ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} said . " What else ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_0-i was liberally paid for [my]_0-i old attendance [here]_693-here , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , to soothe [her]_{223-miss havisham} , " in being apprenticed , and [I]_0-i have asked these questions only for [my]_0-i own information . What follows has another and [I]_0-i hope more disinterested purpose . In humoring [my]_0-i mistake , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [you]_{223-miss havisham} punished - practised on - perhaps [you]_{223-miss havisham} will supply whatever term expresses [your]_{223-miss havisham} intention , without offence - [your]_{223-miss havisham} self - seeking relations ? "_[0-i] " [I]_{223-miss havisham} did . Why , [they]_7055-they would have it so ! So would [you]_{223-miss havisham} . What has been [my]_{223-miss havisham} history , that [I]_{223-miss havisham} should be at the pains of entreating either [them]_7055-they or [you]_{223-miss havisham} not to have it so ! [You]_{223-miss havisham} made [your]_{223-miss havisham} own snares . [I]_{223-miss havisham} never made them . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Waiting until [she]_{223-miss havisham} was quiet again , - for this , too , flashed out of [her]_{223-miss havisham} in a wild and sudden way , - [I]_0-i went on . " [I]_0-i have been thrown among [one family of [[your]_{223-miss havisham} relations]_{7057-your relations}]_{7056-one family of your relations} , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , and have been constantly among [them]_{7056-one family of your relations} since [I]_0-i went to [London]_8-london . [I]_0-i know [them]_{7056-one family of your relations} to have been as honestly under [my]_0-i delusion as [I]_0-i [myself]_0-i . And [I]_0-i should be false and base if [I]_0-i did not tell [you]_{223-miss havisham} , whether it is acceptable to [you]_{223-miss havisham} or no , and whether [you]_{223-miss havisham} are inclined to give credence to it or no , that [you]_{223-miss havisham} deeply wrong both [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} and [[his]_{211-mr. pocket} son]_{5348-his son} [Herbert]_265-herbert , if [you]_{223-miss havisham} suppose [them]_{7056-one family of your relations} to be otherwise than generous , upright , open , and incapable of anything designing or mean . "_[0-i] " [They]_{7056-one family of your relations} are [[your]_0-i friends]_{5312-your friends} , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . " [They]_{7056-one family of your relations} made [themselves]_{7056-one family of your relations} [[my]_0-i friends]_{5139-my friends} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " when [they]_{7056-one family of your relations} supposed [me]_0-i to have superseded [them]_{7056-one family of your relations} ; and when [Sarah Pocket]_{208-sarah pocket} , [Miss Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} , and [Mistress Camilla]_{367-mistress camilla} were not [[my]_0-i friends]_{5139-my friends} , [I]_0-i think . "_[0-i] This contrasting of [them]_3402-them with the rest seemed , [I]_0-i was glad to see , to do [them]_3402-them good with [her]_{223-miss havisham} . [She]_{223-miss havisham} looked at [me]_0-i keenly for a little while , and then said quietly , - " What do [you]_0-i want for [them]_3402-them ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Only , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " that [you]_{223-miss havisham} would not confound [them]_3402-them with [the others]_{1234-the others} . [They]_3402-them may be of the same blood , but , believe [me]_0-i , [they]_3402-them are not of the same nature . "_[0-i] Still looking at [me]_0-i keenly , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} repeated , - " What do [you]_0-i want for [them]_3402-them ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [I]_0-i am not so cunning , [you]_{223-miss havisham} see , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , in answer , conscious that [I]_0-i reddened a little , " as that [I]_0-i could hide from [you]_{223-miss havisham} , even if [I]_0-i desired , that [I]_0-i do want something . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , if [you]_{223-miss havisham} would spare the money to do [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} Herbert a lasting service in life , but which from the nature of the case must be done without [his]_{594-my friend} knowledge , [I]_0-i could show [you]_{223-miss havisham} how . "_[0-i] " Why must it be done without [his]_{594-my friend} knowledge ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} asked , settling [her]_{223-miss havisham} hands upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , that [she]_{223-miss havisham} might regard [me]_0-i the more attentively . " Because , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i began the service [myself]_0-i , more than two years ago , without [his]_{594-my friend} knowledge , and [I]_0-i do n't want to be betrayed . Why [I]_0-i fail in [my]_0-i ability to finish it , [I]_0-i can not explain . It is a part of the secret which is [another person]_{7064-another person} 's and not [mine]_0-i . "_[0-i] [She]_{223-miss havisham} gradually withdrew [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes from [me]_0-i , and turned them on the fire . After watching it for what appeared in the silence and by the light of the slowly wasting candles to be a long time , [she]_{223-miss havisham} was roused by the collapse of some of the red coals , and looked towards [me]_0-i again - at first , vacantly - then , with a gradually concentrating attention . All this time [Estella]_195-estella knitted on . When [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had fixed [her]_{223-miss havisham} attention on [me]_0-i , [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , speaking as if there had been no lapse in [our]_3403-our dialogue , - " What else ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Estella]_195-estella , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , turning to [her]_{223-miss havisham} now , and trying to command [my]_0-i trembling voice , " [you]_{223-miss havisham} know [I]_0-i love [you]_{223-miss havisham} . [You]_{223-miss havisham} know that [I]_0-i have loved [you]_{223-miss havisham} long and dearly . "_[0-i] [She]_{223-miss havisham} raised [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes to [my]_0-i face , on being thus addressed , and [her]_{223-miss havisham} fingers plied [their]_3404-their work , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} looked at [me]_0-i with an unmoved countenance . [I]_0-i saw that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} glanced from [me]_0-i to [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and from [her]_{223-miss havisham} to [me]_0-i . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} should have said this sooner , but for [my]_{223-miss havisham} long mistake . It induced [me]_{223-miss havisham} to hope that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} meant [us]_7065-us for [one another]_{4584-one another} . While [I]_{223-miss havisham} thought [you]_195-estella could not help [yourself]_195-estella , as it were , [I]_{223-miss havisham} refrained from saying it . But [I]_{223-miss havisham} must say it now . "_{[223-miss havisham]} Preserving [her]_{223-miss havisham} unmoved countenance , and with [her]_{223-miss havisham} fingers still going , [Estella]_195-estella shook [her]_{223-miss havisham} head . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} know , "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [I]_0-i , in answer to that action , - " [I]_0-i know . [I]_0-i have no hope that [I]_0-i shall ever call [you]_195-estella mine , [Estella]_195-estella . [I]_0-i am ignorant what may become of [me]_0-i very soon , how poor [I]_0-i may be , or where [I]_0-i may go . Still , [I]_0-i love [you]_195-estella . [I]_0-i have loved [you]_195-estella ever since [I]_0-i first saw [you]_195-estella in [this house]_{995-this house} . "_[0-i] Looking at [me]_0-i perfectly unmoved and with [her]_{223-miss havisham} fingers busy , [she]_{223-miss havisham} shook [her]_{223-miss havisham} head again . " It would have been cruel in [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , horribly cruel , to practise on the susceptibility of [a poor boy]_{3061-a poor boy} , and to torture [me]_{223-miss havisham} through all these years with a vain hope and an idle pursuit , if [she]_{223-miss havisham} had reflected on the gravity of what [she]_{223-miss havisham} did . But [I]_{223-miss havisham} think [she]_{223-miss havisham} did not . [I]_{223-miss havisham} think that , in the endurance of [her]_{223-miss havisham} own trial , [she]_{223-miss havisham} forgot [mine]_0-i , [Estella]_195-estella . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i saw [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} put [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand to [her]_{223-miss havisham} heart and hold it there , as [she]_{223-miss havisham} sat looking by turns at [Estella]_195-estella and at [me]_0-i . " It seems , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , very calmly , " that there are sentiments , fancies , - [I]_0-i do n't know how to call them , - which [I]_0-i am not able to comprehend . When [you]_195-estella say [you]_195-estella love [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i know what [you]_195-estella mean , as a form of words ; but nothing more . [You]_195-estella address nothing in [my]_0-i breast , [you]_195-estella touch nothing there . [I]_0-i do n't care for what [you]_195-estella say at all . [I]_0-i have tried to warn [you]_195-estella of this ; now , have [I]_0-i not ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said in a miserable manner , " Yes . "_[0-i] " Yes . But [you]_195-estella would not be warned , for [you]_195-estella thought [I]_3405-i did not mean it . Now , did [you]_195-estella not think so ? "_[3405-i] " [I]_3405-i thought and hoped [you]_195-estella could not mean it . [You]_0-i , [so young , untried , and beautiful]_{7069-so young , untried , and beautiful} , [Estella]_195-estella ! Surely it is not in Nature . "_[3405-i] " It is in [my]_3405-i nature , "_[3405-i] [she]_3405-i returned . And then [she]_3405-i added , with a stress upon the words , " It is in the nature formed within [me]_3405-i . [I]_3405-i make a great difference between [you]_0-i and [all other people]_{7070-all other people} when [I]_3405-i say so much . [I]_3405-i can do no more . "_[3405-i] " Is it not true , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " that [Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle is in [town]_4800-town here , and pursuing [you]_195-estella ? "_[0-i] " It is quite true , "_[3405-i] [she]_3405-i replied , referring to [him]_3406-him with the indifference of utter contempt . " That [you]_0-i encourage [him]_3406-him , and ride out with [him]_3406-him , and that [he]_3406-him dines with [you]_0-i this very day ? "_[3405-i] [She]_3405-i seemed a little surprised that [I]_0-i should know it , but again replied , " Quite true . "_[3405-i] " [You]_0-i can not love [him]_3406-him , [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[3405-i] [Her]_3405-i fingers stopped for the first time , as [she]_3405-i retorted rather angrily , " What have [I]_3405-i told [you]_0-i ? Do [you]_0-i still think , in spite of it , that [I]_3405-i do not mean what [I]_3405-i say ? "_[3405-i] " [You]_0-i would never marry [him]_3406-him , [Estella]_195-estella ? "_[3405-i] [She]_3405-i looked towards [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , and considered for a moment with [her]_3405-i work in [her]_3405-i hands . Then [she]_3405-i said , " Why not tell [you]_0-i the truth ? [I]_3405-i am going to be married to [him]_3406-him . "_[3405-i] [I]_0-i dropped [my]_0-i face into [my]_0-i hands , but was able to control [myself]_0-i better than [I]_0-i could have expected , considering what agony it gave [me]_0-i to hear [her]_3405-i say those words . When [I]_0-i raised [my]_0-i face again , there was such a ghastly look upon [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , that it impressed [me]_0-i , even in [my]_0-i passionate hurry and grief . " [Estella]_195-estella , dearest [Estella]_195-estella , do not let [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} lead [you]_195-estella into this fatal step . Put [me]_0-i aside for ever , - [you]_195-estella have done so , [I]_0-i well know , - but bestow [yourself]_195-estella on [some worthier person]_{7072-some worthier person} than [Drummle]_278-drummle . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} gives [you]_195-estella to [him]_{7072-some worthier person} , as the greatest slight and injury that could be done to [the many far better men who admire [you]_195-estella]_{7073-the many far better men who admire you} , and to [the few who truly love [you]_195-estella]_{7074-the few who truly love you} . Among [those few]_{7075-those few} there may be one who loves [you]_195-estella even as dearly , though [he]_{7072-some worthier person} has not loved [you]_195-estella as long , as [I.]_0-i Take [him]_{7072-some worthier person} , and [I]_0-i can bear it better , for [your]_195-estella sake ! "_[0-i] [My]_0-i earnestness awoke a wonder in [her]_3407-i that seemed as if it would have been touched with compassion , if [she]_3407-i could have rendered [me]_0-i at all intelligible to [her]_3407-i own mind . " [I]_3407-i am going , "_[3407-i] [she]_3407-i said again , in a gentler voice , " to be married to [him]_{7072-some worthier person} . The preparations for [my]_3407-i marriage are making , and [I]_3407-i shall be married soon . Why do [you]_0-i injuriously introduce the name of [[my]_3407-i mother]_{405-my mother} by adoption ? It is [my]_3407-i own act . "_[3407-i] " [Your]_3407-i own act , [Estella]_195-estella , to fling [yourself]_3407-i away upon [a brute]_{7077-a brute} ? "_[3407-i] " On whom should [I]_3407-i fling [myself]_3407-i away ? "_[3407-i] [she]_3407-i retorted , with a smile . " Should [I]_3407-i fling [myself]_3407-i away upon [the man who would the soonest feel if [people]_4539-people do feel such things that [I]_3407-i took nothing to [him]_{7072-some worthier person}]_{7078-the man who would the soonest feel if people do feel such things that i took nothing to him} ? There ! It is done . [I]_3407-i shall do well enough , and so will [[my]_3407-i husband]_{5239-my husband} . As to leading [me]_3407-i into what [you]_195-estella call this fatal step , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} would have had [me]_3407-i wait , and not marry yet ; but [I]_3407-i am tired of the life [I]_3407-i have led , which has very few charms for [me]_3407-i , and [I]_3407-i am willing enough to change it . Say no more . [We]_7081-we shall never understand [each other]_{517-each other} . "_[3407-i] " [Such a mean brute]_{7083-such a mean brute} , [such a stupid brute]_{7084-such a stupid brute} ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i urged , in despair . " Do n't be afraid of [my]_195-estella being a blessing to [him]_{5239-my husband} , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella ; " [I]_195-estella shall not be that . Come ! Here is [my]_195-estella hand . Do [we]_7081-we part on this , [[you]_0-i visionary boy]_{7085-you visionary boy} - or [man]_4518-man ? "_{[195-estella]} " O [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , as [my]_0-i bitter tears fell fast on [her]_195-estella hand , do what [I]_0-i would to restrain [them]_3408-them ; " even if [I]_0-i remained in [England]_7-england and could hold [my]_0-i head up with the rest , how could [I]_0-i see [you]_195-estella [[Drummle]_278-drummle 's wife]_{7087-drummle 's wife} ? "_[0-i] " Nonsense , "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella returned , - " nonsense . This will pass in no time . "_{[195-estella]} " Never , [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[0-i] " [You]_195-estella will get [me]_0-i out of [your]_195-estella thoughts in a week . "_[0-i] " Out of [my]_195-estella thoughts ! [You]_195-estella are part of [my]_195-estella existence , part of [myself]_195-estella . [You]_195-estella have been in every line [I]_195-estella have ever read since [I]_195-estella first came [here]_693-here , [the rough common boy whose poor heart [you]_195-estella wounded even then]_{7089-the rough common boy whose poor heart you wounded even then} . [You]_195-estella have been in every prospect [I]_195-estella have ever seen since , - on [the river]_{413-the river} , on the sails of [the ships]_{1627-the ships} , on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , in the clouds , in the light , in the darkness , in the wind , in [the woods]_{7093-the woods} , in [the sea]_{415-the sea} , in [the streets]_{5643-the streets} . [You]_195-estella have been the embodiment of every graceful fancy that [my]_195-estella mind has ever become acquainted with . The stones of which [the strongest [London]_8-london buildings]_{7096-the strongest london buildings} are made are not more real , or more impossible to be displaced by [your]_195-estella hands , than [your]_195-estella presence and influence have been to [me]_195-estella , there and everywhere , and will be . [Estella]_195-estella , to the last hour of [my]_195-estella life , [you]_195-estella can not choose but remain part of [my]_195-estella character , part of the little good in [me]_195-estella , part of the evil . But , in this separation , [I]_195-estella associate [you]_195-estella only with the good ; and [I]_195-estella will faithfully hold [you]_195-estella to that always , for [you]_195-estella must have done [me]_195-estella far more good than harm , let [me]_195-estella feel now what sharp distress [I]_195-estella may . O God bless [you]_195-estella , [God]_192-god forgive [you]_195-estella ! "_{[195-estella]} In what ecstasy of unhappiness [I]_0-i got these broken words out of [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i do n't know . The rhapsody welled up within [me]_0-i , like blood from an inward wound , and gushed out . [I]_0-i held [her]_3409-her hand to [my]_0-i lips some lingering moments , and so [I]_0-i left [her]_3409-her . But ever afterwards , [I]_0-i remembered , - and soon afterwards with stronger reason , - that while [Estella]_195-estella looked at [me]_0-i merely with incredulous wonder , the spectral figure of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [her]_3409-her hand still covering [her]_3409-her heart , seemed all resolved into a ghastly stare of pity and remorse . All done , all gone ! So much was done and gone , that when [I]_0-i went out at the gate , the light of the day seemed of a darker color than when [I]_0-i went in . For a while , [I]_0-i hid [myself]_0-i among [some lanes]_{3410-some lanes} and [by - paths]_{3411-by - paths} , and then struck off to walk all the way to [London]_8-london . For , [I]_0-i had by that time come to [myself]_0-i so far as to consider that [I]_0-i could not go back to [the inn]_{5670-the inn} and see [Drummle]_275-drummle there ; that [I]_0-i could not bear to sit upon [the coach]_{4925-the coach} and be spoken to ; that [I]_0-i could do nothing half so good for [myself]_0-i as tire [myself]_0-i out . It was past midnight when [I]_0-i crossed [London Bridge]_{124-london bridge} . Pursuing the narrow intricacies of [the streets]_{5643-the streets} which at that time tended westward near [the [Middlesex]_{111-middlesex} shore of [the river]_{413-the river}]_{3415-the middlesex shore of the river} , [my]_0-i readiest access to [the Temple]_{92-the temple} was close by [the river - side]_{573-the river - side} , through [Whitefriars]_{112-whitefriars} . [I]_0-i was not expected till to - morrow ; but [I]_0-i had [my]_0-i keys , and , if [Herbert]_265-herbert were gone to bed , could get to bed [myself]_0-i without disturbing [him]_265-herbert . As it seldom happened that [I]_0-i came in at that Whitefriars gate after [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} was closed , and as [I]_0-i was very muddy and weary , [I]_0-i did not take it ill that [the night - porter]_{3419-the night - porter} examined [me]_0-i with much attention as [he]_{3419-the night - porter} held the gate a little way open for [me]_0-i to pass in . To help [his]_{3419-the night - porter} memory [I]_0-i mentioned [my]_0-i name . " [I]_{3419-the night - porter} was not quite sure , [sir]_4451-sir , but [I]_{3419-the night - porter} thought so . Here 's a note , [sir]_4451-sir . [The messenger that brought it]_{7099-the messenger that brought it} , said would [you]_4451-sir be so good as read it by [my]_{3419-the night - porter} lantern ? "_{[3419-the night - porter]} Much surprised by the request , [I]_0-i took the note . It was directed to [Philip Pip]_{3420-philip pip} , Esquire , and on the top of the superscription were the words , " PLEASE READ THIS , HERE . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i opened it , [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} holding up [his]_{6842-the watchman} light , and read inside , in [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's writing , - " DON'T GO [HOME]_4495-home . "_{[6842-the watchman]} Chapter XLV Turning from the [Temple]_{92-the temple} gate as soon as [I]_0-i had read the warning , [I]_0-i made the best of [my]_0-i way to [Fleet Street]_{114-fleet street} , and there got [a late hackney chariot]_{3422-a late hackney chariot} and drove to [[the Hummums]_{115-the hummums} in [Covent Garden]_{79-covent garden}]_{3423-the hummums in covent garden} . In those times a bed was always to be got [there]_4505-there at any hour of the night , and [the chamberlain]_{3425-the chamberlain} , letting [me]_0-i in at [his]_{3425-the chamberlain} ready wicket , lighted the candle next in order on [his]_{3425-the chamberlain} shelf , and showed [me]_0-i straight into [the bedroom]_{3426-the bedroom} next in order on [his]_{3425-the chamberlain} list . It was a sort of vault on [the ground floor at the back]_{3427-the ground floor at the back} , with a despotic monster of [a four - post bedstead]_{3428-a four - post bedstead} in [it]_4505-there , straddling over [the whole place]_{2017-the whole place} , putting one of [his]_{3425-the chamberlain} arbitrary legs into the fireplace and another into the doorway , and squeezing [the wretched little washing - stand]_{3430-the wretched little washing - stand} in quite a Divinely Righteous manner . As [I]_0-i had asked for a night - light , [the chamberlain]_{3425-the chamberlain} had brought [me]_0-i in , before [he]_{3425-the chamberlain} left [me]_0-i , the good old constitutional rushlight of those virtuous days . - an object like the ghost of a walking - cane , which instantly broke its back if it were touched , which nothing could ever be lighted at , and which was placed in solitary confinement at the bottom of [a high tin tower]_{3432-a high tin tower} , perforated with round holes that made a staringly wide - awake pattern on the walls . When [I]_0-i had got into bed , and lay there footsore , weary , and wretched , [I]_0-i found that [I]_0-i could no more close [my]_0-i own eyes than [I]_0-i could close the eyes of [this foolish Argus]_{3433-this foolish argus} . And thus , in the gloom and death of the night , [we]_3434-we stared at [one another]_{4584-one another} . What a doleful night ! How anxious , how dismal , how long ! There was an inhospitable smell in [the room]_{633-the room} , of cold soot and hot dust ; and , as [I]_0-i looked up into the corners of the tester over [my]_0-i head , [I]_0-i thought what a number of blue - bottle flies from [the butchers]_{3437-the butchers} ' , and earwigs from [the market]_{3438-the market} , and grubs from [the country]_{1330-the country} , must be holding on up there , lying by for next summer . This led [me]_0-i to speculate whether any of [them]_3440-them ever tumbled down , and then [I]_0-i fancied that [I]_0-i felt light falls on [my]_0-i face , - a disagreeable turn of thought , suggesting other and more objectionable approaches up [my]_0-i back . When [I]_0-i had lain awake a little while , those extraordinary voices with which silence teems began to make themselves audible . [The closet]_{3441-the closet} whispered , the fireplace sighed , the little washing - stand ticked , and one guitar - string played occasionally in the chest of drawers . At about the same time , the eyes on the wall acquired a new expression , and in every one of those staring rounds [I]_0-i saw written , DON'T GO [HOME]_4495-home . Whatever night - fancies and night - noises crowded on [me]_0-i , they never warded off this DON'T GO HOME . It plaited itself into whatever [I]_0-i thought of , as a bodily pain would have done . Not long before , [I]_0-i had read in the newspapers , how [a gentleman unknown]_{3443-a gentleman unknown} had come to [the Hummums]_{115-the hummums} in the night , and had gone to bed , and had destroyed [himself]_{3443-a gentleman unknown} , and had been found in the morning weltering in blood . It came into [my]_0-i head that [he]_{3443-a gentleman unknown} must have occupied [this very vault of [mine]_0-i]_{3444-this very vault of mine} , and [I]_0-i got out of bed to assure [myself]_0-i that there were no red marks about ; then opened the door to look out into [the passages]_{4864-the passages} , and cheer [myself]_0-i with the companionship of a distant light , near which [I]_0-i knew [the chamberlain to be dozing]_{3446-the chamberlain to be dozing} . But all this time , why [I]_0-i was not to go [home]_4495-home , and what had happened at [home]_4495-home , and when [I]_0-i should go [home]_4495-home , and whether [Provis]_348-provis was safe at [home]_4495-home , were questions occupying [my]_0-i mind so busily , that one might have supposed there could be no more room in it for any other theme . Even when [I]_0-i thought of [Estella]_195-estella , and how [we]_3451-we had parted that day forever , and when [I]_0-i recalled all the circumstances of [our]_3451-we parting , and all [her]_195-estella looks and tones , and the action of [her]_195-estella fingers while [she]_195-estella knitted , - even then [I]_0-i was pursuing , here and there and everywhere , the caution , Do n't go [home]_4495-home . When at last [I]_0-i dozed , in sheer exhaustion of mind and body , it became a vast shadowy verb which [I]_0-i had to conjugate . Imperative mood , present tense : Do not [thou]_3453-thou go [home]_4495-home , let [him]_3455-him not go [home]_4495-home , let [us]_3451-we not go [home]_4495-home , do not [ye]_3458-ye or [you]_3458-ye go [home]_4495-home , let not [them]_3460-them go [home]_4495-home . Then potentially : [I]_0-i may not and [I]_0-i can not go [home]_4495-home ; and [I]_0-i might not , could not , would not , and should not go [home]_4495-home ; until [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i was going distracted , and rolled over on the pillow , and looked at the staring rounds upon the wall again . [I]_0-i had left directions that [I]_0-i was to be called at seven ; for it was plain that [I]_0-i must see [Wemmick]_254-wemmick before seeing [any one else]_{1529-any one else} , and equally plain that this was a case in which [his]_3465-his Walworth sentiments only could be taken . It was a relief to get out of [the room]_{633-the room} where the night had been so miserable , and [I]_0-i needed no second knocking at the door to startle [me]_0-i from [my]_0-i uneasy bed . [The Castle battlements]_{3467-the castle battlements} arose upon [my]_0-i view at eight o'clock . [The little servant]_{3468-the little servant} happening to be entering [the fortress]_{3469-the fortress} with two hot rolls , [I]_0-i passed through the postern and crossed the drawbridge in [her]_{3468-the little servant} company , and so came without announcement into the presence of [Wemmick]_254-wemmick as [he]_254-wemmick was making tea for [himself]_254-wemmick and [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} . An open door afforded a perspective view of [the Aged in bed]_{3471-the aged in bed} . " [Halloa]_167-halloa , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " [You]_241-pip did come [home]_4495-home , then ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " Yes , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned ; " but [I]_0-i did n't go [home]_4495-home . "_[0-i] " That 's all right , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [he]_254-wemmick , rubbing [his]_254-wemmick hands . " [I]_0-i left a note for [you]_241-pip at each of the Temple gates , on the chance . Which gate did [you]_254-wemmick come to ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i told [him]_254-wemmick . " [I]_254-wemmick 'll go round to [the others]_{1234-the others} in the course of the day and destroy the notes , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; " it 's a good rule never to leave documentary evidence if [you]_241-pip can help it , because [you]_241-pip do n't know when it may be put in . [I]_0-i 'm going to take a liberty with [you]_241-pip . Would [you]_241-pip mind toasting this sausage for [the Aged P.]_{293-the aged} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i should be delighted to do it . " Then [you]_241-pip can go about [your]_241-pip work , [Mary Anne]_296-molly , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to [the little servant]_{3468-the little servant} ; " which leaves [us]_3473-we to [ourselves]_3473-we , do n't [you]_241-pip see , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[254-wemmick]} [he]_254-wemmick added , winking , as [she]_{3468-the little servant} disappeared . [I]_0-i thanked [him]_254-wemmick for [his]_254-wemmick friendship and caution , and [our]_3473-we discourse proceeded in a low tone , while [I]_0-i toasted the Aged 's sausage and [he]_254-wemmick buttered the crumb of the Aged 's roll . " Now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [you]_241-pip know , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " [you]_241-pip and [I]_0-i understand [one another]_{4584-one another} . [We]_3473-we are in [our]_3473-we private and personal capacities , and [we]_3473-we have been engaged in a confidential transaction before to - day . Official sentiments are one thing . [We]_3473-we are extra official . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cordially assented . [I]_0-i was so very nervous , that [I]_0-i had already lighted the Aged 's sausage like a torch , and been obliged to blow it out . " [I]_254-wemmick accidentally heard , yesterday morning , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " being in a certain place where [I]_254-wemmick once took [you]_241-pip , - even between [you]_241-pip and [me]_254-wemmick , it 's as well not to mention names when avoidable - "_{[254-wemmick]} " Much better not , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_254-wemmick understand [you]_254-wemmick . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_254-wemmick heard there by chance , yesterday morning , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " that [a certain person not altogether of uncolonial pursuits]_{7105-a certain person not altogether of uncolonial pursuits} , and not unpossessed of [portable property]_{2836-portable property} , - [I]_254-wemmick do n't know who it may really be , - [we]_7107-we wo n't name [this person]_{7108-this person} - "_{[254-wemmick]} " Not necessary , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " - Had made some little stir in [a certain part of [the world]_{4698-the world}]_{7109-a certain part of the world} where [a good many people]_{7111-a good many people} go , not always in gratification of [their]_{7111-a good many people} own inclinations , and not quite irrespective of the government expense - "_[0-i] In watching [his]_254-wemmick face , [I]_0-i made quite a firework of the Aged 's sausage , and greatly discomposed both [my]_0-i own attention and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's ; for which [I]_0-i apologized . " - By disappearing from such place , and being no more heard of thereabouts . From which , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " conjectures had been raised and theories formed . [I]_254-wemmick also heard that [you]_0-i at [[your]_0-i chambers in [Garden Court]_{103-garden court} , [Temple]_7113-temple]_{7112-your chambers in garden court , temple} , had been watched , and might be watched again . "_{[254-wemmick]} " By whom ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_254-wemmick would n't go into that , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , evasively , " it might clash with official responsibilities . [I]_254-wemmick heard it , as [I]_254-wemmick have in [my]_254-wemmick time heard other curious things in [the same place]_{7114-the same place} . [I]_254-wemmick do n't tell it [you]_0-i on information received . [I]_254-wemmick heard it . "_{[254-wemmick]} [He]_254-wemmick took the toasting - fork and sausage from [me]_0-i as [he]_254-wemmick spoke , and set forth the Aged 's breakfast neatly on a little tray . Previous to placing it before [him]_254-wemmick , [he]_254-wemmick went into [[the Aged]_{2166-the aged} 's room]_{3475-the aged 's room} with a clean white cloth , and tied the same under [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} 's chin , and propped [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} up , and put [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} nightcap on one side , and gave [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} quite a rakish air . Then [he]_254-wemmick placed [his]_254-wemmick breakfast before [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} with great care , and said , " All right , ai n't [you]_{2166-the aged} , [Aged P.]_{293-the aged} ? "_{[254-wemmick]} To which [the cheerful Aged]_{3477-the cheerful aged} replied , " All right , [John]_291-john , [[my]_{3477-the cheerful aged} boy]_{4554-my boy} , all right ! "_{[3477-the cheerful aged]} As there seemed to be a tacit understanding that [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} was not in a presentable state , and was therefore to be considered invisible , [I]_0-i made a pretence of being in complete ignorance of these proceedings . " This watching of [me]_0-i at [[my]_0-i chambers]_{6859-my chambers} which [I]_0-i have once had reason to suspect , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick when [he]_254-wemmick came back , " is inseparable from [the person to whom [you]_254-wemmick have adverted]_{7117-the person to whom you have adverted} ; is it ? "_[0-i] [Wemmick]_254-wemmick looked very serious . " [I]_254-wemmick could n't undertake to say that , of [my]_254-wemmick own knowledge . [I]_254-wemmick mean , [I]_254-wemmick could n't undertake to say it was at first . But it either is , or it will be , or it 's in great danger of being . "_{[254-wemmick]} As [I]_0-i saw that [he]_254-wemmick was restrained by fealty to [Little Britain]_{354-little britain} from saying as much as [he]_254-wemmick could , and as [I]_0-i knew with thankfulness to [him]_254-wemmick how far out of [his]_254-wemmick way [he]_254-wemmick went to say what [he]_254-wemmick did , [I]_0-i could not press [him]_254-wemmick . But [I]_0-i told [him]_254-wemmick , after a little meditation over the fire , that [I]_0-i would like to ask [him]_254-wemmick a question , subject to [his]_254-wemmick answering or not answering , as [he]_254-wemmick deemed right , and sure that [his]_254-wemmick course would be right . [He]_254-wemmick paused in [his]_254-wemmick breakfast , and crossing [his]_254-wemmick arms , and pinching [his]_254-wemmick shirt - sleeves [his]_254-wemmick notion of in - door comfort was to sit without any coat , [he]_254-wemmick nodded to [me]_0-i once , to put [my]_0-i question . " [You]_0-i have heard of [a man of bad character]_{7118-a man of bad character} , whose true name is [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} ? "_{[254-wemmick]} [He]_254-wemmick answered with one other nod . " Is [he]_{7118-a man of bad character} living ? "_{[254-wemmick]} One other nod . " Is [he]_{7118-a man of bad character} in [London]_8-london ? "_{[254-wemmick]} [He]_254-wemmick gave [me]_0-i one other nod , compressed [the post - office]_{2454-the post - office} exceedingly , gave [me]_0-i one last nod , and went on with [his]_254-wemmick breakfast . " Now , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " questioning being over , "_{[254-wemmick]} which [he]_254-wemmick emphasized and repeated for [my]_0-i guidance , " [I]_254-wemmick come to what [I]_254-wemmick did , after hearing what [I]_254-wemmick heard . [I]_254-wemmick went to [Garden Court]_{103-garden court} to find [you]_0-i ; not finding [you]_0-i , [I]_254-wemmick went to [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} 's to find [Mr. Herbert]_265-herbert . "_{[254-wemmick]} " And [him]_265-herbert [you]_254-wemmick found ? "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , with great anxiety . " And [him]_265-herbert [I]_0-i found . Without mentioning any names or going into any details , [I]_0-i gave [him]_265-herbert to understand that if [he]_265-herbert was aware of [anybody]_4526-anybody - [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard - being about [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} , or about [the immediate neighborhood]_{7121-the immediate neighborhood} , [he]_265-herbert had better get [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard out of the way while [you]_254-wemmick were out of the way . "_[0-i] " [He]_265-herbert would be greatly puzzled what to do ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " [He]_265-herbert was puzzled what to do ; not the less , because [I]_0-i gave [him]_265-herbert [my]_0-i opinion that it was not safe to try to get [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard too far out of the way at present . [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_241-pip something . Under existing circumstances , there is no place like [a great city]_{7122-a great city} when [you]_241-pip are once in [it]_{7122-a great city} . Do n't break cover too soon . Lie close . Wait till things slacken , before [you]_241-pip try the open , even for foreign air . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thanked [him]_3480-him for [his]_3480-him valuable advice , and asked [him]_3480-him what [Herbert]_265-herbert had done ? " [Mr. Herbert]_265-herbert , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " after being all of a heap for half an hour , struck out a plan . [He]_265-herbert mentioned to [me]_254-wemmick as a secret , that [he]_265-herbert is courting [a young lady who has , as no doubt [you]_241-pip are aware , a bedridden Pa. Which [Pa]_281-pa , having been in the Purser line of life]_{7123-a young lady who has , as no doubt you are aware , a bedridden pa. which pa , having been in the purser line of life} , lies a - bed in a bow - window where [he]_265-herbert can see [the ships]_{1627-the ships} sail up and down [the river]_{413-the river} . [You]_241-pip are acquainted with [the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} , most probably ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " Not personally , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i The truth was , that [she]_3481-she had objected to [me]_0-i as [an expensive companion who did [Herbert]_265-herbert]_{3482-an expensive companion who did herbert} no good , and that , when [Herbert]_265-herbert had first proposed to present [me]_0-i to [her]_3481-she , [she]_3481-she had received the proposal with such very moderate warmth , that [Herbert]_265-herbert had felt [himself]_265-herbert obliged to confide the state of the case to [me]_0-i , with a view to the lapse of a little time before [I]_0-i made [her]_3481-she acquaintance . When [I]_0-i had begun to advance [Herbert]_265-herbert 's prospects by stealth , [I]_0-i had been able to bear this with cheerful philosophy : [he]_265-herbert and [[his]_265-herbert affianced]_{2495-his affianced} , for [their]_3484-their part , had naturally not been very anxious to introduce [a third person]_{3485-a third person} into [their]_3484-their interviews ; and thus , although [I]_0-i was assured that [I]_0-i had risen in [Clara]_311-clara 's esteem , and although [the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} and [I]_0-i had long regularly interchanged messages and remembrances by [Herbert]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i had never seen [her]_{5786-the young lady} . However , [I]_0-i did not trouble [Wemmick]_254-wemmick with these particulars . " [The house]_{604-the house} with the bow - window , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " being by [the river - side]_{573-the river - side} , down the Pool there between [Limehouse]_{7129-limehouse} and [Greenwich]_{116-greenwich} , and being kept , it seems , by [a very respectable widow who has a furnished upper floor to let , [Mr. Herbert]_265-herbert]_{7130-a very respectable widow who has a furnished upper floor to let , mr. herbert} put it to [me]_254-wemmick , what did [I]_254-wemmick think of that as a temporary tenement for [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard ? Now , [I]_254-wemmick thought very well of it , for three reasons [I]_254-wemmick 'll give [you]_7131-you . That is to say : Firstly . It 's altogether out of all [your]_7131-you beats , and is well away from the usual heap of streets great and small . Secondly . Without going near it [yourself]_7131-you , [you]_7131-you could always hear of the safety of [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard , through [Mr. Herbert]_265-herbert . Thirdly . After a while and when it might be prudent , if [you]_7131-you should want to slip [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard on board [a foreign packet - boat]_{7132-a foreign packet - boat} , there [he]_265-herbert is - ready . "_{[254-wemmick]} Much comforted by these considerations , [I]_0-i thanked [Wemmick]_254-wemmick again and again , and begged [him]_254-wemmick to proceed . " Well , [sir]_4451-sir ! [Mr. Herbert]_265-herbert threw [himself]_265-herbert into the business with a will , and by nine o'clock last night [he]_265-herbert housed [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard , - whichever it may be , - [you]_7131-you and [I]_254-wemmick do n't want to know , - quite successfully . At [the old lodgings]_{7134-the old lodgings} it was understood that [he]_265-herbert was summoned to [Dover]_117-dover , and , in fact , [he]_265-herbert was taken down [the Dover road]_{7135-the dover road} and cornered out of [it]_{7135-the dover road} . Now , another great advantage of all this is , that it was done without [you]_7131-you , and when , if [any one]_{841-any one} was concerning [himself]_{841-any one} about [your]_7131-you movements , [you]_7131-you must be known to be ever so many miles off and quite otherwise engaged . This diverts suspicion and confuses it ; and for the same reason [I]_254-wemmick recommended that , even if [you]_7131-you came back last night , [you]_7131-you should not go [home]_4495-home . It brings in more confusion , and [you]_7131-you want confusion . "_{[254-wemmick]} [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , having finished [his]_254-wemmick breakfast , here looked at [his]_254-wemmick watch , and began to get [his]_254-wemmick coat on . " And now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [he]_254-wemmick , with [his]_254-wemmick hands still in the sleeves , " [I]_254-wemmick have probably done the most [I]_254-wemmick can do ; but if [I]_254-wemmick can ever do more , - from a [Walworth]_52-walworth point of view , and in a strictly private and personal capacity , - [I]_254-wemmick shall be glad to do it . Here 's the address . There can be no harm in [your]_7131-you going [here]_693-here to - night , and seeing for [yourself]_7131-you that all is well with [Tom]_209-tom , [Jack]_369-jack , or [Richard]_175-richard , before [you]_7131-you go [home]_4495-home , - which is another reason for [your]_7131-you not going [home]_4495-home last night . But , after [you]_7131-you have gone [home]_4495-home , do n't go back here . [You]_7131-you are very welcome , [I]_254-wemmick am sure , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip "_{[254-wemmick]} ; [his]_3487-his hands were now out of [his]_3487-his sleeves , and [I]_0-i was shaking them ; " and let [me]_3487-his finally impress one important point upon [you]_7131-you . "_[3487-his] [He]_3487-his laid [his]_3487-his hands upon [my]_0-i shoulders , and added in a solemn whisper : " Avail [yourself]_7131-you of this evening to lay hold of [[his]_3487-his portable property]_{7142-his portable property} . [You]_7131-you do n't know what may happen to [him]_3487-his . Do n't let anything happen to [the portable property]_{7143-the portable property} . "_[3487-his] Quite despairing of making [my]_0-i mind clear to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick on this point , [I]_0-i forbore to try . " Time 's up , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " and [I]_254-wemmick must be off . If [you]_7131-you had nothing more pressing to do than to keep here till dark , that 's what [I]_254-wemmick should advise . [You]_7131-you look very much worried , and it would do [you]_7131-you good to have a perfectly quiet day with [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , - [he]_3487-his 'll be up presently , - and a little bit of - [you]_7131-you remember the pig ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " Of course , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Well ; and a little bit of [him]_3487-his . That sausage [you]_7131-you toasted was [his]_3487-his , and [he]_3487-his was in all respects [a first - rater]_{7145-a first - rater} . Do try [him]_3487-his , if it is only for old acquaintance sake . Good by , [Aged Parent]_{2169-aged parent} ! "_[0-i] in a cheery shout . " All right , [John]_291-john ; all right , [[my]_{6015-the old man} boy]_{4554-my boy} ! "_{[6015-the old man]} piped [the old man]_{6015-the old man} from within . [I]_0-i soon fell asleep before [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's fire , and [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} and [I]_0-i enjoyed [one another]_{4584-one another} 's society by falling asleep before it more or less all day . [We]_3491-we had loin of pork for dinner , and greens grown on [the estate]_{3492-the estate} ; and [I]_0-i nodded at [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} with a good intention whenever [I]_0-i failed to do it drowsily . When it was quite dark , [I]_0-i left [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} preparing the fire for toast ; and [I]_0-i inferred from the number of teacups , as well as from [his]_{2166-the aged} glances at the two little doors in the wall , that [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} was expected . Chapter XLVI Eight o'clock had struck before [I]_0-i got into the air , that was scented , not disagreeably , by the chips and shavings of [the long - shore boat - builders]_{3495-the long - shore boat - builders} , and mast , oar , and [block makers]_{3496-block makers} . All that water - side region of [the upper and lower Pool below [Bridge]_118-bridge]_{3497-the upper and lower pool below bridge} was unknown ground to [me]_0-i ; and when [I]_0-i struck down by [the river]_{413-the river} , [I]_0-i found that [the spot [I]_0-i wanted]_{3499-the spot i wanted} was not where [I]_0-i had supposed it to be , and was anything but easy to find . [It]_{3499-the spot i wanted} was called [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} , [Chinks 's Basin]_{120-chinks 's basin} ; and [I]_0-i had no other guide to [Chinks 's Basin]_{120-chinks 's basin} than the Old Green Copper Rope - walk . It matters not what [stranded ships]_{3500-stranded ships} repairing in [dry docks]_{3501-dry docks} [I]_0-i lost [myself]_0-i among , what old hulls of [ships]_3502-ships in course of being knocked to pieces , what ooze and slime and other dregs of tide , what yards of [ship - builders]_{3503-ship - builders} and [ship - breakers]_{3504-ship - breakers} , what rusty anchors blindly biting into the ground , though for years off duty , what mountainous country of accumulated casks and timber , how many [ropewalks that were not the Old Green Copper]_{3505-ropewalks that were not the old green copper} . After several times falling short of [my]_0-i destination and as often overshooting it , [I]_0-i came unexpectedly round a corner , upon [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} . [It]_{3499-the spot i wanted} was [a fresh kind of place , all circumstances considered , where the wind from [the river]_{413-the river}]_{3506-a fresh kind of place , all circumstances considered , where the wind from the river} had room to turn itself round ; and there were two or three trees in [it]_{3499-the spot i wanted} , and there was the stump of [a ruined windmill]_{3508-a ruined windmill} , and there was [the Old Green Copper Ropewalk]_{3509-the old green copper ropewalk} , - whose long and narrow vista [I]_0-i could trace in the moonlight , along a series of wooden frames set in the ground , that looked like superannuated haymaking - rakes which had grown old and lost most of their teeth . Selecting from [the few queer houses upon [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank}]_{3510-the few queer houses upon mill pond bank} [a house with a wooden front and three stories of bow - window not bay - window]_{3511-a house with a wooden front and three stories of bow - window not bay - window} , which is another thing , [I]_0-i looked at the plate upon the door , and read there , [Mrs. Whimple]_{370-mrs. whimple} . That being the name [I]_0-i wanted , [I]_0-i knocked , and [an elderly woman of a pleasant and thriving appearance]_{3512-an elderly woman of a pleasant and thriving appearance} responded . [She]_{3512-an elderly woman of a pleasant and thriving appearance} was immediately deposed , however , by [Herbert]_265-herbert , who silently led [me]_0-i into [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} and shut the door . It was an odd sensation to see [his]_265-herbert very familiar face established quite at [home]_4495-home in [that very unfamiliar room]_{3515-that very unfamiliar room} and region ; and [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i looking at [him]_265-herbert , much as [I]_0-i looked at the corner - cupboard with the glass and china , the shells upon the chimney - piece , and the colored engravings on the wall , representing the death of [Captain Cook]_{3516-captain cook} , a [ship - launch]_{3517-ship - launch} , and [[his]_265-herbert Majesty King George the Third in a state [coachman]_{3519-coachman} 's wig , leather - breeches , and top - boots , on [the terrace at [Windsor]_122-windsor]_{3520-the terrace at windsor}]_{3518-his majesty king george the third in a state coachman 's wig , leather - breeches , and top - boots , on the terrace at windsor} . " All is well , [Handel]_266-handel , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " and [he]_265-herbert is quite satisfied , though eager to see [you]_266-handel . [[My]_265-herbert dear girl]_{7148-my dear girl} is with [[her]_{7148-my dear girl} father]_{1954-her father} ; and if [you]_266-handel 'll wait till [she]_{7148-my dear girl} comes down , [I]_265-herbert 'll make [you]_266-handel known to [her]_{7148-my dear girl} , and then [we]_7150-we 'll go up [stairs]_539-stairs . That 's [[her]_{7148-my dear girl} father]_{1954-her father} . "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i had become aware of an alarming growling overhead , and had probably expressed the fact in [my]_0-i countenance . " [I]_265-herbert am afraid [he]_{1954-her father} is [a sad old rascal]_{7153-a sad old rascal} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , smiling , " but [I]_265-herbert have never seen [him]_{1954-her father} . Do n't [you]_0-i smell rum ? [He]_{1954-her father} is always at it . "_{[265-herbert]} " At rum ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Yes , "_{[265-herbert]} returned [Herbert]_265-herbert , " and [you]_0-i may suppose how mild it makes [his]_{1954-her father} gout . [He]_{1954-her father} persists , too , in keeping all the provisions up [stairs]_539-stairs in [[his]_{1954-her father} room]_{625-his room} , and serving them out . [He]_{1954-her father} keeps them on shelves over [his]_{1954-her father} head , and will weigh them all . [[His]_{1954-her father} room]_{625-his room} must be like [[a chandler]_{7157-a chandler} 's shop]_{7158-a chandler 's shop} . "_{[265-herbert]} While [he]_265-herbert thus spoke , the growling noise became a prolonged roar , and then died away . " What else can be the consequence , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , in explanation , " if [he]_265-herbert will cut the cheese ? [A man with the gout in [his]_265-herbert right hand]_{7159-a man with the gout in his right hand} - and everywhere else - ca n't expect to get through [a Double Gloucester]_{7160-a double gloucester} without hurting [himself]_265-herbert . "_{[265-herbert]} [He]_265-herbert seemed to have hurt [himself]_265-herbert very much , for [he]_265-herbert gave another furious roar . " To have Provis for [an upper lodger]_{7161-an upper lodger} is quite a godsend to [Mrs. Whimple]_{370-mrs. whimple} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " for of course [people in general]_{7162-people in general} wo n't stand that noise . A curious place , [Handel]_266-handel ; is n't it ? "_{[265-herbert]} [It]_3521-it was [a curious place]_{2655-a curious place} , indeed ; but remarkably well kept and clean . " [Mrs. Whimple]_{370-mrs. whimple} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , when [I]_0-i told [him]_265-herbert so , " is the best of [housewives]_{7163-housewives} , and [I]_265-herbert really do not know what [[my]_265-herbert [Clara]_311-clara]_{7164-my clara} would do without [her]_311-clara motherly help . For , [Clara]_311-clara has [no mother]_{7165-no mother} of [her]_311-clara own , [Handel]_266-handel , and no relation in [the world]_{4698-the world} but [old Gruffandgrim]_{371-old gruffandgrim} . "_{[265-herbert]} " Surely that 's not [his]_266-handel name , [Herbert]_265-herbert ? "_{[265-herbert]} " No , no , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " that 's [my]_265-herbert name for [him]_266-handel . [His]_266-handel name is [Mr. Barley]_{372-mr. barley} . But what a blessing it is for [the son of [[my]_265-herbert father]_{400-my father} and [mother]_2659-mother to love [a girl who has no relations]_{7170-a girl who has no relations} , and who can never bother [herself]_311-clara or anybody else about [[her]_311-clara family]_{2870-her family}]_{7167-the son of my father and mother to love a girl who has no relations , and who can never bother herself or anybody else about her family} ! "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert had told [me]_0-i on former occasions , and now reminded [me]_0-i , that [he]_265-herbert first knew [Miss Clara Barley]_311-clara when [she]_311-clara was completing [her]_311-clara education at [an establishment at [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith}]_{3523-an establishment at hammersmith} , and that on [her]_311-clara being recalled [home]_4495-home to nurse [[her]_311-clara father]_{1954-her father} , [he]_265-herbert and [she]_311-clara had confided [their]_3526-their affection to [the motherly Mrs. Whimple , by whom it had been fostered and regulated with equal kindness and discretion]_{3527-the motherly mrs. whimple , by whom it had been fostered and regulated with equal kindness and discretion} , ever since . It was understood that nothing of a tender nature could possibly be confided to [old Barley]_311-clara , by reason of [his]_265-herbert being totally unequal to the consideration of any subject more psychological than Gout , Rum , and [[Purser]_373-purser 's stores]_{3528-purser 's stores} . As [we]_3529-we were thus conversing in a low tone while [Old Barley]_{374-old barley} 's sustained growl vibrated in the beam that crossed the ceiling , the room door opened , and [a very pretty , slight , dark - eyed girl of twenty or so]_{3530-a very pretty , slight , dark - eyed girl of twenty or so} came in with a basket in [her]_{3530-a very pretty , slight , dark - eyed girl of twenty or so} hand : whom [Herbert]_265-herbert tenderly relieved of the basket , and presented , blushing , as " [Clara]_311-clara . "_{[3530-a very pretty , slight , dark - eyed girl of twenty or so]} [She]_{3530-a very pretty , slight , dark - eyed girl of twenty or so} really was [a most charming girl]_{3531-a most charming girl} , and might have passed for [a captive fairy , whom [that truculent Ogre]_{3533-that truculent ogre} , [Old Barley]_{374-old barley}]_{3532-a captive fairy , whom that truculent ogre , old barley} , had pressed into [his]_{374-old barley} service . " Look here , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , showing [me]_0-i the basket , with a compassionate and tender smile , after [we]_3529-we had talked a little ; " here 's [poor Clara]_311-clara 's supper , served out every night . Here 's [her]_311-clara allowance of bread , and here 's [her]_311-clara slice of cheese , and here 's [her]_311-clara rum , - which [I]_265-herbert drink . This is [Mr. Barley]_{372-mr. barley} 's breakfast for to - morrow , served out to be cooked . Two mutton - chops , three potatoes , some split peas , a little flour , two ounces of butter , a pinch of salt , and all this black pepper . It 's stewed up together , and taken hot , and it 's a nice thing for the gout , [I]_265-herbert should think ! "_{[265-herbert]} There was something so natural and winning in [Clara]_311-clara 's resigned way of looking at [these stores]_{3534-these stores} in detail , as [Herbert]_265-herbert pointed them out ; and something so confiding , loving , and innocent in [her]_311-clara modest manner of yielding [herself]_311-clara to [Herbert]_265-herbert 's embracing arm ; and something so gentle in [her]_311-clara , so much needing protection on [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} , by [[Chinks]_375-chinks 's Basin]_{3535-chinks 's basin} , and [the Old Green Copper Ropewalk]_{3509-the old green copper ropewalk} , with [Old Barley]_{374-old barley} growling in the beam , - that [I]_0-i would not have undone the engagement between [her]_311-clara and [Herbert]_265-herbert for all the money in the pocket - book [I]_0-i had never opened . [I]_0-i was looking at [her]_311-clara with pleasure and admiration , when suddenly the growl swelled into a roar again , and a frightful bumping noise was heard above , as if [a giant with a wooden leg]_{3537-a giant with a wooden leg} were trying to bore it through the ceiling to come at [us]_3538-us . Upon this [Clara]_311-clara said to [Herbert]_265-herbert , " [Papa]_376-papa wants [me]_311-clara , [darling]_7172-darling ! "_[311-clara] and ran away . " There is an unconscionable old shark for [you]_311-clara ! "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " What do [you]_311-clara suppose [he]_376-papa wants now , [Handel]_266-handel ? "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_0-i do n't know , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Something to drink ? "_[0-i] " That 's it ! "_{[265-herbert]} cried [Herbert]_265-herbert , as if [I]_0-i had made a guess of extraordinary merit . " [He]_376-papa keeps [his]_376-papa grog ready mixed in a little tub on the table . Wait a moment , and [you]_311-clara 'll hear [Clara]_311-clara lift [him]_376-papa up to take some . There [he]_376-papa goes ! "_{[265-herbert]} Another roar , with a prolonged shake at the end . " Now , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , as it was succeeded by silence , " [he]_376-papa 's drinking . Now , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , as the growl resounded in the beam once more , " [he]_376-papa 's down again on [his]_376-papa back ! "_{[265-herbert]} [Clara]_311-clara returned soon afterwards , and [Herbert]_265-herbert accompanied [me]_0-i up [stairs]_539-stairs to see [our]_3540-our charge . As [we]_3540-our passed [Mr. Barley]_{372-mr. barley} 's door , [he]_265-herbert was heard hoarsely muttering within , in a strain that rose and fell like wind , the following Refrain , in which [I]_0-i substitute good wishes for something quite the reverse : - " Ahoy ! Bless [your]_311-clara eyes , here 's [old Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} . Here 's old Bill Barley , bless [your]_311-clara eyes . Here 's [old Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} on the flat of [his]_376-papa back , by [the Lord]_{5292-the lord} . Lying on the flat of [his]_376-papa back like [a drifting old dead flounder]_{7174-a drifting old dead flounder} , here 's [your]_311-clara old [Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} , bless [your]_311-clara eyes . Ahoy ! Bless [you]_311-clara . "_{[265-herbert]} In this strain of consolation , [Herbert]_265-herbert informed [me]_0-i the invisible [Barley]_{377-old bill barley} would commune with [himself]_{377-old bill barley} by the day and night together ; Often , while it was light , having , at the same time , one eye at a telescope which was fitted on [his]_{377-old bill barley} bed for the convenience of sweeping [the river]_{413-the river} . In [[his]_{377-old bill barley} two cabin rooms at the top of [the house]_{604-the house}]_{3542-his two cabin rooms at the top of the house} , which were fresh and airy , and in which [Mr. Barley]_{372-mr. barley} was less audible than below , [I]_0-i found Provis comfortably settled . [He]_{377-old bill barley} expressed no alarm , and seemed to feel none that was worth mentioning ; but it struck [me]_0-i that [he]_{377-old bill barley} was softened , - indefinably , for [I]_0-i could not have said how , and could never afterwards recall how when [I]_0-i tried , but certainly . The opportunity that the day 's rest had given [me]_0-i for reflection had resulted in [my]_0-i fully determining to say nothing to [him]_{377-old bill barley} respecting [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} . For anything [I]_0-i knew , [his]_{377-old bill barley} animosity towards [the man]_{433-the man} might otherwise lead to [his]_{377-old bill barley} seeking [him]_{433-the man} out and rushing on [his]_{377-old bill barley} own destruction . Therefore , when [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i sat down with [him]_{377-old bill barley} by [his]_{377-old bill barley} fire , [I]_0-i asked [him]_{377-old bill barley} first of all whether [he]_{377-old bill barley} relied on [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's judgment and sources of information ? " Ay , ay , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! "_{[377-old bill barley]} [he]_{377-old bill barley} answered , with a grave nod , " [Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} knows . "_{[377-old bill barley]} " Then , [I]_0-i have talked with [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " and have come to tell [you]_{377-old bill barley} what caution [he]_254-wemmick gave [me]_0-i and what advice . "_[0-i] This [I]_0-i did accurately , with the reservation just mentioned ; and [I]_0-i told [him]_{377-old bill barley} how [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had heard , in [Newgate prison]_{3545-newgate prison} whether from [officers]_{3546-officers} or [prisoners]_{3547-prisoners} [I]_0-i could not say , that [he]_254-wemmick was under some suspicion , and that [[my]_0-i chambers]_{6859-my chambers} had been watched ; how [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had recommended [his]_254-wemmick keeping close for a time , and [my]_0-i keeping away from [him]_254-wemmick ; and what [Wemmick]_254-wemmick had said about getting [him]_254-wemmick abroad . [I]_0-i added , that of course , when the time came , [I]_0-i should go with [him]_{377-old bill barley} , or should follow close upon [him]_{377-old bill barley} , as might be safest in [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's judgment . What was to follow that [I]_0-i did not touch upon ; neither , indeed , was [I]_0-i at all clear or comfortable about it in [my]_0-i own mind , now that [I]_0-i saw [him]_{377-old bill barley} in that softer condition , and in declared peril for [my]_0-i sake . As to altering [my]_0-i way of living by enlarging [my]_0-i expenses , [I]_0-i put it to [him]_{377-old bill barley} whether in [our]_3549-our present unsettled and difficult circumstances , it would not be simply ridiculous , if it were no worse ? [He]_{377-old bill barley} could not deny this , and indeed was very reasonable throughout . [His]_{377-old bill barley} coming back was a venture , [he]_{377-old bill barley} said , and [he]_{377-old bill barley} had always known it to be a venture . [He]_{377-old bill barley} would do nothing to make it a desperate venture , and [he]_{377-old bill barley} had very little fear of [his]_{377-old bill barley} safety with such good help . [Herbert]_265-herbert , who had been looking at the fire and pondering , here said that something had come into [his]_265-herbert thoughts arising out of [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's suggestion , which it might be worth while to pursue . " [We]_3549-our are both [good watermen]_{7176-good watermen} , [Handel]_266-handel , and could take [him]_{377-old bill barley} down [the river]_{413-the river} [ourselves]_3549-our when the right time comes . [No boat]_{7178-no boat} would then be hired for the purpose , and [no boatmen]_{7179-no boatmen} ; that would save at least a chance of suspicion , and any chance is worth saving . Never mind the season ; do n't [you]_7180-you think it might be a good thing if [you]_7180-you began at once to keep [a boat]_{5880-a boat} at [the Temple]_{92-the temple} stairs , and were in the habit of rowing up and down [the river]_{413-the river} ? [You]_7180-you fall into that habit , and then who notices or minds ? Do it twenty or fifty times , and there is nothing special in [your]_7180-you doing it the twenty - first or fifty - first . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i liked this scheme , and [Provis]_348-provis was quite elated by it . [We]_3550-we agreed that it should be carried into execution , and that [Provis]_348-provis should never recognize [us]_3550-we if [we]_3550-we came below [Bridge]_118-bridge , and rowed past [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} . But [we]_3550-we further agreed that [he]_348-provis should pull down the blind in that part of [his]_348-provis window which gave upon [the east]_{790-the east} , whenever [he]_348-provis saw [us]_3550-we and all was right . [Our]_3550-we conference being now ended , and everything arranged , [I]_0-i rose to go ; remarking to [Herbert]_265-herbert that [he]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i had better not go [home]_4495-home together , and that [I]_0-i would take half an hour 's start of [him]_265-herbert . " [I]_0-i do n't like to leave [you]_348-provis [here]_693-here , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said to [Provis]_348-provis , " though [I]_0-i can not doubt [your]_348-provis being safer here than near [me]_0-i . Good by ! "_[0-i] " [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , "_[348-provis] [he]_348-provis answered , clasping [my]_0-i hands , " [I]_348-provis do n't know when [we]_3553-we may meet again , and [I]_348-provis do n't like good by . Say good night ! "_[348-provis] " Good night ! [Herbert]_265-herbert will go regularly between [us]_3553-we , and when the time comes [you]_{3079-dear boy} may be certain [I]_3553-we shall be ready . Good night , good night ! "_[3553-we] [We]_3553-we thought it best that [he]_265-herbert should stay in [[his]_265-herbert own rooms]_{3554-his own rooms} ; and [we]_3553-we left [him]_265-herbert on [the landing outside [his]_265-herbert door]_{3555-the landing outside his door} , holding a light over the stair - rail to light [us]_3553-we down [stairs]_539-stairs . Looking back at [him]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i thought of the first night of [his]_265-herbert return , when [our]_3553-we positions were reversed , and when [I]_0-i little supposed [my]_0-i heart could ever be as heavy and anxious at parting from [him]_265-herbert as it was now . [Old Barley]_{374-old barley} was growling and swearing when [we]_3553-we repassed [his]_265-herbert door , with no appearance of having ceased or of meaning to cease . When [we]_3553-we got to the foot of the stairs , [I]_0-i asked [Herbert]_265-herbert whether [he]_265-herbert had preserved the name of [Provis]_348-provis . [He]_265-herbert replied , certainly not , and that [the lodger]_{3557-the lodger} was [Mr. Campbell]_{378-mr. campbell} . [He]_265-herbert also explained that the utmost known of [Mr. Campbell]_{378-mr. campbell} [there]_4505-there was , that [he]_265-herbert [Herbert]_265-herbert had [Mr. Campbell]_{378-mr. campbell} consigned to [him]_265-herbert , and felt a strong personal interest in [his]_265-herbert being well cared for , and living a secluded life . So , when [we]_3553-we went into [the parlor]_{662-the parlor} where [Mrs. Whimple]_{370-mrs. whimple} and [Clara]_311-clara were seated at work , [I]_0-i said nothing of [my]_0-i own interest in [Mr. Campbell]_{378-mr. campbell} , but kept it to [myself]_0-i . When [I]_0-i had taken leave of [the pretty , gentle , dark - eyed girl]_{3560-the pretty , gentle , dark - eyed girl} , and of [the motherly woman who had not outlived [her]_{3561-the motherly woman who had not outlived her honest sympathy with a little affair of true love} honest sympathy with a little affair of true love]_{3561-the motherly woman who had not outlived her honest sympathy with a little affair of true love} , [I]_0-i felt as if [the Old Green Copper Ropewalk]_{379-the old green copper ropewalk} had grown quite a different place . [Old Barley]_{3562-old barley} might be as old as [the hills]_{3563-the hills} , and might swear like a whole field of [troopers]_{3564-troopers} , but there were redeeming youth and trust and hope enough in [Chinks]_375-chinks 's Basin to fill it to overflowing . And then [I]_0-i thought of [Estella]_195-estella , and of [our]_3553-we parting , and went [home]_4495-home very sadly . All things were as quiet in [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} as ever [I]_0-i had seen them . The windows of [the rooms on that side , lately occupied by [Provis]_348-provis]_{3567-the rooms on that side , lately occupied by provis} , were dark and still , and there was no lounger in [Garden Court]_{103-garden court} . [I]_0-i walked past [the fountain]_{6045-the fountain} twice or thrice before [I]_0-i descended the steps that were between [me]_0-i and [[my]_0-i rooms]_{2680-my rooms} , but [I]_0-i was quite alone . [Herbert]_265-herbert , coming to [my]_0-i bedside when [he]_265-herbert came in , - for [I]_0-i went straight to bed , dispirited and fatigued , - made the same report . Opening one of the windows after that , [he]_265-herbert looked out into the moonlight , and told [me]_0-i that [the pavement]_{5599-the pavement} was a solemnly empty as the pavement of [any cathedral]_{3571-any cathedral} at that same hour . Next day [I]_0-i set [myself]_0-i to get [the boat]_{4680-the boat} . It was soon done , and [the boat]_{4680-the boat} was brought round to [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} stairs , and lay where [I]_0-i could reach [her]_3575-her within a minute or two . Then , [I]_0-i began to go out as for training and practice : sometimes alone , sometimes with [Herbert]_265-herbert . [I]_0-i was often out in cold , rain , and sleet , but [nobody]_4527-nobody took much note of [me]_0-i after [I]_0-i had been out a few times . At first , [I]_0-i kept above [Blackfriars Bridge]_{123-blackfriars bridge} ; but as the hours of the tide changed , [I]_0-i took towards [London Bridge]_{124-london bridge} . It was [Old London Bridge]_{124-london bridge} in those days , and at certain states of the tide there was a race and fall of water there which gave [it]_{124-london bridge} a bad reputation . But [I]_0-i knew well enough how to ' shoot ' [the bridge]_{6005-the bridge} after seeing it done , and so began to row about among the shipping in [the Pool]_{3578-the pool} , and down to [Erith]_125-erith . The first time [I]_0-i passed [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} , [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i were pulling a pair of oars ; and , both in going and returning , [we]_3579-we saw the blind towards the east come down . [Herbert]_265-herbert was rarely there less frequently than three times in a week , and [he]_265-herbert never brought [me]_0-i a single word of intelligence that was at all alarming . Still , [I]_0-i knew that there was cause for alarm , and [I]_0-i could not get rid of the notion of being watched . Once received , it is a haunting idea ; how many undesigning persons [I]_0-i suspected of watching [me]_0-i , it would be hard to calculate . In short , [I]_0-i was always full of fears for [the rash man who was in hiding]_{3580-the rash man who was in hiding} . [Herbert]_265-herbert had sometimes said to [me]_0-i that [he]_265-herbert found it pleasant to stand at one of [our]_3579-we windows after dark , when the tide was running down , and to think that it was flowing , with everything it bore , towards [Clara]_311-clara . But [I]_0-i thought with dread that it was flowing towards [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , and that any black mark on its surface might be [[his]_265-herbert pursuers]_{3581-his pursuers} , going swiftly , silently , and surely , to take [him]_265-herbert . Chapter XLVII Some weeks passed without bringing any change . [We]_3579-we waited for [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and [he]_265-herbert made no sign . If [I]_0-i had never known [him]_265-herbert out of [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , and had never enjoyed the privilege of being on a familiar footing at [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} , [I]_0-i might have doubted [him]_265-herbert ; not so for a moment , knowing [him]_265-herbert as [I]_0-i did . [My]_0-i worldly affairs began to wear a gloomy appearance , and [I]_0-i was pressed for money by [more than one creditor]_{3583-more than one creditor} . Even [I]_0-i [myself]_0-i began to know the want of money [I]_0-i mean of ready money in [my]_0-i own pocket , and to relieve it by converting some easily spared articles of jewelery into cash . But [I]_0-i had quite determined that it would be a heartless fraud to take more money from [[my]_0-i patron]_{1386-my patron} in the existing state of [my]_0-i uncertain thoughts and plans . Therefore , [I]_0-i had sent [him]_{1386-my patron} the unopened pocket - book by [Herbert]_265-herbert , to hold in [his]_{1386-my patron} own keeping , and [I]_0-i felt a kind of satisfaction - whether it was a false kind or a true , [I]_0-i hardly know - in not having profited by [his]_{1386-my patron} generosity since [his]_{1386-my patron} revelation of [himself]_{1386-my patron} . As the time wore on , an impression settled heavily upon [me]_0-i that [Estella]_195-estella was married . Fearful of having it confirmed , though it was all but a conviction , [I]_0-i avoided the newspapers , and begged [Herbert]_265-herbert to whom [I]_0-i had confided the circumstances of [our]_3585-our last interview never to speak of [her]_195-estella to [me]_0-i . Why [I]_0-i hoarded up this last wretched little rag of the robe of hope that was rent and given to the winds , how do [I]_0-i know ? Why did [you]_3586-you who read this , commit that not dissimilar inconsistency of [your]_3586-you own last year , last month , last week ? It was an unhappy life that [I]_0-i lived ; and its one dominant anxiety , towering over all its other anxieties , like [a high mountain above a range of mountains]_{3587-a high mountain above a range of mountains} , never disappeared from [my]_0-i view . Still , no new cause for fear arose . Let [me]_0-i start from [my]_0-i bed as [I]_0-i would , with the terror fresh upon [me]_0-i that [he]_265-herbert was discovered ; let [me]_0-i sit listening , as [I]_0-i would with dread , for [Herbert]_265-herbert 's returning step at night , lest it should be fleeter than ordinary , and winged with evil news , - for all that , and much more to like purpose , the round of things went on . Condemned to inaction and a state of constant restlessness and suspense , [I]_0-i rowed about in [[my]_0-i boat]_{5972-my boat} , and waited , waited , waited , as [I]_0-i best could . There were states of the tide when , having been down [the river]_{413-the river} , [I]_0-i could not get back through the eddy - chafed arches and starlings of [old [London]_8-london Bridge]_{3590-old london bridge} ; then , [I]_0-i left [[my]_0-i boat]_{5972-my boat} at [a wharf near [the Custom House]_{3593-the custom house}]_{3592-a wharf near the custom house} , to be brought up afterwards to [the Temple stairs]_{3594-the temple stairs} . [I]_0-i was not averse to doing this , as it served to make [me]_0-i and [[my]_0-i boat]_{5972-my boat} a commoner incident among [the water - side people there]_{3596-the water - side people there} . From this slight occasion sprang two meetings that [I]_0-i have now to tell of . One afternoon , late in the month of February , [I]_0-i came ashore at [the wharf]_{3597-the wharf} at dusk . [I]_0-i had pulled down as far as [Greenwich]_{116-greenwich} with the ebb tide , and had turned with the tide . It had been a fine bright day , but had become foggy as the sun dropped , and [I]_0-i had had to feel [my]_0-i way back among [the shipping]_{3598-the shipping} , pretty carefully . Both in going and returning , [I]_0-i had seen the signal in [his]_3599-his window , All well . As it was a raw evening , and [I]_0-i was cold , [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i would comfort [myself]_0-i with dinner at once ; and as [I]_0-i had hours of dejection and solitude before [me]_0-i if [I]_0-i went [home]_4495-home to [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} , [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i would afterwards go to the play . [The theatre where [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had achieved [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} questionable triumph]_{3602-the theatre where mr. wopsle had achieved his questionable triumph} was in [that water - side neighborhood]_{3603-that water - side neighborhood} it is nowhere now , and to [that theatre]_{3604-that theatre} [I]_0-i resolved to go . [I]_0-i was aware that [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had not succeeded in reviving the Drama , but , on the contrary , had rather partaken of its decline . [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} had been ominously heard of , through the play - bills , as [a faithful Black]_{3605-a faithful black} , in connection with [a little girl of noble birth , and a monkey]_{3606-a little girl of noble birth , and a monkey} . And [Herbert]_265-herbert had seen [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} as [a predatory Tartar of comic propensities , with a face like a red brick , and an outrageous hat all over bells]_{3607-a predatory tartar of comic propensities , with a face like a red brick , and an outrageous hat all over bells} . [I]_0-i dined at what [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i used to call [a geographical chop - house]_{3608-a geographical chop - house} , where there were maps of [the world]_{4698-the world} in porter - pot rims on every half - yard of the tablecloths , and charts of gravy on every one of the knives , - to this day there is scarcely [a single chop - house within [the Lord Mayor]_{3611-the lord mayor} 's dominions]_{3610-a single chop - house within the lord mayor 's dominions} which is not geographical , - and wore out the time in dozing over crumbs , staring at gas , and baking in a hot blast of dinners . By and by , [I]_0-i roused [myself]_0-i , and went to the play . There , [I]_0-i found [a virtuous boatswain]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} in [[His]_{169-mr. wopsle} Majesty]_{4627-his majesty} 's service , - [a most excellent man]_{3614-a most excellent man} , though [I]_0-i could have wished [his]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} trousers not quite so tight in some places , and not quite so loose in others , - who knocked [all the little men]_{3615-all the little men} 's hats over [their]_{3615-all the little men} eyes , though [he]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} was very generous and brave , and who would n't hear of [anybody]_4526-anybody 's paying taxes , though [he]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} was very patriotic . [He]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} had a bag of money in [his]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} pocket , like a pudding in the cloth , and on [that property]_{2559-that property} married [a young person in bed - furniture]_{3618-a young person in bed - furniture} , with great rejoicings ; [the whole population of [Portsmouth]_{95-portsmouth} nine in number at the last census turning out on [the beach]_{3620-the beach}]_{3619-the whole population of portsmouth nine in number at the last census turning out on the beach} to rub [their]_{3619-the whole population of portsmouth nine in number at the last census turning out on the beach} own hands and shake [everybody else]_{5533-everybody else} 's , and sing " Fill , fill ! "_{[3622-a certain dark - complexioned swab]} [A certain dark - complexioned Swab]_{3622-a certain dark - complexioned swab} , however , who would n't fill , or do anything else that was proposed to [him]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} , and whose heart was openly stated by [the boatswain]_{3623-the boatswain} to be as black as [his]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} figure - head , proposed to [two other Swabs]_{3624-two other swabs} to get [all mankind]_{3625-all mankind} into difficulties ; which was so effectually done [the Swab family]_{3626-the swab family} having considerable political influence that it took half the evening to set things right , and then it was only brought about through [an honest little grocer with a white hat , black gaiters , and red nose]_{3627-an honest little grocer with a white hat , black gaiters , and red nose} , getting into a clock , with a gridiron , and listening , and coming out , and knocking [everybody]_{678-everybody} down from behind with [the gridiron whom [he]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} could n't confute with what [he]_{3612-a virtuous boatswain} had overheard]_{3629-the gridiron whom he could n't confute with what he had overheard} . This led to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's who had never been heard of before coming in with a star and garter on , as [a plenipotentiary of great power direct from [the Admiralty]_{126-the admiralty}]_{3630-a plenipotentiary of great power direct from the admiralty} , to say that [the Swabs]_{3631-the swabs} were all to go to prison on the spot , and that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had brought [the boatswain]_{3623-the boatswain} down [the Union Jack]_{87-the union jack} , as a slight acknowledgment of [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} public services . [The boatswain]_{3623-the boatswain} , unmanned for the first time , respectfully dried [his]_{3623-the boatswain} eyes on [the Jack]_369-jack , and then cheering up , and addressing [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} as [Your]_3634-your Honor , solicited permission to take [him]_{3623-the boatswain} by the fin . [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , conceding [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} fin with a gracious dignity , was immediately shoved into a dusty corner , while [everybody]_{678-everybody} danced a hornpipe ; and from [that corner]_{3636-that corner} , surveying [the public]_{2516-the public} with a discontented eye , became aware of [me]_0-i . The second piece was the last new grand comic Christmas pantomime , in the first scene of which , it pained [me]_0-i to suspect that [I]_0-i detected [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} with red worsted legs under a highly magnified phosphoric countenance and a shock of red curtain - fringe for [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} hair , engaged in the manufacture of thunderbolts in [a mine]_{3638-a mine} , and displaying great cowardice when [[his]_{169-mr. wopsle} gigantic master]_{3639-his gigantic master} came [home]_4495-home very hoarse to dinner . But [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} presently presented [himself]_{169-mr. wopsle} under worthier circumstances ; for , [the Genius of [Youthful Love]_{380-youthful love}]_{3641-the genius of youthful love} being in want of assistance , - on account of the parental brutality of [an ignorant farmer who opposed the choice of [[his]_{3642-an ignorant farmer who opposed the choice of his daughter 's heart} daughter]_{1964-his daughter} 's heart]_{3642-an ignorant farmer who opposed the choice of his daughter 's heart} , by purposely falling upon the object , in a flour - sack , out of the first - floor window , - summoned [a sententious Enchanter]_{3644-a sententious enchanter} ; and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} , coming up from the antipodes rather unsteadily , after an apparently violent journey , proved to be [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} in a high - crowned hat , with a necromantic work in one volume under [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} arm . The business of this enchanter on [earth]_6816-earth being principally to be talked at , sung at , butted at , danced at , and flashed at with fires of various colors , [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had a good deal of time on [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} hands . And [I]_0-i observed , with great surprise , that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} devoted it to staring in [my]_0-i direction as if [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} were lost in amazement . There was something so remarkable in the increasing glare of [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} 's eye , and [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} seemed to be turning so many things over in [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} mind and to grow so confused , that [I]_0-i could not make it out . [I]_0-i sat thinking of it long after [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had ascended to the clouds in a large watch - case , and still [I]_0-i could not make it out . [I]_0-i was still thinking of it when [I]_0-i came out of [the theatre]_{5713-the theatre} an hour afterwards , and found [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} waiting for [me]_0-i near the door . " How do [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} do ? "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , shaking hands with [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} as [we]_3647-we turned down [the street]_{4824-the street} together . " [I]_0-i saw that [you]_{169-mr. wopsle} saw [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] " Saw [you]_0-i , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} returned . " Yes , of course [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} saw [you]_0-i . But who else was there ? "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} " Who else ? "_[0-i] " It is the strangest thing , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , drifting into [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} lost look again ; " and yet [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} could swear to [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Becoming alarmed , [I]_0-i entreated [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} to explain [his]_{169-mr. wopsle} meaning . " Whether [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} should have noticed [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} at first but for [your]_0-i being [there]_4505-there , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} , going on in the same lost way , " [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} ca n't be positive ; yet [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} think [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} should . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Involuntarily [I]_0-i looked round [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i was accustomed to look round [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i went [home]_4495-home ; for these mysterious words gave [me]_0-i a chill . " Oh ! [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} ca n't be in sight , "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} said [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} . " [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} went out before [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} went off . [I]_{169-mr. wopsle} saw [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} go . "_{[169-mr. wopsle]} Having the reason that [I]_0-i had for being suspicious , [I]_0-i even suspected [this poor actor]_{3650-this poor actor} . [I]_0-i mistrusted a design to entrap [me]_0-i into some admission . Therefore [I]_0-i glanced at [him]_{3650-this poor actor} as [we]_3651-we walked on together , but said nothing . " [I]_0-i had a ridiculous fancy that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} must be with [you]_0-i , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , till [I]_0-i saw that [you]_0-i were quite unconscious of [him]_{169-mr. wopsle} , sitting behind [you]_0-i there like a ghost . "_[0-i] [My]_0-i former chill crept over [me]_0-i again , but [I]_0-i was resolved not to speak yet , for it was quite consistent with [his]_{3650-this poor actor} words that [he]_{3650-this poor actor} might be set on to induce [me]_0-i to connect these references with [Provis]_348-provis . Of course , [I]_0-i was perfectly sure and safe that [Provis]_348-provis had not been there . " [I]_{3650-this poor actor} dare say [you]_0-i wonder at [me]_{3650-this poor actor} , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ; indeed , [I]_{3650-this poor actor} see [you]_0-i do . But it is so very strange ! [You]_0-i 'll hardly believe what [I]_{3650-this poor actor} am going to tell [you]_0-i . [I]_{3650-this poor actor} could hardly believe it [myself]_{3650-this poor actor} , if [you]_0-i told [me]_{3650-this poor actor} . "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " Indeed ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " No , indeed . [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [you]_0-i remember in old times a certain Christmas Day , when [you]_0-i were quite [a child]_{691-a child} , and [I]_0-i dined at [Gargery 's]_154-joe , and [some soldiers]_{7187-some soldiers} came to the door to get a pair of handcuffs mended ? "_[0-i] " [I]_{3650-this poor actor} remember it very well . "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " And [you]_0-i remember that there was a chase after [two convicts]_{6224-two convicts} , and that [we]_7189-we joined in it , and that [Gargery]_{203-mr. gargery} took [you]_0-i on [his]_{203-mr. gargery} back , and that [I]_{3650-this poor actor} took the lead , and [you]_0-i kept up with [me]_{3650-this poor actor} as well as [you]_0-i could ? "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " [I]_0-i remember it all very well . "_[0-i] Better than [he]_0-i thought , - except the last clause . " And [you]_0-i remember that [we]_7189-we came up with [the two]_{856-the two} in a ditch , and that there was a scuffle between [them]_{856-the two} , and that one of [them]_{856-the two} had been severely handled and much mauled about the face by the other ? "_[0-i] " [I]_{3650-this poor actor} see it all before [me]_{3650-this poor actor} . "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " And that [the soldiers]_{4560-the soldiers} lighted torches , and put [the two]_{856-the two} in the centre , and that [we]_7189-we went on to see the last of [them]_{856-the two} , over [the black marshes]_{7193-the black marshes} , with the torchlight shining on [their]_{856-the two} faces , - [I]_{3650-this poor actor} am particular about that , - with the torchlight shining on [their]_{856-the two} faces , when there was an outer ring of dark night all about [us]_7189-we ? "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " Yes , "_[3652-i.] said [I.]_3652-i. " [I]_3652-i. remember all that . "_[3652-i.] " Then , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [one of [those two prisoners]_{7195-those two prisoners}]_{7194-one of those two prisoners} sat behind [you]_241-pip tonight . [I]_{3650-this poor actor} saw [him]_{7194-one of those two prisoners} over [your]_241-pip shoulder . "_{[3650-this poor actor]} " Steady ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought . [I]_0-i asked [him]_3653-i then , " Which of the two do [you]_3653-i suppose [you]_3653-i saw ? "_[0-i] " [The one who had been mauled]_{7196-the one who had been mauled} , "_[3653-i] [he]_3653-i answered readily , " and [I]_3653-i 'll swear [I]_3653-i saw [him]_{7194-one of those two prisoners} ! The more [I]_3653-i think of [him]_{7194-one of those two prisoners} , the more certain [I]_3653-i am of [him]_{7194-one of those two prisoners} . "_[3653-i] " This is very curious ! "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , with the best assumption [I]_0-i could put on of its being nothing more to [me]_0-i . " Very curious indeed ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i can not exaggerate the enhanced disquiet into which this conversation threw [me]_0-i , or the special and peculiar terror [I]_0-i felt at [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} 's having been behind [me]_0-i " like a ghost . "_{[364-compeyson]} For if [he]_{364-compeyson} had ever been out of [my]_0-i thoughts for a few moments together since the hiding had begun , it was in those very moments when [he]_{364-compeyson} was closest to [me]_0-i ; and to think that [I]_0-i should be so unconscious and off [my]_0-i guard after all [my]_0-i care was as if [I]_0-i had shut an avenue of a hundred doors to keep [him]_{364-compeyson} out , and then had found [him]_{364-compeyson} at [my]_0-i elbow . [I]_0-i could not doubt , either , that [he]_{364-compeyson} was there , because [I]_0-i was there , and that , however slight an appearance of danger there might be about [us]_3654-us , danger was always near and active . [I]_0-i put such questions to [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} as , When did [the man]_{433-the man} come in ? [He]_{169-mr. wopsle} could not tell [me]_0-i that ; [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} saw [me]_0-i , and over [my]_0-i shoulder [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} saw [the man]_{433-the man} . It was not until [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had seen [him]_{433-the man} for some time that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} began to identify [him]_{433-the man} ; but [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} had from the first vaguely associated [him]_{433-the man} with [me]_0-i , and known [him]_{433-the man} as somehow belonging to [me]_0-i in the old village time . How was [he]_{433-the man} dressed ? Prosperously , but not noticeably otherwise ; [he]_{433-the man} thought , in black . Was [his]_{433-the man} face at all disfigured ? No , [he]_{433-the man} believed not . [I]_0-i believed not too , for , although in [my]_0-i brooding state [I]_0-i had taken no especial notice of [the people behind [me]_0-i]_{3657-the people behind me} , [I]_0-i thought it likely that a face at all disfigured would have attracted [my]_0-i attention . When [Mr. Wopsle]_{169-mr. wopsle} had imparted to [me]_0-i all that [he]_{169-mr. wopsle} could recall or [I]_0-i extract , and when [I]_0-i had treated [him]_{433-the man} to a little appropriate refreshment , after the fatigues of the evening , [we]_3658-we parted . It was between twelve and one o'clock when [I]_0-i reached [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} , and the gates were shut . [No one]_{4550-no one} was near [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i went in and went [home]_4495-home . [Herbert]_265-herbert had come in , and [we]_3658-we held a very serious council by the fire . But there was nothing to be done , saving to communicate to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick what [I]_0-i had that night found out , and to remind [him]_{433-the man} that [we]_3658-we waited for [his]_{433-the man} hint . As [I]_0-i thought that [I]_0-i might compromise [him]_{433-the man} if [I]_0-i went too often to [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} , [I]_0-i made this communication by letter . [I]_0-i wrote it before [I]_0-i went to bed , and went out and posted it ; and again [no one]_{4550-no one} was near [me]_0-i . [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i agreed that [we]_3658-we could do nothing else but be very cautious . And [we]_3658-we were very cautious indeed , - more cautious than before , if that were possible , - and [I]_0-i for [my]_0-i part never went near [[Chinks]_375-chinks 's Basin]_{3535-chinks 's basin} , except when [I]_0-i rowed by , and then [I]_0-i only looked at [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} as [I]_0-i looked at anything else . Chapter XLVIII The second of the two meetings referred to in the last chapter occurred about a week after the first . [I]_0-i had again left [[my]_0-i boat]_{5972-my boat} at [the wharf below Bridge]_{3666-the wharf below bridge} ; the time was an hour earlier in the afternoon ; and , undecided where to dine , [I]_0-i had strolled up into [Cheapside]_27-cheapside , and was strolling along [it]_27-cheapside , surely [the most unsettled person in all [the busy concourse]_{3668-the busy concourse}]_{3667-the most unsettled person in all the busy concourse} , when a large hand was laid upon [my]_0-i shoulder by [some one overtaking [me]_0-i]_{3669-some one overtaking me} . It was [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's hand , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} passed it through [my]_0-i arm . " As [we]_7197-we are going in the same direction , [Pip]_241-pip , [we]_7197-we may walk together . Where are [you]_241-pip bound for ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " For [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} , [I]_0-i think , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Do n't [you]_241-pip know ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Well , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned , glad for once to get the better of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} in cross - examination , " [I]_0-i do not know , for [I]_0-i have not made up [my]_0-i mind . "_[0-i] " [You]_241-pip are going to dine ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " [You]_241-pip do n't mind admitting that , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} suppose ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " No , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned , " [I]_0-i do n't mind admitting that . "_[0-i] " And are not engaged ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do n't mind admitting also that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am not engaged . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Then , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " come and dine with [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i was going to excuse [myself]_0-i , when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} added , " Wemmick 's coming . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} So [I]_0-i changed [my]_0-i excuse into an acceptance , - the few words [I]_0-i had uttered , serving for the beginning of either , - and [we]_3670-we went along [Cheapside]_27-cheapside and slanted off to [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , while the lights were springing up brilliantly in [the shop]_{4833-the shop} windows , and the street lamp - lighters , scarcely finding ground enough to plant [their]_3672-their ladders on in the midst of the afternoon 's bustle , were skipping up and down and running in and out , opening more red eyes in the gathering fog than [[my]_0-i rushlight tower]_{3673-my rushlight tower} at [the Hummums]_{115-the hummums} had opened white eyes in the ghostly wall . At [the office in [Little Britain]_{28-little britain}]_{3674-the office in little britain} there was the usual letter - writing , hand - washing , candle - snuffing , and safe - locking , that closed the business of the day . As [I]_0-i stood idle by [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's fire , its rising and falling flame made the two casts on the shelf look as if [they]_3675-they were playing a diabolical game at bo - peep with [me]_0-i ; while the pair of coarse , fat office candles that dimly lighted [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} wrote in a corner were decorated with dirty winding - sheets , as if in remembrance of [a host of hanged clients]_{3676-a host of hanged clients} . [We]_3670-we went to [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} , all three together , in [a hackney - coach]_{3677-a hackney - coach} : And , as soon as [we]_3670-we got [there]_4505-there , dinner was served . Although [I]_0-i should not have thought of making , in [that place]_{3679-that place} , the most distant reference by so much as a look to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's [Walworth]_52-walworth sentiments , yet [I]_0-i should have had no objection to catching [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eye now and then in a friendly way . But it was not to be done . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} turned [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} eyes on [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} whenever [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} raised them from the table , and was as dry and distant to [me]_0-i as if there were twin Wemmicks , and this was the wrong one . " Did [you]_0-i send that note of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's to [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} asked , soon after [we]_3670-we began dinner . " No , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[254-wemmick]} returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ; " it was going by post , when [you]_0-i brought [Mr. Pip]_241-pip into [the office]_{5562-the office} . Here it is . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} handed it to [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} principal]_{6634-his principal} instead of to [me]_0-i . " It 's a note of two lines , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , handing it on , ' sent up to [me]_0-i by [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} on account of [her]_{223-miss havisham} not being sure of [your]_{237-mr. jaggers} address . [She]_{223-miss havisham} tells [me]_0-i that [she]_{223-miss havisham} wants to see [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} on a little matter of business [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} mentioned to [her]_{223-miss havisham} . [You]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll go down ? " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Yes , " said [I]_{223-miss havisham} , casting [my]_{223-miss havisham} eyes over the note , which was exactly in those terms . "_{[223-miss havisham]} When do [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} think of going down ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i have an impending engagement , " said [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} , glancing at [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , who was putting fish into [the post - office]_{2454-the post - office} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} that renders [me]_0-i rather uncertain of [my]_0-i time . At once , [I]_0-i think . " "_[0-i] If [Mr. Pip]_241-pip has the intention of going at once , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[241-pip] [he]_241-pip need n't write an answer , [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} know . " Receiving this as an intimation that it was best not to delay , [I]_241-pip settled that [I]_241-pip would go to - morrow , and said so . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick drank a glass of wine , and looked with a grimly satisfied air at [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , but not at [me]_241-pip . "_[241-pip] So , [Pip]_241-pip ! [[Our]_3681-our friend]_{6374-our friend} [the Spider]_{297-the spider} , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_{[297-the spider]} has played [his]_{297-the spider} cards . [He]_{297-the spider} has won the pool . " It was as much as [I]_{297-the spider} could do to assent . "_{[297-the spider]} Hah ! [He]_{297-the spider} is [a promising fellow]_{3683-a promising fellow} - in [his]_{297-the spider} way - but [he]_{297-the spider} may not have it all [his]_{297-the spider} own way . The stronger will win in the end , but the stronger has to be found out first . If [he]_{297-the spider} should turn to , and beat [her]_3684-her - " "_{[297-the spider]} Surely , " [I]_3685-i interrupted , with a burning face and heart , "_[3685-i] [you]_3685-i do not seriously think that [he]_{297-the spider} is scoundrel enough for that , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i did n't say so , [Pip]_241-pip . [I]_0-i am putting a case . If [he]_{297-the spider} should turn to and beat [her]_3684-her , [he]_{297-the spider} may possibly get the strength on [his]_{297-the spider} side ; if it should be a question of intellect , [he]_{297-the spider} certainly will not . It would be chance work to give an opinion how [a fellow of that sort]_{3686-a fellow of that sort} will turn out in such circumstances , because it 's a toss - up between two results . " "_[0-i] May [I]_0-i ask what they are ? " "_[0-i] [A fellow like [[our]_3688-our friend]_{6374-our friend} [the Spider]_{297-the spider}]_{3687-a fellow like our friend the spider} , " answered [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_[0-i] either beats or cringes . [He]_{3687-a fellow like our friend the spider} may cringe and growl , or cringe and not growl ; but [he]_{3687-a fellow like our friend the spider} either beats or cringes . Ask [Wemmick]_254-wemmick [his]_{297-the spider} opinion . " "_{[254-wemmick]} Either beats or cringes , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , not at all addressing [himself]_254-wemmick to [me]_254-wemmick . "_{[254-wemmick]} So here 's to [Mrs. Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle , " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , taking a decanter of choicer wine from [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} dumb - waiter]_{6102-his dumb - waiter} , and filling for each of [us]_7203-us and for [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_{[278-drummle]} and may the question of supremacy be settled to [the lady]_{5934-the lady} 's satisfaction ! To the satisfaction of [the lady]_{5934-the lady} and [the gentleman]_{1244-the gentleman} , it never will be . Now , [Molly]_296-molly , [Molly]_296-molly , [Molly]_296-molly , [Molly]_296-molly , how slow [you]_296-molly are to - day ! " [She]_296-molly was at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} elbow when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} addressed [her]_296-molly , putting a dish upon the table . As [she]_296-molly withdrew [her]_296-molly hands from it , [she]_296-molly fell back a step or two , nervously muttering some excuse . And a certain action of [her]_296-molly fingers , as [she]_296-molly spoke , arrested [my]_296-molly attention . "_[296-molly] What 's the matter ? " said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_[296-molly] Nothing . Only the subject [we]_3693-we were speaking of , " said [I]_296-molly , "_[296-molly] was rather painful to [me]_0-i . " The action of [her]_296-molly fingers was like the action of knitting . [She]_296-molly stood looking at [[her]_296-molly master]_{7204-her master} , not understanding whether [she]_296-molly was free to go , or whether [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had more to say to [her]_296-molly and would call [her]_296-molly back if [she]_296-molly did go . [Her]_296-molly look was very intent . Surely , [I]_296-molly had seen exactly such eyes and such hands on a memorable occasion very lately ! [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} dismissed [her]_296-molly , and [she]_296-molly glided out of [the room]_{633-the room} . But [she]_296-molly remained before [me]_296-molly as plainly as if [she]_296-molly were still there . [I]_296-molly looked at those hands , [I]_296-molly looked at those eyes , [I]_296-molly looked at that flowing hair ; and [I]_296-molly compared them with other hands , other eyes , other hair , that [I]_296-molly knew of , and with what those might be after twenty years of [a brutal husband]_{7206-a brutal husband} and a stormy life . [I]_296-molly looked again at those hands and eyes of [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} , and thought of the inexplicable feeling that had come over [me]_296-molly when [I]_296-molly last walked - not alone - in [the ruined garden]_{2381-the ruined garden} , and through [the deserted brewery]_{7209-the deserted brewery} . [I]_296-molly thought how the same feeling had come back when [I]_296-molly saw a face looking at [me]_296-molly , and a hand waving to [me]_296-molly from a stage - coach window ; and how it had come back again and had flashed about [me]_296-molly like lightning , when [I]_296-molly had passed in [a carriage]_{2619-a carriage} - not alone - through a sudden glare of light in [a dark street]_{7211-a dark street} . [I]_296-molly thought how one link of association had helped that identification in [the theatre]_{5713-the theatre} , and how such a link , wanting before , had been riveted for [me]_296-molly now , when [I]_296-molly had passed by a chance swift from [Estella]_195-estella 's name to the fingers with [their]_7213-their knitting action , and the attentive eyes . And [I]_296-molly felt absolutely certain that [this woman]_{2199-this woman} was [[Estella]_195-estella 's mother]_{7215-estella 's mother} . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} had seen [me]_296-molly with [Estella]_195-estella , and was not likely to have missed the sentiments [I]_296-molly had been at no pains to conceal . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} nodded when [I]_296-molly said the subject was painful to [me]_296-molly , clapped [me]_296-molly on the back , put round the wine again , and went on with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} dinner . Only twice more did [the housekeeper]_{5993-the housekeeper} reappear , and then [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} stay in [the room]_{633-the room} was very short , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was sharp with [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} . But [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} hands were [Estella]_195-estella 's hands , and [her]_{5993-the housekeeper} eyes were [Estella]_195-estella 's eyes , and if [she]_{5993-the housekeeper} had reappeared a hundred times [I]_296-molly could have been neither more sure nor less sure that [my]_296-molly conviction was the truth . It was a dull evening , for [Wemmick]_254-wemmick drew [his]_254-wemmick wine , when it came round , quite as a matter of business , - just as [he]_254-wemmick might have drawn [his]_254-wemmick salary when that came round , - and with [his]_254-wemmick eyes on [[his]_254-wemmick chief]_{7218-his chief} , sat in a state of perpetual readiness for cross - examination . As to the quantity of wine , [[his]_254-wemmick post - office]_{6494-his post - office} was as indifferent and ready as [any other post - office]_{7220-any other post - office} for its quantity of letters . From [my]_296-molly point of view , [he]_254-wemmick was [the wrong twin]_{7221-the wrong twin} all the time , and only externally like [the Wemmick of [Walworth]_52-walworth]_{7222-the wemmick of walworth} . [We]_7223-we took [our]_7223-we leave early , and left together . Even when [we]_7223-we were groping among [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's stock of boots for [our]_7223-we hats , [I]_296-molly felt that [the right twin]_{7224-the right twin} was on [his]_254-wemmick way back ; and [we]_7223-we had not gone half a dozen yards down [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} in the [Walworth]_52-walworth direction , before [I]_296-molly found that [I]_296-molly was walking arm in arm with [the right twin]_{7224-the right twin} , and that [the wrong twin]_{7221-the wrong twin} had evaporated into the evening air . "_[296-molly] Well ! " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[296-molly] that 's over ! [He]_3694-he 's [a wonderful man]_{3695-a wonderful man} , without [his]_3694-he living likeness ; but [I]_0-i feel that [I]_0-i have to screw [myself]_0-i up when [I]_0-i dine with [him]_3694-he , - and [I]_0-i dine more comfortably unscrewed . " [I]_0-i felt that this was a good statement of the case , and told [him]_3694-he so . "_[0-i] Would n't say it to [anybody]_4526-anybody but [yourself]_3697-you , " [he]_3694-he answered . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know that what is said between [you]_3697-you and [me]_0-i goes no further . " [I]_0-i asked [him]_3694-he if [he]_3694-he had ever seen [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's adopted daughter]_{7227-miss havisham 's adopted daughter} , [Mrs. Bentley Drummle]_278-drummle . [He]_3694-he said no . To avoid being too abrupt , [I]_0-i then spoke of [the Aged]_{293-the aged} and of [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} . [He]_3694-he looked rather sly when [I]_0-i mentioned [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} , and stopped in [the street]_{4824-the street} to blow [his]_3694-he nose , with a roll of the head , and a flourish not quite free from latent boastfulness . "_[0-i] Wemmick , " said [I]_3697-you , "_[3697-you] do [you]_3697-you remember telling [me]_0-i , before [I]_0-i first went to [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's private house]_{3698-mr. jaggers 's private house} , to notice [that housekeeper]_{3699-that housekeeper} ? " "_[0-i] Did [I]_0-i ? " [he]_3697-you replied . "_[0-i] Ah , [I]_0-i dare say [I]_0-i did . [Deuce]_381-deuce take [me]_0-i , " [he]_3697-you added , suddenly , "_[381-deuce] [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i did . [I]_0-i find [I]_0-i am not quite unscrewed yet . " "_[0-i] A wild beast tamed , [you]_3697-you called [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} . " "_{[3699-that housekeeper]} And what do [you]_3697-you call [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} ? " "_[3697-you] The same . How did [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} tame [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick ? " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} That 's [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} secret . [She]_{3699-that housekeeper} has been with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} many a long year . " "_{[3699-that housekeeper]} [I]_0-i wish [you]_3697-you would tell [me]_0-i [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} story . [I]_0-i feel a particular interest in being acquainted with it . [You]_3697-you know that what is said between [you]_3697-you and [me]_0-i goes no further . " "_[3697-you] Well ! " [Wemmick]_254-wemmick replied , "_[3697-you] [I]_0-i do n't know [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} story , - that is , [I]_0-i do n't know all of it . But what [I]_0-i do know [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_3697-you . [We]_3700-we are in [our]_3700-we private and personal capacities , of course . " "_[3700-we] Of course . " "_[3700-we] A score or so of years ago , [that woman]_{6106-that woman} was tried at [the Old Bailey]_{129-the old bailey} for murder , and was acquitted . [She]_{6106-that woman} was [a very handsome young woman]_{3702-a very handsome young woman} , and [I]_0-i believe had some gypsy blood in [her]_{6106-that woman} . Anyhow , it was hot enough when it was up , as [you]_3697-you may suppose . " "_[3697-you] But [she]_{6106-that woman} was acquitted . " "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was for [her]_{3699-that housekeeper} , " pursued [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , with a look full of meaning , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} and worked the case in a way quite astonishing . It was a desperate case , and it was comparatively early days with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} then , and [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} worked it to general admiration ; in fact , it may almost be said to have made [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} worked it [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} at [the police - office]_{3703-the police - office} , day after day for many days , contending against even a committal ; and at the trial where [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could n't work it [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} , sat under [counsel]_3704-counsel , and - [every one]_{3705-every one} knew - put in all the salt and pepper . [The murdered person]_{3706-the murdered person} was [a woman]_{943-a woman} , - [a woman a good ten years older , very much larger , and very much stronger]_{3708-a woman a good ten years older , very much larger , and very much stronger} . It was a case of jealousy . [They]_3709-they both led tramping lives , and [this woman in [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} here]_{3710-this woman in gerrard street here} had been married very young , over the broomstick as [we]_3711-we say , to [a tramping man]_{3712-a tramping man} , and was a perfect fury in point of jealousy . [The murdered woman]_{3713-the murdered woman} , - more a match for [the man]_{433-the man} , certainly , in point of years - was found dead in [a barn near [Hounslow Heath]_{130-hounslow heath}]_{3715-a barn near hounslow heath} . There had been a violent struggle , perhaps a fight . [She]_{3713-the murdered woman} was bruised and scratched and torn , and had been held by the throat , at last , and choked . Now , there was no reasonable evidence to implicate [any person]_{5042-any person} but [this woman]_{2199-this woman} , and on the improbabilities of [her]_{3713-the murdered woman} having been able to do it [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} principally rested [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} case . [You]_3718-you may be sure , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , touching [me]_3718-you on the sleeve , "_[3718-you] that [he]_{433-the man} never dwelt upon the strength of [her]_{3713-the murdered woman} hands then , though [he]_{433-the man} sometimes does now . " [I]_{433-the man} had told [Wemmick]_254-wemmick of [his]_254-wemmick showing [us]_7229-us [her]_{3713-the murdered woman} wrists , that day of the dinner party . "_{[433-the man]} Well , [sir]_4451-sir ! " [Wemmick]_254-wemmick went on ; "_[4451-sir] it happened - happened , do n't [you]_4451-sir see ? - that [this woman]_{2199-this woman} was so very artfully dressed from the time of [her]_{2199-this woman} apprehension , that [she]_{2199-this woman} looked much slighter than [she]_{2199-this woman} really was ; in particular , [her]_{2199-this woman} sleeves are always remembered to have been so skilfully contrived that [her]_{2199-this woman} arms had quite a delicate look . [She]_{2199-this woman} had only a bruise or two about [her]_{2199-this woman} , - nothing for a tramp , - but the backs of [her]_{2199-this woman} hands were lacerated , and the question was , Was it with finger - nails ? Now , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} showed that [she]_{2199-this woman} had struggled through a great lot of brambles which were not as high as [her]_{2199-this woman} face ; but which [she]_{2199-this woman} could not have got through and kept [her]_{2199-this woman} hands out of ; and bits of those brambles were actually found in [her]_{2199-this woman} skin and put in evidence , as well as the fact that the brambles in question were found on examination to have been broken through , and to have little shreds of [her]_{2199-this woman} dress and little spots of blood upon them here and there . But the boldest point [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} made was this : it was attempted to be set up , in proof of [her]_{2199-this woman} jealousy , that [she]_{2199-this woman} was under strong suspicion of having , at about the time of the murder , frantically destroyed [[her]_{2199-this woman} child]_{3721-her child} by [this man]_{581-this man} - some three years old - to revenge [herself]_{2199-this woman} upon [him]_{581-this man} . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} worked that in this way : " [We]_7230-we say these are not marks of finger - nails , but marks of brambles , and [we]_7230-we show [you]_7231-you the brambles . [You]_7231-you say they are marks of finger - nails , and [you]_7231-you set up the hypothesis that [she]_{2199-this woman} destroyed [[her]_{2199-this woman} child]_{3721-her child} . [You]_7231-you must accept all consequences of that hypothesis . For anything [we]_7230-we know , [she]_{2199-this woman} may have destroyed [[her]_{2199-this woman} child]_{3721-her child} , and [the child in clinging to [her]_{2199-this woman}]_{7234-the child in clinging to her} may have scratched [her]_{2199-this woman} hands . What then ? [You]_7231-you are not trying [her]_{2199-this woman} for the murder of [[her]_{2199-this woman} child]_{3721-her child} ; why do n't [you]_7231-you ? As to this case , if [you]_7231-you will have scratches , [we]_7230-we say that , for anything [we]_7230-we know , [you]_7231-you may have accounted for them , assuming for the sake of argument that [you]_7231-you have not invented them ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} To sum up , [sir]_4451-sir , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was altogether too many for [the jury]_{3724-the jury} , and [they]_{3724-the jury} gave in . " "_{[3724-the jury]} Has [she]_3725-she been in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} service ever since ? " "_[3725-she] Yes ; but not only that , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , ' [she]_3725-she went into [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} service immediately after [her]_3725-she acquittal , tamed as [she]_3725-she is now . [She]_3725-she has since been taught one thing and another in the way of [her]_3725-she duties , but [she]_3725-she was tamed from the beginning . "_[3725-she] " Do [you]_0-i remember the sex of [the child]_{1037-the child} ? "_{[3724-the jury]} " Said to have been [a girl]_{4859-a girl} . "_[3725-she] " [You]_0-i have nothing more to say to [me]_3725-she to - night ? "_[3725-she] " Nothing . [I]_{3724-the jury} got [your]_0-i letter and destroyed it . Nothing . "_{[3724-the jury]} [We]_3726-we exchanged a cordial good - night , and [I]_0-i went [home]_4495-home , with new matter for [my]_0-i thoughts , though with no relief from the old . Chapter XLIX Putting [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's note in [my]_0-i pocket , that it might serve as [my]_0-i credentials for so soon reappearing at [Satis House]_{90-satis house} , in case [her]_{223-miss havisham} waywardness should lead [her]_{223-miss havisham} to express any surprise at seeing [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i went down again by [the coach]_{4925-the coach} next day . But [I]_0-i alighted at [the Halfway House]_{131-the halfway house} , and breakfasted [there]_4505-there , and walked the rest of the distance ; for [I]_0-i sought to get into [the town]_{5488-the town} quietly by the unfrequented ways , and to leave [it]_3731-it in the same manner . The best light of the day was gone when [I]_0-i passed along [the quiet echoing courts behind [the High Street]_{24-the high street}]_{3732-the quiet echoing courts behind the high street} . [The nooks of ruin where [the old monks]_{3734-the old monks} had once had [[their]_{3734-the old monks} refectories and [gardens]_3736-gardens]_{3735-their refectories and gardens}]_{3733-the nooks of ruin where the old monks had once had their refectories and gardens} , and where the strong walls were now pressed into the service of [humble sheds]_{3737-humble sheds} and [stables]_3738-stables , were almost as silent as [the old monks in [their]_{3739-the old monks in their graves} graves]_{3739-the old monks in their graves} . The cathedral chimes had at once a sadder and a more remote sound to [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i hurried on avoiding observation , than they had ever had before ; so , the swell of the old organ was borne to [my]_0-i ears like funeral music ; and [the rooks]_{3740-the rooks} , as [they]_{3740-the rooks} hovered about [the gray tower]_{3741-the gray tower} and swung in the bare high trees of [the priory garden]_{3742-the priory garden} , seemed to call to [me]_0-i that [the place]_{4456-the place} was changed , and that [Estella]_195-estella was gone out of [it]_{4456-the place} for ever . [An elderly woman]_{3744-an elderly woman} , whom [I]_0-i had seen before as [one of [the servants who lived in [the supplementary house]_{3747-the supplementary house} across [the back courtyard]_{3748-the back courtyard}]_{3746-the servants who lived in the supplementary house across the back courtyard}]_{3745-one of the servants who lived in the supplementary house across the back courtyard} , opened the gate . The lighted candle stood in the dark passage within , as of old , and [I]_0-i took it up and ascended the staircase alone . [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was not in [[her]_{223-miss havisham} own room]_{1356-her own room} , but was in [the larger room across [the landing]_{1277-the landing}]_{3750-the larger room across the landing} . Looking in at the door , after knocking in vain , [I]_0-i saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} sitting on the hearth in a ragged chair , close before , and lost in the contemplation of , the ashy fire . Doing as [I]_0-i had often done , [I]_0-i went in , and stood touching the old chimney - piece , where [she]_{223-miss havisham} could see [me]_0-i when [she]_{223-miss havisham} raised [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes . There was an air or utter loneliness upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} , that would have moved [me]_0-i to pity though [she]_{223-miss havisham} had wilfully done [me]_0-i a deeper injury than [I]_0-i could charge [her]_{223-miss havisham} with . As [I]_0-i stood compassionating [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and thinking how , in the progress of time , [I]_0-i too had come to be a part of the wrecked fortunes of [that house]_{2898-that house} , [her]_{223-miss havisham} eyes rested on [me]_0-i . [She]_{223-miss havisham} stared , and said in a low voice , " Is it real ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " It is [I]_{223-miss havisham} , [Pip]_241-pip . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} gave [me]_{223-miss havisham} [your]_241-pip note yesterday , and [I]_{223-miss havisham} have lost no time . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Thank [you]_0-i . Thank [you]_0-i . "_{[223-miss havisham]} As [I]_0-i brought another of the ragged chairs to the hearth and sat down , [I]_0-i remarked a new expression on [her]_{223-miss havisham} face , as if [she]_{223-miss havisham} were afraid of [me]_0-i . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} want , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} said , " to pursue that subject [you]_0-i mentioned to [me]_{223-miss havisham} when [you]_0-i were last [here]_693-here , and to show [you]_0-i that [I]_{223-miss havisham} am not all stone . But perhaps [you]_0-i can never believe , now , that there is anything human in [my]_{223-miss havisham} heart ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} When [I]_0-i said some reassuring words , [she]_{223-miss havisham} stretched out [her]_{223-miss havisham} tremulous right hand , as though [she]_{223-miss havisham} was going to touch [me]_0-i ; but [she]_{223-miss havisham} recalled it again before [I]_0-i understood the action , or knew how to receive it . " [You]_0-i said , speaking for [[your]_0-i friend]_{2276-your friend} , that [you]_0-i could tell [me]_{223-miss havisham} how to do something useful and good . Something that [you]_0-i would like done , is it not ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Something that [I]_{223-miss havisham} would like done very much . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " What is it ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i began explaining to [her]_{223-miss havisham} that secret history of the partnership . [I]_0-i had not got far into it , when [I]_0-i judged from [her]_{223-miss havisham} looks that [she]_{223-miss havisham} was thinking in a discursive way of [me]_0-i , rather than of what [I]_0-i said . It seemed to be so ; for , when [I]_0-i stopped speaking , many moments passed before [she]_{223-miss havisham} showed that [she]_{223-miss havisham} was conscious of the fact . " Do [you]_0-i break off , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} asked then , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} former air of being afraid of [me]_0-i , " because [you]_0-i hate [me]_{223-miss havisham} too much to bear to speak to [me]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " No , no , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , " how can [you]_{223-miss havisham} think so , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ! [I]_0-i stopped because [I]_0-i thought [you]_{223-miss havisham} were not following what [I]_0-i said . "_[0-i] " Perhaps [I]_{223-miss havisham} was not , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} answered , putting a hand to [her]_{223-miss havisham} head . " Begin again , and let [me]_{223-miss havisham} look at something else . Stay ! Now tell [me]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} set [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick in the resolute way that sometimes was habitual to [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and looked at the fire with a strong expression of forcing [herself]_{223-miss havisham} to attend . [I]_0-i went on with [my]_0-i explanation , and told [her]_{223-miss havisham} how [I]_0-i had hoped to complete the transaction out of [my]_0-i means , but how in this [I]_0-i was disappointed . That part of the subject [I]_0-i reminded [her]_{223-miss havisham} involved matters which could form no part of [my]_0-i explanation , for they were the weighty secrets of another . " So ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} said [she]_{223-miss havisham} , assenting with [her]_{223-miss havisham} head , but not looking at [me]_0-i . " And how much money is wanting to complete the purchase ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i was rather afraid of stating it , for it sounded a large sum . " Nine hundred pounds . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " If [I]_{223-miss havisham} give [you]_{223-miss havisham} the money for this purpose , will [you]_{223-miss havisham} keep [my]_{223-miss havisham} secret as [you]_{223-miss havisham} have kept [your]_{223-miss havisham} own ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Quite as faithfully . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " And [your]_{223-miss havisham} mind will be more at rest ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Much more at rest . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Are [you]_0-i very unhappy now ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} asked this question , still without looking at [me]_0-i , but in an unwonted tone of sympathy . [I]_0-i could not reply at the moment , for [my]_0-i voice failed [me]_0-i . [She]_{223-miss havisham} put [her]_{223-miss havisham} left arm across the head of [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , and softly laid [her]_{223-miss havisham} forehead on it . " [I]_{223-miss havisham} am far from happy , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ; but [I]_{223-miss havisham} have other causes of disquiet than any [you]_0-i know of . They are the secrets [I]_{223-miss havisham} have mentioned . "_{[223-miss havisham]} After a little while , [she]_{223-miss havisham} raised [her]_{223-miss havisham} head , and looked at the fire Again . " It is noble in [you]_0-i to tell [me]_{223-miss havisham} that [you]_0-i have other causes of unhappiness , Is it true ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Too true . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Can [I]_{223-miss havisham} only serve [you]_0-i , [Pip]_241-pip , by serving [[your]_0-i friend]_{2276-your friend} ? Regarding that as done , is there nothing [I]_{223-miss havisham} can do for [you]_0-i [yourself]_0-i ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Nothing . [I]_{223-miss havisham} thank [you]_0-i for the question . [I]_{223-miss havisham} thank [you]_0-i even more for the tone of the question . But there is nothing . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} presently rose from [her]_{223-miss havisham} seat , and looked about [the blighted room]_{3753-the blighted room} for the means of writing . There were none there , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} took from [her]_{223-miss havisham} pocket a yellow set of ivory tablets , mounted in tarnished gold , and wrote upon them with a pencil in a case of tarnished gold that hung from [her]_{223-miss havisham} neck . " [You]_0-i are still on friendly terms with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Quite . [I]_{223-miss havisham} dined with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} yesterday . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " This is an authority to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} to pay [you]_0-i that money , to lay out at [your]_0-i irresponsible discretion for [[your]_0-i friend]_{2276-your friend} . [I]_{223-miss havisham} keep no money [here]_693-here ; but if [you]_0-i would rather [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} knew nothing of the matter , [I]_{223-miss havisham} will send it to [you]_0-i . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Thank [you]_0-i , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ; [I]_{223-miss havisham} have not the least objection to receiving it from [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} read [me]_0-i what [she]_{223-miss havisham} had written ; and it was direct and clear , and evidently intended to absolve [me]_0-i from any suspicion of profiting by the receipt of the money . [I]_0-i took the tablets from [her]_{223-miss havisham} hand , and it trembled again , and it trembled more as [she]_{223-miss havisham} took off the chain to which the pencil was attached , and put it in [mine]_0-i . All this [she]_{223-miss havisham} did without looking at [me]_0-i . " [My]_{223-miss havisham} name is on the first leaf . If [you]_{223-miss havisham} can ever write under [my]_{223-miss havisham} name , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i forgive [her]_{223-miss havisham} , " though ever so long after [my]_{223-miss havisham} broken heart is dust pray do it ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " O [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i can do it now . There have been sore mistakes ; and [my]_0-i life has been a blind and thankless one ; and [I]_0-i want forgiveness and direction far too much , to be bitter with [you]_{223-miss havisham} . "_[0-i] [She]_{223-miss havisham} turned [her]_{223-miss havisham} face to [me]_0-i for the first time since [she]_{223-miss havisham} had averted it , and , to [my]_0-i amazement , [I]_0-i may even add to [my]_0-i terror , dropped on [her]_{223-miss havisham} knees at [my]_0-i feet ; with [her]_{223-miss havisham} folded hands raised to [me]_0-i in the manner in which , when [her]_{223-miss havisham} poor heart was young and fresh and whole , [they]_3754-they must often have been raised to heaven from [[her]_{223-miss havisham} mother]_{1952-her mother} 's side . To see [her]_{223-miss havisham} with [her]_{223-miss havisham} white hair and [her]_{223-miss havisham} worn face kneeling at [my]_0-i feet gave [me]_0-i a shock through all [my]_0-i frame . [I]_0-i entreated [her]_{223-miss havisham} to rise , and got [my]_0-i arms about [her]_{223-miss havisham} to help [her]_{223-miss havisham} up ; but [she]_{223-miss havisham} only pressed that hand of [mine]_0-i which was nearest to [her]_{223-miss havisham} grasp , and hung [her]_{223-miss havisham} head over it and wept . [I]_0-i had never seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} shed a tear before , and , in the hope that the relief might do [her]_{223-miss havisham} good , [I]_0-i bent over [her]_{223-miss havisham} without speaking . [She]_{223-miss havisham} was not kneeling now , but was down upon the ground . " O ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} cried , despairingly . " What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} " If [you]_0-i mean , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , what have [you]_0-i done to injure [me]_{223-miss havisham} , let [me]_{223-miss havisham} answer . Very little . [I]_{223-miss havisham} should have loved [her]_{223-miss havisham} under any circumstances . Is [she]_{223-miss havisham} married ? "_{[223-miss havisham]} " Yes . "_{[223-miss havisham]} It was a needless question , for a new desolation in [the desolate house]_{6319-the desolate house} had told [me]_0-i so . " What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} wrung [her]_{223-miss havisham} hands , and crushed [her]_{223-miss havisham} white hair , and returned to this cry over and over again . " What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} [I]_0-i knew not how to answer , or how to comfort [her]_{223-miss havisham} . That [she]_{223-miss havisham} had done a grievous thing in taking [an impressionable child]_{3757-an impressionable child} to mould into the form that [her]_{223-miss havisham} wild resentment , spurned affection , and wounded pride found vengeance in , [I]_0-i knew full well . But that , in shutting out the light of day , [she]_{223-miss havisham} had shut out infinitely more ; that , in seclusion , [she]_{223-miss havisham} had secluded [herself]_{223-miss havisham} from a thousand natural and healing influences ; that , [her]_{223-miss havisham} mind , brooding solitary , had grown diseased , as all minds do and must and will that reverse the appointed order of [[their]_3758-their Maker]_{3759-their maker} , [I]_0-i knew equally well . And could [I]_0-i look upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} without compassion , seeing [her]_{223-miss havisham} punishment in the ruin [she]_{223-miss havisham} was , in [her]_{223-miss havisham} profound unfitness for [this earth]_{3760-this earth} on which [she]_{223-miss havisham} was placed , in the vanity of sorrow which had become [a master mania]_{3761-a master mania} , like the vanity of penitence , the vanity of remorse , the vanity of unworthiness , and other monstrous vanities that have been curses in [this world]_{3762-this world} ? " Until [you]_0-i spoke to [her]_{223-miss havisham} the other day , and until [I]_{223-miss havisham} saw in [you]_0-i a looking - glass that showed [me]_{223-miss havisham} what [I]_{223-miss havisham} once felt [myself]_{223-miss havisham} , [I]_{223-miss havisham} did not know what [I]_{223-miss havisham} had done . What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} And so again , twenty , fifty times over , What had [she]_{223-miss havisham} done ! " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , when [her]_{223-miss havisham} cry had died away , " [you]_{223-miss havisham} may dismiss [me]_0-i from [your]_{223-miss havisham} mind and conscience . But [Estella]_195-estella is a different case , and if [you]_{223-miss havisham} can ever undo any scrap of what [you]_{223-miss havisham} have done amiss in keeping a part of [her]_195-estella right nature away from [her]_195-estella , it will be better to do that than to bemoan the past through a hundred years . "_[0-i] " Yes , yes , [I]_{223-miss havisham} know it . But , [Pip]_241-pip - [[my]_{223-miss havisham} dear]_{4893-my dear} ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} There was an earnest womanly compassion for [me]_0-i in [her]_{223-miss havisham} new affection . " [[My]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} ! Believe this : when [she]_195-estella first came to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i meant to save [her]_195-estella from misery like [my]_0-i own . At first , [I]_0-i meant no more . "_[0-i] " Well , well ! "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_0-i hope so . "_[0-i] " But as [she]_195-estella grew , and promised to be very beautiful , [I]_0-i gradually did worse , and with [my]_0-i praises , and with [my]_0-i jewels , and with [my]_0-i teachings , and with this figure of [myself]_0-i always before [her]_195-estella , a warning to back and point [my]_0-i lessons , [I]_0-i stole [her]_195-estella heart away , and put ice in its place . "_[0-i] " Better , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could not help saying , " to have left [her]_195-estella a natural heart , even to be bruised or broken . "_[0-i] With that , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} looked distractedly at [me]_0-i for a while , and then burst out again , What had [she]_{223-miss havisham} done ! " If [you]_0-i knew all [my]_{223-miss havisham} story , "_{[223-miss havisham]} [she]_{223-miss havisham} pleaded , " [you]_0-i would have some compassion for [me]_{223-miss havisham} and a better understanding of [me]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , as delicately as [I]_0-i could , " [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i may say that [I]_0-i do know [your]_{223-miss havisham} story , and have known it ever since [I]_0-i first left [this neighborhood]_{6293-this neighborhood} . It has inspired [me]_0-i with great commiseration , and [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i understand it and its influences . Does what has passed between [us]_7246-us give [me]_0-i any excuse for asking [you]_{223-miss havisham} a question relative to [Estella]_195-estella ? Not as [she]_195-estella is , but as [she]_195-estella was when [she]_195-estella first came [here]_693-here ? "_[0-i] [She]_3763-i was seated on the ground , with [her]_3763-i arms on the ragged chair , and [her]_3763-i head leaning on them . [She]_3763-i looked full at [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i said this , and replied , " Go on . "_[3763-i] " Whose child was [Estella]_195-estella ? "_[3763-i] [She]_3763-i shook [her]_3763-i head . " [You]_0-i do n't know ? "_[3763-i] [She]_3763-i shook [her]_3763-i head again . " But [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} brought [her]_195-estella [here]_693-here , or sent [her]_195-estella [here]_693-here ? "_[3763-i] " Brought [her]_195-estella [here]_693-here . "_[3763-i] " Will [you]_0-i tell [me]_3763-i how that came about ? "_[3763-i] [She]_3763-i answered in a low whisper and with caution : " [I]_3763-i had been shut up in [these rooms]_{6082-these rooms} a long time [I]_3763-i do n't know how long ; [you]_0-i know what time [the clocks]_{7252-the clocks} keep [here]_693-here , when [I]_3763-i told [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} that [I]_3763-i wanted [a little girl to rear and love]_{7254-a little girl to rear and love} , and save from [my]_3763-i fate . [I]_3763-i had first seen [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} when [I]_3763-i sent for [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} to lay this place waste for [me]_3763-i ; having read of [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} in the newspapers , before [I]_3763-i and [the world]_{4698-the world} parted . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} told [me]_3763-i that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} would look about [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} for such [an orphan child]_{7256-an orphan child} . One night [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} brought [her]_{7256-an orphan child} here asleep , and [I]_3763-i called [her]_{7256-an orphan child} [Estella]_195-estella . "_[3763-i] " Might [I]_3763-i ask [her]_{7256-an orphan child} age then ? "_[3763-i] " Two or three . [She]_{7256-an orphan child} [herself]_{7256-an orphan child} knows nothing , but that [she]_{7256-an orphan child} was left [an orphan]_{7257-an orphan} and [I]_3763-i adopted [her]_{7256-an orphan child} . "_[3763-i] So convinced [I]_0-i was of [that woman]_{6106-that woman} 's being [[her]_{6106-that woman} mother]_{1952-her mother} , that [I]_0-i wanted no evidence to establish the fact in [my]_0-i own mind . But , to any mind , [I]_0-i thought , the connection here was clear and straight . What more could [I]_0-i hope to do by prolonging the interview ? [I]_0-i had succeeded on behalf of [Herbert]_265-herbert , [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} had told [me]_0-i all [she]_{223-miss havisham} knew of [Estella]_195-estella , [I]_0-i had said and done what [I]_0-i could to ease [her]_{6106-that woman} mind . No matter with what other words [we]_3766-we parted ; [we]_3766-we parted . Twilight was closing in when [I]_0-i went down stairs into the natural air . [I]_0-i called to [the woman who had opened the gate when [I]_0-i entered]_{3767-the woman who had opened the gate when i entered} , that [I]_0-i would not trouble [her]_{3767-the woman who had opened the gate when i entered} just yet , but would walk round [the place]_{4456-the place} before leaving . For [I]_0-i had a presentiment that [I]_0-i should never be there again , and [I]_0-i felt that the dying light was suited to [my]_0-i last view of [it]_{4456-the place} . By the wilderness of casks that [I]_0-i had walked on long ago , and on which the rain of years had fallen since , rotting them in many places , and leaving [miniature swamps]_{3769-miniature swamps} and pools of water upon those that stood on end , [I]_0-i made [my]_0-i way to [the ruined garden]_{2381-the ruined garden} . [I]_0-i went all round [it]_{2381-the ruined garden} ; round by the corner where [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i had fought [our]_3771-our battle ; round by [the paths where [Estella]_195-estella and [I]_0-i had walked]_{3772-the paths where estella and i had walked} . So cold , so lonely , so dreary all ! Taking the brewery on [my]_0-i way back , [I]_0-i raised the rusty latch of a little door at the garden end of [it]_{2381-the ruined garden} , and walked through . [I]_0-i was going out at the opposite door , - not easy to open now , for the damp wood had started and swelled , and the hinges were yielding , and the threshold was encumbered with a growth of fungus , - when [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i head to look back . A childish association revived with wonderful force in the moment of the slight action , and [I]_0-i fancied that [I]_0-i saw [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} hanging to the beam . So strong was the impression , that [I]_0-i stood under the beam shuddering from head to foot before [I]_0-i knew it was a fancy , - though to be sure [I]_0-i was there in an instant . The mournfulness of [the place]_{4456-the place} and time , and the great terror of this illusion , though it was but momentary , caused [me]_0-i to feel an indescribable awe as [I]_0-i came out between the open wooden gates where [I]_0-i had once wrung [my]_0-i hair after [Estella]_195-estella had wrung [my]_0-i heart . Passing on into [the front courtyard]_{3774-the front courtyard} , [I]_0-i hesitated whether to call [the woman]_{2082-the woman} to let [me]_0-i out at the locked gate of which [she]_{2082-the woman} had the key , or first to go up stairs and assure [myself]_0-i that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was as safe and well as [I]_0-i had left [her]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i took the latter course and went up . [I]_0-i looked into [the room where [I]_0-i had left [her]_{223-miss havisham}]_{3776-the room where i had left her} , and [I]_0-i saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} seated in the ragged chair upon the hearth close to the fire , with [her]_{223-miss havisham} back towards [me]_0-i . In the moment when [I]_0-i was withdrawing [my]_0-i head to go quietly away , [I]_0-i saw a great flaming light spring up . In the same moment [I]_0-i saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} running at [me]_0-i , shrieking , with a whirl of fire blazing all about [her]_{223-miss havisham} , and soaring at least as many feet above [her]_{223-miss havisham} head as [she]_{223-miss havisham} was high . [I]_0-i had a double - caped great - coat on , and over [my]_0-i arm another thick coat . That [I]_0-i got them off , closed with [her]_{223-miss havisham} , threw [her]_{223-miss havisham} down , and got them over [her]_{223-miss havisham} ; that [I]_0-i dragged the great cloth from the table for the same purpose , and with it dragged down the heap of rottenness in the midst , and all the ugly things that sheltered there ; that [we]_3777-we were on the ground struggling like [desperate enemies]_{3778-desperate enemies} , and that the closer [I]_0-i covered [her]_{223-miss havisham} , the more wildly [she]_{223-miss havisham} shrieked and tried to free [herself]_{223-miss havisham} , - that this occurred [I]_0-i knew through the result , but not through anything [I]_0-i felt , or thought , or knew [I]_0-i did . [I]_0-i knew nothing until [I]_0-i knew that [we]_3777-we were on the floor by the great table , and that patches of tinder yet alight were floating in the smoky air , which , a moment ago , had been [her]_{223-miss havisham} faded bridal dress . Then , [I]_0-i looked round and saw the disturbed beetles and spiders running away over the floor , and [the servants]_{5806-the servants} coming in with breathless cries at the door . [I]_0-i still held [her]_{223-miss havisham} forcibly down with all [my]_0-i strength , like [a prisoner who might escape]_{3780-a prisoner who might escape} ; and [I]_0-i doubt if [I]_0-i even knew who [she]_{223-miss havisham} was , or why [we]_3777-we had struggled , or that [she]_{223-miss havisham} had been in flames , or that the flames were out , until [I]_0-i saw the patches of tinder that had been [her]_{223-miss havisham} garments no longer alight but falling in a black shower around [us]_3777-we . [She]_{223-miss havisham} was insensible , and [I]_0-i was afraid to have [her]_{223-miss havisham} moved , or even touched . [Assistance]_{382-assistance} was sent for , and [I]_0-i held [her]_{223-miss havisham} until it came , as if [I]_0-i unreasonably fancied [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i did that , if [I]_0-i let [her]_{223-miss havisham} go , the fire would break out again and consume [her]_{223-miss havisham} . When [I]_0-i got up , on [the surgeon]_{3781-the surgeon} 's coming to [her]_{223-miss havisham} with other aid , [I]_0-i was astonished to see that both [my]_0-i hands were burnt ; for , [I]_0-i had no knowledge of it through the sense of feeling . On examination it was pronounced that [she]_{223-miss havisham} had received serious hurts , but that [they]_3782-they of [themselves]_3782-they were far from hopeless ; the danger lay mainly in the nervous shock . By [the surgeon]_{3781-the surgeon} 's directions , [her]_{223-miss havisham} bed was carried into [that room]_{1263-that room} and laid upon the great table , which happened to be well suited to the dressing of [her]_{223-miss havisham} injuries . When [I]_0-i saw [her]_{223-miss havisham} again , an hour afterwards , [she]_{223-miss havisham} lay , indeed , where [I]_0-i had seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} strike [her]_{223-miss havisham} stick , and had heard [her]_{223-miss havisham} say that [she]_{223-miss havisham} would lie one day . Though every vestige of [her]_{223-miss havisham} dress was burnt , as [they]_3782-they told [me]_0-i , [she]_{223-miss havisham} still had something of [her]_{223-miss havisham} old ghastly bridal appearance ; for , [they]_3782-they had covered [her]_{223-miss havisham} to the throat with white cotton - wool , and as [she]_{223-miss havisham} lay with a white sheet loosely overlying that , the phantom air of something that had been and was changed was still upon [her]_{223-miss havisham} . [I]_0-i found , on questioning [the servants]_{5806-the servants} , that [Estella]_195-estella was in [Paris]_66-paris , and [I]_0-i got a promise from [the surgeon]_{3781-the surgeon} that [he]_{3781-the surgeon} would write to [her]_{223-miss havisham} by the next post . [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's family]_{3787-miss havisham 's family} [I]_0-i took upon [myself]_0-i ; intending to communicate with [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} only , and leave [him]_{211-mr. pocket} to do as [he]_{211-mr. pocket} liked about informing [the rest]_{3788-the rest} . This [I]_0-i did next day , through [Herbert]_265-herbert , as soon as [I]_0-i returned to [town]_4800-town . There was a stage , that evening , when [she]_{223-miss havisham} spoke collectedly of what had happened , though with a certain terrible vivacity . Towards midnight [she]_{223-miss havisham} began to wander in [her]_{223-miss havisham} speech ; and after that it gradually set in that [she]_{223-miss havisham} said innumerable times in a low solemn voice , " What have [I]_{223-miss havisham} done ! "_{[223-miss havisham]} And then , " When [she]_{223-miss havisham} first came , [I]_{223-miss havisham} meant to save [her]_{223-miss havisham} from misery like [mine]_{223-miss havisham} . "_{[223-miss havisham]} And then , " Take the pencil and write under [my]_{223-miss havisham} name , ' [I]_{223-miss havisham} forgive [her]_{223-miss havisham} ! ' "_{[223-miss havisham]} [She]_{223-miss havisham} never changed the order of these three sentences , but [she]_{223-miss havisham} sometimes left out a word in one or other of them ; never putting in another word , but always leaving a blank and going on to the next word . As [I]_0-i could do no service there , and as [I]_0-i had , nearer [home]_4495-home , that pressing reason for anxiety and fear which even [her]_{223-miss havisham} wanderings could not drive out of [my]_0-i mind , [I]_0-i decided , in the course of the night that [I]_0-i would return by [the early morning coach]_{3369-the early morning coach} , walking on a mile or so , and being taken up clear of [the town]_{5488-the town} . At about six o'clock of the morning , therefore , [I]_0-i leaned over [her]_{223-miss havisham} and touched [her]_{223-miss havisham} lips with [mine]_0-i , just as [they]_3793-they said , not stopping for being touched , " Take the pencil and write under [my]_3793-they name , ' [I]_3793-they forgive [her]_{223-miss havisham} . ' "_[3793-they] Chapter L [My]_0-i hands had been dressed twice or thrice in the night , and again in the morning . [My]_0-i left arm was a good deal burned to the elbow , and , less severely , as high as the shoulder ; it was very painful , but the flames had set in that direction , and [I]_0-i felt thankful it was no worse . [My]_0-i right hand was not so badly burnt but that [I]_0-i could move the fingers . It was bandaged , of course , but much less inconveniently than [my]_0-i left hand and arm ; those [I]_0-i carried in a sling ; and [I]_0-i could only wear [my]_0-i coat like a cloak , loose over [my]_0-i shoulders and fastened at the neck . [My]_0-i hair had been caught by the fire , but not [my]_0-i head or face . When [Herbert]_265-herbert had been down to [Hammersmith]_{37-hammersmith} and seen [[his]_265-herbert father]_{5627-his father} , [he]_265-herbert came back to [me]_0-i at [[our]_3795-our chambers]_{3016-our chambers} , and devoted the day to attending on [me]_0-i . [He]_265-herbert was [the kindest of nurses]_{3797-the kindest of nurses} , and at stated times took off the bandages , and steeped them in the cooling liquid that was kept ready , and put them on again , with a patient tenderness that [I]_0-i was deeply grateful for . At first , as [I]_0-i lay quiet on the sofa , [I]_0-i found it painfully difficult , [I]_0-i might say impossible , to get rid of the impression of the glare of the flames , their hurry and noise , and the fierce burning smell . If [I]_0-i dozed for a minute , [I]_0-i was awakened by [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's cries , and by [her]_{223-miss havisham} running at [me]_0-i with all that height of fire above [her]_{223-miss havisham} head . This pain of the mind was much harder to strive against than any bodily pain [I]_0-i suffered ; and [Herbert]_265-herbert , seeing that , did [his]_265-herbert utmost to hold [my]_0-i attention engaged . [Neither of [us]_3795-our]_{3382-neither of us} spoke of [the boat]_{4680-the boat} , but [we]_3795-our both thought of it . That was made apparent by [our]_3795-our avoidance of the subject , and by [our]_3795-our agreeing - without agreement - to make [my]_0-i recovery of the use of [my]_0-i hands a question of so many hours , not of so many weeks . [My]_0-i first question when [I]_0-i saw [Herbert]_265-herbert had been of course , whether all was well down [the river]_{413-the river} ? As [he]_265-herbert replied in the affirmative , with perfect confidence and cheerfulness , [we]_3795-our did not resume the subject until the day was wearing away . But then , as [Herbert]_265-herbert changed the bandages , more by the light of the fire than by the outer light , [he]_265-herbert went back to it spontaneously . " [I]_265-herbert sat with [Provis]_348-provis last night , [Handel]_266-handel , two good hours . "_{[265-herbert]} " Where was [Clara]_311-clara ? "_[3801-his] " [Dear little thing]_{7258-dear little thing} ! "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " [She]_311-clara was up and down with [Gruffandgrim]_{371-old gruffandgrim} all the evening . [He]_{371-old gruffandgrim} was perpetually pegging at the floor the moment [she]_311-clara left [his]_{371-old gruffandgrim} sight . [I]_265-herbert doubt if [he]_{371-old gruffandgrim} can hold out long , though . What with rum and pepper , - and pepper and rum , - [I]_265-herbert should think [his]_{371-old gruffandgrim} pegging must be nearly over . "_{[265-herbert]} " And then [you]_265-herbert will be married , [Herbert]_265-herbert ? "_[3801-his] " How can [I]_265-herbert take care of [the dear child]_{7259-the dear child} otherwise ? - Lay [your]_{7259-the dear child} arm out upon the back of the sofa , [[my]_265-herbert dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} , and [I]_265-herbert 'll sit down here , and get the bandage off so gradually that [you]_{7259-the dear child} shall not know when it comes . [I]_265-herbert was speaking of [Provis]_348-provis . Do [you]_{7259-the dear child} know , [Handel]_266-handel , [he]_{371-old gruffandgrim} improves ? "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_265-herbert said to [you]_265-herbert [I]_265-herbert thought [he]_{371-old gruffandgrim} was softened when [I]_265-herbert last saw [him]_{371-old gruffandgrim} . "_{[265-herbert]} " So [you]_{7259-the dear child} did . And so [he]_{371-old gruffandgrim} is . [He]_{371-old gruffandgrim} was very communicative last night , and told [me]_0-i more of [his]_{371-old gruffandgrim} life . [You]_0-i remember [his]_{371-old gruffandgrim} breaking off here about [some woman that [he]_{371-old gruffandgrim} had had great trouble with]_{7261-some woman that he had had great trouble with} . - Did [I]_0-i hurt [you]_265-herbert ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had started , but not under [his]_3801-his touch . [His]_3801-his words had given [me]_0-i a start . " [I]_3801-his had forgotten that , [Herbert]_265-herbert , but [I]_3801-his remember it now [you]_265-herbert speak of it . "_[3801-his] " Well ! [He]_{371-old gruffandgrim} went into that part of [his]_{371-old gruffandgrim} life , and a dark wild part it is . Shall [I]_0-i tell [you]_265-herbert ? Or would it worry [you]_265-herbert just now ? "_[0-i] " Tell [me]_265-herbert by all means . Every word . "_{[265-herbert]} [Herbert]_265-herbert bent forward to look at [me]_0-i more nearly , as if [my]_0-i reply had been rather more hurried or more eager than [he]_265-herbert could quite account for . " [Your]_0-i head is cool ? "_{[265-herbert]} [he]_265-herbert said , touching it . " Quite , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Tell [me]_0-i what [Provis]_348-provis said , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_[0-i] " It seems , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " - there 's a bandage off most charmingly , and now comes the cool one , - makes [you]_265-herbert shrink at first , [[my]_265-herbert poor dear fellow]_{7263-my poor dear fellow} , do n't it ? but it will be comfortable presently , - it seems that [the woman]_{2082-the woman} was [a young woman]_{4873-a young woman} , and [a jealous woman]_{7266-a jealous woman} , and [a revengeful woman]_{7267-a revengeful woman} ; revengeful , [Handel]_266-handel , to the last degree . "_{[265-herbert]} " To what last degree ? "_[0-i] " Murder . - Does it strike too cold on [that sensitive place]_{7268-that sensitive place} ? "_[0-i] " [I]_265-herbert do n't feel it . How did [she]_{2082-the woman} murder ? Whom did [she]_{2082-the woman} murder ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Why , the deed may not have merited quite so terrible a name , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " but , [she]_{2082-the woman} was tried for it , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} defended [her]_{2082-the woman} , and the reputation of that defence first made [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} name known to [Provis]_348-provis . It was another and [a stronger woman]_{7269-a stronger woman} who was [the victim]_{1666-the victim} , and there had been a struggle - in [a barn]_{7271-a barn} . Who began it , or how fair it was , or how unfair , may be doubtful ; but how it ended is certainly not doubtful , for [the victim]_{1666-the victim} was found throttled . "_{[265-herbert]} " Was [the woman brought in guilty]_{7273-the woman brought in guilty} ? "_{[265-herbert]} " No ; [she]_{2082-the woman} was acquitted . - [[My]_0-i poor Handel]_{7274-my poor handel} , [I]_0-i hurt [you]_{7274-my poor handel} ! "_[0-i] " It is impossible to be gentler , [Herbert]_265-herbert . Yes ? What else ? "_[0-i] " [This acquitted young woman]_{7275-this acquitted young woman} and [Provis]_348-provis had [a little child]_{6786-a little child} ; [a little child of whom [Provis]_348-provis was exceedingly fond]_{7277-a little child of whom provis was exceedingly fond} . On the evening of the very night when the object of [her]_{2082-the woman} jealousy was strangled as [I]_265-herbert tell [you]_{7274-my poor handel} , [the young woman]_{7278-the young woman} presented [herself]_{7278-the young woman} before [Provis]_348-provis for one moment , and swore that [she]_{7278-the young woman} would destroy the child which was in [her]_{7278-the young woman} possession , and [he]_348-provis should never see it again ; then [she]_{7278-the young woman} vanished . - There 's the worst arm comfortably in the sling once more , and now there remains but the right hand , which is a far easier job . [I]_265-herbert can do it better by this light than by a stronger , for [my]_265-herbert hand is steadiest when [I]_265-herbert do n't see the poor blistered patches too distinctly . - [You]_{7274-my poor handel} do n't think [your]_{7274-my poor handel} breathing is affected , [my dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} ? [You]_{7274-my poor handel} seem to breathe quickly . "_{[265-herbert]} " Perhaps [I]_0-i do , [Herbert]_265-herbert . Did [the woman]_{2082-the woman} keep [her]_{2082-the woman} oath ? "_[0-i] " There comes the darkest part of [Provis]_348-provis 's life . [She]_{2082-the woman} did . "_[0-i] " That is , [he]_348-provis says [she]_{2082-the woman} did . "_{[265-herbert]} " Why , of course , [[my]_265-herbert dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} , "_{[265-herbert]} returned [Herbert]_265-herbert , in a tone of surprise , and again bending forward to get a nearer look at [me]_0-i . " [He]_348-provis says it all . [I]_265-herbert have no other information . "_{[265-herbert]} " No , to be sure . "_[0-i] " Now , whether , "_{[265-herbert]} pursued [Herbert]_265-herbert , " [he]_348-provis had used [[the child]_{1037-the child} 's mother]_{7283-the child 's mother} ill , or whether [he]_348-provis had used [[the child]_{1037-the child} 's mother]_{7283-the child 's mother} well , [Provis]_348-provis does n't say ; but [she]_{2082-the woman} had shared some four or five years of the wretched life [he]_348-provis described to [us]_7286-us at this fireside , and [he]_348-provis seems to have felt pity for [her]_{2082-the woman} , and forbearance towards [her]_{2082-the woman} . Therefore , fearing [he]_348-provis should be called upon to depose about [this destroyed child]_{7287-this destroyed child} , and so be the cause of [her]_{2082-the woman} death , [he]_348-provis hid [himself]_348-provis much as [he]_348-provis grieved for [the child]_{1037-the child} , kept [himself]_348-provis dark , as [he]_348-provis says , out of the way and out of the trial , and was only vaguely talked of as [a certain man called [Abel]_349-magwitch]_{7289-a certain man called abel} , out of whom the jealousy arose . After the acquittal [she]_{2082-the woman} disappeared , and thus [he]_348-provis lost [the child]_{1037-the child} and [[the child]_{1037-the child} 's mother]_{7283-the child 's mother} . "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_0-i want to ask - "_[0-i] " A moment , [[my]_0-i dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} , and [I]_0-i have done . That evil genius , [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , the worst of [scoundrels among many scoundrels]_{7294-scoundrels among many scoundrels} , knowing of [his]_348-provis keeping out of the way at that time and of [his]_348-provis reasons for doing so , of course afterwards held the knowledge over [his]_348-provis head as a means of keeping [him]_348-provis poorer and working [him]_348-provis harder . It was clear last night that this barbed the point of [Provis]_348-provis 's animosity . "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i want to know , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " and particularly , [Herbert]_265-herbert , whether [he]_348-provis told [you]_265-herbert when this happened ? "_[0-i] " Particularly ? Let [me]_0-i remember , then , what [he]_348-provis said as to that . [His]_348-provis expression was , ' a round score o ' year ago , and a'most directly after [I]_0-i took up wi ' [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} . ' How old were [you]_265-herbert when [you]_265-herbert came upon [him]_348-provis in [the little churchyard]_{7295-the little churchyard} ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i think in [my]_0-i seventh year . "_[0-i] " Ay . It had happened some three or four years then , [he]_348-provis said , and [you]_0-i brought into [his]_348-provis mind [the little girl so tragically lost , who would have been about [your]_0-i age]_{7296-the little girl so tragically lost , who would have been about your age} . "_[0-i] " [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , after a short silence , in a hurried way , " can [you]_265-herbert see [me]_0-i best by the light of the window , or the light of the fire ? "_[0-i] " By the firelight , "_{[265-herbert]} answered [Herbert]_265-herbert , coming close again . " Look at [me]_265-herbert . "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_0-i do look at [you]_0-i , [[my]_0-i dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} . "_[0-i] " Touch [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] " [I]_265-herbert do touch [you]_0-i , [[my]_265-herbert dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} . "_{[265-herbert]} " [You]_265-herbert are not afraid that [I]_0-i am in any fever , or that [my]_0-i head is much disordered by the accident of last night ? "_[0-i] " N - no , [[my]_265-herbert dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , after taking time to examine [me]_0-i . " [You]_0-i are rather excited , but [you]_0-i are quite [yourself]_0-i . "_{[265-herbert]} " [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i am quite [myself]_0-i . And [the man [we]_7301-we have in hiding down [the river]_{413-the river}]_{7300-the man we have in hiding down the river} , is [[Estella]_195-estella 's Father]_{7303-estella 's father} . "_[0-i] Chapter LI What purpose [I]_0-i had in view when [I]_0-i was hot on tracing out and proving [Estella]_195-estella 's parentage , [I]_0-i can not say . It will presently be seen that the question was not before [me]_0-i in a distinct shape until it was put before [me]_0-i by a wiser head than [my]_0-i own . But when [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i had held [our]_3802-our momentous conversation , [I]_0-i was seized with a feverish conviction that [I]_0-i ought to hunt the matter down , - that [I]_0-i ought not to let it rest , but that [I]_0-i ought to see [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and come at the bare truth . [I]_0-i really do not know whether [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i did this for [Estella]_195-estella 's sake , or whether [I]_0-i was glad to transfer to [the man in whose preservation [I]_0-i was so much concerned some rays of the romantic interest that had so long surrounded [me]_0-i]_{3803-the man in whose preservation i was so much concerned some rays of the romantic interest that had so long surrounded me} . Perhaps the latter possibility may be the nearer to the truth . Any way , [I]_0-i could scarcely be withheld from going out to [Gerrard Street]_{56-gerrard street} that night . [Herbert]_265-herbert 's representations that , if [I]_0-i did , [I]_0-i should probably be laid up and stricken useless , when [[our]_3802-our fugitive]_{3804-our fugitive} 's safety would depend upon [me]_0-i , alone restrained [my]_0-i impatience . On the understanding , again and again reiterated , that , come what would , [I]_0-i was to go to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} to - morrow , [I]_0-i at length submitted to keep quiet , and to have [[my]_0-i hurts]_{3805-my hurts} looked after , and to stay at [home]_4495-home . Early next morning [we]_3802-our went out together , and at [the corner of [Giltspur Street]_{132-giltspur street} by [Smithfield]_{29-smithfield}]_{3807-the corner of giltspur street by smithfield} , [I]_0-i left [Herbert]_265-herbert to go [his]_265-herbert way into [the City]_{2029-the city} , and took [my]_0-i way to [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} . There were periodical occasions when [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick went over [the office]_{5562-the office} accounts , and checked off the vouchers , and put all things straight . On these occasions , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick took [his]_254-wemmick books and papers into [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's room]_{5524-mr. jaggers 's room} , and [one of [the up - stairs clerks]_{3812-the up - stairs clerks}]_{3811-one of the up - stairs clerks} came down into [the outer office]_{2781-the outer office} . Finding such clerk on [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's post that morning , [I]_0-i knew what was going on ; but [I]_0-i was not sorry to have [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick together , as [Wemmick]_254-wemmick would then hear for [himself]_254-wemmick that [I]_0-i said nothing to compromise [him]_254-wemmick . [My]_0-i appearance , with [my]_0-i arm bandaged and [my]_0-i coat loose over [my]_0-i shoulders , favored [my]_0-i object . Although [I]_0-i had sent [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} a brief account of the accident as soon as [I]_0-i had arrived in [town]_4800-town , yet [I]_0-i had to give [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} all the details now ; and the speciality of the occasion caused [our]_3815-our talk to be less dry and hard , and less strictly regulated by the rules of evidence , than it had been before . While [I]_0-i described the disaster , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} stood , according to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} wo nt , before the fire . [Wemmick]_254-wemmick leaned back in [his]_254-wemmick chair , staring at [me]_0-i , with [his]_254-wemmick hands in the pockets of [his]_254-wemmick trousers , and [his]_254-wemmick pen put horizontally into the post . The two brutal casts , always inseparable in [my]_0-i mind from the official proceedings , seemed to be congestively considering whether [they]_3816-they did n't smell fire at the present moment . [My]_0-i narrative finished , and [their]_3816-they questions exhausted , [I]_0-i then produced [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's authority to receive the nine hundred pounds for [Herbert]_265-herbert . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's eyes retired a little deeper into [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head when [I]_0-i handed [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} the tablets , but [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} presently handed them over to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , with instructions to draw the check for [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} signature . While that was in course of being done , [I]_0-i looked on at [Wemmick]_254-wemmick as [he]_254-wemmick wrote , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , poising and swaying [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} on [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} well - polished boots , looked on at [me]_0-i . " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} am sorry , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} , as [I]_0-i put the check in [my]_0-i pocket , when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had signed it , " that [we]_7304-we do nothing for [you]_241-pip . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was good enough to ask [me]_0-i , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i returned , " whether [she]_{223-miss havisham} could do nothing for [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i told [her]_{223-miss havisham} No . "_[0-i] " [Everybody]_{678-everybody} should know [his]_{678-everybody} own business , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . And [I]_0-i saw [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's lips form the words " portable property . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} should not have told [her]_{223-miss havisham} No , if [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had been [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; " but [every man]_{5284-every man} ought to know [his]_{5284-every man} own business best . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [Every man]_{5284-every man} 's business , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , rather reproachfully towards [me]_0-i , " is portable property . "_{[254-wemmick]} As [I]_0-i thought the time was now come for pursuing the theme [I]_0-i had at heart , [I]_0-i said , turning on [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} : - " [I]_0-i did ask something of [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , however , [sir]_4451-sir . [I]_0-i asked [her]_{223-miss havisham} to give [me]_0-i some information relative to [[her]_{223-miss havisham} adopted daughter]_{7309-her adopted daughter} , and [she]_{223-miss havisham} gave [me]_0-i all [she]_{223-miss havisham} possessed . "_[0-i] " Did [she]_{223-miss havisham} ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , bending forward to look at [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} boots and then straightening [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Hah ! [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do n't think [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} should have done so , if [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had been [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} . But [she]_{223-miss havisham} ought to know [her]_{223-miss havisham} own business best . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} know more of the history of [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's adopted child]_{7310-miss havisham 's adopted child} than [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} [herself]_{223-miss havisham} does , [sir]_4451-sir . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} know [[her]_{223-miss havisham} mother]_{1952-her mother} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} looked at [me]_0-i inquiringly , and repeated " [Mother]_{245-mother hubbard} ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} have seen [[her]_{223-miss havisham} mother]_{1952-her mother} within these three days . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Yes ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " And so have [you]_4451-sir , [sir]_4451-sir . And [you]_4451-sir have seen [her]_{223-miss havisham} still more recently . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Yes ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Perhaps [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} know more of [Estella]_195-estella 's history than even [you]_4451-sir do , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [I.]_0-i " [I]_0-i know [[her]_3817-her father]_{1954-her father} too . "_[0-i] A certain stop that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} came to in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} manner - [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was too self - possessed to change [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} manner , but [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could not help its being brought to an indefinably attentive stop - assured [me]_0-i that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} did not know who [[her]_3817-her father]_{1954-her father} was . This [I]_0-i had strongly suspected from [Provis]_348-provis 's account as [Herbert]_265-herbert had repeated it of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} having kept [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} dark ; which [I]_0-i pieced on to the fact that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} [himself]_{237-mr. jaggers} was not [[Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's client]_{3819-mr. jaggers 's client} until some four years later , and when [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} could have no reason for claiming [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} identity . But , [I]_0-i could not be sure of this unconsciousness on [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's part before , though [I]_0-i was quite sure of it now . " So ! [You]_0-i know [[the young lady]_{5786-the young lady} 's father]_{7317-the young lady 's father} , [Pip]_241-pip ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Yes , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , " and [his]_{7317-the young lady 's father} name is [Provis]_348-provis - from [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales} . "_[0-i] Even [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} started when [I]_0-i said those words . It was the slightest start that could escape [a man]_{428-a man} , the most carefully repressed and the sooner checked , but [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} did start , though [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} made it a part of the action of taking out [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pocket - handkerchief . How [Wemmick]_254-wemmick received the announcement [I]_0-i am unable to say ; for [I]_0-i was afraid to look at [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} just then , lest [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's sharpness should detect that there had been some communication unknown to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} between [us]_254-wemmick . " And on what evidence , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} asked [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , very coolly , as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} paused with [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} handkerchief half way to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} nose , " does [Provis]_348-provis make this claim ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} does not make it , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " and has never made it , and has no knowledge or belief that [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} daughter]_{1964-his daughter} is in existence . "_[0-i] For once , the powerful pocket - handkerchief failed . [My]_0-i reply was so Unexpected , that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} put the handkerchief back into [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pocket without completing the usual performance , folded [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} arms , and looked with stern attention at [me]_0-i , though with an immovable face . Then [I]_0-i told [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} all [I]_0-i knew , and how [I]_0-i knew it ; with the one reservation that [I]_0-i left [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} to infer that [I]_0-i knew from [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} what [I]_0-i in fact knew from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . [I]_0-i was very careful indeed as to that . Nor did [I]_0-i look towards [Wemmick]_254-wemmick until [I]_0-i had finished all [I]_0-i had to tell , and had been for some time silently meeting [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's look . When [I]_0-i did at last turn [my]_0-i eyes in [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's direction , [I]_0-i found that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had unposted [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pen , and was intent upon the table before [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Hah ! "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} at last , as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} moved towards the papers on the table . " What item was it [you]_0-i were at , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , when [Mr. Pip]_241-pip came in ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} But [I]_0-i could not submit to be thrown off in that way , and [I]_0-i made a passionate , almost an indignant appeal , to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} to be more frank and manly with [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i reminded [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} of the false hopes into which [I]_0-i had lapsed , the length of time they had lasted , and the discovery [I]_0-i had made : and [I]_0-i hinted at the danger that weighed upon [my]_0-i spirits . [I]_0-i represented [myself]_0-i as being surely worthy of some little confidence from [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , in return for the confidence [I]_0-i had just now imparted . [I]_0-i said that [I]_0-i did not blame [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , or suspect [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , or mistrust [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , but [I]_0-i wanted assurance of the truth from [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} . And if [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} asked [me]_0-i why [I]_0-i wanted it , and why [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i had any right to it , [I]_0-i would tell [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} , little as [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} cared for such poor dreams , that [I]_0-i had loved [Estella]_195-estella dearly and long , and that although [I]_0-i had lost [her]_195-estella , and must live a bereaved life , whatever concerned [her]_195-estella was still nearer and dearer to [me]_0-i than anything else in [the world]_{4698-the world} . And seeing that [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} stood quite still and silent , and apparently quite obdurate , under this appeal , [I]_0-i turned to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , and said , " [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , [I]_0-i know [you]_254-wemmick to be [a man with a gentle heart]_{7319-a man with a gentle heart} . [I]_0-i have seen [[your]_254-wemmick pleasant home]_{7320-your pleasant home} , and [[your]_254-wemmick old father]_{7321-your old father} , and all the innocent , cheerful playful ways with which [you]_254-wemmick refresh [your]_254-wemmick business life . And [I]_0-i entreat [you]_254-wemmick to say a word for [me]_0-i to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , and to represent to [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} that , all circumstances considered , [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} ought to be more open with [me]_0-i ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have never seen [two men]_{3822-two men} look more oddly at [one another]_{4584-one another} than [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick did after this apostrophe . At first , a misgiving crossed [me]_0-i that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick would be instantly dismissed from [his]_254-wemmick employment ; but it melted as [I]_0-i saw [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} relax into something like a smile , and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick become bolder . " What 's all this ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " [You]_254-wemmick with [an old father]_{7322-an old father} , and [you]_254-wemmick with pleasant and playful ways ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Well ! "_{[254-wemmick]} returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " If [I]_254-wemmick do n't bring ['em]_254-wemmick here , what does it matter ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , laying [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand upon [my]_0-i arm , and smiling openly , " [this man]_{581-this man} must be [the most cunning impostor in all [London]_8-london]_{7324-the most cunning impostor in all london} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Not a bit of it , "_{[254-wemmick]} returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , growing bolder and bolder . " [I]_3824-i think [you]_254-wemmick 're another . "_[3824-i] Again [they]_3824-i exchanged [their]_3824-i former odd looks , each apparently still distrustful that [the other]_{831-the other} was taking [him]_254-wemmick in . " [You]_254-wemmick with [a pleasant home]_{7325-a pleasant home} ? "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} . " Since it do n't interfere with business , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " let it be so . Now , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} look at [you]_254-wemmick , [sir]_4451-sir , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} should n't wonder if [you]_254-wemmick might be planning and contriving to have [a pleasant home of [your]_254-wemmick own]_{7327-a pleasant home of your own} one of these days , when [you]_254-wemmick 're tired of all this work . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} nodded [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} head retrospectively two or three times , and actually drew a sigh . " [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " [we]_7328-we wo n't talk about ' poor dreams ; ' [you]_241-pip know more about such things than [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} , having much fresher experience of that kind . But now about this other matter . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll put a case to [you]_241-pip . Mind ! [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} admit nothing . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} waited for [me]_0-i to declare that [I]_0-i quite understood that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} expressly said that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} admitted nothing . " Now , [Pip]_241-pip , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , " put this case . Put the case that [a woman]_{943-a woman} , under such circumstances as [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} have mentioned , held [[her]_{943-a woman} child]_{3721-her child} concealed , and was obliged to communicate the fact to [[her]_{943-a woman} legal adviser]_{7331-her legal adviser} , on [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} representing to [her]_{943-a woman} that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} must know , with an eye to the latitude of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} defence , how the fact stood about [that child]_{7332-that child} . Put the case that , at the same time [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} held a trust to find [a child]_{691-a child} for [an eccentric rich lady to adopt and bring up]_{7334-an eccentric rich lady to adopt and bring up} . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} follow [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [sir]_4451-sir . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " Put the case that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} lived in an atmosphere of evil , and that all [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw of [children]_{1036-children} was [their]_{1036-children} being generated in great numbers for certain destruction . Put the case that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} often saw [[children]_{1036-children} solemnly tried at [a criminal bar]_{7339-a criminal bar} , where [they]_{1036-children} were held up to be seen]_{7338-children solemnly tried at a criminal bar , where they were held up to be seen} ; put the case that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} habitually knew of [their]_{1036-children} being imprisoned , whipped , transported , neglected , cast out , qualified in all ways for [the hangman]_{7340-the hangman} , and growing up to be hanged . Put the case that pretty nigh [all the children [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw in [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} daily business life]_{7341-all the children he saw in his daily business life} [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had reason to look upon as so much spawn , to develop into the fish that were to come to [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} net , - to be prosecuted , defended , forsworn , made [orphans]_7342-orphans , bedevilled somehow . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " [I]_0-i follow [you]_0-i , [sir]_4451-sir . "_[0-i] " Put the case , [Pip]_241-pip , that here was [one pretty little child out of the heap who could be saved ; whom [the father]_{1986-the father} believed dead , and dared make no stir about ; as to whom , over [the mother]_{2661-the mother} , [the legal adviser]_{7347-the legal adviser}]_{7344-one pretty little child out of the heap who could be saved ; whom the father believed dead , and dared make no stir about ; as to whom , over the mother , the legal adviser} had this power : "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [I]_0-i know what [you]_3826-you did , and how [you]_3826-you did it . [You]_3826-you came so and so , [you]_3826-you did such and such things to divert suspicion . [I]_0-i have tracked [you]_3826-you through it all , and [I]_0-i tell [it]_3827-it [you]_3826-you all . Part with [the child]_{1037-the child} , unless it should be necessary to produce it to clear [you]_3826-you , and then it shall be produced . Give [the child]_{1037-the child} into [my]_0-i hands , and [I]_0-i will do [my]_0-i best to bring [you]_3826-you off . If [you]_3826-you are saved , [[your]_3826-you child]_{3830-your child} is saved too ; if [you]_3826-you are lost , [[your]_3826-you child]_{3830-your child} is still saved . " Put the case that this was done , and that [the woman]_{2082-the woman} was cleared . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_254-wemmick understand [you]_254-wemmick perfectly . "_{[254-wemmick]} " But that [I]_254-wemmick make no admissions ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " That [you]_254-wemmick make no admissions . "_{[254-wemmick]} And [Wemmick]_254-wemmick repeated , " No admissions . "_{[254-wemmick]} " Put the case , [Pip]_241-pip , that passion and the terror of death had a little shaken [the woman]_{2082-the woman} 's intellects , and that when [she]_{2082-the woman} was set at liberty , [she]_{2082-the woman} was scared out of the ways of [the world]_{4698-the world} , and went to [him]_0-i to be sheltered . Put the case that [he]_0-i took [her]_{2082-the woman} in , and that [he]_0-i kept down the old , wild , violent nature whenever [he]_0-i saw an inkling of its breaking out , by asserting [his]_0-i power over [her]_{2082-the woman} in the old way . Do [you]_241-pip comprehend the imaginary case ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " Quite . "_{[254-wemmick]} " Put the case that [the child]_{1037-the child} grew up , and was married for money . That [the mother]_{2661-the mother} was still living . That [the father]_{1986-the father} was still living . That [the mother]_{2661-the mother} and [father]_7355-father , unknown to [one another]_{4584-one another} , were dwelling within so many miles , furlongs , yards if [you]_241-pip like , of [one another]_{4584-one another} . That the secret was still a secret , except that [you]_241-pip had got wind of it . Put that last case to [yourself]_241-pip very carefully . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_254-wemmick do . "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_254-wemmick ask [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to put it to [himself]_254-wemmick very carefully . "_{[254-wemmick]} And [Wemmick]_254-wemmick said , " [I]_254-wemmick do . "_{[254-wemmick]} " For whose sake would [you]_241-pip reveal the secret ? For [the father]_{1986-the father} 's ? [I]_0-i think [he]_{1986-the father} would not be much the better for [the mother]_{2661-the mother} . For [the mother]_{2661-the mother} 's ? [I]_0-i think if [she]_{2661-the mother} had done such a deed [she]_{2661-the mother} would be safer where [she]_{2661-the mother} was . For [the daughter]_{2905-the daughter} 's ? [I]_0-i think it would hardly serve [her]_{2661-the mother} to establish [her]_{2661-the mother} parentage for the information of [[her]_{2661-the mother} husband]_{473-her husband} , and to drag [her]_{2661-the mother} back to disgrace , after an escape of twenty years , pretty secure to last for life . But add the case that [you]_241-pip had loved [her]_{2661-the mother} , [Pip]_241-pip , and had made [her]_{2661-the mother} the subject of those ' poor dreams ' which have , at one time or another , been in the heads of [more men]_{7363-more men} than [you]_241-pip think likely , then [I]_0-i tell [you]_241-pip that [you]_241-pip had better - and would much sooner when [you]_241-pip had thought well of it - chop off that bandaged left hand of [yours]_241-pip with [your]_241-pip bandaged right hand , and then pass the chopper on to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick there , to cut that off too . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i looked at [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , whose face was very grave . [He]_254-wemmick gravely touched [his]_254-wemmick lips with [his]_254-wemmick forefinger . [I]_0-i did the same . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} did the same . " Now , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[1296-the latter]} said [the latter]_{1296-the latter} then , resuming [his]_{1296-the latter} usual manner , " what item was it [you]_254-wemmick were at when [Mr. Pip]_241-pip came in ? "_{[1296-the latter]} Standing by for a little , while [they]_3833-they were at work , [I]_0-i observed that the odd looks [they]_3833-they had cast at [one another]_{4584-one another} were repeated several times : with this difference now , that [each of [them]_3833-they]_{3835-each of them} seemed suspicious , not to say conscious , of having shown [himself]_{3835-each of them} in a weak and unprofessional light to the other . For this reason , [I]_0-i suppose , [they]_3833-they were now inflexible with [one another]_{4584-one another} ; [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} being highly dictatorial , and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick obstinately justifying [himself]_254-wemmick whenever there was the smallest point in abeyance for a moment . [I]_0-i had never seen [them]_3833-they on such ill terms ; for generally [they]_3833-they got on very well indeed together . But [they]_3833-they were both happily relieved by the opportune appearance of [Mike]_249-mike , [the client with the fur cap]_{3837-the client with the fur cap} and the habit of wiping [his]_249-mike nose on [his]_249-mike sleeve , whom [I]_0-i had seen on the very first day of [my]_0-i appearance within those walls . [This individual , who , either in [his]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} own person or in that of some member of [[his]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} family]_{5301-his family} , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant [Newgate]_17-newgate , called to announce that [[his]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} eldest daughter]_{3840-his eldest daughter} was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} . As [he]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} imparted this melancholy circumstance to [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} standing magisterially before the fire and taking no share in the proceedings , [Mike]_249-mike 's eye happened to twinkle with a tear . " What are [you]_254-wemmick about ? "_{[254-wemmick]} demanded [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , with the utmost indignation . " What do [you]_254-wemmick come snivelling [here]_693-here for ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " [I]_{3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting} did n't go to do it , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[3838-this individual , who , either in his own person or in that of some member of his family , seemed to be always in trouble which in that place meant newgate , called to announce that his eldest daughter was taken up on suspicion of shoplifting]} " [You]_254-wemmick did , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . " How dare [you]_254-wemmick ? [You]_254-wemmick 're not in a fit state to come here , if [you]_254-wemmick ca n't come here without spluttering like a bad pen . What do [you]_254-wemmick mean by it ? "_{[254-wemmick]} " [A man]_{428-a man} ca n't help [his]_{428-a man} feelings , [Mr. Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[249-mike] pleaded [Mike]_249-mike . " [His]_{428-a man} what ? "_{[254-wemmick]} demanded [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , quite savagely . " Say that again ! "_{[254-wemmick]} " Now look here [[my]_{237-mr. jaggers} man]_{4653-my man} , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} said [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , advancing a step , and pointing to the door . " Get out of [this office]_{6711-this office} . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} 'll have no feelings [here]_693-here . Get out . "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} " It serves [you]_{237-mr. jaggers} right , "_{[254-wemmick]} said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , " Get out . "_{[254-wemmick]} So , [the unfortunate Mike]_{3841-the unfortunate mike} very humbly withdrew , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} and [Wemmick]_254-wemmick appeared to have re - established [their]_3842-their good understanding , and went to work again with an air of refreshment upon [them]_3842-their as if [they]_3842-their had just had lunch . Chapter LII From [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} [I]_0-i went , with [my]_0-i check in [my]_0-i pocket , to [[Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's brother]_{2890-miss skiffins 's brother} , [the accountant]_{3844-the accountant} ; and [[Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} 's brother]_{2890-miss skiffins 's brother} , [the accountant]_{3844-the accountant} , going straight to [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} 's and bringing [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i had the great satisfaction of concluding that arrangement . It was the only good thing [I]_0-i had done , and the only completed thing [I]_0-i had done , since [I]_0-i was first apprised of [my]_0-i great expectations . [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} informing [me]_0-i on that occasion that the affairs of [the House]_{604-the house} were steadily progressing , that [he]_{336-clarriker} would now be able to establish [a small branch - house in [the East]_{790-the east} which was much wanted for the extension of the business]_{3848-a small branch - house in the east which was much wanted for the extension of the business} , and that [Herbert]_265-herbert in [his]_265-herbert new partnership capacity would go out and take charge of [it]_{3848-a small branch - house in the east which was much wanted for the extension of the business} , [I]_0-i found that [I]_0-i must have prepared for a separation from [[my]_0-i friend]_{594-my friend} , even though [my]_0-i own affairs had been more settled . And now , indeed , [I]_0-i felt as if [my]_0-i last anchor were loosening its hold , and [I]_0-i should soon be driving with the winds and waves . But there was recompense in the joy with which [Herbert]_265-herbert would come [home]_4495-home of a night and tell [me]_0-i of these changes , little imagining that [he]_265-herbert told [me]_0-i no news , and would sketch airy pictures of [himself]_265-herbert conducting [Clara Barley]_311-clara to [the land of [the Arabian Nights]_{133-the arabian nights}]_{3852-the land of the arabian nights} , and of [me]_0-i going out to join [them]_3853-them with [a caravan of camels]_{3854-a caravan of camels} , [I]_0-i believe , and of [our]_3855-we all going up [the Nile]_{134-the nile} and seeing wonders . Without being sanguine as to [my]_0-i own part in those bright plans , [I]_0-i felt that [Herbert]_265-herbert 's way was clearing fast , and that [old Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} had but to stick to [his]_265-herbert pepper and rum , and [[his]_265-herbert daughter]_{1964-his daughter} would soon be happily provided for . [We]_3855-we had now got into the month of March . [My]_0-i left arm , though it presented no bad symptoms , took , in the natural course , so long to heal that [I]_0-i was still unable to get a coat on . [My]_0-i right arm was tolerably restored ; disfigured , but fairly serviceable . On a Monday morning , when [Herbert]_265-herbert and [I]_0-i were at breakfast , [I]_0-i received the following letter from [Wemmick]_254-wemmick by the post . " [Walworth]_52-walworth . Burn this as soon as read . Early in the week , or say Wednesday , [you]_7369-you might do what [you]_7369-you know of , if [you]_7369-you felt disposed to try it . Now burn . "_{[254-wemmick]} When [I]_0-i had shown this to [Herbert]_265-herbert and had put it in the fire - but not before [we]_3855-we had both got it by heart - [we]_3855-we considered what to do . For , of course [my]_0-i being disabled could now be no longer kept out of view . " [I]_265-herbert have thought it over again and again , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " and [I]_265-herbert think [I]_265-herbert know a better course than taking [a Thames waterman]_{7370-a thames waterman} . Take Startop . [A good fellow]_{6386-a good fellow} , a skilled hand , fond of [us]_3855-we , and enthusiastic and honorable . "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i had thought of [him]_265-herbert more than once . " But how much would [you]_265-herbert tell [him]_265-herbert , [Herbert]_265-herbert ? "_[0-i] " It is necessary to tell [him]_265-herbert very little . Let [him]_265-herbert suppose it a mere freak , but a secret one , until the morning comes : then let [him]_265-herbert know that there is urgent reason for [your]_265-herbert getting Provis aboard and away . [You]_265-herbert go with [him]_265-herbert ? "_{[265-herbert]} " No doubt . "_[0-i] " Where ? "_[0-i] It had seemed to [me]_0-i , in the many anxious considerations [I]_0-i had given the point , almost indifferent what port [we]_3857-we made for , - [Hamburg]_135-hamburg , [Rotterdam]_{136-rotterdam} , [Antwerp]_62-antwerp , - [the place]_{4456-the place} signified little , so that [he]_265-herbert was out of [England]_7-england . [Any foreign steamer that fell in [our]_3857-we way and would take [us]_3857-we up]_{3859-any foreign steamer that fell in our way and would take us up} would do . [I]_0-i had always proposed to [myself]_0-i to get [him]_265-herbert well down [the river]_{413-the river} in [the boat]_{4680-the boat} ; certainly well beyond [Gravesend]_{137-gravesend} , which was [a critical place for search]_{3862-a critical place for search} or inquiry if suspicion were afoot . As [foreign steamers]_{3863-foreign steamers} would leave [London]_8-london at about the time of high - water , [our]_3857-we plan would be to get down [the river]_{413-the river} by a previous ebb - tide , and lie by in [some quiet spot]_{3865-some quiet spot} until [we]_3857-we could pull off to one . The time when [one]_5055-one would be due where [we]_3857-we lay , wherever that might be , could be calculated pretty nearly , if [we]_3857-we made inquiries beforehand . [Herbert]_265-herbert assented to all this , and [we]_3857-we went out immediately after breakfast to pursue [our]_3857-we investigations . [We]_3857-we found that [a steamer for [Hamburg]_135-hamburg]_{3867-a steamer for hamburg} was likely to suit [our]_3857-we purpose best , and [we]_3857-we directed [our]_3857-we thoughts chiefly to [that vessel]_{3868-that vessel} . But [we]_3857-we noted down what [other foreign steamers]_{3869-other foreign steamers} would leave [London]_8-london with the same tide , and [we]_3857-we satisfied [ourselves]_3857-we that [we]_3857-we knew the build and color of each . [We]_3857-we then separated for a few hours : [I]_0-i , to get at once such passports as were necessary ; [Herbert]_265-herbert , to see [Startop]_276-startop at [[his]_276-startop lodgings]_{3870-his lodgings} . [We]_3857-we both did what [we]_3857-we had to do without any hindrance , and when [we]_3857-we met again at one o'clock reported it done . [I]_0-i , for [my]_0-i part , was prepared with passports ; [Herbert]_265-herbert had seen [Startop]_276-startop , and [he]_265-herbert was more than ready to join . [Those two]_{1547-those two} should pull a pair of oars , [we]_3857-we settled , and [I]_0-i would steer ; [our]_3857-we charge would be sitter , and keep quiet ; as speed was not [our]_3857-we object , [we]_3857-we should make way enough . [We]_3857-we arranged that [Herbert]_265-herbert should not come [home]_4495-home to dinner before going to [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} that evening ; that [he]_265-herbert should not go [there]_4505-there at all to - morrow evening , Tuesday ; that [he]_265-herbert should prepare [Provis]_348-provis to come down to some stairs hard by [the house]_{604-the house} , on Wednesday , when [he]_348-provis saw [us]_3857-we approach , and not sooner ; that all the arrangements with [him]_265-herbert should be concluded that Monday night ; and that [he]_265-herbert should be communicated with no more in any way , until [we]_3857-we took [him]_265-herbert on board . These precautions well understood by both of [us]_3857-we , [I]_0-i went [home]_4495-home . On opening the outer door of [[our]_3857-we chambers]_{3016-our chambers} with [my]_0-i key , [I]_0-i found a letter in the box , directed to [me]_0-i ; a very dirty letter , though not ill - written . It had been delivered by hand of course , since [I]_0-i left [home]_4495-home , and its contents were these : - " If [you]_0-i are not afraid to come to [the old marshes]_{7372-the old marshes} to - night or tomorrow night at nine , and to come to [the little sluice - house by the limekiln]_{7373-the little sluice - house by the limekiln} , [you]_0-i had better come . If [you]_0-i want information regarding [[your]_0-i uncle]_{7374-your uncle} [Provis]_348-provis , [you]_0-i had much better come and tell [no one]_{4550-no one} , and lose no time . [You]_0-i must come alone . Bring this with [you]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had had load enough upon [my]_0-i mind before the receipt of this strange letter . What to do now , [I]_0-i could not tell . And the worst was , that [I]_0-i must decide quickly , or [I]_0-i should miss [the afternoon coach]_{3878-the afternoon coach} , which would take [me]_0-i down in time for to - night . To - morrow night [I]_0-i could not think of going , for it would be too close upon the time of the flight . And again , for anything [I]_0-i knew , the proffered information might have some important bearing on the flight itself . If [I]_0-i had had ample time for consideration , [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i should still have gone . Having hardly any time for consideration , - [my]_0-i watch showing [me]_0-i that [the coach]_{4925-the coach} started within half an hour , - [I]_0-i resolved to go . [I]_0-i should certainly not have gone , but for the reference to [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1497-my uncle} Provis . That , coming on [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's letter and the morning 's busy preparation , turned the scale . It is so difficult to become clearly possessed of the contents of almost any letter , in a violent hurry , that [I]_0-i had to read this mysterious epistle again twice , before its injunction to [me]_0-i to be secret got mechanically into [my]_0-i mind . Yielding to it in the same mechanical kind of way , [I]_0-i left a note in pencil for [Herbert]_265-herbert , telling [him]_265-herbert that as [I]_0-i should be so soon going away , [I]_0-i knew not for how long , [I]_0-i had decided to hurry down and back , to ascertain for [myself]_0-i how [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was faring . [I]_0-i had then barely time to get [my]_0-i great - coat , lock up [the chambers]_{1913-the chambers} , and make for [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} by the short by - ways . If [I]_0-i had taken [a hackney - chariot]_{3883-a hackney - chariot} and gone by [the streets]_{5643-the streets} , [I]_0-i should have missed [my]_0-i aim ; going as [I]_0-i did , [I]_0-i caught [the coach]_{4925-the coach} just as it came out of [the yard]_{717-the yard} . [I]_0-i was [the only inside passenger]_{3887-the only inside passenger} , jolting away knee - deep in straw , when [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i . For [I]_0-i really had not been [myself]_0-i since the receipt of the letter ; it had so bewildered [me]_0-i , ensuing on the hurry of the morning . The morning hurry and flutter had been great ; for , long and anxiously as [I]_0-i had waited for [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , [his]_254-wemmick hint had come like a surprise at last . And now [I]_0-i began to wonder at [myself]_0-i for being in [the coach]_{4925-the coach} , and to doubt whether [I]_0-i had sufficient reason for being [there]_4505-there , and to consider whether [I]_0-i should get out presently and go back , and to argue against ever heeding an anonymous communication , and , in short , to pass through all those phases of contradiction and indecision to which [I]_0-i suppose [very few hurried people]_{3890-very few hurried people} are [strangers]_{2179-strangers} . Still , the reference to Provis by name mastered everything . [I]_0-i reasoned as [I]_0-i had reasoned already without knowing it , - if that be reasoning , - in case any harm should befall [him]_254-wemmick through [my]_0-i not going , how could [I]_0-i ever forgive [myself]_0-i ! It was dark before [we]_3892-we got down , and the journey seemed long and dreary to [me]_0-i , who could see little of it inside , and who could not go outside in [my]_0-i disabled state . Avoiding [the Blue Boar]_{5142-the blue boar} , [I]_0-i put up at [an inn of minor reputation down [the town]_{5488-the town}]_{3894-an inn of minor reputation down the town} , and ordered some dinner . While it was preparing , [I]_0-i went to [Satis House]_{90-satis house} and inquired for [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} ; [she]_{223-miss havisham} was still very ill , though considered something better . [[My]_0-i inn]_{3896-my inn} had once been a part of [an ancient ecclesiastical house]_{3897-an ancient ecclesiastical house} , and [I]_0-i dined in [a little octagonal common - room]_{3898-a little octagonal common - room} , like [a font]_{3899-a font} . As [I]_0-i was not able to cut [my]_0-i dinner , [the old landlord with a shining bald head]_{3900-the old landlord with a shining bald head} did it for [me]_0-i . This bringing [us]_3901-us into conversation , [he]_{3900-the old landlord with a shining bald head} was so good as to entertain [me]_0-i with [my]_0-i own story , - of course with the popular feature that [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was [[my]_0-i earliest benefactor]_{2754-my earliest benefactor} and [the founder of [my]_0-i fortunes]_{6312-the founder of my fortunes} . " Do [you]_{1154-the landlord} know [the young man]_{4546-the young man} ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Know [him]_{4546-the young man} ! "_{[1154-the landlord]} repeated [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . " Ever since [he]_{4546-the young man} was - no height at all . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " Does [he]_{4546-the young man} ever come back to [this neighborhood]_{6293-this neighborhood} ? "_{[1154-the landlord]} " Ay , [he]_{4546-the young man} comes back , "_{[1154-the landlord]} said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , " to [[his]_{4546-the young man} great friends]_{7378-his great friends} , now and again , and gives the cold shoulder to [the man that made [him]_{4546-the young man}]_{7379-the man that made him} . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " [What man]_{7380-what man} is that ? "_{[1154-the landlord]} " [Him]_{4546-the young man} that [I]_{1154-the landlord} speak of , "_{[1154-the landlord]} said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . " [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " Is [he]_{4546-the young man} ungrateful to [no one else]_{4591-no one else} ? "_{[1154-the landlord]} " No doubt [he]_{4546-the young man} would be , if [he]_{4546-the young man} could , "_{[1154-the landlord]} returned [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , " but [he]_{4546-the young man} ca n't . And why ? Because [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} done everything for [him]_{4546-the young man} . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " Does [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} say so ? "_{[1154-the landlord]} " Say so ! "_{[1154-the landlord]} replied [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . " [He]_{176-mr. pumblechook} han't no call to say so . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " But does [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} say so ? "_{[1154-the landlord]} " It would turn [a man]_{428-a man} 's blood to white wine winegar to hear [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} tell of it , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[1154-the landlord]} said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . [I]_0-i thought , " Yet [Joe]_154-joe , [dear Joe]_154-joe , [you]_154-joe never tell of it . [Long - suffering and loving Joe]_154-joe , [you]_154-joe never complain . Nor [you]_154-joe , [sweet - tempered Biddy]_{7384-sweet - tempered biddy} ! "_[0-i] " [Your]_0-i appetite 's been touched like by [your]_0-i accident , "_{[1154-the landlord]} said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , glancing at the bandaged arm under [my]_0-i coat . " Try a tenderer bit . "_{[1154-the landlord]} " No , thank [you]_{1154-the landlord} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , turning from the table to brood over the fire . " [I]_0-i can eat no more . Please take it away . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had never been struck at so keenly , for [my]_0-i thanklessness to [Joe]_154-joe , as through [the brazen impostor Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . The falser [he]_3911-he , [the truer Joe]_154-joe ; the meaner [he]_3911-he , [the nobler Joe]_154-joe . [My]_0-i heart was deeply and most deservedly humbled as [I]_0-i mused over the fire for an hour or more . The striking of the clock aroused [me]_0-i , but not from [my]_0-i dejection or remorse , and [I]_0-i got up and had [my]_0-i coat fastened round [my]_0-i neck , and went out . [I]_0-i had previously sought in [my]_0-i pockets for the letter , that [I]_0-i might refer to it again ; but [I]_0-i could not find it , and was uneasy to think that it must have been dropped in the straw of [the coach]_{4925-the coach} . [I]_0-i knew very well , however , that [the appointed place]_{3913-the appointed place} was [the little sluice - house by [the limekiln]_{3915-the limekiln} on [the marshes]_{423-the marshes}]_{3914-the little sluice - house by the limekiln on the marshes} , and the hour nine . Towards [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} [I]_0-i now went straight , having no time to spare . Chapter LIII It was a dark night , though the full moon rose as [I]_0-i left [the enclosed lands]_{3918-the enclosed lands} , and passed out upon [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . Beyond [their]_{423-the marshes} dark line there was a ribbon of clear sky , hardly broad enough to hold the red large moon . In a few minutes [she]_3920-she had ascended out of [that clear field]_{3921-that clear field} , in among the piled mountains of cloud . There was a melancholy wind , and [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} were very dismal . [A stranger]_{1158-a stranger} would have found them insupportable , and even to [me]_0-i they were so oppressive that [I]_0-i hesitated , half inclined to go back . But [I]_0-i knew [them]_{423-the marshes} well , and could have found [my]_0-i way on a far darker night , and had no excuse for returning , being [there]_4505-there . So , having come [there]_4505-there against [my]_0-i inclination , [I]_0-i went on against it . The direction that [I]_0-i took was not that in which [[my]_0-i old home]_{3926-my old home} lay , nor that in which [we]_3927-we had pursued [the convicts]_{784-the convicts} . [My]_0-i back was turned towards [the distant Hulks]_{3929-the distant hulks} as [I]_0-i walked on , and , though [I]_0-i could see the old lights away on the spits of sand , [I]_0-i saw them over [my]_0-i shoulder . [I]_0-i knew [the limekiln]_{3915-the limekiln} as well as [I]_0-i knew [the old Battery]_{789-the old battery} , but they were miles apart ; so that , if a light had been burning at each point that night , there would have been a long strip of the blank horizon between the two bright specks . At first , [I]_0-i had to shut some gates after [me]_0-i , and now and then to stand still while the cattle that were lying in [the banked - up pathway]_{3932-the banked - up pathway} arose and blundered down among the grass and reeds . But after a little while [I]_0-i seemed to have [the whole flats]_{3933-the whole flats} to [myself]_0-i . It was another half - hour before [I]_0-i drew near to [the kiln]_{3934-the kiln} . The lime was burning with a sluggish stifling smell , but the fires were made up and left , and [no workmen]_{3935-no workmen} were visible . Hard by was [a small stone - quarry]_{3936-a small stone - quarry} . [It]_{3936-a small stone - quarry} lay directly in [my]_0-i way , and had been worked that day , as [I]_0-i saw by the tools and barrows that were lying about . Coming up again to the marsh level out of this excavation , - for [the rude path]_{3937-the rude path} lay through [it]_{3936-a small stone - quarry} , - [I]_0-i saw a light in [the old sluice - house]_{3938-the old sluice - house} . [I]_0-i quickened [my]_0-i pace , and knocked at the door with [my]_0-i hand . Waiting for some reply , [I]_0-i looked about [me]_0-i , noticing how the sluice was abandoned and broken , and how [the house]_{604-the house} - of wood with a tiled roof - would not be proof against the weather much longer , if it were so even now , and how the mud and ooze were coated with lime , and how the choking vapor of [the kiln]_{3934-the kiln} crept in a ghostly way towards [me]_0-i . Still there was no answer , and [I]_0-i knocked again . No answer still , and [I]_0-i tried the latch . It rose under [my]_0-i hand , and the door yielded . Looking in , [I]_0-i saw a lighted candle on a table , a bench , and a mattress on a truckle bedstead . As there was [a loft above]_{3941-a loft above} , [I]_0-i called , " Is there any one here ? "_[0-i] but [no voice]_{3942-no voice} answered . Then [I]_0-i looked at [my]_0-i watch , and , finding that it was past nine , called again , " Is there any one here ? "_[0-i] There being still no answer , [I]_0-i went out at the door , irresolute what to do . It was beginning to rain fast . Seeing nothing save what [I]_0-i had seen already , [I]_0-i turned back into [the house]_{604-the house} , and stood just within the shelter of the doorway , looking out into the night . While [I]_0-i was considering that [some one]_{4842-some one} must have been [there]_4505-there lately and must soon be coming back , or the candle would not be burning , it came into [my]_0-i head to look if the wick were long . [I]_0-i turned round to do so , and had taken up the candle in [my]_0-i hand , when it was extinguished by some violent shock ; and the next thing [I]_0-i comprehended was , that [I]_0-i had been caught in a strong running noose , thrown over [my]_0-i head from behind . " Now , "_{[3946-a strong man]} said a suppressed voice with an oath , " [I]_{3946-a strong man} 've got [you]_0-i ! "_{[3946-a strong man]} " What is this ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , struggling . " Who is it ? Help , help , help ! "_[0-i] Not only were [my]_0-i arms pulled close to [my]_0-i sides , but the pressure on [my]_0-i bad arm caused [me]_0-i exquisite pain . Sometimes , [a strong man]_{3946-a strong man} 's hand , sometimes [a strong man]_{3946-a strong man} 's breast , was set against [my]_0-i mouth to deaden [my]_0-i cries , and with a hot breath always close to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i struggled ineffectually in the dark , while [I]_0-i was fastened tight to the wall . " And now , "_{[3946-a strong man]} said the suppressed voice with another oath , " call out again , and [I]_{3946-a strong man} 'll make short work of [you]_0-i ! "_{[3946-a strong man]} Faint and sick with the pain of [my]_0-i injured arm , bewildered by the surprise , and yet conscious how easily this threat could be put in execution , [I]_0-i desisted , and tried to ease [my]_0-i arm were it ever so little . But , it was bound too tight for that . [I]_0-i felt as if , having been burnt before , it were now being boiled . The sudden exclusion of the night , and the substitution of black darkness in its place , warned [me]_0-i that [the man]_{433-the man} had closed a shutter . After groping about for a little , [he]_{433-the man} found the flint and steel [he]_{433-the man} wanted , and began to strike a light . [I]_0-i strained [my]_0-i sight upon the sparks that fell among the tinder , and upon which [he]_{433-the man} breathed and breathed , match in hand , but [I]_0-i could only see [his]_{433-the man} lips , and the blue point of the match ; even those but fitfully . The tinder was damp , - no wonder there , - and one after another the sparks died out . [The man]_{433-the man} was in no hurry , and struck again with the flint and steel . As the sparks fell thick and bright about [him]_{433-the man} , [I]_0-i could see [his]_{433-the man} hands , and touches of [his]_{433-the man} face , and could make out that [he]_{433-the man} was seated and bending over the table ; but nothing more . Presently [I]_0-i saw [his]_{433-the man} blue lips again , breathing on the tinder , and then a flare of light flashed up , and showed [me]_0-i [Orlick]_225-orlick . Whom [I]_0-i had looked for , [I]_0-i do n't know . [I]_0-i had not looked for [him]_{433-the man} . Seeing [him]_{433-the man} , [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i was in a dangerous strait indeed , and [I]_0-i kept [my]_0-i eyes upon [him]_{433-the man} . [He]_{433-the man} lighted the candle from the flaring match with great deliberation , and dropped the match , and trod it out . Then [he]_{433-the man} put the candle away from [him]_{433-the man} on the table , so that [he]_{433-the man} could see [me]_0-i , and sat with [his]_{433-the man} arms folded on the table and looked at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i made out that [I]_0-i was fastened to a stout perpendicular ladder a few inches from the wall , - a fixture there , - the means of ascent to the loft above . " Now , "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , when [we]_3950-we had surveyed [one another]_{4584-one another} for some time , " [I]_{433-the man} 've got [you]_0-i . "_{[433-the man]} " Unbind [me]_{433-the man} . Let [me]_{433-the man} go ! "_{[433-the man]} " Ah ! "_{[433-the man]} [he]_{433-the man} returned , " [I]_{433-the man} 'll let [you]_0-i go . [I]_{433-the man} 'll let [you]_0-i go to the moon , [I]_{433-the man} 'll let [you]_0-i go to the stars . All in good time . "_{[433-the man]} " Why have [you]_{433-the man} lured [me]_{433-the man} [here]_693-here ? "_{[433-the man]} " Do n't [you]_0-i know ? "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , with a deadly look . " Why have [you]_0-i set upon [me]_{433-the man} in the dark ? "_{[433-the man]} " Because [I]_{433-the man} mean to do it all [myself]_{433-the man} . [One]_5055-one keeps a secret better than two . O [you]_0-i enemy , [[you]_0-i enemy]_{7387-you enemy} ! "_{[433-the man]} [His]_{433-the man} enjoyment of the spectacle [I]_0-i furnished , as [he]_{433-the man} sat with [his]_{433-the man} arms folded on the table , shaking [his]_{433-the man} head at [me]_0-i and hugging [himself]_{433-the man} , had a malignity in it that made [me]_0-i tremble . As [I]_0-i watched [him]_{433-the man} in silence , [he]_{433-the man} put [his]_{433-the man} hand into the corner at [his]_{433-the man} side , and took up a gun with a brass - bound stock . " Do [you]_0-i know this ? "_{[433-the man]} said [he]_{433-the man} , making as if [he]_{433-the man} would take aim at [me]_0-i . " Do [you]_0-i know where [you]_0-i saw it afore ? Speak , wolf ! "_{[433-the man]} " Yes , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered . " [You]_0-i cost [me]_0-i that place . [You]_0-i did . Speak ! "_[0-i] " What else could [I]_{433-the man} do ? "_{[433-the man]} " [You]_0-i did that , and that would be enough , without more . How dared [you]_0-i to come betwixt [me]_{433-the man} and [a young woman]_{4873-a young woman} [I]_{433-the man} liked ? "_{[433-the man]} " When did [I]_0-i ? "_[0-i] " When did n't [you]_0-i ? It was [you]_0-i as always give Old Orlick a bad name to [her]_{4873-a young woman} . "_{[433-the man]} " [You]_0-i gave it to [yourself]_0-i ; [you]_0-i gained it for [yourself]_0-i . [I]_{433-the man} could have done [you]_0-i no harm , if [you]_0-i had done [yourself]_0-i none . "_{[433-the man]} " [You]_0-i 're [a liar]_{4665-a liar} . And [you]_0-i 'll take any pains , and spend any money , to drive [me]_3952-i out of [this country]_{4981-this country} , will [you]_0-i ? "_[3952-i] said [he]_3952-i , repeating [my]_0-i words to [Biddy]_188-biddy in the last interview [I]_0-i had with [her]_188-biddy . " Now , [I]_3952-i 'll tell [you]_0-i a piece of information . It was never so well worth [your]_0-i while to get [me]_3952-i out of [this country]_{4981-this country} as it is to - night . Ah ! If it was all [your]_0-i money twenty times told , to [the last brass farden]_{7392-the last brass farden} ! "_[3952-i] As [he]_3952-i shook [his]_3952-i heavy hand at [me]_0-i , with [his]_3952-i mouth snarling like a tiger 's , [I]_0-i felt that it was true . " What are [you]_0-i going to do to [me]_0-i ? "_[0-i] " [I]_3952-i 'm [a going]_{7393-a going} , "_[3952-i] said [he]_3952-i , bringing [his]_3952-i fist down upon the table with a heavy blow , and rising as the blow fell to give it greater force , - " [I]_3952-i 'm a going to have [your]_0-i life ! "_[3952-i] [He]_3952-i leaned forward staring at [me]_0-i , slowly unclenched [his]_3952-i hand and drew it across [his]_3952-i mouth as if [his]_3952-i mouth watered for [me]_0-i , and sat down again . " [You]_0-i was always in [Old Orlick]_225-orlick 's way since ever [you]_0-i was [a child]_{691-a child} . [You]_0-i goes out of [his]_225-orlick way this present night . [He]_225-orlick 'll have no more on [you]_0-i . [You]_0-i 're dead . "_[3952-i] [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i had come to the brink of [[my]_0-i grave]_{4581-my grave} . For a moment [I]_0-i looked wildly round [my]_0-i trap for any chance of escape ; but there was none . " More than that , "_[3952-i] said [he]_3952-i , folding [his]_3952-i arms on the table again , " [I]_3952-i wo n't have a rag of [you]_0-i , [I]_3952-i wo n't have a bone of [you]_0-i , left on [earth]_6816-earth . [I]_3952-i 'll put [your]_0-i body in [the kiln]_{3934-the kiln} , - [I]_3952-i 'd carry two such to it , on [my]_3952-i Shoulders , - and , let [people]_4539-people suppose what [they]_4539-people may of [you]_0-i , [they]_4539-people shall never know nothing . "_[3952-i] [My]_0-i mind , with inconceivable rapidity followed out all the consequences of such a death . [[Estella]_195-estella 's father]_{7303-estella 's father} would believe [I]_0-i had deserted [him]_3952-i , would be taken , would die accusing [me]_0-i ; even [Herbert]_265-herbert would doubt [me]_0-i , when [he]_265-herbert compared the letter [I]_0-i had left for [him]_265-herbert with the fact that [I]_0-i had called at [[Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's gate]_{3955-miss havisham 's gate} for only a moment ; [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy would never know how sorry [I]_0-i had been that night , [none]_3956-none would ever know what [I]_0-i had suffered , how true [I]_0-i had meant to be , what an agony [I]_0-i had passed through . The death close before [me]_0-i was terrible , but far more terrible than death was the dread of being misremembered after death . And so quick were [my]_0-i thoughts , that [I]_0-i saw [myself]_0-i despised by [unborn generations]_{3957-unborn generations} , - [[Estella]_195-estella 's children]_{3958-estella 's children} , and [[their]_{3958-estella 's children} children]_{3959-their children} , - while [the wretch]_{1783-the wretch} 's words were yet on [his]_{1783-the wretch} lips . " Now , [wolf]_7398-wolf , "_{[1783-the wretch]} said [he]_{1783-the wretch} , " afore [I]_{1783-the wretch} kill [you]_7398-wolf like any other beast , - which is wot [I]_{1783-the wretch} mean to do and wot [I]_{1783-the wretch} have tied [you]_7398-wolf up for , - [I]_{1783-the wretch} 'll have a good look at [you]_7398-wolf and a good goad at [you]_7398-wolf . O [[you]_7398-wolf enemy]_{7387-you enemy} ! "_{[1783-the wretch]} It had passed through [my]_0-i thoughts to cry out for help again ; though [few]_3141-few could know better than [I]_0-i , the solitary nature of the spot , and the hopelessness of aid . But as [he]_{1783-the wretch} sat gloating over [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i was supported by a scornful detestation of [him]_{1783-the wretch} that sealed [my]_0-i lips . Above all things , [I]_0-i resolved that [I]_0-i would not entreat [him]_{1783-the wretch} , and that [I]_0-i would die making some last poor resistance to [him]_{1783-the wretch} . Softened as [my]_0-i thoughts of [all the rest of [men]_4561-men]_{3962-all the rest of men} were in that dire extremity ; humbly beseeching pardon , as [I]_0-i did , of [Heaven]_23-heaven ; melted at heart , as [I]_0-i was , by the thought that [I]_0-i had taken no farewell , and never now could take farewell of those who were dear to [me]_0-i , or could explain [myself]_0-i to [them]_3964-them , or ask for [their]_3964-them compassion on [my]_0-i miserable errors , - still , if [I]_0-i could have killed [him]_{1783-the wretch} , even in dying , [I]_0-i would have done it . [He]_{1783-the wretch} had been drinking , and [his]_{1783-the wretch} eyes were red and bloodshot . Around [his]_{1783-the wretch} neck was slung a tin bottle , as [I]_0-i had often seen [his]_{1783-the wretch} meat and drink slung about [him]_{1783-the wretch} in other days . [He]_{1783-the wretch} brought the bottle to [his]_{1783-the wretch} lips , and took a fiery drink from it ; and [I]_0-i smelt the strong spirits that [I]_0-i saw flash into [his]_{1783-the wretch} face . " [Wolf]_383-wolf ! "_{[1783-the wretch]} said [he]_{1783-the wretch} , folding [his]_{1783-the wretch} arms again , " [Old Orlick]_225-orlick 's a going to tell [you]_383-wolf somethink . It was [you]_383-wolf as did for [[your]_383-wolf shrew sister]_{7400-your shrew sister} . "_{[1783-the wretch]} Again [my]_0-i mind , with its former inconceivable rapidity , had exhausted the whole subject of the attack upon [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} , [her]_{402-my sister} illness , and [her]_{402-my sister} death , before [his]_{1783-the wretch} slow and hesitating speech had formed these words . " It was [you]_{1783-the wretch} , [villain]_7401-villain , "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " [I]_{1783-the wretch} tell [you]_383-wolf it was [your]_383-wolf doing , - [I]_{1783-the wretch} tell [you]_383-wolf it was done through [you]_383-wolf , "_{[1783-the wretch]} [he]_{1783-the wretch} retorted , catching up the gun , and making a blow with the stock at the vacant air between [us]_3966-us . " [I]_3967-he come upon [her]_{402-my sister} from behind , as [I]_3967-he come upon [you]_383-wolf to - night . [I]_3967-he giv ' it [her]_{402-my sister} ! [I]_3967-he left [her]_{402-my sister} for dead , and if there had been a limekiln as nigh [her]_{402-my sister} as there is now nigh [you]_383-wolf , [she]_{402-my sister} should n't have come to life again . But it warn't [Old Orlick]_225-orlick as did it ; it was [you]_383-wolf . [You]_383-wolf was favored , and [he]_225-orlick was bullied and beat . [Old Orlick]_225-orlick bullied and beat , eh ? Now [you]_383-wolf pays for it . [You]_383-wolf done it ; now [you]_383-wolf pays for it . "_[3967-he] [He]_3967-he drank again , and became more ferocious . [I]_0-i saw by [his]_3967-he tilting of the bottle that there was no great quantity left in it . [I]_0-i distinctly understood that [he]_3967-he was working [himself]_3967-he up with its contents to make an end of [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i knew that every drop it held was a drop of [my]_0-i life . [I]_0-i knew that when [I]_0-i was changed into a part of the vapor that had crept towards [me]_0-i but a little while before , like [my]_0-i own warning ghost , [he]_3967-he would do as [he]_3967-he had done in [[my]_0-i sister]_{402-my sister} 's case , - make all haste to [the town]_{5488-the town} , and be seen slouching about there drinking at [the alehouses]_{3970-the alehouses} . [My]_0-i rapid mind pursued [him]_3967-he to [the town]_{5488-the town} , made a picture of [the street]_{4824-the street} with [him]_3967-he in it , and contrasted [its]_{4824-the street} lights and life with [the lonely marsh]_{3973-the lonely marsh} and the white vapor creeping over [it]_{4824-the street} , into which [I]_0-i should have dissolved . It was not only that [I]_0-i could have summed up years and years and years while [he]_3967-he said a dozen words , but that what [he]_3967-he did say presented pictures to [me]_0-i , and not mere words . In the excited and exalted state of [my]_0-i brain , [I]_0-i could not think of a place without seeing [it]_3974-it , or of [persons]_3975-persons without seeing [them]_3974-it . It is impossible to overstate the vividness of these images , and yet [I]_0-i was so intent , all the time , upon [him]_3967-he [himself]_3967-he , - who would not be intent on the tiger crouching to spring ! - that [I]_0-i knew of the slightest action of [his]_3967-he fingers . When [he]_3967-he had drunk this second time , [he]_3967-he rose from the bench on which [he]_3967-he sat , and pushed the table aside . Then , [he]_3967-he took up the candle , and , shading it with [his]_3967-he murderous hand so as to throw its light on [me]_0-i , stood before [me]_0-i , looking at [me]_0-i and enjoying the sight . " [Wolf]_383-wolf , [I]_3967-he 'll tell [you]_383-wolf something more . It was [Old Orlick]_225-orlick as [you]_383-wolf tumbled over on [your]_383-wolf stairs that night . "_[3967-he] [I]_0-i saw the staircase with [its]_3976-its extinguished lamps . [I]_0-i saw the shadows of the heavy stair - rails , thrown by [the watchman]_{6842-the watchman} 's lantern on the wall . [I]_0-i saw [the rooms that [I]_0-i was never to see again]_{3978-the rooms that i was never to see again} ; here , a door half open ; there , a door closed ; all the articles of furniture around . " And why was [Old Orlick]_225-orlick [there]_4505-there ? [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} 'll tell [you]_383-wolf something more , [wolf]_7398-wolf . [You]_383-wolf and [her]_7404-her have pretty well hunted [me]_{3983-the good motherly woman} out of [this country]_{4981-this country} , so far as getting a easy living in it goes , and [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} 've took up with [new companions]_{7406-new companions} , and [new masters]_{7407-new masters} . Some of 'em writes [my]_{3983-the good motherly woman} letters when [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} wants 'em wrote , - do [you]_383-wolf mind ? - writes [my]_{3983-the good motherly woman} letters , [wolf]_7398-wolf ! [They]_7409-they writes fifty hands ; [they]_7409-they 're not like sneaking [you]_383-wolf , as writes but one . [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} 've had a firm mind and a firm will to have [your]_383-wolf life , since [you]_383-wolf was down here at [[your]_383-wolf sister]_{906-your sister} 's burying . [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} han't seen a way to get [you]_383-wolf safe , and [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} 've looked arter [you]_383-wolf to know [your]_383-wolf ins and outs . For , says [Old Orlick]_225-orlick to [himself]_225-orlick , ' Somehow or another [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} 'll have [him]_225-orlick ! ' What ! When [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} looks for [you]_383-wolf , [I]_{3983-the good motherly woman} finds [[your]_383-wolf uncle]_{7374-your uncle} [Provis]_348-provis , eh ? "_{[3983-the good motherly woman]} [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} , and [Chinks 's Basin]_{3535-chinks 's basin} , and [the Old Green Copper Ropewalk]_{3509-the old green copper ropewalk} , all so clear and plain ! [Provis]_348-provis in [[his]_348-provis rooms]_{3981-his rooms} , [the signal whose use was over]_{3982-the signal whose use was over} , [pretty Clara]_311-clara , [the good motherly woman]_{3983-the good motherly woman} , [old Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} on [his]_348-provis back , all drifting by , as on the swift stream of [my]_0-i life fast running out to [sea]_4858-sea ! " [You]_383-wolf with [a uncle]_{7412-a uncle} too ! Why , [I]_3985-i know'd [you]_383-wolf at [Gargery 's]_154-joe when [you]_383-wolf was so small a wolf that [I]_3985-i could have took [your]_383-wolf weazen betwixt this finger and thumb and chucked [you]_383-wolf away dead as [I]_3985-i 'd thoughts o ' doing , odd times , when [I]_3985-i see [you]_383-wolf loitering amongst the pollards on a Sunday , and [you]_383-wolf had n't found [no uncles]_{7413-no uncles} then . No , not [you]_383-wolf ! But when [Old Orlick]_225-orlick come for to hear that [[your]_383-wolf uncle]_{7374-your uncle} [Provis]_348-provis had most like wore the leg - iron wot [Old Orlick]_225-orlick had picked up , filed asunder , on these meshes ever so many year ago , and wot [he]_225-orlick kep by [him]_225-orlick till [he]_225-orlick dropped [[your]_383-wolf sister]_{906-your sister} with it , like a bullock , as [he]_225-orlick means to drop [you]_383-wolf - hey ? - when [he]_225-orlick come for to hear that - hey ? "_[3985-i] In [his]_3985-i savage taunting , [he]_3985-i flared the candle so close at [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i face aside to save it from the flame . " Ah ! "_[3985-i] [he]_3985-i cried , laughing , after doing it again , " [the burnt child]_{7416-the burnt child} dreads the fire ! [Old Orlick]_225-orlick knowed [you]_383-wolf was burnt , [Old Orlick]_225-orlick knowed [you]_383-wolf was smuggling [[your]_383-wolf uncle]_{7374-your uncle} Provis away , [Old Orlick]_225-orlick 's a match for [you]_383-wolf and know'd [you]_383-wolf 'd come to - night ! Now [I]_3985-i 'll tell [you]_383-wolf something more , wolf , and this ends it . There 's [them]_7418-them that 's as good a match for [[your]_383-wolf uncle]_{7374-your uncle} Provis as [Old Orlick]_225-orlick has been for [you]_383-wolf . Let [him]_225-orlick ' ware [them]_7418-them , when [he]_225-orlick 's lost [his]_225-orlick nevvy ! Let [him]_225-orlick ' ware [them]_7418-them , when [no man]_{801-no man} ca n't find a rag of [[his]_225-orlick dear relation]_{7421-his dear relation} 's clothes , nor yet a bone of [his]_225-orlick body . There 's [them]_7418-them that ca n't and that wo n't have [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , - yes , [I]_3985-i know the name ! - alive in [the same land]_{7422-the same land} with [them]_7418-them , and that 's had such sure information of [him]_3986-he when [he]_3986-he was alive in [another land]_{7423-another land} , as that [he]_3986-he could n't and should n't leave it unbeknown and put [them]_7418-them in danger . P'raps it 's [them]_7418-them that writes fifty hands , and that 's not like sneaking [you]_0-i as writes but one . ' Ware Compeyson , [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , and the gallows ! "_[3985-i] [He]_3986-he flared the candle at [me]_0-i again , smoking [my]_0-i face and hair , and for an instant blinding [me]_0-i , and turned [his]_3986-he powerful back as [he]_3986-he replaced the light on the table . [I]_0-i had thought a prayer , and had been with [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy and [Herbert]_265-herbert , before [he]_3986-he turned towards [me]_0-i again . There was a clear space of a few feet between the table and the opposite wall . Within [this space]_{3987-this space} , [he]_3986-he now slouched backwards and forwards . [His]_3986-he great strength seemed to sit stronger upon [him]_3986-he than ever before , as [he]_3986-he did this with [his]_3986-he hands hanging loose and heavy at [his]_3986-he sides , and with [his]_3986-he eyes scowling at [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i had no grain of hope left . Wild as [my]_0-i inward hurry was , and wonderful the force of the pictures that rushed by [me]_0-i instead of thoughts , [I]_0-i could yet clearly understand that , unless [he]_3986-he had resolved that [I]_0-i was within a few moments of surely perishing out of all human knowledge , [he]_3986-he would never have told [me]_0-i what [he]_3986-he had told . Of a sudden , [he]_3986-he stopped , took the cork out of [his]_3986-he bottle , and tossed it away . Light as it was , [I]_0-i heard it fall like a plummet . [He]_3986-he swallowed slowly , tilting up the bottle by little and little , and now [he]_3986-he looked at [me]_0-i no more . The last few drops of liquor [he]_3986-he poured into the palm of [his]_3986-he hand , and licked up . Then , with a sudden hurry of violence and swearing horribly , [he]_3986-he threw the bottle from [him]_3986-he , and stooped ; and [I]_0-i saw in [his]_3986-he hand a stone - hammer with a long heavy handle . The resolution [I]_0-i had made did not desert [me]_0-i , for , without uttering one vain word of appeal to [him]_3986-he , [I]_0-i shouted out with all [my]_0-i might , and struggled with all [my]_0-i might . It was only [my]_0-i head and [my]_0-i legs that [I]_0-i could move , but to that extent [I]_0-i struggled with all the force , until then unknown , that was within [me]_0-i . In the same instant [I]_0-i heard responsive shouts , saw figures and a gleam of light dash in at the door , heard voices and tumult , and saw [Orlick]_225-orlick emerge from a struggle of [men]_4561-men , as if it were tumbling water , clear the table at a leap , and fly out into the night . After a blank , [I]_0-i found that [I]_0-i was lying unbound , on the floor , in the same place , with [my]_0-i head on [some one]_{4842-some one} 's knee . [My]_0-i eyes were fixed on the ladder against the wall , when [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i , - had opened on it before [my]_0-i mind saw it , - and thus as [I]_0-i recovered consciousness , [I]_0-i knew that [I]_0-i was in [the place where [I]_0-i had lost it]_{3990-the place where i had lost it} . Too indifferent at first , even to look round and ascertain who supported [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i was lying looking at the ladder , when there came between [me]_0-i and it a face . The face of [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} ! " [I]_{243-mr. trabb} think [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} 's all right ! "_{[243-mr. trabb]} said [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} , in a sober voice ; " but ai n't [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} just pale though ! "_{[243-mr. trabb]} At these words , the face of [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} who supported [me]_0-i looked over into [mine]_0-i , and [I]_0-i saw [my]_0-i supporter to be - " [Herbert]_265-herbert ! Great Heaven ! "_[0-i] " Softly , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " Gently , [Handel]_266-handel . Do n't be too eager . "_{[265-herbert]} " And [[our]_7424-our old comrade]_{7425-our old comrade} , [Startop]_276-startop ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , as [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} too bent over [me]_0-i . " Remember what [he]_276-startop is going to assist [us]_7424-our in , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , " and be calm . "_{[265-herbert]} The allusion made [me]_0-i spring up ; though [I]_0-i dropped again from the pain in [my]_0-i arm . " The time has not gone by , [Herbert]_265-herbert , has it ? What night is to - night ? How long have [I]_0-i been [here]_693-here ? "_[0-i] For , [I]_0-i had a strange and strong misgiving that [I]_0-i had been lying there a long time - a day and a night , - two days and nights , - more . " The time has not gone by . It is still Monday night . "_[3993-they] " Thank [God]_192-god ! "_{[265-herbert]} " And [you]_0-i have all to - morrow , Tuesday , to rest in , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " But [you]_0-i ca n't help groaning , [[my]_265-herbert dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel . What hurt have [you]_0-i got ? Can [you]_0-i stand ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Yes , yes , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [I]_0-i can walk . [I]_0-i have no hurt but in this throbbing arm . "_[0-i] [They]_3993-they laid it bare , and did what [they]_3993-they could . It was violently swollen and inflamed , and [I]_0-i could scarcely endure to have it touched . But , [they]_3993-they tore up [their]_3993-they handkerchiefs to make fresh bandages , and carefully replaced it in the sling , until [we]_3994-we could get to [the town]_{5488-the town} and obtain some cooling lotion to put upon it . In a little while [we]_3994-we had shut the door of [the dark and empty sluice - house]_{3996-the dark and empty sluice - house} , and were passing through [the quarry]_{3011-the quarry} on [our]_3994-we way back . [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} - [[Trabb]_{243-mr. trabb} 's overgrown young man]_{3999-trabb 's overgrown young man} now - went before [us]_3994-we with a lantern , which was the light [I]_0-i had seen come in at the door . But , the moon was a good two hours higher than when [I]_0-i had last seen the sky , and the night , though rainy , was much lighter . The white vapor of [the kiln]_{3934-the kiln} was passing from [us]_3994-we as [we]_3994-we went by , and as [I]_0-i had thought a prayer before , [I]_0-i thought a thanksgiving now . Entreating [Herbert]_265-herbert to tell [me]_0-i how [he]_265-herbert had come to [my]_0-i rescue , - which at first [he]_265-herbert had flatly refused to do , but had insisted on [my]_0-i remaining quiet , - [I]_0-i learnt that [I]_0-i had in [my]_0-i hurry dropped the letter , open , in [[our]_3994-we chambers]_{3016-our chambers} , where [he]_265-herbert , coming [home]_4495-home to bring with [him]_265-herbert Startop whom [he]_265-herbert had met in [the street]_{4824-the street} on [his]_265-herbert way to [me]_0-i , found it , very soon after [I]_0-i was gone . Its tone made [him]_265-herbert uneasy , and the more so because of the inconsistency between it and the hasty letter [I]_0-i had left for [him]_265-herbert . [His]_265-herbert uneasiness increasing instead of subsiding , after a quarter of an hour 's consideration , [he]_265-herbert set off for [the coach - office]_{5412-the coach - office} with [Startop]_276-startop , who volunteered [[his]_276-startop company]_{2801-his company} , to make inquiry when [the next coach]_{4006-the next coach} went down . Finding that [the afternoon coach]_{3878-the afternoon coach} was gone , and finding that [his]_265-herbert uneasiness grew into positive alarm , as obstacles came in [his]_265-herbert way , [he]_265-herbert resolved to follow in a post - chaise . So [he]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop arrived at [the Blue Boar]_{5142-the blue boar} , fully expecting there to find [me]_0-i , or tidings of [me]_0-i ; but , finding neither , went on to [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's , where [they]_4009-they lost [me]_0-i . Hereupon [they]_4009-they went back to [the hotel]_{6285-the hotel} doubtless at about the time when [I]_0-i was hearing the popular local version of [my]_0-i own story to refresh [themselves]_4009-they and to get some one to guide [them]_4009-they out upon [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . Among the loungers under [the Boar 's archway]_{4012-the boar 's archway} happened to be [Trabb 's Boy]_197-trabb , - true to [his]_265-herbert ancient habit of happening to be everywhere where [he]_265-herbert had no business , - and [[Trabb]_197-trabb 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} had seen [me]_0-i passing from [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} 's in the direction of [[my]_0-i dining - place]_{4014-my dining - place} . Thus [[Trabb]_197-trabb 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} became [[their]_4009-they guide]_{4016-their guide} , and with [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} [they]_4009-they went out to [the sluice - house]_{4017-the sluice - house} , though by the town way to [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} , which [I]_0-i had avoided . Now , as [they]_4009-they went along , [Herbert]_265-herbert reflected , that [I]_0-i might , after all , have been brought [there]_4505-there on some genuine and serviceable errand tending to [Provis]_348-provis 's safety , and , bethinking [himself]_265-herbert that in that case interruption must be mischievous , left [[his]_265-herbert guide]_{4020-his guide} and Startop on the edge of [the quarry]_{3011-the quarry} , and went on by [himself]_265-herbert , and stole round [the house]_{604-the house} two or three times , endeavouring to ascertain whether all was right within . As [he]_265-herbert could hear nothing but indistinct sounds of one deep rough voice this was while [my]_0-i mind was so busy , [he]_265-herbert even at last began to doubt whether [I]_0-i was [there]_4505-there , when suddenly [I]_0-i cried out loudly , and [he]_265-herbert answered the cries , and rushed in , closely followed by [the other two]_{1103-the other two} . When [I]_0-i told [Herbert]_265-herbert what had passed within [the house]_{604-the house} , [he]_265-herbert was for [our]_4026-we immediately going before [a magistrate in [the town]_{5488-the town}]_{4027-a magistrate in the town} , late at night as it was , and getting out a warrant . But , [I]_0-i had already considered that such a course , by detaining [us]_4026-we there , or binding [us]_4026-we to come back , might be fatal to [Provis]_348-provis . There was no gainsaying this difficulty , and [we]_4026-we relinquished all thoughts of pursuing [Orlick]_225-orlick at that time . For the present , under the circumstances , [we]_4026-we deemed it prudent to make rather light of the matter to [[Trabb]_197-trabb 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} ; who , [I]_0-i am convinced , would have been much affected by disappointment , if [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} had known that [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} intervention saved [me]_0-i from [the limekiln]_{3915-the limekiln} . Not that [[Trabb]_197-trabb 's boy]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was of a malignant nature , but that [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} had too much spare vivacity , and that it was in [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} constitution to want variety and excitement at [anybody]_4526-anybody 's expense . When [we]_4026-we parted , [I]_0-i presented [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} with two guineas which seemed to meet [his]_{5407-trabb 's boy} views , and told [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} that [I]_0-i was sorry ever to have had an ill opinion of [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} which made no impression on [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} at all . Wednesday being so close upon [us]_4026-we , [we]_4026-we determined to go back to [London]_8-london that night , three in the post - chaise ; the rather , as [we]_4026-we should then be clear away before the night 's adventure began to be talked of . [Herbert]_4033-herbert got a large bottle of stuff for [my]_0-i arm ; and by dint of having this stuff dropped over it all the night through , [I]_0-i was just able to bear its pain on the journey . It was daylight when [we]_4026-we reached [the Temple]_{3027-the temple} , and [I]_0-i went at once to bed , and lay in bed all day . [My]_0-i terror , as [I]_0-i lay there , of falling ill , and being unfitted for tomorrow , was so besetting , that [I]_0-i wonder it did not disable [me]_0-i of itself . It would have done so , pretty surely , in conjunction with the mental wear and tear [I]_0-i had suffered , but for the unnatural strain upon [me]_0-i that to - morrow was . So anxiously looked forward to , charged with such consequences , its results so impenetrably hidden , though so near . No precaution could have been more obvious than [our]_4026-we refraining from communication with [him]_{5407-trabb 's boy} that day ; yet this again increased [my]_0-i restlessness . [I]_0-i started at every footstep and every sound , believing that [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was discovered and taken , and this was [the messenger]_{5574-the messenger} to tell [me]_0-i so . [I]_0-i persuaded [myself]_0-i that [I]_0-i knew [he]_{5407-trabb 's boy} was taken ; that there was something more upon [my]_0-i mind than a fear or a presentiment ; that the fact had occurred , and [I]_0-i had a mysterious knowledge of it . As the days wore on , and no ill news came , as the day closed in and darkness fell , [my]_0-i overshadowing dread of being disabled by illness before to - morrow morning altogether mastered [me]_0-i . [My]_0-i burning arm throbbed , and [my]_0-i burning head throbbed , and [I]_0-i fancied [I]_0-i was beginning to wander . [I]_0-i counted up to high numbers , to make sure of [myself]_0-i , and repeated passages that [I]_0-i knew in prose and verse . It happened sometimes that in the mere escape of a fatigued mind , [I]_0-i dozed for some moments or forgot ; then [I]_0-i would say to [myself]_0-i with a start , " Now it has come , and [I]_0-i am turning delirious ! "_[0-i] [They]_4036-they kept [me]_0-i very quiet all day , and kept [my]_0-i arm constantly dressed , and gave [me]_0-i cooling drinks . Whenever [I]_0-i fell asleep , [I]_0-i awoke with the notion [I]_0-i had had in [the sluice - house]_{4017-the sluice - house} , that a long time had elapsed and the opportunity to save [him]_4038-him was gone . About midnight [I]_0-i got out of bed and went to [Herbert]_265-herbert , with the conviction that [I]_0-i had been asleep for four - and - twenty hours , and that Wednesday was past . It was the last self - exhausting effort of [my]_0-i fretfulness , for after that [I]_0-i slept soundly . Wednesday morning was dawning when [I]_0-i looked out of window . The winking lights upon [the bridges]_{3036-the bridges} were already pale , the coming sun was like a marsh of fire on the horizon . [The river]_{413-the river} , still dark and mysterious , was spanned by bridges that were turning coldly gray , with here and there at top a warm touch from the burning in the sky . As [I]_0-i looked along [the clustered roofs]_{4041-the clustered roofs} , with [church - towers]_{4042-church - towers} and spires shooting into the unusually clear air , the sun rose up , and a veil seemed to be drawn from [the river]_{413-the river} , and millions of sparkles burst out upon [its]_{413-the river} waters . From [me]_0-i too , a veil seemed to be drawn , and [I]_0-i felt strong and well . [Herbert]_265-herbert lay asleep in [his]_265-herbert bed , and [[our]_4044-we old fellow - student]_{4045-our old fellow - student} lay asleep on the sofa . [I]_0-i could not dress [myself]_0-i without help ; but [I]_0-i made up the fire , which was still burning , and got some coffee ready for [them]_4046-them . In good time they too started up strong and well , and [we]_4044-we admitted the sharp morning air at the windows , and looked at the tide that was still flowing towards [us]_4044-we . " When it turns at nine o'clock , "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert , cheerfully , " look out for [us]_4044-we , and stand ready , [you]_0-i over there at [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} ! "_{[265-herbert]} Chapter LIV It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold : when it is summer in the light , and winter in the shade . [We]_4044-we had out pea - coats with [us]_4044-we , and [I]_0-i took a bag . Of all [my]_0-i worldly possessions [I]_0-i took no more than the few necessaries that filled the bag . Where [I]_0-i might go , what [I]_0-i might do , or when [I]_0-i might return , were questions utterly unknown to [me]_0-i ; nor did [I]_0-i vex [my]_0-i mind with them , for it was wholly set on [Provis]_348-provis 's safety . [I]_0-i only wondered for the passing moment , as [I]_0-i stopped at the door and looked back , under what altered circumstances [I]_0-i should next see [those rooms]_{4047-those rooms} , if ever . [We]_4044-we loitered down to [the Temple stairs]_{3594-the temple stairs} , and stood loitering there , as if [we]_4044-we were not quite decided to go upon [the water]_{5191-the water} at all . Of course , [I]_0-i had taken care that [the boat]_{4680-the boat} should be ready and everything in order . After a little show of indecision , which there were none to see but the two or three amphibious creatures belonging to [[our]_4044-we Temple stairs]_{4051-our temple stairs} , [we]_4044-we went on board and cast off ; [Herbert]_265-herbert in the bow , [I]_0-i steering . It was then about high - water , - half - past eight . [Our]_4044-we plan was this . The tide , beginning to run down at nine , and being with [us]_4044-we until three , [we]_4044-we intended still to creep on after it had turned , and row against it until dark . [We]_4044-we should then be well in [those long reaches below [Gravesend]_{137-gravesend}]_{4052-those long reaches below gravesend} , between [Kent]_138-kent and [Essex]_105-essex , where [the river is broad and solitary]_{4053-the river is broad and solitary} , where [the water - side inhabitants]_{4054-the water - side inhabitants} are very few , and where [lone public - houses]_{4055-lone public - houses} are scattered here and there , of which [we]_4044-we could choose one for a resting - place . There , [we]_4044-we meant to lie by all night . [The steamer]_{4056-the steamer} for [Hamburg]_135-hamburg and [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} for [Rotterdam]_{136-rotterdam} would start from [London]_8-london at about nine on Thursday morning . [We]_4044-we should know at what time to expect [them]_4058-them , according to where [we]_4044-we were , and would hail the first ; so that , if by any accident [we]_4044-we were not taken abroad , [we]_4044-we should have another chance . [We]_4044-we knew the distinguishing marks of [each vessel]_{4059-each vessel} . The relief of being at last engaged in the execution of the purpose was so great to [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i felt it difficult to realize the condition in which [I]_0-i had been a few hours before . The crisp air , the sunlight , the movement on [the river]_{413-the river} , and [the moving river]_{4061-the moving river} itself , - the road that ran with [us]_4044-we , seeming to sympathize with [us]_4044-we , animate [us]_4044-we , and encourage [us]_4044-we on , - freshened [me]_0-i with new hope . [I]_0-i felt mortified to be of so little use in [the boat]_{4680-the boat} ; but , there were [few better oarsmen]_{4063-few better oarsmen} than [[my]_0-i two friends]_{4064-my two friends} , and [they]_{4063-few better oarsmen} rowed with a steady stroke that was to last all day . At that time , the steam - traffic on [the Thames]_{50-the thames} was far below [its]_{50-the thames} present extent , and [[watermen]_{4065-watermen} 's boats]_{4066-watermen 's boats} were far more numerous . Of [barges]_4067-barges , [sailing colliers]_{4068-sailing colliers} , and [coasting - traders]_{4069-coasting - traders} , there were perhaps , as many as now ; but of [steam - ships]_{4070-steam - ships} , great and small , not a tithe or a twentieth part so many . Early as it was , there were plenty of [scullers going here and there that morning]_{4071-scullers going here and there that morning} , and plenty of [barges dropping down with the tide]_{4072-barges dropping down with the tide} ; the navigation of [the river]_{413-the river} between [bridges]_4074-bridges , in [an open boat]_{4075-an open boat} , was a much easier and commoner matter in those days than it is in these ; and [we]_4076-we went ahead among many skiffs and wherries briskly . [Old London Bridge]_{124-london bridge} was soon passed , and [old Billingsgate Market]_{139-old billingsgate market} with [[its]_{139-old billingsgate market} oyster - boats]_{4077-its oyster - boats} and [Dutchmen]_{4078-dutchmen} , and [the White Tower]_{4079-the white tower} and [Traitor 's Gate]_{140-traitor 's gate} , and [we]_4076-we were in among the tiers of shipping . Here were [the Leith]_{4080-the leith} , [Aberdeen]_141-aberdeen , and [[Glasgow]_142-glasgow steamers]_{4081-glasgow steamers} , loading and unloading goods , and looking immensely high out of the water as [we]_4076-we passed alongside ; here , were [colliers by the score and score]_{4082-colliers by the score and score} , with the coal - whippers plunging off stages on deck , as counterweights to measures of coal swinging up , which were then rattled over the side into [barges]_4067-barges ; here , at [her]_4084-her moorings was to - [morrow 's steamer for [Rotterdam]_{136-rotterdam} , of which [we]_4076-we took good notice]_{4085-morrow 's steamer for rotterdam , of which we took good notice} ; and here to - morrow 's for [Hamburg]_135-hamburg , under whose bowsprit [we]_4076-we crossed . And now [I]_0-i , sitting in the stern , could see , with a faster beating heart , [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} and [Mill Pond stairs]_{4086-mill pond stairs} . " Is [he]_265-herbert there ? "_{[265-herbert]} said [Herbert]_265-herbert . " Not yet . "_{[265-herbert]} " Right ! [He]_265-herbert was not to come down till [he]_265-herbert saw [us]_4076-we . Can [you]_265-herbert see [his]_265-herbert signal ? "_{[265-herbert]} " Not well from here ; but [I]_4076-we think [I]_4076-we see it . - Now [I]_4076-we see [him]_265-herbert ! Pull both . Easy , [Herbert]_265-herbert . Oars ! "_[4076-we] [We]_4076-we touched the stairs lightly for a single moment , and [he]_265-herbert was on board , and [we]_4076-we were off again . [He]_265-herbert had a boat - cloak with [him]_265-herbert , and a black canvas bag ; and [he]_265-herbert looked as like [a river - pilot]_{4087-a river - pilot} as [my]_0-i heart could have wished . " [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! "_{[265-herbert]} [he]_265-herbert said , putting [his]_265-herbert arm on [my]_0-i shoulder , as [he]_265-herbert took [his]_265-herbert seat . " [Faithful dear boy]_{7429-faithful dear boy} , well done . [Thankye]_321-thankye , thankye ! "_{[265-herbert]} Again among the tiers of shipping , in and out , avoiding rusty chain - cables frayed hempen hawsers and bobbing buoys , sinking for the moment floating broken baskets , scattering floating chips of wood and shaving , cleaving floating scum of coal , in and out , under the figure - head of [the John of [Sunderland]_{143-sunderland}]_{4088-the john of sunderland} making a speech to the winds as is done by many [Johns]_384-johns , and [the Betsy of [Yarmouth]_144-yarmouth]_{4089-the betsy of yarmouth} with a firm formality of bosom and [her]_{4089-the betsy of yarmouth} knobby eyes starting two inches out of [her]_{4089-the betsy of yarmouth} head ; in and out , hammers going in [[ship - builders]_{3503-ship - builders} ' yards]_{4091-ship - builders ' yards} , saws going at timber , clashing engines going at things unknown , [pumps]_4092-pumps going in [leaky ships]_{4093-leaky ships} , [capstans]_{4094-capstans} going , ships going out to [sea]_4858-sea , and unintelligible sea - creatures roaring curses over [the bulwarks]_{4096-the bulwarks} at [respondent lightermen]_{4097-respondent lightermen} , in and out , - out at last upon [the clearer river]_{4098-the clearer river} , where [[the ships]_{1627-the ships} ' boys]_{4100-the ships ' boys} might take [their]_{4100-the ships ' boys} fenders in , no longer fishing in troubled waters with [them]_{4100-the ships ' boys} over the side , and where the festooned sails might fly out to the wind . At [the Stairs where [we]_4102-we had taken [him]_4103-he abroad]_{4101-the stairs where we had taken him abroad} , and ever since , [I]_0-i had looked warily for any token of [our]_4102-we being suspected . [I]_0-i had seen none . [We]_4102-we certainly had not been , and at that time as certainly [we]_4102-we were not either attended or followed by [any boat]_{4104-any boat} . If [we]_4102-we had been waited on by [any boat]_{4104-any boat} , [I]_0-i should have run in to [shore]_5968-shore , and have obliged [her]_{4104-any boat} to go on , or to make [her]_{4104-any boat} purpose evident . But [we]_4102-we held [our]_4102-we own without any appearance of molestation . [He]_4103-he had [his]_4103-he boat - cloak on [him]_4103-he , and looked , as [I]_0-i have said , a natural part of the scene . It was remarkable but perhaps the wretched life [he]_4103-he had led accounted for it that [he]_4103-he was the least anxious of any of [us]_4102-we . [He]_4103-he was not indifferent , for [he]_4103-he told [me]_0-i that [he]_4103-he hoped to live to see [[his]_4103-he gentleman one of [the best of gentlemen in [a foreign country]_{4109-a foreign country}]_{4108-the best of gentlemen in a foreign country}]_{4107-his gentleman one of the best of gentlemen in a foreign country} ; [he]_4103-he was not disposed to be passive or resigned , as [I]_0-i understood it ; but [he]_4103-he had no notion of meeting danger half way . When it came upon [him]_4103-he , [he]_4103-he confronted it , but it must come before [he]_4103-he troubled [himself]_4103-he . " If [you]_0-i knowed , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , "_[4103-he] [he]_4103-he said to [me]_0-i , " what it is to sit here alonger [[my]_4103-he dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} and have [my]_4103-he smoke , arter having been day by day betwixt four walls , [you]_0-i 'd envy [me]_4103-he . But [you]_0-i do n't know what it is . "_[4103-he] " [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i know the delights of freedom , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered . " Ah , "_[4103-he] said [he]_4103-he , shaking [his]_4103-he head gravely . " But [you]_0-i do n't know it equal to [me]_4103-he . [You]_0-i must have been under lock and key , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , to know it equal to [me]_4103-he , - but [I]_4103-he ai n't a going to be low . "_[4103-he] It occurred to [me]_0-i as inconsistent , that , for any mastering idea , [he]_4103-he should have endangered [his]_4103-he freedom , and even [his]_4103-he life . But [I]_0-i reflected that perhaps freedom without danger was too much apart from all the habit of [his]_4103-he existence to be to [him]_4103-he what it would be to [another man]_{580-another man} . [I]_0-i was not far out , since [he]_4103-he said , after smoking a little : - " [You]_0-i see , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , when [I]_4103-he was over yonder , t'other side [the world]_{4698-the world} , [I]_4103-he was always a looking to this side ; and it come flat to be there , for all [I]_4103-he was [a growing rich]_{7435-a growing rich} . [Everybody]_{678-everybody} knowed [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , and [Magwitch]_349-magwitch could come , and [Magwitch]_349-magwitch could go , and [nobody]_4527-nobody 's head would be troubled about [him]_349-magwitch . [They]_7438-they ai n't so easy concerning [me]_4103-he here , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , - would n't be , leastwise , if [they]_7438-they knowed where [I]_4103-he was . "_[4103-he] " If all goes well , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , " [you]_{3079-dear boy} will be perfectly free and safe again within a few hours . "_[4103-he] " Well , "_[4111-he] [he]_4111-he returned , drawing a long breath , " [I]_4111-he hope so . "_[4111-he] " And think so ? "_[4111-he] [He]_4111-he dipped [his]_4111-he hand in the water over [the boat]_{4680-the boat} 's gunwale , and said , smiling with that softened air upon [him]_4111-he which was not new to [me]_0-i : - " Ay , [I]_4111-he s'pose [I]_4111-he think so , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . [We]_7441-we 'd be puzzled to be more quiet and easy - going than [we]_7441-we are at present . But - it 's a flowing so soft and pleasant through the water , p'raps , as makes [me]_4111-he think it - [I]_4111-he was a thinking through [my]_4111-he smoke just then , that [we]_7441-we can no more see to the bottom of the next few hours than [we]_7441-we can see to [the bottom of [this river]_{7443-this river}]_{7442-the bottom of this river} what [I]_4111-he catches hold of . Nor yet [we]_7441-we ca n't no more hold [their]_7444-their tide than [I]_4111-he can hold this . And it 's run through [my]_4111-he fingers and gone , [you]_{3079-dear boy} see ! "_[4111-he] holding up [his]_4111-he dripping hand . " But for [your]_4111-he face [I]_4113-i should think [you]_4111-he were a little despondent , "_[4113-i] said [I.]_4113-i " Not a bit on it , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ! It comes of flowing on so quiet , and of that there rippling at [the boat]_{4680-the boat} 's head making a sort of a Sunday tune . Maybe [I]_4111-he 'm a growing a trifle old besides . "_[4111-he] [He]_4111-he put [his]_4111-he pipe back in [his]_4111-he mouth with an undisturbed expression of face , and sat as composed and contented as if [we]_4114-we were already out of [England]_7-england . Yet [he]_4111-he was as submissive to a word of advice as if [he]_4111-he had been in constant terror ; for , when [we]_4114-we ran [ashore]_549-ashore to get some bottles of beer into [the boat]_{4680-the boat} , and [he]_4111-he was stepping out , [I]_0-i hinted that [I]_0-i thought [he]_4111-he would be safest where [he]_4111-he was , and [he]_4111-he said . " Do [you]_0-i , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ? "_[4111-he] and quietly sat down again . The air felt cold upon [the river]_{413-the river} , but it was a bright day , and the sunshine was very cheering . The tide ran strong , [I]_0-i took care to lose none of it , and [our]_4114-we steady stroke carried [us]_4114-we on thoroughly well . By imperceptible degrees , as the tide ran out , [we]_4114-we lost more and more of [the nearer woods]_{4118-the nearer woods} and [hills]_4119-hills , and dropped lower and lower between [the muddy banks]_{4120-the muddy banks} , but the tide was yet with [us]_4114-we when [we]_4114-we were off [Gravesend]_{137-gravesend} . As [our]_4114-we charge was wrapped in [his]_4111-he cloak , [I]_0-i purposely passed within [a boat]_{5880-a boat} or two 's length of [the floating Custom House]_{4122-the floating custom house} , and so out to catch [the stream]_{4123-the stream} , alongside of [two emigrant ships]_{4124-two emigrant ships} , and under the bows of [a large transport]_{4125-a large transport} with [troops on the forecastle]_{4126-troops on the forecastle} looking down at [us]_4114-we . And soon the tide began to slacken , and [the craft lying at anchor]_{4127-the craft lying at anchor} to swing , and presently [they]_{4127-the craft lying at anchor} had all swung round , and [the ships that were taking advantage of the new tide to get up to [the Pool]_{145-the pool}]_{4128-the ships that were taking advantage of the new tide to get up to the pool} began to crowd upon [us]_4114-we in [a fleet]_{4129-a fleet} , and [we]_4114-we kept under [the shore]_{4688-the shore} , as much out of the strength of the tide now as [we]_4114-we could , standing carefully off from low shallows and mudbanks . [[Our]_4114-we oarsmen]_{4131-our oarsmen} were so fresh , by dint of having occasionally let [her]_{4131-our oarsmen} drive with the tide for a minute or two , that a quarter of an hour 's rest proved full as much as [they]_{4131-our oarsmen} wanted . [We]_4114-we got ashore among some slippery stones while [we]_4114-we ate and drank what [we]_4114-we had with [us]_4114-we , and looked about . [It]_4132-it was like [[my]_0-i own marsh country]_{4133-my own marsh country} , flat and monotonous , and with a dim horizon ; while [the winding river]_{4134-the winding river} turned and turned , and the great floating buoys upon [it]_{4134-the winding river} turned and turned , and everything else seemed stranded and still . For now the last of [the fleet of ships]_{4135-the fleet of ships} was round [the last low point [we]_4114-we had headed]_{4136-the last low point we had headed} ; and the last green barge , straw - laden , with a brown sail , had followed ; and some ballast - lighters , shaped like [[a child]_{691-a child} 's first rude imitation of [a boat]_{5880-a boat}]_{4138-a child 's first rude imitation of a boat} , lay low in the mud ; and a little squat shoal - lighthouse on open piles stood crippled in the mud on stilts and crutches ; and slimy stakes stuck out of the mud , and slimy stones stuck out of the mud , and red landmarks and tidemarks stuck out of the mud , and an old landing - stage and [an old roofless building]_{4140-an old roofless building} slipped into the mud , and all about [us]_4114-we was stagnation and mud . [We]_4114-we pushed off again , and made what way [we]_4114-we could . It was much harder work now , but [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop persevered , and rowed and rowed and rowed until the sun went down . By that time [the river]_{413-the river} had lifted [us]_4114-we a little , so that [we]_4114-we could see above [the bank]_{1629-the bank} . There was the red sun , on the low level of [the shore]_{4688-the shore} , in a purple haze , fast deepening into black ; and there was [the solitary flat marsh]_{4144-the solitary flat marsh} ; and far away there were the rising grounds , between which and [us]_4114-we there seemed to be no life , save here and there in the foreground a melancholy gull . As the night was fast falling , and as the moon , being past the full , would not rise early , [we]_4114-we held a little council ; a short one , for clearly [our]_4114-we course was to lie by at [the first lonely tavern]_{4145-the first lonely tavern} [we]_4114-we could find . So , [they]_4146-their plied [their]_4146-their oars once more , and [I]_0-i looked out for anything like [a house]_{4147-a house} . Thus [we]_4114-we held on , speaking little , for four or five dull miles . It was very cold , and , a collier coming by [us]_4114-we , with [her]_4148-her galley - fire smoking and flaring , looked like [a comfortable home]_{4149-a comfortable home} . The night was as dark by this time as it would be until morning ; and what light [we]_4114-we had , seemed to come more from [the river]_{413-the river} than the sky , as the oars in [their]_4146-their dipping struck at a few reflected stars . At this dismal time [we]_4114-we were evidently all possessed by the idea that [we]_4114-we were followed . As the tide made , it flapped heavily at irregular intervals against [the shore]_{4688-the shore} ; and whenever such a sound came , [one or other of [us]_4114-we]_{4152-one or other of us} was sure to start , and look in that direction . Here and there , the set of the current had worn down [the bank]_{1629-the bank} into [a little creek]_{4154-a little creek} , and [we]_4114-we were all suspicious of such places , and eyed [them]_4155-them nervously . Sometimes , " What was that ripple ? "_{[504-one of us]} [one of [us]_4114-we]_{504-one of us} would say in a low voice . Or another , " Is that [a boat yonder]_{7448-a boat yonder} ? "_{[504-one of us]} And afterwards [we]_4114-we would fall into a dead silence , and [I]_0-i would sit impatiently thinking with what an unusual amount of noise the oars worked in the thowels . At length [we]_4114-we descried a light and a roof , and presently afterwards ran alongside a little causeway made of stones that had been picked up hard by . Leaving the rest in [the boat]_{4680-the boat} , [I]_0-i stepped [ashore]_549-ashore , and found the light to be in a window of [a public - house]_{1962-a public - house} . [It]_{1962-a public - house} was a dirty place enough , and [I]_0-i dare say not unknown to [smuggling adventurers]_{4160-smuggling adventurers} ; but there was a good fire in [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and there were eggs and bacon to eat , and various liquors to drink . Also , there were [two double - bedded rooms]_{4162-two double - bedded rooms} , - ' such as [they]_{4162-two double - bedded rooms} were , " [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} said . No other company was in [the house]_{604-the house} than [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , [[his]_{1154-the landlord} wife]_{1585-his wife} , and a grizzled male creature , [the "_[4165-i] Jack " of [the little causeway]_{7454-the little causeway} , who was as slimy and smeary as if [he]_{7453-the " jack " of the little causeway , who was as slimy and smeary as if he had been low - water mark too} had been low - water mark too]_{7453-the " jack " of the little causeway , who was as slimy and smeary as if he had been low - water mark too} . With [this assistant]_{7455-this assistant} , [I]_4165-i went down to [the boat]_{4680-the boat} again , and [we]_7457-we all came ashore , and brought out the oars , and rudder and boat - hook , and all else , and hauled [her]_{7455-this assistant} up for the night . [We]_7457-we made a very good meal by the kitchen fire , and then apportioned [the bedrooms]_{7458-the bedrooms} : [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop were to occupy one ; [I]_4165-i and [[our]_7457-we charge]_{7459-our charge} the other . [We]_7457-we found the air as carefully excluded from both , as if air were fatal to life ; and there were more dirty clothes and bandboxes under the beds than [I]_4165-i should have thought [the family]_{4724-the family} possessed . But [we]_7457-we considered [ourselves]_7457-we well off , notwithstanding , for [a more solitary place [we]_7457-we could not have found]_{7461-a more solitary place we could not have found} . While [we]_7457-we were comforting [ourselves]_7457-we by the fire after [our]_7457-we meal , [the Jack]_{7462-the jack} - who was sitting in a corner , and who had a bloated pair of shoes on , which [he]_{7462-the jack} had exhibited while [we]_7457-we were eating [our]_7457-we eggs and bacon , as interesting relics that [he]_{7462-the jack} had taken a few days ago from the feet of [a drowned seaman washed ashore]_{7463-a drowned seaman washed ashore} - asked [me]_4165-i if [we]_7457-we had seen [a four - oared galley]_{7464-a four - oared galley} going up with the tide ? When [I]_4165-i told [him]_{7462-the jack} No , [he]_{7462-the jack} said [she]_{7462-the jack} must have gone down then , and yet [she]_{7462-the jack} "_[4165-i] took up too , " when [she]_{7462-the jack} left [there]_4505-there . "_[4165-i] [They]_4163-they must ha ' thought better on't for some reason or another , " said [the Jack]_369-jack , "_[4163-they] and gone down . " "_[4165-i] [A four - oared galley]_{7464-a four - oared galley} , did [you]_4165-i say ? " said [I.]_4165-i "_[4165-i] A four , " said [the Jack]_369-jack , "_{[4166-two sitters]} and [two sitters]_{4166-two sitters} . " "_{[4166-two sitters]} Did [they]_4163-they come [ashore]_549-ashore [here]_693-here ? " "_[4163-they] [They]_4163-they put in with a stone two - gallon jar for some beer . [I]_0-i 'd ha ' been glad to pison the beer [myself]_0-i , " said [the Jack]_{7462-the jack} , "_[0-i] or put some rattling physic in it . " "_[0-i] Why ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know why , " said [the Jack]_369-jack . [He]_369-jack spoke in a slushy voice , as if much mud had washed into [his]_369-jack throat . "_[4169-he] [He]_4169-he thinks , " said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , [a weakly meditative man with a pale eye , who seemed to rely greatly on [his]_{1154-the landlord} Jack]_{7468-a weakly meditative man with a pale eye , who seemed to rely greatly on his jack} , - "_[4169-he] [he]_4169-he thinks [they]_4163-they was , what [they]_4163-they was n't . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i knows what [I]_0-i thinks , " observed [the Jack]_369-jack . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i thinks [Custum]_385-custum ' [Us]_4170-us , [Jack]_369-jack ? " said [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do , " said [the Jack]_{7462-the jack} . "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i 're wrong , [Jack]_369-jack . " "_[0-i] AM [I]_0-i ! " In the infinite meaning of [his]_{7462-the jack} reply and [his]_{7462-the jack} boundless confidence in [his]_{7462-the jack} views , [the Jack]_{7462-the jack} took one of [his]_{7462-the jack} bloated shoes off , looked into it , knocked a few stones out of it on the kitchen floor , and put it on again . [He]_{7462-the jack} did this with the air of a Jack who was so right that [he]_{7462-the jack} could afford to do anything . "_[0-i] Why , what do [you]_369-jack make out that [they]_4171-their done with [their]_4171-their buttons then , [Jack]_369-jack ? " asked [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , vacillating weakly . "_[4171-their] Done with [their]_4171-their buttons ? " returned [the Jack]_{7462-the jack} . "_[4173-'em] Chucked 'em overboard . Swallered 'em . [Sowed]_4172-sowed ['em]_4173-'em , to come up small salad . Done with [their]_4171-their buttons ! " "_[4173-'em] Do n't be cheeky , [Jack]_369-jack , " remonstrated [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , in a melancholy and pathetic way . "_[369-jack] [[A Custum]_{4174-a custum} ' [Us]_4176-we officer]_{4175-a custum ' us officer} knows what to do with [his]_{4175-a custum ' us officer} Buttons , " said [the Jack]_369-jack , repeating the obnoxious word with the greatest contempt , "_{[4174-a custum]} when [they]_4177-they comes betwixt [him]_{4175-a custum ' us officer} and [his]_{4175-a custum ' us officer} own light . [A four and two sitters]_{4178-a four and two sitters} do n't go hanging and hovering , up with one tide and down with another , and both with and against another , without there being [Custum]_385-custum ' [Us]_4176-we at the bottom of it . " Saying which [he]_{4175-a custum ' us officer} went out in disdain ; and [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , having [no one to reply upon]_{7476-no one to reply upon} , found it impracticable to pursue the subject . This dialogue made [us]_4176-we all uneasy , and [me]_385-custum very uneasy . The dismal wind was muttering round [the house]_{604-the house} , the tide was flapping at [the shore]_{4688-the shore} , and [I]_385-custum had a feeling that [we]_4176-we were caged and threatened . [A four - oared galley]_{7464-a four - oared galley} hovering about in so unusual a way as to attract this notice was an ugly circumstance that [I]_385-custum could not get rid of . When [I]_385-custum had induced Provis to go up to bed , [I]_385-custum went outside with [[my]_385-custum two companions]_{7480-my two companions} [Startop]_276-startop by this time knew the state of the case , and held another council . Whether [we]_4176-we should remain at [the house]_{604-the house} until near [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} 's time , which would be about one in the afternoon , or whether [we]_4176-we should put off early in the morning , was the question [we]_4176-we discussed . On the whole [we]_4176-we deemed it the better course to lie where [we]_4176-we were , until within an hour or so of [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} 's time , and then to get out in [her]_{4056-the steamer} track , and drift easily with the tide . Having settled to do this , [we]_4176-we returned into [the house]_{604-the house} and went to bed . [I]_385-custum lay down with the greater part of [my]_385-custum clothes on , and slept well for a few hours . When [I]_385-custum awoke , the wind had risen , and the sign of [the house]_{604-the house} [the Ship]_{7486-the ship} was creaking and banging about , with noises that startled [me]_385-custum . Rising softly , for [my]_385-custum charge lay fast asleep , [I]_385-custum looked out of the window . It commanded the causeway where [we]_4176-we had hauled up [[our]_4176-we boat]_{7487-our boat} , and , as [my]_385-custum eyes adapted themselves to the light of the clouded moon , [I]_385-custum saw [two men]_{3822-two men} looking into [her]_{4056-the steamer} . [They]_{3822-two men} passed by under the window , looking at nothing else , and [they]_{3822-two men} did not go down to the landing - place which [I]_385-custum could discern to be empty , but struck across [the marsh]_{587-the marsh} in [the direction of [the Nore]_{146-the nore}]_{7490-the direction of the nore} . [My]_385-custum first impulse was to call up [Herbert]_265-herbert , and show [him]_265-herbert [the two men]_{5588-the two men} going away . But reflecting , before [I]_385-custum got into [[his]_265-herbert room]_{625-his room} , which was at the back of [the house]_{604-the house} and adjoined [mine]_385-custum , that [he]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop had had a harder day than [I]_385-custum , and were fatigued , [I]_385-custum forbore . Going back to [my]_385-custum window , [I]_385-custum could see [the two men]_{5588-the two men} moving over [the marsh]_{587-the marsh} . In that light , however , [I]_385-custum soon lost [them]_{5588-the two men} , and , feeling very cold , lay down to think of the matter , and fell asleep again . [We]_7496-we were up early . As [we]_7496-we walked to and fro , [all four together]_{7497-all four together} , before breakfast , [I]_385-custum deemed it right to recount what [I]_385-custum had seen . Again [our]_7496-we charge was the least anxious of [the party]_{7498-the party} . It was very likely that [the men]_{5583-the men} belonged to [the Custom House]_{3593-the custom house} , [he]_265-herbert said quietly , and that [they]_{5583-the men} had no thought of [us]_7496-we . [I]_385-custum tried to persuade [myself]_385-custum that it was so , - as , indeed , it might easily be . However , [I]_385-custum proposed that [he]_265-herbert and [I]_385-custum should walk away together to [a distant point [we]_7496-we could see]_{7501-a distant point we could see} , and that [the boat]_{4680-the boat} should take [us]_7496-we aboard there , or as near there as might prove feasible , at about noon . This being considered a good precaution , soon after breakfast [he]_265-herbert and [I]_385-custum set forth , without saying anything at [the tavern]_{7503-the tavern} . [He]_265-herbert smoked [his]_265-herbert pipe as [we]_7496-we went along , and sometimes stopped to clap [me]_385-custum on the shoulder . [One]_5055-one would have supposed that it was [I]_385-custum who was in danger , not [he]_265-herbert , and that [he]_265-herbert was reassuring [me]_385-custum . [We]_7496-we spoke very little . As [we]_7496-we approached [the point]_{7505-the point} , [I]_385-custum begged [him]_265-herbert to remain in [a sheltered place]_{7506-a sheltered place} , while [I]_385-custum went on to reconnoitre ; for it was towards it that [the men]_{5583-the men} had passed in the night . [He]_265-herbert complied , and [I]_385-custum went on alone . There was [no boat]_{7178-no boat} off [the point]_{7505-the point} , nor [any boat]_{4104-any boat} drawn up anywhere near [it]_{7505-the point} , nor were there any signs of [the men]_{5583-the men} having embarked [there]_4505-there . But , to be sure , the tide was high , and there might have been some footpints under water . When [he]_265-herbert looked out from [his]_265-herbert shelter in the distance , and saw that [I]_385-custum waved [my]_385-custum hat to [him]_265-herbert to come up , [he]_265-herbert rejoined [me]_385-custum , and there [we]_7513-us waited ; sometimes lying on [the bank]_{1629-the bank} , wrapped in [our]_7513-us coats , and sometimes moving about to warm [ourselves]_7513-us , until [we]_7513-us saw [[our]_7513-us boat]_{7487-our boat} coming round . [We]_7513-us got aboard easily , and rowed out into the track of [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} . By that time [it]_{4056-the steamer} wanted but ten minutes of one o'clock , and [we]_7513-us began to look out for [her]_{4056-the steamer} smoke . But , it was half - past one before [we]_7513-us saw [her]_{4056-the steamer} smoke , and soon afterwards [we]_7513-us saw behind it the smoke of [another steamer]_{7517-another steamer} . As [they]_7518-they were coming on at full speed , [we]_7513-us got the two bags ready , and took that opportunity of saying good by to [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop . [We]_7513-us had all shaken hands cordially , and neither [Herbert]_265-herbert 's eyes nor [mine]_7519-mine were quite dry , when [I]_385-custum saw [a four - oared galley]_{7464-a four - oared galley} shoot out from under the bank but a little way ahead of [us]_7513-us , and row out into [the same track]_{7521-the same track} . [A stretch of shore]_{7522-a stretch of shore} had been as yet between [us]_7513-us and [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} 's smoke , by reason of the bend and wind of [the river]_{413-the river} ; but now [she]_{4056-the steamer} was visible , coming head on . [I]_385-custum called to [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop to keep before the tide , that [she]_{4056-the steamer} might see [us]_7513-us lying by for [her]_{4056-the steamer} , and [I]_385-custum adjured [Provis]_348-provis to sit quite still , wrapped in [his]_348-provis cloak . [He]_348-provis answered cheerily , "_[385-custum] Trust to [me]_0-i , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " and sat like a statue . [Meantime]_386-meantime [the galley , which was very skilfully handled]_{7525-the galley , which was very skilfully handled} , had crossed [us]_7513-us , let [us]_7513-us come up with [her]_{4056-the steamer} , and fallen alongside . Leaving just room enough for the play of the oars , [she]_{4056-the steamer} kept alongside , drifting when [we]_7513-us drifted , and pulling a stroke or two when [we]_7513-us pulled . Of [the two sitters]_{7526-the two sitters} [one]_5055-one held the rudder - lines , and looked at [us]_7513-us attentively , - as did [all the rowers]_{7528-all the rowers} ; [the other sitter]_{7529-the other sitter} was wrapped up , much as [Provis]_348-provis was , and seemed to shrink , and whisper some instruction to [the steerer]_{7530-the steerer} as [he]_{7530-the steerer} looked at [us]_7513-us . Not a word was spoken in [either boat]_{7531-either boat} . [Startop]_276-startop could make out , after a few minutes , which [steamer]_7532-steamer was first , and gave [me]_135-hamburg the word "_{[135-hamburg]} [Hamburg]_135-hamburg , " in a low voice , as [we]_7513-us sat face to face . [She]_{4056-the steamer} was nearing [us]_7513-us very fast , and the beating of [her]_{4056-the steamer} peddles grew louder and louder . [I]_135-hamburg felt as if [her]_{4056-the steamer} shadow were absolutely upon [us]_7513-us , when [the galley]_{7533-the galley} hailed [us]_7513-us . [I]_135-hamburg answered . "_{[135-hamburg]} [You]_4180-you have [a returned Transport]_{6922-a returned transport} [there]_4505-there , " said [the man who held the lines]_{7534-the man who held the lines} . "_[4180-you] That 's [the man , wrapped in the cloak]_{4183-the man , wrapped in the cloak} . [His]_{4183-the man , wrapped in the cloak} name is [Abel Magwitch]_349-magwitch , otherwise [Provis]_348-provis . [I]_0-i apprehend [that man]_{6907-that man} , and call upon [him]_{6907-that man} to surrender , and [you]_4180-you to assist . " At the same moment , without giving any audible direction to [[his]_{4183-the man , wrapped in the cloak} crew]_{7535-his crew} , [he]_{4183-the man , wrapped in the cloak} ran [the galley]_{7533-the galley} abroad of [us]_7513-us . [They]_{7535-his crew} had pulled one sudden stroke ahead , had got [their]_{7535-his crew} oars in , had run athwart [us]_7513-us , and were holding on to [our]_7513-us gunwale , before [we]_7513-us knew what [they]_{7535-his crew} were doing . This caused great confusion on board [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} , and [I]_{3079-dear boy} heard [them]_{7535-his crew} calling to [us]_7513-us , and heard the order given to stop the paddles , and heard [them]_{7535-his crew} stop , but felt [her]_{4056-the steamer} driving down upon [us]_7513-us irresistibly . In the same moment , [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw [the steersman of the galley]_{7538-the steersman of the galley} lay [his]_{7538-the steersman of the galley} hand on [[his]_{7538-the steersman of the galley} prisoner]_{7539-his prisoner} 's shoulder , and saw that [both boats]_{7540-both boats} were swinging round with the force of the tide , and saw that [all hands on board]_{7541-all hands on board} [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} were running forward quite frantically . Still , in the same moment , [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} start up , lean across [[his]_{5289-the prisoner} captor]_{2472-his captor} , and pull the cloak from the neck of [the shrinking sitter in the galley]_{7545-the shrinking sitter in the galley} . Still in the same moment , [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw that the face disclosed , was the face of [the other convict of long ago]_{7546-the other convict of long ago} . Still , in the same moment , [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw the face tilt backward with a white terror on it that [I]_{3079-dear boy} shall never forget , and heard a great cry on board [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} , and a loud splash in the water , and felt [the boat]_{4680-the boat} sink from under [me]_{3079-dear boy} . It was but for an instant that [I]_{3079-dear boy} seemed to struggle with a thousand mill - weirs and a thousand flashes of light ; that instant past , [I]_{3079-dear boy} was taken on board [the galley]_{7533-the galley} . [Herbert]_265-herbert was there , and [Startop]_276-startop was there ; but [[our]_7550-we boat]_{7487-our boat} was gone , and [the two convicts]_{6227-the two convicts} were gone . What with the cries aboard [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} , and the furious blowing off of [her]_{4056-the steamer} steam , and [her]_{4056-the steamer} driving on , and [our]_7550-we driving on , [I]_{3079-dear boy} could not at first distinguish sky from water or [shore]_5968-shore from [shore]_5968-shore ; but [the crew of the galley]_{7556-the crew of the galley} righted [her]_{4056-the steamer} with great speed , and , pulling certain swift strong strokes ahead , lay upon [their]_{7556-the crew of the galley} oars , [every man]_{5284-every man} looking silently and eagerly at the water astern . Presently a dark object was seen in it , bearing towards [us]_7550-we on the tide . [No man]_{801-no man} spoke , but [the steersman]_{7559-the steersman} held up [his]_{7559-the steersman} hand , and all softly backed water , and kept [the boat]_{4680-the boat} straight and true before it . As it came nearer , [I]_{3079-dear boy} saw it to be [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , swimming , but not swimming freely . [He]_349-magwitch was taken on board , and instantly manacled at the wrists and ankles . [The galley]_{7533-the galley} was kept steady , and the silent , eager look - out at the water was resumed . But , [the Rotterdam steamer]_{7562-the rotterdam steamer} now came up , and apparently not understanding what had happened , came on at speed . By the time [she]_{7562-the rotterdam steamer} had been hailed and stopped , [both steamers]_{7563-both steamers} were drifting away from [us]_7550-we , and [we]_7550-we were rising and falling in a troubled wake of water . The look - out was kept , long after all was still again and the two steamers were gone ; but [everybody]_{678-everybody} knew that it was hopeless now . At length [we]_7550-we gave [it]_7565-it up , and pulled under the shore towards [the tavern [we]_7550-we had lately left , where [we]_7550-we were received with no little surprise]_{7566-the tavern we had lately left , where we were received with no little surprise} . Here [I]_{3079-dear boy} was able to get some comforts for [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , - [Provis]_348-provis no longer , - who had received some very [severe injury in the Chest , and a deep cut in the head]_{7567-severe injury in the chest , and a deep cut in the head} . [He]_349-magwitch told [me]_{3079-dear boy} that [he]_349-magwitch believed [himself]_349-magwitch to have gone under the keel of [the steamer]_{4056-the steamer} , and to have been struck on the head in rising . The injury to [his]_349-magwitch chest which rendered [his]_349-magwitch breathing extremely painful [he]_349-magwitch thought [he]_349-magwitch had received against the side of [the galley]_{7533-the galley} . [He]_349-magwitch added that [he]_349-magwitch did not pretend to say what [he]_349-magwitch might or might not have done to [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , but that , in the moment of [his]_349-magwitch laying [his]_349-magwitch hand on [his]_349-magwitch cloak to identify [him]_349-magwitch , that [villain]_7401-villain had staggered up and staggered back , and [they]_7571-they had both gone overboard together , when the sudden wrenching of [him]_349-magwitch [Magwitch]_349-magwitch out of [[our]_7572-our boat]_{7487-our boat} , and the endeavor of [[his]_349-magwitch captor]_{2472-his captor} to keep [him]_349-magwitch in it , had capsized [us]_7572-our . [He]_349-magwitch told [me]_{3079-dear boy} in a whisper that [they]_7571-they had gone down fiercely locked in [each other]_{517-each other} 's arms , and that there had been a struggle under water , and that [he]_349-magwitch had disengaged [himself]_349-magwitch , struck out , and swum away . [I]_{3079-dear boy} never had any reason to doubt the exact truth of what [he]_349-magwitch thus told [me]_{3079-dear boy} . [The officer who steered [the galley]_{7533-the galley}]_{7576-the officer who steered the galley} gave the same account of [their]_7571-they going overboard . When [I]_{3079-dear boy} asked [this officer]_{7578-this officer} 's permission to change [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} 's wet clothes by purchasing any spare garments [I]_{3079-dear boy} could get at [the public - house]_{7580-the public - house} , [he]_349-magwitch gave it readily : merely observing that [he]_349-magwitch must take charge of everything [[his]_349-magwitch prisoner]_{7539-his prisoner} had about [him]_349-magwitch . So the pocket - book which had once been in [my]_{3079-dear boy} hands passed into [the officer]_{7582-the officer} 's . [He]_349-magwitch further gave [me]_{3079-dear boy} leave to accompany [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} to [London]_8-london ; but declined to accord that grace to [[my]_{3079-dear boy} two friends]_{4064-my two friends} . [The Jack at [the Ship]_{7486-the ship}]_{7585-the jack at the ship} was instructed where [the drowned man]_{7587-the drowned man} had gone down , and undertook to search for the body in the places where it was likeliest to come ashore . [His]_{7585-the jack at the ship} interest in its recovery seemed to [me]_{3079-dear boy} to be much heightened when [he]_{7585-the jack at the ship} heard that it had stockings on . Probably , it took [about a dozen drowned men]_{7588-about a dozen drowned men} to fit [him]_{7585-the jack at the ship} out completely ; and that may have been the reason why the different articles of [his]_{7585-the jack at the ship} dress were in various stages of decay . [We]_7589-we remained at [the public - house]_{7580-the public - house} until the tide turned , and then [Magwitch]_349-magwitch was carried down to [the galley]_{7533-the galley} and put on board . [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Startop]_276-startop were to get to [London]_8-london by [land]_7592-land , as soon as [they]_{4064-my two friends} could . [We]_7589-we had a doleful parting , and when [I]_{3079-dear boy} took [my]_{3079-dear boy} place by [Magwitch]_349-magwitch 's side , [I]_{3079-dear boy} felt that that was [my]_{3079-dear boy} place henceforth while [he]_349-magwitch lived . For now , [my]_{3079-dear boy} repugnance to [him]_349-magwitch had all melted away ; and in the Hunted , wounded , shackled creature who held [my]_{3079-dear boy} hand in [his]_349-magwitch , [I]_{3079-dear boy} only saw [a man who had meant to be [[my]_{3079-dear boy} benefactor]_{1501-my benefactor} , and who had felt affectionately , gratefully , and generously , towards [me]_{3079-dear boy} with great constancy through a series of years]_{7593-a man who had meant to be my benefactor , and who had felt affectionately , gratefully , and generously , towards me with great constancy through a series of years} . [I]_{3079-dear boy} only saw in [him]_349-magwitch [a much better man than [I]_{3079-dear boy} had been to [Joe]_154-joe]_{7595-a much better man than i had been to joe} . [His]_349-magwitch breathing became more difficult and painful as the night drew on , and often [he]_349-magwitch could not repress a groan . [I]_{3079-dear boy} tried to rest [him]_349-magwitch on the arm [I]_{3079-dear boy} could use , in any easy position ; but it was dreadful to think that [I]_{3079-dear boy} could not be sorry at heart for [his]_349-magwitch being badly hurt , since it was unquestionably best that [he]_349-magwitch should die . That there were , still living , [people enough who were able]_{7596-people enough who were able} and willing to identify [him]_349-magwitch , [I]_{3079-dear boy} could not doubt . That [he]_349-magwitch would be leniently treated , [I]_{3079-dear boy} could not hope . [[He]_349-magwitch who had been presented in the worst light at [his]_349-magwitch trial , who had since broken prison and had been tried again , who had returned from transportation under a life sentence , and who had occasioned the death of [the man who was the cause of [his]_349-magwitch arrest]_{7598-the man who was the cause of his arrest}]_{7597-he who had been presented in the worst light at his trial , who had since broken prison and had been tried again , who had returned from transportation under a life sentence , and who had occasioned the death of the man who was the cause of his arrest} . As [we]_7599-we returned towards the setting sun [we]_7599-we had yesterday left behind [us]_7599-we , and as the stream of [our]_7599-we hopes seemed all running back , [I]_{3079-dear boy} told [him]_349-magwitch how grieved [I]_{3079-dear boy} was to think that [he]_349-magwitch had come [home]_4495-home for [my]_{3079-dear boy} sake . "_{[3079-dear boy]} [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_349-magwitch answered , "_{[3079-dear boy]} [I]_0-i 'm quite content to take [my]_0-i chance . [I]_0-i 've seen [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} , and [he]_{4554-my boy} can be [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} without [me]_0-i . " No . [I]_{4554-my boy} had thought about that , while [we]_7601-we had been there side by side . No . Apart from any inclinations of [my]_{4554-my boy} own , [I]_{4554-my boy} understood [Wemmick]_254-wemmick 's hint now . [I]_{4554-my boy} foresaw that , being convicted , [his]_{4554-my boy} possessions would be forfeited to [the Crown]_{7602-the crown} . "_{[4554-my boy]} Lookee here , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " said [he]_0-i "_{[4554-my boy]} It 's best as [a gentleman]_{4657-a gentleman} should not be knowed to belong to [me]_0-i now . Only come to see [me]_0-i as if [you]_{3079-dear boy} come by chance alonger [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . Sit where [I]_0-i can see [you]_{3079-dear boy} when [I]_0-i am swore to , for the last o ' many times , and [I]_0-i do n't ask no more . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will never stir from [your]_{3079-dear boy} side , " said [I]_0-i , "_[0-i] when [I]_0-i am suffered to be near [you]_{3079-dear boy} . Please [God]_192-god , [I]_0-i will be as true to [you]_{3079-dear boy} as [you]_{3079-dear boy} have been to [me]_0-i ! " [I]_192-god felt [his]_{3079-dear boy} hand tremble as it held [mine]_192-god , and [he]_{3079-dear boy} turned [his]_{3079-dear boy} face away as [he]_{3079-dear boy} lay in the bottom of [the boat]_{4680-the boat} , and [I]_192-god heard that old sound in [his]_{3079-dear boy} throat , - softened now , like all the rest of [him]_{3079-dear boy} . It was a good thing that [he]_{3079-dear boy} had touched this point , for it put into [my]_192-god mind what [I]_192-god might not otherwise have thought of until too late , - that [he]_{3079-dear boy} need never know how [his]_{3079-dear boy} hopes of enriching [me]_192-god had perished . [Chapter LV]_{388-chapter lv} [He]_{3079-dear boy} was taken to [the Police Court]_{7604-the police court} next day , and would have been immediately committed for trial , but that it was necessary to send down for [an old officer of [the prison - ship from which [he]_{3079-dear boy} had once escaped]_{7606-the prison - ship from which he had once escaped} , to speak to [his]_{3079-dear boy} identity]_{7605-an old officer of the prison - ship from which he had once escaped , to speak to his identity} . [Nobody]_4527-nobody doubted it ; but [Compeyson]_{364-compeyson} , who had meant to depose to it , was tumbling on the tides , dead , and it happened that there was not at that time [any prison officer in [London]_8-london]_{7608-any prison officer in london} who could give the required evidence . [I]_192-god had gone direct to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} at [[his]_{237-mr. jaggers} private house]_{2654-his private house} , on [my]_192-god arrival over night , to retain [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} assistance , and [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} on [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} 's behalf would admit nothing . It was the sole resource ; for [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} told [me]_192-god that the case must be over in five minutes when [the witness]_{1691-the witness} was there , and that no power on [earth]_6816-earth could prevent its going against [us]_7613-us . [I]_192-god imparted to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} [my]_192-god design of keeping [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} in ignorance of the fate of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} wealth . [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} was querulous and angry with [me]_192-god for having "_[192-god] let it slip through [my]_0-i fingers , " and said [we]_7613-us must memorialize by and by , and try at all events for some of it . But [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} did not conceal from [me]_192-god that , although there might be many cases in which the forfeiture would not be exacted , there were no circumstances in this case to make it one of them . [I]_192-god understood that very well . [I]_192-god was not related to [the outlaw]_{7614-the outlaw} , or connected with [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} by any recognizable tie ; [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} had put [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} hand to no writing or settlement in [my]_192-god favor before [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} apprehension , and to do so now would be idle . [I]_192-god had no claim , and [I]_192-god finally resolved , and ever afterwards abided by the resolution , that [my]_192-god heart should never be sickened with the hopeless task of attempting to establish one . There appeared to be reason for supposing that [the drowned informer]_{7615-the drowned informer} had hoped for a reward out of this forfeiture , and had obtained some accurate knowledge of [Magwitch]_349-magwitch 's affairs . When [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} body was found , many miles from the scene of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} death , and so horribly disfigured that [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} was only recognizable by the contents of [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} pockets , notes were still legible , folded in a case [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} carried . Among these were the name of [a banking - house in [New South Wales]_{100-new south wales}]_{7616-a banking - house in new south wales} , where a sum of money was , and the designation of certain lands of considerable value . Both these heads of information were in a list that [Magwitch]_349-magwitch , while in [prison]_7617-prison , gave to [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} , of the possessions [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} supposed [I]_192-god should inherit . [His]_{237-mr. jaggers} ignorance , [poor fellow]_{1401-poor fellow} , at last served [him]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; [he]_{237-mr. jaggers} never mistrusted but that [my]_192-god inheritance was quite safe , with [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} 's aid . After three days ' delay , during which [the crown prosecution]_{7619-the crown prosecution} stood over for the production of [the witness from [the prison - ship]_{4662-the prison - ship}]_{7620-the witness from the prison - ship} , [the witness]_{1691-the witness} came , and completed the easy case . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} was committed to take [his]_{237-mr. jaggers} trial at the next Sessions , which would come on in a month . It was at this dark time of [my]_192-god life that [Herbert]_265-herbert returned [home]_4495-home one evening , a good deal cast down , and said , - "_[192-god] [[My]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , [I]_0-i fear [I]_0-i shall soon have to leave [you]_266-handel . " [[His]_265-herbert partner]_{7624-his partner} having prepared [me]_0-i for that , [I]_0-i was less surprised than [he]_265-herbert thought . "_[0-i] [We]_4191-we shall lose a fine opportunity if [I]_0-i put off going to [Cairo]_147-cairo , and [I]_0-i am very much afraid [I]_0-i must go , [Handel]_266-handel , when [you]_266-handel most need [me]_0-i . " "_[266-handel] [Herbert]_265-herbert , [I]_0-i shall always need [you]_265-herbert , because [I]_0-i shall always love [you]_265-herbert ; but [my]_0-i need is no greater now than at another time . " "_{[265-herbert]} [You]_265-herbert will be so lonely . " "_{[265-herbert]} [I]_0-i have not leisure to think of that , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] [You]_265-herbert know that [I]_0-i am always with [him]_265-herbert to the full extent of the time allowed , and that [I]_0-i should be with [him]_265-herbert all day long , if [I]_0-i could . And when [I]_0-i come away from [him]_265-herbert , [you]_265-herbert know that [my]_0-i thoughts are with [him]_265-herbert . " The dreadful condition to which [he]_265-herbert was brought , was so appalling to both of [us]_4193-we , that [we]_4193-we could not refer to it in plainer words . "_{[265-herbert]} [[My]_0-i dear fellow]_{6904-my dear fellow} , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_{[265-herbert]} let the near prospect of [our]_4193-we separation - for , it is very near - be [my]_0-i justification for troubling [you]_{6904-my dear fellow} about [yourself]_{6904-my dear fellow} . Have [you]_{6904-my dear fellow} thought of [your]_{6904-my dear fellow} future ? " "_{[6904-my dear fellow]} No , for [I]_0-i have been afraid to think of any future . " "_[0-i] But [yours]_{6904-my dear fellow} can not be dismissed ; indeed , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} dear [Handel]_266-handel , it must not be dismissed . [I]_0-i wish [you]_{6904-my dear fellow} would enter on it now , as far as a few friendly words go , with [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] In [this branch house of [ours]_4193-we]_{4195-this branch house of ours} , [Handel]_266-handel , [we]_4193-we must have a - " [I]_{4196-a clerk} saw that [his]_266-handel delicacy was avoiding the right word , so [I]_{4196-a clerk} said , "_{[4196-a clerk]} [A clerk]_{4196-a clerk} . " "_{[4196-a clerk]} [A clerk]_{4196-a clerk} . And [I]_0-i hope it is not at all unlikely that [he]_266-handel may expand as [a clerk of [your]_{6904-my dear fellow} acquaintance]_{4198-a clerk of your acquaintance} has expanded into [a partner]_{2888-a partner} . Now , [Handel]_266-handel , - in short , [[my]_0-i dear boy]_{6794-my dear boy} , will [you]_266-handel come to [me]_0-i ? " There was something charmingly cordial and engaging in the manner in which after saying "_[266-handel] Now , [Handel]_266-handel , " as if it were the grave beginning of a portentous business exordium , [he]_266-handel had suddenly given up that tone , stretched out [his]_266-handel honest hand , and spoken like [a schoolboy]_{7625-a schoolboy} . "_[266-handel] [Clara]_311-clara and [I]_0-i have talked about it again and again , " [Herbert]_265-herbert pursued , "_[0-i] and [the dear little thing]_{4201-the dear little thing} begged [me]_0-i only this evening , with tears in [her]_{4201-the dear little thing} eyes , to say to [you]_266-handel that , if [you]_266-handel will live with [us]_4202-we when [we]_4202-we come together , [she]_{4201-the dear little thing} will do [her]_{4201-the dear little thing} best to make [you]_266-handel happy , and to convince [[[her]_{4201-the dear little thing} husband]_{473-her husband} 's friend]_{4204-her husband 's friend} that [he]_{4204-her husband 's friend} is [[her]_{4201-the dear little thing} friend]_{4205-her friend} too . [We]_4202-we should get on so well , [Handel]_266-handel ! " [I]_266-handel thanked [her]_{4201-the dear little thing} heartily , and [I]_266-handel thanked [him]_265-herbert heartily , but said [I]_266-handel could not yet make sure of joining [him]_265-herbert as [he]_265-herbert so kindly offered . Firstly , [my]_266-handel mind was too preoccupied to be able to take in the subject clearly . Secondly , - Yes ! Secondly , there was a vague something lingering in [my]_266-handel thoughts that will come out very near the end of this slight narrative . "_[266-handel] But if [you]_266-handel thought , [Herbert]_265-herbert , that [you]_266-handel could , without doing any injury to [your]_266-handel business , leave the question open for a little while - " "_[266-handel] For any while , " cried [Herbert]_265-herbert . "_[266-handel] Six months , a year ! " "_[266-handel] Not so long as that , " said [I.]_266-handel "_[266-handel] Two or three months at most . " [Herbert]_265-herbert was highly delighted when [we]_7626-we shook hands on this arrangement , and said [he]_265-herbert could now take courage to tell [me]_311-clara that [he]_265-herbert believed [he]_265-herbert must go away at the end of the week . "_[311-clara] And [Clara]_311-clara ? " said [I.]_311-clara "_{[4201-the dear little thing]} [The dear little thing]_{4201-the dear little thing} , " returned [Herbert]_265-herbert , "_{[4201-the dear little thing]} holds dutifully to [[her]_311-clara father]_{1954-her father} as long as [he]_{1954-her father} lasts ; but [he]_{1954-her father} wo n't last long . [Mrs. Whimple]_{370-mrs. whimple} confides to [me]_0-i that [he]_{1954-her father} is certainly going . " "_{[370-mrs. whimple]} Not to say an unfeeling thing , " said [I]_{370-mrs. whimple} , "_{[370-mrs. whimple]} [he]_{1954-her father} can not do better than go . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am afraid that must be admitted , " said [Herbert]_265-herbert ; "_[0-i] and then [I]_0-i shall come back for [the dear little thing]_{4201-the dear little thing} , and [the dear little thing]_{4201-the dear little thing} and [I]_0-i will walk quietly into [the nearest church]_{4210-the nearest church} . Remember ! [The blessed darling]_{4211-the blessed darling} comes of [no family]_{4212-no family} , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} [Handel]_266-handel , and never looked into the red book , and has n't a notion about [[her]_{4211-the blessed darling} grandpapa]_{5835-her grandpapa} . What a fortune for [the son of [[my]_0-i mother]_{405-my mother}]_{4215-the son of my mother} ! " On the Saturday in that same week , [I]_{4217-the late compeyson} took [my]_{4217-the late compeyson} leave of [Herbert]_265-herbert , - full of bright hope , but sad and sorry to leave [me]_{4217-the late compeyson} , - as [he]_265-herbert sat on one of [the seaport mail coaches]_{7627-the seaport mail coaches} . [I]_{4217-the late compeyson} went into [a coffee - house]_{7628-a coffee - house} to write a little note to [Clara]_311-clara , telling [her]_311-clara [he]_265-herbert had gone off , sending [his]_265-herbert love to [her]_311-clara over and over again , and then went to [[my]_{4217-the late compeyson} lonely home]_{7629-my lonely home} , - if it deserved the name ; for it was now [no home to [me]_{4217-the late compeyson}]_{7630-no home to me} , and [I]_{4217-the late compeyson} had [no [home]_4495-home anywhere]_{7631-no home anywhere} . On the stairs [I]_{4217-the late compeyson} encountered [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , who was coming down , after an unsuccessful application of [his]_254-wemmick knuckles to [my]_{4217-the late compeyson} door . [I]_{4217-the late compeyson} had not seen [him]_254-wemmick alone since the disastrous issue of the attempted flight ; and [he]_254-wemmick had come , in [his]_254-wemmick private and personal capacity , to say a few words of explanation in reference to that failure . "_{[4217-the late compeyson]} [The late Compeyson]_{4217-the late compeyson} , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_{[4217-the late compeyson]} had by little and [little]_4218-little got at the bottom of half of the regular business now transacted ; and it was from the talk of [some of [[his]_{4217-the late compeyson} people]_{2639-his people} in trouble some of [[his]_{4217-the late compeyson} people]_{2639-his people}]_{4219-some of his people in trouble some of his people} being always in trouble that [I]_0-i heard what [I]_0-i did . [I]_0-i kept [my]_0-i ears open , seeming to have them shut , until [I]_0-i heard that [he]_{4217-the late compeyson} was absent , and [I]_0-i thought that would be the best time for making the attempt . [I]_0-i can only suppose now , that it was a part of [his]_{4217-the late compeyson} policy , as [a very clever man]_{4222-a very clever man} , habitually to deceive [his]_{4217-the late compeyson} own instruments . [You]_4223-you do n't blame [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i hope , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i tried to serve [you]_241-pip , with all [my]_0-i heart . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am as sure of that , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , as [you]_241-pip can be , and [I]_0-i thank [you]_241-pip most earnestly for all [your]_241-pip interest and friendship . " "_[0-i] Thank [you]_241-pip , thank [you]_241-pip very much . It 's a bad job , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , scratching [his]_0-i head , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i assure [you]_241-pip [I]_0-i have n't been so cut up for a long time . What [I]_0-i look at is the sacrifice of so much portable property . Dear [me]_0-i ! " "_[0-i] What [I]_0-i think of , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , is [the poor owner of [the property]_{6019-the property}]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} . " "_{[4224-the poor owner of the property]} Yes , to be sure , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_{[4224-the poor owner of the property]} Of course , there can be no objection to [your]_241-pip being sorry for [him]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} , and [I]_0-i 'd put down a five - pound note [myself]_0-i to get [him]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} out of it . But what [I]_0-i look at is this . [The late Compeyson]_{4217-the late compeyson} having been beforehand with [him]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} in intelligence of [his]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} return , and being so determined to bring [him]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} to book , [I]_0-i do not think [he]_{4224-the poor owner of the property} could have been saved . Whereas , [the portable property]_{7143-the portable property} certainly could have been saved . That 's the difference between [the property]_{6019-the property} and [the owner]_{4229-the owner} , do n't [you]_241-pip see ? " [I]_241-pip invited [Wemmick]_254-wemmick to come up stairs , and refresh [himself]_254-wemmick with a glass of grog before walking to [Walworth]_52-walworth . [He]_254-wemmick accepted the invitation . While [he]_254-wemmick was drinking [his]_254-wemmick moderate allowance , [he]_254-wemmick said , with nothing to lead up to it , and after having appeared rather fidgety , - "_[241-pip] What do [you]_241-pip think of [my]_0-i meaning to take a holiday on Monday , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ? " "_[241-pip] Why , [I]_0-i suppose [you]_241-pip have not done such a thing these twelve months . " "_[241-pip] These twelve years , more likely , " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[241-pip] Yes . [I]_0-i 'm going to take a holiday . More than that ; [I]_0-i 'm going to take a walk . More than that ; [I]_0-i 'm going to ask [you]_241-pip to take a walk with [me]_0-i . " [I]_0-i was about to excuse [myself]_0-i , as being but a bad companion just then , when [Wemmick]_254-wemmick anticipated [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know [your]_241-pip engagements , " said [he]_0-i , "_[241-pip] and [I]_0-i know [you]_241-pip are out of sorts , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip . But if [you]_241-pip could oblige [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i should take it as a kindness . It ai n't a long walk , and it 's an early one . Say it might occupy [you]_241-pip including breakfast on the walk from eight to twelve . Could n't [you]_241-pip stretch a point and manage it ? " [He]_0-i had done so much for [me]_167-halloa at various times , that this was very little to do for [him]_0-i . [I]_167-halloa said [I]_167-halloa could manage it , - would manage it , - and [he]_0-i was so very much pleased by [my]_167-halloa acquiescence , that [I]_167-halloa was pleased too . At [his]_0-i particular request , [I]_167-halloa appointed to call for [him]_0-i at [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} at half past eight on Monday morning , and so [we]_7634-we parted for the time . Punctual to [my]_167-halloa appointment , [I]_167-halloa rang at [the Castle]_{54-the castle} gate on the Monday morning , and was received by [Wemmick]_254-wemmick [himself]_254-wemmick , who struck [me]_167-halloa as looking tighter than usual , and having a sleeker hat on . Within , there were two glasses of rum and milk prepared , and two biscuits . [The Aged]_{293-the aged} must have been stirring with the lark , for , glancing into the perspective of [[his]_0-i bedroom]_{6086-his bedroom} , [I]_167-halloa observed that [his]_0-i bed was empty . When [we]_4230-we had fortified [ourselves]_4230-we with the rum and milk and biscuits , and were going out for the walk with that training preparation on [us]_4230-we , [I]_167-halloa was considerably surprised to see [Wemmick]_254-wemmick take up a fishing - rod , and put it over [his]_0-i shoulder . "_[167-halloa] Why , [we]_4230-we are not going fishing ! " said [I.]_167-halloa "_[167-halloa] No , " returned [Wemmick]_254-wemmick , "_[167-halloa] but [I]_0-i like to walk with one . " [I]_167-halloa thought this odd ; however , [I]_167-halloa said nothing , and [we]_4230-we set off . [We]_4230-we went towards [Camberwell Green]_{148-camberwell green} , and when [we]_4230-we were thereabouts , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick said suddenly , - "_[167-halloa] [Halloa]_167-halloa ! Here 's [a church]_{5134-a church} ! " There was nothing very surprising in that ; but again , [I]_167-halloa was rather surprised , when [he]_254-wemmick said , as if [he]_254-wemmick were animated by a brilliant idea , - "_[167-halloa] Let 's go in ! " [We]_4230-we went in , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick leaving [his]_254-wemmick fishing - rod in [the porch]_{766-the porch} , and looked all round . In the mean time , [Wemmick]_254-wemmick was diving into [his]_254-wemmick coat - pockets , and getting something out of paper there . "_[167-halloa] [Halloa]_167-halloa ! " said [he]_254-wemmick . "_[167-halloa] Here 's a couple of pair of gloves ! Let 's put 'em on ! " As the gloves were white kid gloves , and as [the post - office]_{2454-the post - office} was widened to its utmost extent , [I]_167-halloa now began to have [my]_167-halloa strong suspicions . They were strengthened into certainty when [I]_167-halloa beheld [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} enter at a side door , escorting [a lady]_{5245-a lady} . "_[167-halloa] [Halloa]_167-halloa ! " said [Wemmick]_254-wemmick . "_[167-halloa] Here 's [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins} ! Let 's have a wedding . " [That discreet damsel]_{7640-that discreet damsel} was attired as usual , except that [she]_{7640-that discreet damsel} was now engaged in substituting for [her]_{7640-that discreet damsel} green kid gloves a pair of white . [The Aged]_{2166-the aged} was likewise occupied in preparing a similar sacrifice for the altar of [Hymen]_149-hymen . [The old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} , however , experienced so much difficulty in getting [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} gloves on , that [Wemmick]_254-wemmick found it necessary to put [him]_{6026-the old gentleman} with [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} back against a pillar , and then to get behind the pillar [himself]_{6026-the old gentleman} and pull away at them , while [I]_167-halloa for [my]_167-halloa part held [the old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} round the waist , that [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} might present and equal and safe resistance . By dint of this ingenious scheme , [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} gloves were got on to perfection . [The clerk]_{5516-the clerk} and [clergyman]_{7645-clergyman} then appearing , [we]_7646-we were ranged in order at those fatal rails . True to [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} notion of seeming to do it all without preparation , [I]_167-halloa heard [Wemmick]_254-wemmick say to [himself]_{6026-the old gentleman} , as [he]_{6026-the old gentleman} took something out of [his]_{6026-the old gentleman} waistcoat - pocket before the service began , "_[167-halloa] [Halloa]_167-halloa ! Here 's a ring ! " [I]_167-halloa acted in the capacity of [backer]_7647-backer , or best - man , to [the bridegroom]_{2015-the bridegroom} ; while [a little limp pew - opener in a soft bonnet like a baby]_{7649-a little limp pew - opener in a soft bonnet like a baby} 's , made a feint of being [the bosom friend of [Miss Skiffins]_{332-miss skiffins}]_{7650-the bosom friend of miss skiffins} . The responsibility of giving [the lady]_{5934-the lady} away devolved upon [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , which led to [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} 's being unintentionally scandalized , and it happened thus . When [he]_{637-the clergyman} said , "_[167-halloa] Who giveth [this woman]_{2199-this woman} to be married to [this man]_{581-this man} ? " [the old gentlemen]_{7654-the old gentlemen} , not in the least knowing what point of the ceremony [we]_7655-we had arrived at , stood most amiably beaming at the ten commandments . Upon which , [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} said again , "_[167-halloa] WHO giveth [this woman]_{2199-this woman} to be married to [this man]_{581-this man} ? " [The old gentleman]_{6026-the old gentleman} being still in a state of most estimable unconsciousness , [the bridegroom]_{2015-the bridegroom} cried out in [his]_{2015-the bridegroom} accustomed voice , "_[167-halloa] Now Aged P. [you]_4236-you know ; who giveth ? " To which [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} replied with great briskness , before saying that [he]_{2166-the aged} gave , "_[291-john] All right , [John]_291-john , all right , [[my]_0-i boy]_{4554-my boy} ! " And [the clergyman]_{637-the clergyman} came to so gloomy a pause upon it , that [I]_291-john had doubts for the moment whether [we]_7655-we should get completely married that day . It was completely done , however , and when [we]_7655-we were going out of [church]_622-church [Wemmick]_0-i took the cover off the font , and put [his]_0-i white gloves in it , and put the cover on again . [Mrs. Wemmick]_389-wemmick , more heedful of the future , put [her]_389-wemmick white gloves in [her]_389-wemmick pocket and assumed [her]_389-wemmick green . "_[291-john] Now , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip , " said [Wemmick]_389-wemmick , triumphantly shouldering the fishing - rod as [we]_7655-we came out , "_[0-i] let [me]_0-i ask [you]_241-pip whether [anybody]_4526-anybody would suppose this to be a wedding - party ! " Breakfast had been ordered at [a pleasant little tavern]_{7662-a pleasant little tavern} , a mile or so away upon [the rising ground beyond [the green]_{6575-the green}]_{7663-the rising ground beyond the green} ; and there was a bagatelle board in [the room]_{633-the room} , in case [we]_7655-we should desire to unbend [our]_7655-we minds after the solemnity . It was pleasant to observe that [Mrs. Wemmick]_389-wemmick no longer unwound [Wemmick]_389-wemmick 's arm when it adapted itself to [her]_389-wemmick figure , but sat in a high - backed chair against the wall , like a violoncello in its case , and submitted to be embraced as that melodious instrument might have done . [We]_7655-we had an excellent breakfast , and when [any one]_{841-any one} declined anything on table , [Wemmick]_389-wemmick said , "_{[4526-anybody]} Provided by contract , [you]_241-pip know ; do n't be afraid of it ! " [I]_0-i drank to [the new couple]_{7667-the new couple} , drank to [the Aged]_{2166-the aged} , drank to [the Castle]_{6013-the castle} , saluted [the bride]_{5065-the bride} at parting , and made [myself]_0-i as agreeable as [I]_0-i could . [Wemmick]_389-wemmick came down to the door with [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i again shook hands with [him]_0-i , and wished [him]_0-i joy . "_[0-i] Thankee ! " said [Wemmick]_389-wemmick , rubbing [his]_0-i hands . "_[0-i] [She]_4239-she 's such [a manager of fowls]_{4240-a manager of fowls} , [you]_241-pip have no idea . [You]_241-pip shall have some eggs , and judge for [yourself]_241-pip . [I]_0-i say , [Mr. Pip]_241-pip ! " calling [me]_0-i back , and speaking low . "_[0-i] This is altogether a Walworth sentiment , please . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i understand . Not to be mentioned in [Little Britain]_{28-little britain} , " said [I.]_0-i [Wemmick]_389-wemmick nodded . "_[0-i] After what [you]_241-pip let out the other day , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} may as well not know of it . [He]_{237-mr. jaggers} might think [my]_0-i brain was softening , or something of the kind . " Chapter LVI [He]_0-i lay in [prison]_7617-prison very ill , during the whole interval between [his]_0-i committal for trial and the coming round of the Sessions . [He]_0-i had broken two ribs , [they]_7672-they had wounded one of [his]_0-i lungs , and [he]_0-i breathed with great pain and difficulty , which increased daily . It was a consequence of [his]_0-i hurt that [he]_0-i spoke so low as to be scarcely audible ; therefore [he]_0-i spoke very little . But [he]_0-i was ever ready to listen to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} ; and it became the first duty of [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} life to say to [him]_0-i , and read to [him]_0-i , what [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} knew [he]_0-i ought to hear . Being far too ill to remain in [the common prison]_{7673-the common prison} , [he]_0-i was removed , after the first day or so , into [the infirmary]_{7674-the infirmary} . This gave [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} opportunities of being with [him]_0-i that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} could not otherwise have had . And but for [his]_0-i illness [he]_0-i would have been put in irons , for [he]_0-i was regarded as [a determined prison - breaker]_{7675-a determined prison - breaker} , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} know not what else . Although [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw [him]_0-i every day , it was for only a short time ; hence , the regularly recurring spaces of [our]_7676-our separation were long enough to record on [his]_0-i face any slight changes that occurred in [his]_0-i physical state . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} do not recollect that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} once saw any change in it for the better ; [he]_0-i wasted , and became slowly weaker and worse , day by day , from the day when the prison door closed upon [him]_0-i . The kind of submission or resignation that [he]_0-i showed was that of [a man who was tired out]_{7677-a man who was tired out} . [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} sometimes derived an impression , from [his]_0-i manner or from a whispered word or two which escaped [him]_0-i , that [he]_0-i pondered over the question whether [he]_0-i might have been [a better man under better circumstances]_{7678-a better man under better circumstances} . But [he]_0-i never justified [himself]_0-i by a hint tending that way , or tried to bend the past out of its eternal shape . It happened on two or three occasions in [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} presence , that [his]_0-i desperate reputation was alluded to by [one or other of [the people in attendance on [him]_0-i]_{7680-the people in attendance on him}]_{7679-one or other of the people in attendance on him} . A smile crossed [his]_0-i face then , and [he]_0-i turned [his]_0-i eyes on [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} with a trustful look , as if [he]_0-i were confident that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} had seen some small redeeming touch in [him]_0-i , even so long ago as when [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} was [a little child]_{6786-a little child} . As to all the rest , [he]_0-i was humble and contrite , and [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} never knew [him]_0-i complain . When the Sessions came round , [Mr. Jaggers]_{237-mr. jaggers} caused an application to be made for the postponement of [his]_0-i trial until the following Sessions . It was obviously made with the assurance that [he]_0-i could not live so long , and was refused . The trial came on at once , and , when [he]_0-i was put to the bar , [he]_0-i was seated in a chair . No objection was made to [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} getting close to [the dock]_{6973-the dock} , on the outside of [it]_{6973-the dock} , and holding the hand that [he]_0-i stretched forth to [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} . The trial was very short and very clear . Such things as could be said for [him]_0-i were said , - how [he]_0-i had taken to industrious habits , and had thriven lawfully and reputably . But nothing could unsay the fact that [he]_0-i had returned , and was there in presence of [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} and [Jury]_7684-jury . It was impossible to try [him]_0-i for that , and do otherwise than find [him]_0-i guilty . At that time , it was the custom as [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} learnt from [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} terrible experience of that Sessions to devote a concluding day to the passing of Sentences , and to make a finishing effect with the Sentence of Death . But for the indelible picture that [my]_{237-mr. jaggers} remembrance now holds before [me]_{237-mr. jaggers} , [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} could scarcely believe , even as [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} write these words , that [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} saw [two - and - thirty men]_{7685-two - and - thirty men} and [women]_1013-women put before [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} to receive that sentence together . Foremost among [the two - and - thirty]_{7688-the two - and - thirty} was [he]_0-i ; seated , that [he]_0-i might get breath enough to keep life in [him]_0-i . The whole scene starts out again in the vivid colors of the moment , down to the drops of April rain on the windows of [the court]_{3035-the court} , glittering in the rays of April sun . Penned in [the dock]_{6973-the dock} , as [I]_{237-mr. jaggers} again stood outside [it]_{6973-the dock} at the corner with [his]_0-i hand in mine , were [the two - and - thirty men]_{7691-the two - and - thirty men} and [women]_1013-women ; some defiant , [some stricken with terror]_{7693-some stricken with terror} , some sobbing and weeping , some covering [their]_{7693-some stricken with terror} faces , some staring gloomily about . There had been shrieks from among [the women convicts]_{7694-the women convicts} ; but [they]_{7694-the women convicts} had been stilled , and a hush had succeeded . [The sheriffs]_{7695-the sheriffs} with [their]_{7695-the sheriffs} great chains and nosegays , [other civic gewgaws and monsters]_{7696-other civic gewgaws and monsters} , [criers , ushers]_{7697-criers , ushers} , a great gallery full of [people]_4539-people , - [a large theatrical audience]_{7699-a large theatrical audience} , - looked on , as [the two - and - thirty]_{7688-the two - and - thirty} and [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} were solemnly confronted . Then [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} addressed [them]_{7694-the women convicts} . Among [the wretched creatures before [him]_{6995-the judge} whom [he]_{6995-the judge} must single out for special address]_{7703-the wretched creatures before him whom he must single out for special address} was [one who almost from [his]_{6995-the judge} infancy]_{7704-one who almost from his infancy} had been [an offender against the laws]_{7705-an offender against the laws} ; [who , after repeated imprisonments and punishments , had been at length sentenced to exile for a term of years]_{7706-who , after repeated imprisonments and punishments , had been at length sentenced to exile for a term of years} ; and [who , under circumstances of great violence and daring]_{7707-who , under circumstances of great violence and daring} , had made [his]_{6995-the judge} escape and been re - sentenced to exile for life . [That miserable man]_{7708-that miserable man} would seem for a time to have become convinced of [his]_{7708-that miserable man} errors , when far removed from the scenes of [his]_{7708-that miserable man} old offences , and to have lived a peaceable and honest life . But in a fatal moment , yielding to those propensities and passions , the indulgence of which had so long rendered [him]_{7708-that miserable man} a scourge to society , [he]_{7708-that miserable man} had quitted [his]_{7708-that miserable man} haven of rest and repentance , and had come back to [the country where [he]_{7708-that miserable man} was proscribed]_{7709-the country where he was proscribed} . Being here presently denounced , [he]_{7708-that miserable man} had for a time succeeded in evading [the officers of Justice]_{7710-the officers of justice} , but being at length seized while in the act of flight , [he]_{7708-that miserable man} had resisted [them]_{7710-the officers of justice} , and had - [he]_{7708-that miserable man} best knew whether by express design , or in the blindness of [his]_{7708-that miserable man} hardihood - caused the death of [[his]_{7708-that miserable man} denouncer]_{7711-his denouncer} , to whom [his]_{7708-that miserable man} whole career was known . The appointed punishment for [his]_{7708-that miserable man} return to [the land]_{7712-the land} that had cast [him]_{7708-that miserable man} out , being Death , and [his]_{7708-that miserable man} case being this aggravated case , [he]_{7708-that miserable man} must prepare [himself]_{7708-that miserable man} to Die . The sun was striking in at the great windows of [the court]_{3035-the court} , through the glittering drops of rain upon the glass , and it made a broad shaft of light between the two - and - thirty and [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} , linking both together , and perhaps reminding some among [the audience]_{7715-the audience} how both were passing on , with absolute equality , to the greater Judgment that knoweth all things , and can not err . Rising for a moment , a distinct speck of face in this way of light , [the prisoner]_{5289-the prisoner} said , "_{[237-mr. jaggers]} [[My]_0-i Lord]_{6976-my lord} , [I]_0-i have received [my]_0-i sentence of Death from [the Almighty]_{4242-the almighty} , but [I]_0-i bow to [yours]_{6976-my lord} , " and sat down again . There was some hushing , and [the Judge]_{6995-the judge} went on with what [he]_{6995-the judge} had to say to [the rest]_{3788-the rest} . Then [they]_{3788-the rest} were all formally doomed , and [some of [them]_{3788-the rest}]_{7719-some of them} were supported out , and [some of [them]_{3788-the rest}]_{7719-some of them} sauntered out with a haggard look of bravery , and [a few]_{7721-a few} nodded to [the gallery]_{2512-the gallery} , and two or three shook hands , and [others]_5129-others went out chewing the fragments of herb [they]_5129-others had taken from the sweet herbs lying about . [He]_{5289-the prisoner} went last of all , because of having to be helped from [his]_{5289-the prisoner} chair , and to go very slowly ; and [he]_{5289-the prisoner} held [my]_0-i hand while [all the others]_{7724-all the others} were removed , and while [the audience]_{7715-the audience} got up putting [their]_{7715-the audience} dresses right , as [they]_{7715-the audience} might at [church]_622-church or elsewhere , and pointed down at [this criminal]_{7727-this criminal} or at that , and most of all at [him]_{5289-the prisoner} and [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i earnestly hoped and prayed that [he]_{5289-the prisoner} might die before [the Recorder]_{2603-the recorder} 's Report was made ; but , in the dread of [his]_{5289-the prisoner} lingering on , [I]_0-i began that night to write out a petition to [the Home Secretary of State]_{7729-the home secretary of state} , setting forth [my]_0-i knowledge of [him]_{5289-the prisoner} , and how it was that [he]_{5289-the prisoner} had come back for [my]_0-i sake . [I]_0-i wrote it as fervently and pathetically as [I]_0-i could ; and when [I]_0-i had finished it and sent it in , [I]_0-i wrote out other petitions to such men in authority as [I]_0-i hoped were the most merciful , and drew up one to the Crown itself . For several days and nights after [he]_{5289-the prisoner} was sentenced [I]_0-i took no rest except when [I]_0-i fell asleep in [my]_0-i chair , but was wholly absorbed in these appeals . And after [I]_0-i had sent [them]_7730-them in , [I]_0-i could not keep away from the places where [they]_7730-them were , but felt as if [they]_7730-them were more hopeful and less desperate when [I]_0-i was near [them]_7730-them . In this unreasonable restlessness and pain of mind [I]_0-i would roam [the streets]_{5643-the streets} of an evening , wandering by [those offices]_{7732-those offices} and houses where [I]_0-i had left the petitions . To the present hour , [the weary western streets of [London]_8-london]_{7733-the weary western streets of london} on a cold , dusty spring night , with [[their]_{7733-the weary western streets of london} ranges of [stern , shut - up mansions]_{7735-stern , shut - up mansions}]_{7734-their ranges of stern , shut - up mansions} , and [their]_{7733-the weary western streets of london} long rows of lamps , are melancholy to [me]_0-i from this association . The daily visits [I]_0-i could make [him]_7736-he were shortened now , and [he]_7736-he was more strictly kept . Seeing , or fancying , that [I]_0-i was suspected of an intention of carrying poison to [him]_7736-he , [I]_0-i asked to be searched before [I]_0-i sat down at [his]_7736-he bedside , and told [the officer who was always there]_{7737-the officer who was always there} , that [I]_0-i was willing to do anything that would assure [him]_7736-he of the singleness of [my]_0-i designs . [Nobody]_4527-nobody was hard with [him]_7736-he or with [me]_0-i . There was duty to be done , and it was done , but not harshly . [The officer]_{7582-the officer} always gave [me]_0-i the assurance that [he]_7736-he was worse , and [some other sick prisoners in [the room]_{633-the room}]_{7740-some other sick prisoners in the room} , and [some other prisoners who attended on [them]_{7740-some other sick prisoners in the room}]_{7742-some other prisoners who attended on them} as [sick nurses]_{7743-sick nurses} , [malefactors , but not incapable of kindness]_{7744-malefactors , but not incapable of kindness} , [God]_192-god be thanked ! always joined in the same report . As the days went on , [I]_0-i noticed more and more that [he]_7736-he would lie placidly looking at the white ceiling , with an absence of light in [his]_7736-he face until some word of mine brightened it for an instant , and then it would subside again . Sometimes [he]_7736-he was almost or quite unable to speak , then [he]_7736-he would answer [me]_0-i with slight pressures on [my]_0-i hand , and [I]_0-i grew to understand [his]_7736-he meaning very well . The number of the days had risen to ten , when [I]_0-i saw a greater change in [him]_7736-he than [I]_0-i had seen yet . [His]_7736-he eyes were turned towards the door , and lighted up as [I]_0-i entered . "_[0-i] [Dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , " [he]_7736-he said , as [I]_{3079-dear boy} sat down by [his]_7736-he bed : "_{[3079-dear boy]} [I]_0-i thought [you]_{3079-dear boy} was late . But [I]_0-i knowed [you]_{3079-dear boy} could n't be that . " "_{[3079-dear boy]} It is just the time , " said [I.]_{3079-dear boy} "_[0-i] [I]_0-i waited for it at the gate . " "_[0-i] [You]_{3079-dear boy} always waits at the gate ; do n't [you]_{3079-dear boy} , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} ? " "_{[3079-dear boy]} Yes . Not to lose a moment of the time . " "_{[3079-dear boy]} Thank'ee [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} , thank'ee . God bless [you]_{3079-dear boy} ! [You]_{3079-dear boy} 've never deserted [me]_0-i , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " [I]_{3079-dear boy} pressed [his]_7736-he hand in silence , for [I]_{3079-dear boy} could not forget that [I]_{3079-dear boy} had once meant to desert [him]_7736-he . "_{[3079-dear boy]} And what 's the best of all , " [he]_0-i said , "_{[3079-dear boy]} [you]_{3079-dear boy} 've been more comfortable alonger [me]_0-i , since [I]_0-i was under a dark cloud , than when the sun shone . That 's best of all . " [He]_7736-he lay on [his]_7736-he back , breathing with great difficulty . Do what [he]_7736-he would , and love [me]_{3079-dear boy} though [he]_7736-he did , the light left [his]_7736-he face ever and again , and a film came over the placid look at the white ceiling . "_{[3079-dear boy]} Are [you]_{3079-dear boy} in much pain to - day ? " "_{[3079-dear boy]} [I]_0-i do n't complain of none , [dear boy]_{3079-dear boy} . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i never do complain . " [He]_7736-he had spoken [his]_7736-he last words . [He]_7736-he smiled , and [I]_0-i understood [his]_7736-he touch to mean that [he]_7736-he wished to lift [my]_0-i hand , and lay it on [his]_7736-he breast . [I]_0-i laid it there , and [he]_7736-he smiled again , and put both [his]_7736-he hands upon it . The allotted time ran out , while [we]_7745-we were thus ; but , looking round , [I]_0-i found [the governor of [the prison]_{1544-the prison}]_{7746-the governor of the prison} standing near [me]_0-i , and [he]_{7746-the governor of the prison} whispered , "_[0-i] [You]_{3079-dear boy} need n't go yet . " [I]_{3079-dear boy} thanked [him]_{7746-the governor of the prison} gratefully , and asked , "_{[3079-dear boy]} Might [I]_0-i speak to [him]_4248-him , if [he]_4248-him can hear [me]_0-i ? " [The governor]_{7748-the governor} stepped aside , and beckoned [the officer]_{7582-the officer} away . The change , though it was made without noise , drew back the film from the placid look at the white ceiling , and [he]_{7746-the governor of the prison} looked most affectionately at [me]_4248-him . "_[4248-him] [Dear Magwitch]_{390-dear magwitch} , [I]_0-i must tell [you]_{390-dear magwitch} now , at last . [You]_{390-dear magwitch} understand what [I]_0-i say ? " A gentle pressure on [my]_0-i hand . "_[0-i] [You]_{390-dear magwitch} had [a child]_{691-a child} once , whom [you]_{390-dear magwitch} loved and lost . " A stronger pressure on [my]_{691-a child} hand . "_{[691-a child]} [She]_{691-a child} lived , and found [powerful friends]_{4250-powerful friends} . [She]_{691-a child} is living now . [She]_{691-a child} is [a lady and very beautiful]_{4251-a lady and very beautiful} . And [I]_0-i love [her]_{691-a child} ! " With a last faint effort , which would have been powerless but for [my]_0-i yielding to it and assisting it , [he]_{7746-the governor of the prison} raised [my]_0-i hand to [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} lips . Then , [he]_{7746-the governor of the prison} gently let it sink upon [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} breast again , with [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} own hands lying on it . The placid look at the white ceiling came back , and passed away , and [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} head dropped quietly on [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} breast . Mindful , then , of what [we]_7750-we had read together , [I]_0-i thought of [the two men who went up into [the Temple]_{3027-the temple}]_{7751-the two men who went up into the temple} to pray , and [I]_0-i knew there were no better words that [I]_0-i could say beside [his]_{7746-the governor of the prison} bed , than "_[0-i] [O Lord]_{4252-o lord} , be merciful to [him]_0-i [a sinner]_{4253-a sinner} ! " Chapter LVII Now that [I]_{4252-o lord} was left wholly to [myself]_{4252-o lord} , [I]_{4252-o lord} gave notice of [my]_{4252-o lord} intention to quit [the chambers in [the Temple]_{3027-the temple}]_{7753-the chambers in the temple} as soon as [my]_{4252-o lord} tenancy could legally determine , and in the meanwhile to underlet them . At once [I]_{4252-o lord} put bills up in the windows ; for , [I]_{4252-o lord} was in debt , and had scarcely any money , and began to be seriously alarmed by the state of [my]_{4252-o lord} affairs . [I]_{4252-o lord} ought rather to write that [I]_{4252-o lord} should have been alarmed if [I]_{4252-o lord} had had energy and concentration enough to help [me]_{4252-o lord} to the clear perception of any truth beyond the fact that [I]_{4252-o lord} was falling very ill . The late stress upon [me]_{4252-o lord} had enabled [me]_{4252-o lord} to put off illness , but not to put it away ; [I]_{4252-o lord} knew that it was coming on [me]_{4252-o lord} now , and [I]_{4252-o lord} knew very little else , and was even careless as to that . For a day or two , [I]_{4252-o lord} lay on the sofa , or on the floor , - anywhere , according as [I]_{4252-o lord} happened to sink down , - with a heavy head and aching limbs , and no purpose , and no power . Then there came , one night which appeared of great duration , and which teemed with anxiety and horror ; and when in the morning [I]_{4252-o lord} tried to sit up in [my]_{4252-o lord} bed and think of it , [I]_{4252-o lord} found [I]_{4252-o lord} could not do so . Whether [I]_{4252-o lord} really had been down in [Garden Court]_{103-garden court} in the dead of the night , groping about for [the boat]_{4680-the boat} that [I]_{4252-o lord} supposed to be [there]_4505-there ; whether [I]_{4252-o lord} had two or three times come to [myself]_{4252-o lord} on the staircase with great terror , not knowing how [I]_{4252-o lord} had got out of bed ; whether [I]_{4252-o lord} had found [myself]_{4252-o lord} lighting the lamp , possessed by the idea that [he]_7757-he was coming up the stairs , and that the lights were blown out ; whether [I]_{4252-o lord} had been inexpressibly harassed by the distracted talking , laughing , and groaning of [some one]_{4842-some one} , and had half suspected those sounds to be of [my]_{4252-o lord} own making ; whether there had been a closed iron furnace in a dark corner of [the room]_{633-the room} , and a voice had called out , over and over again , that [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} was consuming within it , - these were things that [I]_{4252-o lord} tried to settle with [myself]_{4252-o lord} and get into some order , as [I]_{4252-o lord} lay that morning on [my]_{4252-o lord} bed . But the vapor of a limekiln would come between [me]_{4252-o lord} and [them]_4254-them , disordering [them]_4254-them all , and it was through the vapor at last that [I]_{4252-o lord} saw [two men]_{3822-two men} looking at [me]_{4252-o lord} . "_{[4252-o lord]} What do [you]_4254-them want ? " [I]_4254-them asked , starting ; "_[4254-them] [I]_0-i do n't know [you]_4254-them . " "_[0-i] Well , [sir]_4451-sir , " returned [one of [them]_{3822-two men}]_{7761-one of them} , bending down and touching [me]_4254-them on the shoulder , "_[4254-them] this is a matter that [you]_4451-sir 'll soon arrange , [I]_0-i dare say , but [you]_4451-sir 're arrested . " "_[4451-sir] What is the debt ? " "_{[4256-jeweller]} Hundred and twenty - three pound , fifteen , six . [Jeweller]_{4256-jeweller} 's account , [I]_0-i think . " "_[0-i] What is to be done ? " "_[4451-sir] [You]_4451-sir had better come to [[my]_0-i house]_{4257-my house} , " said [the man]_{433-the man} . "_[4451-sir] [I]_0-i keep [a very nice house]_{4258-a very nice house} . " [I]_4259-they made some attempt to get up and dress [myself]_4259-they . When [I]_4259-they next attended to [them]_4259-they , [they]_4259-they were standing a little off from the bed , looking at [me]_4259-they . [I]_4259-they still lay there . "_[4259-they] [You]_4259-they see [my]_0-i state , " said [I.]_4259-they "_[4259-they] [I]_0-i would come with [you]_4259-they if [I]_0-i could ; but indeed [I]_0-i am quite unable . If [you]_4259-they take [me]_0-i from here , [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i shall die by the way . " Perhaps [they]_4259-they replied , or argued the point , or tried to encourage [me]_0-i to believe that [I]_0-i was better than [I]_0-i thought . Forasmuch as they hang in [my]_0-i memory by only this one slender thread , [I]_0-i do n't know what [they]_4259-they did , except that [they]_4259-they forbore to remove [me]_0-i . That [I]_0-i had a fever and was avoided , that [I]_0-i suffered greatly , that [I]_0-i often lost [my]_0-i reason , that the time seemed interminable , that [I]_0-i confounded impossible existences with [my]_0-i own identity ; that [I]_0-i was a brick in the house - wall , and yet entreating to be released from [the giddy place where [the builders]_{7764-the builders} had set [me]_0-i]_{7763-the giddy place where the builders had set me} ; that [I]_0-i was [a steel beam of a vast engine , clashing and whirling over a gulf]_{7765-a steel beam of a vast engine , clashing and whirling over a gulf} , and yet that [I]_0-i implored in [[my]_0-i own person]_{7766-my own person} to have the engine stopped , and [my]_0-i part in it hammered off ; that [I]_0-i passed through these phases of disease , [I]_0-i know of [my]_0-i own remembrance , and did in some sort know at the time . That [I]_0-i sometimes struggled with [real people]_{7767-real people} , in the belief that [they]_{7767-real people} were [murderers]_{7768-murderers} , and that [I]_0-i would all at once comprehend that [they]_{7767-real people} meant to do [me]_0-i good , and would then sink exhausted in [their]_{7767-real people} arms , and suffer [them]_{7767-real people} to lay [me]_0-i down , [I]_0-i also knew at the time . But , above all , [I]_0-i knew that there was a constant tendency in [all these people]_{7769-all these people} , - who , when [I]_0-i was very ill , would present all kinds of extraordinary transformations of the human face , and would be much dilated in size , - above all , [I]_0-i say , [I]_0-i knew that there was an extraordinary tendency in [all these people]_{7769-all these people} , sooner or later , to settle down into the likeness of [Joe]_154-joe . After [I]_0-i had turned the worst point of [my]_0-i illness , [I]_0-i began to notice that while all its other features changed , this one consistent feature did not change . [Whoever]_391-whoever came about [me]_0-i , still settled down into [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_0-i opened [my]_0-i eyes in the night , and [I]_0-i saw , in the great chair at the bedside , [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_0-i opened [my]_0-i eyes in the day , and , sitting on the window - seat , smoking [his]_7771-his pipe in the shaded open window , still [I]_0-i saw [Joe]_154-joe . [I]_0-i asked for cooling drink , and the dear hand that gave it [me]_0-i was [Joe]_154-joe 's . [I]_0-i sank back on [my]_0-i pillow after drinking , and the face that looked so hopefully and tenderly upon [me]_0-i was the face of [Joe]_154-joe . At last , one day , [I]_0-i took courage , and said , "_[0-i] Is it [Joe]_154-joe ? " And [the dear old home]_{7772-the dear old home} - voice answered , "_[154-joe] Which it air , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . " "_{[4500-old chap]} O [Joe]_154-joe , [you]_154-joe break [my]_0-i heart ! Look angry at [me]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe . Strike [me]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe . Tell [me]_0-i of [my]_0-i ingratitude . Do n't be so good to [me]_0-i ! " For [Joe]_154-joe had actually laid [his]_{4500-old chap} head down on the pillow at [my]_{4500-old chap} side , and put [his]_{4500-old chap} arm round [my]_{4500-old chap} neck , in [his]_{4500-old chap} joy that [I]_{4500-old chap} knew [him]_{4500-old chap} . "_{[4500-old chap]} Which dear [old Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_{[4500-old chap]} [you]_241-pip and [me]_0-i was ever [friends]_4514-friends . And when [you]_241-pip 're well enough to go out for a ride - what larks ! " After which , [Joe]_154-joe withdrew to the window , and stood with [his]_{4500-old chap} back towards [me]_241-pip , wiping [his]_{4500-old chap} eyes . And as [my]_241-pip extreme weakness prevented [me]_241-pip from getting up and going to [him]_{4500-old chap} , [I]_241-pip lay there , penitently whispering , "_[241-pip] O God bless [him]_241-pip ! O God bless [this gentle Christian man]_{4263-this gentle christian man} ! " [Joe]_154-joe 's eyes were red when [I]_154-joe next found [him]_{4500-old chap} beside [me]_154-joe ; but [I]_154-joe was holding [his]_{4500-old chap} hand , and [we]_7773-we both felt happy . "_[154-joe] How long , [dear Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Which [you]_241-pip meantersay , [Pip]_241-pip , how long have [your]_241-pip illness lasted , [dear old chap]_{2280-dear old chap} ? " "_[154-joe] Yes , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[154-joe] It 's the end of May , [Pip]_241-pip . To - morrow is the first of [June]_392-june . " "_[392-june] And have [you]_241-pip been [here]_693-here all that time , [dear Joe]_154-joe ? " "_{[4500-old chap]} Pretty nigh , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . For , as [I]_0-i says to [Biddy]_188-biddy when the news of [your]_241-pip being ill were brought by letter , which it were brought by the post , and being formerly single [he]_4267-his is now married though underpaid for a deal of walking and shoe - leather , but wealth were not a object on [his]_4267-his part , and marriage were the great wish of [[his]_4267-his hart]_{4768-his hart} - " "_{[4768-his hart]} It is so delightful to hear [you]_241-pip , [Joe]_154-joe ! But [I]_0-i interrupt [you]_241-pip in what [you]_241-pip said to [Biddy]_188-biddy . " "_[241-pip] Which it were , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_[241-pip] that how [you]_241-pip might be amongst [strangers]_{2179-strangers} , and that how [you]_241-pip and [me]_0-i having been ever [friends]_4514-friends , a wisit at such a moment might not prove unacceptabobble . And [Biddy]_188-biddy , [her]_188-biddy word were , ' Go to [him]_4267-his , without loss of time . ' That , " said [Joe]_154-joe , summing up with [his]_0-i judicial air , "_[188-biddy] were the word of [Biddy]_188-biddy . ' Go to [him]_4267-his , ' [Biddy]_188-biddy say , ' without loss of time . ' In short , [I]_0-i should n't greatly deceive [you]_241-pip , " [Joe]_154-joe added , after a little grave reflection , "_[0-i] if [I]_0-i represented to [you]_241-pip that the word of [that young woman]_{4271-that young woman} were , ' without a minute 's loss of time . ' " There [Joe]_154-joe cut [himself]_154-joe short , and informed [me]_{4271-that young woman} that [I]_{4271-that young woman} was to be talked to in great moderation , and that [I]_{4271-that young woman} was to take a little nourishment at stated frequent times , whether [I]_{4271-that young woman} felt inclined for it or not , and that [I]_{4271-that young woman} was to submit [myself]_{4271-that young woman} to all [his]_4267-his orders . So [I]_{4271-that young woman} kissed [his]_4267-his hand , and lay quiet , while [he]_4267-his proceeded to indite a note to [Biddy]_188-biddy , with [my]_{4271-that young woman} love in it . Evidently [Biddy]_188-biddy had taught [Joe]_154-joe to write . As [I]_{4271-that young woman} lay in bed looking at [him]_4267-his , it made [me]_{4271-that young woman} , in [my]_{4271-that young woman} weak state , cry again with pleasure to see the pride with which [he]_4267-his set about [his]_4267-his letter . [My]_{4271-that young woman} bedstead , divested of its curtains , had been removed , with [me]_{4271-that young woman} upon [it]_7774-it , into [the sitting - room]_{6166-the sitting - room} , as the airiest and largest , and the carpet had been taken away , and [the room]_{633-the room} kept always fresh and wholesome night and day . At [my]_{4271-that young woman} own writing - table , pushed into a corner and cumbered with little bottles , [Joe]_154-joe now sat down to [his]_4267-his great work , first choosing a pen from the pen - tray as if it were a chest of large tools , and tucking up [his]_4267-his sleeves as if [he]_4267-his were going to wield a crow - bar or sledgehammer . It was necessary for [Joe]_154-joe to hold on heavily to the table with [his]_4267-his left elbow , and to get [his]_4267-his right leg well out behind [him]_4267-his , before [he]_4267-his could begin ; and when [he]_4267-his did begin [he]_4267-his made every down - stroke so slowly that it might have been six feet long , while at every up - stroke [I]_{4271-that young woman} could hear [his]_4267-his pen spluttering extensively . [He]_4267-his had a curious idea that the inkstand was on the side of [him]_4267-his where it was not , and constantly dipped [his]_4267-his pen into space , and seemed quite satisfied with the result . Occasionally , [he]_4267-his was tripped up by some orthographical stumbling - block ; but on the whole [he]_4267-his got on very well indeed ; and when [he]_4267-his had signed [his]_4267-his name , and had removed a finishing blot from the paper to the crown of [his]_4267-his head with [his]_4267-his two forefingers , [he]_4267-his got up and hovered about the table , trying the effect of [his]_4267-his performance from various points of view , as it lay there , with unbounded satisfaction . Not to make [Joe]_154-joe uneasy by talking too much , even if [I]_{4271-that young woman} had been able to talk much , [I]_{4271-that young woman} deferred asking [him]_4267-his about [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} until next day . [He]_4267-his shook [his]_4267-his head when [I]_{4271-that young woman} then asked [him]_4267-his if [she]_4272-she had recovered . "_{[4271-that young woman]} Is [she]_4272-she dead , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Why [you]_4273-you see , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , in a tone of remonstrance , and by way of getting at it by degrees , "_[4273-you] [I]_0-i would n't go so far as to say that , for that 's a deal to say ; but [she]_4272-she ai n't - " "_[4272-she] Living , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] That 's nigher where it is , " said [Joe]_154-joe ; ' [she]_4272-she ai n't living . "_[154-joe] " Did [she]_4272-she linger long , [Joe]_154-joe ? "_[154-joe] " Arter [you]_4273-you was took ill , pretty much about what [you]_4273-you might call if [you]_4273-you was put to it a week , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe ; still determined , on [my]_0-i account , to come at everything by degrees . " [Dear Joe]_154-joe , have [you]_154-joe heard what becomes of [[her]_4272-she property]_{7777-her property} ? "_[154-joe] " Well , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " it do appear that [she]_4272-she had settled the most of it , which [I]_154-joe meantersay tied it up , on [Miss Estella]_195-estella . But [she]_4272-she had wrote out a little coddleshell in [her]_4272-she own hand a day or two afore the accident , leaving a cool four thousand to [Mr. Matthew Pocket]_{211-mr. pocket} . And why , do [you]_4273-you suppose , above all things , [Pip]_241-pip , [she]_4272-she left that cool four thousand unto [him]_241-pip ? ' Because of [Pip]_241-pip 's account of [him]_241-pip , the said [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} . ' [I]_154-joe am told by [Biddy]_188-biddy , that air the writing , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , repeating the legal turn as if it did [him]_4275-he infinite good , " ' account of [him]_241-pip the said [Matthew]_{211-mr. pocket} . ' And a cool four thousand , [Pip]_241-pip ! "_[154-joe] [I]_0-i never discovered from whom [Joe]_154-joe derived the conventional temperature of the four thousand pounds ; but it appeared to make the sum of money more to [him]_4275-he , and [he]_4275-he had a manifest relish in insisting on its being cool . This account gave [me]_0-i great joy , as it perfected the only good thing [I]_0-i had done . [I]_0-i asked [Joe]_154-joe whether [he]_4275-he had heard if any of the other relations had any legacies ? " [Miss Sarah]_{208-sarah pocket} , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , ' [she]_4276-she have twenty - five pound perannium fur to buy pills , on account of being bilious . [Miss Georgiana]_{160-georgiana} , [she]_{160-georgiana} have twenty pound down . [Mrs.]_4277-mrs. - what 's the name of them wild beasts with humps , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ? " "_{[4279-camels]} [Camels]_4279-camels ? " said [I]_{393-mrs. camels} , wondering why [he]_4275-he could possibly want to know . [Joe]_154-joe nodded . "_{[393-mrs. camels]} [Mrs. Camels]_{393-mrs. camels} , " by which [I]_{393-mrs. camels} presently understood [he]_4275-he meant [Camilla]_{367-mistress camilla} , ' [she]_{367-mistress camilla} have five pound fur to buy rushlights to put [her]_{367-mistress camilla} in spirits when [she]_{367-mistress camilla} wake up in the night . "_{[393-mrs. camels]} The accuracy of these recitals was sufficiently obvious to [me]_0-i , to give [me]_0-i great confidence in [Joe]_154-joe 's information . " And now , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , " [you]_0-i ai n't that strong yet , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , that [you]_0-i can take in more nor one additional shovelful to - day . Old Orlick [he]_{4500-old chap} 's been a bustin ' open [a dwelling - ouse]_{7780-a dwelling - ouse} . "_[154-joe] " Whose ? "_[0-i] said [I.]_0-i " Not , [I]_154-joe grant [you]_0-i , but what [his]_{4280-a englishman} manners is given to blusterous , "_[154-joe] said [Joe]_154-joe , apologetically ; ' still , [a Englishman]_{4280-a englishman} 's ouse is [[his]_{4280-a englishman} Castle]_{4281-his castle} , and [castles]_4282-castles must not be busted ' cept when done in war time . And wotsume'er the failings on [his]_{4280-a englishman} part , [he]_{4280-a englishman} were [a corn and seedsman]_{4283-a corn and seedsman} in [[his]_{4280-a englishman} hart]_{4768-his hart} . " "_{[4283-a corn and seedsman]} Is it [[Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} 's house]_{4285-pumblechook 's house} that has been broken into , then ? " "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} That 's it , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [Joe]_154-joe ; "_[241-pip] and [they]_4286-they took [his]_{4280-a englishman} till , and [they]_4286-they took [his]_{4280-a englishman} cash - box , and [they]_4286-they drinked [his]_{4280-a englishman} wine , and [they]_4286-they partook of [his]_{4280-a englishman} wittles , and [they]_4286-they slapped [his]_{4280-a englishman} face , and [they]_4286-they pulled [his]_{4280-a englishman} nose , and [they]_4286-they tied [him]_{4280-a englishman} up to [his]_{4280-a englishman} bedpust , and [they]_4286-they giv ' [him]_{4280-a englishman} a dozen , and [they]_4286-they stuffed [his]_{4280-a englishman} mouth full of flowering annuals to prewent [his]_{4280-a englishman} crying out . But [he]_{4280-a englishman} knowed [Orlick]_225-orlick , and [Orlick]_225-orlick 's in [the county jail]_{1336-the county jail} . " By these approaches [we]_7781-we arrived at unrestricted conversation . [I]_{4280-a englishman} was slow to gain strength , but [I]_{4280-a englishman} did slowly and surely become less weak , and [Joe]_154-joe stayed with [me]_{4280-a englishman} , and [I]_{4280-a englishman} fancied [I]_{4280-a englishman} was [little Pip]_241-pip again . For the tenderness of [Joe]_154-joe was so beautifully proportioned to [my]_{4280-a englishman} need , that [I]_{4280-a englishman} was like [a child]_{691-a child} in [his]_{4280-a englishman} hands . [He]_{4280-a englishman} would sit and talk to [me]_{4280-a englishman} in the old confidence , and with the old simplicity , and in the old unassertive protecting way , so that [I]_{4280-a englishman} would half believe that all [my]_{4280-a englishman} life since the days of [the old kitchen]_{2760-the old kitchen} was one of the mental troubles of the fever that was gone . [He]_{4280-a englishman} did everything for [me]_{4280-a englishman} except the household work , for which [he]_{4280-a englishman} had engaged [a very decent woman]_{7784-a very decent woman} , after paying off [the laundress]_{3220-the laundress} on [his]_{4280-a englishman} first arrival . "_{[4280-a englishman]} Which [I]_0-i do assure [you]_4288-you , [Pip]_241-pip , " [he]_{4280-a englishman} would often say , in explanation of that liberty ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i found [her]_4289-i a tapping the spare bed , like a cask of beer , and drawing off the feathers in a bucket , for sale . Which [she]_4289-i would have tapped [yourn]_4290-yourn next , and draw'd it off with [you]_4290-yourn a laying on it , and was then a carrying away the coals gradiwally in the soup - tureen and wegetable - dishes , and the wine and spirits in [your]_4290-yourn Wellington boots . " [We]_7786-we looked forward to the day when [I]_4289-i should go out for a ride , as [we]_7786-we had once looked forward to the day of [my]_4289-i apprenticeship . And when the day came , and [an open carriage]_{7787-an open carriage} was got into [the Lane]_{669-the lane} , [Joe]_154-joe wrapped [me]_4289-i up , took [me]_4289-i in [his]_{4280-a englishman} arms , carried [me]_4289-i down to it , and put [me]_4289-i in , as if [I]_4289-i were still [the small helpless creature to whom [he]_{4280-a englishman} had so abundantly given of the wealth of [his]_{4280-a englishman} great nature]_{7789-the small helpless creature to whom he had so abundantly given of the wealth of his great nature} . And [Joe]_154-joe got in beside [me]_4289-i , and [we]_7786-we drove away together into [the country]_{1330-the country} , where the rich summer growth was already on the trees and on the grass , and sweet summer scents filled all the air . The day happened to be Sunday , and when [I]_4289-i looked on the loveliness around [me]_4289-i , and thought how it had grown and changed , and how the little wild - flowers had been forming , and the voices of the birds had been strengthening , by day and by night , under the sun and under the stars , while poor [I]_4289-i lay burning and tossing on [my]_4289-i bed , the mere remembrance of having burned and tossed there came like a check upon [my]_4289-i peace . But when [I]_4289-i heard the Sunday bells , and looked around a little more upon the outspread beauty , [I]_4289-i felt that [I]_4289-i was not nearly thankful enough , - that [I]_4289-i was too weak yet to be even that , - and [I]_4289-i laid [my]_4289-i head on [Joe]_154-joe 's shoulder , as [I]_4289-i had laid it long ago when [he]_{4280-a englishman} had taken [me]_4289-i to [the Fair]_{150-the fair} or where not , and it was too much for [my]_4289-i young senses . More composure came to [me]_4289-i after a while , and [we]_7786-we talked as [we]_7786-we used to talk , lying on the grass at [the old Battery]_{789-the old battery} . There was no change whatever in [Joe]_154-joe . Exactly what [he]_{4280-a englishman} had been in [my]_4289-i eyes then , [he]_{4280-a englishman} was in [my]_4289-i eyes still ; just as simply faithful , and as simply right . When [we]_7786-we got back again , and [he]_{4280-a englishman} lifted [me]_4289-i out , and carried [me]_4289-i - so easily ! - across [the court]_{3035-the court} and up the stairs , [I]_4289-i thought of that eventful Christmas Day when [he]_{4280-a englishman} had carried [me]_4289-i over [the marshes]_{423-the marshes} . [We]_7786-we had not yet made any allusion to [my]_4289-i change of fortune , nor did [I]_4289-i know how much of [my]_4289-i late history [he]_{4280-a englishman} was acquainted with . [I]_4289-i was so doubtful of [myself]_4289-i now , and put so much trust in [him]_{4280-a englishman} , that [I]_4289-i could not satisfy [myself]_4289-i whether [I]_4289-i ought to refer to it when [he]_{4280-a englishman} did not . "_[4289-i] Have [you]_4291-you heard , [Joe]_154-joe , " [I]_4291-you asked [him]_4291-you that evening , upon further consideration , as [he]_4291-you smoked [his]_4291-you pipe at the window , "_[4291-you] who [[my]_0-i patron]_{1386-my patron} was ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i heerd , " returned [Joe]_154-joe , "_[0-i] as it were not [Miss Havisham]_{223-miss havisham} , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . " "_{[223-miss havisham]} Did [you]_4291-you hear who it was , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Well ! [I]_0-i heerd as it were [a person]_{3166-a person} what sent [the person]_{5329-the person} what giv ' [you]_4291-you the bank - notes at [the Jolly Bargemen]_{1150-the jolly bargemen} , [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] So it was . " "_[241-pip] Astonishing ! " said [Joe]_154-joe , in the placidest way . "_[241-pip] Did [you]_154-joe hear that [he]_241-pip was dead , [Joe]_154-joe ? " [I]_154-joe presently asked , with increasing diffidence . "_[154-joe] Which ? [Him]_241-pip as sent the bank - notes , [Pip]_241-pip ? " "_[241-pip] Yes . " "_[241-pip] [I]_0-i think , " said [Joe]_154-joe , after meditating a long time , and looking rather evasively at the window - seat , "_[241-pip] as [I]_0-i did hear tell that how [he]_241-pip were something or another in a general way in that direction . " "_[0-i] Did [you]_4291-you hear anything of [his]_241-pip circumstances , [Joe]_154-joe ? " "_[154-joe] Not partickler , [Pip]_241-pip . " "_[241-pip] If [you]_154-joe would like to hear , [Joe]_154-joe - " [I]_154-joe was beginning , when [Joe]_154-joe got up and came to [my]_154-joe sofa . "_[154-joe] Lookee here , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , bending over [me]_{4500-old chap} . "_{[4500-old chap]} Ever [the best of friends]_{4298-the best of friends} ; ai n't [us]_4299-us , [Pip]_241-pip ? " [I]_4300-i was ashamed to answer [him]_241-pip . "_[4300-i] [Wery]_4300-i good , then , " said [Joe]_154-joe , as if [I]_4300-i had answered ; "_[4300-i] that 's all right ; that 's agreed upon . Then why go into [subjects]_{4301-subjects} , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , which as betwixt two sech must be for ever onnecessary ? There 's subjects enough as betwixt two sech , without onnecessary ones . [Lord]_4303-lord ! To think of [[your]_{4500-old chap} poor sister]_{6149-your poor sister} and [[her]_{6149-your poor sister} Rampages]_{4305-her rampages} ! And do n't [you]_{4500-old chap} remember [Tickler]_162-tickler ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do indeed , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[154-joe] Lookee here , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_{[4500-old chap]} [I]_0-i done what [I]_0-i could to keep [you]_{4500-old chap} and [Tickler]_162-tickler in sunders , but [my]_0-i power were not always fully equal to [my]_0-i inclinations . For when [[your]_{4500-old chap} poor sister]_{6149-your poor sister} had a mind to drop into [you]_{4500-old chap} , it were not so much , " said [Joe]_154-joe , in [his]_0-i favorite argumentative way , "_{[6149-your poor sister]} that [she]_{6149-your poor sister} dropped into [me]_0-i too , if [I]_0-i put [myself]_0-i in opposition to [her]_{6149-your poor sister} , but that [she]_{6149-your poor sister} dropped into [you]_{4500-old chap} always heavier for it . [I]_0-i noticed that . It ai n't a grab at [a man]_{428-a man} 's whisker , not yet a shake or two of [a man to which [[your]_{4500-old chap} sister]_{906-your sister} was quite welcome]_{4309-a man to which your sister was quite welcome} , that ' ud put [a man]_{428-a man} off from getting [a little child]_{6786-a little child} out of punishment . But when [that little child]_{4313-that little child} is dropped into heavier for that grab of whisker or shaking , then [that man]_{6907-that man} naterally up and says to [himself]_{6907-that man} , ' Where is the good as [you]_{4500-old chap} are a doing ? [I]_0-i grant [you]_{4500-old chap} [I]_0-i see the ' arm , ' says [the man]_{433-the man} , ' but [I]_0-i do n't see the good . [I]_0-i call upon [you]_{4500-old chap} , [sir]_4451-sir , therefore , to pint out the good . ' " "_{[433-the man]} [The man]_{433-the man} says ? " [I]_{433-the man} observed , as [Joe]_154-joe waited for [me]_{433-the man} to speak . "_{[433-the man]} [The man]_{433-the man} says , " [Joe]_154-joe assented . "_{[433-the man]} Is [he]_{433-the man} right , [that man]_{6907-that man} ? " "_{[433-the man]} [Dear Joe]_154-joe , [he]_{433-the man} is always right . " "_{[433-the man]} Well , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , "_{[4500-old chap]} then abide by [your]_{4500-old chap} words . If [he]_{433-the man} 's always right which in general [he]_{433-the man} 's more likely wrong , [he]_{433-the man} 's right when [he]_{433-the man} says this : Supposing ever [you]_4321-you kep any little matter to [yourself]_4321-you , when [you]_4321-you was [a little child]_{6786-a little child} , [you]_4321-you kep it mostly because [you]_4321-you know'd as [J. Gargery]_{218-mrs. j. gargery} 's power to part [you]_4321-you and [Tickler]_162-tickler in sunders were not fully equal to [his]_{433-the man} inclinations . Theerfore , think no more of it as betwixt two sech , and do not let [us]_4323-us pass remarks upon onnecessary subjects . [Biddy]_188-biddy giv ' [herself]_188-biddy a deal o ' trouble with [me]_0-i afore [I]_0-i left for [I]_0-i am almost awful dull , as [I]_0-i should view it in this light , and , viewing it in this light , as [I]_0-i should so put it . Both of which , " said [Joe]_154-joe , quite charmed with [his]_0-i logical arrangement , "_[0-i] being done , now this to [you]_4321-you [a true friend]_{4961-a true friend} , say . Namely . [You]_4321-you must n't go a overdoing on it , but [you]_4321-you must have [your]_4321-you supper and [your]_4321-you wine and water , and [you]_4321-you must be put betwixt the sheets . " The delicacy with which [Joe]_154-joe dismissed this theme , and the sweet tact and kindness with which [Biddy]_188-biddy - who with [[her]_188-biddy woman]_{7794-her woman} 's wit had found [me]_{4500-old chap} out so soon - had prepared [him]_0-i for it , made a deep impression on [my]_{4500-old chap} mind . But whether [Joe]_154-joe knew how poor [I]_{4500-old chap} was , and how [my]_{4500-old chap} great expectations had all dissolved , like [our]_7795-our own marsh mists before the sun , [I]_{4500-old chap} could not understand . Another thing in [Joe]_154-joe that [I]_{4500-old chap} could not understand when it first began to develop itself , but which [I]_{4500-old chap} soon arrived at a sorrowful comprehension of , was this : As [I]_{4500-old chap} became stronger and better , [Joe]_154-joe became a little less easy with [me]_{4500-old chap} . In [my]_{4500-old chap} weakness and entire dependence on [him]_0-i , [the dear fellow]_{4693-the dear fellow} had fallen into the old tone , and called [me]_{4500-old chap} by the old names , [the dear "_{[4500-old chap]} old Pip]_{7797-the dear " old pip} , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " that now were music in [my]_{4500-old chap} ears . [I]_{4500-old chap} too had fallen into the old ways , only happy and thankful that [he]_0-i let [me]_{4500-old chap} . But , imperceptibly , though [I]_{4500-old chap} held by [them]_{7797-the dear " old pip} fast , [Joe]_154-joe 's hold upon [them]_{7797-the dear " old pip} began to slacken ; and whereas [I]_{4500-old chap} wondered at this , at first , [I]_{4500-old chap} soon began to understand that the cause of it was in [me]_{4500-old chap} , and that the fault of it was all [mine]_{4500-old chap} . Ah ! Had [I]_{4500-old chap} given [Joe]_154-joe no reason to doubt [my]_{4500-old chap} constancy , and to think that in prosperity [I]_{4500-old chap} should grow cold to [him]_0-i and cast [him]_0-i off ? Had [I]_{4500-old chap} given [Joe]_154-joe 's innocent heart no cause to feel instinctively that as [I]_{4500-old chap} got stronger , [his]_0-i hold upon [me]_{4500-old chap} would be weaker , and that [he]_0-i had better loosen it in time and let [me]_{4500-old chap} go , before [I]_{4500-old chap} plucked [myself]_{4500-old chap} away ? It was on the third or fourth occasion of [my]_{4500-old chap} going out walking in [the Temple Gardens]_{7798-the temple gardens} leaning on [Joe]_154-joe 's arm , that [I]_{4500-old chap} saw this change in [him]_0-i very plainly . [We]_7799-we had been sitting in the bright warm sunlight , looking at [the river]_{413-the river} , and [I]_{4500-old chap} chanced to say as [we]_7799-we got up , - "_{[4500-old chap]} See , [Joe]_154-joe ! [I]_0-i can walk quite strongly . Now , [you]_154-joe shall see [me]_0-i walk back by [myself]_0-i . " "_[154-joe] Which do not overdo it , [Pip]_241-pip , " said [Joe]_154-joe ; "_[241-pip] but [I]_0-i shall be happy fur to see [you]_241-pip able , [sir]_4451-sir . " The last word grated on [me]_0-i ; but how could [I]_0-i remonstrate ! [I]_0-i walked no further than the gate of [the gardens]_{7801-the gardens} , and then pretended to be weaker than [I]_0-i was , and asked [Joe]_154-joe for [his]_0-i arm . [Joe]_154-joe gave it [me]_0-i , but was thoughtful . [I]_0-i , for [my]_0-i part , was thoughtful too ; for , how best to check this growing change in [Joe]_154-joe was a great perplexity to [my]_0-i remorseful thoughts . That [I]_0-i was ashamed to tell [him]_0-i exactly how [I]_0-i was placed , and what [I]_0-i had come down to , [I]_0-i do not seek to conceal ; but [I]_0-i hope [my]_0-i reluctance was not quite an unworthy one . [He]_0-i would want to help [me]_0-i out of [his]_0-i little savings , [I]_0-i knew , and [I]_0-i knew that [he]_0-i ought not to help [me]_0-i , and that [I]_0-i must not suffer [him]_0-i to do it . It was a thoughtful evening with [both of [us]_{4892-both of us}]_{4892-both of us} . But , before [we]_{4892-both of us} went to bed , [I]_0-i had resolved that [I]_0-i would wait over to - morrow , - to - morrow being Sunday , - and would begin [my]_0-i new course with the new week . On Monday morning [I]_0-i would speak to [Joe]_154-joe about this change , [I]_0-i would lay aside this last vestige of reserve , [I]_0-i would tell [him]_0-i what [I]_0-i had in [my]_0-i thoughts that Secondly , not yet arrived at , and why [I]_0-i had not decided to go out to [Herbert]_265-herbert , and then the change would be conquered for ever . As [I]_0-i cleared , [Joe]_154-joe cleared , and it seemed as though [he]_0-i had sympathetically arrived at a resolution too . [We]_7803-we had a quiet day on the Sunday , and [we]_7803-we rode out into [the country]_{1330-the country} , and then walked in [the fields]_{7805-the fields} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i feel thankful that [I]_0-i have been ill , [Joe]_154-joe , " [I]_154-joe said . "_[154-joe] [Dear old Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , [you]_{4500-old chap} 're a'most come round , [sir]_4451-sir . " "_[4451-sir] It has been a memorable time for [me]_0-i , [Joe]_154-joe . " "_[154-joe] Likeways for [myself]_0-i , [sir]_4451-sir , " [Joe]_154-joe returned . "_[4451-sir] [We]_4330-we have had a time together , [Joe]_154-joe , that [I]_0-i can never forget . There were days once , [I]_0-i know , that [I]_0-i did for a while forget ; but [I]_0-i never shall forget these . " "_[241-pip] [Pip]_241-pip , " said [Joe]_154-joe , appearing a little hurried and troubled , "_[241-pip] there has been larks . And , [dear sir]_{2569-dear sir} , what have been betwixt [us]_4330-we - have been . " At night , when [I]_154-joe had gone to bed , [Joe]_154-joe came into [[my]_154-joe room]_{555-my room} , as [he]_0-i had done all through [my]_154-joe recovery . [He]_0-i asked [me]_154-joe if [I]_154-joe felt sure that [I]_154-joe was as well as in the morning ? "_[154-joe] Yes , [dear Joe]_154-joe , quite . " "_[154-joe] And are always a getting stronger , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} ? " "_[154-joe] Yes , [dear Joe]_154-joe , steadily . " [Joe]_154-joe patted the coverlet on [my]_154-joe shoulder with [his]_0-i great good hand , and said , in what [I]_154-joe thought a husky voice , "_[154-joe] Good night ! " When [I]_154-joe got up in the morning , refreshed and stronger yet , [I]_154-joe was full of [my]_154-joe resolution to tell [Joe]_154-joe all , without delay . [I]_154-joe would tell [him]_0-i before breakfast . [I]_154-joe would dress at once and go to [[his]_0-i room]_{625-his room} and surprise [him]_0-i ; for , it was the first day [I]_154-joe had been up early . [I]_154-joe went to [[his]_0-i room]_{625-his room} , and [he]_0-i was not [there]_4505-there . Not only was [he]_0-i not [there]_4505-there , but [his]_0-i box was gone . [I]_154-joe hurried then to the breakfast - table , and on it found a letter . These were its brief contents : - "_[154-joe] Not wishful to intrude [I]_0-i have departured fur [you]_4333-you are well again dear [Pip]_241-pip and will do better without [JO]_154-joe . " [P.S. Ever the best of friends]_{7811-p.s. ever the best of friends} . "_[154-joe] Enclosed in the letter was a receipt for the debt and costs on which [I]_0-i had been arrested . Down to that moment , [I]_0-i had vainly supposed that [[my]_0-i creditor]_{4334-my creditor} had withdrawn , or suspended proceedings until [I]_0-i should be quite recovered . [I]_0-i had never dreamed of [Joe]_154-joe 's having paid the money ; but [Joe]_154-joe had paid it , and the receipt was in [his]_4335-him name . What remained for [me]_0-i now , but to follow [him]_4335-him to [the dear old forge]_{4336-the dear old forge} , and there to have out [my]_0-i disclosure to [him]_4335-him , and [my]_0-i penitent remonstrance with [him]_4335-him , and there to relieve [my]_0-i mind and heart of that reserved Secondly , which had begun as a vague something lingering in [my]_0-i thoughts , and had formed into a settled purpose ? The purpose was , that [I]_0-i would go to [Biddy]_188-biddy , that [I]_0-i would show [her]_188-biddy how humbled and repentant [I]_0-i came back , that [I]_0-i would tell [her]_188-biddy how [I]_0-i had lost all [I]_0-i once hoped for , that [I]_0-i would remind [her]_188-biddy of [our]_4337-our old confidences in [my]_0-i first unhappy time . Then [I]_0-i would say to [her]_188-biddy , " [Biddy]_188-biddy , [I]_0-i think [you]_188-biddy once liked [me]_0-i very well , when [my]_0-i errant heart , even while it strayed away from [you]_188-biddy , was quieter and better with [you]_188-biddy than it ever has been since . If [you]_188-biddy can like [me]_0-i only half as well once more , if [you]_188-biddy can take [me]_0-i with all [my]_0-i faults and disappointments on [my]_0-i head , if [you]_188-biddy can receive [me]_0-i like [a forgiven child]_{7812-a forgiven child} and indeed [I]_0-i am as sorry , [Biddy]_188-biddy , and have as much need of a hushing voice and a soothing hand , [I]_0-i hope [I]_0-i am a little worthier of [you]_188-biddy that [I]_0-i was , - not much , but a little . And , [Biddy]_188-biddy , it shall rest with [you]_188-biddy to say whether [I]_0-i shall work at the forge with [Joe]_154-joe , or whether [I]_0-i shall try for any different occupation down in [this country]_{4981-this country} , or whether [we]_7814-we shall go away to a distant place where an opportunity awaits [me]_0-i which [I]_0-i set aside , when it was offered , until [I]_0-i knew [your]_188-biddy answer . And now , [dear Biddy]_188-biddy , if [you]_188-biddy can tell [me]_0-i that [you]_188-biddy will go through [the world]_{4698-the world} with [me]_0-i , [you]_188-biddy will surely make [it]_{4698-the world} [a better world]_{7816-a better world} for [me]_0-i , and [me]_0-i [a better man]_{7817-a better man} for it , and [I]_0-i will try hard to make it a better world for [you]_188-biddy . "_[0-i] Such was [my]_0-i purpose . After three days more of recovery , [I]_0-i went down to [the old place]_{4338-the old place} to put it in execution . And how [I]_0-i sped in it is all [I]_0-i have left to tell . Chapter LVIII The tidings of [my]_0-i high fortunes having had a heavy fall had got down to [[my]_0-i native place]_{4339-my native place} and [[its]_{4339-my native place} neighborhood]_{4340-its neighborhood} before [I]_0-i got [there]_4505-there . [I]_0-i found [the Blue Boar]_{246-the boar} in possession of the intelligence , and [I]_0-i found that it made a great change in [the Boar]_{246-the boar} 's demeanour . Whereas [the Boar]_{246-the boar} had cultivated [my]_0-i good opinion with warm assiduity when [I]_0-i was coming into [property]_{4342-property} , [the Boar]_{4343-the boar} was exceedingly cool on the subject now that [I]_0-i was going out of [property]_{4342-property} . It was evening when [I]_0-i arrived , much fatigued by the journey [I]_0-i had so often made so easily . [The Boar]_{246-the boar} could not put [me]_0-i into [[my]_0-i usual bedroom]_{4345-my usual bedroom} , which was engaged probably by some one who had expectations , and could only assign [me]_0-i [a very indifferent chamber among the pigeons and post - chaises up [the yard]_{717-the yard}]_{4346-a very indifferent chamber among the pigeons and post - chaises up the yard} . But [I]_0-i had as sound a sleep in [that lodging]_{4348-that lodging} as in [the most superior accommodation]_{4349-the most superior accommodation} [the Boar]_{4343-the boar} could have given [me]_0-i , and the quality of [my]_0-i dreams was about the same as in [the best bedroom]_{4351-the best bedroom} . Early in the morning , while [my]_0-i breakfast was getting ready , [I]_0-i strolled round by [Satis House]_{90-satis house} . There were printed bills on the gate and on bits of carpet hanging out of the windows , announcing a sale by auction of the Household Furniture and Effects , next week . [The House]_{604-the house} itself was to be sold as old building materials , and pulled down . [LOT 1]_{4353-lot 1} was marked in whitewashed knock - knee letters on [the brew house]_{4354-the brew house} ; [LOT 2]_{4355-lot 2} on that part of [the main building which had been so long shut up]_{4356-the main building which had been so long shut up} . [Other lots]_{4357-other lots} were marked off on other parts of [the structure]_{4358-the structure} , and the ivy had been torn down to make room for the inscriptions , and much of it trailed low in the dust and was withered already . Stepping in for a moment at the open gate , and looking around [me]_0-i with the uncomfortable air of [a stranger who had no business [there]_4505-there]_{4359-a stranger who had no business there} , [I]_0-i saw [[the auctioneer]_{4361-the auctioneer} 's clerk]_{4362-the auctioneer 's clerk} walking on the casks and telling [them]_{4362-the auctioneer 's clerk} off for the information of a catalogue - compiler , pen in hand , who made a temporary desk of the wheeled chair [I]_0-i had so often pushed along to the tune of [Old Clem]_{215-old clem} . When [I]_0-i got back to [my]_0-i breakfast in [the [Boar]_{246-the boar} 's coffee - room]_{4363-the boar 's coffee - room} , [I]_0-i found [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} conversing with [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} not improved in appearance by [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} late nocturnal adventure was waiting for [me]_0-i , and addressed [me]_0-i in the following terms : - " [Young man]_{4481-young man} , [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} am sorry to see [you]_{4481-young man} brought low . But what else could be expected ! what else could be expected ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} As [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} extended [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hand with a magnificently forgiving air , and as [I]_0-i was broken by illness and unfit to quarrel , [I]_0-i took it . " [William]_394-william , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} to [the waiter]_{5696-the waiter} , " put a muffin on table . And has it come to this ! Has it come to this ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i frowningly sat down to [my]_0-i breakfast . [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} stood over [me]_0-i and poured out [my]_0-i tea - before [I]_0-i could touch the teapot - with the air of [a benefactor who was resolved to be true to the last]_{4366-a benefactor who was resolved to be true to the last} . " [William]_394-william , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , mournfully , " put the salt on . In happier times , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} addressing [me]_0-i , " [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} think [you]_394-william took sugar ? And did [you]_394-william take milk ? [You]_394-william did . Sugar and milk . [William]_394-william , bring a watercress . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " Thank [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , shortly , " but [I]_0-i do n't eat watercresses . "_[0-i] " [You]_394-william do n't eat ['em]_7819-'em , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} returned [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , sighing and nodding [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} head several times , as if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} might have expected that , and as if abstinence from watercresses were consistent with [my]_0-i downfall . " True . The simple fruits of [the earth]_{5782-the earth} . No . [You]_394-william need n't bring any , [William]_394-william . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went on with [my]_0-i breakfast , and [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} continued to stand over [me]_0-i , staring fishily and breathing noisily , as [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} always did . " Little more than skin and bone ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} mused [Mr. Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , aloud . " And yet when [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} went from [here]_693-here [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} may say with [my]_{176-mr. pumblechook} blessing , and [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} spread afore [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} [[my]_{176-mr. pumblechook} humble store]_{7822-my humble store} , like [the Bee]_{7823-the bee} , [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was as plump as a Peach ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} This reminded [me]_0-i of the wonderful difference between the servile manner in which [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had offered [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} hand in [my]_0-i new prosperity , saying , " May [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} and the ostentatious clemency with which [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} had just now exhibited the same fat five fingers . " Hah ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} went on , handing [me]_0-i the bread and butter . " And air [you]_0-i a going to [Joseph]_154-joe ? "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " In heaven 's name , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , firing in spite of [myself]_0-i , " what does it matter to [you]_{176-mr. pumblechook} where [I]_0-i am going ? Leave that teapot alone . "_[0-i] It was the worst course [I]_0-i could have taken , because it gave [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} the opportunity [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} wanted . " Yes , [young man]_{4481-young man} , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , releasing the handle of the article in question , retiring a step or two from [my]_0-i table , and speaking for the behoof of [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} and [waiter at the door]_{4368-waiter at the door} , " [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} will leave that teapot alone . [You]_{4481-young man} are right , [young man]_{4481-young man} . For once [you]_{4481-young man} are right . [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} forgit [myself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} when [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} take such an interest in [your]_{4481-young man} breakfast , as to wish [your]_{4481-young man} frame , exhausted by the debilitating effects of prodigygality , to be stimilated by the ' olesome nourishment of [[your]_{4481-young man} forefathers]_{7826-your forefathers} . And yet , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , turning to [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} and [waiter]_7038-waiter , and pointing [me]_0-i out at arm 's length , " this is [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} as [I]_{856-the two} ever sported with in [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} days of happy infancy ! Tell [me]_{856-the two} not it can not be ; [I]_{856-the two} tell [you]_{4481-young man} this is [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} ! "_{[856-the two]} A low murmur from [the two]_{856-the two} replied . [The waiter]_{5696-the waiter} appeared to be particularly affected . " This is [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , " as [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} have rode in [my]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shay - cart . This is [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} as [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} have seen brought up by hand . This is [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} untoe [the sister of which [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was [uncle]_658-uncle by marriage]_{7827-the sister of which i was uncle by marriage} , as [her]_{7827-the sister of which i was uncle by marriage} name was [Georgiana M'ria]_{395-georgiana m'ria} from [[her]_{7827-the sister of which i was uncle by marriage} own mother]_{7829-her own mother} , let [him]_{176-mr. pumblechook} deny it if [he]_{176-mr. pumblechook} can ! "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [The waiter]_{5696-the waiter} seemed convinced that [I]_0-i could not deny it , and that it gave the case a black look . " [Young man]_{4481-young man} , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , screwing [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} head at [me]_0-i in the old fashion , " [you]_{4481-young man} air a going to [Joseph]_154-joe . What does it matter to [me]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , [you]_{4481-young man} ask [me]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , where [you]_{4481-young man} air a going ? [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} say to [you]_{4481-young man} , [Sir]_4451-sir , [you]_{4481-young man} air a going to [Joseph]_154-joe . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} [The waiter]_{5696-the waiter} coughed , as if [he]_{5696-the waiter} modestly invited [me]_0-i to get over that . " Now , "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} said [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , and all this with a most exasperating air of saying in the cause of virtue what was perfectly convincing and conclusive , " [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} will tell [you]_{4481-young man} what to say to [Joseph]_154-joe . Here is [Squires of the Boar present]_{7832-squires of the boar present} , known and respected in [this town]_{2149-this town} , and here is [William]_394-william , which [[his]_394-william father]_{5627-his father} 's name was [Potkins]_396-potkins if [I]_{176-mr. pumblechook} do not deceive [myself]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_{[176-mr. pumblechook]} " [You]_{176-mr. pumblechook} do not , [sir]_4451-sir , "_{[394-william]} said [William]_394-william . " In [their]_7836-their presence , "_{[394-william]} pursued [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} , " [I]_154-joe will tell [you]_4451-sir , [young man]_{4481-young man} , what to say to [Joseph]_154-joe . Says [you]_4451-sir , "_[154-joe] [Joseph]_154-joe , [I]_0-i have this day seen [[my]_0-i earliest benefactor]_{2754-my earliest benefactor} and [the founder of [[my]_0-i fortun 's]_{4377-my fortun 's}]_{4376-the founder of my fortun 's} . [I]_0-i will name no names , [Joseph]_154-joe , but so [they]_4378-they are pleased to call [him]_0-i up [town]_4800-town , and [I]_0-i have seen [that man]_{6907-that man} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i swear [I]_0-i do n't see [him]_0-i here , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] Say that likewise , " retorted [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} . "_[0-i] Say [you]_0-i said that , and even [Joseph]_154-joe will probably betray surprise . " "_[0-i] There [you]_0-i quite mistake [him]_0-i , " said [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know better . " "_[0-i] Says [you]_0-i , " [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} went on , "_[0-i] ' [Joseph]_154-joe , [I]_0-i have seen [that man]_{6907-that man} , and [that man]_{6907-that man} bears [you]_0-i no malice and bears [me]_0-i no malice . [He]_{6907-that man} knows [your]_0-i character , [Joseph]_154-joe , and is well acquainted with [your]_0-i pig - headedness and ignorance ; and [he]_{6907-that man} knows [my]_0-i character , [Joseph]_154-joe , and [he]_{6907-that man} knows [my]_0-i want of gratitoode . Yes , [Joseph]_154-joe , ' says [you]_0-i , " here [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} shook [his]_{176-mr. pumblechook} head and hand at [me]_0-i , "_[0-i] ' [he]_{6907-that man} knows [my]_0-i total deficiency of [common human gratitoode]_{4383-common human gratitoode} . [He]_{6907-that man} knows it , [Joseph]_154-joe , as [none]_3956-none can . [You]_0-i do not know it , [Joseph]_154-joe , having no call to know it , but [that man]_{6907-that man} do . ' " [Windy donkey]_{397-windy donkey} as [he]_{6907-that man} was , it really amazed [me]_0-i that [he]_{6907-that man} could have the face to talk thus to [mine]_0-i . "_[0-i] Says [you]_0-i , ' [Joseph]_154-joe , [he]_{6907-that man} gave [me]_0-i a little message , which [I]_0-i will now repeat . It was that , in [my]_0-i being brought low , [he]_{6907-that man} saw the finger of [Providence]_{398-providence} . [He]_{6907-that man} knowed that finger when [he]_{6907-that man} saw [Joseph]_154-joe , and [he]_{6907-that man} saw it plain . It pinted out this writing , [Joseph]_154-joe . [Reward of ingratitoode to [[his]_{6907-that man} earliest benefactor]_{4387-his earliest benefactor} , and [founder of fortun 's]_{4388-founder of fortun 's}]_{4386-reward of ingratitoode to his earliest benefactor , and founder of fortun 's} . But [that man]_{6907-that man} said [he]_{6907-that man} did not repent of what [he]_{6907-that man} had done , [Joseph]_154-joe . Not at all . It was right to do it , it was kind to do it , it was benevolent to do it , and [he]_{6907-that man} would do it again . ' " "_{[6907-that man]} It 's pity , " said [I]_{6907-that man} , scornfully , as [I]_{6907-that man} finished [my]_{6907-that man} interrupted breakfast , "_{[6907-that man]} that [the man]_{433-the man} did not say what [he]_{6907-that man} had done and would do again . " "_{[6907-that man]} [Squires of [the Boar]_{246-the boar}]_{4391-squires of the boar} ! " [Pumblechook]_{176-mr. pumblechook} was now addressing [the landlord]_{1154-the landlord} , "_{[394-william]} and [William]_394-william ! [I]_0-i have no objections to [your]_4392-your mentioning , either up [town]_4800-town or [down town]_{957-down town} , if such should be [your]_4392-your wishes , that it was right to do it , kind to do it , benevolent to do it , and that [I]_0-i would do it again . " With those words [the Impostor]_{7839-the impostor} shook [them]_7840-them both by the hand , with an air , and left [the house]_{604-the house} ; leaving [me]_0-i much more astonished than delighted by the virtues of that same indefinite "_[0-i] it . " [I]_0-i was not long after [him]_{7839-the impostor} in leaving [the house]_{604-the house} too , and when [I]_0-i went down [the High Street]_{4815-the high street} [I]_0-i saw [him]_{7839-the impostor} holding forth no doubt to the same effect at [his]_{7839-the impostor} shop door to [a select group]_{7844-a select group} , who honored [me]_0-i with very unfavorable glances as [I]_0-i passed on the opposite side of the way . But , it was only the pleasanter to turn to [Biddy]_188-biddy and to [Joe]_154-joe , whose great forbearance shone more brightly than before , if that could be , contrasted with [this brazen pretender]_{7845-this brazen pretender} . [I]_0-i went towards [them]_7840-them slowly , for [my]_0-i limbs were weak , but with a sense of increasing relief as [I]_0-i drew nearer to [them]_7840-them , and a sense of leaving arrogance and untruthfulness further and further behind . The June weather was delicious . The sky was blue , the larks were soaring high over [the green corn]_{7846-the green corn} , [I]_0-i thought all [that countryside]_{7847-that countryside} more beautiful and peaceful by far than [I]_0-i had ever known [it]_{7847-that countryside} to be yet . Many pleasant pictures of the life that [I]_0-i would lead there , and of the change for the better that would come over [my]_0-i character when [I]_0-i had [a guiding spirit at [my]_0-i side whose simple faith and clear home wisdom [I]_0-i had proved , beguiled [my]_0-i way]_{7848-a guiding spirit at my side whose simple faith and clear home wisdom i had proved , beguiled my way} . [They]_7840-them awakened a tender emotion in [me]_0-i ; for [my]_0-i heart was softened by [my]_0-i return , and such a change had come to pass , that [I]_0-i felt like [one who was toiling [home]_4495-home barefoot from distant travel , and whose wanderings had lasted many years]_{7849-one who was toiling home barefoot from distant travel , and whose wanderings had lasted many years} . [The schoolhouse where [Biddy]_188-biddy was mistress [I]_0-i had never seen]_{7851-the schoolhouse where biddy was mistress i had never seen} ; but , [the little roundabout lane by which [I]_0-i entered [the village]_{758-the village}]_{7852-the little roundabout lane by which i entered the village} , for quietness ' sake , took [me]_0-i past [it]_{758-the village} . [I]_0-i was disappointed to find that the day was a holiday ; [no children]_{7854-no children} were [there]_4505-there , and [[Biddy]_188-biddy 's house]_{7856-biddy 's house} was closed . Some hopeful notion of seeing [her]_188-biddy , busily engaged in [her]_188-biddy daily duties , before [she]_188-biddy saw [me]_0-i , had been in [my]_0-i mind and was defeated . But [the forge]_{488-the forge} was a very short distance off , and [I]_0-i went towards [it]_{488-the forge} under the sweet green limes , listening for the clink of [Joe]_154-joe 's hammer . Long after [I]_0-i ought to have heard it , and long after [I]_0-i had fancied [I]_0-i heard it and found it but a fancy , all was still . The limes were there , and the white thorns were there , and the chestnut - trees were there , and their leaves rustled harmoniously when [I]_0-i stopped to listen ; but , the clink of [Joe]_154-joe 's hammer was not in the midsummer wind . Almost fearing , without knowing why , to come in view of [the forge]_{488-the forge} , [I]_0-i saw [it]_{488-the forge} at last , and saw that [it]_{488-the forge} was closed . No gleam of fire , no glittering shower of sparks , no roar of bellows ; all shut up , and still . But [the house]_{604-the house} was not deserted , and [the best parlor]_{5158-the best parlor} seemed to be in use , for there were white curtains fluttering in [its]_{5158-the best parlor} window , and the window was open and gay with flowers . [I]_0-i went softly towards [it]_{488-the forge} , meaning to peep over the flowers , when [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy stood before [me]_0-i , arm in arm . At first [Biddy]_188-biddy gave a cry , as if [she]_188-biddy thought it was [my]_0-i apparition , but in another moment [she]_188-biddy was in [my]_0-i embrace . [I]_0-i wept to see [her]_188-biddy , and [she]_188-biddy wept to see [me]_0-i ; [I]_0-i , because [she]_188-biddy looked so fresh and pleasant ; [she]_188-biddy , because [I]_0-i looked so worn and white . "_[0-i] But [dear Biddy]_188-biddy , how smart [you]_188-biddy are ! " "_[188-biddy] Yes , [dear Pip]_241-pip . " "_[188-biddy] And [Joe]_154-joe , how smart [you]_188-biddy are ! " "_[154-joe] Yes , [dear old Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} . " [I]_{4500-old chap} looked at both of [them]_7861-them , from one to the other , and then - "_{[4500-old chap]} It 's [my]_0-i wedding - day ! " cried [Biddy]_188-biddy , in a burst of happiness , "_{[4500-old chap]} and [I]_0-i am married to [Joe]_154-joe ! " [They]_7861-them had taken [me]_{4500-old chap} into [the kitchen]_{489-the kitchen} , and [I]_{4500-old chap} had laid [my]_{4500-old chap} head down on the old deal table . [Biddy]_188-biddy held one of [my]_{4500-old chap} hands to [her]_188-biddy lips , and [Joe]_154-joe 's restoring touch was on [my]_{4500-old chap} shoulder . "_{[4500-old chap]} Which [he]_{4500-old chap} warn't strong enough , [[my]_0-i dear]_{4893-my dear} , fur to be surprised , " said [Joe]_154-joe . And [Biddy]_188-biddy said , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ought to have thought of it , [dear Joe]_154-joe , but [I]_0-i was too happy . " [They]_7861-them were both so overjoyed to see [me]_0-i , so proud to see [me]_0-i , so touched by [my]_0-i coming to [them]_7861-them , so delighted that [I]_0-i should have come by accident to make [their]_7861-them day complete ! [My]_0-i first thought was one of great thankfulness that [I]_0-i had never breathed this last baffled hope to [Joe]_154-joe . How often , while [he]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} was with [me]_0-i in [my]_0-i illness , had it risen to [my]_0-i lips ! How irrevocable would have been [his]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} knowledge of it , if [he]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} had remained with [me]_0-i but another hour ! "_[0-i] [Dear Biddy]_188-biddy , " said [I]_188-biddy , "_[188-biddy] [you]_188-biddy have [the best husband in [the whole world]_{6365-the whole world}]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} , and if [you]_188-biddy could have seen [him]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} by [my]_0-i bed [you]_188-biddy would have - But no , [you]_188-biddy could n't love [him]_{4397-the best husband in the whole world} better than [you]_188-biddy do . " "_[188-biddy] No , [I]_0-i could n't indeed , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[0-i] And , [dear Joe]_154-joe , [you]_154-joe have [the best wife in [the whole world]_{6365-the whole world}]_{4399-the best wife in the whole world} , and [she]_{4399-the best wife in the whole world} will make [you]_154-joe as happy as even [you]_154-joe deserve to be , [[you]_154-joe dear , good , noble [Joe]_154-joe]_{4401-you dear , good , noble joe} ! " [Joe]_154-joe looked at [me]_{4399-the best wife in the whole world} with a quivering lip , and fairly put [his]_0-i sleeve before [his]_0-i eyes . "_{[4399-the best wife in the whole world]} And [Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy both , as [you]_188-biddy have been to [church]_622-church to - day , and are in charity and love with [all mankind]_{3625-all mankind} , receive [my]_0-i humble thanks for all [you]_188-biddy have done for [me]_0-i , and all [I]_0-i have so ill repaid ! And when [I]_0-i say that [I]_0-i am going away within the hour , for [I]_0-i am soon going abroad , and that [I]_0-i shall never rest until [I]_0-i have worked for the money with which [you]_188-biddy have kept [me]_0-i out of [prison]_7617-prison , and have sent it to [you]_188-biddy , do n't think , [dear Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy , that if [I]_0-i could repay it a thousand times over , [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i could cancel a farthing of the debt [I]_0-i owe [you]_188-biddy , or that [I]_0-i would do so if [I]_0-i could ! " [They]_7863-they were both melted by these words , and both entreated [me]_0-i to say no more . "_[0-i] But [I]_0-i must say more . [Dear Joe]_154-joe , [I]_0-i hope [you]_188-biddy will have [children to love]_{4405-children to love} , and that [some little fellow]_{4406-some little fellow} will sit in this chimney - corner of a winter night , who may remind [you]_188-biddy of [another little fellow gone out of it for ever]_{4407-another little fellow gone out of it for ever} . Do n't tell [him]_{4406-some little fellow} , [Joe]_154-joe , that [I]_0-i was thankless ; do n't tell [him]_{4406-some little fellow} , [Biddy]_188-biddy , that [I]_0-i was ungenerous and unjust ; only tell [him]_{4406-some little fellow} that [I]_0-i honored [you]_188-biddy both , because [you]_188-biddy were both so good and true , and that , as [[your]_188-biddy child]_{3830-your child} , [I]_0-i said it would be natural to [him]_{4406-some little fellow} to grow up [a much better man]_{4409-a much better man} than [I]_0-i did . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ai n't a going , " said [Joe]_154-joe , from behind [his]_0-i sleeve , "_[0-i] to tell [him]_{4406-some little fellow} nothink o ' that natur , [Pip]_241-pip . Nor [Biddy]_188-biddy ai n't . Nor yet [no one ai n't]_{4410-no one ai n't} . " "_{[4410-no one ai n't]} And now , though [I]_0-i know [you]_188-biddy have already done it in [your]_188-biddy own kind hearts , pray tell [me]_0-i , [both]_816-both , that [you]_188-biddy forgive [me]_0-i ! Pray let [me]_0-i hear [you]_188-biddy say the words , that [I]_0-i may carry the sound of them away with [me]_0-i , and then [I]_0-i shall be able to believe that [you]_188-biddy can trust [me]_0-i , and think better of [me]_0-i , in the time to come ! " "_{[4500-old chap]} O dear old [Pip]_241-pip , [old chap]_{4500-old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe . "_[241-pip] [God]_192-god knows as [I]_0-i forgive [you]_241-pip , if [I]_0-i have anythink to forgive ! " "_[192-god] Amen ! And [God]_192-god knows [I]_0-i do ! " echoed [Biddy]_188-biddy . "_[192-god] Now let [me]_0-i go up and look at [[my]_0-i old little room]_{4413-my old little room} , and rest there a few minutes by [myself]_0-i . And then , when [I]_0-i have eaten and drunk with [you]_188-biddy , go with [me]_0-i as far as the finger - post , [dear Joe]_154-joe and [Biddy]_188-biddy , before [we]_4414-we say good by ! " [I]_4415-i sold all [I]_4415-i had , and put aside as much as [I]_4415-i could , for a composition with [[my]_4415-i creditors]_{7864-my creditors} , - who gave [me]_4415-i ample time to pay [them]_{7864-my creditors} in full , - and [I]_4415-i went out and joined [Herbert]_265-herbert . Within a month , [I]_4415-i had quitted [England]_7-england , and within two months [I]_4415-i was clerk to [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} and [Co.]_330-co. , and within four months [I]_4415-i assumed [my]_4415-i first undivided responsibility . For the beam across the parlor ceiling at [Mill Pond Bank]_{121-mill pond bank} had then ceased to tremble under [old Bill Barley]_{377-old bill barley} 's growls and was at peace , and [Herbert]_265-herbert had gone away to marry [Clara]_311-clara , and [I]_4415-i was left in sole charge of [the Eastern Branch]_{7865-the eastern branch} until [he]_265-herbert brought [her]_311-clara back . Many a year went round before [I]_4415-i was [a partner in [the House]_{604-the house}]_{7866-a partner in the house} ; but [I]_4415-i lived happily with [Herbert]_265-herbert and [[his]_265-herbert wife]_{1585-his wife} , and lived frugally , and paid [my]_4415-i debts , and maintained a constant correspondence with [Biddy]_188-biddy and [Joe]_154-joe . It was not until [I]_4415-i became third in [the Firm]_{7869-the firm} , that [Clarriker]_{336-clarriker} betrayed [me]_4415-i to [Herbert]_265-herbert ; but [he]_{336-clarriker} then declared that the secret of [Herbert]_265-herbert 's partnership had been long enough upon [his]_{336-clarriker} conscience , and [he]_{336-clarriker} must tell it . So [he]_{336-clarriker} told it , and [Herbert]_265-herbert was as much moved as amazed , and [the dear fellow]_{4693-the dear fellow} and [I]_4415-i were not [the worse friends for the long concealment]_{7871-the worse friends for the long concealment} . [I]_4415-i must not leave it to be supposed that [we]_7872-we were ever [a great House]_{7873-a great house} , or that [we]_7872-we made mints of money . [We]_7872-we were not in a grand way of business , but [we]_7872-we had a good name , and worked for [our]_7872-we profits , and did very well . [We]_7872-we owed so much to [Herbert]_265-herbert 's ever cheerful industry and readiness , that [I]_4415-i often wondered how [I]_4415-i had conceived that old idea of [his]_265-herbert inaptitude , until [I]_4415-i was one day enlightened by the reflection , that perhaps the inaptitude had never been in [him]_265-herbert at all , but had been in [me]_4415-i . [Chapter LIX]_{399-chapter lix} For eleven years , [I]_4415-i had not seen [Joe]_154-joe nor [Biddy]_188-biddy with [my]_4415-i bodily Eyes , - though [they]_7874-they had both been often before [my]_4415-i fancy in [the East]_{94-the east} , - when , upon an evening in December , an hour or two after dark , [I]_4415-i laid [my]_4415-i hand softly on the latch of the old kitchen door . [I]_4415-i touched it so softly that [I]_4415-i was not heard , and looked in unseen . There , smoking [his]_265-herbert pipe in [the old place]_{4338-the old place} by the [kitchen firelight]_{7876-kitchen firelight} , as hale and as strong as ever , though a little gray , sat [Joe]_154-joe ; and there , fenced into the corner with [Joe]_154-joe 's leg , and sitting on [my]_4415-i own little stool looking at the fire , was - [I]_4415-i again ! "_[4415-i] [We]_4415-i giv ' [him]_4416-him the name of [Pip]_241-pip for [your]_4417-your sake , [dear old chap]_{2280-dear old chap} , " said [Joe]_154-joe , delighted , when [I]_4415-i took another stool by [the child]_{1037-the child} 's side but [I]_4415-i did not rumple [his]_4416-him hair , "_[4415-i] and [we]_4415-i hoped [he]_4416-him might grow a little bit like [you]_4417-your , and [we]_4415-i think [he]_4416-him do . " [I]_188-biddy thought so too , and [I]_188-biddy took [him]_4416-him out for a walk next morning , and [we]_4415-i talked immensely , understanding [one another]_{4584-one another} to perfection . And [I]_188-biddy took [him]_4416-him down to [the churchyard]_{417-the churchyard} , and set [him]_4416-him on a certain tombstone there , and [he]_4416-him showed [me]_188-biddy from that elevation which stone was sacred to the memory of [Philip Pirrip]_241-pip , [late of [this Parish]_{418-this parish}]_{4465-late of this parish} , and Also [Georgiana]_{395-georgiana m'ria} , [Wife of the Above]_{890-wife of the above} . "_[188-biddy] [Biddy]_188-biddy , " said [I]_188-biddy , when [I]_188-biddy talked with [her]_188-biddy after dinner , as [[her]_188-biddy little girl]_{7883-her little girl} lay sleeping in [her]_188-biddy lap , "_[188-biddy] [you]_188-biddy must give [Pip]_241-pip to [me]_0-i one of these days ; or lend [him]_241-pip , at all events . " "_[188-biddy] No , no , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy , gently . "_[188-biddy] [You]_188-biddy must marry . " "_[188-biddy] So [Herbert]_265-herbert and [Clara]_311-clara say , but [I]_0-i do n't think [I]_0-i shall , [Biddy]_188-biddy . [I]_0-i have so settled down in [[their]_4419-their home]_{4420-their home} , that it 's not at all likely . [I]_0-i am already quite [an old bachelor]_{4421-an old bachelor} . " [Biddy]_188-biddy looked down at [[her]_188-biddy child]_{3721-her child} , and put its little hand to [her]_188-biddy lips , and then put the good matronly hand with which [she]_188-biddy had touched it into [mine]_7885-mine . There was something in the action , and in the light pressure of [Biddy]_188-biddy 's wedding - ring , that had a very pretty eloquence in it . "_{[4421-an old bachelor]} [Dear Pip]_241-pip , " said [Biddy]_188-biddy , "_[241-pip] [you]_241-pip are sure [you]_241-pip do n't fret for [her]_4422-her ? " "_[241-pip] O no , - [I]_0-i think not , [Biddy]_188-biddy . " "_[188-biddy] Tell [me]_0-i as [an old , old friend]_{4423-an old , old friend} . Have [you]_188-biddy quite forgotten [her]_4422-her ? " [[My]_188-biddy dear]_{4893-my dear} [Biddy]_188-biddy , [I]_188-biddy have forgotten nothing in [my]_188-biddy life that ever had a foremost place [there]_4505-there , and little that ever had any place there . But that poor dream , as [I]_188-biddy once used to call it , has all gone by , [Biddy]_188-biddy , - all gone by ! "_[188-biddy] Nevertheless , [I]_0-i knew , while [I]_0-i said those words , that [I]_0-i secretly intended to revisit [the site of [the old house]_{4425-the old house}]_{4424-the site of the old house} that evening , alone , for [her]_4422-her sake . Yes , even so . For [Estella]_195-estella 's sake . [I]_0-i had heard of [her]_4422-her as leading a most unhappy life , and as being separated from [[her]_4422-her husband]_{473-her husband} , who had used [her]_4422-her with great cruelty , and who had become quite renowned as [a compound of pride , avarice , brutality , and meanness]_{4427-a compound of pride , avarice , brutality , and meanness} . And [I]_0-i had heard of the death of [[her]_4422-her husband]_{473-her husband} , from an accident consequent on [his]_{473-her husband} ill - treatment of a horse . This release had befallen [her]_4422-her some two years before ; for anything [I]_0-i knew , [she]_4422-her was married again . The early dinner hour at [[Joe]_154-joe 's]_{4429-joe 's} , left [me]_0-i abundance of time , without hurrying [my]_0-i talk with [Biddy]_188-biddy , to walk over to [the old spot]_{4430-the old spot} before dark . But , what with loitering on the way to look at old objects and to think of old times , the day had quite declined when [I]_0-i came to [the place]_{4456-the place} . There was [no house]_{4432-no house} now , [no brewery]_{4433-no brewery} , no building whatever left , but the wall of [the old garden]_{4434-the old garden} . [The cleared space]_{4435-the cleared space} had been enclosed with a rough fence , and looking over [it]_{4435-the cleared space} , [I]_0-i saw that some of the old ivy had struck root anew , and was growing green on low quiet mounds of ruin . A gate in the fence standing ajar , [I]_0-i pushed it open , and went in . A cold silvery mist had veiled the afternoon , and the moon was not yet up to scatter it . But , the stars were shining beyond the mist , and the moon was coming , and the evening was not dark . [I]_0-i could trace out where every part of [the old house]_{4425-the old house} had been , and where [the brewery]_{4856-the brewery} had been , and where the gates , and where the casks . [I]_0-i had done so , and was looking along [the desolate garden walk]_{4438-the desolate garden walk} , when [I]_0-i beheld a solitary figure in it . The figure showed [itself]_4439-itself aware of [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i advanced . It had been moving towards [me]_0-i , but it stood still . As [I]_0-i drew nearer , [I]_0-i saw it to be the figure of [a woman]_{943-a woman} . As [I]_0-i drew nearer yet , it was about to turn away , when it stopped , and let [me]_0-i come up with it . Then , it faltered , as if much surprised , and uttered [my]_0-i name , and [I]_0-i cried out , - " [Estella]_195-estella ! "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am greatly changed . [I]_0-i wonder [you]_0-i know [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] The freshness of [her]_{943-a woman} beauty was indeed gone , but its indescribable majesty and its indescribable charm remained . Those attractions in it , [I]_0-i had seen before ; what [I]_0-i had never seen before , was the saddened , softened light of the once proud eyes ; what [I]_0-i had never felt before was the friendly touch of the once insensible hand . [We]_4441-we sat down on a bench that was near , and [I]_0-i said , " After so many years , it is strange that [we]_4441-we should thus meet again , [Estella]_195-estella , here where [our]_4441-we first meeting was ! Do [you]_195-estella often come back ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i have never been [here]_693-here since . "_[0-i] " Nor [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] The moon began to rise , and [I]_0-i thought of the placid look at the white ceiling , which had passed away . The moon began to rise , and [I]_0-i thought of the pressure on [my]_0-i hand when [I]_0-i had spoken the last words [he]_4442-he had heard on [earth]_6816-earth . [Estella]_195-estella was the next to break the silence that ensued between [us]_4441-we . " [I]_195-estella have very often hoped and intended to come back , but have been prevented by many circumstances . [Poor , poor old place]_{7889-poor , poor old place} ! "_{[195-estella]} The silvery mist was touched with the first rays of the moonlight , and the same rays touched the tears that dropped from [her]_195-estella eyes . Not knowing that [I]_0-i saw them , and setting [herself]_195-estella to get the better of [them]_4444-them , [she]_195-estella said quietly , - " Were [you]_0-i wondering , as [you]_0-i walked along , how it came to be left in this condition ? "_{[195-estella]} " Yes , [Estella]_195-estella . "_{[195-estella]} " [The ground]_{7890-the ground} belongs to [me]_195-estella . It is the only possession [I]_195-estella have not relinquished . Everything else has gone from [me]_195-estella , little by little , but [I]_195-estella have kept this . It was the subject of the only determined resistance [I]_195-estella made in all the wretched years . "_{[195-estella]} " Is it to be built on ? "_{[195-estella]} " At last , it is . [I]_195-estella came here to take leave of [it]_{7890-the ground} before its change . And [you]_0-i , "_{[195-estella]} [she]_195-estella said , in a voice of touching interest to [a wanderer]_{4445-a wanderer} , - " [you]_0-i live abroad still ? "_{[195-estella]} " Still . "_{[195-estella]} " And do well , [I]_195-estella am sure ? "_{[195-estella]} " [I]_195-estella work pretty hard for a sufficient living , and therefore - yes , [I]_195-estella do well . "_{[195-estella]} " [I]_195-estella have often thought of [you]_0-i , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . " Have [you]_0-i ? "_{[195-estella]} " Of late , very often . There was a long hard time when [I]_195-estella kept far from [me]_195-estella the remembrance of what [I]_195-estella had thrown away when [I]_195-estella was quite ignorant of its worth . But since [my]_195-estella duty has not been incompatible with the admission of that remembrance , [I]_195-estella have given it a place in [my]_195-estella heart . "_{[195-estella]} " [You]_195-estella have always held [your]_195-estella place in [my]_0-i heart , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered . And [we]_4446-we were silent again until [she]_195-estella spoke . " [I]_195-estella little thought , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella , " that [I]_195-estella should take leave of [you]_0-i in taking leave of [this spot]_{2174-this spot} . [I]_195-estella am very glad to do so . "_{[195-estella]} " Glad to part again , [Estella]_195-estella ? To [me]_195-estella , parting is a painful thing . To [me]_195-estella , the remembrance of [our]_4446-we last parting has been ever mournful and painful . "_{[195-estella]} " But [you]_0-i said to [me]_195-estella , "_{[195-estella]} returned [Estella]_195-estella , very earnestly , " ' God bless [you]_0-i , [God]_192-god forgive [you]_0-i ! ' And if [you]_0-i could say that to [me]_195-estella then , [you]_0-i will not hesitate to say that to [me]_195-estella now , - now , when suffering has been stronger than all other teaching , and has taught [me]_195-estella to understand what [your]_0-i heart used to be . [I]_195-estella have been bent and broken , but - [I]_195-estella hope - into a better shape . Be as considerate and good to [me]_195-estella as [you]_0-i were , and tell [me]_195-estella [we]_7892-we are [friends]_4514-friends . "_{[195-estella]} " [We]_7892-we are [friends]_4514-friends , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , rising and bending over [her]_195-estella , as [she]_195-estella rose from the bench . " And will continue [friends]_4514-friends apart , "_{[195-estella]} said [Estella]_195-estella . [I]_0-i took [her]_195-estella hand in [mine]_0-i , and [we]_4447-we went out of [the ruined place]_{4448-the ruined place} ; and , as the morning mists had risen long ago when [I]_0-i first left [the forge]_{488-the forge} , so the evening mists were rising now , and in all the broad expanse of tranquil light they showed to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i saw no shadow of another parting from [her]_195-estella .